In 2000 I suffered a ruptured ectopic pregnancy and almost died. I went in for my regular yearly exam and found out I was pregnant. They did a routine ultrasound and it showed that I had an ectopic pregnancy. The doctor (if you can call him that) said he wanted to wait a week and look at it again. He said if I felt any pain to go to the emergency room. Well...I never felt any pain. Four days later I was standing in the pharmacy and suddenly felt like I was going to pass out. Long story short, I almost died. Emergency surgery, lots of trauma and then to find out that I was almost 12 weeks along. It was devastating. I'm so glad that your clinic sent you to the ER immediately. It is life threatening. I hate that you are going through this. So painful to your heart. God's got you and you will make it!
My heart is breaking for you. The last thing you need is a doc gaslighting and leaving you doubting what you know. I just had a surgeon recently. People like us know our bodies, we’ve dealt with all of this forever, and some docs just don’t get it. You do what you need to right now, cry, scream, vent, anything you need. I know this is so hard, but you have so many of us in here that will be praying!
Someone who suffers from rheumatoid arthritis I was on methotrexate injections and it does suppress your immune system, you are on the right track, stay strong sending lots of hugs.
Wow the difference between the fertility clinic and the hospital..the clinic saying "go to the hospital your rupturing!!" And the hospital going "what? Chill, your good, go home" ..so frustrating
If it's a private fertility clinic they may just want to save themselves a lawsuit... SMH. also, I have lupus and methotrexate is absolutely used as an immunosuppressant!!
Maggie please don’t worry about crying, you cry if you want to. Rest yourself and mind yourself and cry if you want to. We do not care if you cry, we are all with you and Zac. Much love xx
Oh my gosh, has this been an education for me about ectopic pregnancies. Having never experienced one, I guess I thought that it was an immediate crisis that required emergency care, then it was over. I had no idea about waiting and checking levels and having to make decisions when no one knows for sure what exactly is going on. I knew it would be a sad thing, obviously, but I never factored in exhaustion, getting poked and prodded repeatedly, and running around hither and thither while tired and scared and nauseated. Wow. I’m glad you got to have Easter with the family. And I like the new ring.
oh Maggie, as difficult as this whole video was, I felt the most for you when you were explaining the conversation about methotrexate. I'm not saying they were dismissing you, but boy did that feeling ever sound familiar! You know your own body and your history better than anyone, and you know what you're talking about with AI drugs. You're right, it was out of their wheelhouse. I'm sorry it happened like that, though, you didn't need that. And on wondering if you want to do another IUI, see how you feel after some time has passed. But I shared this before and I think it still stands: if you feel like any of it is costing you too much peace, you can absolutely step back, that's your prerogative. I decided to not even try for kids as I knew I couldn't take the extra stress on me or my marriage, and it turned out to be the right decision for me/us and I'm actually super glad we made it. But when you are ready you will figure out the right decision for you guys, and no one else can/should tell you otherwise. Your peace is a precious thing, and I hope you regain it soon.
Please remember that throughout this time your hormones have been crazy, too. I NEVER cried watching a commercial except when I had 2 miscarriages. Give yourself time to heal and re-energize. Then you and Zac can proceed stronger than ever.
It's cringy and concerning that they questioned you about methotrexate being an immunosuppressant 😮. You do know what you are talking about and I'm glad you were able to advocate for yourself! ❤❤❤
I'm on methotrexate for rheumatoid arthritis and it's an autoimmune disease. So it's weird for them to deny it. It's also a cancer drug, so it's not a light drug. Advocate for yourself. Stay strong.
Maggie, I have never commented here... I am really sorry that you are going through this. You are not stupid about methotrexate you are right but the doctor focused on the impact of methotrexate on the rapidly dividing cells of a developing foetus and not on the body of the woman carrying her foetus, a compartmentalised respsonse to what they saw as a specific problem with a specific solution, without reference to your specific body, agency and medical history. I am so sorry that you had to deal with this on top of everything else. Take good care of yourself and of each other. You are amazing!
My mom had an ectopic when I was 12. I now have a sister named angel. We named her that because of that previous experience. It was a pretty scary experience for my family, but we got through it and so will you. Sending virtual hugs
Methotrexate is definitely an immunosuppressant! Well in the UK it is! I can’t believe they said it wasn’t…..I’m on it for Psoriatic Arthritis along with Etanercept. I felt your anger so much when you were sat in the car after…..have been there so many times with doctors. You are so positive but let all the emotions out if you can, you are allowed to feel all the feelings. I’ve had a stillborn and 2 miscarriages one of which ended in surgery after being told to go home and sit it out, a month later I had to be admitted to the hospital because of complications. Have 2 grown up children now. Sending love x
It definitely is an immune suppressant! That's the whole reason they use it for autoimmune conditions--to tamp down the immune system so that if hopefully won't chew on us!
Love how you are thinking of Zac having to get off work and immediately to the ER. But like the vows say, "...for better or worse, in sickness or health...". I feel the same way about my husband. I have debilitating conditions that prevent me from doing very many things. But he is always there for me, like Zac is for you. We have been together since my senior year in high school and will be married 37 years in two months. I live the dynamic between the two of you. Your love for each other is very clear. Sending you both love and hugs from Texas.
It’s been my experience that doctors don’t know as much about prescription meds as they should! My pharmacist saved me from taking a prescription med that had the potential for catastrophic side effects (after only one dose) due to my medical condition. Thank goodness you advocated for yourself. I’m so sorry for your loss.
I have ideopathic arthritis due to UC. I was on methotrexate and it ruined my liver and caused scaring. Not much but enough that I cant take estrogen pills and have to watch all my meds closer ad the liver could be affected. You made the best call for you and your body. You did what you needed to to stay alive. Never doubt it was the right call for you!
I’m not a doctor, but I watch @MamaDoctorJones here on RUclips and through her content I learned that it’s not that abnormal for the egg of one ovary to go through the opposite tube. Also, to my understanding, because of this, having a tube removed doesn’t affect your ability to get pregnant quite as much as one might think. Wishing you all the best. I can’t imagine just how hard this has been. I hope you recover physically, mentally, and emotionally and are able to grow your family as you wish. ❤
I am so sorry for your loss, been following you since you posted a feeding tube tutorial. Your journey, and strength are inspirational. Your husband is an angel.
Maggie, every feeling you are feeling is COMPLETELY👏VALID👏 I'm sorry that you are going through such a horrible time but thank you for sharing your experience. As someone who will probably need fertility help if I ever have children after IBD complications, it really helps to see different experiences, good and bad.
You know your body and the seriousness of your condition going into surgery because of how it will affect your recovery. It's a big deal and you are right to advocate for yourself. Very scary, you are so Strong!
Never let a doctor talk down to you! You are an educated lady. The hormones are tough. I've dealt with those types and they need to learn some compassion. Infertility is rough! I cried a lot.... Hugs
right? Imagine telling a nurse and someone with a chronic illness who has been on a number of medications that they don't know what certain drugs do. Doctors really have some balls I'll tell you
I think the ring is beautiful and such a wonderful reminder of your first little angle baby. I am so sorry for everything you are going through. I do t even have words to convey how sad I feel for you. I know you probably don't want to hear someone say don't give up on having your family but I sure hope you don't. I've never seen Zac to quiet and sad looking also. Yall are both in my thoughts and prayers.
Oh my gosh sweetheart my heart is breaking for you. I’m older than you but I’m a ostomy patient from cancer. I know the pain and the feeling from chemo years ago. The nausea and being dehydrated. Several surgeries from colorectal cancer. You have to be so worried and scared. I know god is with you! This to shall pass honey. Cry when you need to. Don’t suppress your feelings. Let Zach hold you and you will get through this! He’s wonderful! A god send in your life. Love you two. I’ve been watching you 5 years now and your like family to me. You’ve helped me these past years and you probably don’t know it. You made me feel I could live a somewhat normal life at 57 with a pouch. Thank you for that. Only thing I can do to repay you is lots of prayers. I know god will give you that rainbow baby soon. You’ll be an absolutely wonderful mother.❤Take care and rest when you can.
Maggie my heart 😢 I remember going through this. It was so horrible. I know how you feel Maggie. You're not alone honey. We all care. Everything will be ok. It will happen and you just have to never ever give up hope and faith. ❤ Praying for you and Z.
Maggie, you are so sweet. Thanks for continuing to be open with us. I know you are helping others by sharing this who may have similar complications. Love you and know you have tons of people who love you.
40 minutes to a nearby hospital?? My local hospital is less than 5 minutes away and our best hospitals, in the city (Boston) are 20-25 min from me. I forget not everyone has that convenience. I feel the anguish and frustration, remembering my own ruptured ectopic. In my case my ectopic was suspected, but wasn't confirmed until it was right before it ruptured, but I was doing the every other day HCG tests, which left me an emotionally exhausted mess, worried, not knowing what choices to make because no one knew what actually was going on. You have absolutely every right to feel overwhelmed and emotional throughout this.
Oh Maggie.... I followed this on instagram as it was happening- and you sharing this very vulnerable insight into this process will no doubt help so many women. Of course my heart broke for you watching the tears fall in the last instalment about your loss, but seeing the normally super upbeat and positive Zac be so quietly sad and heartbroken... that is just another level of wretchedness.... I am praying for you and your little one that was lost, and I pray and send all of the baby dust (and Irish luck!) that you have a baby in your arms soon.
I feel for you. I was 28 when my IBD hit and was a hotshot--on top of the world. Ten years and multiple operations later I couldn't even work. That was 32 years ago. I've wasted a lot of time asking, why me? It's wasted breath. Make the most of your life that you can. Not great advice but the best I can do.
As I look forward to another surgery, I’ve been down on myself for making some past medical decisions that caused more problems. Wasted breath. Wasted time. “Make the most of your life that you can.” That’s great advice! Thank you.
Ibd hit me a couple years ago, plus I got kidney stone surgery which led to complications and now I am waiting to have a nephrectomy. Three years ago I was totally healthy and started school, I thought I was finally on my way to achieve all my dreams. But because of all my health issues, I had to drop out and I could not work for over a year. Right now I am simply content that my ibd is under control, I don't have cancer, nobody close to me is dying. Just taking it day by day.
@@NonaK3856 My surgeons kept advising "just one more surgery." The only reason I'm still alive at 60 (32 years after diagnosis, probably 41 years since I first was afflicted) is that I told them NO1. Yeah, I have problems, and pain, but in my case the surgeons were a bunch of screw-ups.
Oh...Maggie. You are so brave to share this with your community. Please don't hold back the tears, no matter where you are. Like someone said, "There's toxins in them tears". That's why we always feel better after a good cry. Thank you for taking us on this journey. It's been so, so stressful and hard on you, and Zak. Too often, my daughter and I have experienced doctors gaslighting us, and that makes us doubt ourselves. I'm glad you stood your ground. You know your body and history better than anyone. Your intincts have been right on, all the way through this. On a positive note, your incision looks amazing! Sending you and Zak much light and hope.
I was on Methotrexate *specifically for the immune suppression* for my autoimmune disease. That doctor clearly needs to educate himself on the medication that he prescribes everyday. I’m so sorry that you e had to deal with incompetence on top of an already heartbreaking situation.
Sometimes you have to advocate for yourself no matter what. Do what is best for you going forward. You will know what feels right and what doesn’t. Hope you get your wish in the end of this journey for a happy healthy pregnancy and baby. Will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers as you recover and decide what step is best.
Maggie, please never apologize for your feeling sad about your situation. The one thing I have learned thru my own journey is that if people judge you for how you feel given your situation they aren’t your people. You be you, and never apologize for being you. I know being male I can never go thru what you are going thru as a female but that’s why I find you sharing your journey is a definite sign of strength thru all you have gotten thru. I continue to learn more about myself and my journey by l watching and listening to yours. We all go thru emotions, and we all handle these hard things differently. I commend you and Zak for sharing each and every video. Sending positive vibes and hoping here from Canada that everything works out for you both in the end with this chapter in your story. Keep smiling and doing your best to stay positive during what seems like a very dark time. Thank you and I appreciate you sharing updates with the community. You are an inspiration to many of us (male or female) in the ostomy community, because at any given time any one of us could be going thru the very same thing at different times in our own journey. Much respect coming from Canada :)
I'm so sorry about everything you've been going through Maggie. My prayer is that you will be well and healthy leading to building your family, which I believe you will in the future. All the best to you and Zak.💕
Maggie you know your body more than anyone else. You know what you’re feeling and doing and you’re not stupid. You’ve gone through so much with your IBD struggles, that you’re not stupid. You’re being cautious like your doctors are, but at the end of the day you know what is best for you. You’re your best advocate and you’re doing a great job. Everything will be fine. I saw your video posted before this one and we knew your situation and you came to my mind this morning, and I was thinking about what would I do if I wanted to go ahead and try again with the IUI. And I think that it would be better if you consider going straight into IVF. You told us that by trying this out, it would be more effective and less risky for you. We know that IVF is expensive, but I think you should give it a try, because you do want to be the one to carry your baby in your womb. You want the have that wonderful experience, so I think you should give it a try. I think that IUI is not the best option for you. Take care honey. We love you. Sending you lots of hugs and positive energy. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️☮️✌️🤓
adding to all the comments sending you and Zac so much love. You do SO much for the IBD and ostomy community and documenting and sharing this journey on top is just so you and thoughtful. You explain so well each feeling and decision. I think you've said its useful for you to share but please dont feel like you need to.
Oh Maggie and Zak. This is so rough. You two are so strong and such a nice couple. I pray you will be blessed soon with a healthy pregnancy and soon to be baby ❤.
What an absolutely traumatic series of events. It’s hard enough at the basis of this but with all of the extra back and forth and unknown and everything else…it’s just a lot. I feel for you and other women who have had to go through this
Maggie l'm heartbroken for you, watching this video I cried with you. My eife and I had our own fertility issues a long time ago so we understand. I also have Crohn's and have had alot of issues with it over the years (42 years now) it all really sucks but you have alot of people sending their love and concern for you 😂 this will take time but be good to yourself
❤ Maggie. My heart goes out to you when you are trying to explain the side effects of methotrexate. I have been in this situation for years in relation to migraine medication. Those that live it know their medications and side effects inside out and backwards and yet we still get doctors telling us different things. You are not stupid. You are VERY educated. Stay strong lovely 🥰
I've watched you for a year after my ileostomy. You have validated all the hard issues with ostomy. You made me feel more human to see you talk about the same rough learning experiences. Thank you for your bravery. I too went through IVF. We were lucky. It have us a son. But there were a lot of hurdles getting there. Maybe someone has already told you, but at least you now know that you can conceive. I know that doesnt help but it gives me hope for you. And please cry. Get it all out. Hormones are deffinatly to blame. Sweet girl I'll be thinking about you. Take it easy on yourself.
You are dead right about Methotrexate. I have been on it since 1990 and I have Rheumatoid Arthritis. It was early on when they started to treat RA patients with Methotrexate and it was considered risky, as it was new for RA treatment. Monday has always been Methotrexate day and Tuesday has always been a struggle but the drug worked for me. The side effects are scary though and I have to I have to go regularly for blood work, just to check ALT, liver values, etc. I'm grateful for it despite its inherent risks. You are one strong young lady and you should not worry about being emotional, you've been on a difficult journey. I hope you know how much you help people and how much you are loved by this community you have built. Best wishes, Maggie (and Zak too). 💙
Thanks so much for sharing with us....such a personal story. You did a good job advocating for yourself. You are right to trust yourself. I'm holding you and Zac in my heart!
I didn't click off. My heart goes out to you. I don't know how you feel. I am unable to get pregnant. But I emphasize with you and can't imagine what you're going through. I am very sensitive and emotional. I've learned to let it out and never apologize for it. If people don't like it, they can move on ❤❤❤❤❤
You're not stupid! Sounds like fertility needs to brush up on rheumatology. Methotrexate makes me super sick on just oral. I'm glad you're going to be OK. I'm so sorry for your loss.
I'm sorry for all you've been through. It's horrible. I had to have a D&C done with my first pregnancy (21 yrs ago). A couple week prior I had seen the heartbeat on the ultrasound (8 weeks) so I was devastated to go back in and see a baby without a heartbeat, then to have to make the decision to either wait till I miscarried or get a D&C. I opted for the D&C because I felt SO pregnant (hormonal and nauseous) I just couldn't do it. I cried when they woke me up because I knew it was all over and the baby was no longer inside of me. I hope you are healing well emotionally and physically. Sending lots of love.
O.m.g Maggie! You are going through a very difficult and trying time right now. It's amazing how brave you are being and able to share with your viewers. Thank you I pray everything works out for you( & zac). 🙏 ❤.❤.
Wow you have certainly been through it! Someone needs to school that doctor on the medication he’s giving to people. Sorry you have had to go through this. ❤
You are so strong & beautiful. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You have already been through so much. Take care of yourself you fearless warrior. 💪🏼❤️
I'm so sorry. I just went through an ectopic pregnancy a few weeks ago. Everything was fine, then I woke up with some pain that went from mild to excruciating in a couple hours. Rushed to the ER, after some testing found out it was an ectopic pregnancy and I was in surgery a couple hours later. It was so unexpected and shocking. My Dr was very positive and hopeful for successful pregnancy after. I was worried about my chances going down a lot, but with losing one tube, the chance of pregnancy only goes down a little bit. I'm so sorry you are going through this. I hope you are able to have a successful pregnancy soon.
It’s hard to think about everything at once ( this was me in December and I’m still scared to ttc again) but you will feel better about the situation after you get through it ! It’s overwhelming
I'm so sorry you and Zack are going through this difficult time. You will get each other through. Prayers for you and all who love you as you get the surgery you need to get you on a renewed path. You are 100% right that the OR has no clue how to take care of an ostomy. I had surgery recently and they had to remove my wafer/appliance during surgery. They literally pulled it off with no adhesive remover. I woke up to a very raw belly. I was NOT happy. You absolutely know what you are talking about. It always makes me a bit uneasy and insecure when I feel as if I know more about a topic than my medical personnel.
Oh Maggie, I so wish I could jump through the phone and hug you. I went through 3years on the IVF hormonal roller coaster. You are definitely NOT just being emotional. It wreaks such havoc on our bodies. My advice, if you need a day in bed crying just do it. You can’t let it build up or you’ll feel worse (speaking from experience). Please take some time to yourself before making any drastic decisions. Sending you my love and positive thoughts ❤❤❤❤
Dear sweet Maggie, I have been anxiously awaiting your news every time you’ve posted with a new video about losing your ectopic pregnancy. My heart swelled with such sorrow for you because it is such a wretched roller coaster. Although I believe that you will in the end be stronger, with at least the aspects of all the emotionally and mentally strenuous scars. However now that you have so beautifully memorialized this whole experience with that gorgeous ring. Here’s hoping that you will grow to have irreverent peace of the whole perspective of the experiences years down the road. Take care of my dear. Hope you’re doing well enough and sending positive vibes and pray that you have precious baby in your arms very soon!💗🫶🏻🤍🥰😱🤩
Man! I really truly feel for you and Zack...been there too. So, so very sorry this happened. Pls don't give up on having another IUI. It is worth it! Much love and prayers to you both. God bless you and Zack from South Africa.
I really feel for you. This will pass, but by golly it's hard to go through. It just feels ike everything! And hanging arund in the hospital only to go home. What a beastly thing. Your ring will be with you and comfort you.
Bless you both this is heart breaking to watch, your husband seems so lovely and helpful. I've had 3 miscarriages 2 early and 1 at 18 weeks honestly people say it'll be ok next time keep trying but they don't see the emotional and physical toll this sort of thing takes on your body and mind and I honestly think I'm done trying, I have an amazing Hubby and we have a great life and that is enough I think, stay strong you are doing so well and being emotional 24/7 is normal lol cry your eyes out and scream into your pillow it actually helps. You putting this content out there is a service to all women
You’re not stupid Maggie. They’re not using Methotrexate as an immunosuppressant, so they won’t know about those effects (although they should!!). It’s really bad when medical professionals don’t know the full picture and you do… I’ve had this experience. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You’re a strong person. Thanks for sharing your journey ❤
In 2000 I suffered a ruptured ectopic pregnancy and almost died. I went in for my regular yearly exam and found out I was pregnant. They did a routine ultrasound and it showed that I had an ectopic pregnancy. The doctor (if you can call him that) said he wanted to wait a week and look at it again. He said if I felt any pain to go to the emergency room. Well...I never felt any pain. Four days later I was standing in the pharmacy and suddenly felt like I was going to pass out. Long story short, I almost died. Emergency surgery, lots of trauma and then to find out that I was almost 12 weeks along. It was devastating. I'm so glad that your clinic sent you to the ER immediately. It is life threatening. I hate that you are going through this. So painful to your heart. God's got you and you will make it!
I'm so sorry that both you and Maggie have had to experience this. But I'm glad you're still with us 💓
My heart is breaking for you. The last thing you need is a doc gaslighting and leaving you doubting what you know. I just had a surgeon recently. People like us know our bodies, we’ve dealt with all of this forever, and some docs just don’t get it. You do what you need to right now, cry, scream, vent, anything you need. I know this is so hard, but you have so many of us in here that will be praying!
Someone who suffers from rheumatoid arthritis I was on methotrexate injections and it does suppress your immune system, you are on the right track, stay strong sending lots of hugs.
Same here
Wow the difference between the fertility clinic and the hospital..the clinic saying "go to the hospital your rupturing!!" And the hospital going "what? Chill, your good, go home" ..so frustrating
If it's a private fertility clinic they may just want to save themselves a lawsuit... SMH. also, I have lupus and methotrexate is absolutely used as an immunosuppressant!!
I would be saying SURGERY PLEASE . Insisting . 🤯🤯🤯
Maggie please don’t worry about crying, you cry if you want to. Rest yourself and mind yourself and cry if you want to. We do not care if you cry, we are all with you and Zac. Much love xx
Oh my gosh, has this been an education for me about ectopic pregnancies. Having never experienced one, I guess I thought that it was an immediate crisis that required emergency care, then it was over. I had no idea about waiting and checking levels and having to make decisions when no one knows for sure what exactly is going on. I knew it would be a sad thing, obviously, but I never factored in exhaustion, getting poked and prodded repeatedly, and running around hither and thither while tired and scared and nauseated. Wow. I’m glad you got to have Easter with the family. And I like the new ring.
Thoughts for you and Zak. No, you are not stupid. You are very smart woman. ❤
oh Maggie, as difficult as this whole video was, I felt the most for you when you were explaining the conversation about methotrexate. I'm not saying they were dismissing you, but boy did that feeling ever sound familiar! You know your own body and your history better than anyone, and you know what you're talking about with AI drugs. You're right, it was out of their wheelhouse. I'm sorry it happened like that, though, you didn't need that. And on wondering if you want to do another IUI, see how you feel after some time has passed. But I shared this before and I think it still stands: if you feel like any of it is costing you too much peace, you can absolutely step back, that's your prerogative. I decided to not even try for kids as I knew I couldn't take the extra stress on me or my marriage, and it turned out to be the right decision for me/us and I'm actually super glad we made it. But when you are ready you will figure out the right decision for you guys, and no one else can/should tell you otherwise. Your peace is a precious thing, and I hope you regain it soon.
Please remember that throughout this time your hormones have been crazy, too. I NEVER cried watching a commercial except when I had 2 miscarriages. Give yourself time to heal and re-energize. Then you and Zac can proceed stronger than ever.
It's cringy and concerning that they questioned you about methotrexate being an immunosuppressant 😮. You do know what you are talking about and I'm glad you were able to advocate for yourself! ❤❤❤
I'm on methotrexate for rheumatoid arthritis and it's an autoimmune disease. So it's weird for them to deny it. It's also a cancer drug, so it's not a light drug.
Advocate for yourself. Stay strong.
Maggie, I have never commented here... I am really sorry that you are going through this. You are not stupid about methotrexate you are right but the doctor focused on the impact of methotrexate on the rapidly dividing cells of a developing foetus and not on the body of the woman carrying her foetus, a compartmentalised respsonse to what they saw as a specific problem with a specific solution, without reference to your specific body, agency and medical history. I am so sorry that you had to deal with this on top of everything else. Take good care of yourself and of each other. You are amazing!
My mom had an ectopic when I was 12. I now have a sister named angel. We named her that because of that previous experience. It was a pretty scary experience for my family, but we got through it and so will you. Sending virtual hugs
You are so brave. Thank you for sharing your journey! Rest and take care !
Methotrexate is definitely an immunosuppressant! Well in the UK it is! I can’t believe they said it wasn’t…..I’m on it for Psoriatic Arthritis along with Etanercept. I felt your anger so much when you were sat in the car after…..have been there so many times with doctors. You are so positive but let all the emotions out if you can, you are allowed to feel all the feelings. I’ve had a stillborn and 2 miscarriages one of which ended in surgery after being told to go home and sit it out, a month later I had to be admitted to the hospital because of complications. Have 2 grown up children now. Sending love x
I was surprised too. I'm on methotrexate for rheumatoid arthritis and it's an autoimmune disease
It definitely is an immune suppressant! That's the whole reason they use it for autoimmune conditions--to tamp down the immune system so that if hopefully won't chew on us!
Love how you are thinking of Zac having to get off work and immediately to the ER. But like the vows say, "...for better or worse, in sickness or health...". I feel the same way about my husband. I have debilitating conditions that prevent me from doing very many things. But he is always there for me, like Zac is for you. We have been together since my senior year in high school and will be married 37 years in two months. I live the dynamic between the two of you. Your love for each other is very clear.
Sending you both love and hugs from Texas.
It’s been my experience that doctors don’t know as much about prescription meds as they should! My pharmacist saved me from taking a prescription med that had the potential for catastrophic side effects (after only one dose) due to my medical condition. Thank goodness you advocated for yourself. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Good point! My mom's pharmacist did the same for her. It's worth acknowledging that pharmacists are the drug experts, not doctors.
Oh Maggie my heart bleeds for you both! I just hope it all works out well in the end! Take care of yourselves. Much love.
I have ideopathic arthritis due to UC. I was on methotrexate and it ruined my liver and caused scaring. Not much but enough that I cant take estrogen pills and have to watch all my meds closer ad the liver could be affected.
You made the best call for you and your body. You did what you needed to to stay alive. Never doubt it was the right call for you!
I have uc and it sometimes hurts when i move my knees.
I’m not a doctor, but I watch @MamaDoctorJones here on RUclips and through her content I learned that it’s not that abnormal for the egg of one ovary to go through the opposite tube. Also, to my understanding, because of this, having a tube removed doesn’t affect your ability to get pregnant quite as much as one might think.
Wishing you all the best. I can’t imagine just how hard this has been. I hope you recover physically, mentally, and emotionally and are able to grow your family as you wish. ❤
I am so sorry for your loss, been following you since you posted a feeding tube tutorial. Your journey, and strength are inspirational. Your husband is an angel.
Not finished watching but wanted to say - you are NOT stupid, you know ur stuff. It stops ALL cells - hugs and love
Maggie, every feeling you are feeling is COMPLETELY👏VALID👏
I'm sorry that you are going through such a horrible time but thank you for sharing your experience. As someone who will probably need fertility help if I ever have children after IBD complications, it really helps to see different experiences, good and bad.
Girl just rest 😢 we love you and are hearts are with you ♥️
You know your body and the seriousness of your condition going into surgery because of how it will affect your recovery. It's a big deal and you are right to advocate for yourself. Very scary, you are so Strong!
Never let a doctor talk down to you! You are an educated lady. The hormones are tough. I've dealt with those types and they need to learn some compassion. Infertility is rough! I cried a lot.... Hugs
right? Imagine telling a nurse and someone with a chronic illness who has been on a number of medications that they don't know what certain drugs do. Doctors really have some balls I'll tell you
I think the ring is beautiful and such a wonderful reminder of your first little angle baby.
I am so sorry for everything you are going through. I do t even have words to convey how sad I feel for you.
I know you probably don't want to hear someone say don't give up on having your family but I sure hope you don't. I've never seen Zac to quiet and sad looking also. Yall are both in my thoughts and prayers.
Oh my gosh sweetheart my heart is breaking for you. I’m older than you but I’m a ostomy patient from cancer. I know the pain and the feeling from chemo years ago. The nausea and being dehydrated. Several surgeries from colorectal cancer. You have to be so worried and scared. I know god is with you! This to shall pass honey. Cry when you need to. Don’t suppress your feelings. Let Zach hold you and you will get through this! He’s wonderful! A god send in your life. Love you two. I’ve been watching you 5 years now and your like family to me. You’ve helped me these past years and you probably don’t know it. You made me feel I could live a somewhat normal life at 57 with a pouch. Thank you for that. Only thing I can do to repay you is lots of prayers. I know god will give you that rainbow baby soon. You’ll be an absolutely wonderful mother.❤Take care and rest when you can.
You are exactly right!!!! I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you! I am thinking about you guys lots!!! ❤❤❤
Same Here!!!!
Maggie my heart 😢
I remember going through this. It was so horrible.
I know how you feel Maggie.
You're not alone honey.
We all care.
Everything will be ok.
It will happen and you just have to never ever give up hope and faith.
❤
Praying for you and Z.
Maggie, you are so sweet. Thanks for continuing to be open with us. I know you are helping others by sharing this who may have similar complications. Love you and know you have tons of people who love you.
Oh my goodness I’m so sorry 😞 pls don’t worry about crying ur going through a lot I just subscribed to ur channel I’m sending love and prayers 🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼
40 minutes to a nearby hospital?? My local hospital is less than 5 minutes away and our best hospitals, in the city (Boston) are 20-25 min from me. I forget not everyone has that convenience. I feel the anguish and frustration, remembering my own ruptured ectopic. In my case my ectopic was suspected, but wasn't confirmed until it was right before it ruptured, but I was doing the every other day HCG tests, which left me an emotionally exhausted mess, worried, not knowing what choices to make because no one knew what actually was going on. You have absolutely every right to feel overwhelmed and emotional throughout this.
Oh Maggie.... I followed this on instagram as it was happening- and you sharing this very vulnerable insight into this process will no doubt help so many women.
Of course my heart broke for you watching the tears fall in the last instalment about your loss, but seeing the normally super upbeat and positive Zac be so quietly sad and heartbroken... that is just another level of wretchedness....
I am praying for you and your little one that was lost, and I pray and send all of the baby dust (and Irish luck!) that you have a baby in your arms soon.
I'm so sorry for all you have been through.😢 Praying for you & your husband. 🙏
I feel for you. I was 28 when my IBD hit and was a hotshot--on top of the world. Ten years and multiple operations later I couldn't even work. That was 32 years ago. I've wasted a lot of time asking, why me? It's wasted breath. Make the most of your life that you can. Not great advice but the best I can do.
As I look forward to another surgery, I’ve been down on myself for making some past medical decisions that caused more problems. Wasted breath. Wasted time. “Make the most of your life that you can.” That’s great advice!
Thank you.
Ibd hit me a couple years ago, plus I got kidney stone surgery which led to complications and now I am waiting to have a nephrectomy. Three years ago I was totally healthy and started school, I thought I was finally on my way to achieve all my dreams. But because of all my health issues, I had to drop out and I could not work for over a year. Right now I am simply content that my ibd is under control, I don't have cancer, nobody close to me is dying. Just taking it day by day.
@@NonaK3856 My surgeons kept advising "just one more surgery." The only reason I'm still alive at 60 (32 years after diagnosis, probably 41 years since I first was afflicted) is that I told them NO1. Yeah, I have problems, and pain, but in my case the surgeons were a bunch of screw-ups.
@@andywindes4968 Very wise. Good for you!
I will remember your words and be judicious as possible with the medical choices.
Oh...Maggie. You are so brave to share this with your community. Please don't hold back the tears, no matter where you are. Like someone said, "There's toxins in them tears". That's why we always feel better after a good cry. Thank you for taking us on this journey. It's been so, so stressful and hard on you, and Zak. Too often, my daughter and I have experienced doctors gaslighting us, and that makes us doubt ourselves. I'm glad you stood your ground. You know your body and history better than anyone. Your intincts have been right on, all the way through this. On a positive note, your incision looks amazing! Sending you and Zak much light and hope.
My heart goes out to you and Zak. Prayers and hugs and healing comfort being asked for you ❤
I was on Methotrexate *specifically for the immune suppression* for my autoimmune disease. That doctor clearly needs to educate himself on the medication that he prescribes everyday. I’m so sorry that you e had to deal with incompetence on top of an already heartbreaking situation.
Sometimes you have to advocate for yourself no matter what. Do what is best for you going forward. You will know what feels right and what doesn’t. Hope you get your wish in the end of this journey for a happy healthy pregnancy and baby. Will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers as you recover and decide what step is best.
Girl, you cry, scream, and experience all the feels you want and need while sharing what you want and need! 🤗💐🌈
Maggie, please never apologize for your feeling sad about your situation. The one thing I have learned thru my own journey is that if people judge you for how you feel given your situation they aren’t your people. You be you, and never apologize for being you. I know being male I can never go thru what you are going thru as a female but that’s why I find you sharing your journey is a definite sign of strength thru all you have gotten thru. I continue to learn more about myself and my journey by l watching and listening to yours. We all go thru emotions, and we all handle these hard things differently. I commend you and Zak for sharing each and every video. Sending positive vibes and hoping here from Canada that everything works out for you both in the end with this chapter in your story. Keep smiling and doing your best to stay positive during what seems like a very dark time. Thank you and I appreciate you sharing updates with the community. You are an inspiration to many of us (male or female) in the ostomy community, because at any given time any one of us could be going thru the very same thing at different times in our own journey. Much respect coming from Canada :)
I'm so sorry about everything you've been going through Maggie. My prayer is that you will be well and healthy leading to building your family, which I believe you will in the future. All the best to you and Zak.💕
Maggie you know your body more than anyone else. You know what you’re feeling and doing and you’re not stupid. You’ve gone through so much with your IBD struggles, that you’re not stupid. You’re being cautious like your doctors are, but at the end of the day you know what is best for you. You’re your best advocate and you’re doing a great job. Everything will be fine. I saw your video posted before this one and we knew your situation and you came to my mind this morning, and I was thinking about what would I do if I wanted to go ahead and try again with the IUI. And I think that it would be better if you consider going straight into IVF. You told us that by trying this out, it would be more effective and less risky for you. We know that IVF is expensive, but I think you should give it a try, because you do want to be the one to carry your baby in your womb. You want the have that wonderful experience, so I think you should give it a try. I think that IUI is not the best option for you. Take care honey. We love you. Sending you lots of hugs and positive energy. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️☮️✌️🤓
Glad you stuck to your guns. Sorry that you had to. I know that this occurred a while back, so I hope you’re continuing to feel better. ❤❤❤❤
You’re so incredibly strong Maggie, I don’t know how you do it 💔💔 You’re truly an inspiration to us all! big hugs and love from NC 💕
adding to all the comments sending you and Zac so much love. You do SO much for the IBD and ostomy community and documenting and sharing this journey on top is just so you and thoughtful. You explain so well each feeling and decision. I think you've said its useful for you to share but please dont feel like you need to.
Your emotions are completely understandable. I cannot imagine going through this. Be kind to yourself.
So sorry Maggie.
Oh Maggie and Zak. This is so rough. You two are so strong and such a nice couple. I pray you will be blessed soon with a healthy pregnancy and soon to be baby ❤.
Oh sweetheart I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this. ❤
What an absolutely traumatic series of events. It’s hard enough at the basis of this but with all of the extra back and forth and unknown and everything else…it’s just a lot. I feel for you and other women who have had to go through this
Thanks for sharing your story Maggie…..You’re a very strong 💪 lady !!! Wish you all the best ….❤️💖❤️💖❤️💖
Hugs! Thank you for making these videos! ❤
So sad. You dont deserve this maggie. Neither does Zac. Dont forget your love for each other. Wish you blessings.wish we could help.
Maggie l'm heartbroken for you, watching this video I cried with you. My eife and I had our own fertility issues a long time ago so we understand. I also have Crohn's and have had alot of issues with it over the years (42 years now) it all really sucks but you have alot of people sending their love and concern for you 😂 this will take time but be good to yourself
You and Zac will bill amazing parents to a very lucky child one day! I’m sorry you had to go through all of this. You two are lovely!
❤ Maggie. My heart goes out to you when you are trying to explain the side effects of methotrexate. I have been in this situation for years in relation to migraine medication. Those that live it know their medications and side effects inside out and backwards and yet we still get doctors telling us different things. You are not stupid. You are VERY educated. Stay strong lovely 🥰
I've watched you for a year after my ileostomy. You have validated all the hard issues with ostomy. You made me feel more human to see you talk about the same rough learning experiences. Thank you for your bravery.
I too went through IVF. We were lucky. It have us a son. But there were a lot of hurdles getting there. Maybe someone has already told you, but at least you now know that you can conceive. I know that doesnt help but it gives me hope for you. And please cry. Get it all out. Hormones are deffinatly to blame.
Sweet girl I'll be thinking about you. Take it easy on yourself.
Oh, Maggie. You held so well through all of this. You are amazing.💕💕💕💕
You are dead right about Methotrexate. I have been on it since 1990 and I have Rheumatoid Arthritis. It was early on when they started to treat RA patients with Methotrexate and it was considered risky, as it was new for RA treatment. Monday has always been Methotrexate day and Tuesday has always been a struggle but the drug worked for me. The side effects are scary though and I have to I have to go regularly for blood work, just to check ALT, liver values, etc. I'm grateful for it despite its inherent risks. You are one strong young lady and you should not worry about being emotional, you've been on a difficult journey. I hope you know how much you help people and how much you are loved by this community you have built. Best wishes, Maggie (and Zak too). 💙
Thanks so much for sharing with us....such a personal story. You did a good job advocating for yourself. You are right to trust yourself. I'm holding you and Zac in my heart!
Life changes so fast just watched your most recent video what a journey your on thank you for sharing it with us
Maggie I will be praying for you and Zak. I think so much of you and your strength and Zak is such a sweet guy.
This makes me sad. You are nurse and very articulate with your concerns. Imagine those of us without your clinical knowledge? UGH! So frustrating.
My heart goes out for you. Prayers.
I didn't click off. My heart goes out to you. I don't know how you feel. I am unable to get pregnant. But I emphasize with you and can't imagine what you're going through. I am very sensitive and emotional. I've learned to let it out and never apologize for it. If people don't like it, they can move on ❤❤❤❤❤
You're not stupid! Sounds like fertility needs to brush up on rheumatology. Methotrexate makes me super sick on just oral. I'm glad you're going to be OK. I'm so sorry for your loss.
If you have to take it again for whatever reason, the injectable form of mtx is easier on your stomach (of course, then you have to take a shot 🫤)
I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this. My heart is truly broken for you. I’m praying for you.
I'm sorry for all you've been through. It's horrible. I had to have a D&C done with my first pregnancy (21 yrs ago). A couple week prior I had seen the heartbeat on the ultrasound (8 weeks) so I was devastated to go back in and see a baby without a heartbeat, then to have to make the decision to either wait till I miscarried or get a D&C. I opted for the D&C because I felt SO pregnant (hormonal and nauseous) I just couldn't do it. I cried when they woke me up because I knew it was all over and the baby was no longer inside of me.
I hope you are healing well emotionally and physically. Sending lots of love.
O.m.g Maggie! You are going through a very difficult and trying time right now. It's amazing how brave you are being and able to share with your viewers. Thank you I pray everything works out for you( & zac). 🙏 ❤.❤.
I'm so sorry sweetheart will be praying for you. We all love you
This was my breaking my heart, you poor dear. I'm only half through the video.
Wow you have certainly been through it! Someone needs to school that doctor on the medication he’s giving to people.
Sorry you have had to go through this. ❤
Maggie, don’t doubt yourself!
You know what you are talking about and you know your body best. 💕
I’m so sorry they invalidated you!! You know your stuff!!! I’m proud of you for knowing your body and standing your ground. ❤
You are so strong & beautiful. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You have already been through so much. Take care of yourself you fearless warrior. 💪🏼❤️
I'm so sorry. I just went through an ectopic pregnancy a few weeks ago. Everything was fine, then I woke up with some pain that went from mild to excruciating in a couple hours. Rushed to the ER, after some testing found out it was an ectopic pregnancy and I was in surgery a couple hours later. It was so unexpected and shocking.
My Dr was very positive and hopeful for successful pregnancy after. I was worried about my chances going down a lot, but with losing one tube, the chance of pregnancy only goes down a little bit.
I'm so sorry you are going through this. I hope you are able to have a successful pregnancy soon.
Man I can totally relate. I’m sorry you’re going through this whole situation. ❤
Bless you, precious dear… I am so sorry you are going through this! Sending you big hugs, much love and plenty of prayers!!!! 🙏🏻🥰😘
I’m so, so sorry for you both. Sending you lots of love from Australia 💔♥️
It’s hard to think about everything at once ( this was me in December and I’m still scared to ttc again) but you will feel better about the situation after you get through it ! It’s overwhelming
It is difficult to see how you gone through this process, Miss Maggie.
Don’t feel down and try to move on.
I have been thinking of you so much..🥺🫶🏻 Praying for you, Maggie!!
Prayers for you both and your angel baby 💕
I'm so sorry you and Zack are going through this difficult time. You will get each other through. Prayers for you and all who love you as you get the surgery you need to get you on a renewed path. You are 100% right that the OR has no clue how to take care of an ostomy. I had surgery recently and they had to remove my wafer/appliance during surgery. They literally pulled it off with no adhesive remover. I woke up to a very raw belly. I was NOT happy. You absolutely know what you are talking about. It always makes me a bit uneasy and insecure when I feel as if I know more about a topic than my medical personnel.
I am so sorry Maggie and Zack . Prayers always.
Oh Maggie, I so wish I could jump through the phone and hug you. I went through 3years on the IVF hormonal roller coaster. You are definitely NOT just being emotional. It wreaks such havoc on our bodies. My advice, if you need a day in bed crying just do it. You can’t let it build up or you’ll feel worse (speaking from experience). Please take some time to yourself before making any drastic decisions. Sending you my love and positive thoughts ❤❤❤❤
Dear sweet Maggie, I have been anxiously awaiting your news every time you’ve posted with a new video about losing your ectopic pregnancy. My heart swelled with such sorrow for you because it is such a wretched roller coaster. Although I believe that you will in the end be stronger, with at least the aspects of all the emotionally and mentally strenuous scars. However now that you have so beautifully memorialized this whole experience with that gorgeous ring. Here’s hoping that you will grow to have irreverent peace of the whole perspective of the experiences years down the road. Take care of my dear. Hope you’re doing well enough and sending positive vibes and pray that you have precious baby in your arms very soon!💗🫶🏻🤍🥰😱🤩
Man! I really truly feel for you and Zack...been there too. So, so very sorry this happened. Pls don't give up on having another IUI. It is worth it! Much love and prayers to you both. God bless you and Zack from South Africa.
I really feel for you. This will pass, but by golly it's hard to go through. It just feels ike everything! And hanging arund in the hospital only to go home. What a beastly thing. Your ring will be with you and comfort you.
You poor Love, I pray you can have a positive pregnancy soon. You have gone through so much. Keep safe Maggie. You are precious ❤❤❤❤
Thinking of you both 💕
My thoughts and prayers are with you. Pretty Lady!!!!These adventures are worry some but you will be okay. Love you grammie
All I can say is that you are very, very brave. I hope that you ultimately get everything that you want. You deserve it.
So sorry I have had an Eptopic Pregnancy 12 years ago. I got thru it but it was rough. Prayers for a quick recovery
Bless you both this is heart breaking to watch, your husband seems so lovely and helpful. I've had 3 miscarriages 2 early and 1 at 18 weeks honestly people say it'll be ok next time keep trying but they don't see the emotional and physical toll this sort of thing takes on your body and mind and I honestly think I'm done trying, I have an amazing Hubby and we have a great life and that is enough I think, stay strong you are doing so well and being emotional 24/7 is normal lol cry your eyes out and scream into your pillow it actually helps. You putting this content out there is a service to all women
Maggie and Zac you poor loves. What a rough time for you all xx
Love and prayers from a UCA sufferer in So Cal. ❤️🙏🏾
You’re not stupid Maggie. They’re not using Methotrexate as an immunosuppressant, so they won’t know about those effects (although they should!!). It’s really bad when medical professionals don’t know the full picture and you do… I’ve had this experience.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You’re a strong person. Thanks for sharing your journey ❤
Oh Maggie, you poor love. Sending you so much love ❤️ ❤❤