Sometimes life just ain't so good, Carrying water, chopping wood, Busted down as a neighborhood, Sometime life's just ain't so good. Start despising those that got For all they have and all they're not, Tell myself I'm rough and tough When I'm cold and callous, and jealous and stuff. There's a hole
If there's such of thing a sin. This would be the definition. Lol I thought I was reading an old comment of mine. Nice to see I'm not alone. But yet ... I'm lostttt 🎩
Well I dined last night with Scarface Ron On Telapia fish cakes and fried black swan Razorweed onion and peacock squirrel And I dreamed all night about a beautiful girl
The best friend you'll have is a railroad track.... BEST ADVICE EVER!!! Im lost with you at the bottom of the world Mr Waits. Down in the dredges.... Im hancuffed to my problems and current situation. Its a catch 22 I think. But I'll have to keep up my "happy demenour" and pay along as if everything is grand. Which it isnt. Its all a facade but I have to do it to protect my poor heart which has been shattered into tiny little pieces and my feelings. I am NOT going to beg and crawl through hell and high water and for someone to torture my complete being and soul again. He completely broke my heart on 29th Feb 2020 which was on a Saturday when I made my final plea for us to get back together. But he said no, not even a slight chance.... His words were "we're just lodgers in the same house". And that said it all to me. He made up my mind for me then. But how can I get him out of my head and my swinging brick completely if we're still living here in this house full of oh so very very bittersweet memories??? I find it very very hard and difficult. I really want out and get my own place. I do. Theres nothing here for us anymore. I really need to get away. I feel like as if Im sitting by the fire with a busted nose. And Im slowly bleeding to death. I cant keep up this "happy" facade anymore. Sometimes I even convince and fool myself but I come around with a bang down to earth. Basically Im dying inside and theres nothing left in my heart. Thats why I call it my swinging brick. Its such an apt name. Its more than suitable. If I do in the meantime get a house, I often wonder will he change his mind at the last second ... And ask for a chance at us again. Its really KILLING ME. For the children and I to stay in this once happy and I mean happy and loving home.... My best friend seems to think that he still loves me. But Im afriad to even think that to be honest.... I cry everytime she brings it up. I cant deal with it. I dont want to get even one tiny miserable hope up, I just cant.... I really really dont want to get shott down and my swinging brick hammered to pieces forever. So I said to her the other day that if I do get my own place for real this time and when all comes to all. If he does ask us to say...... I'm just going to ask why and tell him that I have to have a very long and hard think about it. I must think about myself and the kids. Ah I dont know but thats what I'll do..... I might even still go after all has been said and done.... As I said he completely shattered my world on 29th of Feb 2020. So Im still trying to pick up the very jagged sharp shards in my ife. Barely surviving. Pretending.... Living behind a mask and slowly going insane because he doesnt want me anymore etc. Im trying not to cry when I think about that. But I do everytime and it gets to me. Im mourning and greiving my secret love. It will take all of me, its ravaging my soul. Memories haunt and torment me every day all day especially in this house and they'll continue to do until I die in this searing pain. I miss him so much. And a few of the things that I miss about him are, I miss feeling his stubble or beard on his face with my hand stroking it lovingly. I miss rubbing his hair on his head with my fingers and giving him a little head massage. I miss playing with the hair on his chest. I miss lying on and into his chest too. We used to call that my safe place....I miss his hugs and kisses too. I miss looking into his lovely hazel loving kind eyes that I used to get lost in forever. I miss laughing with him. I miss his smell, the little things. Id love to stroke his face lovingly one more time... Thats what I used to do to my dad when I was a very young girl. Sadly I lost my dad on 2nd of July 2019 on a Tuesday. So Im dealing with that too. I lost the 2 most important men in my life. And I cant do anything about it. And thats the sad part. I really wish my dad was here. I really do. I was always his Norms when he had a few. And he'd alway used to say us and people when asked how he was "look at the goods". He'd always ask us and nearly everyone he met "whats half of 2+2?? Well think actually think about it... Quite literally whats half of 2+2?? Fancy giving it a go?? Ah go on. You know you want to...... I'll leave it at that so and my theme song is The Great Pretender.... Everything is stuck in reverse.... Bring it on!!!!! 😢😢🙄🙄🙄🙄😫😫😫🙈🙈🙈💋💋💋
@@eviemcnally955 thank you so much my friend. The children and I moved into our new place..... Its our third week there. I finally have piece of mind, relief etc. Im free. I did ask very very foolishly twice again did he want to have another go with us and his mind hadnt changed. When I asked the second time he still said no. There was nothing that I could do. I did say to him at the end of the coversation that I wouldnt ask again. And I meant it this time. Hes being very good to the children and I. But at least its a brand new fresh start for the 3 of us. So we talk away as friends. Im way happier and he seems to be too. I have no hard feelings between us. I still very much miss him and everything about him. Like I mentioned above in my last comment. I really dont want to think about them things but as least we're still friends. And once Im happier the kids are happy. All I want is to have a quite simple happy life for the of us - The Three Amigos as I call us. It can be hard at times but thats it with everyone. At least I made the final crunch and took the final step and showed everyone, including himself. Im proving to them especially that I can do it... It has its ups and downs but hey what persons life isnt like that?? So everything is going ok at the minute, which Im actually taking a minute at the time at times. So life has turned out for the better thankfully. Who knows what will happen in the future?? And whats around the next corner?? Im grabbing life by the 2 horns. Bring it on!! Come what may... Evie thank you for your lovely post by the way. It made me smile... God bless you wherever you are my friend xx 😁🤗😁🤗
Marilyn Monroe 2. Remember there's a big bright future for you and your children just around the corner even if you haven't found it yet. Stay positive, meet life full-on and never look back. God bless you and your children.🙏🌤️🎉🎊
The older you get through these cruel, but not necessary, situations you're 98% more prepared to deal. I'm still confused about "half of 2+2" but good luck kid. Tom Waits helps in these situations.
This song makes more sense everyday.
Hobo songs always make sense
such a poignant song. love it
this song makes me want to honestly makes me want to cry.
cry, love all, big
Absolutely devastating
indeed
Used to sing along to this when I got blackout drunk.
Sometimes life just ain't so good,
Carrying water, chopping wood,
Busted down as a neighborhood,
Sometime life's just ain't so good.
Start despising those that got
For all they have and all they're not,
Tell myself I'm rough and tough
When I'm cold and callous, and jealous and stuff.
There's a hole
This song always makes me cry.
I can't believe how many people never heard of Tom Waits
If there's such of thing a sin. This would be the definition. Lol
I thought I was reading an old comment of mine. Nice to see I'm not alone. But yet ... I'm lostttt 🎩
even Tom Waits fans overlook this collection. which is insane, it's probably his best songs
genius ... is rare
Yet overlooked
The moon's the color of a coffee stain...
Need more proof that thus guy is the REAL.
No one can accuse him of plagiarism
I woke me up with a cardinal bird, and when I wanna talk he hangs on every word.
Well I dined last night with Scarface Ron
On Telapia fish cakes and fried black swan
Razorweed onion and peacock squirrel
And I dreamed all night about a beautiful girl
Hobo songs always make sense
The best friend you'll have is a railroad track.... BEST ADVICE EVER!!! Im lost with you at the bottom of the world Mr Waits. Down in the dredges.... Im hancuffed to my problems and current situation. Its a catch 22 I think. But I'll have to keep up my "happy demenour" and pay along as if everything is grand. Which it isnt. Its all a facade but I have to do it to protect my poor heart which has been shattered into tiny little pieces and my feelings. I am NOT going to beg and crawl through hell and high water and for someone to torture my complete being and soul again. He completely broke my heart on 29th Feb 2020 which was on a Saturday when I made my final plea for us to get back together. But he said no, not even a slight chance.... His words were "we're just lodgers in the same house". And that said it all to me. He made up my mind for me then. But how can I get him out of my head and my swinging brick completely if we're still living here in this house full of oh so very very bittersweet memories??? I find it very very hard and difficult. I really want out and get my own place. I do. Theres nothing here for us anymore. I really need to get away. I feel like as if Im sitting by the fire with a busted nose. And Im slowly bleeding to death. I cant keep up this "happy" facade anymore. Sometimes I even convince and fool myself but I come around with a bang down to earth. Basically Im dying inside and theres nothing left in my heart. Thats why I call it my swinging brick. Its such an apt name. Its more than suitable. If I do in the meantime get a house, I often wonder will he change his mind at the last second ... And ask for a chance at us again. Its really KILLING ME. For the children and I to stay in this once happy and I mean happy and loving home.... My best friend seems to think that he still loves me. But Im afriad to even think that to be honest.... I cry everytime she brings it up. I cant deal with it. I dont want to get even one tiny miserable hope up, I just cant.... I really really dont want to get shott down and my swinging brick hammered to pieces forever. So I said to her the other day that if I do get my own place for real this time and when all comes to all. If he does ask us to say...... I'm just going to ask why and tell him that I have to have a very long and hard think about it. I must think about myself and the kids. Ah I dont know but thats what I'll do..... I might even still go after all has been said and done.... As I said he completely shattered my world on 29th of Feb 2020. So Im still trying to pick up the very jagged sharp shards in my ife. Barely surviving. Pretending.... Living behind a mask and slowly going insane because he doesnt want me anymore etc. Im trying not to cry when I think about that. But I do everytime and it gets to me. Im mourning and greiving my secret love. It will take all of me, its ravaging my soul. Memories haunt and torment me every day all day especially in this house and they'll continue to do until I die in this searing pain. I miss him so much. And a few of the things that I miss about him are, I miss feeling his stubble or beard on his face with my hand stroking it lovingly. I miss rubbing his hair on his head with my fingers and giving him a little head massage. I miss playing with the hair on his chest. I miss lying on and into his chest too. We used to call that my safe place....I miss his hugs and kisses too. I miss looking into his lovely hazel loving kind eyes that I used to get lost in forever. I miss laughing with him. I miss his smell, the little things. Id love to stroke his face lovingly one more time... Thats what I used to do to my dad when I was a very young girl. Sadly I lost my dad on 2nd of July 2019 on a Tuesday. So Im dealing with that too. I lost the 2 most important men in my life. And I cant do anything about it. And thats the sad part. I really wish my dad was here. I really do. I was always his Norms when he had a few. And he'd alway used to say us and people when asked how he was "look at the goods". He'd always ask us and nearly everyone he met "whats half of 2+2?? Well think actually think about it... Quite literally whats half of 2+2?? Fancy giving it a go?? Ah go on. You know you want to...... I'll leave it at that so and my theme song is The Great Pretender.... Everything is stuck in reverse.... Bring it on!!!!! 😢😢🙄🙄🙄🙄😫😫😫🙈🙈🙈💋💋💋
Marilyn Monroe2 god be with you x
@@eviemcnally955 thank you so much my friend. The children and I moved into our new place..... Its our third week there. I finally have piece of mind, relief etc. Im free. I did ask very very foolishly twice again did he want to have another go with us and his mind hadnt changed. When I asked the second time he still said no. There was nothing that I could do. I did say to him at the end of the coversation that I wouldnt ask again. And I meant it this time. Hes being very good to the children and I. But at least its a brand new fresh start for the 3 of us. So we talk away as friends. Im way happier and he seems to be too. I have no hard feelings between us. I still very much miss him and everything about him. Like I mentioned above in my last comment. I really dont want to think about them things but as least we're still friends. And once Im happier the kids are happy. All I want is to have a quite simple happy life for the of us - The Three Amigos as I call us. It can be hard at times but thats it with everyone. At least I made the final crunch and took the final step and showed everyone, including himself. Im proving to them especially that I can do it... It has its ups and downs but hey what persons life isnt like that?? So everything is going ok at the minute, which Im actually taking a minute at the time at times. So life has turned out for the better thankfully. Who knows what will happen in the future?? And whats around the next corner?? Im grabbing life by the 2 horns. Bring it on!! Come what may... Evie thank you for your lovely post by the way. It made me smile... God bless you wherever you are my friend xx 😁🤗😁🤗
Marilyn Monroe 2. Remember there's a big bright future for you and your children just around the corner even if you haven't found it yet. Stay positive, meet life full-on and never look back. God bless you and your children.🙏🌤️🎉🎊
The older you get through these cruel, but not necessary, situations you're 98% more prepared to deal. I'm still confused about "half of 2+2" but good luck kid. Tom Waits helps in these situations.
my life is a disaster and getting worse, this out of nowhere made it feel better
🎇🎋
Listened to Bottom of the World because of Virgil Flowers
Blood Meridian ahh song
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