Yup. I know too well & that's why I'm super protective of my children. I don't trust anyone & my husband doesn't either & that's why I'm a stay at home mom.
Maxine Mc Inerney because their scared, humiliated and traumatized - is that so hard to understand? I didn’t even know I had a voice, much less support by others to do so. Don’t blame the victims!
it happens in every family somewhere but they always hide it, we don't have addicts everywhere for no reason, and mental health crisis, the sex trade is such a big business it never stops because its powerful people who cover it up, so much evil
Yes !! Let's send send that love around in a big circle spreading light and love to all who need it. This is happening Worldwide for a reason. So let the love flow to ease their pain and open their eyes to the truth. God bless all Survivors with Discernment. This has to end.
Lori Miller Absolutely. This is is rampant in our society and only by exposing it can we STOP IT. God bless u for ur empathic sentiments. Happy new year to you.
While these men have pleasure from dumping in some childs rear. I'm am longer attracted to any man since the rise and increase awareness of pedophiles. There are too many men who joke around other men about their perversion and these so called "good men" say and do nothing. Many men have the propensity to put their thing in any orifice in any human if they can get away with it. I'm done being intimate. I like men as friends but that's it.
@@theresag1969 I feel you. Men can be absolutely horrible, make life a living hell. I always say men will put their "thing" in an electrical outlet if it wouldn't shock'im to death! Lol
@@wb4190 You never know about their perversion since most men have a secret life, either in reality or in their head. I'm not going to be one of those women who will find out in the most horrible way.
I hate what one vile damning act an adult can do to an innocent child that changes the course of their life forever. GOD bless all the victims of sexual abuse and may you all find total healing.
Thank you for your words, Karen! As a survivor, myself, you said it perfectly. These innocent victims must believe they are still perfect, precious and loved by a Heavenly Father who will never leave them
@@debbie5699 I'm sorry what happened to you. I'm joyful you trust in the only one able to heal, and bring you through to live your life here on earth, trusting Him. GOD shine His healing light on you forever😇
@Dianna Smith thank you. My mom has said before that because she had a. Stroke she needs everyone to help her as she is in the worst pain. I am sure it is hard for her to accept the person she fell in love with wants me and not her. I hate Saying those words so ugly together. I honestly feel more damage between me and my mom than my father. I love her so much and I know I will never have it reciprocated. My siblings see it and try to be there extra for me. I hate 100% to know my mom sees me as the other women. Breaks my heart. I used to sell drugs a lot and I would take my mom shopping for homes. In high school I tried being perfect student extra hard so I could feel she would be proud of me. I was chasing love from her. It is why I can not date I dont believe when ppl love me. I have abandonment issues to say the least. I cry when ppl gift me things I can't take it. I dont sell drugs now I have found Jesus Christ and I gave my soul to my King. I used to give my mom like $1000 a day. And we would be good npt friends and when i stopped everything got worse.
I'm so sorry, I have a 9 year old son, I can't, I would be on a murderous rampage. You are unbelievably appreciated for sharing this. Most boys/men NEVER DO! This is helping a boy, even just one, I'm so sorry.
I'm so happy to hear how overprotective you are over your son❣ I have two teenagers. I'm 37 in April, had my son at 18, daughter at twenty. I was the same way.. no ONE except my mother, husband, or my mother in law could watch mines growing up. I have an Uncle who use to live here in California. (MY DECEASED FATHER'S BROTHER) Who molested and was convicted of doing this crime on a public transportation system used called Bart...kind of like the subway in New York, there were cameras of course and the police stopped the bart Train and kept everyone on until the police got there and arrested him. Guess who saved him? My church, holy grandparents moved their pedophile son Alll the way to Arlington Tx. He has the same last name as me because this is my Father's Brother. If my dad was alive, man oh man he would of probably killed him. Public info his name is Torris Vozell Powers.....it's free...soon as you type in his name on Google....these weird, hideous, duranged looking mug shots pop up
@@corenpowers419 I've learned unfortunately the only thing you could do sometimes is just speak up and keep repeating your story great if someone don't like it too bad. God bless you
I'm the only one who watches my grandsons. The only one. God bless you. I've got four nice grandsons. I protect them just like they were my granddaughters. I've had a lot of problems in my life protecting my kids. But that's okay it was worth it all. That's why I have grandchildren now. God bless you could never protect your child too much if it's true protection. Nobody is above suspicion the nicer they are the easier it is to fall.
Ikr, it would be a difficult choice to make. Murder and torture the bastard and spend life in prison unable to support/protect your victimized child..or put your faith in justice system and be with your child when they need you most. My simple solution would be let dad (one of the good strong protective men these ladies think dont exist) handle it..and visit him often till hes out. I love men.
@@unknown-zf4lt myself I took care of it myself. You can't trust legal system to do justice. You can't protect your child at any point in life just by wishing. No I found out the hard way when my fourteen-year-old daughter was picked up by her head and choked till blood come out of her throat. That's what I made my decision. I saved everybody. Also lost my home my father died the children's dad died that year, and I spent 312 days in jail waiting for the law to call me to court so they could do their Justice. I was sentenced to a 30 day sentence. You don't never trust the law you take care of it. You take care of it right the first time. You don't write a book report on it pretend you don't ask permission. It's got nothing to do with murder. Now the children are grown they're all well-to-do I have four lovely grandsons. But the person who I didn't kill. Set real pretty right now I put them in God's hands. Things should be taken care of and Families correctly you can't always trust individuals that you think you can. That's why you don't write a book report. You don't make flashcards you take care of it the way you should take care of it. hurting another human being is the worst thing you can ever do. That's why I'm a swordsman now I live next door to the man. He treats me with great respect LOL I also know he's schizophrenic. And I watch him like a hawk why cuz he's the first person to ever touch me at 4 years old and nobody's ever done a damn thing. but that's why I do what God tells me. You never contemplate murder that's a sin. And you never asked another person to carry or send for you. do I live in a van do I live alone do I have PTSD. Bet your sweet bippy I do am I in control. You bet your sweet bippy I am. I got real serious when it comes to children. the preacher who touched them in next door recently died. There was celebration. The preacher did it he started it in 1963. Molestation and rape is bad but when it's homosexuality it takes the mind out. That's what happened to the man next door and nobody helped him his whole life. So I saved his life one day when he tried to take my child. God is good. You never contemplate murder. I did want she once worth it. So I sent the husband away. You never contemplate murder.
None of them ever said, so I can only speculate. I imagine the loss of respectability, the destruction of the family dynamic, and whatever else I don't know. But it would be something hard to face. Think about your friends and neighbors finding out what was going on. I read this book about a girl who suffered ongoing sexual abuse from her stepdad. The book implied that the stepdad bought off her mother by giving her toney credit cards and access to whatever material goods she wanted. It would be something that would be so easy to lie to yourself about. It would be so easy to stick your head in the sand.
Tom Palmer No, it would not be easy to lie to yourself about, if you are a half decent human. Those women were sociopaths or narcissists! I could not simply be able to imagine allowing this to happen to my children. I can make my own money, I would live dirt poor if I had no other choice.
You were a child, never a coward. I am that mother... as I said to my son, I say to you, "you've done nothing wrong. I am so sorry I could not help you. I am so proud of you for telling, for being brave enough and strong enough to to tell." Thank you for each shared experience. My love and respect to all.
I'm 67-year-old woman and it took a long time and with the help of the Lord I did make it through. I forgave my stepfather a long time ago but it's been quite a journey trying to not think about it all the time . But I'm glad that Lord healed me and again it's been a rough road but a rewarding one.
When you say you forgave him I hope you never left anyone else in danger, but I can't judge you because I have no idea what trama you went through, Jesus has your back, god bless you
How anyone could hold a knife to a child's face & sexually assault them and then act like they were friends is just... terrifying. And depraved. How do violence, sex & children even get mixed up in someone's mind like that? They deserve death. There's no fixing that. This man has such a sweet spirit...both of them actually. Thanks for sharing your stories.
Wishing someone death is incredibly violent. We need to stop pointing fingers outward and start looking inward at our own violent tendencies and how they contribute to the world's problems.
Look too that person's own childhood. That doesn't excuse it because everyone has a choice too either be a victim and survivor and they get help or they don't and become a victimizer themselves. We really have too start looking at ourselves and what role society plays in these things... We sexualize everything and it's everywhere so you see it from a young age, graphic porn can be freely viewed as much as they want from a young age, we also make sex something scandalous we should be ashamed of as well if you have questions, weird thoughts bc you feel like you can't tell anyone or you'll be exposed and ridiculed or that it's shameful, we also don't support men and any issues they have... We don't look at what fatherless homes anf being raised solely by women does too them, mental health, sexual health, we reward them for how many woman they sleep with yet judge and ridicule women for the same behavior etc. Point blank we need better education, mental health services and transparency. But we won't even admit there's a problem in our society, let alone coming up with solutions and having the ability too fix it....
You're right. The abusers are damaged goods. It's said that abusers were also abused. They are acting out because their internal issues haven't been resolved. If we don't stop this cancer, it will destroy us. It's a worldwide problem.
As a survivor I know exactly what happens afterwards to those who unfortunately fall prey to perverts They will do unimaginable things to children who know nothing about it
I survived sexual abuse from a male relative, I was 10. It has taken almost 2 years of intense therapy. I survived the incest, shame and have finally spoken up. I still deal with ptsd but I am well on my way to possibly live a normal life. Thank you for speaking up and speaking for everyone suffering in silence.
so sorry. Your were a child who did not know what it all meant. As a child, you don't have the experience or self knowledge to say "No". You are conditioned to obey bigger people no matter what. And no matter what your actions, feelings or thoughts, then or now, It was NOT Your fault. You are still a wonderful human who deserves nothing but good.
abcd 1234 if you just want someone to talk to I'm in uk you can speak by email if it will help you, I just know that getting things out of your head helps, from my own experiences, I'm not a professional or anything but I have got the ability to listen. I know it will be very difficult for you. But I know just how speaking to others about issues or experiences does help. Whatever happened to you is never your fault. You have nothing to feel ashamed about. But whatever happened took something from you, how much has it taken from you? Speak to someone let it out, get some help, you need to feel good about you. You must get help as long as you keep it in you don't heal.
Laura King shut up! These stupid, inane “RUclips comment” prayers and pleas to your god are WORTHLESS! Pray in your home! NOT on a Internet forum! Have some damn dignity!
@@BobbedMcBob self righteous witch you think you are dignified? Honey you are a far cry from. But keep your legs together so nothing else can come out turn out the way you did talk about self righteous
@@lynnhathaway3755 this is Satans world. How many times have you done things when you dont want God to interfere in your life? He gives us free reign right now and we have to want to live Gods ways at all times and then when we ask we shall receive. If this world was great we would never want the coming kingdom.
You talking about your so said god is just bloody nonesense. All this tosh helped and still helps many peadophiles going on with their disgusting activities. So please do not lecture people about what they should think or do. Just leave them alone! I’m another C-PTSD sufferer and admin on a group (with thousands of followers) about this since like 12yrs and I don’t believe you can even start imagining how what you’re writing can hurt some of these sufferers. So please keep your god and ideas to yourself because it can be extremely taunting for LOTS of folks out there! Thank you in advance.
I went through this when I was 6yrs of age at a Bible school!! It broke my life and then at 11 my bother try to rape me!!! I lived a difficult life with hate I try to commit suicide at 16 and 25!! In the yr 2012 I met Jesus!! For the first time I felt free of a burden I was carrying!!! I learned that to forgive is for our healing..... I'm happy now and anyone that went through this Jesus can heal your heart! To any victim don't feel guilty!!! Forgive that evil person it helps to heal use a negative experience to help others......
It’s hard to know how such evil exists but these predators will be held accountable by God. I pray daily for innocent children because this is a big problem. No one should ever have to go through something like that.
They need to be held accountable right here on Earth! They need to be removed from society to prevent them to harm another child. Pedophiles never stop, and theyre never rehabilitated.
Why doesn't God intervene before the crime is committed? I was hoping for a saviour, but he didn't come when I asked for help when it was happening, guess he's doesn't care about children or me, What. But thank God he's there to heal us, but protection isn't part of it. Negligence is a criminal act. Is God bieng negligent in allowing this to happen? I think so.
Similar; all my life, one way or another. But want to share that support groups & therapy have helped a lot & are a great part of why I am alive & as functional as I am today. Just found out someone has started an Incest Survivors mtng. I can get to & I'm so excited - it won't be easy - these small groups rarely are - but I am nowhere near finished working through the damage & some of my reactive behaviors to it. And just to be in a group where I can speak the truth. Anyway, just throwing that out there.
I really respect you for coming out and telling your story. Don't ever feel your coward your a strong man and most of all a survivor 💪 god bless you always.
I have no forgiveness and will never forget. I have no mercy for these monsters that kill children's souls. For I am one that have had my soul murdered. My heart is broken. Every day is a struggle. I am a Survivor. I am a good, kind loving person despite what I've gone threw. Make no mistake my walls are always.
so sorry. As a child, you don't have the experience or self knowledge to say "No". You are conditioned to obey bigger people no matter what. And no matter what your actions, feelings or thoughts, then or now, It was NOT Your fault. You are a wonderful human who deserves nothing but good.
My soul was murdered too. I have been through an unbelievable hell because of one such monster. I can’t feel my body ever. Every day is filled with pain. I’m so sorry you know what that feels like. It’s evil.
What the fuck is up with Catholic priest they must trained rapist every story is same it the Catholic priest is the devil reincarnated im convinced its 😥
There are no words to say how much these kind of stories hurt me, my heart goes out to all of you that have been abused, God give you justice for what was done. An eye for an eye.😥💖🙏
My heart goes out to you both! I have my own stories to tell, but I've worked hard to get through the pain, shame, depression, and anxiety. It never leaves me...totally.
Awh Michael, thank you so much for your story and helping others grow from your experience. This is so hard for victims to talk about - especially for men who are taught from a very young age that this is NOT okay. To see the beautiful smile on your face towards the end of the video and that you could forgive like you did. You have an absolutley beautiful smile that goes along with that incredible heart and soul you have my man. Thank you for being so brave to tell your story. Boys are taught not to talk about this stuff and we all need to talk about this - and we all need to make it stop going forward. You are healing many with your message. Thank you Michael, tears for all that this happens to and much love in my heart for brothers like you in our world out there raising awareness about this!!! Many many blessings to you all your life.
Thank you so much for sharing this!! Both of you are helping so many, your bravery is admirable!! May your abusers rot in hell!! They are the devil in disguise, God Bless you both 😢😢🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
It’s pains me that he talks about ‘feeling guilt and shame’ and yet we all know that abuser felt nothing beyond arousal with ‘the power over’ he had with this little boy. VICTIMS feel what the abusers SHOULD feel but don’t, is the painful crux of this. Anyone reading this that we’re abused, please ask for help until you find it. Don’t give up--it is never your fault💕💗
Michael & Knight my heart goes out to u both.It amazes me the strength, courage & forgiveness you both have.May the Lord look after u both foreva & eva.
I do take some comfort in knowing that when pedophiles get to prison, they live hell on earth. They are surrounded by angry, criminal men with troubled childhoods -- often men who were once victims themselves, and now with little to lose.
@Just Moi exactly. A predator I know abused several boys and girls. He went to jail for 9 months! After all the hell the kids went through in telling their stories and reliving the abuse! This is why kids (and parents) dont tell.
@Just Moi it's because there are a lot of Nazis running around and a lot of satanists and transgenders too. Both were involved with the MKUltra program
@Just Moi Hi, Ive reposted this to Facebook...one thing...none of the photos of the officers attached to the articles are showing...can you repost and resend again...its important to see their faces!
Michael and Knight thank you so very much for your bravery in sharing. The more we speak up about the atrocities that happen to us, the more predators of childhood sexual crimes will be uncovered. Bravo!
I'm so sorry this happened to you. But what's worst is that epitome of Evil, this monster who preys on the innocent, will definitely get his karma😡. I'm so elated you found love, a great career, a good life. Your not a victim,...your a victor❤❣🤗
Thank you for sharing.the honesty, the pauses that tell us it was real and still hurt, they give us courage to understand and to help others. Thank you.
Then there would be no growth. I personally don't think eternal punishment would be of any benefit. A loving God, like a loving Parent wants you to learn and grow and become a better person. Where is Freewill if you will be punished ? I just don't think it's so cut and dried.
@@lorimiller4301 Well put. I don't believe in god. I think eternal damnation is something that was made up long ago to make people feel that the evil get punished.
Knight is an incredible man; a hero to humanity. You have a beautiful voice my dear man and it compels people to hear you. You are healing many with your words here. Thanks for doing the hard work to put the shame of this behind you. That work is not easy - not easy at all. You are healing many humans who have not had a voice to talk about this by telling your story. A natural born healer. You are incredible. Thank You.
I'm so sorry sir I wish I could help you. Coward you are not sir. I'm so so so sorry that evil man did that to you. Im sending you my love for what that's worth!
Always teach your children not to respect elders. Teach them what respect is. Then teach them that they only need to respect those who respect them. And anyone else don't matter. Listen to them and always believe them. Believe it if your child's friend comes to you. Children do not know those things or learn them from story books they learn it if they live it. It is the job of humanity to do what ever you have to to protect.
Do not blindly believe as well but ALWAYS make sure and take serious things seriously! It is better be just be angry or annoyed about a lie than dismissing a child's cry for help!
I cried thinking of their pain, a familiar pain. I’m so fortunate that I did t have a lifetime of mental anguish after my brother stole my innocence while my mother sat in the other room ignoring the Creeking footsteps in our old house that led to my bedroom after swimming lessons. I’m stronger than others by the grace of God. I understand that sick disgusting feeling inside from the most painful act one can commit on a child. May the light from heavens shine forever on your shoulders and guide your pathway into love and self love forever. It’s not easy telling your story but so Incredibly healing once you do🙏🏼
I'm so fortunate and grateful that I didn't have to go through what too many people were put through. I hope you all find a way to heal and know that you are worthy of all the happiness in the world!
seems like the wisest people are the one's who suffer the most, but they learn about themselves from their pain, and they never put that pain on others.
Whew....the pain I know this man still has. My point of my book I'm writing is the child pays for the abuse of the pedophile for life! Absolutely no excuse for a child, then adult, to have to endure such hell. No child should be put thru the emotional torture. We never, "just get over it", nor can we "just let it go". We can learn to heal...but the past abuses never go away. Childhood innocence stolen by the selfish greed of sexual abusers damages one for life! 💔
Oh I feel so bad for young victims. It breaks my heart. Their innocence is stolen from them and life as they knew it changes. Children should not have to face their barbaric attackers in court! Hope some of these victims eventually find peace.
Its sad. There's evil clouds that persistently darken the Roman Catholic churches. The endless reports and number of victims are insane! The large churches represented community within communities. Churches gave Christain families (esp the large families), reassurance, guidance and a unique educational system. Those that dedicated their lives to Jesus and to teaching were highly respected...obviously to a level of fault. It was an idyllic tradition... offering religious education & sacraments with elementary education. Schools that were trusted completely. Teachers that were revered as holy. Now those "communities" have been desecrated beyond repair. Destroyed from within. The ornate "buildings" struggle. It is sad the very place that once offered faith continues to reveal suffering. How? Why? Its disgusting.
@@bettechantel112 It really is sad. It was actually exciting going to parochial grade school. The school I went to was FULL~ each grade had 2 rooms of 30 students, approx 480 students, staffed by School Sisters of Notre Dame, tuition free as parish funds were high. They were strict, but it was beneficial. The convent was filled to capacity. The activities after school were outstanding: 4-H, scouts,lots of fund-raisers,choir, music lessons( free voice, piano & guitar) boys and girl team sports, cheerleading, music & drama club, and best if all a HUGE gymnasium with a rare gymnastics coach for "gym teacher" . He had open gym every day after school.( he and his adult daughters staffed it) It was equipped with Pommel Horse, Still Rings, Vault, Parallel Bars, and Horizontal Bad, Uneven Bars, Balance Beam, high/low jumping, rope climbing. Each student 'tested out' on cartwheel, round off and hand spring. We had many talented gymnasts ready for HS. It was all happy memories....UNTIL years later and sadly stories did emerge. Now convent empty so converted to public apts. School merged with THREE other Catholic schools and total students enrolled is barely 100. An era lost....because of pervs.
Oh, how I know the feeling of shame that comes from childhood sexual abuse. In my 50’s I was in therapy to get me through my divorce..... dealing with this childhood trauma. My therapist said, “it wasn’t your fault, you were just a little girl”, I felt that shame leave me. Nobody ever told me that. I cried like there was no tomorrow as I released that shame. I’m now open and vocal about it hoping it will help others to release that shame.
Thank you for sharing your secret. And yes, I totally agree that a person NEEDS TO FORGIVE those that sinned against them! I had a different journey but I chose to forgive soon after. It didn't mean that I wanted to be best friends again. It didn't mean I wanted a close relationship again. It didn't mean I wanted to see them again. But it meant that I could go on and start the healing process. It certainly didn't mean I would ever forget either. It gave me the freedom to move on with my life, that I didn't have to live in a depressed state of life. I chose life that day, not death.
Michael, Knight you 2 are my heroes. Telling your stories may just save a child from a life of suffering. Sadly so many kids are abused and most don't ever speak out.
I’m so sorry you both have had to carry such a heavy burden! I hope you both understand that this was not either of your faults but the faults of grown sick men! I understand your pain because I also was molested through out my childhood and during my adolescence turned to drinking, drugs and being promiscuous. I didn’t think I was worthy of ANYONEs love ❤️ because I was “damaged goods and I was trying and doing anything I could to find SOMEONE to love me only to learn years later that I needed to learn how to love myself and to forgive myself for the shame and guilt caused by my molesters. I hope God gives you both peace and healing. As a child I couldn’t understand why God would let a child be hurt and I’ve since learned that We walk in the flesh and so our flesh suffers just like when Jesus walked in the flesh and the trials and tribulations he endured we to suffer in this walk. The greatest triumph we can give to our abusers is to not let their actions determine who we are or what our lives can be if we keep faith in our Lord he will bring us out of this pain and suffering to a peace like we’ve never felt before! Keep your faith ❤️ and don’t let the enemy win because our God is so much more powerful than ANYTHING the devil can throw at us. God bless you both. Praying for you both ❤️
For those of us who are survivors of childhood sexual abuse i just want to say i hope you too can find some peace I too carried this guilt around with me for many years until one day i realized my abusers used that guilt to control me, however the guilt was never mine to own, so i gave that shame back to those adults who had power over me and took advantage When i became an adult i had to forgive them, not for my abusers, but for myself, forgiveness is the gift i give myself so that i can lay this burden down, to continue to carry it i was infecting my soul... I am not saying that i cant be triggered or become angry but i am making an effort to heal and maybe in the process help others I hope we can all find peace but we must fight to change the laws so child molesters never get a second chance to hurt any child ever again
That is heartbreakingly scary, so sorry you had to go through that As a wee lil one myself around 4, I use to sneak out and go play in the snow in the middle of the frozen lake thru bushes and being so young I never thought about all the dangers out there but I ended up wandering back home locked up the house and went back to bed without incident. You take care and stay safe. Peace
Abusing a child is the most evil and horrid act... But the sad thing is ( and just as deplorable) when the System reacts with impunity- when law enforcement does nothing, when the perpetrators aren't prosecuted and allowed to hurt more children- this is all too often the case.
Thank you for sharing your stories. I also was the victim of a sexual predator, but thankfully he did not carry it very far. I am sorry for what your perpetrators put you through. It seems ironic yet fortunate that you two were brought together. It seems you are very good for each other, and can share feelings that many will not understand. It is important to get the knowledge out there. You may have saved many young people by your open honesty. Thank you again.
Almost 12 years ago, I was dating the girl I’m currently engaged to. She thought I was strange because I slept in my jeans and socks, would wake up and run out the door as quick as I could, never let her touch my unclothed body, and only spoke when spoken to. Survival mode since I could hold my own head up. 30 years old, and everyday the trauma gets worse. I don’t know how she puts up with me.
Being abused have an impact when you get older, I for example cringe when a male person touch me it just feel so uncomfortable and yes i blame myself for what happened
I used to do also. I blamed myself. Till one day the HS showed me a little 5 year old girl. He said would you blame her. I said no. Then the HS said,. Rita you are not to blame yourself anymore. You were only five when it started
It's never your fault when you are sexually abused I know because I was sexually abused by my dad from age 6-16 when people were starting to actually report it I told my school nurse dad spent 5 yrs in prison. I never really forgave him or trusted him again. He died in November 2018.
It is NEVER EVER your fault. These individuals are narcissistic, psychopaths and they just wait for anyone in their path. Release the shame, it is a burden that is not yours to carry any longer, have immense compassion for yourself. It is ok to feel rage, discust and everything else. I acknowledge your pain,...i have known it too. I am healing... and you can learn to trust again....in time.
@@koleencook1885 Same here But my dad is still alive and live with all family members but no one knows that he is criminal ..After age of 19 I told my mother but she also ignore this 😪😪😪😪😪😪
Much love and respect to you for coming out and telling this story. It couldn't have been easy. You were not a coward, you were a young boy. In those days, "things like that didn't happen"...... only they did. Prayers you heal over time.
Some people do not understand what the buttons are for. They dont want to LIKE a video about such horrible things because they think that will mean that they support the evil.
I so appreciate these two men. They ARE doing something about it. As children we had no real freedom to confront nor arrest those monsters, only adults can do that. So DO IT !
Very moving; very well done despite a bit of sort of cliched TV-news doc format/style. The second part nearly brought me to tears. thanks so much, & thank these survivors for the courage & faith.
Thank you for sharing because we need to help people with their trauma. It is a reality that has to be taught to children to help make them be aware of improper behavior.
Two beautiful powerful men. There is NO penance...you were always innocent..both of you! Bless you for helping so many others. God makes no mistakes. 🌸💜🙏
I suffered from sexual abuse from my biological sperm donor on visitations, its affected my entire life, being married twice where i was beaten and abused emotionally. I have now found someone beautiful and it feels very strange because im waiting to get beaten but it doesnt happen.. its very unfamiliar to me. I take each day as it comes but the pain NEVER goes. I will never call myself a Victim because they will win.. im like millions of people.. I'm a Survivor xx
I was abused at the age of five it carried on up to the age of fourteen when l found the courage to run away from home. My step-dad and three brothers sexually abused me whilst going through the ages stated. I told my head mistress due to my fall in lessons how my step-dad was doing bad things only the system let me down nothing was done! I am seventy five years old now the trauma stayed with me for a huge part of my life. Got better when able to open up and talk about it, after three years of intensive meditation able to forgive due to an understanding comes an accepting. I still meditate and recently found Jesus this winter due to reading and understanding the bible which is a great comfort Jesus helps me to find joy and peace within, God-bless.
When the first guy talked about the perp asking him if he wanted something to eat or to go to a movie sometime after raping him, I felt that deep in my soul. I’ve been violated several times by several different people. And a couple of them acted like this afterwards. And then the second guy just broke my heart to pieces when he said he had done his penance. It’s so sad because a penance is self punishment for having done something wrong. And he didn’t do anything. I just want to hug them both and we can all cry and heal together.
I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse
By a family member. It happens more than we imagine. Thank you for opening up to bring awareness.
teresa acevedo I always loved this bb jhij this jh u gushed hvg v.
Yup. I know too well & that's why I'm super protective of my children. I don't trust anyone & my husband doesn't either & that's why I'm a stay at home mom.
But all the people I know have never charged the people !!!! How can you not charge them
Maxine Mc Inerney because their scared, humiliated and traumatized - is that so hard to understand? I didn’t even know I had a voice, much less support by others to do so. Don’t blame the victims!
it happens in every family somewhere but they always hide it, we don't have addicts everywhere for no reason, and mental health crisis, the sex trade is such a big business it never stops because its powerful people who cover it up, so much evil
We all need to share our stories and heal collectively. I send love and healing energy to all fellow survivors.
Debra-Derieux Matos
Yes!!
Thank you and love n healing sent right back to you and all others that are doing the BEST we can!!!
Yes !! Let's send send that love around in a big circle spreading light and love to all who need it. This is happening Worldwide for a reason. So let the love flow to ease their pain and open their eyes to the truth. God bless all Survivors with Discernment. This has to end.
Debra-Derieux Matos Yes God bless you from another survivor of this atrocity.
Lori Miller Absolutely. This is is rampant in our society and only by exposing it can we STOP IT. God bless u for ur empathic sentiments. Happy new year to you.
The more it is share, the more those who have been abused will have coursge.
You are not a coward, but a strong survivor
Amen to that
They should have cut ia ball's off not forgive
@@JohnWilliams-ke3sb wonderful idea 💡
Yes...You both are very strong survivors. I wish the both of you many years of nothing but true happiness .
You are more than a Conqueror with Christ Jesus
I hate how victims are the ones carrying the guilt and shame. These pig demons are out and proud about this abomination.
It's what You make it The guilt the victim carries is toxic guilt. It belongs to the perpetrator not to the victim.
While these men have pleasure from dumping in some childs rear.
I'm am longer attracted to any man since the rise and increase awareness of pedophiles. There are too many men who joke around other men about their perversion and these so called "good men" say and do nothing. Many men have the propensity to put their thing in any orifice in any human if they can get away with it. I'm done being intimate. I like men as friends but that's it.
1969Vanessa G I get it.
@@theresag1969 I feel you. Men can be absolutely horrible, make life a living hell.
I always say men will put their "thing" in an electrical outlet if it wouldn't shock'im to death! Lol
@@wb4190
You never know about their perversion since most men have a secret life, either in reality or in their head.
I'm not going to be one of those women who will find out in the most horrible way.
I hate what one vile damning act an adult can do to an innocent child that changes the course of their life forever. GOD bless all the victims of sexual abuse and may you all find total healing.
Karen Bittner thank you 🙏🏼... I have found healing and am now a VICTOR NOT A VICTIM!!!
@@casiegoon1959 I am soo happy for you! GOD is faithful!!💓
Thank you for your words, Karen! As a survivor, myself, you said it perfectly. These innocent victims must believe they are still perfect, precious and loved by a Heavenly Father who will never leave them
@@debbie5699 I'm sorry what happened to you. I'm joyful you trust in the only one able to heal, and bring you through to live your life here on earth, trusting Him. GOD shine His healing light on you forever😇
Karen Bittner He is!!! Hasn’t failed me yet ❤️🙏🏼🤟🏼
I won't ever forgive my abuser, neither did my dad and uncles, they put him in the hospital.
Good dad and uncle!!
I wish I had family members like you who would do that for my children x
@@daisythechihuahua6032 You should better wish your children will never be abused.
Wow..that is awesome
@Dianna Smith thank you. My mom has said before that because she had a. Stroke she needs everyone to help her as she is in the worst pain. I am sure it is hard for her to accept the person she fell in love with wants me and not her. I hate Saying those words so ugly together. I honestly feel more damage between me and my mom than my father. I love her so much and I know I will never have it reciprocated. My siblings see it and try to be there extra for me. I hate 100% to know my mom sees me as the other women. Breaks my heart. I used to sell drugs a lot and I would take my mom shopping for homes. In high school I tried being perfect student extra hard so I could feel she would be proud of me. I was chasing love from her. It is why I can not date I dont believe when ppl love me. I have abandonment issues to say the least. I cry when ppl gift me things I can't take it. I dont sell drugs now I have found Jesus Christ and I gave my soul to my King. I used to give my mom like $1000 a day. And we would be good npt friends and when i stopped everything got worse.
I'm so sorry, I have a 9 year old son, I can't, I would be on a murderous rampage. You are unbelievably appreciated for sharing this. Most boys/men NEVER DO! This is helping a boy, even just one, I'm so sorry.
I'm so happy to hear how overprotective you are over your son❣ I have two teenagers. I'm 37 in April, had my son at 18, daughter at twenty. I was the same way.. no ONE except my mother, husband, or my mother in law could watch mines growing up. I have an Uncle who use to live here in California. (MY DECEASED FATHER'S BROTHER) Who molested and was convicted of doing this crime on a public transportation system used called Bart...kind of like the subway in New York, there were cameras of course and the police stopped the bart Train and kept everyone on until the police got there and arrested him. Guess who saved him? My church, holy grandparents moved their pedophile son Alll the way to Arlington Tx. He has the same last name as me because this is my Father's Brother. If my dad was alive, man oh man he would of probably killed him. Public info his name is Torris Vozell Powers.....it's free...soon as you type in his name on Google....these weird, hideous, duranged looking mug shots pop up
@@corenpowers419 I've learned unfortunately the only thing you could do sometimes is just speak up and keep repeating your story great if someone don't like it too bad. God bless you
I'm the only one who watches my grandsons. The only one. God bless you. I've got four nice grandsons. I protect them just like they were my granddaughters. I've had a lot of problems in my life protecting my kids. But that's okay it was worth it all. That's why I have grandchildren now. God bless you could never protect your child too much if it's true protection. Nobody is above suspicion the nicer they are the easier it is to fall.
Ikr, it would be a difficult choice to make. Murder and torture the bastard and spend life in prison unable to support/protect your victimized child..or put your faith in justice system and be with your child when they need you most. My simple solution would be let dad (one of the good strong protective men these ladies think dont exist) handle it..and visit him often till hes out. I love men.
@@unknown-zf4lt myself I took care of it myself. You can't trust legal system to do justice. You can't protect your child at any point in life just by wishing. No I found out the hard way when my fourteen-year-old daughter was picked up by her head and choked till blood come out of her throat. That's what I made my decision. I saved everybody. Also lost my home my father died the children's dad died that year, and I spent 312 days in jail waiting for the law to call me to court so they could do their Justice. I was sentenced to a 30 day sentence. You don't never trust the law you take care of it. You take care of it right the first time. You don't write a book report on it pretend you don't ask permission. It's got nothing to do with murder. Now the children are grown they're all well-to-do I have four lovely grandsons. But the person who I didn't kill. Set real pretty right now I put them in God's hands. Things should be taken care of and Families correctly you can't always trust individuals that you think you can. That's why you don't write a book report. You don't make flashcards you take care of it the way you should take care of it. hurting another human being is the worst thing you can ever do. That's why I'm a swordsman now I live next door to the man. He treats me with great respect LOL I also know he's schizophrenic. And I watch him like a hawk why cuz he's the first person to ever touch me at 4 years old and nobody's ever done a damn thing. but that's why I do what God tells me. You never contemplate murder that's a sin. And you never asked another person to carry or send for you. do I live in a van do I live alone do I have PTSD. Bet your sweet bippy I do am I in control. You bet your sweet bippy I am. I got real serious when it comes to children. the preacher who touched them in next door recently died. There was celebration. The preacher did it he started it in 1963. Molestation and rape is bad but when it's homosexuality it takes the mind out. That's what happened to the man next door and nobody helped him his whole life. So I saved his life one day when he tried to take my child. God is good. You never contemplate murder. I did want she once worth it. So I sent the husband away. You never contemplate murder.
I've heard a number of women say their mothers could have stopped their abuse, and the mothers chose not to do anything about it.
Why?
None of them ever said, so I can only speculate. I imagine the loss of respectability, the destruction of the family dynamic, and whatever else I don't know. But it would be something hard to face. Think about your friends and neighbors finding out what was going on. I read this book about a girl who suffered ongoing sexual abuse from her stepdad. The book implied that the stepdad bought off her mother by giving her toney credit cards and access to whatever material goods she wanted. It would be something that would be so easy to lie to yourself about. It would be so easy to stick your head in the sand.
Tom Palmer No, it would not be easy to lie to yourself about, if you are a half decent human. Those women were sociopaths or narcissists! I could not simply be able to imagine allowing this to happen to my children. I can make my own money, I would live dirt poor if I had no other choice.
Yuk. Hate that.
Yep... that was my birth Mother
You were a child, never a coward.
I am that mother... as I said to my son, I say to you, "you've done nothing wrong. I am so sorry I could not help you. I am so proud of you for telling, for being brave enough and strong enough to to tell."
Thank you for each shared experience. My love and respect to all.
The “abuser loser” are the cowards.
Not even that but an innocent victim!
Does not matter your age evil is terrifying!
For the rest i thank you!
I'm 67-year-old woman and it took a long time and with the help of the Lord I did make it through. I forgave my stepfather a long time ago but it's been quite a journey trying to not think about it all the time . But I'm glad that Lord healed me and again it's been a rough road but a rewarding one.
I am 66. I feel the same way.
"Be still and know that I am God" you did it ma'am and as your sister in Christ I'm proud of you. May Christ bless you and keep you.
I'm 52, not very religious, but took a long time to recover.
Im 58 i believe in a kind God but it has nothing to do with the deep affect of being a victimized child.
When you say you forgave him I hope you never left anyone else in danger, but I can't judge you because I have no idea what trama you went through, Jesus has your back, god bless you
How anyone could hold a knife to a child's face & sexually assault them and then act like they were friends is just... terrifying. And depraved. How do violence, sex & children even get mixed up in someone's mind like that? They deserve death. There's no fixing that. This man has such a sweet spirit...both of them actually. Thanks for sharing your stories.
Look to that person’s own childhood to find out why.
Abuse and trauma are a cycle that repeats if it doesn’t get repaired.
God Can Fix Anything
There is Nothing Too Hard for God
Wishing someone death is incredibly violent. We need to stop pointing fingers outward and start looking inward at our own violent tendencies and how they contribute to the world's problems.
That's called "trauma bonding."
Look too that person's own childhood. That doesn't excuse it because everyone has a choice too either be a victim and survivor and they get help or they don't and become a victimizer themselves.
We really have too start looking at ourselves and what role society plays in these things... We sexualize everything and it's everywhere so you see it from a young age, graphic porn can be freely viewed as much as they want from a young age, we also make sex something scandalous we should be ashamed of as well if you have questions, weird thoughts bc you feel like you can't tell anyone or you'll be exposed and ridiculed or that it's shameful, we also don't support men and any issues they have... We don't look at what fatherless homes anf being raised solely by women does too them, mental health, sexual health, we reward them for how many woman they sleep with yet judge and ridicule women for the same behavior etc. Point blank we need better education, mental health services and transparency. But we won't even admit there's a problem in our society, let alone coming up with solutions and having the ability too fix it....
These Predators Worship One thing, And That IS NOT Jesus.
THEY WORSHIP THEIR FATHER THE DEVIL AND THEY WILL BE PAID IN FULL FOR ETERNITY IN HELL
Stacy Stroup s
@@gunpolygamist yes I agree & their dick as well
They worship children because they are SO sick!!!🤮
Just remember. *You are not to blame*
These survivors are normal. The abusers are severely damaged goods.
You're right. The abusers are damaged goods. It's said that abusers were also abused. They are acting out because their internal issues haven't been resolved. If we don't stop this cancer, it will destroy us. It's a worldwide problem.
As a survivor I know exactly what happens afterwards to those who unfortunately fall prey to perverts They will do unimaginable things to children who know nothing about it
So true - if only society would acknowledge this fact.
Couldn't have said it better.
@@juandamyles9797 This is the issue to assume that an abuser has been abused. What if they weren’t??? And are just evil fucking monsters?
I survived sexual abuse from a male relative, I was 10. It has taken almost 2 years of intense therapy. I survived the incest, shame and have finally spoken up. I still deal with ptsd but I am well on my way to possibly live a normal life. Thank you for speaking up and speaking for everyone suffering in silence.
I was raped at age eight and I'm still having a hard time dealing with it...I can't trust enough to get therapy.......
so sorry. Your were a child who did not know what it all meant. As a child, you don't have the experience or self knowledge to say "No". You are conditioned to obey bigger people no matter what. And no matter what your actions, feelings or thoughts, then or now, It was NOT Your fault. You are still a wonderful human who deserves nothing but good.
are you still in that situation? I would google what help might be available locally. I'm always available to email chat but live in Australia
that's why I would only be available via email and I think you need more than that.
and that's why I say google for help in your state
abcd 1234 if you just want someone to talk to I'm in uk you can speak by email if it will help you, I just know that getting things out of your head helps, from my own experiences, I'm not a professional or anything but I have got the ability to listen. I know it will be very difficult for you. But I know just how speaking to others about issues or experiences does help. Whatever happened to you is never your fault. You have nothing to feel ashamed about. But whatever happened took something from you, how much has it taken from you? Speak to someone let it out, get some help, you need to feel good about you. You must get help as long as you keep it in you don't heal.
If you were assaulted by a man, how about trying to get a female therapist? Therapy really helped me a lot but my therapists were female.
It's not sexual assault its RAPE
Rape is counted as sexual assault
chloè Ridgwell sounds harsher
chloè Ridgwell I refuse to use or acknowledge a absurd PC phrase for the act of RAPE!
@@jamierogers5016 I agree !!
Jamie Rogers How can sexual assault be pc term?
God please help these children and bless the people that are trying to help.
Laura King shut up! These stupid, inane “RUclips comment” prayers and pleas to your god are WORTHLESS! Pray in your home! NOT on a Internet forum! Have some damn dignity!
@@BobbedMcBob self righteous witch you think you are dignified? Honey you are a far cry from. But keep your legs together so nothing else can come out turn out the way you did talk about self righteous
@@lauraking1472 If God can help the children then why doesn't he stop the abuse before it starts?
@@lynnhathaway3755 this is Satans world. How many times have you done things when you dont want God to interfere in your life? He gives us free reign right now and we have to want to live Gods ways at all times and then when we ask we shall receive. If this world was great we would never want the coming kingdom.
You talking about your so said god is just bloody nonesense. All this tosh helped and still helps many peadophiles going on with their disgusting activities. So please do not lecture people about what they should think or do. Just leave them alone! I’m another C-PTSD sufferer and admin on a group (with thousands of followers) about this since like 12yrs and I don’t believe you can even start imagining how what you’re writing can hurt some of these sufferers. So please keep your god and ideas to yourself because it can be extremely taunting for LOTS of folks out there! Thank you in advance.
I went through this when I was 6yrs of age at a Bible school!! It broke my life and then at 11 my bother try to rape me!!! I lived a difficult life with hate I try to commit suicide at 16 and 25!! In the yr 2012 I met Jesus!! For the first time I felt free of a burden I was carrying!!! I learned that to forgive is for our healing..... I'm happy now and anyone that went through this Jesus can heal your heart! To any victim don't feel guilty!!! Forgive that evil person it helps to heal use a negative experience to help others......
You got to be strong girl don't never do suicide that is not a solution
Praise God for giving you awesome strength. I admire you so much. Hallelujah!🙏🏻💕
Wow! God bless you and yes forgiveness is the key to heal is hard very hard but with Jesus everything is possible
Blessings to you. I was sexually abused as a child and I believe forgiveness is important..especially from Christ.
It’s hard to know how such evil exists but these predators will be held accountable by God. I pray daily for innocent children because this is a big problem. No one should ever have to go through something like that.
They need to be held accountable right here on Earth! They need to be removed from society to prevent them to harm another child. Pedophiles never stop, and theyre never rehabilitated.
Why doesn't God intervene before the crime is committed? I was hoping for a saviour, but he didn't come when I asked for help when it was happening, guess he's doesn't care about children or me, What. But thank God he's there to heal us, but protection isn't part of it. Negligence is a criminal act. Is God bieng negligent in allowing this to happen? I think so.
Trauma is a cycle that repeats if it doesn’t get repaired.
We should all start learning more about it & how to interrupt & stop the cycle.
I am 57 years old and I still self medicate. It looks like I always will.
Will. What. Cindy. ..plrase. talk....
@@stealthleft4297 The word broken has ok in the middle of it. I am alright...hey, thank you for caring, that is beyond amazing to me.
@@cindyreinhart9552 hmmmh.... thank you for. Responding... ,,wish yu well....
@@stealthleft4297 I wish you well also. :)
Similar; all my life, one way or another. But want to share that support groups & therapy have helped a lot & are a great part of why I am alive & as functional as I am today. Just found out someone has started an Incest Survivors mtng. I can get to & I'm so excited - it won't be easy - these small groups rarely are - but I am nowhere near finished working through the damage & some of my reactive behaviors to it. And just to be in a group where I can speak the truth. Anyway, just throwing that out there.
I really respect you for coming out and telling your story. Don't ever feel your coward your a strong man and most of all a survivor 💪
god bless you always.
Thank you but iam. Agrown woeman i bid you peace that you my live long and prosper
Thankyu. ..... ehm. ..... haah , thass weird. I not know what to say more
You’re not a coward for refusing to be one. You’re a hero !
Amen!!
I have no forgiveness and will never forget. I have no mercy for these monsters that kill children's souls. For I am one that have had my soul murdered. My heart is broken. Every day is a struggle. I am a Survivor. I am a good, kind loving person despite what I've gone threw. Make no mistake my walls are always.
Amy Evans Bless you happy you have tried to move on 🙏🙏🙏
Forgiveness is for victims ,to make your life easier ,it's not for abusers
so sorry. As a child, you don't have the experience or self knowledge to say "No". You are conditioned to obey bigger people no matter what. And no matter what your actions, feelings or thoughts, then or now, It was NOT Your fault. You are a wonderful human who deserves nothing but good.
My soul was murdered too. I have been through an unbelievable hell because of one such monster. I can’t feel my body ever. Every day is filled with pain. I’m so sorry you know what that feels like. It’s evil.
Micheal, you are a beautiful man inside, and outside.
What the fuck is up with Catholic priest they must trained rapist every story is same it the Catholic priest is the devil reincarnated im convinced its 😥
Humanity has fallen 😥
No he’s living in dream world , he’s an idiot for
No he should be standing up for abuse!
💔😢
There are no words to say how much these kind of stories hurt me, my heart goes out to all of you that have been abused, God give you justice for what was done. An eye for an eye.😥💖🙏
You are both heroes and a gift to all of us especially for all MEN.
It was not his penance to deal with. It was never his penance. I hope these men have found peace in their lives. True, undeniable peace. ❤
Im so glad knight and rosemary found each other. After all the pain they have been through and to see them happy is so inspiring.
I’m so happy these two men have each other to talk to. That is a gift to u both.
My heart goes out to you both! I have my own stories to tell, but I've worked hard to get through the pain, shame, depression, and anxiety. It never leaves me...totally.
We are as sick as our secrets. You must release the secrets in order to start getting well.
What a genuinely nice man you are knight, you deserve every success in life.
Awh Michael, thank you so much for your story and helping others grow from your experience. This is so hard for victims to talk about - especially for men who are taught from a very young age that this is NOT okay.
To see the beautiful smile on your face towards the end of the video and that you could forgive like you did. You have an absolutley beautiful smile that goes along with that incredible heart and soul you have my man.
Thank you for being so brave to tell your story. Boys are taught not to talk about this stuff and we all need to talk about this - and we all need to make it stop going forward.
You are healing many with your message. Thank you Michael, tears for all that this happens to and much love in my heart for brothers like you in our world out there raising awareness about this!!!
Many many blessings to you all your life.
What a beautiful comment. Blessings to you my brother.
Tastefully done. You showed the sadness but nothing specific to add to the problem. This is the most helpful type of work.
Thank you so much for sharing this!! Both of you are helping so many, your bravery is admirable!! May your abusers rot in hell!! They are the devil in disguise, God Bless you both 😢😢🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
So ?????' !do yu mean ..it was ,is not .. helpfull??.. ,not underst.
Not. Underrstand....
Thank you for your testimony and being open. People need to hear your story.
Thank you for the courage in speaking out.
Both men turned into incredibly forgiving men. Very moving
Because that is the best thing to do. It benefits the forgiver so as to permit oneself to move beyond the torture of hate.
@@reason5591 very true but diffucult to do.
@@iti7201 indeed it is and it a long learned lesson of wisdom that I myself had to adopt in my own life as well.
It’s pains me that he talks about ‘feeling guilt and shame’ and yet we all know that abuser felt nothing beyond arousal with ‘the power over’ he had with this little boy. VICTIMS feel what the abusers SHOULD feel but don’t, is the painful crux of this. Anyone reading this that we’re abused, please ask for help until you find it. Don’t give up--it is never your fault💕💗
Michael & Knight my heart goes out to u both.It amazes me the strength, courage & forgiveness you both have.May the Lord look after u both foreva & eva.
No matter what ever happened to me in adulthood I never wished to be a child again
I do take some comfort in knowing that when pedophiles get to prison, they live hell on earth. They are surrounded by angry, criminal men with troubled childhoods -- often men who were once victims themselves, and now with little to lose.
@Just Moi exactly. A predator I know abused several boys and girls. He went to jail for 9 months! After all the hell the kids went through in telling their stories and reliving the abuse! This is why kids (and parents) dont tell.
@Just Moi They would all stop if they had their "willies" cut off.
@Just Moi wow that was very horrendous reading that but I'm not surprised because police officers test for psychopath and sociopaths
@Just Moi it's because there are a lot of Nazis running around and a lot of satanists and transgenders too. Both were involved with the MKUltra program
@Just Moi Hi, Ive reposted this to Facebook...one thing...none of the photos of the officers attached to the articles are showing...can you repost and resend again...its important to see their faces!
Michael and Knight thank you so very much for your bravery in sharing. The more we speak up about the atrocities that happen to us, the more predators of childhood sexual crimes will be uncovered. Bravo!
What an incredible human being! It's hard to forgive the basic issues of life. This man has done the impossible.
I'm so sorry this happened to you. But what's worst is that epitome of Evil, this monster who preys on the innocent, will definitely get his karma😡. I'm so elated you found love, a great career, a good life. Your not a victim,...your a victor❤❣🤗
Your = you’re
Such strong men in so many ways
Peace and love to them and their beautiful family
Thank you for sharing.the honesty, the pauses that tell us it was real and still hurt, they give us courage to understand and to help others. Thank you.
I feel for the survivors of sexual abuse. I am so sorry you went through that. :( That was so not fair to you.
These abusers will be punished for Eternity. There is a God. 🤲🇦🇺
Then there would be no growth. I personally don't think eternal punishment would be of any benefit. A loving God, like a loving Parent wants you to learn and grow and become a better person. Where is Freewill if you will be punished ? I just don't think it's so cut and dried.
And now it's made legal by sugarcoating it with gay marriage. A horse by any other name is still a horse.
@@lorimiller4301 Well put. I don't believe in god. I think eternal damnation is something that was made up long ago to make people feel that the evil get punished.
There is evil and good in the world. So in that aspect look closely seek and you will find it. Whatever it is good or bad.
@@queenashaoverobin2548 Yes, there is evil in the world. I do not seek it. I seek good and try to do good for others.
Knight is an incredible man; a hero to humanity. You have a beautiful voice my dear man and it compels people to hear you. You are healing many with your words here. Thanks for doing the hard work to put the shame of this behind you. That work is not easy - not easy at all. You are healing many humans who have not had a voice to talk about this by telling your story. A natural born healer.
You are incredible. Thank You.
Michael knight. From knight rider??""""""
And that sweet southern accent
I'm so sorry sir I wish I could help you. Coward you are not sir. I'm so so so sorry that evil man did that to you. Im sending you my love for what that's worth!
Always teach your children not to respect elders. Teach them what respect is. Then teach them that they only need to respect those who respect them. And anyone else don't matter. Listen to them and always believe them. Believe it if your child's friend comes to you. Children do not know those things or learn them from story books they learn it if they live it. It is the job of humanity to do what ever you have to to protect.
Do not blindly believe as well but ALWAYS make sure and take serious things seriously!
It is better be just be angry or annoyed about a lie than dismissing a child's cry for help!
I'm sorry for your pain ,I wish you joy and peace .💕
This is so heartbreaking. :-( I'm so sorry this happened to them.
I cried thinking of their pain, a familiar pain. I’m so fortunate that I did t have a lifetime of mental anguish after my brother stole my innocence while my mother sat in the other room ignoring the Creeking footsteps in our old house that led to my bedroom after swimming lessons. I’m stronger than others by the grace of God. I understand that sick disgusting feeling inside from the most painful act one can commit on a child. May the light from
heavens shine forever on your shoulders and guide your pathway into love and self love forever. It’s not easy telling your story but so
Incredibly healing once you do🙏🏼
I'm so fortunate and grateful that I didn't have to go through what too many people were put through. I hope you all find a way to heal and know that you are worthy of all the happiness in the world!
My heart goes to all those who have gone thru that pain
seems like the wisest people are the one's who suffer the most, but they learn about themselves from their pain, and they never put that pain on others.
Not only you began to heal by telling your story but you help to prevent future abuses. Thank you
I'm sorry u had to go thru such a horrifying assault, u are so courageous telling your story ,I wish u nothing but the best x
You need to speak out...! please kids you need to tell somebody.
Whew....the pain I know this man still has. My point of my book I'm writing is the child pays for the abuse of the pedophile for life! Absolutely no excuse for a child, then adult, to have to endure such hell. No child should be put thru the emotional torture. We never, "just get over it", nor can we "just let it go". We can learn to heal...but the past abuses never go away. Childhood innocence stolen by the selfish greed of sexual abusers damages one for life! 💔
Doing penence for what??? You did nothing wrong, you were the one hurt you are a better person than i to be able to forgive so freely
Oh I feel so bad for young victims.
It breaks my heart. Their innocence is stolen from them and life as they knew it changes.
Children should not have to face their barbaric attackers in court!
Hope some of these victims eventually find peace.
Its sad. There's evil clouds that persistently darken the Roman Catholic churches. The endless reports and number of victims are insane!
The large churches represented community within communities. Churches gave Christain families (esp the large families), reassurance, guidance and a unique educational system.
Those that dedicated their lives to Jesus and to teaching were highly respected...obviously to a level of fault.
It was an idyllic tradition... offering religious education & sacraments with elementary education. Schools that were trusted completely. Teachers that were revered as holy.
Now those "communities" have been desecrated beyond repair. Destroyed from within.
The ornate "buildings" struggle. It is sad the very place that once offered faith continues to reveal suffering.
How? Why? Its disgusting.
@@bettechantel112 It really is sad.
It was actually exciting going to parochial grade school. The school I went to was FULL~ each grade had 2 rooms of 30 students, approx 480 students, staffed by School Sisters of Notre Dame, tuition free as parish funds were high. They were strict, but it was beneficial.
The convent was filled to capacity. The activities after school were outstanding:
4-H, scouts,lots of fund-raisers,choir, music lessons( free voice, piano & guitar) boys and girl team sports, cheerleading, music & drama club, and best if all a HUGE gymnasium with a rare gymnastics coach for "gym teacher" . He had open gym every day after school.( he and his adult daughters staffed it) It was equipped with Pommel Horse, Still Rings, Vault, Parallel Bars, and Horizontal Bad, Uneven Bars, Balance Beam, high/low jumping, rope climbing. Each student 'tested out' on cartwheel, round off and hand spring. We had many talented gymnasts ready for HS. It was all happy memories....UNTIL years later and sadly stories did emerge.
Now convent empty so converted to public apts. School merged with THREE other Catholic schools and total students enrolled is barely 100.
An era lost....because of pervs.
@@joanbrennan2534 WOW
What an outstanding school!
Wish I could have attended it.
The gym program blows me away!
Why can’t the court use a recorded testimony from the victim, so many victims can’t endure going up in the witness stand!
Oh, how I know the feeling of shame that comes from childhood sexual abuse. In my 50’s I was in therapy to get me through my divorce..... dealing with this childhood trauma. My therapist said, “it wasn’t your fault, you were just a little girl”, I felt that shame leave me. Nobody ever told me that. I cried like there was no tomorrow as I released that shame. I’m now open and vocal about it hoping it will help others to release that shame.
Thank you for sharing your secret. And yes, I totally agree that a person NEEDS TO FORGIVE those that sinned against them! I had a different journey but I chose to forgive soon after. It didn't mean that I wanted to be best friends again. It didn't mean I wanted a close relationship again. It didn't mean I wanted to see them again. But it meant that I could go on and start the healing process. It certainly didn't mean I would ever forget either. It gave me the freedom to move on with my life, that I didn't have to live in a depressed state of life. I chose life that day, not death.
Amen!
Michael, Knight you 2 are my heroes. Telling your stories may just save a child from a life of suffering. Sadly so many kids are abused and most don't ever speak out.
I’m so sorry you both have had to carry such a heavy burden! I hope you both understand that this was not either of your faults but the faults of grown sick men! I understand your pain because I also was molested through out my childhood and during my adolescence turned to drinking, drugs and being promiscuous. I didn’t think I was worthy of ANYONEs love ❤️ because I was “damaged goods and I was trying and doing anything I could to find SOMEONE to love me only to learn years later that I needed to learn how to love myself and to forgive myself for the shame and guilt caused by my molesters. I hope God gives you both peace and healing. As a child I couldn’t understand why God would let a child be hurt and I’ve since learned that We walk in the flesh and so our flesh suffers just like when Jesus walked in the flesh and the trials and tribulations he endured we to suffer in this walk. The greatest triumph we can give to our abusers is to not let their actions determine who we are or what our lives can be if we keep faith in our Lord he will bring us out of this pain and suffering to a peace like we’ve never felt before! Keep your faith ❤️ and don’t let the enemy win because our God is so much more powerful than ANYTHING the devil can throw at us. God bless you both. Praying for you both ❤️
Two very very brave men and full of integrity. Thank you for sharing.
For those of us who are survivors of childhood sexual abuse i just want to say i hope you too can find some peace
I too carried this guilt around with me for many years until one day i realized my abusers used that guilt to control me, however the guilt was never mine to own, so i gave that shame back to those adults who had power over me and took advantage
When i became an adult i had to forgive them, not for my abusers, but for myself, forgiveness is the gift i give myself so that i can lay this burden down, to continue to carry it i was infecting my soul... I am not saying that i cant be triggered or become angry but i am making an effort to heal and maybe in the process help others
I hope we can all find peace but we must fight to change the laws so child molesters never get a second chance to hurt any child ever again
They need to get rid of the statute of limitations!
@@be4202 ❤❤❤
I will never understand this but my heart goes out to any child who is put into this situation.
I feel so bad for all that fell victim to the sick minded men and women, talking about this will help so many people God Bless Amen 🙏
That is heartbreakingly scary, so sorry you had to go through that
As a wee lil one myself around 4, I use to sneak out and go play in the snow in the middle of the frozen lake thru bushes and being so young I never thought about all the dangers out there but I ended up wandering back home locked up the house and went back to bed without incident. You take care and stay safe. Peace
Abusing a child is the most evil and horrid act... But the sad thing is ( and just as deplorable) when the System reacts with impunity- when law enforcement does nothing, when the perpetrators aren't prosecuted and allowed to hurt more children- this is all too often the case.
Thank you for sharing your stories. I also was the victim of a sexual predator, but thankfully he did not carry it very far. I am sorry for what your perpetrators put you through. It seems ironic yet fortunate that you two were brought together. It seems you are very good for each other, and can share feelings that many will not understand. It is important to get the knowledge out there. You may have saved many young people by your open honesty. Thank you again.
Almost 12 years ago, I was dating the girl I’m currently engaged to. She thought I was strange because I slept in my jeans and socks, would wake up and run out the door as quick as I could, never let her touch my unclothed body, and only spoke when spoken to. Survival mode since I could hold my own head up.
30 years old, and everyday the trauma gets worse.
I don’t know how she puts up with me.
I hate this sick people..that hurt little boys...i admired people that talk so openly about this...
Being abused have an impact when you get older, I for example cringe when a male person touch me it just feel so uncomfortable and yes i blame myself for what happened
I used to do also. I blamed myself. Till one day the HS showed me a little 5 year old girl. He said would you blame her. I said no. Then the HS said,. Rita you are not to blame yourself anymore. You were only five when it started
It's never your fault when you are sexually abused I know because I was sexually abused by my dad from age 6-16 when people were starting to actually report it I told my school nurse dad spent 5 yrs in prison. I never really forgave him or trusted him again. He died in November 2018.
It is NEVER EVER your fault. These individuals are narcissistic, psychopaths and they just wait for anyone in their path. Release the shame, it is a burden that is not yours to carry any longer, have immense compassion for yourself. It is ok to feel rage, discust and everything else. I acknowledge your pain,...i have known it too. I am healing... and you can learn to trust again....in time.
@@koleencook1885 Same here But my dad is still alive and live with all family members but no one knows that he is criminal ..After age of 19 I told my mother but she also ignore this 😪😪😪😪😪😪
@meg morales how are you now?
Much love and respect to you for coming out and telling this story. It couldn't have been easy. You were not a coward, you were a young boy. In those days, "things like that didn't happen"...... only they did. Prayers you heal over time.
I was sexually abused as well so was my brother and my father and it really does have an effect on people
David Tichborne I’m so sorry
These men are truly the Bogeyman. The H OR R O R!
Ok the 33 dislikes...🙄.... abusers? 🤷🏻♀️
Maybe some just don't feel right about "liking" this topic ?
@@lorimiller4301 That is what I believe. They are saying they dislike predators.
Some people do not understand what the buttons are for. They dont want to LIKE a video about such horrible things because they think that will mean that they support the evil.
That. Is. Treu. .....i..¿¿~think ..why i think ..why anyone indeed as yu said....
Or Catholics.
I so appreciate these two men. They ARE doing something about it. As children we had no real freedom to confront nor arrest those monsters, only adults can do that. So DO IT !
Strong story, my heart breaks with this man
U guys are so strong....please stay strong and continue to spread the word about these horrible people so our children are aware of them
Very moving; very well done despite a bit of sort of cliched TV-news doc format/style. The second part nearly brought me to tears. thanks so much, & thank these survivors for the courage & faith.
I'll never understand what makes someone want to do such unspeakable acts. So sad.
Its good to address this abuse. Thanks be to those who speak out
Such bravery, God bless you both continually for giveback to us all ♥️♥️♥️
Thank you for sharing because we need to help people with their trauma.
It is a reality that has to be taught to children to help make them be aware of improper behavior.
You are so strong and amazing praying for your healing
I do not have complete trust of anyone due to the abuse I suffered. I will truthfully never trust anyone completely.
Two beautiful powerful men. There is NO penance...you were always innocent..both of you!
Bless you for helping so many others. God makes no mistakes. 🌸💜🙏
What a sad but beautiful story. I have written two instalments of my bullying and abuse, A Coloured in Full Flight, The boy from the barracks.
Are u talking about the military...
@@tezdaqueen9765 Nope. My bullying was at school. Different circumstances.
Sorry Mr. Knight that U went through that.
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@Sara Greendale yes.
My late husband was raped by his 8th grade Catholic School teacher in the cloak room of his classroom.
In 1948.
Michael you were such a gorgeous young boy. I am sorry you didn't get to confront him. I feel sick in my heart.
I suffered from sexual abuse from my biological sperm donor on visitations, its affected my entire life, being married twice where i was beaten and abused emotionally. I have now found someone beautiful and it feels very strange because im waiting to get beaten but it doesnt happen.. its very unfamiliar to me. I take each day as it comes but the pain NEVER goes. I will never call myself a Victim because they will win.. im like millions of people.. I'm a Survivor xx
I was abused at the age of five it carried on up to the age of fourteen when l found the courage to run away from home. My step-dad and three brothers sexually abused me whilst going through the ages stated. I told my head mistress due to my fall in lessons how my step-dad was doing bad things only the system let me down nothing was done! I am seventy five years old now the trauma stayed with me for a huge part of my life. Got better when able to open up and talk about it, after three years of intensive meditation able to forgive due to an understanding comes an accepting. I still meditate and recently found Jesus this winter due to reading and understanding the bible which is a great comfort Jesus helps me to find joy and peace within, God-bless.
Thank you for sharing your story, we must get all young children to be aware of these evil monsters,. Demons are everywhere..
When the first guy talked about the perp asking him if he wanted something to eat or to go to a movie sometime after raping him, I felt that deep in my soul. I’ve been violated several times by several different people. And a couple of them acted like this afterwards.
And then the second guy just broke my heart to pieces when he said he had done his penance. It’s so sad because a penance is self punishment for having done something wrong. And he didn’t do anything. I just want to hug them both and we can all cry and heal together.