My friend had her first baby at 45 - she did IVF with her partner. She says that she wishes she had done the egg freezing ahead of time because it would’ve shortened the whole process. She has 2 kids now. She was glad she waited for the right person though. (She also cancelled a wedding in her 30s - just letting you know because her life is flourishing ❤)
I just need to validate your vulnerability, Estee. I’m sure, on top of everything, it’s hard to share. But you are not alone. We’ve all been there in different ways/times and get it! Wish I could give you a huge hug.
When I was 30 years old and single I announced to my parents that if I’m still single at 35 I’ll go to the sperm bank and get myself a baby without a man. They wanted to support me and I felt very sure in my plan. At 32 I met a wonderful man and I had my son at 33. I think letting go of the dependency of a man made me so relaxed! I’m 39 now, married to that exact same man and love my little family to bits. I work full time, earn more than my also hardworking husband and adore being a mum to my 6 year old. Dear Estée - I follow you since 2013 and I wish you nothing but the best! You rock!
I was 39 on the pill for over 20 years, no partner. I got married at 41 and came off the pill and got pregnant 5 months later. a perfect and wonderful son. you just never know. Do what feels right not what you feel pressured to do xx
@@xoxjelloxoxI think it's so individual though. And you never know if you're one of the people that might struggle. So I guess that's where that pressure comes from
The media underplays it. You see celebs having babies in their 40s and 50s. The reality is 50s just doesnt happen and 40s happens but is rare. Most celebs who do have kids those ages have a lot of medical input, IVF, egg donors and surrogacy etc. Getting pregnant, staying pregbant and having a healthy mum and baby when you are older is hard and often doesnt happen. @@xoxjelloxox
@@SamarkandChan yes. I see in comments people get pregnant late 30s 40s healthy baby then I hear of all the media doctor talk. Maybe they say it will be difficult. But how difficult? Like they have to try a year of planned intimacy? So yeah.. idk which camp I fit in.
If you're thinking about freezing your eggs, go for it. I did an egg retrieval, while doing IVF. They knock you out for the procedure. You take it easy after, but I was fine within 24-48 hours. The pain level was similar to period cramps, so nothing I couldn't handle.
Estee, I’ve been following you a long time. You are a great person and admirable. You are very delicate though as far as your mood changing and having pain or being impatient (like the bag not opening and you almost losing it). As a mom, I believe having children will absolutely rock your world. In a great way but also a hard hard rude awakening way. You won’t have time to sulk with a baby. I know the world is so unfair but I would bring this up in therapy. To prepare yourself. Post partum depression is so real and so many new moms didn’t anticipate how difficult mom life would me. With love, Gia
I did 3 rounds of egg freezing with my first at 37 and my third at 43. Highly recommend like so many others. While freezing your eggs doesn’t guarantee a baby, it will definitely increase your chances rather than not doing it. Can’t stress enough how the earlier you do it the better. Worth every penny. This is an investment in yourself and your future. ❤ Sending heaps of love and support!
I lost my dog in August and have cried pretty much every day since then - I can very much relate to feeling sad and stressed :-/ but seeing glimpses of Effie in your vlogs brings me pockets of joy x
Girl look at what you’ve been through already! You can 100% handle a month of discomfort or pain to get your egg retrieval DONE if that’s what feels right! You have got this❤️ Also you are so young still and you’re hotter than ever! I know it may not feel like it, so I’d like you let you know that as a stranger I fully believe that what you want WILL happen🌹 Sending love x
I’m about to turn 29 and I’ve been watching you for nearly 15 years! I just wanted to thank you for your content. I’m so thankful for your vulnerability, your content is always so relatable, empathetic, and feels like home. I know it’s difficult to be vulnerable (I hate it) so thank you for your bravery and gift of being you. You inspire so many of us. You feel like a friend I’ve grown up with.
I just wish to share that I feel the same as Anna !! I am also 29 and grew up watching you from Canada!! Throughout the years I’ve felt so inspired by you and also just related to you so deeply!! I’m so thankful anytime you post, you are so comforting to me 🫶🏻 Your honesty is always so refreshing and you really make me feel like it’s ok to not be feeling ok and to focus on yourself/self care 🤍
I never comment on videos but felt I had to chime in. I’m also 34, just ended a 10 year relationship in August as my partner kept going over and back about committing to having children with me, an essential life goal for me, cue total life chaos. I’ve found your videos over the last few weeks so relatable. I prioritised going for a fertility consultation over all of the rest of the stuff I need to sort out and so glad I did. I did an Amh to get an idea of my ovarian reserve and turns out while I am a candidate for egg freezing now, I might not be in a year or so. So looks like I just got in, in the nick of time! Trying to feel grateful and lucky that I did this so quickly.
Hey Estée, I am 33 (almost 34) and have been a 'ghost' subscriber for years but this topic hits home and how. I just got my egg retrieval done last week. The procedure was done under anesthesia and I honestly did not feel a thing. There was mild discomfort and pain for 3 days after the procedure but nothing more than a day 1-2 period pain. Said that, would highly recommend touching base with our medical team to get necessary testing done. For instance, my AMH level is pretty low which doesn't leave me with a whole lot of time but that might not be the case for you so don't miss out on the tests before making your decision. Hope this helps!
You beautiful human, I’ve watched you since the very start and although I don’t know you personally, I can relate regarding anxiety/depression and all that fun stuff. Watching you grow into who you are is so inspiring, you help so many people like me. Remember you’re Estee 👏 fucking 👏 Lalonde, you’ve got this.
I just want to say thank you to everyone sharing their experiences in the comments because it's given me (a 29 year old woman who wants children and has been single for 6+ years and still counting!) a lot of comfort.
The new website is a work of art! I'm on it right now! I'm so sorry things are tough for you... what is meant for you will truly find you, at the right time, whatever that may be, so this season is just teaching you more about yourself and preparing you for whatever is next, Estee. Continue to be your beautiful self, we adore you xxx
In my field I’m constantly talking with women & every single woman I’ve spoken to who has frozen her eggs has not regretted it at all. The hormones you have to take beforehand are a trip but they all say it’s worth it. You’re taking charge of your own future. Best of luck ❤
Oh Estee, i am so grateful that you choose to share your feelings, your vulnerable moments, you successes, you dogs, everything!! it really helps me feel not so alone, and so validated. Thank you for keeping up with this for over ten years. Im 34 too - single, and a new to the LGBTQ community, so i feel you girl. We are here with you, you are not alone. XOXO from Toronto.
Well I had my first boy at 36 ( naturally) so have faith that god has someone for you. But freezing your eggs is also a very smart thing to do specially if you have the finance for it. You would be an amazing mum so I pray god will bless you with that gift one day. ❤
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Hi Estee! I turned 33 this year and I finally froze my eggs. I decided to do it as a form of insurance because I'm not sure if I want to have kids, but I wanted to have the option in case I change my mind 5y later and face fertility issues. I understand that egg freezing doesn't guarantee success, but I thought it was worth a try. My company covered most of the cost, but I ended up paying a couple of thousand $ (US) The process involved a lot of initial tests, and once I started the process, I had to give myself injections every night for 8 days. I’m usually not scared of the needle but it was my first time injecting on myself and it was a bit scarier than I anticipated. I also had to visit the office every morning for the last 5 days to monitor my progress, which was difficult to manage with my work schedule. The extraction process itself was fine and took less than an hour, but the recovery took longer than I expected. Dr explained to me that bc I have PCOS and thus more follicles growing, I might be more bloated than others.. It took me 2 weeks to fully recover. I am generally healthy and don't usually experience hormonal mood swings, but this process was a bit intense especially cuz I went through it alone. If you're currently dealing with mood swings or other health issues, I would highly recommend waiting until you feel better. Also, it's important to time it right because you can't really travel for 2-4 weeks (injections + recovery). I don't expect the frozen eggs to solve all fertility issues, but if you have the means to do it, I would recommend as a form of insurance!
Oh, Estée. I needed this video today & thank you for being so vulnerable. It encouraged me to deal and not be so hard on myself for having a rough time. So many pressures good and worrying that I am also dealing with and sometimes, you just have to stop. Your words, your tears, helped someone today, me. Thank you, babe. Appreciate ya.
I have social anxiety too. I have to put forth a lot of effort to get through social situations, especially when I don't know the people I am meeting or they aren't close friends. And like you said even if it's a fun event, it takes a toll and you get tired. Glad to know there is someone else that relates. Hang in there. It's okay to cry. Sometimes you gotta keep letting it out for a while till it eventually gets better. I love your nails. Such a pretty shape and such a pretty color!
I remember the grilled cheese tutorial. I watch you and it strikes me how much I can relate even though my issues are totally different. It's that pressure...sometimes it feels too much and I think I'm going to crack. I think a good messy cry and then some good sleep opens up the pressure valve just a little so we don't crack up. Then we do what we do, one foot in front of the other. I appreciate you sharing, it makes me realize how similar we all are even though we all have such different lives.
That jumper is gorgeous on you 😍 It's natural that you are still on the emotional rollercoaster and don't ever apologise for showing that side. I hope that you are able to find your happiness inside of yourself and that life becomes a little easier x
I’m 24 now and have been watching you for about 10 years. Your vulnerability = strength. It’s so lovely to see women open up and share their experiences simply because you have ♥️ Sending you love x
Hey Etsee! I wanted to share my experience with egg freezing. I actually watched your video the day before my egg retrieval surgery, so I’m right in the thick of it! This will be my third round, and I feel like a bit of a pro at this point. I highly recommend egg freezing if you’re even remotely interested-it’s been an incredibly empowering process, and I haven’t regretted it once. The pain isn’t bad at all, I promise! I found that icing before the injections really helps. The retrieval itself is a breeze since you're under general anesthesia. It can feel overwhelming at first with all the injections, but by day 2 or 3, it just becomes routine. There are also tons of helpful resources online, especially on RUclips. You’ve got this!
Dear Estee, regarding the egg freezing… as a silent viewer since the beginning of your youtube career I think it is the right time to do it. I wish I would do it when I was in my late 20s… I was trying to get pregnant for 3 years and at the end I had IVF last year at 38 and now I have a super cute healthy baby boy (2 months old). The stress of not being able to get pregnant naturally was super stressful. I have frozen my remaining eggs (6) for my next pregnancy hopefully in 1,5 years. 🙏🏻 And by the way I think you are doing amazing and I am super proud of you how much you have accomplished. ❤ Wish you all the best.
I just finished doing a round of egg freezing and the peace of mind is so worth it, if you can afford to do it. I'm 32, found out I had a low egg count and not sure if I want kids so decided to be proactive. As others have said, the procedure itself isn't painful and you're mainly bloated and a bit crampy afterwards. I will say that picking up the medication is pretty overwhelming but once you've done the first injection you realise how thin the needle is and you just power through. Give yourself a few months of prep to up supplements like folic acid, cut alcohol, and cycle sync your food so you can feel like you've given yourself the best chance at a good egg retrieval result. Good luck!!
I'm 33 and I was feeling down about the same but girl you can still meet people and you're very young. Don't get too stressed about those types of things. The more pressure you put to yourself, the more you will suffer. Just let it be and try not to overthink stuff. You're doing fine and you're still young!
Hiii!!! This is so encouraging! I just gotten out of a relationship around 5 months ago and still feeling lonely at times thinking what if I end up alone forever. I also just turned 33 and feeling lost. 🥹
I have been in a similar boat - I broke up with a long term partner at 33 - uprooted my life from Australia and moved to Switzerland, very lonely times. I met my now partner when I was 36 and we are still together and I am about to turn 40! Give everything time
I’m nearly 34 too and have done two cycles of egg freezing. The pain was nothing honestly, it’s two weeks of injections into your tummy area (which sound a lot scarier than they are I promise!) and going in for scans and blood tests every couple of days during that time…and then for the retrieval you’re under sedation (basically feels exactly like general anaesthetic). It was uncomfortable for a couple of days after but not painful, I was back at work (from home) the next day. Honestly the hardest part was the emotions of it as you’re taking hormones, they made me super emotional (like two week long PMS) and you don’t know what the outcome of the cycle will be in terms of how many eggs you’ll be able to get (although they give you an idea going in based on your hormone levels and follicle count). My second cycle especially was really disappointing as I got a lot fewer eggs than they’d expect for someone my age - it was a tough pill to swallow and I have anxiety and depression anyway, so the existential crisis was very real! I’m still really glad I did it though, some eggs is better than none and I can at least say I’ve done everything I can that was within my control. The rest is up to the universe I guess. It’s helped me to try and make peace with the idea of other paths like adoption or just not having kids (so much easier said than done though I know!) For what it’s worth I used the Lister hospital in Chelsea and can’t fault the experience, all the doctors, nurses and even reception staff were really patient, kind and informative 😊
Speaking from personal experience, if you are considering kids in the future, freezing your younger eggs can be a great way to maximize your chances if you’ll ever need to go down the IVF route. It’s not a guarantee of course, but I knew that future me would be so mad at past me if I didn’t give myself the best shot at success. After all it’s a numbers game… I froze mine at 34 and while it is expensive, a bit uncomfortable and an involved process, I feel so much lighter about the topic and relieved that I did it. Most women in this situation I know share the same experience. Even just getting your fertility checked can be very empowering information to make educated decisions about that part of your life. All the best for it ❤
If you have the means to, sure freeze some, but its not guaranteed so I wouldnt literaly put all your eggs in one basket. I am 32 but prob not gonna have kids for a few years and idk im just like not worried about it. I can always adopt. So many people I know have trouble having kids that my expectations are very low.
I froze my eggs 2 years ago at 31. I found a fertility clinic that I liked and trusted. Finding one that cares for you and supports you throughout the process is important. The process is long, but they made it easy for me so i didn't get overwhelmed. I watched alot of youtube videos of others going through it and it helped so much. I gave myself all the shots, and I did not think it was bad. I used ice packs on the injection spots before giving the shots and it helped so much! I really didn't have any bad side effects except for feeling my ovaries getting very large and that felt uncomfortable but not bad! The procedure itself wasn't bad at all you just go to sleep wake up and it is done! I felt pretty back to normal quickly! That was my experience it wasnt bad and i would recommend to anyone!
Hi Estee - i've been a viewer since the very beginning, hope you know how lovely of a human you are and how much support you have around you! As for the egg freezing, if you can afford it then go for it. My best friend did it this year - it's essentially the first part of IVF so requires the hormone shots leading up, the procedure itself I think depends on where you go, but generally manageable, mostly some time to rest for a few days after. All in all, if anything it gives you peace of mind that you have options. go for it! we're here for you!
A friend of mine froze hers last year and said it was ok! It’s a good opportunity to really focus on taking care of yourself. I think if you’re thinking about it, maybe go for a consult and see how you feel. Sending you lots of love ❤❤
Hi Estee, long time follower here! Thank you for always being open & honest and keeping it real with mental health and life ups and down! We are similar in age and I am also a Canadian now living in London. I froze my eggs proactively as I was experiencing a lot of stress and anxiety around being single and wanting to have kids one day. I am so passionate about the topic and would be more than happy to share my experience with you. The process isn't all sunshines and rainbows, but it's only brief (about a month) and it's empowering and you could absolutely manage and get through it if it's something you wanted to do. It has provided me with some peace of mind. Anyways, happy to chat anytime but you could absolutely handle it! Wishing you all the best!!! Hang in there... it's a tough world navigating life as a single girly at our ages. Keep being kind to yourself. xx
You just have to go through it babe. It sucks. There is nothing we can say to help you except to say, that you are loved. And grief takes time. There is no scheduled limit. It just freaking hurts until it hurts a little less. And then a little less. Does ot make you feel better at all to know that so many of us are or have gone through what you have. Like fivel. We are all under the same sky looking at the same stars. You are not alone. Xoxo
Girl you’re so cool, i think there is so much pressure on social influencers to have it all ,, wtf really . We are all human beings after all, with or without kids, husbands children etc
As a website developer, the new site is STUNNING! I absolutely love the subtle animations like the water ripple hover effect on the cards. Beautifully done.
Oh Estee! Sending so many hugs for you to feel better and be less stressed. Highly recommend freezing eggs. The pain level is t horrible you may need hormone injections whiling are tolerable and retrieval isn’t unbearable! Go for it if you are able!
I’m not all the way through the video, but I wanted to send you lots of love!! You are so strong and resilient, and it may seem small but you make my day a bit brighter every time I see one of your uploads. Something about your videos makes me feel a little more seen, and I think that’s a beautiful thing. ❤
yes, when you are not fully authentic in social situations,trying to cover your anxiety depletes you of energy / your vital force ... energy expenditure is high when you are trying to cover something up / pretend
thank you for every single ounce of this from the joy, excitement, food, recommendations, passion, rawness, real depth, networking, nature, friendies, doggies, connections, healing, stress, power, expression and all the feelings you allow us to experience. Embracing real life. A privilege and inspiration! I really hope Dorset can be a true recharge. Thrilled to have you back blessing our fields. ❤️🔥✨🍒
I had to have the same self-discussion about having/not having kids. I never really thought about it much until my Dr said I was at an age that women think about freezing eggs (35ish) and she could provide information. Since you already are sure you want children I would suggest looking into the procedure(s), and maybe have a trusted friend go with to appointments as support. I think as a single woman times like these can feel very lonely and isolating. In my case I decided I did not want kids on my own, or felt a personal pull/need to freeze eggs. Obviously I have my reasons as we all do. But just going through that decision making process is A LOT. I am 43 now, single/no kids (I am an Auntie) and I am fine with my decisions. I love to see all of the people here in your comments providing wisdom and support!
Omg, it's a relief (of course, I hope that no one would have to be scared ❤) to hear that someone as strong as you and a person I admire is also scared of gynecological procedures! I am also scared of them and sometimes I feel that I am alone with that fear and I feel that I am defective and weak 🙁
Hi Estée, I always find Jen Atkin’s journey really inspiring - I think she was around your age when she decided to freeze her eggs. If you know that you want kids I’d say do it! It will put your mind at rest and teaks the pressure off! Sending hugs! 🫂
Estee, I have been watching yout videos since you first moved to London. I’m 28 and single and I also have a dream of being a mom. I’m at peace because I decided to be one married or not, single or not so egg freezing is definitely something I keep in mind! I have a friend who had hers frozen at 38 and it was rough during the hormone’s injections but only during that period. You can do this girl!
Estee, firstly can I just say how much I appreciate your transparency and showing us your vulnerability? It somehow makes me trust your message and brand more than someone who is sunshine and unicorns all day long. Secondly, I’m so impressed with your creation of Mirror Water and remember when you first started and the green journal you launched to a comprehensive wellness journey of incredible lotions and potions that are so luxurious and now candles! Congrats on your well earned successes. Thirdly, I was unable to conceive due to a myriad of reasons so I threw myself into my work and decided I didn’t need a man to be happy. I eventually met my husband and got married in my mid 40’s and he has three boys who I helped raise and I’m now a Grandma, which is very fun! So trust your inner voice and follow your own path. I’ve known women who have frozen their eggs and feel much more at ease not having the pressure of deciding at the last minute. One is now a single mom by choice and the other is content knowing she has the security of a back up plan should she want to move forward within the next few years. Lastly, I had a friend become a foster mom and through that process decided she was not mom material, but she was still able to help two young girls move forward with permanent placements. There are so many options for us now, none of them easy decisions but all of them equally meaningful. 💕
Also wanted to share that my mom had my wonderful baby sister via natural birth in her 40s and that was back in 2001! Amazingly no complications. I know that’s a special case but it seems like more and more people around me are having babies safely in their late 30s and early 40s if that helps ease some of the pressures
Estee, “ yesterday was a write off” I just needed a complete day to myself….. I know this is my narrative too but it’s sooo wrong I’m going to bring it to your attention. Life is not about how hard we can WORK. Looking after ourselves is A WIN. Well done for having A WIN yesterday ❤
I had 3 of my kids via IVF (5 rounds). From my experience,don’t wait to freeze your eggs cause the quality & chances diminishes as you aged. All the best ❤
Estee, I can recommend you look into getting a fertility MOT, get your AMH tested as it’ll give you an indication of your egg reserve. Sending you love ❤️
I just had my egg retrieval yesterday. In total, 14 days of stimulation (hormone injections), one day break before the actual procedure, and procedure day. The hardest part for me was the mental aspect. I wasn't in pain, not even the injections hurt even though I am afraid of needles (my boyfriend gave me the shots). I got very bloated, still am. But the mood swings were a real thing. You can't barely exercise during this period so I went on long walks, shopping, made massage appointments and got my hair done one week :) the week of the retrieval I took it off because I didn't want to be stressed out with deadlines. Overall, it is a lot of information and baseline tests at first, the injections and physical aspects were not that bad, the every day monitoring messes up with your schedule, and you are out during the actual procedure. This was a decision that took me some time to make but at the end I am glad I did it and I am satisfied with my results (I am 35). Wishing you good luck. Start the process now (I actually started it at 34 and it took me a year to make up my mind about it) and figure out if you wanna do it down the road, but get your AMH (ovarian reserve) result at least.
Froze my eggs earlier this Spring and it made me feel so much more in control of something I know I want for myself. I didn’t feel any pain or intense side effects - EXCEPT for the final trigger shot, I’ll admit that one was unexpectedly hard to inject myself. If it’s on your mind at all, I recommend it - it makes you feel powerful and womanly in the best way.
I definitely recommend freezing your eggs! I found my partner late in my late 30’s and we had trouble conceiving so I went through 9 egg retrievals in order to get pregnant. If I could turn back time, freezing my eggs earlier may have eliminated my need to do this. The egg retrieval procedure is minimally painful. I was put under anesthesia for the surgery and i had some mild cramping afterward. You’ve got this!
Freezing eggs makes me feel I need everything I don’t have, a partner, money and don’t own a place. Haven’t done it BCS Its so expensive but also men don’t want to commit these days, I’m sure it’s not you but we always feel we give too much and just become invisible from one day to another, and I’m thinking out of so many men out there where’s my soulmate. Of course we don’t need a man to feel happy but we sure need love and feel loved, ugggh I needed to vent! I’m sorry but I also have the same days and can feel that frustration but you have a business to run which is amazing!!!
Hi Estée! Funnily enough I’ve been following you precisely since the days of your grilled cheese sandwich video! I was also born in 1990 and I am also a Leo! So now I’m 34, I have endometriosis and no kids. I am in a relationship but my boyfriend doesn’t want kids yet and maybe even not soon... I’ve also been stressing over this A LOT, so I completely, completely understand you… I also want to freeze my eggs, and I’m pretty sure I’ll be doing that. Do it, do it for your future you ❤ Sending you love
I’ve been watching since before the Grilled Cheese Era… you’re the reason I put butter in the skillet and not on the bread. Also the reason I *still* say “da clip” hahaha. Estee I really feel like there is some cosmic connection between us because we seem to be experiencing similar life events at the same time. I’m managing a broken heart at the moment… what is helping the most is time with my dogs. I really think having a needy little puppy to pour yourself into would be so good for your soul.😊😊 I really adore you, girl. I believe that things happen how they are supposed to, when they are supposed to… obviously I only know 1% of the story (which is totally fine!!) but I have a feeling that the best is yet to come for you; things that wouldn’t happen had you not be going through this. Love to you and E! ❤❤
Hi, from Australia. Just wanted to say I love your honesty, your emotion. As far as your eggs are concerned, it is never the right time. Have your baby now. I can see how much you love your dog. Imagine how much you will love your baby. Best wishes for you.🌹
Hi Estee, I am 39 and single and went through the procedure of freezing my eggs very recently. I have to say that the whole thing requires a lot of patience. It is not so much about the medical part tbh. For me it was more demanding regarding the psychological part. I found myself feeling quite low when I walked through the ivf clinic and saw all the couples there whereas I was by myself. During the whole thing there was a very weird internal monologue in my head. As for the pain, do not fear. I would descibe it as discomform not pain exactly. Also, while you are in this 2 week period that is required to stimulate the ovaries you should be prepared that you need to put yourself first and everything else second (i.e.work). With that said I would recomment it 100%. Sending you love ♥
You're effing awesome Estee. Thank you for being real! I scrape the burnt off my grilled cheese all the time. :-) I had to edit my comment bc I'm on my period too and emotional and you're still the frikin best. I'm not an emotional girly either and somehow you're the only person whose kept my attention all these years, I think it's cuz you're cool and legit. Life is a blessing chicky don't forget, and you're still an inspiration, truly, thanks since 2016
You should do it. I had to do similar because of infertility treatments, and it really isn't that bad. If you can go through all those needle facials, you can do this. It will give you options and ability to relax for the next few years while you weigh your options. Don't wait, the eggs are at a very good point now.
Been following you for years, we are the same age and I’m also dealing with lots of anxiety, debilitating anxiety, as life got so so hard. I also don’t know when I can get pregnant, and cry sometimes thinking I’m loosing the best years of my life not affording to become a mom. It’s so fascinating to me how humans can be so similar in their struggles trough life .Anyway I was having tea the other day and I realized I still wrap the tea bag’s string around my cup handle the way I first saw you do it. Hope life gets better, thanks for sharing that with us Estee❤
also, i froze my eggs when I was 30...it was painful but offered a bit of relief and took pressure off time. please get your blood work done and see if you even need to freeze them. you might be totally fine!
My best friend has wanted kids forever, and after two long term back to back relationships ending (almost 5 years with each person!) she was like…fuck this I’m getting a sperm doner. She’s currently half way through her pregnancy 🥹 I’m so unbelievably excited for her. She asked me if I’d want to do a video with her about how and why she made this decision. I do know another girl who froze her eggs…I think WAY more women need to be open about these things and it’s so wonderful to be opening the conversation publicly! 💚💚💚
Those patches are amazing!! I've not used the period ones but the calm and the healing ones are so good. The heat that comes out of the healing one is insane!!! Hope your feeling a bit better 😊
girlll i could not relate more. so much going on and just having some really heavy topics on the mind and just so much pressure. you are so strong though, i know both of us will get through this! things suck sometimes, ive learned, but it does get better
For instance, I had my youngest children at 38 and 40, without even trying. If it is meant to be, it will be. Don't let anything worry you. You will heal, with God's help, and follow a better path.
Just do it. You’ll regret it more if you don’t do it and someday need it. I’ve been through IVF and I was scared of the egg retrieval too.. can honestly say it wasn’t that bad. Just a couple weeks with period like cramps (maybe a little bit stronger) and you’ll probably be super emotional too. Got my baby girl with me now and I honesty would do it in a heartbeat if I ever need it again.
It might not feel like it, but you're doing a great job navigating all the highs and lows Estee!! I don't know much about freezing eggs (I'm not even sure if I want kids at all), but my husband & I have thought about adoption in the future. Wishing you all the best!!
I’m in the process of freezing my eggs now and I’m really happy in that decision. Friends have done it and said it’s not that painful! I figure I’m never going to regret having a bit more time and space.
The surgery is not as bad as you think and is obviously so worth it. I did egg retrieval so that they could make a live embryo but the procedure is the same. I wasn't knocked out they just used local anaesthesia around my woo woo area haha. Yes being numbed around that area wasn't a very pleasant experience but it was completely fine after that. Wishing you all the luck for the future ❤
Hi, Estée. Long time viewer here. Thanks for having the courage to share what you’re walking through. I’m 36, single, no prospects and have one ovary left. Gosh, I sound I like a catch, right!? 😂❤I went to a fertility doctor and went through an assessment, which showed I do not need to freeze my eggs anytime soon. So after that experience, my advice is: Meet with a specialist, get some tests done and let the data inform your decision. Hugs from Oregon, US.
Estee, regarding the sadness and crying, I was there once too. My real life situations were half the problem, but it seems like my bc pills were also the other half of the problem...it all got a little lighter after switching brands, just fyi. I’m hopeful you’ll get it through it to a lighter positive place soon!
I think if you're considering freezing eggs and can afford it; do it. If you need ivf down the line that step is already done. For the retrieval they give you local anaesthetic, but I believe they could fully put you under as well if you'd prefer that. Good luck with it all ❤
I'm sooo proud of you Estée! I love you so much and have loved you for years! I appreciate your vulnerability so much and everything you're doing for all of us. You give so much! Not only your amazing brand, but also how you make us laugh and show us how human you are. I wish you to be showered in all the abundance, love, joy, freedom & happiness that you so deserve. I know it's easier said than done, but really keep on reminding yourself how far you've come and that you are SO DESERVING of the highest love. I have no doubt in my mind that you'll end up with a beautiful husband and kids. Because again, you deserve it so much. You lift humanity up. You'll be blessed. You are blessed. Much love
Hey Estee, we’re all rooting for you! In regard to egg freezing: it was super helpful to listen to Race to 35 with Monica Padman & Liz Plank. It’s a podcast series where two friends freeze their eggs!
37yr old IVF mum here with a 4 month old. Egg freezing doesn’t hurt it’s more the injections and hormones beforehand which is a faff, you’re usually put under when they retrieve which was fine. Some friends have had kids 40/41. Highly suggested egg freezing if you can, just eases the pressure and increases chances if you wanted it in future
It's so funny to me that you found the heat patch location (putting it on your lower back) odd!! It's the only place I get period pain - no cramps, I'm lucky I know - just a sore lower back the day before/first day! Deep heat cream is also a good alternative to the usual hot water bottle and patches (I assume) :)
Having been through the whole process of IVF I would advise egg freezing as soon as you feel comfortable to do so. Unfortunately as we age our egg quality diminishes quite rapidly (damn you age!) it was uncomfortable but not painful but will give you so much relief knowing you have your future saved and stored for when you’re ready. Being a fellow 34 year old that body clock doesn’t half tick loud atm 😵. Love your content, you’ve got this girl! X
I’m so glad I came to this comment section! I just made the decision to freeze my eggs next month. I’m doing it in Spain where it’s MUCH more affordable, and I’m gonna be there with a friend who also did IVF there. Like you I ended a 10ish yr relationship a few years ago and now am 33 w no prospects (that I thought I would have by now lol) and I am hoping it will just take the pressure off dating so I don’t go into every interaction being like is this man my baby daddy?!?? It’s a caring gift to my future self ❤ sending you lots of love estee! You’re one of the inspirations for my moving to London and knowing so many of us have been going through similar things is comforting ❤
Freeze your eggs Estee, as you know you do want children,and at least it relieves some of the pressure, it’s just an extra comfort knowing they are there. I think you’re completely fabulous and hope everything works out for you just as you want and deserve it to ❤
I had my first baby with my high school sweetheart at 25 (found out I was pregnant AT 6 months along- I was on birth control) completely unplanned. We have since had 2 more kids and have been together but when I tell you this is the EXCEPTION and it has been earth shatteringly hard. It’s hard whenever you do it. You’re beautiful and loving and whenever it happens it will be hard and it will be glorious.
Estee! I do not want kids, and don’t even want to freeze my eggs, BUT I did enjoy listening to Monica Padman & Liz Planks podcast “Synched”. They both decided to go through the process at the same time and talk through their whole experience. Might be worth a listen!
My friend had her first baby at 45 - she did IVF with her partner. She says that she wishes she had done the egg freezing ahead of time because it would’ve shortened the whole process. She has 2 kids now. She was glad she waited for the right person though. (She also cancelled a wedding in her 30s - just letting you know because her life is flourishing ❤)
I just need to validate your vulnerability, Estee. I’m sure, on top of everything, it’s hard to share. But you are not alone. We’ve all been there in different ways/times and get it! Wish I could give you a huge hug.
When I was 30 years old and single I announced to my parents that if I’m still single at 35 I’ll go to the sperm bank and get myself a baby without a man. They wanted to support me and I felt very sure in my plan. At 32 I met a wonderful man and I had my son at 33. I think letting go of the dependency of a man made me so relaxed! I’m 39 now, married to that exact same man and love my little family to bits. I work full time, earn more than my also hardworking husband and adore being a mum to my 6 year old. Dear Estée - I follow you since 2013 and I wish you nothing but the best! You rock!
This is my plan too. My cutoff is 37 though 😅
i love this :)
Also 39 and been watching since 2012 ish❤ (just bitten kissable balm stains era iykyk)
I wanna do this too but it's illegal in my country. They literally don't provide this service to single women :( feeling very lost
I was 39 on the pill for over 20 years, no partner. I got married at 41 and came off the pill and got pregnant 5 months later. a perfect and wonderful son. you just never know. Do what feels right not what you feel pressured to do xx
Were you ever worried about the fertility “issue”? Does media overplay the risk to make women scared
@@xoxjelloxoxI think it's so individual though. And you never know if you're one of the people that might struggle. So I guess that's where that pressure comes from
The media underplays it. You see celebs having babies in their 40s and 50s. The reality is 50s just doesnt happen and 40s happens but is rare. Most celebs who do have kids those ages have a lot of medical input, IVF, egg donors and surrogacy etc. Getting pregnant, staying pregbant and having a healthy mum and baby when you are older is hard and often doesnt happen. @@xoxjelloxox
@@Every1ShouldSparkle hmmm ok
@@SamarkandChan yes. I see in comments people get pregnant late 30s 40s healthy baby then I hear of all the media doctor talk. Maybe they say it will be difficult. But how difficult? Like they have to try a year of planned intimacy? So yeah.. idk which camp I fit in.
"The human experience can be the most isolating and unifying at the same time." Sending you a big hug ❤️
This! 🫂
If you're thinking about freezing your eggs, go for it. I did an egg retrieval, while doing IVF. They knock you out for the procedure. You take it easy after, but I was fine within 24-48 hours. The pain level was similar to period cramps, so nothing I couldn't handle.
Estee, I’ve been following you a long time. You are a great person and admirable. You are very delicate though as far as your mood changing and having pain or being impatient (like the bag not opening and you almost losing it). As a mom, I believe having children will absolutely rock your world. In a great way but also a hard hard rude awakening way. You won’t have time to sulk with a baby. I know the world is so unfair but I would bring this up in therapy. To prepare yourself. Post partum depression is so real and so many new moms didn’t anticipate how difficult mom life would me.
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I did 3 rounds of egg freezing with my first at 37 and my third at 43. Highly recommend like so many others. While freezing your eggs doesn’t guarantee a baby, it will definitely increase your chances rather than not doing it. Can’t stress enough how the earlier you do it the better. Worth every penny. This is an investment in yourself and your future. ❤ Sending heaps of love and support!
I lost my dog in August and have cried pretty much every day since then - I can very much relate to feeling sad and stressed :-/ but seeing glimpses of Effie in your vlogs brings me pockets of joy x
Girl look at what you’ve been through already! You can 100% handle a month of discomfort or pain to get your egg retrieval DONE if that’s what feels right! You have got this❤️ Also you are so young still and you’re hotter than ever! I know it may not feel like it, so I’d like you let you know that as a stranger I fully believe that what you want WILL happen🌹 Sending love x
I’m about to turn 29 and I’ve been watching you for nearly 15 years! I just wanted to thank you for your content. I’m so thankful for your vulnerability, your content is always so relatable, empathetic, and feels like home. I know it’s difficult to be vulnerable (I hate it) so thank you for your bravery and gift of being you. You inspire so many of us. You feel like a friend I’ve grown up with.
Thank you Anna 🫂
I just wish to share that I feel the same as Anna !! I am also 29 and grew up watching you from Canada!! Throughout the years I’ve felt so inspired by you and also just related to you so deeply!! I’m so thankful anytime you post, you are so comforting to me 🫶🏻 Your honesty is always so refreshing and you really make me feel like it’s ok to not be feeling ok and to focus on yourself/self care 🤍
I never comment on videos but felt I had to chime in. I’m also 34, just ended a 10 year relationship in August as my partner kept going over and back about committing to having children with me, an essential life goal for me, cue total life chaos. I’ve found your videos over the last few weeks so relatable. I prioritised going for a fertility consultation over all of the rest of the stuff I need to sort out and so glad I did. I did an Amh to get an idea of my ovarian reserve and turns out while I am a candidate for egg freezing now, I might not be in a year or so. So looks like I just got in, in the nick of time! Trying to feel grateful and lucky that I did this so quickly.
Hey Estée, I am 33 (almost 34) and have been a 'ghost' subscriber for years but this topic hits home and how. I just got my egg retrieval done last week. The procedure was done under anesthesia and I honestly did not feel a thing. There was mild discomfort and pain for 3 days after the procedure but nothing more than a day 1-2 period pain. Said that, would highly recommend touching base with our medical team to get necessary testing done. For instance, my AMH level is pretty low which doesn't leave me with a whole lot of time but that might not be the case for you so don't miss out on the tests before making your decision. Hope this helps!
You beautiful human, I’ve watched you since the very start and although I don’t know you personally, I can relate regarding anxiety/depression and all that fun stuff. Watching you grow into who you are is so inspiring, you help so many people like me.
Remember you’re Estee 👏 fucking 👏 Lalonde, you’ve got this.
Yes! This! We are all this. You are Carrie fking Lee! And you are amazing
I just want to say thank you to everyone sharing their experiences in the comments because it's given me (a 29 year old woman who wants children and has been single for 6+ years and still counting!) a lot of comfort.
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The new website is a work of art! I'm on it right now! I'm so sorry things are tough for you... what is meant for you will truly find you, at the right time, whatever that may be, so this season is just teaching you more about yourself and preparing you for whatever is next, Estee. Continue to be your beautiful self, we adore you xxx
In my field I’m constantly talking with women & every single woman I’ve spoken to who has frozen her eggs has not regretted it at all. The hormones you have to take beforehand are a trip but they all say it’s worth it. You’re taking charge of your own future. Best of luck ❤
Oh Estee, i am so grateful that you choose to share your feelings, your vulnerable moments, you successes, you dogs, everything!! it really helps me feel not so alone, and so validated. Thank you for keeping up with this for over ten years. Im 34 too - single, and a new to the LGBTQ community, so i feel you girl. We are here with you, you are not alone. XOXO from Toronto.
Well I had my first boy at 36 ( naturally) so have faith that god has someone for you. But freezing your eggs is also a very smart thing to do specially if you have the finance for it.
You would be an amazing mum so I pray god will bless you with that gift one day. ❤
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Hi Estee! I turned 33 this year and I finally froze my eggs. I decided to do it as a form of insurance because I'm not sure if I want to have kids, but I wanted to have the option in case I change my mind 5y later and face fertility issues. I understand that egg freezing doesn't guarantee success, but I thought it was worth a try. My company covered most of the cost, but I ended up paying a couple of thousand $ (US)
The process involved a lot of initial tests, and once I started the process, I had to give myself injections every night for 8 days. I’m usually not scared of the needle but it was my first time injecting on myself and it was a bit scarier than I anticipated. I also had to visit the office every morning for the last 5 days to monitor my progress, which was difficult to manage with my work schedule. The extraction process itself was fine and took less than an hour, but the recovery took longer than I expected. Dr explained to me that bc I have PCOS and thus more follicles growing, I might be more bloated than others.. It took me 2 weeks to fully recover. I am generally healthy and don't usually experience hormonal mood swings, but this process was a bit intense especially cuz I went through it alone. If you're currently dealing with mood swings or other health issues, I would highly recommend waiting until you feel better. Also, it's important to time it right because you can't really travel for 2-4 weeks (injections + recovery). I don't expect the frozen eggs to solve all fertility issues, but if you have the means to do it, I would recommend as a form of insurance!
Oh, Estée. I needed this video today & thank you for being so vulnerable. It encouraged me to deal and not be so hard on myself for having a rough time. So many pressures good and worrying that I am also dealing with and sometimes, you just have to stop. Your words, your tears, helped someone today, me. Thank you, babe. Appreciate ya.
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I have social anxiety too. I have to put forth a lot of effort to get through social situations, especially when I don't know the people I am meeting or they aren't close friends. And like you said even if it's a fun event, it takes a toll and you get tired. Glad to know there is someone else that relates. Hang in there. It's okay to cry. Sometimes you gotta keep letting it out for a while till it eventually gets better. I love your nails. Such a pretty shape and such a pretty color!
I remember the grilled cheese tutorial. I watch you and it strikes me how much I can relate even though my issues are totally different. It's that pressure...sometimes it feels too much and I think I'm going to crack. I think a good messy cry and then some good sleep opens up the pressure valve just a little so we don't crack up. Then we do what we do, one foot in front of the other. I appreciate you sharing, it makes me realize how similar we all are even though we all have such different lives.
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That jumper is gorgeous on you 😍 It's natural that you are still on the emotional rollercoaster and don't ever apologise for showing that side. I hope that you are able to find your happiness inside of yourself and that life becomes a little easier x
I’m 24 now and have been watching you for about 10 years. Your vulnerability = strength. It’s so lovely to see women open up and share their experiences simply because you have ♥️ Sending you love x
Hey Etsee! I wanted to share my experience with egg freezing. I actually watched your video the day before my egg retrieval surgery, so I’m right in the thick of it! This will be my third round, and I feel like a bit of a pro at this point. I highly recommend egg freezing if you’re even remotely interested-it’s been an incredibly empowering process, and I haven’t regretted it once.
The pain isn’t bad at all, I promise! I found that icing before the injections really helps. The retrieval itself is a breeze since you're under general anesthesia. It can feel overwhelming at first with all the injections, but by day 2 or 3, it just becomes routine. There are also tons of helpful resources online, especially on RUclips. You’ve got this!
Dear Estee, regarding the egg freezing… as a silent viewer since the beginning of your youtube career I think it is the right time to do it. I wish I would do it when I was in my late 20s… I was trying to get pregnant for 3 years and at the end I had IVF last year at 38 and now I have a super cute healthy baby boy (2 months old). The stress of not being able to get pregnant naturally was super stressful. I have frozen my remaining eggs (6) for my next pregnancy hopefully in 1,5 years. 🙏🏻
And by the way I think you are doing amazing and I am super proud of you how much you have accomplished. ❤ Wish you all the best.
you’re gunna be the most amazing mom when the time comes ❤️
I just finished doing a round of egg freezing and the peace of mind is so worth it, if you can afford to do it. I'm 32, found out I had a low egg count and not sure if I want kids so decided to be proactive. As others have said, the procedure itself isn't painful and you're mainly bloated and a bit crampy afterwards. I will say that picking up the medication is pretty overwhelming but once you've done the first injection you realise how thin the needle is and you just power through. Give yourself a few months of prep to up supplements like folic acid, cut alcohol, and cycle sync your food so you can feel like you've given yourself the best chance at a good egg retrieval result. Good luck!!
I'm 33 and I was feeling down about the same but girl you can still meet people and you're very young. Don't get too stressed about those types of things. The more pressure you put to yourself, the more you will suffer. Just let it be and try not to overthink stuff. You're doing fine and you're still young!
Hiii!!! This is so encouraging! I just gotten out of a relationship around 5 months ago and still feeling lonely at times thinking what if I end up alone forever. I also just turned 33 and feeling lost. 🥹
@@lifewithjown don't feel lost sister! Many of us are in the same boat 🙏 patience ❤️
I have been in a similar boat - I broke up with a long term partner at 33 - uprooted my life from Australia and moved to Switzerland, very lonely times. I met my now partner when I was 36 and we are still together and I am about to turn 40! Give everything time
so she is not engaged anymore?
I’m nearly 34 too and have done two cycles of egg freezing. The pain was nothing honestly, it’s two weeks of injections into your tummy area (which sound a lot scarier than they are I promise!) and going in for scans and blood tests every couple of days during that time…and then for the retrieval you’re under sedation (basically feels exactly like general anaesthetic). It was uncomfortable for a couple of days after but not painful, I was back at work (from home) the next day.
Honestly the hardest part was the emotions of it as you’re taking hormones, they made me super emotional (like two week long PMS) and you don’t know what the outcome of the cycle will be in terms of how many eggs you’ll be able to get (although they give you an idea going in based on your hormone levels and follicle count). My second cycle especially was really disappointing as I got a lot fewer eggs than they’d expect for someone my age - it was a tough pill to swallow and I have anxiety and depression anyway, so the existential crisis was very real!
I’m still really glad I did it though, some eggs is better than none and I can at least say I’ve done everything I can that was within my control. The rest is up to the universe I guess. It’s helped me to try and make peace with the idea of other paths like adoption or just not having kids (so much easier said than done though I know!)
For what it’s worth I used the Lister hospital in Chelsea and can’t fault the experience, all the doctors, nurses and even reception staff were really patient, kind and informative 😊
Speaking from personal experience, if you are considering kids in the future, freezing your younger eggs can be a great way to maximize your chances if you’ll ever need to go down the IVF route. It’s not a guarantee of course, but I knew that future me would be so mad at past me if I didn’t give myself the best shot at success. After all it’s a numbers game…
I froze mine at 34 and while it is expensive, a bit uncomfortable and an involved process, I feel so much lighter about the topic and relieved that I did it. Most women in this situation I know share the same experience. Even just getting your fertility checked can be very empowering information to make educated decisions about that part of your life. All the best for it ❤
How many rounds?
@@xoxjelloxox I was lucky and got enough in 1 round, but more rounds are common.
If you have the means to, sure freeze some, but its not guaranteed so I wouldnt literaly put all your eggs in one basket. I am 32 but prob not gonna have kids for a few years and idk im just like not worried about it. I can always adopt. So many people I know have trouble having kids that my expectations are very low.
I froze my eggs 2 years ago at 31. I found a fertility clinic that I liked and trusted. Finding one that cares for you and supports you throughout the process is important. The process is long, but they made it easy for me so i didn't get overwhelmed. I watched alot of youtube videos of others going through it and it helped so much. I gave myself all the shots, and I did not think it was bad. I used ice packs on the injection spots before giving the shots and it helped so much! I really didn't have any bad side effects except for feeling my ovaries getting very large and that felt uncomfortable but not bad! The procedure itself wasn't bad at all you just go to sleep wake up and it is done! I felt pretty back to normal quickly! That was my experience it wasnt bad and i would recommend to anyone!
Hi Estee - i've been a viewer since the very beginning, hope you know how lovely of a human you are and how much support you have around you! As for the egg freezing, if you can afford it then go for it. My best friend did it this year - it's essentially the first part of IVF so requires the hormone shots leading up, the procedure itself I think depends on where you go, but generally manageable, mostly some time to rest for a few days after. All in all, if anything it gives you peace of mind that you have options. go for it! we're here for you!
A friend of mine froze hers last year and said it was ok! It’s a good opportunity to really focus on taking care of yourself. I think if you’re thinking about it, maybe go for a consult and see how you feel. Sending you lots of love ❤❤
Hi Estee, long time follower here! Thank you for always being open & honest and keeping it real with mental health and life ups and down! We are similar in age and I am also a Canadian now living in London. I froze my eggs proactively as I was experiencing a lot of stress and anxiety around being single and wanting to have kids one day. I am so passionate about the topic and would be more than happy to share my experience with you. The process isn't all sunshines and rainbows, but it's only brief (about a month) and it's empowering and you could absolutely manage and get through it if it's something you wanted to do. It has provided me with some peace of mind. Anyways, happy to chat anytime but you could absolutely handle it! Wishing you all the best!!! Hang in there... it's a tough world navigating life as a single girly at our ages. Keep being kind to yourself. xx
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You just have to go through it babe. It sucks. There is nothing we can say to help you except to say, that you are loved. And grief takes time. There is no scheduled limit. It just freaking hurts until it hurts a little less. And then a little less. Does ot make you feel better at all to know that so many of us are or have gone through what you have. Like fivel. We are all under the same sky looking at the same stars. You are not alone. Xoxo
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Girl you’re so cool, i think there is so much pressure on social influencers to have it all ,, wtf really . We are all human beings after all, with or without kids, husbands children etc
I have been following you since day one, i cant watch you cry it breaks my heart
As a website developer, the new site is STUNNING! I absolutely love the subtle animations like the water ripple hover effect on the cards. Beautifully done.
Oh Estee! Sending so many hugs for you to feel better and be less stressed. Highly recommend freezing eggs. The pain level is t horrible you may need hormone injections whiling are tolerable and retrieval isn’t unbearable! Go for it if you are able!
Estee just absolutely loving your vibe, a breath of beautiful fresh air! You also look glowing! X
I’m not all the way through the video, but I wanted to send you lots of love!! You are so strong and resilient, and it may seem small but you make my day a bit brighter every time I see one of your uploads. Something about your videos makes me feel a little more seen, and I think that’s a beautiful thing. ❤
yes, when you are not fully authentic in social situations,trying to cover your anxiety depletes you of energy / your vital force ... energy expenditure is high when you are trying to cover something up / pretend
thank you for every single ounce of this from the joy, excitement, food, recommendations, passion, rawness, real depth, networking, nature, friendies, doggies, connections, healing, stress, power, expression and all the feelings you allow us to experience. Embracing real life. A privilege and inspiration!
I really hope Dorset can be a true recharge. Thrilled to have you back blessing our fields.
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I had to have the same self-discussion about having/not having kids. I never really thought about it much until my Dr said I was at an age that women think about freezing eggs (35ish) and she could provide information. Since you already are sure you want children I would suggest looking into the procedure(s), and maybe have a trusted friend go with to appointments as support. I think as a single woman times like these can feel very lonely and isolating. In my case I decided I did not want kids on my own, or felt a personal pull/need to freeze eggs. Obviously I have my reasons as we all do. But just going through that decision making process is A LOT. I am 43 now, single/no kids (I am an Auntie) and I am fine with my decisions. I love to see all of the people here in your comments providing wisdom and support!
Omg, it's a relief (of course, I hope that no one would have to be scared ❤) to hear that someone as strong as you and a person I admire is also scared of gynecological procedures! I am also scared of them and sometimes I feel that I am alone with that fear and I feel that I am defective and weak 🙁
Estee you’re so young girl chill lol there’s no rush live you life and things will happen.
Hi Estée, I always find Jen Atkin’s journey really inspiring - I think she was around your age when she decided to freeze her eggs. If you know that you want kids I’d say do it! It will put your mind at rest and teaks the pressure off! Sending hugs! 🫂
Estee, I have been watching yout videos since you first moved to London. I’m 28 and single and I also have a dream of being a mom. I’m at peace because I decided to be one married or not, single or not so egg freezing is definitely something I keep in mind! I have a friend who had hers frozen at 38 and it was rough during the hormone’s injections but only during that period. You can do this girl!
you have plenty of time to have kids if you want estee, keep following your heart & everything will be perfectly aligned for you. Stay hopeful 💖
Estee, firstly can I just say how much I appreciate your transparency and showing us your vulnerability? It somehow makes me trust your message and brand more than someone who is sunshine and unicorns all day long. Secondly, I’m so impressed with your creation of Mirror Water and remember when you first started and the green journal you launched to a comprehensive wellness journey of incredible lotions and potions that are so luxurious and now candles! Congrats on your well earned successes. Thirdly, I was unable to conceive due to a myriad of reasons so I threw myself into my work and decided I didn’t need a man to be happy. I eventually met my husband and got married in my mid 40’s and he has three boys who I helped raise and I’m now a Grandma, which is very fun! So trust your inner voice and follow your own path. I’ve known women who have frozen their eggs and feel much more at ease not having the pressure of deciding at the last minute. One is now a single mom by choice and the other is content knowing she has the security of a back up plan should she want to move forward within the next few years. Lastly, I had a friend become a foster mom and through that process decided she was not mom material, but she was still able to help two young girls move forward with permanent placements. There are so many options for us now, none of them easy decisions but all of them equally meaningful. 💕
The CANDLE!!! CONGRATS ESTEE so exciting to see all the growth!! SUN THROUGH TREES!
Beth's makeup on your really did look AMAZINGG!!
Also wanted to share that my mom had my wonderful baby sister via natural birth in her 40s and that was back in 2001! Amazingly no complications. I know that’s a special case but it seems like more and more people around me are having babies safely in their late 30s and early 40s if that helps ease some of the pressures
Estee, “ yesterday was a write off” I just needed a complete day to myself…..
I know this is my narrative too but it’s sooo wrong I’m going to bring it to your attention.
Life is not about how hard we can WORK. Looking after ourselves is A WIN. Well done for having A WIN yesterday ❤
Love that!
I had 3 of my kids via IVF (5 rounds). From my experience,don’t wait to freeze your eggs cause the quality & chances diminishes as you aged. All the best ❤
Estee, I can recommend you look into getting a fertility MOT, get your AMH tested as it’ll give you an indication of your egg reserve. Sending you love ❤️
I just had my egg retrieval yesterday. In total, 14 days of stimulation (hormone injections), one day break before the actual procedure, and procedure day. The hardest part for me was the mental aspect. I wasn't in pain, not even the injections hurt even though I am afraid of needles (my boyfriend gave me the shots). I got very bloated, still am. But the mood swings were a real thing. You can't barely exercise during this period so I went on long walks, shopping, made massage appointments and got my hair done one week :) the week of the retrieval I took it off because I didn't want to be stressed out with deadlines. Overall, it is a lot of information and baseline tests at first, the injections and physical aspects were not that bad, the every day monitoring messes up with your schedule, and you are out during the actual procedure. This was a decision that took me some time to make but at the end I am glad I did it and I am satisfied with my results (I am 35). Wishing you good luck. Start the process now (I actually started it at 34 and it took me a year to make up my mind about it) and figure out if you wanna do it down the road, but get your AMH (ovarian reserve) result at least.
Froze my eggs earlier this Spring and it made me feel so much more in control of something I know I want for myself. I didn’t feel any pain or intense side effects - EXCEPT for the final trigger shot, I’ll admit that one was unexpectedly hard to inject myself. If it’s on your mind at all, I recommend it - it makes you feel powerful and womanly in the best way.
I definitely recommend freezing your eggs! I found my partner late in my late 30’s and we had trouble conceiving so I went through 9 egg retrievals in order to get pregnant. If I could turn back time, freezing my eggs earlier may have eliminated my need to do this. The egg retrieval procedure is minimally painful. I was put under anesthesia for the surgery and i had some mild cramping afterward. You’ve got this!
Freezing eggs makes me feel I need everything I don’t have, a partner, money and don’t own a place. Haven’t done it BCS Its so expensive but also men don’t want to commit these days, I’m sure it’s not you but we always feel we give too much and just become invisible from one day to another, and I’m thinking out of so many men out there where’s my soulmate. Of course we don’t need a man to feel happy but we sure need love and feel loved, ugggh I needed to vent! I’m sorry but I also have the same days and can feel that frustration but you have a business to run which is amazing!!!
Hi Estée! Funnily enough I’ve been following you precisely since the days of your grilled cheese sandwich video! I was also born in 1990 and I am also a Leo! So now I’m 34, I have endometriosis and no kids. I am in a relationship but my boyfriend doesn’t want kids yet and maybe even not soon... I’ve also been stressing over this A LOT, so I completely, completely understand you… I also want to freeze my eggs, and I’m pretty sure I’ll be doing that. Do it, do it for your future you ❤ Sending you love
I’ve been watching since before the Grilled Cheese Era… you’re the reason I put butter in the skillet and not on the bread. Also the reason I *still* say “da clip” hahaha.
Estee I really feel like there is some cosmic connection between us because we seem to be experiencing similar life events at the same time. I’m managing a broken heart at the moment… what is helping the most is time with my dogs. I really think having a needy little puppy to pour yourself into would be so good for your soul.😊😊
I really adore you, girl. I believe that things happen how they are supposed to, when they are supposed to… obviously I only know 1% of the story (which is totally fine!!) but I have a feeling that the best is yet to come for you; things that wouldn’t happen had you not be going through this.
Love to you and E! ❤❤
Hi, from Australia. Just wanted to say I love your honesty, your emotion. As far as your eggs are concerned, it is never the right time. Have your baby now. I can see how much you love your dog. Imagine how much you will love your baby. Best wishes for you.🌹
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Hi Estee, I am 39 and single and went through the procedure of freezing my eggs very recently. I have to say that the whole thing requires a lot of patience. It is not so much about the medical part tbh. For me it was more demanding regarding the psychological part. I found myself feeling quite low when I walked through the ivf clinic and saw all the couples there whereas I was by myself. During the whole thing there was a very weird internal monologue in my head. As for the pain, do not fear. I would descibe it as discomform not pain exactly. Also, while you are in this 2 week period that is required to stimulate the ovaries you should be prepared that you need to put yourself first and everything else second (i.e.work). With that said I would recomment it 100%. Sending you love ♥
You're effing awesome Estee. Thank you for being real! I scrape the burnt off my grilled cheese all the time. :-) I had to edit my comment bc I'm on my period too and emotional and you're still the frikin best. I'm not an emotional girly either and somehow you're the only person whose kept my attention all these years, I think it's cuz you're cool and legit. Life is a blessing chicky don't forget, and you're still an inspiration, truly, thanks since 2016
Snack time with estee is my favorite!!! Have a blessed one everybody!!
You should do it. I had to do similar because of infertility treatments, and it really isn't that bad. If you can go through all those needle facials, you can do this. It will give you options and ability to relax for the next few years while you weigh your options. Don't wait, the eggs are at a very good point now.
Been following you for years, we are the same age and I’m also dealing with lots of anxiety, debilitating anxiety, as life got so so hard. I also don’t know when I can get pregnant, and cry sometimes thinking I’m loosing the best years of my life not affording to become a mom. It’s so fascinating to me how humans can be so similar in their struggles trough life .Anyway I was having tea the other day and I realized I still wrap the tea bag’s string around my cup handle the way I first saw you do it. Hope life gets better, thanks for sharing that with us Estee❤
I totally remember the grilled cheese video!! I think about it every time I make grilled cheese
also, i froze my eggs when I was 30...it was painful but offered a bit of relief and took pressure off time. please get your blood work done and see if you even need to freeze them. you might be totally fine!
My best friend has wanted kids forever, and after two long term back to back relationships ending (almost 5 years with each person!) she was like…fuck this I’m getting a sperm doner. She’s currently half way through her pregnancy 🥹 I’m so unbelievably excited for her. She asked me if I’d want to do a video with her about how and why she made this decision. I do know another girl who froze her eggs…I think WAY more women need to be open about these things and it’s so wonderful to be opening the conversation publicly! 💚💚💚
Those patches are amazing!! I've not used the period ones but the calm and the healing ones are so good. The heat that comes out of the healing one is insane!!! Hope your feeling a bit better 😊
girlll i could not relate more. so much going on and just having some really heavy topics on the mind and just so much pressure. you are so strong though, i know both of us will get through this! things suck sometimes, ive learned, but it does get better
For instance, I had my youngest children at 38 and 40, without even trying. If it is meant to be, it will be. Don't let anything worry you. You will heal, with God's help, and follow a better path.
This comment section is so reassuring! ❤️ Thank you for all the wisdom. (32y and single)
thank you for sharing and for just being you Estee you have more of an impact than you'll ever know!!
Just do it. You’ll regret it more if you don’t do it and someday need it. I’ve been through IVF and I was scared of the egg retrieval too.. can honestly say it wasn’t that bad. Just a couple weeks with period like cramps (maybe a little bit stronger) and you’ll probably be super emotional too. Got my baby girl with me now and I honesty would do it in a heartbeat if I ever need it again.
It might not feel like it, but you're doing a great job navigating all the highs and lows Estee!! I don't know much about freezing eggs (I'm not even sure if I want kids at all), but my husband & I have thought about adoption in the future. Wishing you all the best!!
I’m in the process of freezing my eggs now and I’m really happy in that decision. Friends have done it and said it’s not that painful! I figure I’m never going to regret having a bit more time and space.
Ms. Estee, I treated myself to Mirror water for my birthday in August. I absolutely love it, so nice! Thanks for great product.
Love to hear it!
The surgery is not as bad as you think and is obviously so worth it. I did egg retrieval so that they could make a live embryo but the procedure is the same. I wasn't knocked out they just used local anaesthesia around my woo woo area haha. Yes being numbed around that area wasn't a very pleasant experience but it was completely fine after that. Wishing you all the luck for the future ❤
Hi, Estée. Long time viewer here. Thanks for having the courage to share what you’re walking through. I’m 36, single, no prospects and have one ovary left. Gosh, I sound I like a catch, right!? 😂❤I went to a fertility doctor and went through an assessment, which showed I do not need to freeze my eggs anytime soon. So after that experience, my advice is: Meet with a specialist, get some tests done and let the data inform your decision. Hugs from Oregon, US.
Thank you for making such a beautiful video Estee. I’m so sorry you’re having such a tough time but you’re stronger than you know 🧡🍁🧡
Thank you so much 🫂
Estee, regarding the sadness and crying, I was there once too. My real life situations were half the problem, but it seems like my bc pills were also the other half of the problem...it all got a little lighter after switching brands, just fyi. I’m hopeful you’ll get it through it to a lighter positive place soon!
I think if you're considering freezing eggs and can afford it; do it. If you need ivf down the line that step is already done.
For the retrieval they give you local anaesthetic, but I believe they could fully put you under as well if you'd prefer that.
Good luck with it all ❤
I'm sooo proud of you Estée! I love you so much and have loved you for years! I appreciate your vulnerability so much and everything you're doing for all of us. You give so much! Not only your amazing brand, but also how you make us laugh and show us how human you are. I wish you to be showered in all the abundance, love, joy, freedom & happiness that you so deserve. I know it's easier said than done, but really keep on reminding yourself how far you've come and that you are SO DESERVING of the highest love. I have no doubt in my mind that you'll end up with a beautiful husband and kids. Because again, you deserve it so much. You lift humanity up. You'll be blessed. You are blessed. Much love
The red tiger balm is my jammmm. Wear that stuff all the time. Its supposed to be for joint / muscle aches.. works great for my period pains!
LOVE the sweater
Hey Estee, we’re all rooting for you! In regard to egg freezing: it was super helpful to listen to Race to 35 with Monica Padman & Liz Plank. It’s a podcast series where two friends freeze their eggs!
37yr old IVF mum here with a 4 month old. Egg freezing doesn’t hurt it’s more the injections and hormones beforehand which is a faff, you’re usually put under when they retrieve which was fine. Some friends have had kids 40/41. Highly suggested egg freezing if you can, just eases the pressure and increases chances if you wanted it in future
The comment section is wonderful love all the women
It's so funny to me that you found the heat patch location (putting it on your lower back) odd!! It's the only place I get period pain - no cramps, I'm lucky I know - just a sore lower back the day before/first day! Deep heat cream is also a good alternative to the usual hot water bottle and patches (I assume) :)
OMG I LOVE the new website and I cannot wait for the candle ❤
Having been through the whole process of IVF I would advise egg freezing as soon as you feel comfortable to do so. Unfortunately as we age our egg quality diminishes quite rapidly (damn you age!) it was uncomfortable but not painful but will give you so much relief knowing you have your future saved and stored for when you’re ready. Being a fellow 34 year old that body clock doesn’t half tick loud atm 😵. Love your content, you’ve got this girl! X
I’m so glad I came to this comment section! I just made the decision to freeze my eggs next month. I’m doing it in Spain where it’s MUCH more affordable, and I’m gonna be there with a friend who also did IVF there. Like you I ended a 10ish yr relationship a few years ago and now am 33 w no prospects (that I thought I would have by now lol) and I am hoping it will just take the pressure off dating so I don’t go into every interaction being like is this man my baby daddy?!?? It’s a caring gift to my future self ❤ sending you lots of love estee! You’re one of the inspirations for my moving to London and knowing so many of us have been going through similar things is comforting ❤
Freeze your eggs Estee, as you know you do want children,and at least it relieves some of the pressure, it’s just an extra comfort knowing they are there. I think you’re completely fabulous and hope everything works out for you just as you want and deserve it to ❤
I had my first baby with my high school sweetheart at 25 (found out I was pregnant AT 6 months along- I was on birth control) completely unplanned. We have since had 2 more kids and have been together but when I tell you this is the EXCEPTION and it has been earth shatteringly hard. It’s hard whenever you do it. You’re beautiful and loving and whenever it happens it will be hard and it will be glorious.
Estee! I do not want kids, and don’t even want to freeze my eggs, BUT I did enjoy listening to Monica Padman & Liz Planks podcast “Synched”. They both decided to go through the process at the same time and talk through their whole experience. Might be worth a listen!
Agree! Although that one was called “Race to 35”
@@breerussell8406 Ooo yes! Thank you for the correction. That’s the one I was talking about!