R.I.P Pia
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- Опубликовано: 6 сен 2024
- Today I want to inform you of a tragedy, and talk about how it has affected me.
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I lost my wife whilst I was on tour in Afghanistan 2012, I was given 2 weeks leave for the funeral then had to return. I am still fighting the demons in order to stay alive for my son and daughter who are now grown up. Please don't give up my friend. I have bought a bike and intend to your trip very soon.
That sounds horrible! So sorry to hear that!They would give you more that two weeks after loosing your wife???! That is crazy!
Thank you for telling me this. And I wish you and your family all the best 🙂
Ride safe on your new bike 😛🏍
Respect❤️
@@naimaliahmed302 absolute
God bless you brother and thank you for your service. If you are in the Bay Area, CA, hit me up. We can ride.
@@RidetheBean Just know that you were "fearfully and wonderfully made".....you are very much loved and Everything in life is temporary. Someday it will seem so far away and you will remember it, but you probably won't experience the same feelings you had then. Just hold on, I hope you and your loved ones will be blessed. For me, God showed up in life, wasn't particularly looking for it ;) He gave me ever lasting hope, joy and support. I wish this for everyone in the world but...that is for every individual to decide. I know that Faith in the North-West part of Europe and Scandinavia isn't particularly common anymore. I can tell you however, if you put your faith in Jesus Christ (Yeah, I know, That guy xD) turn from your sins/old ways, confess with your mouth that He died on the cross for our sins and rose up again, keep our Father's commandments, you Will be saved and have eternal life in our Fathers Kingdom in Total Bliss. Anyway, good luck to ye, stay safe.
RUclips recommended this video. I saw the title and I was hoping you named your bike Pia. I am sorry for your loss!
Exactly what I was thinking, I also got this recommended.
Same man, so sorry :(
Same here, sorry man
Same
Ditto, so sorry for the loss
I am so sorry for your loss
My wife died in 2012 and just a few weeks before she died she said something very profound to me - she said “When I’m gone, remember to be good to yourself - don’t put off doing something till tomorrow, because tomorrow never comes!”
I’ve lived my life since then to that beautiful thought and it has helped me no end
That was beautiful 💜 and so true!
You brought a tear to my eye ,
Bless you mate. 🌞
Waaaw Sir
I lost my Wife 10 months age and I'm really struggling
My daughter’s husband suicided, she found his body and she was intent on dying as well. All I could do is beg her to stay for me and to see what’s around the corner for her. Years on a wonderful man found her, yes he found her and she is now so very happy. She looks at me and says thank you. I know the hurt, I know.
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This is my first encounter with you and I am in tears, I lost my best friend in a motor cycle crash in 1970 when I was only 17. In 1987 my partner killed herself. I still don't know why.
Hello James. I'm sorry to hear of your loss. If she was suffering from Bipolar then that would explain it. Back in the eighties people didn't talk about their depression because it was still seen as a sign of being crazy. When it's at its worst living seems so painful that she felt that was easier. Why living is so painful is a hard thing to explain. I call it soul-pain. The soul is in pain. That might have been it.
Be well James, but leave the past where it is. It's water that has passed under a bridge.
"The seed in your heart shall blossom ..."
@De Sign I’m inclined to agree. Like the entire field of psychology isn’t something that can be fully trusted. For a diagnosis, there are no blood tests, no MRI, or scans to show or prove that someone has a mental “disorder.” It relies on a flawed human being, the doctor/psychiatrist, listening to another flawed human being, the patient, to determine what is “wrong” with them. Not only are people dishonest or hide things from one another, as humans we don’t even know why we do the things we do most of the time.
James I wish you better days buddy. I really hope you have friends to ride around with. It really helps heal the soul.
Hey man, I'm sorry to hear that... Best of luck with your life
How are you doin now?
As soon as he said suicide I felt that. Eyes filled with water.
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No cap, I thought it was a motorcycle accident.
To be brave enough to sit and talk like this makes you a bigger man than most of us my friend !!
I don’t know about that, but thank you 😊
Ride the Bean ,,, yes you are.... 100%. Respect from me. And .Keep on going.
Fine words x
@@RidetheBean
That was a strong talk, very brave.
My condoleances and greetings from Northern Sweden.
Man, this hits home. My wife lost her battle with cancer March 13th, 2013. We were always together for 30 years. She was the one that took care of everyone else and I was lost without her. I was pretty depressed for 4 years afterwards before I started to come out of it. I immediately retired upon her death as I needed time to think. I got German Shepherd in 2016 and he's my buddy. Always watching me and being my support. I try to help people when they need help and that gives me a feeling of accomplishment. I can't change the world, but maybe I can make it a little better for someone. Life tends to be meaningless without a purpose. Don't be too hard on yourself, Get back up and make it a better place for you and others.
Sorry to hear that glad you are doing better though
@raykrv6a I have a genetic syndrome.. ehlers-danlos, I'm hypermobile and I also have the deadly vascular version as well. Our past due date is around age 40. In about a month I will be 44.
I need a vascular surgeon so bad. And from where we stand and where we're living right now. There isn't a doctor that I would feel comfortable cutting into me. My area is oblivious to my genetic syndrome.
My mother died of cancer by the age of 50. I've had a knot in my stomach since 2013. She's grown and grown and grown to the point where I can actually feel the pain whenever I take a step with my left foot.
I know my time is limited. It really bothers my husband. And he always says if I die and he's not home with me. He'll really lose it. And I'm like stop it. Without you there is no life. We're so extremely dependent on you working. And if there is any miracle that can get us out of the state that we're in, back to the states that actually can take care of me. Where there is a will there's a way. And if I do die. Don't you dare take it out on your son. Don't you dare take it out on the world. And don't you dare punish yourself. For I will be the wind that caresses your skin and hair. I will be the beauty that your eyes lay sight upon. I will be with you and don't fret. Sometimes we must do things, because things are beyond our reach.
I expressed to him if you were to come home we wouldn't have our health care, if you were to come home. Do you remember the time that we were eating peanut butter sandwiches for solid month. Some say grow a garden. Oh I've done that I'm a master gardener. I'm really good at canning too and preserving food. Thing is I like the DNA to host a specific bacteria that breaks down oxalates. Oxalates are quite deadly to me. Found out my husband can't handle nightshades. And truly a garden, isn't our saving Grace for this family.
My heart aches. I hope I make it to 50. I hope I make it past my son's graduation. Because my husband will blame him for my death. And that's not fair. Our son has Asperger's. He's not like everyone else. Of course he is superiorly intelligent, shocking at how smart he is. But he lacks other skills. He doesn't understand connections unless you tell him out right. He has a heart of gold. And never means to do anything that is harmful. But my husband loves to point the finger and blame him.
Such as doing a chore and taking care of me. But I didn't have a child to do chores. Although he can do them and he does them well. That isn't the basis of my body or my illnesses.
I hope to God he doesn't fall into depression if I die.
Sorry for the loss of your beloved wife.
Hey raykrv6a. M sorry to hear about your wife. All I can is may her soul rest in peace and she is with the angels now and you will see her when your time is up from this earth. Just take your time and life goes on. My name is Tumelo Molaolwa from South Africa.
You sound like a great person and very brave finding the strength to heal from your loss. I totally agree that it’s a lovely feeling to help others
They say, suicide does not take the pain away, it just transfers it to those you love. Sorry for your loss. I hope you can grow from this.
That may be true. But in a way I would rather carry the pain than for her to be in pain...
When you can talk open and honest about your life good or bad most people don't those that do are strong
@@RidetheBean Canadian viewer. I think it can be lost with some people just how much pain someone is in, to feel they have no other option, or choice, but to end their life. I empathize with how difficult this must be for you. You sound like a selfless man and only wanted the best for her. My brother and I lost a friend to suicide. I only hope that wherever he is, that he has truly found peace, and I wish the same, for your PIA.
So sorry to hear this 😢
@@RidetheBean so you're telling us it's better for her to off herself?
RIP Pia, God bless. She saved your life, don't waste what you've been given. You have purpose, rise above lifes challenges and do her proud. Take care.
💜 she really did! And that is in the back of my mind all the time! I want to live life to the fullest to honor her 😛
Beautifully said. After my accident I looked at life with new eyes. Even though it was at the cost of someone else's life.
To this day, I live my life to the fullest. Through the pain, through the laughter, through the struggles.
Keep you head up. And make yourself proud. Keep searching for those beautiful things. The only thing that helps relieve the pain is time. I'll be praying for you man. ❤
You honored Pia well with those words. Stay strong, brother.
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After 66 years I’ve found only two things that give any meaning to life. Embrace what comes your way with humility and gratitude. And give back as much as you can. Everything else is just noise. I’m sorry you’ve had to bear so much pain at such a young age. And I’m glad you have the wisdom to share openly and let your loved ones care for you.
@ syzygy10
You are absolutely right!
Thank you for sharing
Well said
The wisdom of experience.
@@manicstreetpreacher200 I relate :)
I lost my dear father on 20th, april 2008 and since that date i'm extremely alone.... No one can understand what happened inside me. I'm autist Asperger and he was only person who loved like who i'm... So, last 2 days, i just thought that now who can share with me their life experiences or guidelines.... I just asked those questions and you answer me, so thank you so much for, i appreciate it.....
Send you huge love and hugs
Just remember, the people with the hardest lives will have a better idea of what it means to be alive.
Good words man, excellent insight.
Very true
I don't understand. Do you say the meaning of life is suffering or only people who suffer alot can appreciate the good sides of life?
Both statemens are wrong, so there has to be a third meaning I don't get.
He said neither of those. You dont need to understand life to live it. Hes saying that those who face much suffering in their lifes probably have a better grasp over what they need to be happy, and it probably doesnt involve and iphone last model or $300.000 per year. Maybe just the presence of a lost friend, the touch of a loved one, the smile of someone you really care about.
@@ActionHeinz you must have a easy life then
Strength to you my friend. My son passed away from a motorcycle accident 7 months ago. I am a broken hearted dad. I understand.
Hi Bud, both my kids ride bikes and I can't imagine your pain. Your post really hit me with sadness - May strength and love be with you always. God bless.
So sorry for your loss.
Thank you. I hope I did not mislead... My son did not die in a motorcycle crash. He succumbed to his battles with PTSD after returning from military service in Afghanistan. I don’t want to discourage people from motorcycling. Although it can be dangerous, it is something I enjoy and hope others do, too.
I am so sorry for your loss Bud. I can not even begin to imagine how you must be feeling.
Oh brother. My heart goes out to you. There are no words.
I'm so terribly sorry for your loss and the pain you have been going through. I rode around the African continent on my own a few years ago as a way to fight against suicide. I also lost my partner and best friend to suicide. I recently gave up my business in the motorcycling industry to focus solely on helping those who suffer from mental illness. No single person can truly understand what you have been through, even though there are people who have had to endure similar experiences. I'm very glad that you are still here and continuing on your journey. You have great strength and courage and a lot of people who care about you. Thank you for sharing your story.
that trip to africa could have saved pia's life. could have given her a different perspective on life. this corona pandemic has ruin so many lives already.
Very candid Jo. I didn’t realise that. Very best wishes.
Thanks for your honesty.
@@r6mt09 Humans are meant to be in Tribes. now days it's nice to at least have a Family ..
I find all these advenures facinating .. yet nothing brings more Joy to Humans than having Children and a Family too ..
Social Media pushes the opposite of that..
Of all their Normal B.S. for the last 60 years is not enough .. they are now pudshing Quaranines Social Distancing and Masks..
I sure am Glad I don't have to wear a mask whule working..
... I understand you changing your life’s interest and profession in order to help other people. But, please don’t give up riding your motorcycle! Life is too short to not have a passion that you can turn to and find freedom. Ride safe Jo!
Thank you so much! This really means a lot to me 🙂
It has been tough, but the overwhelming support from the RUclips community and my close friends has helped me a lot!
I hope to make it to Cape Town at some point in the next year or two.
I've never seen your channel before, nor have I seen Pia in any way except what you show us in this video.
But the way you talk about her, so much respect and love for the person she was.
I admire it a lot how you are so strong to talk about something so difficult but still with so much love and passion.
Sending my condolences to you. May she soar high, in power. ❤️
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I don't follow this channel, but this is video is so vulnerable and real. I hope this guy fights on for Pia and most importantly, himself.
Agree that continuing on is a personal choice as long the person isn’t implementing a permanent solution for a temporary problem.
@@RidetheBean Just remember that we are of Western Civilization. Millions before us have struggled w/meaningless & suicidal thoughts. Until the last 20 years our culture encouraged self examination through reading the great philosophers & talking w/others. Corporate mass media is suppressing many solutions.
@@RidetheBean You forced me to listen to you 3 mins VS respecting my time and bottom lining what the video was about in your desc section. Thanks for the lack of respect.
Depression is a cancer of the soul, struggled for years, no one knew, got help and beat it back for a while, learned how to manage it some times. But I’m not going to let it kill me. And so I keep putting flowers in my life and planting more. Find the flowers, plant the flowers and you can beat it, never let darkness take hold. Get help, be the flowers in someone’s life.
same here Mac we got this
Suicide is the only cure for unbearable mental illness. Depression is the only disease in the world that beckons one to kill themselves. There is a deep, organic, evolutionary, biological message there. Possibly, it's natures way of weeding out the weak & sick? I used to think there was a cure for MDD, but after 58 years of unbearable suffering, & exhausting all modalities of treatment, I now realize those inner voices of death are sending me an important message. I have tried suicide many times when I was younger, & now looking back, my only regret is not having succeeded, however I will continue to try & end this suffering. No one wants to die, but given the choice between death and chronic, unbearable suffering, I know which one I choose
@@montesa9136 "There is but one truly serious philosophical problem, and that is suicide. Judging whether life is or is
not worth living amounts to answering the fundamental question of philosophy. All the rest- whether or not the world has three dimensions, whether the mind has nine or twelve categories-comes afterwards.
These are games; one must first answer. And if it is true, as Nietzsche claims, that a philosopher, to deserve
our respect, must preach by example, you can appreciate the importance of that reply, for it will precede the
definitive act. These are facts the heart can feel; yet they call for careful study before they become clear to
the intellect."
Albert Camus opens his book 'The myth of Syshipus' like this. May I suggest you read it? It changed my life, simply by shifting my perspective on the meaning of life. In the end, realising that you have nothing to lose or to gain and you always have the escape of death availible, is a very liberating fact. Whichever path you chose, I understand you. Goodluck.
@@Blashyrkh2124 WOW! That's ONE LONG WINDED way of saying; It really doesn't matter what you do it's not going to matter!
I AGREE, that's why I say: "If life is not working for you, then try Death". The only other alternative is to suffer! Pretty simple, obvious stuff
Nothing like food sex and beer can't take care of.
I don’t know why your channel popped up, but I was powerfully moved by your eloquent and brave reflection. You are an amazing person and I can guarantee that your life will only get better. Please stay strong and know that your life has more meaning than you will ever understand.
Thank you 💜💜
Same just popped up in my feed too. Incredibly moving video.
You got this man, I lost both of my parents in the space of 3 months due to cancer and a heart attack late last year - life is a crazy ride but it's a ride worth taking, we probably only get one. Stay strong bro
Had a similar experience. Sorry to hear that.
I’m sorry for your loss, your attitude is admirable.
Samilar experience
Do you know that both heart attack and cancer is likely from the diet...
@@redsailor101 that depends on the cancer and heart could be congenital.
Such a sad loss but my message to other young people feeling this way is this , i was kicked out at 14 and became homeless , i travelled about sleeping rough and ended up on heroin as it was the only thing i found could give me some semblance of peace.By 18 i was in prison and in and out untill i was nearing 30. Many times i contemplated ending it and i had more reason than most to do so as i was totally alone in the world but i am a survivor and i refused to be beaten even if it meant an eternity of suffering for me. Anyway to cut a long story short i got clean and slowly re entered society (even though i am still very much alone) and as i got older even though my life is very solitary i found myself becoming happy , infact content is a better word. I have very little but my happiness doesn't come from possessions or relationships , it just comes from being , but wild camping with my dogs delivers some too :D So trust me bad feelings CAN pass , be strong and stick it out its worth it in the end , atleast it was for me.
Good luck to you
@@plumduff3303 thankyou , you too.
Well done ... humbling testiment !!!
Their is nothing in this world than can compare to peace of mind and strong mental health.
I totally feel you, when I was 16 my mother died of cancer and I felt like my whole life had ended. My dad started drinking and turned violent and started beating me and my sister. I couldn't take it and ran away from home to my aunt's house and she left me live in secret with her. We grew very close and our relationship turned very intimate and she gave my first sexual experience. I was totally in love, but since we were related it was going to be hard going forward if we wanted to get married, so I just wasted your time because of all of this is a lie and so is your life. Don't waste time trying to feel good on RUclips and get out there and take action!
@@trollingisasport we are here trying to spread a little positivity on a very sad video , im sorry others sharing makes you uncomfortable. Maybe you should look into why that is. All the best.
"Sometimes even to live is an act of courage" - Seneca
Sorry bro. Had a friend in high school who's older brother committed suicide. I still can hear his mom sobbing in the middle of the night in the brothers room when i think about it. It's such a rough thing for everyone else. Stay strong man.
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I came across this video by accident and glad I did. Pia made a difference in your life and that should be celebrated. Sendin positive thoughts to you dude. Carry Pia in your heart and she will always be with you
Thank you 💜
Pia's death was a real shocker. It just flipped the whole story from you knocking on death's door and her vital role in saving your life, to you getting back on your feet .... and then her sudden death! What a tragic story. May her soul rest peacefully and may you gain sufficient spiritual strength from this so that you can keep such thoughts afar. Hopefully you can make your way down through Africa to South Africa - a paradise of adventure riding awaits you.
yeah it has been one hell of a year 😅
I feel numb to it all... But if the borders open up I will do my best to achieve out dream 🙂
I send my deepest sympathy to you Kenneth and to Pia's family and friends. Pia struck me as a beautiful person and her passing is a great loss to everyone.
Keep going brother, experience the world as you wanted to with Pia, keep her memory alive where ever you go.
I send you a man hug.
David
Thank you 😊 that is exactly what I intend to do 🙂
Another big hug to you, ma brutha man!
This video was peaceful and insightful to experience! My heart broke hearing about your sweet friend Pia.
I am glad that you speak English so eloquently. Was easy for us to feel the place you are in right now. And I am glad to listen to the understanding that you have come to at the present moment as you reflect on this madness.
You have summarized so calmly what I have learnt over the past 2 to 3 years about what this life is and how to live it to the best of our strength.
My heart goes out to Pia, she had a tough time trying to deal with life. If I may say so, it is okayyy that she chose to leave. It is okay. I wish she hadn't, but it is okay.
Thank you for making this really powerful video for me to reflect on and mourn (biker to biker and fellow human being :) i hope to meet you if you ever choose to visit India.. or somewhere else.
Big hug, dawg!
Lost my brother April 23 2020 he was 37 years old and we we're very close all our life. The grief is very rough emotionally and I went from denial, anger, sadness, depression, to some sort of acceptance. Took me a year to sort of recover. It's rough and I miss him everyday. I wake up, I think about him. I go to sleep I memorize the things we did and think about him missing him. Still after more than a year it affects my soul.
I had a dream, went back in time to tell my brother he'd die in 20 years at the age of 37. It was an very emotional dream and I woke up with tears falling from my cheeks.
I think I'll never recover 100% from losing him at such a young age. A life incomplete, not deserved, not the norm.
All the strength on your grieving journey.
I am so sorry to hear about your brother. I can imagine how much pain you are in.
You are probably right about not recovering 100%. But you can choose how you want to handle your feelings. How you will let it affect you.
I will never be the same person again after loosing pia, but I do have a choice of how to proceed. I need to change focus and do what makes me feel good, and hang out with good people. That helps a lot.
@@RidetheBean Don't force it though. Let time and grief run it's course, it's oke to feel upset and grief a loved one. At the end of the tunnel there will be acceptance and you can have moment's of joy and smile remembering her again.
Maybe the music is not your kind, but i guess even the lyrics can maybe help you , i felt better listen to it, how someone could express it with words - La dispute "Wildlife" - especialy You and I in Unison describes exactly what you wrote in your comment
I'm 37 now and i lost my baby brother who was 27 at that time. I had never recovered completely, i think about him every night.. he was my baby.. he looked up to me, I'm practically his mother, i'm the eldest and he is the youngest. It is terrifying and the most painful day of my life on the day he had an accident and left us. It sure is hard you never get over the pain completely but God has taken the burden on his shoulder and ease us. Without God's presence i would had ended my life.
Sometimes I wish I don’t have the capability to feel emotions, I don’t have any friends, I just got my wife and two golden retrievers, and the thought of loosing the love of my life would just be too much for me to bear, I wouldn’t last a day without her. Thank you for this video, imma go home after work and hug my wife as hard as I can without hurting her lol.
Also hug your floofs!
Aww that's so sweet, love is wonderful, take well care off her. Sorry that you're dealing with possible depression.
You need to make some friends outside of your wife. God forbid something happens to her, who will you turn to? A man needs a circle of friends that he can rely on. Start small, make one new friend this year. Wishing you the best.
@Lance Coolie I'm from Germany and just read your comment. Your wife and your two dogs are loving you dearly. The love of dogs and your soulmate is all the love it takes 💕 But please know that you do have friends like I am. I'm sending lots of love and prayers to you and your family. We are all one and kindness is the rent we all should pay for occupying space on this planet! ✌🏻❣🇩🇪
More people than you think just have their immediate family and not friends. Dont worry. Its more normal than you think. Xx
What an amazing "obituary" to Pia. I have never seen your channel before but all I see is an amazing individual in you. You are making a massive difference with your video(s) to so many people, so just stay strong and as you say "grab life by the balls". Take care from a new "friend/fan" from far-away Cyprus....
Weird what YT recommends sometimes. First time I've seen you is this ... and damn :(
My condolences!
There was a time I felt the same, had suicidal thoughts as well aaaand a good friend of mine turned it around. Maybe even saved me. Who knows? Life is complicated and at the same time it really isn't.
Hope you stick around for a while longer. I think there's a bunch of people here who would really love that!
Me to.
My deepest condolences to you and everyone affected by her passing away, Stay Strong brother she's watching over you.
Thank you 🙂
@@RidetheBean you're most welcome brother. May peace be upon you.
She came into your life to help move into a more positive space and discovering you. Keep her memory and her love alive ! Keep moving forward. Honor her.
One day at a time, Kenneth. I am a retired Air Force Medic and Nurse, and have dealt with depression and PTSD myself. I had a good friend and fellow veteran who I was trying to help, end his life with a pistol on my living room couch. We can never totaly understand the actions of others, but we all have the right to find happiness and pursue our own lives. It is good for you to honor Pia's life. Good luck to you Sir, and never forget that many others care about you.
The loss of Pia is a heavy loss for the world. Tears for lost potential and goodness she offered the world.
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Hope sehr is in Heaven now. Jesus Loves you
I only came to this channel after the accident, i’m saddened to know of her passing but may she rest in peace.
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You’re a legend bro …. feel for you, thank you for being so vulnerable!! Huge respect!!
Thank you 🙂
Depression is like a dense fog. You can't see through it and it turns you around. But not being able to see doesn't mean there is nothing there. Suicide robs you of the chance to see the fog clear and reveal the beauty the world offers. And it is a beautiful world. One day you will have a wife and children and you will learn what the meaning of life truly is. Its not about existential concepts of your place in the world and the legacy you leave. That's very egotistical. It's about family and it's about the here and now. How you live the moment for who and what you love. The past is gone and the future doesn't exist yet. Keep the tiller true and ride the storm. It always passes. This I have learned.
Sadly it’s a state of mind, a mental sickness, during which time rational thought processes make no sense or have no bearing. Suicidal ideation can go on for years, my Father spent 3 years preparing our family for what he saw as inevitable - and it was. He made no secret about it, at 53 years of age having been a soldier, then a traffic Bobby, he felt he had nothing left to offer the world except in a passive sense. He didn’t like the thought of ageing, his body was already letting him down. Naively I used to tell him, if things are so bad that suicide is the only answer, then surely they can only get better can’t they? How could they possibly get worse, it made no sense to me, and my words no comfort to him. Aged 56, unable to find suitable work because ageism was thriving, he hung himself. Thirty years later and I’m still trying to work out what we could have done to prevent it, and the sad answer in his case, was nothing at all, it was a ‘when’ not an ‘if’. Counselling was quackery to him, he was quite the philosopher, and the most stubborn man I ever met. He bore a family grudge for almost 40 years! It still feels like yesterday, I still recall our last words, and I still see him in my mind as he was that last evening, as vividly as if it were last night. He made his decision years before the event itself, and to see him tortured by his curable illness, depression, for 3 years was worse than watching someone with cancer fade away and die. It would have been selfish to deny him his right to do as he wished, because depression isn’t the same for everyone, anyone who didn’t know him well would see him as perfectly happy and content. He hated the way that Britain was becoming more like the US every day - back in 1990. He’d have really hated this country had he lived until now, because he’d have grown old as well. I was 20 when he died, but I could have done with him on many occasions since then. 87 he’d have been now, and miserable, it would be selfish to expect him to stick around just to answer a few of life’s little questions. Having said that, anyone with depression should seek professional help, because maybe a tablet or some counselling is all you need - if it doesn’t work well at least you can say you explored all the options, because suicide is *never* the perfect answer, it leaves too many questions unanswered - it gnaws away at the minds of those left behind, like a missing person must do - it doesn’t feel like a natural death, forever it would seem. It’s not euthanasia of a pointless life, from any perspective, it’s fixable, and it’s at its highest rate since records began, but without a direct linear relationship to population, more an algorithm based on the pace and pressures of life - or being taken advantage of by employers with tiny companies demanding annual double-digit growth like a Japanese car plant.
Rip. Depression is brutal. If you’ve never suffered from it, properly explaining it will never do it justice.
For anyone reading this, even slightly considering going down that path. Reach out to someone. Don’t hold it in.
Suicide is the only cure for unbearable mental illness. Depression is the only disease in the world that beckons one to kill themselves. There is a deep, organic, evolutionary, biological message there. Possibly, it's natures way of weeding out the weak & sick? I used to think there was a cure for MDD, but after 58 years of unbearable suffering, & exhausting all modalities of treatment, I now realize those inner voices of death are sending me an important message. I have tried suicide many times when I was younger, & now looking back, my only regret is not having succeeded, however I will continue to try & end this suffering. No one wants to die, but given the choice between death and chronic, unbearable suffering, I know which one I choose
@@montesa9136 Everybody in this world is weak and sick... just don't do it.
@@maxbro16 What? You want me to continue to Suffer? That's VERY SELFISH! I wouldn't want my pet dog to suffer ....
How can you think like that?
@@montesa9136 well you also have to consider how much the people around you will suffer
That’s true. It is a brutal thing. Reaching out for help is great. But sometimes you might not even be aware you need help. Or you may not want it. Or you may have tried, but it did not work.
I think she couldn't deal with the world but felt that helping you was what she needed to get done.
She left you as she knew where her head was going. She achieved what she wanted to do do, save you. She distanced herself to save you from relapse when she made her decision.
Try to respect how hard it would have been for someone that wanted to die to dig you out first. Endless respect for the both of you.
Best recomendation RUclips has ever made to me. At just the perfect time. Thank you for everything, you are awesome.
Thank you 😊 glad you liked it 🙂
RUclips's algorithm placed this video/channel in my path today 5/2/21. I'm often a person of many words. At this moment I have few. I'm sorry for your loss. I appreciate your candor. Best wishes on your journey forward.
nobody cares about the algorithm dude.
I don’t know why your channel popped up, but I was moved by your eloquent and brave reflection. You are an amazing person and I can guarantee that your life will only get better. Please stay strong and know that your life has more meaning than you will ever understand. May God Bless you !
9 years ago I lost my love to suicide, the pain comes and goes in intensity but never disappears. I dont look for meaning as that is meaningless, I experiance every moment good or bad and am gratefull for the experiance. Take care live life.
Hugs to you . Thank you for your words. I lost the love of my life on a motorcycle head on to a tree in Great Falls Montana. It is coming up on 14 years now. How do you move on with the abyss in front of you relationship wise? Is there a light at the end of that tunnel for you? Just wondering. Hugs
I try to be with a community of likeminded people doing the things I love to do. Hopefully the best part of me will shine and love will find me. I still think of my partner every day, she was and is in my mind the most wonderfull person. I hope you and everyone remembers how wonderfull the people are whom we have lost no matter how they left.
@@type2ryder417 thank you., that helps.
I'm so sorry for your loss I nearly lost my daughter to sucide after my son died you will be in my prayers . Stay strong ♥️
You tube recommend this to me,
Life is short,enjoy the little thing.
When someone pass away they never really gone they stay with us as memories.
Keep on living so she can stay alive.
That is true. Their memory will be with us until we are gone 🙂
Man, you’ve been thru so much. I can’t even imagine...Hang in there man. The sun will shine again.
Hehe yeah this past year it has been quite a lot 😅 but times moves forward 😛
No words are enough. Pia was a beautiful soul and her love of others shone through. That was a beautiful tribute delivered with love and respect. Stay strong my friend there are a lot of us out there who genuinely care about you. This is devastating news and it will take time to recover. You’ve been through a lot in a very short period of time. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Ride Safe Brother 🙏🏻😢🏴
Thank you. That means a lot 🙂
Listen, I recommend you do the Africa tour, see the world and I promise you will have a different perspective on things in general . I wish you the best of lucks@@RidetheBean
Loosing a loved one is never easy especially when they take their own life. Everyone heals at their own pace and in their own way. Hopefully in time you will find peace.
@Rick O'Shea Do the world a favor and practice being a human wheel chock for a moving locomotive.
@@haywoodyoudome Woah woah woah, no need to go that far bloody hell, he just corrected your grammar.
My best friend committed suicide in January of this year and i still haven’t exactly recovered, but stay strong brother. It really hurts to know theyre gone but the memories kind of get easier to think about. Seeing something that reminds you of a story with them kinda makes you feel happy that you got to have that memory. My heart goes out to you in these trying times, stay alive ❤️
I dont know why I was suggested this video... but this means a lot to me, as my partner is going through a lot and I am in the middle of writing him a long mail telling him how much he means to me and how I want to help him with everything he needs...
He is lucky to have you 🙂
I’m glad if this could give you some inspiration or insight 🙂
I guess it was the same for me. I wanted to help her with everything. I could see she was struggling, and I kept asking her to talk to me every day. I became worried and maybe I asked a bit too much so she started to feel pressured.
I felt at a loss because I was not able to help her.
If you want to help him it needs to be on his terms. So try to figure out what those are. How does he think he would be helped the most? And is he open to receive help in the first place?
Thanks for sharing Kenneth. Pia was indeed a special person that I will remember with love. I now wish that you have spent all your dark days and that you can look back and say "I am so glad I chose life". I am certain you will get there. /Rob
Thank you Robert!
I feel like with all the negative shit in the past year I have reached a point where that is how I feel. I’ve sort of realized why I have felt that way and I am now better able to deal with it.
Its almost like YT is metaphysical; this was in my recommended videos for a reason, to get love and support, and to give love and support. We are all connected and hold each others hands around the internet ❤❤❤ RIP Pia, and my sincerest support for you ❤🙏🏽❤
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Sweet and true, peace and blessings to you.
Perhaps important to remember that Pia had a "nice" family who really cared about her and she also had many wonderful experiences in life. There was never a shortage of offers from the family. We always wanted to be with her. RIP.
She had a lot of people who cared about her. She was an amazing human!
I don’t think the amount of offers changed anything though. She knew she had people who loved her. But she just was not able to share her full self with anyone. Not even herself.
We can all ask ourselves what we could have done differently, but I am not sure it does us any good.
All we can do is accept what happened and do our best to move on. That may seem harsh, but it is the only thing we can do.
I hope you are doing ok May Lise! Please reach out to me if you need anything!
I don't know why this popped up in my recommendations, I have never watched this channel before.
I attempted suicide a week ago by pills and as they were taking effect I chickened out and called for help. I'm still struggling to find the meaning of my life, but the one thing I realised is that by ending your own life, your own problems may end, but everyone else around you suffers.
Stay strong for everyone around you
Hello Bryan. This channel popped up for me too. I wasn’t looking into suicide just looking @ bike camping & electric unicycle videos. Good job on pulling your lifeline. Is there anything I can say that might help? If there is any way I can help from here I am willing. I’m a good listener. 👋✅ Hang in there as best you can. 👍☮️🌞
Hey dude sounds like you're struggling but you are trying your best, Jorden Peterson if you haven't heard alredy about him has a good video on meaning in life helped me through my suicidal thoughts
@@secretdaisy6484 thanks for the offer. The hospital set me up with a psychologist so I'll see how that goes first.
@@jg4420 thanks, I'll look that up. I hope you're on the mend yourself
you didn't chickened out. you actually brave through to live on. keep on living man.
My deepest condolences Kenneth, rip Pia. Stay strong and keep your dreams alive. Remember, we are waiting for your big trip, so do not let us down and get on your bike :)
Hehe so am I!! But it’s not really up to me anymore when I get to leave. As soon as I have the vaccine and the borders open up I am gone😝
It's hard to type after listening to this. I wish you all the best, you sound like a beautiful person and Pia too, such a tragedy. RIP. Love from...Norway.
My Uncle and my Aunt committed slow, horrible, suicide. I know the shock and sting of the sudden loss to those of us left behind, who must pick up the pieces of shattered lives. My deepest condolences over your loss of Pia. I'm am so very sorry to learn of this.
Thank you 💜 it is tough, but all we can do is move forward 🙂
@@RidetheBean That is right. Where there's Life there is Hope.
@@markjob6354 Hope is the mother of all men.
@@ianmangham5753 Very profoundly and well said Ian :)
My best friend passed away from cancer she left to young boy's and a loving husband. She fought so hard for life .life is worth living mate don't take it for granted
I’m truly sorry for your loss. Cancer is an evil prick.
I am so sorry to hear that! Can’t imagine what this boys must feel like!
You are here for a reason Kenneth you survived a life threatening accident,you have fought, and fighting the black dog, and it takes a strong person to do that , don’t let it win, as I said you are here for a reason, stay strong mate.
My own journey from depression was to completely change my perspective from victim to survivor. Once I did this my focus was towards the future & away from the past. It was the only way I could move forward & heal. I then had to think about what it was I wanted to achieve in my life, what was my passion. I have now taken that path & am learning to embrace life. I wish this for you to. Love, healing , blessings & embrace your dreams.
I lost my stepmom to suicide this year and its one of the most painful and confusing things we can experience. Recovering from a loved ones suicide is often made more difficult by the taboo around it, it needs to be spoken about and understood, so thank you for being brave and doing that.
I am so sorry to hear that 😔 I understand how you feel.
I hope you and your family can manage to find the good in each day and focus on that and her memory 🙂
Brother. I spent 5 years, on meds, in therapy, and at times I was a walking zombie, fighting my own battles with suicidal thoughts, self harm, and depression, but I was one of the lucky few who found a way out of it. I am so sorry for your loss, but please keep your head above water. The greatest tribute you can pay her, is to live your life in the greatest way possible.
If you don't mind me asking, how did you find your way out? I have everything most people would want in life and I feel the way you just described.
@@NeverDoubtMe23 sorry for the delay in replying, your question didn’t come up on my feed, and I just saw it by luck. I’m really sorry to hear that you are having issues and that you’re struggling. Can I ask, have you spoken to anyone about it?
Make her proud and keep having adventures in her memory, she cared for and about a lot of people, you should continue what she set out to achieve by caring for yourself and others as she would have done and would have wanted you to. I don't think you will realise just how much you can help other people with similar struggles, just by living your life the best you can and sharing your journey. All of your family, friends and extended YT family wish you well. R.I.P. Pia.
Wise words!!
Thank you 😊 that really means a lot to me
"Stay interested in big things and happy in small ways." -- Edith Wharton. This is a quote that has helped me quite a bit.
My heart goes out to all those who have known and loved her. Rest In Peace kind soul ❤️
This is deep, it's real, and I would never ever want to opposed you or give you advice that I have no right to. But my condolences to you and to Pia's love ones. Anxiety and depression is real. There is always hope from many who live with these issues, somehow please allow love one, those who care, professional to help and lend a hand and a shoulder even if they don't understand. Take care yourself, for I know from listening to you, you have a deep sense of understand and thought. You struggle yet you understand. I hope you will find within you and from others that your life is more than just born, live and died. God bless.
I have no idea why the almighty algorithm recommended this video to me, but it hit home... I've been stuck in a major depression almost ten years ago, and getting my motorbike license has saved me. It kinda gave me a new reason to be, and I found a lot of amazing new friends because of it. I'm eternally grateful to my best friend who kinda talked me into motorbiking in the first place.
I'm sending lots of positive thoughts your way, hoping you'll find the right way to go for yourself.
It helps? Maybe i should buy one....or a horse....I'm miserable
You life isn't just about experiencing things. It is now about being a voice for your friend, a voice for all those who may feel the same as she did and to help people through those times with a steady voice, logical opinions and strong mindset xx
What a beautiful eulogy. Very powerful message, thank you for that.
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This just popped up in my RUclips recommendations. I am blown away with this story. Thank you for sharing, Pia sounded like a beautiful person . You are such a good friend to honor her memory. Stay strong, you are worth it! There is always light, your message means something believe me. Thanks again for sharing.
Thank you 😊
Rest In Peace Pia. What an incredibly moving, open and brave video you have given us Kenneth. You are a very special person indeed. Take care, stay strong, and Ride The Bean brother...
Thank you for saying that😊
@@RidetheBean I watch a number of youtube motorcyle Adventure Channels .. and I think why go Solo.. It's so Dangerous ..
I am considering to ride my Motorycle to Alaska.. but that would be along major roads in Civilized Countries..
It's a lot worse for Medical care in the Middle of Africa..
Kenneth you were very lucky to be rescued by a Helicopter..
Do you have a Garmin "In Reach" You can text anywhere via Satellite Signal
There was a Woman from UK Kayaking the Amazon River.. They warned her that it was very dangerous Drug Cartel type people .
She got robbed and murded for a cell phone and camping supplies..
The Theives who Murdered her were playing with the buttons on the In Reach and they pressed the Emergency Transponder Button ..
Police were able to find and arrest the Criminols quicly ..thanks for them initiating the Emergency Distress signal on the In Reach
Thank you for sharing with us who Pia was. To let us know that she existed in this world and that she has such a positive impact on hundreds of people. You are strong to still keep a positive look into life, despite all the things you have been through. Let her beautiful memories continue to live and keep you going on. Lot's of love to you
Thank you 💜 she really was a special human being 🙂 and she will continue to influence people for a long time 🙂
This was recommended to me. I can't imagine your pain even though she is finally free from her own. God bless Pia in her new life. Blessings to you and all those she left behind.
So sorry dude, this is heartbreaking, stay strong and know you're not alone
Thank you! 💜
Wow, brother! I’m sorry you had to experience this so close to your heart. You are courageous in sharing your feelings. Suicide is a terrible thing. I am glad to hear you have taken time to sort out your feelings and emotions. You are never alone. I think you’ve done what’s right for you in not keeping it bottled up and being able to open up to your friends. In memory of Pia, go and enjoy your dream. And may you be at peace.
Thank you 🙂
That is what I will try to do 😊
His story broke my heart, I hope you can overcome the losses and that all these negative experiences make you stronger than you are now. my respects from Argentina. RIP Pia.
I've never wished more for a title to be clickbait. So sorry to hear her leaving us. You guys was such an inspiration for me as a young ADV rider from Norway. Hope to see you following your dream and sharing it with us!
Im at a loss for words.. This guy seems like a super strong individual
Thank you 🙂 I don’t feel that way, but I try my best 🙂
Pia has left a piece of herself in everyone she touched. Carry her spirit always. 💜
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Thank you for just being honest and raw- you touched my heart this morning. Stay strong! So much love sent your way. RIP Pia.❤️❤️💔
Rest well, beautiful, beautiful Pia. Ken, we send to you and Pia's family and friends our deepest sympathy. What a hard video to make for us today, Ken, but we appreciate that you did. Here's a BIG HUG from us. Ken, you need to keep going, you need to take that motorcycle trip. Experience the world as you planned, see it with your eyes and with Pia's. We want to experience it with you. Thank you, Ken. Bless you, beautiful Pia.
Be Brave young man. There is always people who hold you in their hearts
Thats right. And thats it
RIP .. Pia .. no more words ..
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Hold Pia's close to your heart with the happiness Pia deserves to have all her funniest, loveable, all her imprressable ways. Lock them away and in time when they come up you will smile. We were going to take earily retirement and travel the world 10 days short my husband was diagnosed with cancer we lost him in a few short weeks. Don't think you have forever as it can catch you when you least expect it. Save travel and know there are many doing it alone
RUclips recommended me this video, don't know why, but glad it did. I lived almost 2 years in Oslo and have been riding bikes since I was 15, I'm so sorry about the accident and Pia's decision. Hope you stay strong and keep riding, I'm sure she's still with you, wherever that may be.
Kenneth, this is a wonderful tribute to Pia. First, I cannot imagine what you’re going through. I have been with you since early in your journey and feel like you’re a friend, a brother, and a true adventurer. Pia always appeared to be fearless and in control. She was a beautiful person on the inside and her love was obvious. You are a very tough person and I respect you very much in your ability to just sit down and do this tribute to her life and your relationship. You have the ability and tenacity to take your journey, first to conquer the world in your own way, and second, in honor of Pia. Again, this is so beautiful and respectful. Please look ahead and “just do it”. We are all here with you. May Pia Rest In Peace. Ride safe!
Had 2 of my freinds and 4 people from the same year as me commit recently, all close in time, i shared a birthday with one of them. Share my condolences I know how hard it can be, sending my love
I recently lost 15 people I knew within a 2 week period. 5 to suicide, the rest to covid. I understand your pain, recently the world's been hell. Hope you're doing better 👍
Much love sorry for your loss 🙏
Thanks for sharing. So sorry to hear brother, my son, too, aged 39, in May 2019. He was half way around the world! Am trying to cope… frustrated at how I failed to pass on coping skills, quieting the mind & all that. We proly can expect more & more suicides as the economy& environment gets worse. We can only take to heart Albert Camus’ words of wisdom and fight on. Carry on. RIP PIA…
This is an incredibly hard video to watch. My heart is absolutely shattered for you. I just hope that my words and the words of other amazing people here in the comment section can find a way to keep you going. My most sincere condolences and may PIA rest in peace. If you ever find your way to the great Canadian Rockies one, I'll be your guide and I'll gladly be here for you.
I’m sooooooooo sorry for your loss. This video brought me to tears! Omg much love from Texas bro!
Thank you 💜
My condolences. Take care brother. I wish you good health, a calm mind and a house full of love.
Thank you 😊
I'm so sorry for your loss! I pray that you will overcome the darkness in your life. ( I'm personally also very aware of it) May you find peace within yourself and may you find a purpose and a passion to make you want to live. 💙
Dude, sorry for your loss - keep her in mind in everything you do and she will always be with you - stay strong
That is true. And I will! 😊
Thank you for having the courage to speak of Pia's passing, this is a tragedy of course and I feel really sorry for you and for Pia's friends and family. Depression is a heavy burden that many people suffer from, but also seem to hide from others. It's certainly not easy to remain strong sometimes, but we all must do that for the loved ones we care about.
We all deserve to be happy in this life. I wish you well in everything you do.
This is the first vlog I see from you. RUclips directed me to your channel.
Rest In Peace Pia. God loves you
Always treasure those memories. That way, she will always be with you. Aslong as you keep moving, she can live on inside of you ❤
Kenneth, so sorry for the crappy, sad events in your life this last year. You are being tested to the extreme dude.!!
You have to be aware that you (and Pia) have affected the lives of many. For me-2firsts.
After many years viewing RUclips, I finally logged in to comment after watching your crash video then cram-viewing many of your videos. You guys got to me.
Now for the first time ever I couldn’t watch a video in one sitting. Needed a break to compose myself.
Never met Pia but I’m grieving for her.
I will do everything possible to meet you when your ride brings you through 🇨🇦 Canada.
Thanks for being you.
Amazing how you handled this video.
I understand this type of loss. We lost our son who died by suicide. We rode together from the time he was 17 and he struggled with depression and anxiety throughout his adolescent years. He gained confidence and joined the military. After spending time in Afghanistan, he came home and struggled with that experience. We did get to ride a couple of times together, but it did not help. I tell you this because he is missed by many, many people. People stood in line for his funeral visitation for hours. Turn to those in your circle and, as you tried with with Pia, be there for one another through good and bad. Your testimony on this video shows me that you are strong and have something to offer others. Keep your adventure going! You will find joy and purpose. I look forward to following you!
I'm truly grateful your son is no longer in pain. I a lifelong sufferer and I am looking forward to ending my agonizing journey. None of us asked to be here, we should at least have the choice of when to leave
I wish you felt differently, but I understand that there are many views about the subject. No one should have to suffer, and I can tell you that outliving a child is a terrible burden. There are two quotes that I try to remember when confronted with feelings about quitting: “Life teaches you how to live it, if you can live long enough;” and, “The saddest thing in life is wasted talent.” Good luck to you.
@@deanlambert5002 My favorite quote is: "Everyone Dies, but not many have truly Lived". I'm one of those few .....
@@montesa9136 , it is an excellent quote. I wish you could find your potential and value in living. Although you are correct that we came kicking and screaming into this sad world, I believe every one of us has the potential for a positive effect. Look at Kenneth! His very existence has connected so many around the conversation. What is your potential?
@@deanlambert5002 I don't have one! Other than some small victories in life, I've failed at ALL of the big goals I hoped for. For example: Marriage, Relationships, Education, Friends, Family, Contentment, Health, & Money.
The world is unfair & I have learned to stop banging my head against the wall & simply "Exit Stage Left". Never assume we are all magically able to rise to the heights we would like to.
Good grief - this is such a brave vlog to share. And thank you for sharing your humanity.
I don't know you - but your vlog shows that you are humane and compassionate. So for all of the reasons that you feel that Pia's passing is such a huge loss to the world and everyone who met her - I can't help but feel that if you were to follow Pia, there would be a similar world of loss left behind. Please don't follow Pia. Please stay and live in her honour. And keep reaching out. Take advantage of this channel to realise just how many supporters and friends you have who are here to help you have the best life you possibly could. A happy life.
I've lost a few friends over the years. Some to suicide. So I feel your pain. And my heart goes out to you. And if your next big adventure brings you to New Zealand, then please let me know - I'd love to join in. In fact, wherever your adventure takes you, keep us all updated and maybe some of us will join you.
Kia kaha e hoa!
Brother you have my respect for respecting Pia so much, R.I.P. Pia, you have a man who loves you forever!! Lots of Love from South Africa!!