This is EXACTLY how I feel, I identify as nonbinary and use "trans" as a blanket term. I'm also on low dose T. I have always shied away from the word "man" for the same reasons. Thanks for sharing your thoughts ☺️
Hey I am a closeted transgender man. I want to go on a low dose of t. How obvious were the changes from low dose t? Would my family notice the first five or 6 months?
@@WhoamI-su7pg It's all based on genetics, so there's no telling what changes you'd see right away, but low dose changes will be slower than regular dosage. I have a video of me at 6 months if you'd like to watch it and see the changes I had over that period of time.
I’m in a similar place. Currently ID as trans non binary, but also letting myself feel free to explore & accept the possibility that my identity might shift in the future esp as my body changes on T. Sometimes I play around w the idea of being a “demi-boy” and other times I’m just so exasperated by labels entirely that I just call myself “trans” and leave it at that lol. No other clarifying terms. Idk if you’ve done a video about this, but I’d love to hear your thoughts on the topic of “doubt” as a trans non-binary person. Like do you ever question if you really are trans? Do you ever get intrusive thoughts about your identity? Sometimes I struggle with uncertainty and it really sucks.
Good talk. I am also nonbinary and transmasculine, although I’m on normal doses of T for now. People are confused. My solution has been mostly to not talk about it, lol. So I appreciate you being brave and open about it. This gender stuff is still kinda experimental, tbh. I’m feeling stuff out. I’m happier so far. I don’t pass as a man at all and don’t really want to. Not sure if or when I’ll get to a point where I’m like, this is masculine enough, no further. I just want to live in a society that doesn’t care too much if my gender is confusing.
Oh also, your openness about transition made me feel a lot more comfortable about my decision to go on T. In the vast and disconnected space of the internet, it’s hard to see how you affect people. But your work has changed me for the better, so thank you. 🙏
Same! I’m on low dose T so I can gauge if I like the changes or not. It just sucks that I have don’t really have an idea in mind of when I should stop. Because when you’re non-binary you’re not really transitioning “to” something but “away” from something and that can look like anything...I’m scared that I’ll go too far and end up feeling more dysphoric.
Same. Its so hard to explain to people. Ive had such a hard time explaining it to my partner. Found a youtube video done by one topic today. It wasnt meant to blow my mind but the end of it explains nonbinary in a biologically sound way i havent heard before. Inow know a way to explain it. Showed my partner she got her mind blown too. Like a lightbulb.
I am still not sure if I'm really nonbinary or maybe a trans guy. I hope when I start transitioning, my direction will become more clear, as I figure out where my comfort zone lies in my body. I just want to feel comfortable in my body, I never have since puberty :(
I completely relate to how you feel!! I present very masculine but i also don’t feel comfortable with identifying as a trans man myself. I think for me it’s like I’m closing off a part of myself that I’ve come to be proud of in terms of how I can be feminine on the inside. Some times it feels like it’d be easier to say I identify as a binary gender but I genuinely feel very much so right in the middle of the spectrum. Love your content dude thank you for sharing!! 💕
i agree so much on this, i will be going on low dose T but i dont want to be a cis male, i still am non binary at the end of the day. Thanks for sharing your experience as there’s not much about trans non binary on YT🙌
You're not alone on this! I do not like labels either cause I just couldn't put myself in a box. One of my good friends, asked me recently if I would ever call myself a "man" and I responded "maybe" just cause I don't know what the future will unfold and I've been more open to the idea of possibilities and changes in the future. What really eased my mind was a conversation I had with one of my good friends and he mentioned that I didn't need to put myself in a box. Instead he mentioned, I had my own spectrum and to just enjoy the journey of exploring my identity. This was a great topic, Meg! I'm glad to know there are individuals like us that think similarly. We're all in this together. :D
I love your personality so much and I would totally also just watch videos of you doing things unrelated to T updates - trying baking, going on an adventure someplace, new craft projects, or things like that. Also, both my mom and I have gotten Meg's art before and 10/10 totally recommend it's adorable!
I'm pretty new to your videos because I've been considering low-dose T, and your comment about "man" being too locked down is exactly how I feel. Thank you for this video and all you do :)
i love your willingness to go with the flow, just say idk, and take changes as they come. i get so stressed out in trans spaces when everyone is asking questions looking for definite answers, the perfect label, an exact plan for the future, etc. that sometimes it's hard for me to use those as resources. but you're so easy going and reassuring! and you're really good at explaining your feelings. so thank you for everything you do!
When I first started playing with my gender, I was scared to use the trans adjective. I felt like non-binary was something other than trans. After a talk with Florence Ashley, I came to feel comfortable with non-binary being a trans identity. Trans as an umbrella term for anyone not cis was very helpful. So, I use trans/non-binary all the time. Because I can and because I want to stress that I'm not a 'lite' version of the gender forced on me at birth. I'm not a man either. However, I knew I needed testosterone. Needed it as much as I need oxygen. But I'm neither woman nor man. I'm non-binary. T helps me get the body features that I always thought I should have. And trans/non-binary just makes sense to me as an adjective. I'm not my birth gender (trans); I'm something else (non-binary). When the doubts creep in... you know... "am I really just a man..." I immediately know that's not true. Just like being misgendered as a woman feels like nails on a chalkboard sounds, people using masc-coded words to refer to me feels the same. It's just not right. Meg, your "check in with yourself" advice is a part of my life now. The difficulty I'm having right now is deciding on top surgery. I started this journey more than happy to keep my chest as is. As the days go by, my chest is becoming uncomfortable. But I still have days where I am completely neutral to my chest. Also, I'm depressed and usually dissociated, so I'm not sure the feels I've been having are depression feels. And checking in with myself is starting to cause more confusion than clarity :( I'm blaming it on the depression, though. Checking in with ourselves is a gentleness and kindness we all deserve and need. I'm having more days where I need top surgery. Which is kind of surprising haha. But I'm staying open to this possibility. And I still have 6 months before I can even talk to a doctor about it. Take care everyone!
I relate to this SO MUCH. I identify as NB and will start on T soon and hopefully chest surgery in couple of years, but I can't identify myself as a trans men because I have a lot of trauma related to men and I never have good role models from men lol. If I have a choice I would not want to be a men. So I'm most comfortable identifying as NB
I sort of feel a similar way, but maybe a little more masc aligned. I also feel like trans man specifically is a little too much for me but I also don't feel connected enough to nonbinary to ID as that, so I usually just say transmasculine and leave it at that, although it doesn't bother me a whole lot if I'm grouped in with trans men by people.
i know this is an extremely late reply but i feel the exact same way and just wanted to thank you for making me feel a little less alone 🙏🏽🙏🏽 i hope you’re doing well my friend
Megan always felt like a masculine name to me. Maybe bc I’m also named Megan and I’ve always felt more masculine. I’ve been calling myself Mark and trans in my head recently though. Haven’t quite made the jump to trans man
Hey Meg! Thanks for making this video! I appreciate it. I totally agree about my gender just being me. My gender is just who I am and right now, my visual appearance doesn't represent how I see my self on the inside so I identify as trans non-binary. Just like you said, things could change in the future and then I would re-label myself but I also don't like getting hung up on labels. I like your discord server, it's well organized and ppl are chill. Have a great day and congrats on your art! It's so cute!
Thank you for making this video! This was just a passing comment, but I was interested to hear that you used to use the term genderqueer before switching to nonbinary. This is something I've been thinking a lot about recently, and I'd be interested to hear how/if you see them being different and what made you change terms!
I now identify as polygenderflux. My pronouns are now he/faer/she. Nothing quite fit, so I took modern terms and made one that does. I think that’s ok. Prior to this I was telling people that my gender is a pendulum. So at least it’s a step up from “gender pendulum.” I mean I know it’s a little funny, like I did even laugh at myself a little, but I just needed a way to describe myself that felt accurate so I had to get creative and that part was serious for me because without an identifier I just didn’t feel valid (even though I know the reality is that I am). I needed that for me.
I recently found you on TikTok and have become such a big fan, I love watching all of your content💕 can’t wait to get my apparel in the mail!! I would love for you to do a Q&A video maybe, where we can send in questions just about your general life😸 not sure if you’ve already done this, but would love to know more about you!
hi lauryn! thanks so much for the love and support! i’ve posted in my community posts on my channel about a Q&A so feel free to head over there to ask me some questions!
This is EXACTLY how I feel, I identify as nonbinary and use "trans" as a blanket term. I'm also on low dose T. I have always shied away from the word "man" for the same reasons. Thanks for sharing your thoughts ☺️
Hey I am a closeted transgender man. I want to go on a low dose of t. How obvious were the changes from low dose t? Would my family notice the first five or 6 months?
@@WhoamI-su7pg It's all based on genetics, so there's no telling what changes you'd see right away, but low dose changes will be slower than regular dosage. I have a video of me at 6 months if you'd like to watch it and see the changes I had over that period of time.
I’m in a similar place. Currently ID as trans non binary, but also letting myself feel free to explore & accept the possibility that my identity might shift in the future esp as my body changes on T. Sometimes I play around w the idea of being a “demi-boy” and other times I’m just so exasperated by labels entirely that I just call myself “trans” and leave it at that lol. No other clarifying terms.
Idk if you’ve done a video about this, but I’d love to hear your thoughts on the topic of “doubt” as a trans non-binary person. Like do you ever question if you really are trans? Do you ever get intrusive thoughts about your identity? Sometimes I struggle with uncertainty and it really sucks.
I also struggle with doubt and intrusive thoughts and would love to see a video about it.
Yep, imposter syndrome is real for me.
Good talk. I am also nonbinary and transmasculine, although I’m on normal doses of T for now. People are confused. My solution has been mostly to not talk about it, lol. So I appreciate you being brave and open about it. This gender stuff is still kinda experimental, tbh. I’m feeling stuff out. I’m happier so far. I don’t pass as a man at all and don’t really want to. Not sure if or when I’ll get to a point where I’m like, this is masculine enough, no further. I just want to live in a society that doesn’t care too much if my gender is confusing.
Oh also, your openness about transition made me feel a lot more comfortable about my decision to go on T. In the vast and disconnected space of the internet, it’s hard to see how you affect people. But your work has changed me for the better, so thank you. 🙏
Same! I’m on low dose T so I can gauge if I like the changes or not. It just sucks that I have don’t really have an idea in mind of when I should stop. Because when you’re non-binary you’re not really transitioning “to” something but “away” from something and that can look like anything...I’m scared that I’ll go too far and end up feeling more dysphoric.
I’m so exhausted by gender. I just wish it wasn’t such an important qualifier.
Same. Its so hard to explain to people. Ive had such a hard time explaining it to my partner. Found a youtube video done by one topic today. It wasnt meant to blow my mind but the end of it explains nonbinary in a biologically sound way i havent heard before. Inow know a way to explain it. Showed my partner she got her mind blown too. Like a lightbulb.
I am still not sure if I'm really nonbinary or maybe a trans guy. I hope when I start transitioning, my direction will become more clear, as I figure out where my comfort zone lies in my body. I just want to feel comfortable in my body, I never have since puberty :(
I completely relate to how you feel!! I present very masculine but i also don’t feel comfortable with identifying as a trans man myself. I think for me it’s like I’m closing off a part of myself that I’ve come to be proud of in terms of how I can be feminine on the inside. Some times it feels like it’d be easier to say I identify as a binary gender but I genuinely feel very much so right in the middle of the spectrum. Love your content dude thank you for sharing!! 💕
i agree so much on this, i will be going on low dose T but i dont want to be a cis male, i still am non binary at the end of the day. Thanks for sharing your experience as there’s not much about trans non binary on YT🙌
You're not alone on this! I do not like labels either cause I just couldn't put myself in a box. One of my good friends, asked me recently if I would ever call myself a "man" and I responded "maybe" just cause I don't know what the future will unfold and I've been more open to the idea of possibilities and changes in the future.
What really eased my mind was a conversation I had with one of my good friends and he mentioned that I didn't need to put myself in a box. Instead he mentioned, I had my own spectrum and to just enjoy the journey of exploring my identity.
This was a great topic, Meg! I'm glad to know there are individuals like us that think similarly. We're all in this together. :D
I love your personality so much and I would totally also just watch videos of you doing things unrelated to T updates - trying baking, going on an adventure someplace, new craft projects, or things like that. Also, both my mom and I have gotten Meg's art before and 10/10 totally recommend it's adorable!
I'm pretty new to your videos because I've been considering low-dose T, and your comment about "man" being too locked down is exactly how I feel. Thank you for this video and all you do :)
This is making so many light bulbs go on for me! Thank you meg!
i love your willingness to go with the flow, just say idk, and take changes as they come. i get so stressed out in trans spaces when everyone is asking questions looking for definite answers, the perfect label, an exact plan for the future, etc. that sometimes it's hard for me to use those as resources. but you're so easy going and reassuring! and you're really good at explaining your feelings. so thank you for everything you do!
I really appreciate you sharing this journey about labels versus not labels.
I am so glad I found your videos again thank you❤
When I first started playing with my gender, I was scared to use the trans adjective. I felt like non-binary was something other than trans. After a talk with Florence Ashley, I came to feel comfortable with non-binary being a trans identity. Trans as an umbrella term for anyone not cis was very helpful. So, I use trans/non-binary all the time. Because I can and because I want to stress that I'm not a 'lite' version of the gender forced on me at birth. I'm not a man either. However, I knew I needed testosterone. Needed it as much as I need oxygen. But I'm neither woman nor man. I'm non-binary. T helps me get the body features that I always thought I should have. And trans/non-binary just makes sense to me as an adjective. I'm not my birth gender (trans); I'm something else (non-binary).
When the doubts creep in... you know... "am I really just a man..." I immediately know that's not true. Just like being misgendered as a woman feels like nails on a chalkboard sounds, people using masc-coded words to refer to me feels the same. It's just not right.
Meg, your "check in with yourself" advice is a part of my life now. The difficulty I'm having right now is deciding on top surgery. I started this journey more than happy to keep my chest as is. As the days go by, my chest is becoming uncomfortable. But I still have days where I am completely neutral to my chest. Also, I'm depressed and usually dissociated, so I'm not sure the feels I've been having are depression feels. And checking in with myself is starting to cause more confusion than clarity :( I'm blaming it on the depression, though. Checking in with ourselves is a gentleness and kindness we all deserve and need.
I'm having more days where I need top surgery. Which is kind of surprising haha. But I'm staying open to this possibility. And I still have 6 months before I can even talk to a doctor about it.
Take care everyone!
I relate to this SO MUCH. I identify as NB and will start on T soon and hopefully chest surgery in couple of years, but I can't identify myself as a trans men because I have a lot of trauma related to men and I never have good role models from men lol. If I have a choice I would not want to be a men. So I'm most comfortable identifying as NB
I always love your perspectives
I sort of feel a similar way, but maybe a little more masc aligned. I also feel like trans man specifically is a little too much for me but I also don't feel connected enough to nonbinary to ID as that, so I usually just say transmasculine and leave it at that, although it doesn't bother me a whole lot if I'm grouped in with trans men by people.
i know this is an extremely late reply but i feel the exact same way and just wanted to thank you for making me feel a little less alone 🙏🏽🙏🏽 i hope you’re doing well my friend
Megan always felt like a masculine name to me. Maybe bc I’m also named Megan and I’ve always felt more masculine. I’ve been calling myself Mark and trans in my head recently though. Haven’t quite made the jump to trans man
Hey Meg! Thanks for making this video! I appreciate it. I totally agree about my gender just being me. My gender is just who I am and right now, my visual appearance doesn't represent how I see my self on the inside so I identify as trans non-binary. Just like you said, things could change in the future and then I would re-label myself but I also don't like getting hung up on labels.
I like your discord server, it's well organized and ppl are chill. Have a great day and congrats on your art! It's so cute!
Thank you for sharing Meg!!!
This video was very affirming. Thank you!
Thank you I feel very similarly :-)
Thank you for making this video! This was just a passing comment, but I was interested to hear that you used to use the term genderqueer before switching to nonbinary. This is something I've been thinking a lot about recently, and I'd be interested to hear how/if you see them being different and what made you change terms!
Thank you for this, I need to hear it right now
always love to hear from you 💕
I now identify as polygenderflux. My pronouns are now he/faer/she. Nothing quite fit, so I took modern terms and made one that does. I think that’s ok. Prior to this I was telling people that my gender is a pendulum. So at least it’s a step up from “gender pendulum.” I mean I know it’s a little funny, like I did even laugh at myself a little, but I just needed a way to describe myself that felt accurate so I had to get creative and that part was serious for me because without an identifier I just didn’t feel valid (even though I know the reality is that I am). I needed that for me.
I recently found you on TikTok and have become such a big fan, I love watching all of your content💕 can’t wait to get my apparel in the mail!! I would love for you to do a Q&A video maybe, where we can send in questions just about your general life😸 not sure if you’ve already done this, but would love to know more about you!
hi lauryn! thanks so much for the love and support! i’ve posted in my community posts on my channel about a Q&A so feel free to head over there to ask me some questions!
@@megemiko omg yay thank you!!!💕
Very that!! Can you do a video about top surgery?