The not using protection was a boundary I also had in my open relationship. And yes, it’s a huge betrayal if one breaks it - it’s a pretty big thing in my opinion and nothing to play down, Ferdi. It’s exactly like cheating and not part of ethical non-monogamy. At least for me it would exactly feel like that and a no-go.
But I‘m sure there were huge fuckups on both sides. Like it’s very often after breakups. But just to mention, why she reports you as a cheater: because you actually did by not using condoms. I‘m totally in that same vibration. And this is something you should own at least.
And please don’t view this at hate. My breakup was 2 months ago and I never loved a person so much and I feel your struggle and pain deeply. That’s why I’m also invested in both of your stories. Because they give me new perspectives and ways to process my own grieving.
This lost soul is now eating dead fish thinking it’ll help his problems. 10 years of being a voice for the animals now he’s actively murdering them. Crazy what happens when you lose sense of self and ego takes over.
Here I am, I gave up veganism about a year and a half ago. and today, I'm learning that Vegains is no longer vegan. Which funny enough yesterday, I decided to go vegan again because I figured out what was wrong with me (and the vegetarian/pescatarian dieting only helped minimally) but now I'm on meds because I got rediagnosed with ADHD and that was likely the issue with by brain fog for the last 3ish years (also not planning my diet adequately or enough physical activity). And a big part of this comeback is because I did lose myself after some drastic life changes and huge cross-country moves.
merkst du es wirklich einfach nicht? Du durchlebst immer und immer wieder den selben Loop. Wird dir nicht langweilig davon, dass IMMER die anderen schuld sein sollen? Kein Mensch bleibt dauerhaft an deiner Seite und immer sollen es die anderen gewesen sein? Jedes einzelne Mal? Wach doch endlich mal auf!
There are definitely a lot of things you could be criticized for, and you’re by no means an angel, Ferdi. But I’ve watched your relationship with Brittnee unfold, saw the breakup, and read the criticism in your comments. I cannot help but wonder why so many people believe you to be the only bad guy here. The way she pursued-almost manipulated-you into getting and staying in this relationship (her following you to Europe, pretending she was into alien stuff, constant voice messages, taking advantage of your state during your first MDMA trip, quickly isolating you from your friends). Soon you became codependent and lost all sense of self somewhere along the way. You completely lost your spark and still kept pouring everything you had into Brittnee, trying to please her, trying to become the man she wanted you to be. It was sad to see. She had too much power over you, always finding the ‘right’ words, ‘guiding’ you when you struggled to see through the fog. I felt relieved when you finally found the strength to break off the relationship. Did you break an agreement? Probably. Did she break agreements before? Definitely. Just remember the way she gaslit you about what happened in Amsterdam. Did she use protection when giving out those BJs? I think you have every right to be angry. She honestly wasn’t the nicest person to you. And you don’t have to try to love her moving forward. It’s okay when feelings change. Life goes on.
This is an excellent post Luisa. I wish that Ferdi hadn’t taken down that video of their first podcast together back in the summer of 2022 when he was trying to do a serious podcast about travel and she was attempting to start an intimate relationship. It shows her manipulations. And yes, she always follows her men around, whether it was Ferdi to Europe, Ruwando to Koh Phangan, remaining in Koh Phangan with the crypto trader (because he wanted to) when she wanted to relocate back to Chiang Mai, or currently with that itinerant American dude back in Chiang Mai. Ferdi needs to have nothing to do with her in the future.
Endlich wieder voll dabei, der typ lädt jeden geistigen erguss hoch im glauben er inspiriert jemanden während sich wahrscheinlich 99% der zuschauer lustig über ihn machen.... mitleid welcher sich die ganzen talks in voller länge anhört lol
both are incredibly egotistic, but this is what happens when you have nothing to do in ur life. he doesn't work at all, never had to have a job, lives off his mommy's money, he has zero purpose and nothing to ground him. that's why all his friends and mom stopped talking to him.
@@Paczbro Maybe all true, but at least it is his family’s money. She hasn’t been working since 2020 and is leeching off the American taxpayer to fund her fraudulent lifestyle.
@@Paczbrohomie was a symbol for a greater movement based on compassion and liberation. Straight up collaborated with some of, if not, the most prominent vegans in the movement. Then threw it all away for some drugs and mediocre pussy
Im so disappointed in you. You're breaking promises, hurting people, hurting animals(eating them) I dont think i like you anymore ill gonna see myself out.
Even if i dont feel good being a witness of both of your thoughts and journeys, its actually brave to share this on the internet. Maybe people can learn from this. We are all imperfect and i dont think we have to be happy all the time. Sadness and Grief etc. is part of the game.
It‘s so absurd to hear you talk about your ex-relationship and comparing it to: trauma, death penalty etc. Wtf Ferdi? You started live broadcasting your heartbreak and she shared her own reality. Natürlich sind eure Wahrnehmungen nicht 1:1 dasselbe. You‘re allowed to react to her Video and clarify what you want. Thats how human interaction work. Please stop playing the victim card and reflect your own bad behaviors. It‘s a lot hearing your podcasts everyday. I feel so clearly that you regret the separation. You need to move on. It‘s not your decision anymore. Stop watching her online and get your relationship with your family healed. And your own head healed. It‘s uncomfortable to watch you right now. Also your take of „I apologized xy“ well, now what? people don't have to forgive you in your time. that is their own journey and decision. Addition: Listening to youtube with a closed display is possible. There are ad free apps for it. How about less complaining and more researching?
Hey Ferdi, ich verstehe deine Situation in der du gerade bist sehr gut, verstehe dass du sauer bist. Habe auch in ihre Podcasts reingehört und mein einziger Gedanke zu der Sache zwischen euch beiden war und ist immer, dass das Dinge sind, die viel zu persönlich sind und die eigentlich nicht in die Öffentlichkeit gehören. Dachte immer, dass ist jetzt viel zu privat, dass müsst ihr zwischen euch klären. Beziehungen bzw. Trennungen sind immer schwierig und außenstehende Personen sollten sich meiner Meinung nach gerade aus der schmutzigen Wäsche komplett raushalten auch wenn es durch euch in die Öffentlichkeit getragen wird. Jeder, der schonmal durch so einen emotionalen Break Up durchgegangen ist, sollte das eigentlich wissen, aber die Leute lieben leider auch diese Art Drama und springen sehr darauf an. Kann nur sagen, hör nicht auf den Hate, auch wenn es schwierig ist, aber die Wahrheit kennt nur ihr beide und darüber solltet ihr Face to Face reden. Britnee geht aus meiner Sicht absolut nicht erwachsen damit um, hat viele eigene Themen, woran sie noch arbeiten muss, die sehr problematisch sind und nicht mit dem Bild was sie nach aussen geben möchte übereinstimmen und ich finde es schade, dass sie vieles davon auf dich projeziert. Sie hat dich meiner Meinung nach nie für deine Person, wie du bist geliebt, sondern nur für das was sie sich gewünscht hätte, wer du für sie sein könntest wenn du dich ihren Vorstellungen nach änderst und das ist keine tatsächliche Liebe. Das hat man gerade in den letzten Monaten eeeeeeextrem bei dir gesehen und das ist ja auch das, was dich so unter Druck gesetzt hat immer mehr zu einem higher Mind zu werden, deine Emotionen und Bedürfnisse abzuspalten und nicht mehr du selbst zu sein. Aber das ist nur meine Betrachtung von außen, das muss so nicht zutreffen und sollte ich hier eine Grenze überschritten haben tut es mir leid. Ich wünsche dir nur das Beste und dass du das möglichst gut verarbeiten kannst und liebe Menschen um dich rum hast, die dir dabei helfen. Das gute ist, dass es wirklich immer besser wird mit dem Herzschmerz und man irgendwann sehr gestärkt da rausgeht. Du bist so weit gekommen bisher nach der Trennung, bist durch soviel Schmerz durchgegangen, das muss man auch erstmal schaffen. Take care :)
"Sie hat dich meiner Meinung nach nie für deine Person, wie du bist geliebt, sondern nur für das was sie sich gewünscht hätte, wer du für sie sein könntest wenn du dich ihren Vorstellungen nach änderst und das ist keine tatsächliche Liebe. " Exakt auch meine Meinung!
Fühl ich sehr ❤️ danke für deine Sicht der Dinge - weis ich sehr zu schätzen 😘 und ich glaube ich bin an einem Punkt wo darüber öffentlich zu reden heilend für unser collective sein könnte weil ich reflektiert genug an die Sache ran gehen kann ✨ safe auch weil ich es einfach brauche in dem Schmerz gesehen zu werden.. ich denke aber beides ist True und das vielen dieser Austausch hier hilft 🖤🐥🤍
Das fasst es super zusammen, glaub ich - ihre monatelange Bearbeitung hat dazu geführt, dass er seine eigenen Gefühle (Boundaries) abspalten (disregarden) musste und am Ende keine Empathie mehr für sie aufbringen konnte.
@@vegainshey, ja klar, gibt hier sicher mehrere Realitäten, die friedlich coexistieren können. Ich kann es auch 100% nachvollziehen, dass die Gefühle raus müssen, erstrecht wenn die andere Person unavailable ist. Ist dein healing journey und das respektiere ich total. 😌❤️🩹
I understood it that way that se did this public statement (and I do not like people talking publicly about personal stuff about other people at all) because you did a German podcast about the breakup really soon after everything happened. For me her behavior was more like a reaction (and no action). So I personally wouldn’t focus so much on her statement. I think she was somehow forced to do it. Like you already sad you were in denial with Celine and I guess not everting was right in those German podcasts.
@@vegainsnow you are the one, who is lying. You talked in every story, video etc.about how good you feel, that you are back to the real Ferdi, that you have been so depressed with her etc.etc. www doesn't forget.
Ich war noch nie ein Fan von Brittney und hab das auch schon oft artikuliert und ich weiß, dass du das absolut nicht magst wenn man etwas gegen sie sagt. Aber Ferdi, letzten Endes bin ich wegen dir hier, da ich dir sehr lange auf Insta gefolgt bin und letztes Jahr dich entfolgte weil ich es nicht mehr ertragen konnte zu sehen was für ein Mensch du wurdest als du mit ihr zusammen warst. Es tat mir in der Seele weh und ich konnte es einfach länger ertragen. Du könntest mein Sohn sein und ich hab einfach den Wunsch, dich vor solchen Erfahrungen schützen zu wollen auch wenn das völlig irrational ist da wir uns ja nicht kennen. Am Anfang, grade in deiner Zeit in Berlin schienst du sehr glücklich zu sein. Deine Augen strahlten vor Glück und Aufregung und deine Podcasts zum Thema veganer Ernährung waren informativ und das sag ich als Nichtveganerin. Ist es vermessen sich zu wünschen, dass der "alte" Ferdi, der glücklich, zufrieden und verspielt war, wiederkommt? Ich weiß dass das Leben kein Wunschkonzert ist und auch nicht immer die Sonne scheint aber ich wünsche mir aus tiefstem Herzen den Ferdi zurück, der mir mit seinen Storys ein Lächeln ins Gesicht zaubert und eine Leichtigkeit ausstrahlt, die mir leider fehlt. Ich weiß das so ein Wunsch absolut egoistisch ist, vor Allem, wenn du gar nicht dieser Ferdi warst und du nur eine Maske getragen hast. Sollte der glückliche und verspielte Ferdi aber dein wahres Ich sein ...bring ihn bitte wieder zurück! 🙏🤗
ja, jeder Mensch mit etwas Menschenkenntnis merkt dass Brittnee narzisstisch veranlagt ist, dass sie Menschen für ihre Zwecke benutzt und manipuliert. Gibt ja in der Spiri-Szene nicht wenige von dieser Sorte und sie ist einfach ein Bilderbuchbeispiel dafür :D
Good to hear your perspective, but I still feel you could give more clearance - i.e. how does it go together to set each other 100% free and still have agreements?
I feel like Britnee is the one who is narcistic and manipulative. You have changed a lot since you met her and definitely not for the better, I see that a lot of people who have been following you for a long time feel the same way. Get back to your true self, the one you were without her. That would be a long path home Im sure, because Britnee changed you so much. You used to smile so much more and be so much more happy in your skin, I see a person who is clearly struggling now, and its been that way ever since you met Britnee. I know what it is like I was in a relationship for eleven years and you only realize when you’re truly letting go of that relationship how toxic it was and how much the other person controlled you, even if it didn’t feel or seem like that when you were in it. Love makes blind, it really does. Hope you get some help, and maybe not get it from these people who claim to be ‘enlightened’ and have no psychological background or much life experience whatsoever. It hurts to see you like this and you not being the person we all once knew.
she is. she's got bipolar or borderline personality disorder. those people are witches who cast spells on people, figuratively. ferdi is super lost too though.
Nobody can make anybody become anything. You are taking away his responsibility. He is responsible for all his actions. Especially when he is so „ awake“ he should have been able to see „ through her“.
I’m not projecting, I am just commenting on what I am seeing here and sharing an experience I had. However I know he is responsible for all his actions, I am just giving my two cents.
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING! So IMPORTANT - went through a break up as well recently and I can relate a lot to what you are saying. Still going through it and sometimes feelings from stages, I already thought I went through, come back. t is like two steps forward, five steps back. But when the emotions are fully processed as they come, it REALLY gets better, and better and better. Yesterday I felt like a beaten up sloth, today I feel great - like there was not even a break up to beging with 😂 It comes and goes in waves. sending love
Title:"I hate her." Comments:"I love her" Video:"Everything is a lie and she's like a game of thrones character." Riiiiiight. Kinda hard to keep up now. I feel like you are still swinging between extremes. Balance in the middle is the solution. Also there is a hugeee difference between being in love and being codependent... you need to be independent again first. I am wishing you stability! ❤
Thank you for speaking your truth Ferdi. Watching her podcasts, many of us did see through it. It’s clear when there’s a lot of storytelling and twisting taking place as it resembles the persons inner pain and need for justification. Those who listen to the jabs and send you hate simply don’t feel you or understands you, and that’s also okay. You know who you are. Keep that in mind as you observe these untrue and hateful comments. By viewing them objectively, you may observe the triggered ego (the need to be understood by all and justified) while still feeling your true essence and trusting truly that the people meant in your life / your biggest supporters will feel you completely, without any explanation. I hope this makes sense. Sending love your way✨
Unfortunately I think hate is a part of breaking up that you can't just skip. I was "the bigger person" when I got broken up with, I even apologised to my ex as I was getting broken up with. The rage and hate came weeks after when I realised how I sacrificed so much for the relationship and the other person just threw it all away. I dealt with my pain alone, shared it with close friends and kept everything else to myself. And you know what? Six months later my ex called me because he felt lost. And he finally apologised for what he'd done wrong. I've been your follower for a long time, I don't really watch your podcasts because my German isn't great, but my advice is: have patience. Work on yourself and focus on your body and soul. The apology will come. And when it does, you'll realise you never really needed it anyways. Edit: I'm on the 5th stage I think, but I also don't wanna fall in love with anyone ever again 🤣
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The not using protection was a boundary I also had in my open relationship. And yes, it’s a huge betrayal if one breaks it - it’s a pretty big thing in my opinion and nothing to play down, Ferdi.
It’s exactly like cheating and not part of ethical non-monogamy. At least for me it would exactly feel like that and a no-go.
But I‘m sure there were huge fuckups on both sides. Like it’s very often after breakups.
But just to mention, why she reports you as a cheater: because you actually did by not using condoms. I‘m totally in that same vibration. And this is something you should own at least.
And please don’t view this at hate. My breakup was 2 months ago and I never loved a person so much and I feel your struggle and pain deeply. That’s why I’m also invested in both of your stories. Because they give me new perspectives and ways to process my own grieving.
100 percent truth spoken! 🙏
This lost soul is now eating dead fish thinking it’ll help his problems. 10 years of being a voice for the animals now he’s actively murdering them. Crazy what happens when you lose sense of self and ego takes over.
Here I am, I gave up veganism about a year and a half ago. and today, I'm learning that Vegains is no longer vegan. Which funny enough yesterday, I decided to go vegan again because I figured out what was wrong with me (and the vegetarian/pescatarian dieting only helped minimally) but now I'm on meds because I got rediagnosed with ADHD and that was likely the issue with by brain fog for the last 3ish years (also not planning my diet adequately or enough physical activity). And a big part of this comeback is because I did lose myself after some drastic life changes and huge cross-country moves.
@@PinkNfilthygood for you 👊
merkst du es wirklich einfach nicht? Du durchlebst immer und immer wieder den selben Loop. Wird dir nicht langweilig davon, dass IMMER die anderen schuld sein sollen? Kein Mensch bleibt dauerhaft an deiner Seite und immer sollen es die anderen gewesen sein? Jedes einzelne Mal? Wach doch endlich mal auf!
He is a narcissist.
There are definitely a lot of things you could be criticized for, and you’re by no means an angel, Ferdi. But I’ve watched your relationship with Brittnee unfold, saw the breakup, and read the criticism in your comments. I cannot help but wonder why so many people believe you to be the only bad guy here. The way she pursued-almost manipulated-you into getting and staying in this relationship (her following you to Europe, pretending she was into alien stuff, constant voice messages, taking advantage of your state during your first MDMA trip, quickly isolating you from your friends).
Soon you became codependent and lost all sense of self somewhere along the way. You completely lost your spark and still kept pouring everything you had into Brittnee, trying to please her, trying to become the man she wanted you to be. It was sad to see. She had too much power over you, always finding the ‘right’ words, ‘guiding’ you when you struggled to see through the fog. I felt relieved when you finally found the strength to break off the relationship.
Did you break an agreement? Probably. Did she break agreements before? Definitely. Just remember the way she gaslit you about what happened in Amsterdam. Did she use protection when giving out those BJs?
I think you have every right to be angry. She honestly wasn’t the nicest person to you. And you don’t have to try to love her moving forward. It’s okay when feelings change. Life goes on.
This is an excellent post Luisa. I wish that Ferdi hadn’t taken down that video of their first podcast together back in the summer of 2022 when he was trying to do a serious podcast about travel and she was attempting to start an intimate relationship. It shows her manipulations.
And yes, she always follows her men around, whether it was Ferdi to Europe, Ruwando to Koh Phangan, remaining in Koh Phangan with the crypto trader (because he wanted to) when she wanted to relocate back to Chiang Mai, or currently with that itinerant American dude back in Chiang Mai.
Ferdi needs to have nothing to do with her in the future.
Mein Eindruck ist schon das der Titel dieses Podcasts aussagt, dass du noch nicht gebalanced bist...
Endlich wieder voll dabei, der typ lädt jeden geistigen erguss hoch im glauben er inspiriert jemanden während sich wahrscheinlich 99% der zuschauer lustig über ihn machen.... mitleid welcher sich die ganzen talks in voller länge anhört lol
Du fährst immer denselben loop, wie peinlich, dass du nichts merkst. Immer sind die anderen schuld...
Yes, because he is a narcissist.
You guys are both messy as fuck ‘podcasting’ AT each other and you’re well in your 30s. It’s so funny. 😂
Happy you enjoy it 🍿
both are incredibly egotistic, but this is what happens when you have nothing to do in ur life. he doesn't work at all, never had to have a job, lives off his mommy's money, he has zero purpose and nothing to ground him. that's why all his friends and mom stopped talking to him.
@@Paczbro Maybe all true, but at least it is his family’s money. She hasn’t been working since 2020 and is leeching off the American taxpayer to fund her fraudulent lifestyle.
@@Paczbrohomie was a symbol for a greater movement based on compassion and liberation. Straight up collaborated with some of, if not, the most prominent vegans in the movement. Then threw it all away for some drugs and mediocre pussy
@@Paczbro All of this hippie "spiritual" bullshit always leads people on the path to destruction.
Im so disappointed in you. You're breaking promises, hurting people, hurting animals(eating them) I dont think i like you anymore ill gonna see myself out.
Even if i dont feel good being a witness of both of your thoughts and journeys, its actually brave to share this on the internet. Maybe people can learn from this. We are all imperfect and i dont think we have to be happy all the time. Sadness and Grief etc. is part of the game.
Good one ❤
It‘s so absurd to hear you talk about your ex-relationship and comparing it to: trauma, death penalty etc.
Wtf Ferdi? You started live broadcasting your heartbreak and she shared her own reality. Natürlich sind eure Wahrnehmungen nicht 1:1 dasselbe. You‘re allowed to react to her Video and clarify what you want. Thats how human interaction work. Please stop playing the victim card and reflect your own bad behaviors. It‘s a lot hearing your podcasts everyday. I feel so clearly that you regret the separation. You need to move on. It‘s not your decision anymore. Stop watching her online and get your relationship with your family healed. And your own head healed. It‘s uncomfortable to watch you right now. Also your take of „I apologized xy“ well, now what? people don't have to forgive you in your time. that is their own journey and decision.
Addition: Listening to youtube with a closed display is possible. There are ad free apps for it. How about less complaining and more researching?
i love how you switched suddently zu nem deutschen satz haha
he's lost. he also started abusing animals again, which he will eventually regret.
@@Malina0901 hahaha ja, manchmal muss es auf Deutsch raus. Passiert mir auch in anderen Sprachen.
Sending you love Ferdi. The further you get away from her the more things will make sense. XOXO
Hey Ferdi, ich verstehe deine Situation in der du gerade bist sehr gut, verstehe dass du sauer bist. Habe auch in ihre Podcasts reingehört und mein einziger Gedanke zu der Sache zwischen euch beiden war und ist immer, dass das Dinge sind, die viel zu persönlich sind und die eigentlich nicht in die Öffentlichkeit gehören. Dachte immer, dass ist jetzt viel zu privat, dass müsst ihr zwischen euch klären. Beziehungen bzw. Trennungen sind immer schwierig und außenstehende Personen sollten sich meiner Meinung nach gerade aus der schmutzigen Wäsche komplett raushalten auch wenn es durch euch in die Öffentlichkeit getragen wird.
Jeder, der schonmal durch so einen emotionalen Break Up durchgegangen ist, sollte das eigentlich wissen, aber die Leute lieben leider auch diese Art Drama und springen sehr darauf an. Kann nur sagen, hör nicht auf den Hate, auch wenn es schwierig ist, aber die Wahrheit kennt nur ihr beide und darüber solltet ihr Face to Face reden. Britnee geht aus meiner Sicht absolut nicht erwachsen damit um, hat viele eigene Themen, woran sie noch arbeiten muss, die sehr problematisch sind und nicht mit dem Bild was sie nach aussen geben möchte übereinstimmen und ich finde es schade, dass sie vieles davon auf dich projeziert. Sie hat dich meiner Meinung nach nie für deine Person, wie du bist geliebt, sondern nur für das was sie sich gewünscht hätte, wer du für sie sein könntest wenn du dich ihren Vorstellungen nach änderst und das ist keine tatsächliche Liebe. Das hat man gerade in den letzten Monaten eeeeeeextrem bei dir gesehen und das ist ja auch das, was dich so unter Druck gesetzt hat immer mehr zu einem higher Mind zu werden, deine Emotionen und Bedürfnisse abzuspalten und nicht mehr du selbst zu sein. Aber das ist nur meine Betrachtung von außen, das muss so nicht zutreffen und sollte ich hier eine Grenze überschritten haben tut es mir leid.
Ich wünsche dir nur das Beste und dass du das möglichst gut verarbeiten kannst und liebe Menschen um dich rum hast, die dir dabei helfen. Das gute ist, dass es wirklich immer besser wird mit dem Herzschmerz und man irgendwann sehr gestärkt da rausgeht. Du bist so weit gekommen bisher nach der Trennung, bist durch soviel Schmerz durchgegangen, das muss man auch erstmal schaffen. Take care :)
"Sie hat dich meiner Meinung nach nie für deine Person, wie du bist geliebt, sondern nur für das was sie sich gewünscht hätte, wer du für sie sein könntest wenn du dich ihren Vorstellungen nach änderst und das ist keine tatsächliche Liebe. "
Exakt auch meine Meinung!
Fühl ich sehr ❤️ danke für deine Sicht der Dinge - weis ich sehr zu schätzen 😘 und ich glaube ich bin an einem Punkt wo darüber öffentlich zu reden heilend für unser collective sein könnte weil ich reflektiert genug an die Sache ran gehen kann ✨ safe auch weil ich es einfach brauche in dem Schmerz gesehen zu werden.. ich denke aber beides ist True und das vielen dieser Austausch hier hilft 🖤🐥🤍
Das fasst es super zusammen, glaub ich - ihre monatelange Bearbeitung hat dazu geführt, dass er seine eigenen Gefühle (Boundaries) abspalten (disregarden) musste und am Ende keine Empathie mehr für sie aufbringen konnte.
@@vegainshey, ja klar, gibt hier sicher mehrere Realitäten, die friedlich coexistieren können. Ich kann es auch 100% nachvollziehen, dass die Gefühle raus müssen, erstrecht wenn die andere Person unavailable ist.
Ist dein healing journey und das respektiere ich total. 😌❤️🩹
I understood it that way that se did this public statement (and I do not like people talking publicly about personal stuff about other people at all) because you did a German podcast about the breakup really soon after everything happened. For me her behavior was more like a reaction (and no action). So I personally wouldn’t focus so much on her statement. I think she was somehow forced to do it. Like you already sad you were in denial with Celine and I guess not everting was right in those German podcasts.
But I didn’t make a podcast against her - I was just sharing how hurt I am and how much I love her ❤️
@@vegainsnow you are the one, who is lying. You talked in every story, video etc.about how good you feel, that you are back to the real Ferdi, that you have been so depressed with her etc.etc. www doesn't forget.
Yeah.. I’m a bit.. wtf. Everyone capable of understanding German can still listen to your German podcasts..
Ich war noch nie ein Fan von Brittney und hab das auch schon oft artikuliert und ich weiß, dass du das absolut nicht magst wenn man etwas gegen sie sagt. Aber Ferdi, letzten Endes bin ich wegen dir hier, da ich dir sehr lange auf Insta gefolgt bin und letztes Jahr dich entfolgte weil ich es nicht mehr ertragen konnte zu sehen was für ein Mensch du wurdest als du mit ihr zusammen warst. Es tat mir in der Seele weh und ich konnte es einfach länger ertragen. Du könntest mein Sohn sein und ich hab einfach den Wunsch, dich vor solchen Erfahrungen schützen zu wollen auch wenn das völlig irrational ist da wir uns ja nicht kennen.
Am Anfang, grade in deiner Zeit in Berlin schienst du sehr glücklich zu sein. Deine Augen strahlten vor Glück und Aufregung und deine Podcasts zum Thema veganer Ernährung waren informativ und das sag ich als Nichtveganerin.
Ist es vermessen sich zu wünschen, dass der "alte" Ferdi, der glücklich, zufrieden und verspielt war, wiederkommt?
Ich weiß dass das Leben kein Wunschkonzert ist und auch nicht immer die Sonne scheint aber ich wünsche mir aus tiefstem Herzen den Ferdi zurück, der mir mit seinen Storys ein Lächeln ins Gesicht zaubert und eine Leichtigkeit ausstrahlt, die mir leider fehlt. Ich weiß das so ein Wunsch absolut egoistisch ist, vor Allem, wenn du gar nicht dieser Ferdi warst und du nur eine Maske getragen hast. Sollte der glückliche und verspielte Ferdi aber dein wahres Ich sein ...bring ihn bitte wieder zurück! 🙏🤗
Fühl ich sehr 😻 und ich war 100% dieser Ferdi 🐣 und jetzt werde ich der nur noch mehr - noch integrierter 🐥 Danke für dein Kommentar 😘
ja, jeder Mensch mit etwas Menschenkenntnis merkt dass Brittnee narzisstisch veranlagt ist, dass sie Menschen für ihre Zwecke benutzt und manipuliert. Gibt ja in der Spiri-Szene nicht wenige von dieser Sorte und sie ist einfach ein Bilderbuchbeispiel dafür :D
Good to hear your perspective, but I still feel you could give more clearance - i.e. how does it go together to set each other 100% free and still have agreements?
I feel like Britnee is the one who is narcistic and manipulative. You have changed a lot since you met her and definitely not for the better, I see that a lot of people who have been following you for a long time feel the same way. Get back to your true self, the one you were without her. That would be a long path home Im sure, because Britnee changed you so much. You used to smile so much more and be so much more happy in your skin, I see a person who is clearly struggling now, and its been that way ever since you met Britnee.
I know what it is like I was in a relationship for eleven years and you only realize when you’re truly letting go of that relationship how toxic it was and how much the other person controlled you, even if it didn’t feel or seem like that when you were in it. Love makes blind, it really does. Hope you get some help, and maybe not get it from these people who claim to be ‘enlightened’ and have no psychological background or much life experience whatsoever. It hurts to see you like this and you not being the person we all once knew.
she is. she's got bipolar or borderline personality disorder. those people are witches who cast spells on people, figuratively. ferdi is super lost too though.
Nobody can make anybody become anything. You are taking away his responsibility. He is responsible for all his actions. Especially when he is so „ awake“ he should have been able to see „ through her“.
Also you are projecting your own relationship and unhealed wounds onto their story.
I’m not projecting, I am just commenting on what I am seeing here and sharing an experience I had. However I know he is responsible for all his actions, I am just giving my two cents.
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING! So IMPORTANT - went through a break up as well recently and I can relate a lot to what you are saying.
Still going through it and sometimes feelings from stages, I already thought I went through, come back.
t is like two steps forward, five steps back. But when the emotions are fully processed as they come, it REALLY gets better, and better and better. Yesterday I felt like a beaten up sloth, today I feel great - like there was not even a break up to beging with 😂
It comes and goes in waves.
sending love
Makes sense 🌊 Thank you for sharing 🥰
Title:"I hate her." Comments:"I love her" Video:"Everything is a lie and she's like a game of thrones character."
Riiiiiight. Kinda hard to keep up now. I feel like you are still swinging between extremes. Balance in the middle is the solution. Also there is a hugeee difference between being in love and being codependent... you need to be independent again first. I am wishing you stability! ❤
he's lost and just wants views.
Thank you for speaking your truth Ferdi. Watching her podcasts, many of us did see through it. It’s clear when there’s a lot of storytelling and twisting taking place as it resembles the persons inner pain and need for justification. Those who listen to the jabs and send you hate simply don’t feel you or understands you, and that’s also okay. You know who you are. Keep that in mind as you observe these untrue and hateful comments. By viewing them objectively, you may observe the triggered ego (the need to be understood by all and justified) while still feeling your true essence and trusting truly that the people meant in your life / your biggest supporters will feel you completely, without any explanation. I hope this makes sense. Sending love your way✨
Unfortunately I think hate is a part of breaking up that you can't just skip. I was "the bigger person" when I got broken up with, I even apologised to my ex as I was getting broken up with. The rage and hate came weeks after when I realised how I sacrificed so much for the relationship and the other person just threw it all away. I dealt with my pain alone, shared it with close friends and kept everything else to myself. And you know what? Six months later my ex called me because he felt lost. And he finally apologised for what he'd done wrong.
I've been your follower for a long time, I don't really watch your podcasts because my German isn't great, but my advice is: have patience. Work on yourself and focus on your body and soul. The apology will come. And when it does, you'll realise you never really needed it anyways.
Edit: I'm on the 5th stage I think, but I also don't wanna fall in love with anyone ever again 🤣
Thank you for sharing 🥰 and your German doesn’t need to be great because those podis are in English 🙃😘
In one part you sound like Ross "We were on a BREAK" - Friends
12:07 basically Ross saying "WE WERE ON A BREAK" 😂
I think Silver Linings could be a healing movie for you right now:)
Thank you 🥰 I’ve put it on my watch list 🍿
Very welcome🥰it is such a good story.. and super actors too.. l think it will really move you in a deeply positive way🙏
mimimim 🎻
Triff dich doch mal mit Stefan Chang, der ist auf der Insel. Trinkste mal ein Bier und machst mal normale Sachen :D
einfach ab minute 27:02 zensierst du deine brust für das restliche video? Weird flex but ok
Rotz 🙈
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