I can't stress how valuable you are as a person. Going through what you have and still being one of the nicest people genuinely makes this world a better place. I can't relate to everything you've been through, but I can to some of the stuff. If you read this, there are a few things I really want you to know. 1. Self love is something you build up and grow, and people saying mean things usually say them because they have insecurities of their own. Don't take what they say as absolute truth 2. You sharing these experiences and reflections absolutely does help a lot of people, including me 3. I have had so many nights where I also couldn't sleep due to thoughts and medical stuff as well, but thoughts can be very influential to how you feel, and if you are able to not forget but to accept things you are not comfortable with, it can be just as influential but in a positive way. My philosophy on things is if you are able to change something you want to, work towards it. Make a plan and put in effort. If you are not able to change something, work towards being ok with that. 4. Find something you enjoy doing and make a purpose for yourself. You have a lot more potential than you think I know I'm also a stranger on here, but if you ever want to play a game sometime, hmu
similar story here, at a position where i'm not too sure who i am and what makes me me. guess it gives me the ability to create what i want but its kind of scary for meeting new people when they ask about me and my only answer is "nothing of note really, i'm pretty boring."
I have no clue about "Splatoon" but if she loves it as much as I love playing War Thunder then I get it. It's great to be immersed in another world, albeit virtual. We need food for our minds the same way we need to eat and drink. Escapism, in a good way, is very important.
I am very invested in your journey to happiness! Keep at it and keep going at your own pace! I'm not sure how much of this will get to you but get yourself a snack that you like haha.
Ito it's great to see you haven't given up but don't be afraid to reach out for help if you're having trouble in your life. Your mom gave you some good advice in that you should communicate if you're having a moment of weakness. Other than that it's good to see you moving forward and I wish you all the best 🎉
People don't dislike you for existing - some people do, inevitably, but not people in general. It is not a reflection on you. No matter who you are, some people will just dislike you. Criminals exist everywhere, so you will always find crime where-ever you go, but it has nothing to do with you. I've never found anywhere I truly belong externally, but I've cultivated an amazing internal/personal life and home. Society is difficult for anyone who doesn't fully fit in with the mainstream, but that doesn't mean there's a problem with you!
Happy 19th Birthday イト, cheers to more years on this earth, it'll pay off in the long run. Just remember that the people who struggle the most, are the really good people who don't deserve it. I know this is a probably a random reference, but just think about Brandon Rogers in his clown video saying "One day you'll be happy!", sure it's funny and depressing as hell in the context of that video, but it might give you a smile.
Every time you upload I can't even feel the time passing by while watching your videos😭. I know It's all parasocial but even the illusion of chilling with a friend and listening to what they have to say is nice. Kinda bitter sweet cause we only have so much energy to spare, and having an audience means not being able to form bonds with everyone. The sad thing is that the negative comments will get the most attention cause our brains be like that. I'm grateful I found this RUclips channel, It's a very special place in my heart. Sometimes having someone to relate to is all you need to not give up...
Happy birthday 🙂 You'll eventually find the courage to open up fully to someone. If you feel comfortable, there are online counselors you can talk to for free, and with total anonymity. If you want to open up more on RUclips, you should get yourself a channel moderator to weed out those hateful comments before you read them. Keep being you, and try not to let those hateful comments dictate how you feel about yourself. There's always going to be someone who projects their ignorance and insecurities onto others; no matter who you are.
i lowkey dont know how to explain this but this type of content is just eccentrically interesting. its like im peeking into sb's life and going through their life with them like a frd :D
I think she has changed a lot since I saw her first video More probably because she has understood more about life and herself maybe by talking about them,to be honest at first I didn't think she is strong to face things in her life and her past and she scapes them(I don't like judging people I just felt a bit),now I see what a strong and logical person she has become and in my point of view SHE IS A GOOD PERSON. Yeah sometimes people and environment make us feel sad,less confident and ... I hope it gets better for everyone and they control their life as she is trying too."NEVER GIVE UP" For my last word this sense of belonging nowhere and looking for something we can call home,I used to think about it a lot.this is a constant feeling in life, sometimes strong and sometimes weak, I could make it more under control by knowing more about myself,my goals and questioning my reason to live, Paying more attention to myself and ... REALLY HELPED. I hope this was useful:)
You're amazing, ito. Your videos are soothing, actually, thank you for being there. About bullying... It's just that all people are different. It's okay as long as they don't harm others. That girl could be dismissive of the quiet ones, it's irrational, but it doesn't make you any worse. You're amazing the way you are. Everyone has their own views, all people are different, but it just makes the world more diverse. and that's okay. someone may not like noisy people, someone may not like quiet people, someone may not like people themselves and/or any other creatures. Does this mean that humans and other creatures are bad? No. It's just that no one is like each other in everything. You're different too, but I'm just as different. and the people who subscribe to you are also different. and the unsigned ones are also different. after all, again, everyone is different. this is something that you just need to understand and try to realize, even if it's hard. You're doing great, ito, and I'm very glad to know you.
Those nightmares are the worst, I hope yours will stop some day. Hopefully you have a splattoon themed dream tonight lol. Knowing you're out there fighting gives a lot of people motivation to keep on fighting too (including me). Also that switch is so cute, I need it 😤
I don’t really get why do people say uncanny or smth smth like unreal, but i do really like how you say you’re reality life on a public platform… its like me talking myself about my life but yours is different lvl you put on youtube platform. But we are here for you! 🙌🏻
You have a very kind soul and the world doesn't treat kind souls very well. When you have a tender heart, rude people will poke it when you share it. Ignore your haters and the real people in your life know you better than any internet random person. Good luck at your new school and I'd love to see your decoration video.
12:49 It's not that people dislike you. They just have a belief that sets a bias to what they perceive. It's whatever is going on inside of them, must likely subconscious, that sets their "programming". 15:02 You are making perfect sense. Good processing and breaking down what has happened. You're a good person from what i have seen. You are a lot stronger than you know. The impact of the difficulties and memories that make you sad and cry can be reduced by learning to see them for what they and not engaging personally with them. You will understand some day. It really comes down to loving yourself and fully seeing you have alot of value and power. Know your worth and so much to give to the world.
i used to have an online video diary... 😂 ... its so fun posting. i enjoy your content. its down to earth.its nice to have a parasocial friendship sometimes😅 but i deleted my whole huge amount of videos. its so hard to be open with random strangers. because you just never know what kind of critisim you will get. and man, did iget some dark, mean, but true... wake up calls..
I'm glad you have so many people who love and care about you. Just be careful because some people on the Internet are very mean. I noticed that if I'm online for too long without taking breaks, I start getting more and more cranky. Like my brain starts getting slower and slower and it's really bad for my mood. So if someone says something hateful or insensitive to you, try not to take it too seriously. It could just be somone who is cranky.😅 It could just be an immature person, an insecure person taking anger out on someone else to make themselves feel better. Maybe they didn't realize how hurtful they were being. For some communities it's normal to pick on each other. Kinda like an unspoken language. Sometimes people take it for granted that we all speak the same language. Even within just English language there are different customs that get lost in translation. Everyone is different so don't feel too bad if someone says something that hurts your feelings. I worry about you partly because you seem really nice and sensitive. Being sensitive makes it easier for us to notice things that others might not notice but it also makes it easier for our feeling to get hurt. And getting popular on social media comes with lots of haters so be careful. We need to have the ability to stand up for ourselves but that can be difficult sometimes because we want to be respectful to people. It's a difficult balancing act. I gotta remind myself that we can respect others while still respecting ourselves. and asking others to do the same. Watching you play Splatoon sounds like fun. Good luck. ☘️
Id be willing to bet that the korean girl in your class doesnt dislike you, I think sometimes when we are uncomfortable or in a place (like class) that makes us anxious, our minds might interpret things negatively or our minds might distort things because we expect bad things to happen and so our brain perceives it that way, like a self fulfilling prophecy
1. Im thinking, the phenomenon of feeling bad when the people around said mean things, it is because the person involuntarily took the voice as if it was for the person, it's probably a sympathy side effect, it's possible to get used to it and lighten the feeling. 2. Grouping in class is still often a nightmare for me, i may be in the last group. 3. It's possible that that girl was just thinking you were awkward and was expressing her unsureness. 4. Continuing from 3. , People around you back then may have not known what to do with you due to lack of interaction. 5. I have a thinking, just before sleeping, cover your face with whatever suits you, then don't think about anyone for a minute. It may be a good silence for the mind. Lastly, there may be some things you don't want anyone to know about, not even those close to you, that can happen someday, and it's up to you to decide for yourself. 6. Regarding nightmares... here is something i heard from somewhere: "nightmares can haunt you, but the more you run, the more it persists. Instead, embrace the nightmare and fear deep within you, the pain and sadness may be temporary, but if you succeed in understanding yourself, the results will be satisfactory for sure." That is all, in the end, nightmares are a kind of dream, which is often about past memories and or recent experiences.
Man, most of what you say reminds me of my problems too. But to not make it long (and saying what many already said). In school, people see us as nerds or geeks, I had to come to turns when a friend told me I am one (and the biggest friki from the school tbh), and many people may dispise us. For x or y, it doesn't matter. To be honest, there was this one girl I think hates me since she always stays away from me what her it may be school, theater, or extra classes. I figured it out maybe in camp when we were returning to home (not gonna tell the story since it'll make it longer than it should be), but even knowing that many people may hate me or look me a bit weird. I still have hope since I could make friends with older kids and a same age as mine, to tell you how it went. I met the older kids in a school olympics of sorts, I didn't like it very much since I was alone. So I was walking and doing things when I find them playing uno, so I decided to play with them (asking them if I could) and after that. I got a full school year of friendship. Then in maybe april or around, I went to another school for charity. Where when I was supposed to be with the younger kids, I decided to go with this guy in my class, and talked about videogames and whatever. Then we became friends. So what I'm trying to say and advicing you. To have friend you need to be bold, and talk with strangers to see if a relationship could brew. So have faith and act because if you do nothing, you'll achieve nothing. So put the hardwork that I know you have in there. PS: if you ever need to seek to someone, there is this internet friend who mentions you for some songs @fallenangelcrimson so check her out if you want to talk with someone
Thanks for reassurement, Ito-san. 🖤💙 And happy early birthday 🎂 Altough my personal life looks bleak, and I’m starting having fatalistic thoughts, but still, keep on struggling and enjoy most of the brights spots in life. About longing to be part of a group, and yet, you never really find anywhere to fit in. Yeah…I know that feeling.
I think you hit the nail on the head. When it comes to people saying mean things: consider the source. A friend or even just a person who has consistently been fair and forthright with you saying something that sounds mean is very different than some rando who knows nothing about you saying something mean. On the one case there’s a high probability the criticism corresponds to reality and comes from a place of concern. On the other it’s highly likely the person is just being an asshole.
I dont always have like nightmares but usually my dreams are very weird for me. And just the feeling is yucky of dreaming whatever because its usually people i will never see again or people that just i cant even fathom being being around again. I guess sometimes they are nightmares, but theyre just scary. I usually end up going to sleep at like 4-5 am. Idk. I have sorta rough relationship with my mom but this morning she came into my room at like 8 and brought my cat and that made me really happy. Thank you for posting ito, i usually dont like vlogs and stuff like this but your really awesome
"To be rather than to seem" is the best way to liberate yourself from the reliance of validation from people who may not care about you. Instead of fitting into spaces, you deserve to simply belong. Forgive your past for being an "ugly" child, as it has never been true. You turned into a phenomenal person in the process of your upbringing! You're an incredibly courageous person for sharing your vulnerabilities, and there's great strength behind that. I am rooting for you my friend! Don't give up hope, we are here together for you! There's hundreds of beautiful people here who are cheering for you! No matter how much you feel down, we are here for you! ❤
don't blame yourself, as someone whos gone through the same thing some ppl just want to be nasty just to be nasty, its not about you and its nothing personal, if they don't like you don't start thinking about what you did wrong just acknowledge they have issues and try to ignore them
i know its difficult and i feel bad for you coz i've been in the same position but blaming urself makes you feel worse coz at the end of the day ppl like that have issues and its not ur problem
I can relate to the experience of being alone, especially in public pisces like school. For most of my 8th grade year, I went entirely mute because I left all of the friends I knew for a completely new and foreign school. It also sucks getting picked on too cus it's like having something over your head and you can't reach it. It's probably good to have a friend or support group with you so you don't feel as powerless.
Hey Ito, happy birthday! I was watching an older video of you which you were kind of sad and I was really worried about you, depression is a total bummer and I did cry watching it because I really feel everything u mean, I didn’t finish this video yet, can’t talk about everything but I’m so happy you feel better! Keep it up, I believe in you, step by step you will find the motivation to put everything on track, sweetie. 🎉
7:40 That is good, tying your interests into the learning is good, auto deducing is good, and it becomes easier to stay consistent and take ownership of your learning. If you just learn from purely lecture/following the Shepard if you will, that in-between of using your intuition and having to make an educated guess is not happening as much and/or in a way that works as well for you personally. I think you retain it better when you make yourself learn by doing and giving yourself room to make mistakes, although some things you do have to be taught, when appropriate giving yourself room to grow through trial and error helps retention. That is how I feel anyway, not everyone learns the same but that works pretty well for me, its kind of like a dance where you don't want to let yourself cheat and have the answer in front of you outright, but give yourself just enough to go off of to do that struggling where you really start to grow that muscle for solving problems(I feel like good teachers/mentors can read where your at and leave "breadcrumbs" for your brain to work from to auto deduce where you want to get to). Like they say, Rome wasn't built in a day, so cut yourself some slack, but not too much, just enough.
Ya, passive aggressive bullshit is the worst. They're being assholes and cowards at the same time and using your sense of doubt against you. Just never let the past define your story--your story is here and now and not tied to any bullshit from the past.
Dear Ito,you inspired me, and you're my favorite RUclipsr. Your videos give me some sort of calmness and kinda nostalgia.But I'm here to say you're my favorite RUclipsr
I have chronic nightmares too :// It can be really really scary, and really ruin your whole day or week. It sucks. but I wish you all the best!! Try not to let them get to you too much... But it's great to hear that your mum was there for you at least :) Hope you're okay~
"what, you?!?" is a great response to be honest. I used to go around the chat rooms in 2001 telling everyone how ugly I was and get called emo before I even knew what it meant but people humbly told me I looked "fine." 20 years later I'm glad I just have a full head of non grey hair. But yeah, I think we sometimes are our own worst enemy and biggest critic but when you're older you'll reflect on these times and go "what was I even thinking?" Hindsight is always 20/20. Anyway Happy Birthday!
You don't need to even do anything to make people be mean to you. People enjoy being mean for the fun of it. You seem like a kind, genuine person with a good heart.
As someone who used to feel the same in HS, I believe it is absolutely the right move to let your parents know about this. Something like this shouldn't be internalized, the earlier you seek help the better. Also please don't read into social situations too literally, I think you need to overcome the spotlight effect - which everyone has to some degree, it helps to know that everyone has their own set of problems they immerse themselves in just like you do - no one has the energy to exhaust their attention on others 100% of the time except those who have nothing going on in their lives.
Totally agree about your feelings on the school system. Idk if you do also, but especially as having auDHD, it’s difficult and ppl can be horrid :( Sending virtual support!
6:23 im soon going to be 10th grade and i still don’t feel like i belong with any friend group naturally, it always feel forced and awkward for me so you’re really relatable to me rn!! im struggling to be good at socializing in general, albeit not wanting to change myself in a way. i don’t have many common topics to talk with people because of my obsession with music (nerd coded) but im trying at least. high school is going to be even tougher and i don’t know if i’m ready or not, but i’m gonna try my best to just live and best wishes for you too!!! idk if im valid for giving advices, but i think you should just follow your mind. people are people, no matter what you do some people will like it and some people will hate you for it. not to say that like i can just ignore the anxiety that comes with it tho.
we're going in2 the same grade ^_^!! i hope u do well :3 if u want we can talk more and be frens!! i wanna get more into music and i'd love 2 have sum1 to talk abt it with :p
You are awesome! There is such a bright future coming for you. Highschool just sucks and everybody is pissed all the time at everything. Its just a bad atmosphere in general. I can recommend doing some acctivities that are fun for you. I dont know you but dont worry about it too much. You need to build new refreshing happy memories. All the negative memories eat you alive. Dont let them take over. Make new memories with the people you love. I deeply wish the best for you. You are tough, talking about those topics in general. Have fun playing splatoon i used to play it on the wiiu when it came out and now my little sister who I gave my switch to still plays splatoon 3. That game is awesome and i love it.
You are not a good person.....your a great person, and never let other people bring you down,, you a lot of talent, so heard up girl, your one of a kind, and we LOVE you.
I don't know you but it's not at all difficult to see you are a very good person, kind. For some reason there are people who like to be mean just know it's not anything wrong about you. They are angry or hurting for reasons you have no control over. Unfortunately it's a part of growing up. You'll get through it just don't let it get through you. You have all the power to get through it.
Hi Ito, I hope the following can be of some help to you. I remember hearing that sleeping on your right side can reduce/prevent bad dreams. I don't know how true this is but it could be worth a try if you're having trouble sleeping. Also while supposedly leading to more vivid dreams, lying on your front and facing the bedroom door are two things that result in feeling more secure while trying to get to sleep. I know the latter two are true because they worked for me when I was younger after I had the reasoning behind them explained to me. I'm presuming that the topics of your stop motion are the experiences you're referring to that cause you nightmares. Either way, I'm certain whatever the troubling experiences are, they are the cause of the other issues you've mentioned in the other couple of videos I've seen like your lack of energy at times. I'd recommend finding a psychiatrist or specialist that has helped people work through similar experiences so that you can have a safe space to talk about it and deal with the trauma. Cognitive therapy could be the answer as it allows you to re-evaluate specific aspects such as realising that an event from the past can't harm you in the present or the future. It can help regain control in a situation that made you feel helpless through gradual, controlled exposure, make sure blame isn’t being incorrectly attributed to yourself or anything other than the actual cause and remove the emotional response to the memories. Repetition of these things is vital as practicing anything including psychological and behavioural patterns whether initially voluntary or involuntary, good or bad makes you get better at them and makes it the natural go-to response. If I you need me to explain anything more clearly or in more detail then let me know.
green apple girl is back 💚 reality constantly shifts and we shift with it people flow like rivers and trying to define someone is like scooping up a glass of water out of the river thinking we've captured the river you are so much more happy birthday and enjoy splatoon 頑張ってね、愛しいイトさん！
That right 👍 just keep being positive so good to see you happy, people who try to put you down must have their issues & insecurity, they just don't know you, just keep being positive & strong like the good strong angel you are,& don't say your ugly because your not, your a beautiful human being, just keep doing me that favor & believe in yourself & people who don't want to take the time to know you are not worth being around don't waste your time worrying what they think or say about you, surround yourself with loving people like your family & true friends you can really trust🤗oh!! By the way happy belated birthday girl🎉!! Oh well you take care God bless you luv ya have a great day 😊😊
Your beautiful and the more you believe in yourself is what elevates you to better existence. Keep all the good energy to stand tall through any bad day's.😊❤❤❤
ito can't sleep... the name means so much more now. you are very strong and brave to be able to be honest to us about your feelings. i know it's early, but happy birthday. please keep smiling... your smile brings me joy! 💜
I'm so happy to see you excited to use the switch! I'd totally watch your lets plays if you did any! I went on a bit of a spending spree myself and got myself 2 PS3s (yeah idk why I got 2 either hahaha) and a bunch of games I never got to play, looking forward to finally giving them a go. ALSO HAPPY EARLY BDAY! Also as someone with low self-esteem as well, I totally get you, sometimes even if you try to ignore stuff others say about you, they still get to you somehow and it sucks. Totally get the self-loathing too. One thing that I realised was, yes constructive criticism is good as it comes from a good place, usually that person wanting better for you. But the people who are just mean to be spiteful? says a lot more about them than you. Their cumulative life up to that point had to have either sucked that much to try and vent that anger towards you or they have no self-awareness and won't get far in life (nobody likes to be around mean people afterall). So try and keep your head held high as you have nothing to apologise for, you're doing your best and that's all that really matters. I have yet to be diagnosed but I do think I suffered a lot of strong symptoms of ADHD so I totally get struggling with school, in fact I actually failed my first degree in University and had to transfer into something else, even then I barely passed. It wasn't until I tried to do a masters degree that I actually did somewhat well (I think it's because my brain found it more interesting than the other stuff I tried to do). There's no shame in struggling, it's proof of you trying to find your way, success without failure is one that's doomed to fail. The fact that you already know that you pick up on coding very fast shows that you are already walking your own road to success! Keep at it, I am interested to see where your road takes you 😊 Also in regard to those nightmares, I'm so sorry you had to deal with all that trauma, wish I could send you a hug. I've learnt that dreams are just your brain's way of remixing your memories so my recommendation is to try and make as many good memories as you can and hopefully they'll outnumber the bad ones eventually! (Remember take it one day at a time!) On a personal note, I don't think you're ugly like at all? (I swear those people are blind) You're on the cuter side so don't let those mean comments get to you, your future partner is sure a lucky one.
The S3 switch looks so good we love to see it. I hope its just one of the many good things to happen to you in the upcoming future ito! Have a happy early birthday celebration and a good night (´◡`)
Please take your time to heal and don't feel pressured to share anything, journey before destination. Also I'll pray for you and whoever that hurt you can't do that anymore, you will be alright.
Low self confidence comes from the fear of rejection. How you deal with that builds your character. You are likely a highly intelligent person. I can feel it by your aura. Development is important but corporate speak doesn't like intelligent people. Pleasing people is not a forte of this trait. Disregard those feelings. Politics is involved in such things. You don't have to interact with those who dislike you. Its not worth your time. Tine is valuable. Also, fight your fears and get some rest. It took me years in my situation. Also, i know its hard to describe your situation or feelings and thats because the human language doesn't always possess the words to explain it. That comes from the intelligent side of yourself. Its not always necessary to deliberate on explaining. Its like art as you said, only the artist can understand the meaning. The world has a lot more depth than it seems. Especially in the dream realm. I've learned to control it and even talk to people in my dream but they never reply back. 😂 hopefully my message doesn't bother you too much. Its just my 2 cents.
You owe us nothing, you don’t know us that well so don’t feel pressured to be completely open!!! But if you need to vent, most of us will be here for you 😅 (sometimes it’s good to have boundaries, we are lucky that you’re brave/cool enough to show us the inner parts of your life!!!)
i cant say i know what your going thru because we all go thru different experience but i had a rough time at school as well but i promise this isn't your whole life . life will definitely get better when you grow up . i know it may seem like " i cant wait that long" but trust me please believe me when i say you will find joy in life and you will be surrounded with people who truly care for you . have a happy bday . i truly wish for your happiness .
Happy belated Birth Ito! Listening to you was heartbreaking, you don't deserve to be treated like that, those people are jerks. I just wish we could be friends but I will be one of your supporter. You probably won't read this comment but, I'll be here to support you, and that I hope you would never think about anything bad about yourself. I just wanna let you know that some people out there are here for you.
You may not even read this but there are people that will hate you for no reason even if you’re nice to them I’ve seen it first hand and have had others I’ve been kind to be really mean to me or say mean things behind my back some people are just rotten that way, you’re really brave for speaking out most people are too scared to get on video call let alone post a video online keep on being you, you’re beautiful on the inside and out even if you don’t always believe it, your eyes, nose and mouth are all very cute and your face in general is beautiful hang in there =^_^=
i've also been bullied its the worst, it doesn't really leave you. unfortunately i have no idea why i've been bullied so its this never ending question I have since its happened at every school ive gone to except for my 9th grade school
Life is growing and it hurts, it takes love to show it and no stranger can really do it. That´s why it is easier to stay away and listen only those who isolate from reality.
also youre very pretty do not let others opinions get to you. youll be making friends where youll fit right in and give you the support you need. screw those bullies karma works in weird ways but surely soon theyll receive their lesson.
Video dairies posted on the public internet are always risky. I followed a youtuber for a while who had some form of dis-associative identity disorder. I think after a while she got better and deleted her older videos. On one hand, if you want to post videos going into the absolute depths of your psychology and upbringing and life I am all here for it, but I would feel guilty if I didn't warn you about the potential for its consequences. Employers are on the internet now you know? Plus, you notice the crazier people on the internet more than the normal people you know? So you might pay attention to the crazy people's comments more. Could be bad for your mental. I think my generation is starting to get off of public social media and retreat to more private chat groups (discord, signal, telegram). Even that's a risk though. You gotta know if you're in a group of good people or a group of predators trying to take advantage of a person with a bad mental. In any case, I'm here for it. Fighting! Battle on! Continuation! Persist! Persevere!
i was kind of surprised to hear you struggling with appearance as you look how i so wish i could look, but, yes. self consciousness happens to anyone. i just hope you are doing okay now and dont let rude people get the better of you. i am still struggling with it as people compared me to an old man in appearance ( im a 17yro girl ) but i try to ignore it. its easier said than done.
I genuinely feel so uncomfortable watching these but comforted at the same time..??? I feel so lost. lost in life, but watching these make me feel more lost like in a life with no other living human beings and it feels nice. Calming even like i can finally feel like my sense if self...maybe thats the vibe you were going for idk. luv it tho. 💕
Weirdly enough when I used to go to art school there was this korean guy who would give me death glares all the time. It started w/ me going over to his seat to compliment his drawings. He just reacted silently and gave me an annoyed look. Obviously he wanted me to leave him alone so I did. But then afterwards everytime I just happened to walk across him, he would just turn his head and give direct eye contact w/ me like he wanted to beat me up or something. Like if I was ever in his general vicinity, he would just look at me and intimidate me. He was a very talented artist, but man was he mean and scary
Happy birthday ito, and congrats on the switch yaaaay🎉🎉🎉🎉 , I want honestly say I think you are one of the most very special personalities I have seen 🥺, I wanna share with you some of my experience because it might help 1- the way people behave 95% it's because it's who they are , it could be anyone at your situation and they would behave in the same way exactly because that's their internal issues, so most the time it's not about you 2- school and academic education is practically waste of time and the worst most boring way to learn anything, it kills curiosity to knoweldge, and cause fear anxiety, most successful and richest people in life dropped out of college and started a business, so it's better to seek practical knoweldge and real world skills about the things that you love and interest you, you can learn literally anything from the internet now even rocket science 3- bullies and negative people who put you down mostly do this because that's their way of. Inflicting their internal pain and issues , so don't give them chance to ruin your day, if you want to know how to protect your energy from these kind of people I can explain more in another comment 4- I'm so grateful for the universe that someone like you exist
5- most people think that such dreams is caused by traumatic experience, and some how it's, but this not the reason why you are having them now, I think it's because of your brain activity through the day, if you think about those events through your day, or basically anything you overthinking about, please try to keep your brain free of thinking as much as you can, it's not about resisting thoughts, it's about acting as observer and not interacting or go along with the thought, if your brain is calm and resting away from thoughts most of the day, I think this will lower your dream rate, and exercise also do so such as 30 free running
I have the OLED. The screen colours, blacks, and whites are very good. Playing in the dark really shows how black the screen gets. It's so much clearer. Other than the screen you get some more space. 64GB instead of 32GB. And there is some potential with the chip redesign, but Nintendo intentionally nerf it down to the V2, V1, and lite speed. Oh and battery life is better.
oh no way my JAW DROPPED when you bring up that switch and i scream the room and my neighbour even scrowd at me!!!! but god im soooooo happy for you OMG OMG!!!
I hope you can move on from those nightmares and forget them, and you have your fans as well to comfort and relate, and who knows? Maybe you could find a place where you belong :) and for the rest of you, how are you doing? Don't be shy, we all have problems, I hope your okay, if not, I'll try my best to talk to you :) take care, I hope your doing well :) ❤ also, ito if your reading this, im only 12 and i want to start content like yours honestly, im inspired but im a bit afraid about my voice and looks, hope you recover soon :) take care
i don't think people dislike your just for existing i think people just act that way because it's easier to be cocky and pick on someone than to try to get to know them. maybe they had some conceited notions about you or about quiet people or some stupid thought that justified their disliking enough to do it. a lot of people dislike me for no reason and i think it's because i'm awkward, and it's more socially acceptable and easier to be harsh on weirdos than to try to accept that they're humans too. it hurts being the target of that
it sounds like you have a lovely mother and im so glad she could support you well in that moment. although in dreams and in minds it can feel really scary and unsafe, i hope that you are safe now. art is also a very helpful output for those kind of things, maybe you can showcase your art works in a future video if youre comfortable, or, have you considered drawing in a stream or such? i saw some of your art in previous streams and i think they look really creative and nice. im glad you wont give up and ill try my best too, not sure how , recently my face and how i look really is bothering me more than anything but i will try my best to accept myself and hope that we all continue to have better days
Seeing her having a smile on her face and having a positive attitude makes me really happy and makes me think of an old happy mom.
Real
It’s an act, don’t feel sorry for her, any triple digit IQ adult could tell it.
@juliajanas7363 Explain how this channel is an act?
@juliajanas7363 you have a Playlist called subhumans. Clearly ur jealous
@@juliajanas7363Imagine accusing a mentally unwell girl of faking her videos for clout
I can't stress how valuable you are as a person. Going through what you have and still being one of the nicest people genuinely makes this world a better place. I can't relate to everything you've been through, but I can to some of the stuff. If you read this, there are a few things I really want you to know.
1. Self love is something you build up and grow, and people saying mean things usually say them because they have insecurities of their own. Don't take what they say as absolute truth
2. You sharing these experiences and reflections absolutely does help a lot of people, including me
3. I have had so many nights where I also couldn't sleep due to thoughts and medical stuff as well, but thoughts can be very influential to how you feel, and if you are able to not forget but to accept things you are not comfortable with, it can be just as influential but in a positive way. My philosophy on things is if you are able to change something you want to, work towards it. Make a plan and put in effort. If you are not able to change something, work towards being ok with that.
4. Find something you enjoy doing and make a purpose for yourself. You have a lot more potential than you think
I know I'm also a stranger on here, but if you ever want to play a game sometime, hmu
This really hits home. High school was so miserable. I don't even remember most of it since I purged all of those memories.
similar story here, at a position where i'm not too sure who i am and what makes me me. guess it gives me the ability to create what i want but its kind of scary for meeting new people when they ask about me and my only answer is "nothing of note really, i'm pretty boring."
I have no clue about "Splatoon" but if she loves it as much as I love playing War Thunder then I get it. It's great to be immersed in another world, albeit virtual. We need food for our minds the same way we need to eat and drink. Escapism, in a good way, is very important.
I am very invested in your journey to happiness! Keep at it and keep going at your own pace! I'm not sure how much of this will get to you but get yourself a snack that you like haha.
@@Batman-ck ? Not for recognition, just showing support.
¨words are just to hard sometime's¨ that was one of the most relatable things i have ever heard
Happy birthday ito !! 🎉 You're so comforting and doing well each and everyday, keep going ☺️
Ito it's great to see you haven't given up but don't be afraid to reach out for help if you're having trouble in your life. Your mom gave you some good advice in that you should communicate if you're having a moment of weakness. Other than that it's good to see you moving forward and I wish you all the best 🎉
People don't dislike you for existing - some people do, inevitably, but not people in general. It is not a reflection on you. No matter who you are, some people will just dislike you.
Criminals exist everywhere, so you will always find crime where-ever you go, but it has nothing to do with you.
I've never found anywhere I truly belong externally, but I've cultivated an amazing internal/personal life and home. Society is difficult for anyone who doesn't fully fit in with the mainstream, but that doesn't mean there's a problem with you!
Happy 19th Birthday イト, cheers to more years on this earth, it'll pay off in the long run. Just remember that the people who struggle the most, are the really good people who don't deserve it. I know this is a probably a random reference, but just think about Brandon Rogers in his clown video saying "One day you'll be happy!", sure it's funny and depressing as hell in the context of that video, but it might give you a smile.
Every time you upload I can't even feel the time passing by while watching your videos😭. I know It's all parasocial but even the illusion of chilling with a friend and listening to what they have to say is nice. Kinda bitter sweet cause we only have so much energy to spare, and having an audience means not being able to form bonds with everyone. The sad thing is that the negative comments will get the most attention cause our brains be like that. I'm grateful I found this RUclips channel, It's a very special place in my heart. Sometimes having someone to relate to is all you need to not give up...
Happy birthday 🙂 You'll eventually find the courage to open up fully to someone. If you feel comfortable, there are online counselors you can talk to for free, and with total anonymity.
If you want to open up more on RUclips, you should get yourself a channel moderator to weed out those hateful comments before you read them.
Keep being you, and try not to let those hateful comments dictate how you feel about yourself. There's always going to be someone who projects their ignorance and insecurities onto others; no matter who you are.
i lowkey dont know how to explain this but this type of content is just eccentrically interesting. its like im peeking into sb's life and going through their life with them like a frd :D
I think she has changed a lot since I saw her first video
More probably because she has understood more about life and herself maybe by talking about them,to be honest at first I didn't think she is strong to face things in her life and her past and she scapes them(I don't like judging people I just felt a bit),now I see what a strong and logical person she has become and in my point of view SHE IS A GOOD PERSON.
Yeah sometimes people and environment make us feel sad,less confident and ... I hope it gets better for everyone and they control their life as she is trying too."NEVER GIVE UP"
For my last word this sense of belonging nowhere and looking for something we can call home,I used to think about it a lot.this is a constant feeling in life, sometimes strong and sometimes weak,
I could make it more under control by knowing more about myself,my goals and questioning my reason to live,
Paying more attention to myself and ... REALLY HELPED.
I hope this was useful:)
You're amazing, ito. Your videos are soothing, actually, thank you for being there.
About bullying... It's just that all people are different. It's okay as long as they don't harm others. That girl could be dismissive of the quiet ones, it's irrational, but it doesn't make you any worse. You're amazing the way you are. Everyone has their own views, all people are different, but it just makes the world more diverse. and that's okay. someone may not like noisy people, someone may not like quiet people, someone may not like people themselves and/or any other creatures. Does this mean that humans and other creatures are bad? No. It's just that no one is like each other in everything. You're different too, but I'm just as different. and the people who subscribe to you are also different. and the unsigned ones are also different. after all, again, everyone is different. this is something that you just need to understand and try to realize, even if it's hard. You're doing great, ito, and I'm very glad to know you.
Those nightmares are the worst, I hope yours will stop some day. Hopefully you have a splattoon themed dream tonight lol.
Knowing you're out there fighting gives a lot of people motivation to keep on fighting too (including me).
Also that switch is so cute, I need it 😤
I don’t really get why do people say uncanny or smth smth like unreal, but i do really like how you say you’re reality life on a public platform… its like me talking myself about my life but yours is different lvl you put on youtube platform. But we are here for you! 🙌🏻
Man, this like free therapy. Helps a lot in a unique way.
You have a very kind soul and the world doesn't treat kind souls very well. When you have a tender heart, rude people will poke it when you share it. Ignore your haters and the real people in your life know you better than any internet random person. Good luck at your new school and I'd love to see your decoration video.
12:49 It's not that people dislike you. They just have a belief that sets a bias to what they perceive. It's whatever is going on inside of them, must likely subconscious, that sets their "programming".
15:02 You are making perfect sense. Good processing and breaking down what has happened.
You're a good person from what i have seen. You are a lot stronger than you know. The impact of the difficulties and memories that make you sad and cry can be reduced by learning to see them for what they and not engaging personally with them. You will understand some day.
It really comes down to loving yourself and fully seeing you have alot of value and power. Know your worth and so much to give to the world.
i used to have an online video diary... 😂 ... its so fun posting. i enjoy your content. its down to earth.its nice to have a parasocial friendship sometimes😅 but i deleted my whole huge amount of videos. its so hard to be open with random strangers. because you just never know what kind of critisim you will get. and man, did iget some dark, mean, but true... wake up calls..
Ito is so real. I can relate for the "i feel like i dont belong nowhere"
I'm glad you have so many people who love and care about you. Just be careful because some people on the Internet are very mean.
I noticed that if I'm online for too long without taking breaks, I start getting more and more cranky. Like my brain starts getting slower and slower and it's really bad for my mood. So if someone says something hateful or insensitive to you, try not to take it too seriously. It could just be somone who is cranky.😅 It could just be an immature person, an insecure person taking anger out on someone else to make themselves feel better. Maybe they didn't realize how hurtful they were being.
For some communities it's normal to pick on each other. Kinda like an unspoken language. Sometimes people take it for granted that we all speak the same language. Even within just English language there are different customs that get lost in translation. Everyone is different so don't feel too bad if someone says something that hurts your feelings.
I worry about you partly because you seem really nice and sensitive. Being sensitive makes it easier for us to notice things that others might not notice but it also makes it easier for our feeling to get hurt. And getting popular on social media comes with lots of haters so be careful.
We need to have the ability to stand up for ourselves but that can be difficult sometimes because we want to be respectful to people. It's a difficult balancing act. I gotta remind myself that we can respect others while still respecting ourselves. and asking others to do the same.
Watching you play Splatoon sounds like fun. Good luck. ☘️
Id be willing to bet that the korean girl in your class doesnt dislike you, I think sometimes when we are uncomfortable or in a place (like class) that makes us anxious, our minds might interpret things negatively or our minds might distort things because we expect bad things to happen and so our brain perceives it that way, like a self fulfilling prophecy
1. Im thinking, the phenomenon of feeling bad when the people around said mean things, it is because the person involuntarily took the voice as if it was for the person, it's probably a sympathy side effect, it's possible to get used to it and lighten the feeling.
2. Grouping in class is still often a nightmare for me, i may be in the last group.
3. It's possible that that girl was just thinking you were awkward and was expressing her unsureness.
4. Continuing from 3. , People around you back then may have not known what to do with you due to lack of interaction.
5. I have a thinking, just before sleeping, cover your face with whatever suits you, then don't think about anyone for a minute. It may be a good silence for the mind. Lastly, there may be some things you don't want anyone to know about, not even those close to you, that can happen someday, and it's up to you to decide for yourself.
6. Regarding nightmares... here is something i heard from somewhere: "nightmares can haunt you, but the more you run, the more it persists. Instead, embrace the nightmare and fear deep within you, the pain and sadness may be temporary, but if you succeed in understanding yourself, the results will be satisfactory for sure." That is all, in the end, nightmares are a kind of dream, which is often about past memories and or recent experiences.
Man, most of what you say reminds me of my problems too. But to not make it long (and saying what many already said). In school, people see us as nerds or geeks, I had to come to turns when a friend told me I am one (and the biggest friki from the school tbh), and many people may dispise us. For x or y, it doesn't matter. To be honest, there was this one girl I think hates me since she always stays away from me what her it may be school, theater, or extra classes. I figured it out maybe in camp when we were returning to home (not gonna tell the story since it'll make it longer than it should be), but even knowing that many people may hate me or look me a bit weird. I still have hope since I could make friends with older kids and a same age as mine, to tell you how it went. I met the older kids in a school olympics of sorts, I didn't like it very much since I was alone. So I was walking and doing things when I find them playing uno, so I decided to play with them (asking them if I could) and after that. I got a full school year of friendship. Then in maybe april or around, I went to another school for charity. Where when I was supposed to be with the younger kids, I decided to go with this guy in my class, and talked about videogames and whatever. Then we became friends. So what I'm trying to say and advicing you. To have friend you need to be bold, and talk with strangers to see if a relationship could brew. So have faith and act because if you do nothing, you'll achieve nothing. So put the hardwork that I know you have in there.
PS: if you ever need to seek to someone, there is this internet friend who mentions you for some songs @fallenangelcrimson so check her out if you want to talk with someone
Thanks for reassurement, Ito-san. 🖤💙 And happy early birthday 🎂
Altough my personal life looks bleak, and I’m starting having fatalistic thoughts, but still, keep on struggling and enjoy most of the brights spots in life.
About longing to be part of a group, and yet, you never really find anywhere to fit in. Yeah…I know that feeling.
I think you hit the nail on the head. When it comes to people saying mean things: consider the source. A friend or even just a person who has consistently been fair and forthright with you saying something that sounds mean is very different than some rando who knows nothing about you saying something mean. On the one case there’s a high probability the criticism corresponds to reality and comes from a place of concern. On the other it’s highly likely the person is just being an asshole.
I dont always have like nightmares but usually my dreams are very weird for me. And just the feeling is yucky of dreaming whatever because its usually people i will never see again or people that just i cant even fathom being being around again. I guess sometimes they are nightmares, but theyre just scary. I usually end up going to sleep at like 4-5 am. Idk. I have sorta rough relationship with my mom but this morning she came into my room at like 8 and brought my cat and that made me really happy. Thank you for posting ito, i usually dont like vlogs and stuff like this but your really awesome
"To be rather than to seem" is the best way to liberate yourself from the reliance of validation from people who may not care about you. Instead of fitting into spaces, you deserve to simply belong. Forgive your past for being an "ugly" child, as it has never been true. You turned into a phenomenal person in the process of your upbringing! You're an incredibly courageous person for sharing your vulnerabilities, and there's great strength behind that. I am rooting for you my friend! Don't give up hope, we are here together for you! There's hundreds of beautiful people here who are cheering for you! No matter how much you feel down, we are here for you! ❤
I feel so sorry for you😭😭😭, can't understand how people can be so cruel🥺🥺🥺
don't blame yourself, as someone whos gone through the same thing some ppl just want to be nasty just to be nasty, its not about you and its nothing personal, if they don't like you don't start thinking about what you did wrong just acknowledge they have issues and try to ignore them
i know its difficult and i feel bad for you coz i've been in the same position but blaming urself makes you feel worse coz at the end of the day ppl like that have issues and its not ur problem
Happy birthday! Take everything at your own pace, and don't apologize for a sensitive soul! Have a wonderful time! 😃
I can relate to the experience of being alone, especially in public pisces like school. For most of my 8th grade year, I went entirely mute because I left all of the friends I knew for a completely new and foreign school. It also sucks getting picked on too cus it's like having something over your head and you can't reach it. It's probably good to have a friend or support group with you so you don't feel as powerless.
Hey Ito, happy birthday! I was watching an older video of you which you were kind of sad and I was really worried about you, depression is a total bummer and I did cry watching it because I really feel everything u mean, I didn’t finish this video yet, can’t talk about everything but I’m so happy you feel better! Keep it up, I believe in you, step by step you will find the motivation to put everything on track, sweetie. 🎉
7:40 That is good, tying your interests into the learning is good, auto deducing is good, and it becomes easier to stay consistent and take ownership of your learning. If you just learn from purely lecture/following the Shepard if you will, that in-between of using your intuition and having to make an educated guess is not happening as much and/or in a way that works as well for you personally. I think you retain it better when you make yourself learn by doing and giving yourself room to make mistakes, although some things you do have to be taught, when appropriate giving yourself room to grow through trial and error helps retention. That is how I feel anyway, not everyone learns the same but that works pretty well for me, its kind of like a dance where you don't want to let yourself cheat and have the answer in front of you outright, but give yourself just enough to go off of to do that struggling where you really start to grow that muscle for solving problems(I feel like good teachers/mentors can read where your at and leave "breadcrumbs" for your brain to work from to auto deduce where you want to get to). Like they say, Rome wasn't built in a day, so cut yourself some slack, but not too much, just enough.
Hope she sees your comment (idk if responding to it will make it more visible)
Ya, passive aggressive bullshit is the worst. They're being assholes and cowards at the same time and using your sense of doubt against you. Just never let the past define your story--your story is here and now and not tied to any bullshit from the past.
Dear Ito,you inspired me, and you're my favorite RUclipsr. Your videos give me some sort of calmness and kinda nostalgia.But I'm here to say you're my favorite RUclipsr
I have chronic nightmares too :// It can be really really scary, and really ruin your whole day or week. It sucks. but I wish you all the best!! Try not to let them get to you too much... But it's great to hear that your mum was there for you at least :) Hope you're okay~
"what, you?!?" is a great response to be honest. I used to go around the chat rooms in 2001 telling everyone how ugly I was and get called emo before I even knew what it meant but people humbly told me I looked "fine." 20 years later I'm glad I just have a full head of non grey hair.
But yeah, I think we sometimes are our own worst enemy and biggest critic but when you're older you'll reflect on these times and go "what was I even thinking?" Hindsight is always 20/20.
Anyway Happy Birthday!
You don't need to even do anything to make people be mean to you. People enjoy being mean for the fun of it. You seem like a kind, genuine person with a good heart.
As someone who used to feel the same in HS, I believe it is absolutely the right move to let your parents know about this. Something like this shouldn't be internalized, the earlier you seek help the better. Also please don't read into social situations too literally, I think you need to overcome the spotlight effect - which everyone has to some degree, it helps to know that everyone has their own set of problems they immerse themselves in just like you do - no one has the energy to exhaust their attention on others 100% of the time except those who have nothing going on in their lives.
Totally agree about your feelings on the school system. Idk if you do also, but especially as having auDHD, it’s difficult and ppl can be horrid :(
Sending virtual support!
I agree with you, may peace be with you
6:23 im soon going to be 10th grade and i still don’t feel like i belong with any friend group naturally, it always feel forced and awkward for me so you’re really relatable to me rn!! im struggling to be good at socializing in general, albeit not wanting to change myself in a way. i don’t have many common topics to talk with people because of my obsession with music (nerd coded) but im trying at least. high school is going to be even tougher and i don’t know if i’m ready or not, but i’m gonna try my best to just live and best wishes for you too!!! idk if im valid for giving advices, but i think you should just follow your mind. people are people, no matter what you do some people will like it and some people will hate you for it. not to say that like i can just ignore the anxiety that comes with it tho.
you made your acccount when you were 2? respect... 😮
@@user-kr4fz4fr8j yeah that's why im chronically online 🔥🔥
we're going in2 the same grade ^_^!! i hope u do well :3 if u want we can talk more and be frens!! i wanna get more into music and i'd love 2 have sum1 to talk abt it with :p
@@lenp1l_cc sure!! do you have discord?
You are awesome! There is such a bright future coming for you. Highschool just sucks and everybody is pissed all the time at everything. Its just a bad atmosphere in general. I can recommend doing some acctivities that are fun for you. I dont know you but dont worry about it too much. You need to build new refreshing happy memories. All the negative memories eat you alive. Dont let them take over. Make new memories with the people you love.
I deeply wish the best for you. You are tough, talking about those topics in general. Have fun playing splatoon i used to play it on the wiiu when it came out and now my little sister who I gave my switch to still plays splatoon 3. That game is awesome and i love it.
Thats a great family behind you, and some of your support, bless you all.
Happy birthday Ito. Listening to you is pretty relaxing while doing work and stuff.
you have a soothing voice. its comforting not in a weird way
I'm so glad to hear that your doing better!!!
Happy birthday Ito! I’m glad you seem like you’re doing better!
I don't personally know you, but I hate seeing people sad and I wish I could give you an hug and I really wish you the best
Never give up on your honesty it's beautiful 🎉
You are not a good person.....your a great person, and never let other people bring you down,, you a lot of talent, so heard up girl,
your one of a kind, and we LOVE you.
She got a whole ass 2009 vibe style
I don't know you but it's not at all difficult to see you are a very good person, kind. For some reason there are people who like to be mean just know it's not anything wrong about you. They are angry or hurting for reasons you have no control over. Unfortunately it's a part of growing up. You'll get through it just don't let it get through you. You have all the power to get through it.
Hi Ito, I hope the following can be of some help to you.
I remember hearing that sleeping on your right side can reduce/prevent bad dreams. I don't know how true this is but it could be worth a try if you're having trouble sleeping. Also while supposedly leading to more vivid dreams, lying on your front and facing the bedroom door are two things that result in feeling more secure while trying to get to sleep. I know the latter two are true because they worked for me when I was younger after I had the reasoning behind them explained to me.
I'm presuming that the topics of your stop motion are the experiences you're referring to that cause you nightmares. Either way, I'm certain whatever the troubling experiences are, they are the cause of the other issues you've mentioned in the other couple of videos I've seen like your lack of energy at times. I'd recommend finding a psychiatrist or specialist that has helped people work through similar experiences so that you can have a safe space to talk about it and deal with the trauma. Cognitive therapy could be the answer as it allows you to re-evaluate specific aspects such as realising that an event from the past can't harm you in the present or the future. It can help regain control in a situation that made you feel helpless through gradual, controlled exposure, make sure blame isn’t being incorrectly attributed to yourself or anything other than the actual cause and remove the emotional response to the memories. Repetition of these things is vital as practicing anything including psychological and behavioural patterns whether initially voluntary or involuntary, good or bad makes you get better at them and makes it the natural go-to response.
If I you need me to explain anything more clearly or in more detail then let me know.
green apple girl is back 💚
reality constantly shifts and we shift with it
people flow like rivers and trying to define someone is like scooping up a glass of water out of the river thinking we've captured the river
you are so much more
happy birthday and enjoy splatoon
頑張ってね、愛しいイトさん！
That right 👍 just keep being positive so good to see you happy, people who try to put you down must have their issues & insecurity, they just don't know you, just keep being positive & strong like the good strong angel you are,& don't say your ugly because your not, your a beautiful human being, just keep doing me that favor & believe in yourself & people who don't want to take the time to know you are not worth being around don't waste your time worrying what they think or say about you, surround yourself with loving people like your family & true friends you can really trust🤗oh!! By the way happy belated birthday girl🎉!! Oh well you take care God bless you luv ya have a great day 😊😊
Your beautiful and the more you believe in yourself is what elevates you to better existence. Keep all the good energy to stand tall through any bad day's.😊❤❤❤
ito can't sleep... the name means so much more now. you are very strong and brave to be able to be honest to us about your feelings. i know it's early, but happy birthday. please keep smiling... your smile brings me joy! 💜
I'm so happy to see you excited to use the switch! I'd totally watch your lets plays if you did any!
I went on a bit of a spending spree myself and got myself 2 PS3s (yeah idk why I got 2 either hahaha) and a bunch of games I never got to play, looking forward to finally giving them a go.
ALSO HAPPY EARLY BDAY!
Also as someone with low self-esteem as well, I totally get you, sometimes even if you try to ignore stuff others say about you, they still get to you somehow and it sucks. Totally get the self-loathing too.
One thing that I realised was, yes constructive criticism is good as it comes from a good place, usually that person wanting better for you. But the people who are just mean to be spiteful? says a lot more about them than you. Their cumulative life up to that point had to have either sucked that much to try and vent that anger towards you or they have no self-awareness and won't get far in life (nobody likes to be around mean people afterall). So try and keep your head held high as you have nothing to apologise for, you're doing your best and that's all that really matters.
I have yet to be diagnosed but I do think I suffered a lot of strong symptoms of ADHD so I totally get struggling with school, in fact I actually failed my first degree in University and had to transfer into something else, even then I barely passed. It wasn't until I tried to do a masters degree that I actually did somewhat well (I think it's because my brain found it more interesting than the other stuff I tried to do). There's no shame in struggling, it's proof of you trying to find your way, success without failure is one that's doomed to fail.
The fact that you already know that you pick up on coding very fast shows that you are already walking your own road to success! Keep at it, I am interested to see where your road takes you 😊
Also in regard to those nightmares, I'm so sorry you had to deal with all that trauma, wish I could send you a hug. I've learnt that dreams are just your brain's way of remixing your memories so my recommendation is to try and make as many good memories as you can and hopefully they'll outnumber the bad ones eventually! (Remember take it one day at a time!)
On a personal note, I don't think you're ugly like at all? (I swear those people are blind) You're on the cuter side so don't let those mean comments get to you, your future partner is sure a lucky one.
So many new gen z youtubers!!! It's a new era!!! It's the future!!!
lowkey found your channel in my fyp and can't stop watching, like i love your vibes and honesty. BTW happy birthday.
The S3 switch looks so good we love to see it. I hope its just one of the many good things to happen to you in the upcoming future ito! Have a happy early birthday celebration and a good night (´◡`)
Hello.
I found this channel recently, and I'm very happy. You are great, encouraging, cute.
You know, don't give up! Be and do what you love ❤
Please take your time to heal and don't feel pressured to share anything, journey before destination. Also I'll pray for you and whoever that hurt you can't do that anymore, you will be alright.
Low self confidence comes from the fear of rejection. How you deal with that builds your character. You are likely a highly intelligent person. I can feel it by your aura. Development is important but corporate speak doesn't like intelligent people. Pleasing people is not a forte of this trait. Disregard those feelings. Politics is involved in such things. You don't have to interact with those who dislike you. Its not worth your time. Tine is valuable. Also, fight your fears and get some rest. It took me years in my situation. Also, i know its hard to describe your situation or feelings and thats because the human language doesn't always possess the words to explain it. That comes from the intelligent side of yourself. Its not always necessary to deliberate on explaining. Its like art as you said, only the artist can understand the meaning. The world has a lot more depth than it seems. Especially in the dream realm. I've learned to control it and even talk to people in my dream but they never reply back. 😂 hopefully my message doesn't bother you too much. Its just my 2 cents.
You owe us nothing, you don’t know us that well so don’t feel pressured to be completely open!!! But if you need to vent, most of us will be here for you 😅 (sometimes it’s good to have boundaries, we are lucky that you’re brave/cool enough to show us the inner parts of your life!!!)
i cant say i know what your going thru because we all go thru different experience but i had a rough time at school as well but i promise this isn't your whole life . life will definitely get better when you grow up . i know it may seem like " i cant wait that long" but trust me please believe me when i say you will find joy in life and you will be surrounded with people who truly care for you . have a happy bday . i truly wish for your happiness .
Happy belated Birth Ito! Listening to you was heartbreaking, you don't deserve to be treated like that, those people are jerks. I just wish we could be friends but I will be one of your supporter. You probably won't read this comment but, I'll be here to support you, and that I hope you would never think about anything bad about yourself. I just wanna let you know that some people out there are here for you.
Be careful about bully's or overall mean people. They can make you bitter. Think of it as chances to improve yourself from the inside.
You may not even read this but there are people that will hate you for no reason even if you’re nice to them I’ve seen it first hand and have had others I’ve been kind to be really mean to me or say mean things behind my back some people are just rotten that way, you’re really brave for speaking out most people are too scared to get on video call let alone post a video online keep on being you, you’re beautiful on the inside and out even if you don’t always believe it, your eyes, nose and mouth are all very cute and your face in general is beautiful hang in there =^_^=
whoa, what just happen there in voice 7:18
her voice filter bugged out
why can't I be this pretty.
i've also been bullied its the worst, it doesn't really leave you. unfortunately i have no idea why i've been bullied so its this never ending question I have since its happened at every school ive gone to except for my 9th grade school
Life is growing and it hurts, it takes love to show it and no stranger can really do it.
That´s why it is easier to stay away and listen only those who isolate from reality.
also youre very pretty do not let others opinions get to you. youll be making friends where youll fit right in and give you the support you need. screw those bullies karma works in weird ways but surely soon theyll receive their lesson.
人生は生きる価値があるので決して諦めないでください ! ❤
God Almighty love's you and believe in you okay just be better then yesterday. ❤❤❤
Video dairies posted on the public internet are always risky. I followed a youtuber for a while who had some form of dis-associative identity disorder. I think after a while she got better and deleted her older videos.
On one hand, if you want to post videos going into the absolute depths of your psychology and upbringing and life I am all here for it, but I would feel guilty if I didn't warn you about the potential for its consequences. Employers are on the internet now you know? Plus, you notice the crazier people on the internet more than the normal people you know? So you might pay attention to the crazy people's comments more. Could be bad for your mental.
I think my generation is starting to get off of public social media and retreat to more private chat groups (discord, signal, telegram). Even that's a risk though. You gotta know if you're in a group of good people or a group of predators trying to take advantage of a person with a bad mental.
In any case, I'm here for it. Fighting! Battle on! Continuation! Persist! Persevere!
11:47 I feel ya there. Got that look many times, especially in middle school. Painful. Sorry you had to go thru that.
i was kind of surprised to hear you struggling with appearance as you look how i so wish i could look, but, yes. self consciousness happens to anyone. i just hope you are doing okay now and dont let rude people get the better of you. i am still struggling with it as people compared me to an old man in appearance ( im a 17yro girl ) but i try to ignore it. its easier said than done.
Happy birthday, Ito!! I hope you have an amazing day, I was waiting to comment on this until your birthday, so I'm super excited for you!! 🩷🩷
I genuinely feel so uncomfortable watching these but comforted at the same time..??? I feel so lost. lost in life, but watching these make me feel more lost like in a life with no other living human beings and it feels nice. Calming even like i can finally feel like my sense if self...maybe thats the vibe you were going for idk. luv it tho. 💕
I really respect you, see you struggling in your way i think that how good you are
Happy Birthday!!! お誕生日おめでとうございます🎉🎊🥳🎊🎉
Ito is so awesome
Have a good bday fella!
Your ending about not giving up motivated me to continue my boxing routine, thanks.
I love your eyes, your beauty and your honesty. Stay strong you can and you will get better! 🥰✊
Glad to see her happy 😭
Weirdly enough when I used to go to art school there was this korean guy who would give me death glares all the time. It started w/ me going over to his seat to compliment his drawings. He just reacted silently and gave me an annoyed look. Obviously he wanted me to leave him alone so I did. But then afterwards everytime I just happened to walk across him, he would just turn his head and give direct eye contact w/ me like he wanted to beat me up or something. Like if I was ever in his general vicinity, he would just look at me and intimidate me. He was a very talented artist, but man was he mean and scary
Teenagers can be cruel :( I hope you're doing well! Love your vids and happy birthday!
Hope you find the courage and the confidence soon
Happy birthday ito, and congrats on the switch yaaaay🎉🎉🎉🎉 , I want honestly say I think you are one of the most very special personalities I have seen 🥺, I wanna share with you some of my experience because it might help
1- the way people behave 95% it's because it's who they are , it could be anyone at your situation and they would behave in the same way exactly because that's their internal issues, so most the time it's not about you
2- school and academic education is practically waste of time and the worst most boring way to learn anything, it kills curiosity to knoweldge, and cause fear anxiety, most successful and richest people in life dropped out of college and started a business, so it's better to seek practical knoweldge and real world skills about the things that you love and interest you, you can learn literally anything from the internet now even rocket science
3- bullies and negative people who put you down mostly do this because that's their way of. Inflicting their internal pain and issues , so don't give them chance to ruin your day, if you want to know how to protect your energy from these kind of people I can explain more in another comment
4- I'm so grateful for the universe that someone like you exist
5- most people think that such dreams is caused by traumatic experience, and some how it's, but this not the reason why you are having them now, I think it's because of your brain activity through the day, if you think about those events through your day, or basically anything you overthinking about, please try to keep your brain free of thinking as much as you can, it's not about resisting thoughts, it's about acting as observer and not interacting or go along with the thought, if your brain is calm and resting away from thoughts most of the day, I think this will lower your dream rate, and exercise also do so such as 30 free running
Happy early birthday Ito🎉🎉 sending you wishes continue to explore the amazing adventure known as life and discover many things along the way.
I have the OLED. The screen colours, blacks, and whites are very good. Playing in the dark really shows how black the screen gets. It's so much clearer.
Other than the screen you get some more space. 64GB instead of 32GB.
And there is some potential with the chip redesign, but Nintendo intentionally nerf it down to the V2, V1, and lite speed. Oh and battery life is better.
oh no way my JAW DROPPED when you bring up that switch and i scream the room and my neighbour even scrowd at me!!!! but god im soooooo happy for you OMG OMG!!!
I hope you can move on from those nightmares and forget them, and you have your fans as well to comfort and relate, and who knows? Maybe you could find a place where you belong :) and for the rest of you, how are you doing? Don't be shy, we all have problems, I hope your okay, if not, I'll try my best to talk to you :) take care, I hope your doing well :) ❤ also, ito if your reading this, im only 12 and i want to start content like yours honestly, im inspired but im a bit afraid about my voice and looks, hope you recover soon :) take care
i don't think people dislike your just for existing
i think people just act that way because it's easier to be cocky and pick on someone than to try to get to know them. maybe they had some conceited notions about you or about quiet people or some stupid thought that justified their disliking enough to do it. a lot of people dislike me for no reason and i think it's because i'm awkward, and it's more socially acceptable and easier to be harsh on weirdos than to try to accept that they're humans too.
it hurts being the target of that
it sounds like you have a lovely mother and im so glad she could support you well in that moment. although in dreams and in minds it can feel really scary and unsafe, i hope that you are safe now. art is also a very helpful output for those kind of things, maybe you can showcase your art works in a future video if youre comfortable, or, have you considered drawing in a stream or such? i saw some of your art in previous streams and i think they look really creative and nice. im glad you wont give up and ill try my best too, not sure how , recently my face and how i look really is bothering me more than anything but i will try my best to accept myself and hope that we all continue to have better days