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  • Опубликовано: 12 янв 2025

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  • @kenziekayla8613
    @kenziekayla8613 Год назад +825

    As a woman age 72; I can suspect several traumas that could basically kill your joy; just know that your viewers have come to love you (thru thick and thin; sorrow and joy). Please post snippets when you can. We will continue to like and share so your income stream will continue. Praying for you and your wonderful children. Deep breaths, one hour at the time - until you can make it one day at the time). Im sending a bear hug of support to help you still stand and face tomorrow.

    • @saramurillo-garcia2301
      @saramurillo-garcia2301 Год назад +5

      You took the words out of my mouth 🥰🫶🫶🥰🫶🫶🥰

    • @michelleowens671
      @michelleowens671 Год назад +1

      I’m thinking of you Jamerrill, I hope you get to feeling yourself again soon

    • @cherylmccune4350
      @cherylmccune4350 Год назад +3

      We love you and. Send prayers

  • @hairhoodoohair5298
    @hairhoodoohair5298 Год назад +468

    You never know who you will connect with. I'm a 6'4" 41 year old man covered from head to toe in tattoos. I found you August two years ago when I was literally in bed for a moth due to Covid. You really helped me just get through day because of you light and joy. Thank you for that and please continue your healing journey.😋😊

    • @ShawnaLynnn
      @ShawnaLynnn Год назад +13

      I’m glad you’re here and feeling better!

    • @jacquehoosier6597
      @jacquehoosier6597 Год назад +3

    • @shannonludden8283
      @shannonludden8283 Год назад +10

      I found this channel while I had Covid too. It was such a scary time, but Jammerill's calmness was just what I needed. I'm doing better now, and I hope you are too. 😊

    • @AnnaleeJohnson-p9g
      @AnnaleeJohnson-p9g Год назад +3

      Iam praying we all have issues but TheLoed help us get threw them HE IS EVERWHERE PRESENT NOWHERE ABSENT,

    • @trblessed1020
      @trblessed1020 Год назад

  • @naturalsimpleliving
    @naturalsimpleliving Год назад +196

    I am not leaving or going anywhere. You take all the time you need. I love chatting with you on our zooms, and I will be praying for you. You have encouraged me to walk even more, haha! I've been in seasons, and having my 11 children around me has been healing. God loves you. Sending love and prayers from Wisconsin!🫶

  • @lisachatham8690
    @lisachatham8690 Год назад +32

    Sweet Jamerrill, I have just gotten past a bunch of trauma myself. I "escaped" an abusive relationship and am coming out on the other side. I moved over a thousand miles to get away from him, lived in my car for almost 6 months and just got into an apartment on the first. The odd thing is I have been happier in these 6 months than I have been for most of my life. I feel like I have a purpose and am working on fulfilling it. I have quit smoking and have been feeling good.
    I know that if I can make all thses changes and come back that with GOD and your family and the family you have here you will be good.
    I learned in a College course on trauma that we never really get back to where we were but get to a place that can be even better. We are stronger together, allow us to comfort you in your time of need, as without knowing you comfort us constantly. With sisterly LOVE I will pray and send Angels to hold you in your times of need.

  • @debgordon6542
    @debgordon6542 Год назад +214

    Just to let you know, you were very clear, crystal clear that you were dealing with other life challenges in addition to the miscarriage during the Costco haul. Prayer flares for you and your family. Your Virginia lovin sister

  • @erinnstreeter
    @erinnstreeter Год назад +93

    For whatever it's worth, Jamerrill, I'm in your corner. There's some old saying about how one stick can be broken, but a bundle of sticks holds together. I'm just one stick, but I think I'm part of a big bundle of 'em, and I hope you can take strength from us. 💛

  • @kateymateymusic1
    @kateymateymusic1 Год назад +324

    It hurts to see you suffering. You’ve always brought us so much joy. Praying brighter days are seen soon 🙏🏻

  • @rosannasauereisen2827
    @rosannasauereisen2827 Год назад +109

    "It's okay to not be okay." One of my teenagers says that once in awhile and I'm learning that is true more than I think.

    • @lyndsaymoehrman
      @lyndsaymoehrman Год назад +4

      I learned the truth behind this phrase in a very real way a handful of years ago. I know repeat this phrase to people often.

  • @andreahapke8886
    @andreahapke8886 Год назад +144

    You're gonna be ok Jammerrill. We are worried about you but you're incredibly strong. Opportunities lost will return.

  • @unleashedpatriot1802
    @unleashedpatriot1802 Год назад +41

    Praying for you, Jamerrill. It hurts to see such a usually joyful person sad & in pain. Not only is God with you, but all of us are here & will be here, to help lift you up the best we can across the miles. Sending you a big 'ole Iowa hug. ❤

  • @stefaniedecoster2772
    @stefaniedecoster2772 Год назад +180

    Hey Jamerill, I'm more of a watcher than a commenter but I need to say this. I can tell you're in pain and life is really tough right now but I can also tell your strength is bigger than the trauma you're working trough. Take it moment by moment, day by day, at your own pace. Warm hug and love from a mama from the Netherlands

    • @fadingdandelion4792
      @fadingdandelion4792 Год назад +6

      My brother was born in the Netherlands lived in Germany when I was 8-10 In the 80s . We lived in Monchengladbach Germany. We would travel too the Netherlands every weekend. The most beautiful place I have ever been

    • @toniconder696
      @toniconder696 Год назад +1

      I so see your pain, im hurting for you 😢

  • @heatheranderson9619
    @heatheranderson9619 Год назад +17

    I lost my husband to cancer in March. He was only 54. Life is hard. I pray for all of us struggling.

  • @IntotheFray84
    @IntotheFray84 Год назад +106

    I know exactly what you’re talking about. I recently got out of an abusive marriage, which was very traumatic for me and my kids. I’ve lost my spark as far as cooking and certain other things. Sometimes you just do what you can until you make it through to the other side. ❤

  • @jainecurrien214
    @jainecurrien214 Год назад +5

    Aw Jamerrill. I've lost 8 of my children. 6 miscarriages 1 stillbirth and 1 died at 24 in his sleep. Life is so hard but my faith has kept me going. All my children chose me to share their journey for which i am grateful, and the good lord gives me these challenges knowing that he also gives me the strength and courage to get through them. I am blessed with 4 other children who I cherish so much. Only God knows our plan and if He has faith in me, I'll do my best. Praying for healing for you and your family xxx

  • @TheWaterMinx
    @TheWaterMinx Год назад +70

    I have certainly been deeply concerned for you. I knew that there must be something very big happening. I will be praying for you, dear lady! Your videos helped me through a difficult and sad part of my life. I pray the Lord will comfort and feed you through His Word and that you find healing. ❤️

    • @fadingdandelion4792
      @fadingdandelion4792 Год назад +4

      I love you called her lady that is how I refer to ladies I'm speaking too.

  • @learningtogether
    @learningtogether Год назад +26

    You don’t have to be anyone you aren’t and this is where you are now and who you are. It’s been incredibly helpful for you to share snippets as I have been working through my own grief and the multifaceted thing it is. I sure appreciate you!

  • @themartianstitcher7483
    @themartianstitcher7483 Год назад +136

    I am not a frequent commentor but watch consistently. Sending you love from Nova Scotia. I understand trauma...lost my 21 year old son in a car crash in October 2015. Do whatever you need to do to get you through the days and back to having your spark. I am not the same person I was but I do have joy and love and tremendous support system. Take care...we will all be here whenever you come back. ♥

  • @shesinherapron
    @shesinherapron Год назад +29

    So sorry you're walking through trauma and secondary trauma. It's so brave of you to mention it publicly. I'm coming out of my own this past year. I completely understood when you said you're not the same. I will pray for you and for your family. Thank you for being vulnerable and being a light to so many. ❤

  • @319roxanne
    @319roxanne Год назад +24

    To be blunt, PTSD SUCKS! I sat in my recliner for 3 months at one part of my life. I have been fortunate to have counseling, friends and a stubborn attitude that has gotten me through. You I’ll get through. I promise.

    • @JamerrillStewart
      @JamerrillStewart  Год назад +13

      Yes and sitting in the chair for 3 months is also perfectly acceptable 💗💗💗

  • @danner3835
    @danner3835 Год назад +25

    As a wife of a "RUclipsr," I understand the burden of being the one in front of the camera and having to be "on," no matter what. Your life is your ministry and you carry it out with grace and always point to HIm who sustains you. Prayers lifted up for you all :)

  • @sammyhammy78
    @sammyhammy78 Год назад +52

    I've followed you since your blogging days when I was a brand new homeschooling mama and now through YT. You're like family to the majority of us. We aren't going anywhere! We've got your back through love and prayers and all the things. A lot of us are going through a harder season right now, myself included. We love you, Jamerrill. Praying for you daily. Love you!!! ❤

  • @hollysmall3490
    @hollysmall3490 Год назад +34

    You got this babe! We're not going anywhere, by the grace of God we'll all get through it together!💚

  • @brummymummyof2
    @brummymummyof2 Год назад +24

    A few years ago I had a traumatic experience which I am slowly healing from after having therapy. During this time your channel felt like a safe place for me. Watching you caring for your family encouraged me to get back to being the Mum I was previously. So we will support you as you supported us. Post what you want and when you want to. And sending you much strength and love xxx

  • @kathleenmacdonald5389
    @kathleenmacdonald5389 Год назад +38

    I'm so very sorry to hear that you're going through more hard times. I have been keeping you in my prayers and will continue to do so. You have created a support network here that most won't understand, but we will be here for you and to support whatever content you can bring. And if that means grocery hauls, that's okay with me! I think you are amazingly kind and strong. I hope all those you've helped in the past are coming through for you and that you feel the love of this group!! Prayers and hugs!!!

  • @randomvideos_658
    @randomvideos_658 Год назад +45

    I'm sorry Jamerill, what you've mentioned is totally understandable, this sounds like how I felt when I lost my soulmate, you're not alone in navigating traumatic situations, take your time and do what you can. Sending a a big virtual hug your way. ❤

  • @christymarcin9170
    @christymarcin9170 Год назад +11

    I hurt for you, Jamerill. I will be praying for healing and for your spark to return. You are a blessing to so many.

  • @barbaraketchum8287
    @barbaraketchum8287 Год назад +119

    I am just now coming out of a traumatic series of events that left me in a total fog for a year. Through this experience I have completely embraced being gentle and kind to myself and processing through the feelings as I am able. It sounds like you are working through your time as beautifully as possible. I am here to support your journey, especially because you have been so meaningful in my life!!! Blessings, dear sister ❤

  • @ShawnaLynnn
    @ShawnaLynnn Год назад +35

    Give yourself time. We never get over Trauma we just learn how to live with it. You’re strong. You know this because what you’ve gone through. Sending you love, good energy and prayers! Much love Jamerrill! You’ve got this!

  • @doodlebug5105
    @doodlebug5105 Год назад +66

    Your kind and loving heart jumps through the screen even as you share your spark is hiding. Thank you for everything Jamerill.

  • @mimikels9443
    @mimikels9443 Год назад +15

    I was traumatized as a young child but had no counseling other than bad advice. I internalized it and every once in awhile it would rear its ugly head. As a wife and mother I just kept pushing it down and carrying on. It damaged me...mentally, physically, spiritually. I am so thankful you have help. So thankful. You keep putting one step in front of the other and work towards completeness. We are here, many of us for the long haul. Youve been on my heart for longer than 2 months. I didnt know why but didnt need to. You are so beautiful here and strong and full of grace. Continued prayers hon.

  • @anitatucker8812
    @anitatucker8812 Год назад +63

    As a another woman and momma who has faced her own loss and trauma I could tell you were facing a trial in your ife. I give you grace while you are moving through this season in life. I continue to pray for you and your family Jamerrill. Prayers of healing, strength, and restoration. Sending love and hugs.

  • @itiswhatitis5784
    @itiswhatitis5784 Год назад +4

    There’s a wonderful MD named Gabor Mate that has written books about trauma, I encourage anyone to do a little research on this man. As a person just existing trying to claw my way back from decades of trauma I know your pain, confusion, loss of identity, lack of presence etc. we can all find a way to cope and get through these trying times. I love you all, God will be out light through the dark days ❤

  • @HeavenlyZenDesigns
    @HeavenlyZenDesigns Год назад +40

    I don't comment very often, but I'm a long time subscriber. I watched this video 3 times, bawling my eyes out, because I needed too... I felt every single word of this season you're in having gone through it myself a few times and I still get stuck in the waves. I started a RUclips channel in March 2023 (art/crafting related) and haven't been able to post for the last several weeks (no spark.. you just can't fake it). My husband and children still need every bit of me so my work, in a way, is suffering. I know you already know you're not alone in this season, sometimes it's difficult to get over the anger that steals our joy. Sometimes it's hard not to question the WHY. I'm not going anywhere. I enjoy all of your content no matter what it is. The fact that you are still able to put out content is so inspiring to me. Thank you 😌 We love you and we will see you in your next video! 🤗🤗🤗 HUGS MOMMA!! 🤗🤗🤗

  • @deborahwarren9368
    @deborahwarren9368 Год назад +16

    Like many others commenting on this video, i watch more than i comment. Just want to share that i found you while pregnant with my daughter, during the pandemic, during a time of very poor mental health. You felt like home and i have been subscribed and watched ever since then. My momma passed 10 years ago this month and you feel like one of my mom figures. Take all the time you need. We love you!

  • @carin1390
    @carin1390 Год назад +61

    You could literally post a hot long video with no editing looking at the sky line and I'd watch it on auto play over and over. We are here for you whatever you need from us

    • @jeanenep33
      @jeanenep33 Год назад

      I came to say the same thing. This dear woman is a rare jewel in this world ❤

    • @marythomas1127
      @marythomas1127 Год назад +1

      Same! Post videos of you watching reruns of Bonanza, we don't care. We will watch & like & comment to keep help in whatever tiny way we can!

  • @deannawoolard7326
    @deannawoolard7326 Год назад +33

    I was beaten and raped not long ago and what you said resonates with me so much. I still feel like im trying to understand the new me daily. Trauma in any form is so hard to work through. Love and hugs

    • @melissamooney2866
      @melissamooney2866 Год назад +16

      Prayers and love going out to you tonight 🙏❤ I am so sorry that happened to you.

    • @Iamhome365
      @Iamhome365 11 месяцев назад +4

      I'm so sorry for you! That's horrendous

    • @reneeluiten6386
      @reneeluiten6386 9 месяцев назад +2

      🙏🏼❤️❤️

  • @kali8789
    @kali8789 Год назад +58

    Thank you for your vulnerability. You’re always an inspiration to me! ❤

  • @elliesilva1907
    @elliesilva1907 Год назад +45

    Anyone else just hurt when she hurts? It’s like she shouldn’t be allowed to go thru pain cause she’s too pure and sweet lol I love her ❤

  • @AuntMommyshouse
    @AuntMommyshouse Год назад +36

    I’ve been watching your channel for a few years and although I have noticed deep trauma in your eyes, I also see the spark of the joy of the Lord♥️ I don’t know what exactly you’re walking through but I do know Who is holding you as you walk through this valley. I will continue to lift you and cover you with prayer.

  • @brucechapman4539
    @brucechapman4539 Год назад +1

    Hi Mrs Chapman here. I hear you, my husband and I of forty seven years lost all three of our sons to drugs so when you said about loosing your Joy and spark I understand. Just, God Bless your heart . I will be praying for you. You have given me hours of happiness. God is with you , as you know . Robin

  • @yolandaw2650
    @yolandaw2650 Год назад +46

    I’ve grown to absolutely love and enjoy any of your content and even though I have a totally different lifestyle I will continue to watch whatever content you keep putting out and I am sending many thoughts and prayers your way!
    Weeping may endure for a night but Joy will come in the morning! 🙏🏻❤

  • @SkySilver777
    @SkySilver777 Год назад +23

    you look so beautiful here- hair, dress, makeup- I just needed to let you know how radiant you look on the outside even if the inside is suffering. I've found that ones inner beauty tends to shine though and show on a persons face as well. you are in my thoughts and prayers- I too am going through a tough time & watching your videos always helps distract me from some of the tough stuff. you're in my prayers

  • @scary747
    @scary747 Год назад +29

    I felt that you didn't need to explain. We are with you through whatever you need. Many prayers for you and your family. Take your time we will continue to be here for you. I send hugs and prayers.

  • @rlcarver
    @rlcarver Год назад +10

    I am so sorry you are going through this, it seems we all are going through the worst of times these last few years. Praying for you and your family, and the world ❤.

  • @springhouser3565
    @springhouser3565 Год назад +26

    I am so sorry for whatever it is you are going through. You have brightened my day more often than I can tell you when I was going through dark times. I wish there was more than words that I could give you for comfort. You will be in my thoughts and whenever you are back, I will still be here to support you.

  • @rocky6055
    @rocky6055 Год назад +14

    Sending love and prayers to you and your family. I started watching a couple of years ago when I was first diagnosed with cancer. The "experts" gave me a couple of months to live- and here I am. The Lord knows our needs and provides on his calendar.

  • @kathleenchambers6485
    @kathleenchambers6485 Год назад +51

    As another woman who’s had many life long traumas. I understand how difficult it is to find your spark again. I’m praying for you. 💕

  • @mrsdscraftdesk
    @mrsdscraftdesk Год назад +1

    You mentioned later writing a book. Well I’m going to recommend you start it now. Just write what you’re feeling, write the every day things you and your family did, write your prayers and your joys and your sorrows. Just get it all down. For many people, writing it down helps acknowledge the feelings as legitimate and just there. Several family members have used this technique, and we have passed it on to friends who have also benefited. Try it. If it feels like work, then stop. Prayers, love, hugs, friendship, support, and all good wishes coming to you from Louisiana.

  • @au6685
    @au6685 Год назад +21

    Jamerrill you are in my thoughts and prayers ❤️ I have been following since 6 years ago. I found you in my sophomore your of college and I’ve gone though tough times and life adjustments during that period. I always loved your videos and they brought me such a bright light. It hurts me that as a viewer I can’t offer you the same. I’m sure other people feel the similar. We all love you and are here to support you. ❤❤

  • @LM-my1ss
    @LM-my1ss Год назад +4

    Hi Jamerrill, when I was diagnosed with cancer and I still had to go to work until my surgery. I would also go outside and walk and pray and sing to the Most High God. I was traumatized by the cancer diagnosis and all that went with it. The only thing that I knew to do was to walk and pray. You will be fine, keep walking and praying!

    • @Iamhome365
      @Iamhome365 11 месяцев назад

      Hope you're all clear now!

  • @bravehearticus
    @bravehearticus Год назад +25

    We love you Jamerill. Take as long as you need. We'll always be here, ready to take the little steps with you. Love to you ❤

  • @judycoulter4556
    @judycoulter4556 Год назад +6

    You have been through so much this year. The accident your daughter in law was in, your miscarriage, and now being traumatized. That’s a lot for any person to go through. Thank you for being real. Prayers and love to you. I will stand by you and I know your followers will too. The Lord will be there for you too. Love you dear lady.

  • @wandafentonboykin66
    @wandafentonboykin66 Год назад +21

    Sending prayers of comfort to you and your loved ones. We will all be grateful for any content that comes our way!

  • @erinmorgan8546
    @erinmorgan8546 Год назад +15

    Trauma shows up when we least expect it. Healing isn’t linear. Take your time. Feel it, learn from it, love yourself through it, then let it go ❤ We are all praying for you ❤

  • @psw47
    @psw47 Год назад +6

    Oh, sweet Jamerrill..I will always watch whatever you post. I have followed you for many years and support you all the way! I lost my husband suddenly a day after the birth of our 6th. child. I was so devastated with sorrow but had joy from the birth that I couldn't even understand my emotions at the time. It took me quite awhile to come to terms with all the heartache and turmoil I was feeling! I pray for your healing everyday, I could tell there was something else going on. Please rest assured that we all love you and care deeply for you. Take what time you feel is necessary and we will continue to pray and watch. Much love to you and yours. 💞♥💞♥💞

  • @scarahpurr
    @scarahpurr Год назад +4

    I've been there Jamerrill, including walking walking walking 24/7 to get myself through. I lost 115lbs in the process but gsined immense smounts of prospective on life and where its headed.
    Keep going, one step at a time. Everything falls into place, just live the moment and feel it❤

  • @deborahmorton5893
    @deborahmorton5893 Год назад +13

    We completely understand. I understand working through trauma. I am not going anywhere. We love you and will stand by you. If it takes multiple days to create a single video that is perfectly fine. Your videos don't need to be about a huge cooking day(s). If it is just one meal video at a time that is okay too. Sending love and prayers!

  • @jeanlee1911
    @jeanlee1911 Год назад +26

    why do these companies have to be so harsh on creators? Keeping you in prayers sweet sister in Christ!!! What can we do as viewers to help? xoxoxoxo

  • @mylittleruralhomestead
    @mylittleruralhomestead Год назад +21

    Thinking of you Jamerrill, and praying you find comfort and solace in the days ahead.🥰

  • @got_style
    @got_style Год назад +2

    So so wonderful to see you again, Jamerrill 💕 Your strength and courage strengthen me; your faith and reliance on the Saviour encourage my prayers for you, your loved ones and for mine as well😇. Thank-you❤❤

  • @carystuder7541
    @carystuder7541 Год назад +45

    Sending prayers and thoughts I’m sorry you’re going through a rough time please take all the time you need.

    • @sharonfabis9037
      @sharonfabis9037 Год назад +4

      I believe I can safely say we all want the best for you! I will be here for ever. I love your videos.
      Continue to pray for health and healing! God is good.
      He will get you thru!🙏🙏❤️🙏🙏❤️🙏🙏

  • @elizabethlane4617
    @elizabethlane4617 Год назад +2

    Oh Jamerrill , it made my heart hurt to hear you say you were traumatized and you’ll never be the same. You are so beautiful inside and out. I have definitely missed you on YT and have prayed for you. I’ll continue to pray. I’m so thankful you have the Lord with you- He has comforted me through hard times too. Psalm 147:3 says “He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.” Lots of prayers and love from a sister in Christ and subscriber from the beginning ❤Liz in FL

  • @sharonbosley6817
    @sharonbosley6817 Год назад +4

    Jammerill, your video resonated wirh me. I have come through a very difficult season of some very traumatic events in my life. During my season, what helped me in so many ways, was walking. I started walking 6 miles per day. It was truly the " therapy" that I needed. Just praying, quiet, exercise always helped me to be in a better frame of mind. Keep walking...it truly is a healer. Sending prayers..😢

  • @jorobinson6640
    @jorobinson6640 Год назад +23

    Thank you for this video. I very much respect the way you are processing trauma ... you are giving yourself grace, working through it all in a positive way, and you will definitely come out of that dark tunnel and see the light again. As women - wives, mums, sisters, aunties, grandmums, friends and co-workers, we've all experienced trauma at some point in our lives. No, you won't ever be the same, but you will be who you're meant to be at this stage of your life. :) Sending much love.

  • @rosemarybravo5348
    @rosemarybravo5348 Год назад +10

    Thank you for sharing the journey you are on, and I pray the good Lord will always walk beside you on this journey. Those of us who also have gone through trauma do understand and please know we are with you and sending prayer , love and hugs 💖

  • @elizabethmoore6993
    @elizabethmoore6993 Год назад +3

    Thank you so much for this video. I went through a trauma in September and am in a season of emotional cycle. Thank you for sharing as a mature Christian woman.

  • @sherij7330
    @sherij7330 Год назад +9

    Jamerrill, Sending prayers as you walk this journey. After trauma, we are never the same. But we can come back strong! With your faith, I know that no matter how long it takes, you will find your joy and flourish:)

  • @brittany3690
    @brittany3690 Год назад +9

    Praying for you Jamerill! ❤ your videos have helped me through some hard times. ❤ Here’s to brighter days ahead.

  • @debbiejones4307
    @debbiejones4307 Год назад +28

    Finding the motivation when you're going through trauma is so hard. Posting to talk and raise awareness is part of the healing process. Xx

  • @mama_of_four
    @mama_of_four Год назад +5

    My heart breaks for you for whatever you are going through but I am so glad you are recognizing it and being kind and gentle on yourself! Most of us will continue to follow you and enjoy whatever content you put out and I know I have a lot of older content to watch in between. I like to watch your videos while I’m doing my own cooking or housework and it feels like I have a friend visiting and keeping me company. You have inspired me to make many changes in my life and to be proud of what I do in my home and for my family and I will always be grateful for that! Thank you for sharing your journey with us no matter what it looks like! I’m sending you so much love all the way from Arizona!❤❤❤

  • @ChainsawsTuF
    @ChainsawsTuF Год назад +24

    Sending love, light and massive virtual hugs your way, we are all walking beside you and hoping and praying for brighter days. Xxx

  • @vintagedietitian
    @vintagedietitian Год назад +17

    Jamerrill, you have been such an inspiration to so many of us for so many reasons. Watching you acknowledge and validate your pain is so amazing for so many people. I can't imagine being as vulnerable as you are with the world. I know that can't be easy. I feel like God has given you such a gift in being able to serve others by sharing not just your wins, but your pain as well and how He is bringing you through it. I listened to a book recently that really helped me and you were one of the people I thought about and prayed about while hearing it. If you see this (or anyone else who sees this who went through serious childhood things or loves someone who you don't always understand who went through serious childhood things) I recommend What My Bones Know by Stephanie Foo. I imagine many people who read it or will read it may feel so very seen for maybe the first time in their lives. Sending so much love and many prayers.

  • @Mrsstick07
    @Mrsstick07 Год назад +13

    I don't have a large family, my 3 children are all grown with little ones of their own but I watch your channel because you seem somehow to bring me joy. Your so gentle, patient and loving that you inspire the soul. I'm sending you all the positivity that its possible for me to send to you. Healing takes time but you will come through this trauma. ❤ x

  • @brenda0823_
    @brenda0823_ Год назад +19

    A couple of yrs ago I was in the hospital with pneumonia for 9 days. When I got out I was depressed for months! I learned its a pretty normal thing because its a form of ptsd. So just hang in there girl. It will get better.

  • @amyrivers4093
    @amyrivers4093 Год назад +10

    Jamerrill you are precious and I want you to know your message came across that there is a lot more going on above the tragedy of your miscarriage. I'm sharing my story with you and others because I am at the point where I am just stepping out of these tough events. I lost my parents a year apart, I was broken into and assaulted, my sister wouldn't allow me to get my half of our inheritance, I'm terminally ill and was also diagnosed with breast cancer on top of all my other lifelong health issues, I was building a house with my Dad and had to keep going and a few more other really personal things and I didn't think that I could take one more step. I was in tears on the floor and my best friend held me and said you are the strongest person I know and I need you to keep going, it's okay to not be okay and most importantly GOD IS CARRYING YOU UNTIL YOU CAN WALK. I tell myself every morning that 'this too shall pass'. I care about you, you are my youtube friend, and I stand behind you. You do whatever is right for you at each point in time. You are in my prayers, God bless you and your loved ones. Xx

  • @carriering2077
    @carriering2077 Год назад +1

    Oh jamerrill😭 my heart breaks for you. I lost my spark in March of 2021, when my husband relapsed.... I tried to stay busy, I tried to hide the pain with all the things.... but nothing helped.... I had to feel the pain, accept it and let myself heal.... I am just starting to get my spark back as we are rolling up on almost 2 year of my husband's sobriety..... from someone who felt like the world was rushing her to "get over it" I just want to say, it ok to fall apart, to lose your spark, to be a shell of what you were.... it's ok to not be ok.... only rainbows after rain❤️

  • @nadiaroache6776
    @nadiaroache6776 Год назад +7

    We dont know what your going through exactly but please know we are here for you. Rooting for you, send you prayers, keeping you in our thoughts. May God continue to hold your hand and guide you through this difficult time. ❤

  • @TheMinimalMom
    @TheMinimalMom Год назад

    I am. so. sorry Jamerrill, sending love and grace and peace to you. I think of you often and will continue to pray every time you come to mind ❤❤❤

  • @shelbystafford299
    @shelbystafford299 Год назад +21

    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. In this life we have to take care of ourselves and you do what you need to do, whatever that looks like. We are not going anywhere! ❤️

  • @laume8622
    @laume8622 Год назад +2

    I had a traumatic 12 months last year. I hit rock bottom when someone hurt me and now I’m out the other side I regret how much I allowed it to change me. Take it easy but don’t let it ‘win’

  • @stephanieburrell4200
    @stephanieburrell4200 Год назад +4

    Sending prayers for you and your family. I was traumatized in 2022 and I'm working through that right now. I love your videos.

  • @Barbie-hz9so
    @Barbie-hz9so Год назад +1

    I’m praying for you, Jamerrill. I’m praying for a total and complete healing.

  • @francesbolen257
    @francesbolen257 Год назад +5

    Girl, I understand and have walked that walk. I was not allowed time to heal from work and when I walked out the office doors I would crawl to my bed and not move til Monday. Prayers for you.

  • @paulettefoster3157
    @paulettefoster3157 Год назад +1

    You have been a blessing to me today. I have been feeling quite down myself for several weeks; I have experienced many severe traumas myself and have battled this my whole life. I have learned to focus on gratitude and perspective and most all of the time I do very well. Until... 😢 I have learned to keep my eyes and ears open because the Lord sends me the message of comfort or clarity that I need every time. I just have to pay attention and receive it. You were my message today. I don't know what you're walking through right now, but the Lord wanted me to remember that my walk right now is pretty easy. I'm sorry for your suffering. But you helped me today. Thank you. ❤

  • @deborahanderson3659
    @deborahanderson3659 Год назад +5

    Dearest Jamerrill- please know that we all love and support you, and are here to do anything you need us to do. That includes keeping the faith and knowing that you will find your spark again and delight in the world. We are patient- take the time you need. XO

  • @susanmorningstar1989
    @susanmorningstar1989 Год назад +2

    I am so sorry to see uou go through this difficult time Jamerill.Just know that there alot of us that are praying for you and are sending you hugs and strength to get through these difficult days.

  • @stephaniebarnes3304
    @stephaniebarnes3304 Год назад +18

    THANK YOU for modeling how we handle trauma. It is ok to have it. It is ok to feel it. The only way is through. Praying for you!

  • @sarahanderson2431
    @sarahanderson2431 Год назад +1

    I am glad you are walking. Twelve years ago I went through a "trauma". My Dr. suggested walking & it made a huge difference in my healing.

  • @rachelmccoy7241
    @rachelmccoy7241 Год назад +14

    Girl! ♥️♥️ we don’t expect you to be okay. We love YOU with or without your creative spark. I don’t care if you post a 3 second video saying “Hey friends, my name is Jamerrill Stewart!” And that’s it. I’ll watch it 47 times and like the video and keep following if that helps your income stream! All the love! All the grace! ♥️♥️♥️

  • @2andrea
    @2andrea Год назад +7

    You will learn with this who your true friends, employees, and sponsors are from this. We have been there and glad we know now. Sucks going thru it, but you will be stronger for it in the end. Keep up the good work! Your channel has helped us since we found you back at the first farmhouse.

  • @anitamuller9863
    @anitamuller9863 Год назад +6

    Jamerril.... you are loved beyond borders and time. I wish you all the best, and hope you will be able to bless us with your sparkle real soon !!
    Love from South Africa ❤

  • @marthagoolsby6921
    @marthagoolsby6921 Год назад

    I’m adding my prayers and love to these other wonderful followers of yours. I think you are wonderful and amazing. I hope these words of encouragement will help bring you peace

  • @nicolehaskell1652
    @nicolehaskell1652 Год назад +7

    Sending all my love and prayers your way I've experienced second hand trauma myself. You are definitely in my thoughts.

  • @jeniferbanda5981
    @jeniferbanda5981 Год назад +8

    Find your joy wherever and whenever you can. It's ok to not be ok. Traumas take time to heal. I truly love your trips to sharp shopper ( makes me want to take a trip to Virginia to visit family and make a side trip). If it's just sitting here in the park having an honest conversation, it's still content worth watching. When I went through a lot of trauma and trials a few years back, I would constantly remind myself of the story of Job and say if he could get through all he did then this too shall pass. I'm not going to lie, it took me years but I'm in a better place than I was. I will still answer the question as to how I'm doing with "I'm still breathing". Take care of yourself. You are in our prayers!

  • @sandyschultz280
    @sandyschultz280 Год назад +6

    So sorry you are going through this. Do what you can😊

  • @FrugalFunMum
    @FrugalFunMum Год назад +1

    Thank You for posting this. I'm a content creator and I'm struggling too after a small medical episode but the pressure of 'sharing' and talking it's just over whelming especially that people who know me personally demanding information and I just don't want to share because I know they go and talk to other people and I just don't know what to do. I am the same as you I've lost my spark and like you I'm trying not to let it be my persona right now. I'm trying not to be negative but I need people to understand that I just need to be here right now and I'll do what I can when I can.

  • @janetroche3648
    @janetroche3648 Год назад +7

    Jamerrill, in Psalm 46: 1, 5, 7, 10 (a). GOD is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. (5), God is in the midst of her; God shall help her, and that right early. (7), The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. (10), Be still, and know that I am God: The JOY of the LORD is our strength. My prayers are with you. You hold to God's unchanging hand. 💜☀️🌻

  • @LorenePierce-xy3hp
    @LorenePierce-xy3hp Год назад +2

    If I had to use one word…just one…to describe you, it would be STRONG! Life has unfortunately hit you with a blind punch in the gut. Satan does this when you are on the right path in order to knock you off. We have some things in common.. my Dad was also an alcoholic.. and I lost him to suicide when I was 16. There are other parts to that story that are too involved to share. I am SO very sorry for EVERY thing that you are experiencing right now. The sadness in your eyes hurts to see, but definitely understandable. But, what I see already is an intelligent women who knows how to admit she needs help and goes after it with a will that is unmatched! Even in your time of trauma, you are teaching us to persevere. Hugs, love and prayers🙏🏻❤️❤️

  • @sundaesprinkles
    @sundaesprinkles Год назад +4

    You are a blessing to me! A sweet and beautiful person. I’m so glad I’ve been able to welcome you into my family’s home in your videos throughout the years. It’s filled a void for me, not having sisters, or a loving mother like I wish I’d had. So- thank you. So thankful God goes before us! Praying for you ❤

  • @joncarey3599
    @joncarey3599 Год назад

    Walking is so healing. My cousin lost her husband in a car accident. He was hit by a car right in front of her and then died in her arms. In the years that followed dealing with her ptsd one of the best things that worked for her was walks. She relied heavily on God , but those walks and the effect the motion had on her brain is amazing. My mother in law lost a baby girl at just over 20 weeks. Again , she said the thing that helped best for years was walks .