This is very relatable don’t you worry. I’ve been dealing with weird brain stuff since middle school so that’s like 6 years and obviously I’ve changed a lot but I still don’t quite know who I am especially bc still working through stuff. But it’s okay bc you’re supposed to continually figure yourself out over your life, right? I don’t want grandma Izzy to be the same as 18 year old Izzy. It is easy to look long term and say oh yeah I have time to figure stuff out but also I get that it’s stressful not knowing what you’re about. How can I clearly separate my personality from my dysfunctional brain when they’ve been overlapping so much for the past 6 years? Within the past year, I’ve rediscovered the enjoyment of drawing, which was something I enjoyed a while ago but stopped doing. So I guess try to do new things? And make sure you schedule time to do those things. I’m somewhat of a workaholic in school, which is pretty unhealthy. My therapist has been having me try to have more time for Izzy things. Saturday morning is my sleep in/lazy time. Sleep in late, make myself a nice breakfast, do something fun like baking or drawing or whatever. This was really hard for me to feel comfy doing bc so much of my time and energy was devoted to keeping it together and getting things done for school that taking breaks was not something I routinely did. After being able to step out of school oriented Izzy, I have been able to find other things about me. So go do a new thing it what I’m trying to say I guess. I’ll also be here trying to figure out who I am tho
honestly i feel this a lot, sometimes it feels like i don't know who i am or have a personality other than being trans and mentally ill
6 лет назад+1
I have the benefit of being like 10+ years older than you so please tell me to stay in my lane if I start swerving, but I think who you are will become clearer to you with each passing year. It’s really frustrating to be a young adult who feels out of touch with yourself or not sure what you want or what you like to do or what you’re trying to work towards. I can tell you that I never figured it out, and then life happened to me haha and now I’m 30 and what I have experienced is that there has never been one fixed version of myself that is ultimately my true self. Every year I’m different, every year my goals and hobbies change, every year there are no challenges that shape me. (Fun fact this is a Buddhist concept also)
yeah i definitely believe that! it's just frustrating when you can feel mental illness stuff physically putting up this blockade to who you are, ya know? i'm sure that will get better with time (thanks therapy!) but right now it just has me feeling sad
This is very relatable don’t you worry. I’ve been dealing with weird brain stuff since middle school so that’s like 6 years and obviously I’ve changed a lot but I still don’t quite know who I am especially bc still working through stuff. But it’s okay bc you’re supposed to continually figure yourself out over your life, right? I don’t want grandma Izzy to be the same as 18 year old Izzy. It is easy to look long term and say oh yeah I have time to figure stuff out but also I get that it’s stressful not knowing what you’re about. How can I clearly separate my personality from my dysfunctional brain when they’ve been overlapping so much for the past 6 years? Within the past year, I’ve rediscovered the enjoyment of drawing, which was something I enjoyed a while ago but stopped doing. So I guess try to do new things? And make sure you schedule time to do those things. I’m somewhat of a workaholic in school, which is pretty unhealthy. My therapist has been having me try to have more time for Izzy things. Saturday morning is my sleep in/lazy time. Sleep in late, make myself a nice breakfast, do something fun like baking or drawing or whatever. This was really hard for me to feel comfy doing bc so much of my time and energy was devoted to keeping it together and getting things done for school that taking breaks was not something I routinely did. After being able to step out of school oriented Izzy, I have been able to find other things about me. So go do a new thing it what I’m trying to say I guess. I’ll also be here trying to figure out who I am tho
Very relateable, esp “Whoops I got introspective and now I’m in too deep” and the whole self as project instead of being able to be in the moment!
honestly i feel this a lot, sometimes it feels like i don't know who i am or have a personality other than being trans and mentally ill
I have the benefit of being like 10+ years older than you so please tell me to stay in my lane if I start swerving, but I think who you are will become clearer to you with each passing year. It’s really frustrating to be a young adult who feels out of touch with yourself or not sure what you want or what you like to do or what you’re trying to work towards. I can tell you that I never figured it out, and then life happened to me haha and now I’m 30 and what I have experienced is that there has never been one fixed version of myself that is ultimately my true self. Every year I’m different, every year my goals and hobbies change, every year there are no challenges that shape me. (Fun fact this is a Buddhist concept also)
yeah i definitely believe that! it's just frustrating when you can feel mental illness stuff physically putting up this blockade to who you are, ya know?
i'm sure that will get better with time (thanks therapy!) but right now it just has me feeling sad