I've been coming back to this mix regularly for the last 4 years. Thank you for this masterpiece, it's by far my most listened to mix. Some days I just put it on repeat and listen through the whole thing 6 or 7 times over the day, and I've never thought to skip a single moment of it.
When you aren't desperate for relationship but for the soothing comfort it 'might' bring, trying to seek it all your life but realizing its all only short-lived and empty-hearted in its very core. Investing time where it is the best. I think while I listen to this lovely mix♥️
I agree, there is no one to respect me, but me!!!! U don't love myself enough rt now, I guess!!!! That is why the world is pretty fucked up rt now!!!! I don't feel worthy enough to be alive!!!! I am a Torroidal, I am supposed to be Happy and Joyous and Content and Loving!!!! How can I love somebody when no one loves me the way I do!!!! I treat my body like a Temple!!! I only eat from the sea for protein! I mostly eat 100% organic, except for take out at some restaurants! I Love Life, most of the time, but tonight and today by two male friends who act like boys have now both treated me like shit!!!! I have a great deal to learn still, but I do know about respect!!!! I just need to learn how to shut my trap!!!! I am an open book!!!! Any suggestions from anybody!!!! I also need to know how to prevent: robberies, being held at gun point, being kidnapped, being raped:: besides abstinence, being hit by anybody and/or abused in any way: bullied, teased, etc.... Need expert advice on all of this, please!!!!
After going through something traumatic from a man as a woman, I'm glad I found a woman exclusive vocal mix. Don't get me wrong I do like male artists too but at the moment listening to fellow women sing makes me feel in a safe comforting space . This video is old so no one will probably see my comment but, I'm glad it was made. 💝
I’m so sorry for what happened. I truly believe that men of any kind are good people, but desire is a heavy weight, many fallen soldiers turned into wicked, I hope you can recover and feel better, I don’t know what to say but I hope it helps
@@fen9007 It means a lot to hear something so comforting, as I wrote in a therapeutic poem to help me move on, each day the claws of trauma slip away, "But know this one day you'll be a lost memory. A lost memory flooded by all the happy tears from soft kisses of a woman I love, a child we adopt, a beloved pet, a myriad of light and joy that you will never be able to touch." I heal more each day and even the comforting words of a well-meaning stranger help me with the strength in that battle. Thank you for your kind words, I do hope one day I'll be able to see men in a kind light as you do, blessings from one stranger to another
@@halycon4923 I dont know if it helps, but I hope it does. I'm a straight white christian male, so i know society doesn't like me much but I hope it does give you hope knowing that even though this is who i am, I'm a good person, we aren't all wicked, whether or not society likes us. It takes so much power of mind and energy to overcome something like this but I know you can and for sure will.
Wow this soundtrack and picture give me an overwhelming sense of loneliness. Like something big is happened out of shot in the near future, but this person either has nobody to share it with or cannot participate. I want to give them a hug ngl
I found out that the one thing i love about winter is I slow down enough to really appreciate the beauty in these type of mixes. Love this one in particular!!
Y'all a little to paranoid. It's just a hard reset on society. If you can make it through a great depression, you'll survive. If not, that sucks for you.
Thank you for this! I have RUclips running in the background and when a song catches my attention enough, I'll bring up the list and look at buying the song. The track list is available, but they didn't put the time stamps on it. Thanks to you, I'll probably be dropping a few bucks on some songs soon.
I recently had to say goodbye to my 8 year old boxer/pitbull and best friend, Sammi. This is exactly what I needed. So comforting and beautiful. Thank you.
Im so, So sorry!!😢 I had a Beautiful Pitt too.. I miss her every Day so i know how you feel💓 All I Can Say.. Its getting better and you Will be able to think of your dog with Joy and happiness for All the years you had with her without its so painful.. I promise💓🙏🌹💕
Dude this mix is so amazing. I'm browsing the internet while listening to this in the background and I keep getting snapped out of my focus back onto the music. Only really good music has that effect on me. Been searching for many dubstep videos to find one worthy of listening to. Thanks man
Thx you for this transcending mix..! My girl left me & took our baby... All I have is the music to keep me going at this point. Mad love to whoever made this, your my inspiration...
im looking for a song, music is a simple guitar strum and a beat. vocals are something like "you and i, you and i, why you have to....". songs was in 2015 or 2016. i think song title was kites
The message in the beginning .. I thought was a bold claim .. but it lived up to the claim .. this is exactly the track i was searching .. the dream like creamy music plus my RHA MA750 .. mind blown. Earned yourself a subscriber mate.. keep up the good work.
yeah @aditya khanna I thought so too but wasn't dissapointed at all. Big ups to @chillout sloth for this. I really enjoy cash for gold so was pretty sold when I heard them..
Thank you to the people of the comment section, I'm single and lonely af, just wanted something to wind down with before bed. You've all saved me a great deal of depression and literally balling my eyes out. Thanks, I'm out, I'd take hardstyle and insomnia over the former.
Amazing....honestly, this takes me away from the daily anxiety I have. Thank you so much.......truly beautiful. I can relate so much to the vocals, even though sad, somehow it brings me some peace ❤🙏❤
This isolation is no different for me. Stay well my friends....sending so much love, peace, health and determination to get through this time. Whatever brings you comfort, peace, faith and hope....mine is music. Xo
This inspired me to keep writing just as I was going to bed. Kind of glad, I got some good shit. But its now nearly midnight and I got to get up for work at 5! So...thanks for the inspiration, but FU for keeping me up so late
Seriously brother, this is some top notch shit here. The chill factor and all female vocals are just mind-blowingly awesome. If you want to melt into a chair listen to this late at night.
OH WOW.... I'm not even a music person I just happened to stumble here looking for sleep music.... I was like wait.... This music has a really good sound.... Then I heard the second song, and INSTANTLY I was reborn... You cannot tell me there is a person on this earth that could listen to that sound, that voice, that beat, that rhythm, that arrangement, that freaking PULSE.... And NOT be taken into a trance and physically woken up!!!! Damn... Im thinking like @#*& I'll be sleeping NOW! This stuff is off the charts.... Each song just gets better! The voice man.. it's like she effortlessly BREATHES the song into my ears. Excellent video man xx
Wow this is exactly what I always hoped for and never got from the lofi hip hop study radio blah (you know which one). This is amazing. Thank you so so much, I'm finally gettin some work done over here hah. Anyway, instant like and subscribe, keep that shit coming.
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So, I want to thank you for putting together this mix, because it was a terrible, beautiful, and necessary experience that this triggered. Allow me to explain. So, many years ago, after having three women I loved die - I was romantically involved with each; one was murdered, one died of cancer, and another of organ failure caused by Lupus Erithymatosus - I sort of shut down, emotionally. Between and beyond them, there was a string of incredibly emotionally damaged women, whom I wish the best, but who didn't do much for my faith that love was meant for me. The last became the mother of my daughter, and with no malice in my heart, I can say that she's basically ruined my life, and has done a pretty bang-up job of trying to ruin my daughter's, who is now 12, and is finally going to be living with me again. However, losing custody of her, after her mother left us when she was five, only to have her come crawling back to the state where we live and lie through her teeth to a judge, she managed to get custody, and my daughter and I have been suffering her ever since. When I was at my lowest, out of nowhere, I stumbled across this playlist, started it, and laid down to sleep. Instead of a good night's rest, it gave me something much more valuable. I would say invaluable: my first, last, and only full-blown panic attack in my lifetime. This might sound awful, and full disclosure: it was. I actually thought I might be dying, when it was happening. By the time it got to "Let You Go," I had been drifting in true twilight sleep, between waking and sleeping, where the conscious and subconscious mind mingle, and play with memory and emotion in ways that all our technology can't truly calculate, and most will never truly appreciate. Though I had never heard the song, some part of me just seemed to meld with it. Such that I ended up hearing and even feeling my long-dead fiance` - the one who died of Lupus - next to me in bed. It was so jarring, when my conscious mind picked it up, that I rolled over expecting to see her, forgetting where and even WHEN I was. In that moment, I lost her again. The difference was that this time, I truly let it flow through me. You see, when she went into acute organ failure, and was flown to St. Louis, I set out from Oklahoma City. Unfortunately, my car's engine blew out a fair distance across the Kansas Border. For those wondering why I headed north to go through Kansas City, it was because I-44 was an absolute slog in those days, because of seemingly endless construction. Anyone who got near Tulsa over that span - some years ago, now - will remember. Of course, the time it would take didn't matter, with no direct flights available before the following day, and travel by car being faster, I just went. However, by the time I could get a flight out the next day, it was too late. She had died, alone, in that hospital, and I wasn't at her side. I had never forgiven myself for not being there. Of course, it wasn't until this moment, listening to this music, my mind reeling in the half-light, that I had actually realized it, and let myself grieve. Something about the lyrics of "Let You Go," and how similar Jacqueline's singing voice was to Malaina's - the lady I lost, who was a composer, singer, and pianist - sent me over the edge. My heart felt like it was going to pound out of my chest, feeling her for a moment only to have her ripped away again. I could barely breathe enough not to pass out, and it felt like there was no air in the room. And I realized, it wasn't just Malaina. It was all the loves I'd lost, tragically, piled on top of all the friends I lost from my time in the Marines, and both my parents and much of my family and friends who had passed over the years. I like to think that was their final gift to me: helping me heal. And that was the moment they chose, and she was the one who they sent, so that I could hear that song.... and finally let go, and move forward. So, thanks for this. It has provided many hours of peace and comfort to me, as I stitch all my anger, pain, grief, loss, and suffering into the fabric and fiber of my being, and go on living as if they were still here, to honor their memory, and all they gave me.
I don't even have words for this honest, all I can say is thank you for holding on to humanity holding on to reality after losing even half of what you did most people would just shut down forever thank you so much for allowing yourself to heal no matter how long it may take just keep holding on I don't know if you believe in reincarnation but I believe that the Universe shall always balance the scales all that pain shall manifest equal measure love and beauty please just hold on
Finally Made it Here! Take me away from this Madness!, in the Backyard got me a 6’er of some local Sour, bout to whip up some Good chicken Curry and basmati rice! (Smallthingsinlifegetyouby)
why doctors ordering more pills,they should tell people about this kind music,songs...Close your eyes,put headphones on and...go where ever you wonna go.Btw I'm 68 yo and I know that being not okay is okay b/c everything will be fine.Thank you for this masterpiece!
Thank you for posting your comment. I feel the same...im 47 and sometimes feel silly or immature that I listen to this type of music at my age. Its honestly better than any pill out there. Thanks for sharing.....be well❤
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5 years later this is still my goto mix for late-night work... Thank you Chillout Sloth wherever you are today 🙌💙💜
Me too
I've been coming back to this mix regularly for the last 4 years. Thank you for this masterpiece, it's by far my most listened to mix. Some days I just put it on repeat and listen through the whole thing 6 or 7 times over the day, and I've never thought to skip a single moment of it.
When you aren't desperate for relationship but for the soothing comfort it 'might' bring, trying to seek it all your life but realizing its all only short-lived and empty-hearted in its very core.
Investing time where it is the best.
I think while I listen to this lovely mix♥️
I feel called out! Lol!
I agree, there is no one to respect me, but me!!!! U don't love myself enough rt now, I guess!!!! That is why the world is pretty fucked up rt now!!!! I don't feel worthy enough to be alive!!!! I am a Torroidal, I am supposed to be Happy and Joyous and Content and Loving!!!! How can I love somebody when no one loves me the way I do!!!! I treat my body like a Temple!!! I only eat from the sea for protein! I mostly eat 100% organic, except for take out at some restaurants! I Love Life, most of the time, but tonight and today by two male friends who act like boys have now both treated me like shit!!!! I have a great deal to learn still, but I do know about respect!!!! I just need to learn how to shut my trap!!!! I am an open book!!!! Any suggestions from anybody!!!! I also need to know how to prevent: robberies, being held at gun point, being kidnapped, being raped:: besides abstinence, being hit by anybody and/or abused in any way: bullied, teased, etc.... Need expert advice on all of this, please!!!!
After going through something traumatic from a man as a woman, I'm glad I found a woman exclusive vocal mix.
Don't get me wrong I do like male artists too but at the moment listening to fellow women sing makes me feel in a safe comforting space .
This video is old so no one will probably see my comment but, I'm glad it was made. 💝
I’m so sorry for what happened. I truly believe that men of any kind are good people, but desire is a heavy weight, many fallen soldiers turned into wicked, I hope you can recover and feel better, I don’t know what to say but I hope it helps
@@fen9007 It means a lot to hear something so comforting, as I wrote in a therapeutic poem to help me move on, each day the claws of trauma slip away,
"But know this one day you'll be a lost memory.
A lost memory flooded by all the happy tears from soft kisses of a woman I love, a child we adopt, a beloved pet, a myriad of light and joy that you will never be able to touch."
I heal more each day and even the comforting words of a well-meaning stranger help me with the strength in that battle.
Thank you for your kind words, I do hope one day I'll be able to see men in a kind light as you do, blessings from one stranger to another
@@halycon4923 I dont know if it helps, but I hope it does. I'm a straight white christian male, so i know society doesn't like me much but I hope it does give you hope knowing that even though this is who i am, I'm a good person, we aren't all wicked, whether or not society likes us. It takes so much power of mind and energy to overcome something like this but I know you can and for sure will.
@@fen9007 Thank you :)
@@halycon4923 anytime, have a wonderful day! :)
“This is the mix you’ve been looking for.”
How absolutely right you are. Thank you for this.
Wow this soundtrack and picture give me an overwhelming sense of loneliness. Like something big is happened out of shot in the near future, but this person either has nobody to share it with or cannot participate. I want to give them a hug ngl
It's a prediction of how people feel now that our freedoms and rights have been taken away.
This has got to be a dope mix because it's easily the most viewed "female vocal chillstep" and doesn't even have a lascivious image on it
tim shaufert is one of the most underated music producers, his music is absolutly beautiful
I found out that the one thing i love about winter is I slow down enough to really appreciate the beauty in these type of mixes. Love this one in particular!!
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It's the end of the world outside, nice to listen and relax to this .
This is defnly an end of the World as we know it... smoke a joint, see ya on the other side of this timeline...
@@AntonySimkin if I get there first I'll put in a good word in for you .
Y'all a little to paranoid. It's just a hard reset on society. If you can make it through a great depression, you'll survive. If not, that sucks for you.
Yea but this is nice to listen for now.for the end of the world.
@@jettironside9851 It isn't the end of the world lol.
[ 00:00:00 ] Tim Schaufert & CASHFORGOLD - Taking Flight
[ 00:02:53 ] Tim Schaufert & CASHFORGOLD - Too Far
[ 00:06:51 ] Tim Schaufert & CASHFORGOLD - Gone
[ 00:09:48 ] Finding Hope - Without You (feat. Holly Drummond)
[ 00:13:18 ] Tim Schaufert & CASHFORGOLD - Let You Go
[ 00:17:18 ] Tim Schaufert & CASHFORGOLD - Gold
[ 00:21:07 ] Salt Of The Sound - Made A Way
[ 00:24:52 ] Aurai - Turn This Around (feat. CASHFORGOLD)
[ 00:29:22 ] ESMO - Fade Away
[ 00:32:35 ] FutureFox - Fly Away Home (feat. Mona Moua)
[ 00:35:56 ] Kazukii - Heart (feat. Hikaru Station)
[ 00:38:54 ] Labelle - Know You
[ 00:42:52 ] Babel - Incredibly Close (feat. Wrenn)
[ 00:46:49 ] Aurora x Whithe - I'm Sorry
[ 00:51:19 ] Aurora - Only
[ 00:54:52 ] A Himitsu - Easier to Fade (feat. Madi Larson)
[ 00:58:40 ] Tim Schaufert & CASHFORGOLD - I'll Run Away
[ 01:01:35 ] Tim Schaufert & CASHFORGOLD - Bones
[ 01:05:11 ] Tim Schaufert & CASHFORGOLD - Memories
[ 01:08:35 ] Tim Schaufert & CASHFORGOLD - Lost
[ 01:12:04 ] FutureFox - Resistance (feat. Mona Moua)
[ 01:15:00 ] FutureFox - On My Mind
Thank you for this! I have RUclips running in the background and when a song catches my attention enough, I'll bring up the list and look at buying the song.
The track list is available, but they didn't put the time stamps on it. Thanks to you, I'll probably be dropping a few bucks on some songs soon.
@@Gladorn Aww, yay!! That makes me so happy to hear. :) I am the same way. Glad to help!
@@catnado Awesome username by the way ~~
@@SoulWhite haha, thank you!
@catnado a true hero, ty
I recently had to say goodbye to my 8 year old boxer/pitbull and best friend, Sammi. This is exactly what I needed. So comforting and beautiful. Thank you.
sorry for your loss, rest assured that one day you'll be together again
@@AL_McLoud thanks bro, appreciate it
Im so, So sorry!!😢 I had a Beautiful Pitt too.. I miss her every Day so i know how you feel💓 All I Can Say.. Its getting better and you Will be able to think of your dog with Joy and happiness for All the years you had with her without its so painful.. I promise💓🙏🌹💕
@@sunshine7861 thank you!
J.M. Maul I’m so sorry. I’ve been there. Worst thing ever in my life. Sending you love and peace
Tough time like now, when the world is agonizing, this music calms me down.
ruclips.net/video/ItfYJxNBhiI/видео.html not me but very beautiful 💓
Thank U very much♥️My Brother. Dziękuję Ci bardzo♥️Mój Bracie. From Poland♥️☝️👍😊
Dude this mix is so amazing. I'm browsing the internet while listening to this in the background and I keep getting snapped out of my focus back onto the music. Only really good music has that effect on me. Been searching for many dubstep videos to find one worthy of listening to. Thanks man
I love you sheepy, there's always a mix that feels what my heart is feeling and can improve my mood. Xx
panic attk brought me here. staying. and gonna drown my brain in this wonderful mix
STOP GLORIFYING ANXIETY, STOP VICTIMIZING. YOU ARE THE DESCENDENT OF AN APEX PREDATOR, ACT LIKE IT
Thx you for this transcending mix..! My girl left me & took our baby... All I have is the music to keep me going at this point. Mad love to whoever made this, your my inspiration...
I think I listen to this mix every single day and I never get tired of it.
I'm poor but I just want you to know I throughly enjoy this very much and to the artists and collaboration makers my hat is off and bowed to yee
I've never commented on a mix before, but damn this one is just amazing. Thanks alot for posting and making it.
DGM-[]-DaGoodMusic i can only agree this mix is actually good compared to others
Go and Listen to to "Dig the Connection" and "Wishing" by Diversion
Never commented on a mix before??? And how is THAT humanly possible!?
Lol
im looking for a song, music is a simple guitar strum and a beat. vocals are something like "you and i, you and i, why you have to....".
songs was in 2015 or 2016. i think song title was kites
In my opinion its the best chillstep mix on youtube!
this is not the mix I was looking for, but its the mix I needed
Preach.
毎日、寝る前にbedの中で聴いてます。Thank you!
This is nice for that feeling when your close to being broken again
Tim Schaufert & CASHFORGOLD are legends when it comes to music and female vocals.
The message in the beginning .. I thought was a bold claim .. but it lived up to the claim .. this is exactly the track i was searching .. the dream like creamy music plus my RHA MA750 .. mind blown. Earned yourself a subscriber mate.. keep up the good work.
yeah @aditya khanna I thought so too but wasn't dissapointed at all. Big ups to @chillout sloth for this. I really enjoy cash for gold so was pretty sold when I heard them..
Music like this makes me realize that we're all alone together and its sadly beautiful.
LOVE THE OPENING TRACK! The first track has to draw the listeners in to want more, and I want more. Thank You!! Bass on point...
This playlist is a masterpiece! 🔥🔥🔥
Imagining the wallaper of a demon lord of destruction standing with full power & energy, full of rage!!! 🔥🔥🔥
I have never commented on a mix from my memory, I'm.speechless. the best mix I have ever heard in my life hands down.
Have had this on loop for about 1 month when working. My productivity has been amazing!
Bass up+ volume up= ignoring the world thx for the great vid
I travel everynight in my mind ,i visit places and moments that dont exist anymore everytime i hear this mix thank you very much
One of the best compilations I've heard so far.
Plz god let this heal my soul🙏
Find Jesus honey. This ain’t it 😅
@@xaviergarza4315 have fun sinning in someone's name you claim to love
@@xaviergarza4315 yeshua save this womans soul
It did
@@liztowers2058 it does
One of the best mixes I've ever had the extreme pleasure of listening to
Thank you to the people of the comment section, I'm single and lonely af, just wanted something to wind down with before bed. You've all saved me a great deal of depression and literally balling my eyes out. Thanks, I'm out, I'd take hardstyle and insomnia over the former.
This entire mix hit me right in the feels. Its bittersweet and it made my day. This is a beautiful mix. Thank you for this.
Laying in bed in darkness, listening to this and silently crying.... love it
hope you better now
♡
We’re here for you friend :) eternally
Me rn :')
Hope u r doing better now♡
this deserves more than a like a button its so beautiful to my ears amazing
Amazing....honestly, this takes me away from the daily anxiety I have.
Thank you so much.......truly beautiful.
I can relate so much to the vocals, even though sad, somehow it brings me some peace ❤🙏❤
This isolation is no different for me.
Stay well my friends....sending so much love, peace, health and determination to get through this time.
Whatever brings you comfort, peace, faith and hope....mine is music. Xo
This inspired me to keep writing just as I was going to bed. Kind of glad, I got some good shit. But its now nearly midnight and I got to get up for work at 5! So...thanks for the inspiration, but FU for keeping me up so late
good luck with what you write tho!
The female voice always makes it better..
i feel like giving up everything now, sadly the music goes with this flow now too...thank you for the tracks .. listening to them feels soothing
giving up ? no bro don't.
Anything inspired by Illenium won't disappoint ❤️🔥
It's not often that I find a music mix where I like every single song in it. Amazing!
I slept incredibly well with this mix. I've tried many. I'm sure its the female vocals. Amazing work buddy.
ruclips.net/video/ItfYJxNBhiI/видео.html not me but very beautiful 💓 amazing vocals
I want to say this is my favorite song but every next song is just as good
Such a bold claim, but I have to say this IS the mix I've been looking for... For years... 🙏🙏
That first drop gave me goosebumps!
Relaxing music and awesome Video. I wish everyone reading this, good health and success in their life ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Seriously brother, this is some top notch shit here. The chill factor and all female vocals are just mind-blowingly awesome. If you want to melt into a chair listen to this late at night.
listening to this for years still good
10 seconds into the video and I'm like
"SMASH THAT LIKE BUTTON"
2023...I've been listening to this 2 yrs ago...never gets old😊
Thank you for this beautiful music. At the drs office nervous with anxiety af and this is helping me calm down
Love this Playlist!
Perfect valve for extremly shitty days. Thank you so much for it.
26 minutes into this mix...wow...BAD ASS SONG!!!
And no, will not turn it around or off...but UP (volume-wise) ABSOLUTELY!!!!
Exactly the kind of music I was looking for, great mix, thanks!
I really love this channel. Thanks for sharing. Watching from Singapore
Love listening to this when I need to cry
cashforgold is amazing. I love her voice
always come back to this mix
ME TOO HOW DO I USE GOGOLE IT KEEPS SENDING ME HERE
@@Kleptari a
Perfect to grind in bdo relax xD.
SexPuppet on the Ceiling???
OH WOW.... I'm not even a music person I just happened to stumble here looking for sleep music.... I was like wait.... This music has a really good sound.... Then I heard the second song, and INSTANTLY I was reborn... You cannot tell me there is a person on this earth that could listen to that sound, that voice, that beat, that rhythm, that arrangement, that freaking PULSE.... And NOT be taken into a trance and physically woken up!!!! Damn...
Im thinking like @#*& I'll be sleeping NOW! This stuff is off the charts....
Each song just gets better! The voice man.. it's like she effortlessly BREATHES the song into my ears.
Excellent video man xx
Omg a duet with Ali Gatie! That'd be sweet!
this mix is so beautiful i listen for hours it help anxiety
Love this mix. Hate the ads
Wow this is exactly what I always hoped for and never got from the lofi hip hop study radio blah (you know which one). This is amazing. Thank you so so much, I'm finally gettin some work done over here hah.
Anyway, instant like and subscribe, keep that shit coming.
Thanks for this piece of gold
We need more of these. Great mix
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Agreed
Thanks i appreciate it, helps me concentrate on work
this mix gave me chills. nicely done man
“Man” punny hehe with the title... sorry ima go sleep now
I feel peaceful and relaxed whenever listening to this!! Many thanks for making videos like this.
So, I want to thank you for putting together this mix, because it was a terrible, beautiful, and necessary experience that this triggered.
Allow me to explain.
So, many years ago, after having three women I loved die - I was romantically involved with each; one was murdered, one died of cancer, and another of organ failure caused by Lupus Erithymatosus - I sort of shut down, emotionally. Between and beyond them, there was a string of incredibly emotionally damaged women, whom I wish the best, but who didn't do much for my faith that love was meant for me.
The last became the mother of my daughter, and with no malice in my heart, I can say that she's basically ruined my life, and has done a pretty bang-up job of trying to ruin my daughter's, who is now 12, and is finally going to be living with me again. However, losing custody of her, after her mother left us when she was five, only to have her come crawling back to the state where we live and lie through her teeth to a judge, she managed to get custody, and my daughter and I have been suffering her ever since.
When I was at my lowest, out of nowhere, I stumbled across this playlist, started it, and laid down to sleep. Instead of a good night's rest, it gave me something much more valuable. I would say invaluable: my first, last, and only full-blown panic attack in my lifetime.
This might sound awful, and full disclosure: it was. I actually thought I might be dying, when it was happening.
By the time it got to "Let You Go," I had been drifting in true twilight sleep, between waking and sleeping, where the conscious and subconscious mind mingle, and play with memory and emotion in ways that all our technology can't truly calculate, and most will never truly appreciate.
Though I had never heard the song, some part of me just seemed to meld with it. Such that I ended up hearing and even feeling my long-dead fiance` - the one who died of Lupus - next to me in bed. It was so jarring, when my conscious mind picked it up, that I rolled over expecting to see her, forgetting where and even WHEN I was. In that moment, I lost her again.
The difference was that this time, I truly let it flow through me. You see, when she went into acute organ failure, and was flown to St. Louis, I set out from Oklahoma City. Unfortunately, my car's engine blew out a fair distance across the Kansas Border. For those wondering why I headed north to go through Kansas City, it was because I-44 was an absolute slog in those days, because of seemingly endless construction. Anyone who got near Tulsa over that span - some years ago, now - will remember.
Of course, the time it would take didn't matter, with no direct flights available before the following day, and travel by car being faster, I just went. However, by the time I could get a flight out the next day, it was too late. She had died, alone, in that hospital, and I wasn't at her side. I had never forgiven myself for not being there.
Of course, it wasn't until this moment, listening to this music, my mind reeling in the half-light, that I had actually realized it, and let myself grieve. Something about the lyrics of "Let You Go," and how similar Jacqueline's singing voice was to Malaina's - the lady I lost, who was a composer, singer, and pianist - sent me over the edge. My heart felt like it was going to pound out of my chest, feeling her for a moment only to have her ripped away again. I could barely breathe enough not to pass out, and it felt like there was no air in the room. And I realized, it wasn't just Malaina. It was all the loves I'd lost, tragically, piled on top of all the friends I lost from my time in the Marines, and both my parents and much of my family and friends who had passed over the years.
I like to think that was their final gift to me: helping me heal. And that was the moment they chose, and she was the one who they sent, so that I could hear that song.... and finally let go, and move forward.
So, thanks for this. It has provided many hours of peace and comfort to me, as I stitch all my anger, pain, grief, loss, and suffering into the fabric and fiber of my being, and go on living as if they were still here, to honor their memory, and all they gave me.
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dammmn, what a tragic, but beautiful story of superation. Keep going, my dude! It's never too late for anything.
I don't even have words for this honest, all I can say is thank you for holding on to humanity holding on to reality after losing even half of what you did most people would just shut down forever thank you so much for allowing yourself to heal no matter how long it may take just keep holding on I don't know if you believe in reincarnation but I believe that the Universe shall always balance the scales all that pain shall manifest equal measure love and beauty please just hold on
Can't sleep, won't sleep. If I go to sleep, it will be tomorrow. If only tomorrow could stay a day away.
Listened to the first 3min and felt in Love. Great work!
Loving this, a good mix is hard to find. Glad I stumbled across this mix. Thanks for making it.
Amazing! Gets me in to that zone where my mind exploring the impossible
Me too, now i'm jerking off, but it was a nice experience.
Top Naita what the hell
Was able to just chill and Code out! whew perfect for them late night pressure coding projects from work that's due the next day
Absolutely stunning. Thank you, I love it. Exactly what I needed.
Nice listen and relax this song
Great mix! Bonus pts for not having any ads. Let the music just take you away. 5 stars
Agree
I got a Ad e.e
I got 6 ads...
Well i got 5 fkn ads
i got 7 lmao
Finally Made it Here! Take me away from this Madness!, in the Backyard got me a 6’er of some local Sour, bout to whip up some Good chicken Curry and basmati rice! (Smallthingsinlifegetyouby)
this was what i needed. Thanks for making
One of the few good things on the new generation...
You can't really hate on this mix if you're into this type of music because the mix is out well together aswell.
You cant find a better mix, that s the prob
Chillout Sloth is best sloth. 10/10 would chill again.
Destruction screams when creation soils in silence. Tnx for vibes friend.
"This is the mix you've been looking for" You so right, this some good stuff. 😭👍
I feel like this should be the sound track for Alita
boi i was just thinking the same thing
Alita was a bomb ass movie 😎
@@iiLitez Nope alita did not bomb at the box office
Potato King fuck the numbers, that movie was enjoyable af, just means a lot of people missed out
But why?
This I've been returning to aswell as skeler an other synthwave mixes nice very nice.😊❤
This was absolutely amazing, thank you for this list.
Finally no ads all through the mix. We made it y'all! 🎉 Lol
why doctors ordering more pills,they should tell people about this kind music,songs...Close your eyes,put headphones on and...go where ever you wonna go.Btw I'm 68 yo and I know that being not okay is okay b/c everything will be fine.Thank you for this masterpiece!
Thank you for posting your comment.
I feel the same...im 47 and sometimes feel silly or immature that I listen to this type of music at my age.
Its honestly better than any pill out there.
Thanks for sharing.....be well❤
Thanks this is exactly what i was looking for
I have listened to a lot of Chillstep the last year, been loving it.
This mix made me interested in this type of music, thank you!
Welcome to chillstep
a bit late but actually the same thing here, now I'm back after i forgot this mix for a long time
Beautiful ❤ songs relax 😊 me
OMG YES I FOUND IT! I FINALLY FOUND IT!
One of the nicest composition mix must listen. 100% recommended to listen.