I love you your the reason I wake up every morning I hate life and I have been trying to keep clean I have been thinking about killing myself but my friend would miss me so much same with me please never change love you
+Lukeisnotsexy Dear Luke , I hope you read this we all love you . You are a wonderful human being and I don't want you to feel so down. You are amazing and I love you . You have helped me through some pretty rough times . I was horribly bullied at school and when I came home from school I would watch your videos because they were the only thing that could make me feel better . You literally brought me back from the brink of giving up and I love you for that. I would watch all your videos with Jason and patty and emma and they would make me smile. You are beautiful inside and out. I felt like you where the only person there for me . No one would listen and I love you luke. If you don't read this it's fine but I just wanted to know that you helped me sooo much and you are amazing ! Just hang in there Luke we all love you and never give up . You are beautiful. Luke I love you and I can't thank you enough
Props for the bravery in posting this. I personally appreciate your disclaimer about self-harming: "if you don't do this, please don't ever start, and if you do, please try and stop"
Luke. I know you probably won't read this. But I just wanna say. We are all proud of you. And this vid saved my life. 24days ago I tried to OD. I told one person beforehand as I didn't want my little brothers too find my body so I needed her to tell my dad first. She said okay and walked away. Later on She sent me a link to this vid. Since then I have been watching this everyday. I still selfharm badly and I still think about suicide all the time. But it helps. It helps me get through the day. It helps me not feel so crap after my stepdad has punched me in the gut or someone at school has kicked me in the ribs or try put their hands up my top. I still get on with life and fake a smile until I'm on my own. But if I ever feel really bad again I just go through and watch all your vids. Like you are amazing. Thank you so much. For everything.
His eyes are so pretty. Idk of it was just me but I seen some pain in his eyes as he was telling his story. I'm glad everything worked out for you Luke. "Chin up"
When I self harmed the first 'person' I told was my dog, because I felt like she wouldn't judge me and I actually believe that pets can understand human emotions and can pick up when things aren't right. It helped me as I found it easier to tell my parents once I found out I could say it out loud. Things are ok now and one thing that helped me to over come it was your video for self harms and I have recommended it to other people because it really REALLY did help. Thank you, Luke. ;)
I had started self harming when I was 11, I had just moved to a new town quite far from where I grew up. I was made fun of for being light skinned, sounding weird and being fat and ugly. I stopped halfway through being being 14 but started again last year.. I still struggle and I am now struggling with anorexia, bulimia and binging. Stay strong everyone
I know this is a bit late but big well done for the bravery of being so open on here about depression i have depression i was diagnosed with emotional persunalerty disorder i know what is like this video made me cry but i love it THANK YOU LUKE
Luke, Im sorry there are immature people who did not listen and decided to make a joke out of this. You are braver than so many people who are so scared to come out and share their stories. So thank you so much. :)
My best friend suffers from depression, anxiety, and also self harms. She tells me that having me in her life has helped her so much, and she never wants me go. Every day I check her wrists for new cuts, and it's only recently that those cuts have turned to scars. I'm so proud of her, and I'm proud of you, Luke for sharing this story that literally brought me to tears.
Today in school I was actually thinking of making one of these videos for bullying and then I came and watched this and cried. I am so proud of you Luke for uploading this!x
Hi Luke, I can't hide the fact that I'm silently crying on the other side of the screen. I have suffered from depression and self harm too and I got through it all by myself. I didn't have anyone help me and it was very hard, and I think it's very brave of you to talk about your own story like that and try to possibly help other people get through it too. I am very proud of you, and for everyone who still suffer from depression and or self harm, hang it there. It gets better. Luke and I and many other people are proofs that it does get better.
I couldn't help but cry at this because i know exactly how it feels, the lenghts you go to when you're not in a happy place can be so awful but i have to say that please god anyone who feels this way please tell someone, we're all so special in our own way and all deserve to be happy! Hats off to you Luke this was so brave and touching xxx
Luke, I'm so sorry that you had to go through that bullying. I was bullied but I eventually started standing up for myself and the bullies kind of faded out of my life luckily. I just don't understand how people can sink so low. It makes me feel bad for humanity that people enjoy hurting others...
I self harmed with a blade from a pencil sharpener and today in a assembly I gave it to my friend and told him to put it in a bin and he looked at me blankly and said, well done
"... I don't know how to be happy anymore." Hit the nail right on the head. That is word for word exactly how I feel at the moment. The end of the video (when you said it would be okay) made me smile though, which is something I never do anymore. Thank you for sharing your story with us :)
Luke, we are a few people here in Sweden that have discussed this subject alot. After discussing it some more and seeing your videos and others that you took part of, we have decided to try and start up a project of our own. I belive that we together can get stronger making this video shows your strength. And it makes me proud that people like you take this step and show people the truth. You just grew so much in my view. Thank you once again.
You are very brave to admit all of this, and I have a lot of respect for you. It's never easy getting this kind of stuff off of your chest, but I'm glad you're not depressed anymore. :)
Ive had depression, my bestest friend has been bashed and everything majourly bullied with huge depression, never smiled. Ive made him smile, im starting to get him to finally stop cutting all together and he laughs alot of the time now, he even says school is fun. Best. Feeling. Ever.
I self harmed last year and i almost took my life when i was in grade 7 and also 2014. I was losing so many friends and they turned into fake friends talking behind my back and blackmailing me😔 but im all better now and im not depressed anymore because of youtube and alot of positive people❤️
YOU MADE ME CRY, DAMN IT! You've helped me through a lot Luke, the first time I stopped self harming was because of seeing one of your videos. To see that the start of your depression was pretty much the exact same as what happened to me (but you were 2 years older) really helps prove to me that I will be fine someday. The only difference is when you told your parents things got better. When my parents found out it felt like they were disappointed in me and everything got worse. I was still self harming but I was suicidal too. Heck, I still am. I want help but after what happened with my parents I don't know where to get help. Thank you for helping me through some of the toughest times in my life, Luke, I owe you so much xx
very inspiring and close to my heart....i am a long term sufferer of depression and for the last year i have just shut out all my friends and family and stayed all alone in my flat playing computer games. i then discovered you and Emma blackery on RUclips and your videos made me laugh and feel somewhat normal for 10 minutes. think its about time i put the xbox pad down and started breaking down the walls i created almost 15 yrs ago (im 29) thank you luke your a top dude
Thank you. I seriously mean it thank you so much... Your videos have helped me so much through my depression and I'm still struggling to be happy and stop self harming. It's been 3 months the 1st day of May since I stopped cutting. I really mean it Luke thank you so so much. You don't know how much your videos make me smile laugh and help me through all the shit I am feeling. You're amazing my role model thank you... So so much.
luke, oh the relates, i do understand, i lost my friends coz of depression. i turned to harm and substances as well!! i had close mates that tried to help. (this is ages 9-16) im kept saying ill be dead by 16. im 7 months into 16 and my boyfriend is freaking amazing!! im so inspired by you and im so thankful you are still around. i dont feel sorry for you, i just understand harm, depression and the whole idea of being trapped. im so much better than i was 5 months ago, a new years goal was: "no substances that could potentially harm me" and ive stuck to that. im doing so well.. and anyone out there going through a rough time, i encourage you to speak up. Everyone is going to give you shit. ignore them, they aren't worth it. but as you said Luke, have someone there you can trust. its not easy to find, but they exist.
This is really inspiring! I know how hard it is to deal with depression and how hard it is to get it out of it, or ever see the light at the end of the tunnel, or to even speak about it. I'm so proud of you. You make people laugh on a daily basis and just even from this 7:45 video, you have showed people that it'll be okay and to get out of it. I really hope some people take this advice in hope to get better and speak about their problems. I know it takes years, trust me...it took me four years to even come to terms with the fact that I had depression. So proud of you Luke!:) keep doing what you're doing!x
How can some of you come and watch this, then comment something terrible? He literally put his heart and soul into this video, then you come and call him unmentionable names! If you watch his other videos and are fine with them, you best be fucking fine with this one.
this made my day, even though there isn't much of it left. whenever i get depressed for more than a few days it feels as if the world is crumbling, or that the air is dirty, or it's too hot, or too cold, ir to dry, or too humid. and i feel like no one gives a damn. but you made my day Luke, and that's why the internet is beautiful.
Im slightly speechless, I wasn't sure what to expect from this video but I am so thankful you shared this, Luke you'll do more good then you'll ever know you deserve all the happiness you have and the happiness that will come xX
Thank you Luke for sharing that. It's very hard to tell people your depression story, I've find it hard myself. I've been watching your videos for years and it has helped me through my time of need. You made me laugh and smile when all I wanted to do was cry but the tears didn't want to come out. And, thank you for sharing your story and thank you for helping me :)
When you said "it's going to be okay"... I believed it. This made me feel so much better. I've been clean of self harm for awhile now but I've wanted to start again; but this changed the way I think about it.
In tears right now. Tonight was my suicide date and tbh I don't feel like I need to anymore,I've had severe depression for a year and been unhappy for afew more years,and recently started self harming worse than before. I've talked to my friends but they both turned on me and told everyone it was fake and that I didn't acctualy have depression or eating disorders and people think I'm a freak now but you turned out an amazing person and your inspiration so I want to be like you Luke :) x
I stopped self harming 2 weeks ago and I feel so great my friends cheer me up I'm 13 BTW I still get bullied by several people but I just now build up a barrier of all the bad things they say to me . fat gay idiot tramp ect and it goes straight through my head and I've never been happier in my life stay strong ;-)
I have been depressed {Not diagnosed} for the past year, but I have recently [About after New Years] met my soul mate. Not sexually, we have only cuddled and almost kissed [Go me!]... I have seen many videos like this, but like you, I have overcame the worst part. Thank you, and I hope all of us depressed people will overcome our shitty feeling emotions. Help and Hope are on the way.
Btw, My soul mate broke up with me... but it was only because WAY to many people told a lot of douche bags in our school [the reason we didn't want a lot of people to know is because she is Bi and I am Lez]. We are still best friends and cuddle buddies... She said that once we both are in high school that we will start back up again... WISH ME LUCK!!! I WISH ALL OF YOU LUCK THAT ARE IN A SIMILAR SITUATION!!!!
Im really grateful for this video. I've fallen out with many close friends over the past few years and everyone just says its part of 'girls growing up'. Which it isn't. I've realised recently that even though I'm always smiling on the outside I never am on the inside. As soon as I get close to someone they always find something wrong with me and push me away and no matter what you say to yourself, you never get over it. You can never ignore them. Thank you so much for this video, it's helped me realise that this will all be over soon 😀
Talked to my bestfriend about 2 bullies that was mean and hitting me and making me very sad and the next day i come to school i see one of the bullies with a broken arm and the other one with a snappes shoulder i looked at my friend and he was just smiling akwardly at me :| Don't ask
I can't turn to my friends because all of my friends from primary school started to bully me and threatened me to bully my new friend, my pet dog and uncle died, my nan who only cares about her self started to stay for a year which is now 4 years, then I got problems at home it did involve my dad and it did affect me my sister and mum it made me really depressed I could not tell my mum about it because it is not something that you can normally talk to someone about but I never self harmed. All the things before the family problems happened in the same year.
I can't tell my parents. It's come up before (ages ago, before I got myself into this mess) and they just told me 'it's a normal part of teenage life. You get over it.' And it doesn't feel normal. It's not a normal part of life. Maybe it's normal to be a bit confused about your place in the world or whatever but what i feel isn't. I feel like I need to hurt myself to make myself feel okay, like I really exist, and sometimes to zone out of my mind... I am trying to stop but it's only been a day since I last did it and IT'S SO FUCKING HARD I CAN'T EVEN! I don't know what to do when i'm thinking too much any more. I've been to a therapist before and that makes me feel alone and as if I have no secrets... I don't know what to do with myself.
For me, music is the best thing that could have ever happened to me. Playing an instrument or even just listening to my favorite artists kept my mind off of bad thoughts, and soon I started to find joy... What I mean by this is: try to find a passion, something you like doing and enjoy it! life is a hard trip but it can only get better! Peace
luke this has got me streaming with tears right now. totally just having a massive stalk to cheer myself up and I came across this one. I've been 2 days clean of self harm.. I can relate to so much of what you were saying and it's just got me so emotional :(
just gone 2 months clear from self harm, still get the urge to do it but im getting slowly better. Still have the depresson, and still want to self harm but ive done it, so i believe any of you reading can do it :) im here to talk
Luke, I love you and you are my inspiration, I used to have very high anxiety levels, I had no one to turn to, it wasn't up to the levels of depression or self harming, thank god. Again, I love you very much. I was bullied because I was dyslexic, I struggle at school and I hated going, but this video and so many others, has showed that I am not stupid, that's bullshit, I see that now. I am getting ready for my GCSEs and im not worried. So once again, Luke, thank you and I love you very very much. xx
I needed to hear that someone else who others think is in a privileged position (fairly stable family, no abuse, roof over my head, food on the table, etc.) was depressed. I wish that more people would understand that depression isn't situational. You can wake up one day and decide to change it, but it doesn't happen overnight like everyone thinks. It's not a deliberate choice to be unhappy, because if I could've flipped a switch and made my depression go away, I would have. Drugs don't help either like everyone thinks. They made me more of a wreck than I already was.
Thank you so much for sharing this... its really amazing to me to see all these stories.. I am currently going through a really, really hard time in my life right now, and this video gave me a bit of hope where I have been feeling hopeless.. I hope one day I can open up to somebody and learn to be happy again. Thanks once again Luke, its really brave to upload this for the world to see;
+AskingShayna I'm in a horrible time right now, I've become anti-social, From the thought that I make people sad by just being near them. This is still my way of thinking, And I've steeled my conscience against people who ask me to change, I don't know what to do anymore, I want to Isolate myself no matter the cost, Id really like how it'd feel to be wanted.. I'd love that...
miahgeorge99 You are wanted, don't ever tell yourself you're not. I may not know you, but I know of you, and I care, and want to see you get better! It is really, really hard to open up believe me, but opening up is the first step in getting better;; if you want to get rid of these feelings, you are going to have to slowly open back up. I recently started counselling, and though it was the scariest thing i have ever done, it is also the best thing i have ever done; i really hope you know that you are loved, by your family, friends; even if it doesnt feel like people care, there is someone. there is always someone. I hope to hear that you someday find a way to open yourself up and feel better; remember that you are beautiful, and worth it, and that i love you
I've been dealing with sh for such a long time & it's been 2 years since I last cut & I just wanted to stop by and tell you all that you can do this. I promise you'll be okay.
My friend, she cut her wrist to shreds the other day, and I'm not so sure how to react, I mean, I took her somewhere private and told her I'd always be here for her, and that I wouldn't walk away from our friendship because of this, and I hugged her and we cried, but I still feel like I'm not doing everything I should be, like she seems happy, and I know she wouldn't like to be constantly asked, but I'm afraid if I don't ask she'll think I don't care. I'm not sure what I should do.
I had the same problem, make sure she knows she can tell you anything. The. Every day or something when your just randomly in a Convo, just say u ok? But don't act like all serious, jut act like its part of the Convo, and if you she's yh I'm fine and u don't believe her drag her aside and re ask x hope it help... Sorta
I have a friend who is going away for uni. She is suicidal like your friend. She cuts. Even overdose herself one time with pills. Now, she is back at therapy. Getting better as far as I can see. Not in one time have I told her to stop being sad. Like you did, I hugged her and cried when she told me. I wanted to protect her. Protect her away from any harm. From any monsters. Since she is going away now, I won't be there all the time to give her the speech so I have created a way to make her feel my presence. I have written few letters. One each for every emotion and feeling I know she will possibly feel. Like for example, if ever she feels sad, there is a letter for that. If she is ever feels alone, I have written something for that too. More importantly, I have a letter for her "empty and don't give a fuck days" as we call it. I have written few words and along with it is a coy of Emma's The Promise lyrics. Most importantly, talk to her often. Ask her mundane questions like 'you all right?'. It is dangerous to leave them on their own. Just maybe a bit of personal time with the two of you every now and then it will pay off. Been doing that lately and I hope I am helping her because losing her is like having your stars stop twinkling. Depressed people think that they are alone. Prove them that they are wrong.
You should probably just burst into tears if you saw her wrists tore up again and tell her you're crying because of how badly you want her to stop and how seeing her upset makes you upset, I did this with my ex when we were going out and now she is one of the most happy person I know.
Really brave of you to share your experiences, for some people depression will no simply go away, as for some people their depression is caused by a chemical imbalance and they will need to see their Doctor and will need medication, there is no reason to feel embarrassed about this, it's no different than someone who is diabetic and them needing insulin. For people with that type of depression, the medication really helps to make the depression life and bring back the motivation, and enjoyment back into your life.
5 months clean today from self harm and it's cause of my mum. If you think your parents or someone close to you could help you stop then please please ask them for help. It helps so much more than you think it will.
You're a good lad, Luke. Respect to you for sharing this, being depressed isn't a good place to be, glad you got out. And I'm sure plenty of people use you as a way of escaping their own depression, so that's admirable. Keep it up.
I know how you feel... I haven't talked to my father in 2 years, we live in the same house still but he doesn't really care about men neither does my mother. I self harm and I have since I was 8, I'm trying to stop for my girlfriend but it's really hard. I have tried to commit suicide 6 times in my life but all of them failed..... The 3 time I had to go to the emergency room to get my stomach pumped (I tried to o.d) it's one of the scariest things that has ever happened to me. For anyone that has had anything like this happen to them, stay strong and your beautiful.
You are a brave person, and you have my deepest sympathy and respect. Hang in there! Killing yourself will not stop it from getting worse, it'll only stop it from getting better ❤️
I know how you feel. If you want me to I can tell you a hotline for depression (and all of the lovely accessorys.) and tell you some tips to stop cutting. Btw if you don't believe that I know how you feel then check the comments above for my story, I would repeat it but I'm on my iPod and it was absurdly long so, yeah, sorry. Btw keep strong and carry on! I promise you if you want to get better and you are willing to try your hardest and believe in that small sliver of hope and not give up (or if you have get up again.) then you, my friend, will achieve your goal no matter how impossible it seems. Just remember you can't have impossible without it saying I'm possible! ^.^
I tried to tell my mom I was depressed and suicidal but she couldn't face the fact that I was and believes I was just over reacting. My mom is not me she can't say if I like something or if I am something. Only I can but she doesn't understand that. On another point I might as well tell you my story. I new I was suicidal and depressed since 3rd grade. Since I can remember I was bullied and beat up every day by my brother. And I'm some cases I would say to myself "if I wasn't here right now this would happen. I wish I was dead." That started in first grade. I also don't have much self confidence because my dad would yell at me and raise his voice at me and being young, I would run, hide, and cry. In 3rd grade at the end of the school year a girl called me out in front of the glass because our teacher was strict about school snacks. The girl said something like this, "emily has blah blah blah (i don't remember what I had) and you should take it away because it has sugar in it" and I cried, in front of everyone. Later that year I was bullied by a boy in my 3rd grade class who was also on my bus which meant I didn't go away so easily. In 5th grade there was a girl in my class that was just plain mean. One day during lunch (we had to sit with our class) I was trying to get my friend's attention so I called her name multiple times. The mean girl was a couple girls away and she went over to me and yelled, " you are the most retarded person I have ever met other than _____ (one of my friends) and you are so annoying... Blah blah blah..." And she went on with that. I started crying at that point and a lunch lady came over to me and asked me what was wrong. I didn't answer. During me crying at lunch the mean girl realized what she just did and went over to me and goes don't tell Mrs. Teacher (not saying names) about this. The crying carried on after lunch, during reading time, where the teacher would read a book to the class. My teacher also asked me what was wrong, I again said nothing. In 6th grade it got better and I had her in only 1 of my classes that lasted for a month and I never talked to her during the class. Here I am starting 7th grade in a week or so feeling better than ever. During 6th grade I gained confidence and got into a school play. I loved it and am going to do lots more because it makes me happy when I'm not always the happiest. Luke, if you read this, thank you because this video helped me. I've been smiling more and more every day.
seriously knowing this has happened to you makes me so sad. i can't even fathom you being sad, you are just so fucking important to me and so many other people and to think that you even for a second thought negatively of yourself breaks my heart. you are so bloody important and so many people love you so much xx
People think self harming is just making yourself bleed yet it comes in so many forms. I tried cutting my wrists once, it didn't give me any satisfaction. I've also burnt myself in the shower, that didn't satisfy me either. But food has, for the past 10 years I've found comfort in food. A year ago I was diagnosed with a few I guess you could say mental health problems: compulsive overeating disorder, low self esteem, anxiety, bi-polar and mild suicidal depression. I can't seem to let go of my past of bullying, sexual assault and mental abuse from ex boyfriends. It's haunting me and slowly killing me, if it wasn't for my baby nephew I wouldn't be here today. The day before I was going to kill myself my sister told me she was pregnant, I've never been so happy and I couldn't go through with it. I sort of regret it now, but knowing i would have died and this tiny little life would only have stories of me I couldn't. Till this day my parents and family don't know exactly what I've gone through, they know I suffer with depression, but not the rest, not why I am the way I am and I don't have the guts to tell them, I'm too ashamed. I'm okay with speaking about it, because I'm more confident people I don't know, don't know me will be more understanding and won't judge me. I'm sorry this is so long, I just needed to let my story be heard. Please don't be scared to message me if you have any issues or need someone to talk to. I'm happy to help anyone through this, no deserves to feel the way I feel. I love you for this video Luke, well done for getting through it xox
I literally couldn’t make it *one minute* without crying. Just hearing all the things you say and then realizing that I’m going through the same thing brings me to tears. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
My sister has depression, she's had it for 3 years, and I don't know what it's like but just from witnessing it, I was scared. My sister was self harming trying to kill herself and my parents divorced, not really helping and it hurt to see my sister in such despair. She is older than me by 6 years (18 now), and now she a little better. I remember when I first saw her self harm marks, I was at a family dinner and she couldn't cover up the scars because she had a new tattoo for her 18th birthday, and I saw her arm covered in thin lines... it was scary, but I looked away and got over it. She's getting better, I hope.
my sister is 3 years older then me and had very bad depression last year. she is 14 but this year she is alot better. our parents were fighting every night but fortunately didn't split up. i tried to help her but sometimes i made it worse. i understand how it feels all you want to do is help her and have a loving and normal sister.
I personally don't know what depression is like either but I have studied it quite extensively and I just want to let you know that I hope she's okay. Also, I hope you're doing okay, I know from experience that someone close to you having depression, self harming, or even being suicidal can be extremely scary and can cause you a lot of worry and stress. I'm quite a few years older than you and it's hard for me to cope with now, I can't imagine how you feel about your sister at such a young age. Just know that your sister loves you and I'm sure she appreciates any support you give her, even if it might not seem like it sometimes. Deep down your love for her is the best thing she could have. I hope you both can move past these hard times in your lives and be able to embrace more positive experiences in the future. Everyone deserves to be happy. :)
I kind of want to share my story here so please dont judge me. I lost my best friend at the beginning of the school year. Rather i broke up with him for family reasons, and he abandoned me for another girl. For all of this school year i've been bullied and i've lost a lot of friends because of how unhappy i was with my situation. New years is when my situation became dire. I began to have serious anxiety attacks every day, and my self harming escalated from a few cuts a week, to almost a hundred cuts on my body at a time. Around this time my sister began drifting away from me, and i felt completely alone in life. Towards the end of the school year i met a boy, who was infatuated with me. He made me happy, gave me a taste of what i use to feel. But i had promised one of my friends to not date till the end of school. Well she took going to the movies as friends with him as a date, and officially i lost the last remaining scraps of my close friends. Thats probably when i hit the worst stage i could reach. about two months after losing her i broke up with the boy, seeing as he had developed a new infatuation, and i basically attempted suicide. Towards this point i had a total of around 600 healing cuts on my thighs, stomach, and wrist. I forced myself to stop so that i could attend summer camp, and i've started back up again. I still have virtually no friends, but slowly, day by day, im growing a bit happier with who i am. Im not recovered yet, and im sure ill have more lows before im truely happy, but yeah. thats my story. and it felt really good to let that out.
Thank you. Thank you for the courage of speaking up and I'm glad that you feel better saying all of this. I hope that life gets better for you. Are you doing okay today? I wonder
A true friend is someone who supports you through everything you do, the one who disapproves of you hanging out with a lad is either a fake friend or just seems to think they can control you in some way.
I had a friend. Her name was Anna. She was bullied, and tumbled into depression. I was the only one who knew, but I regret not saying anything. She told me not to and I followed her wishes. She cut her wrists. She started doing it when she was 13 and carried on. She did it every now and then, which eventually turned to weekly, daily. She was bullied for a year, eventually... she suicided. The day Luke uploaded this it was the first anniversary of life without Anna. I wish I could've showed her this.
I have a friend, who is also called Anna, she's bullied and depressed, I'm definitely showing her this video, she also cuts once she did it so much her arm slit open... Rest In Peace to Anna ❤️
+olivia aguado tell them "mum dad let me say this" and then say what started it and if they say your looking for attention call some friend therapist anyone you are not alone.
''It's like taking an emotion that's in your head that you can't express, and expressing it on yourself.'' I screamed when I heard that sentence. That's exactly how I felt when I was doing those stupid things. I really want to say thank you and I love you to you not just because of the empathy but also I really really appreciate your bravery to share this. Just keep on and go get all the love you deserve!!!
Aaaa, this was so brave for you to post. So many people suffer in silence because mental health issues are so stigmatized, and the more people that come out and talk about their experience, the more people it will help. And you're right; talking about it is good and healthy, and hurting yourself is not, and you won't be depressed forever. Help is out there. And I know this from personal experience as well, and I'm a rambling nerd, and basically I'm just glad you shared.
im only 12 i know this sounds stupid but... I have depression ive selfharmed if you know what I mean it got really bad so my mum and dad said I might have to see a therapist :( I found you channel and ever since you made me laugh it made my self convidence go up ! :) hearing this your story shows me and many more that were not alone there are people out there that ARE there for you
I really do hope you go to see a therapist or get some kind of professional help if your depression has lead you to self harm. 'Talk Therapy' is shown to be one of the best treatments when dealing with depression (sometimes it isn't but that could be a biological thing and you may just have an imbalance of hormones in your brain, which is something you can't control or fix on your own) and if this treatment isn't enough for you they can steer you in the right direction for further, and perhaps more effective, therapy or even drug intervention. You're so young and have so much to experience in life still. I sincerely hope you get the help you so deserve and talk to someone (if you don't feel comfortable talking to your family try some sort of older and trusted role model or friend) as social support from those around you is so important to dealing with depression. Also, I know I'm just some random person but I do care and you do matter, so just think about how much more your friends and family care for you if some internet random has taken time to reach out and so their support! :)
Ik what you mean, by looking at most of these, most people parents or family or friends tried to help them, my mum just screamed, my dad hugged me saying it will get better and left it :( only my friends tried to help which resulted in them self harming, and I'm no longer aloud to be friends with them because of that reason :'( and it all started when I was 12 too (age 13 now)
CupCake Girl I really think you should talk to a trusted adult, perhaps a favourite teacher or other family member, if you're parent's aren't able to take the next step to help you. You're parents do care and love you it just seems like your mum is having trouble with the reality of the situation and you're dad is slightly weary of the actual gravity of what is happening. I know it can be difficult watching the way what you're going through affects your friends and there is no easy solution to that. This is a difficult topic and you too are so young with such a large future. I think you need to find a strong and more mature support system perhaps in some adults because your friends are likely the same age as you and don't have the emotional maturity or stability to help you with what's going on in your life. That doesn't mean to give up. There are 7 billion people on the planet! That's quite good odds for you to find at least one person who is able to love, support, and help you out! Even reaching out to people online like me as some form of support is better than none! xox
i talkked to my dog it helped alot cause he seemed like he listened alot but then my dog died ;-; but hey im clean now :) which is great but im scared now, i moved 5 hours away from home and scared to fall back into depression cause i got no friends starting a new school i dont know it could be great for me or not great idk we will see. but aye stay awesome luke :)
When luke says "get rid of anything thats making you sad" It works. I rid of it for one week and felt almost instant (no fucking joke) freeness and stress free. I'm now alone a lot and grades are higher and stress is lower! Love you all. Start strong
Well here's my problem, I can't tell my parents. I don't self harm anymore because I know it its stupid but I'm still not happy, the reason being my parents. And I'm not this teenager that hates her parents because they're annoying NO! My parents are emotionally and even sometimes physically abusive, but I still do love them, I don't want to call the cops on them. I wish I had friends so I could at least talk to someone that is not going to call the cops on my parents and cared about me, but all of my classmates are not...well they don't like me and I don't like them... I guess I'm just going to have to hold on for a few years and move out as soon as possible...
Listen. First thing to say is its not your fault. I know how hard you are going to find it but call someone like childline . they can help you through this. If they get worse you may have to call the police. I hope things improve for you 😊😊😊
Thank you both for the support :)... but unfortunately they won't listen they deny it to me and themselves and i don't want to call the cops on them, the last thing i need is more drama in my life, i just hope i can get some friends some time soon, i really need some real friend support...
I'm really sorry about that- I'm always here if you need someone to talk to! I'm not exactly the most popular person either so I know how it feels but you'll find amazing people, I promise you!
i love you so much Luke.. i'm 12 and i self harm and what scares me is i'm not even a teenager yet and i want to be dead. If it keeps getting worse and worse I dont know, how i'll make through teen years or if i even will..! please dont reply saying talk because a kid who knew (because a 'friend' told everyone in our year of over 280 kids that i selfharm and nobody really knows who i am so that's fine) but he's always telling me that if i dont buy him lunch or give him my money, he'll tell my year head.. so i always gave him miney and on January 9th (2015) i was sick and he just told the year head and that was a Thursday, I was sick on the Friday too and on the Monday I spoke to my year head and all this and he sent me to the counsellor and she was really nice but she's always so busy and i feel like i'm annoying her when i ask her if i can make an appointment.. sorry for ranting!!
I know people say this a lot but it's going to be okay in the end. You have so much to live for that you can't give up before you get to the good part in life. This is just a really rough time in your life. I am 14 and I'm going through a rough time too but somehow I have managed to keep myself occupied so I don't want to self harm because I don't want to hurt the few people that care about me. My friends believe I'm fine because I can put on a really persuasive fake smile but on the inside I feel like a worthless piece of shit. I see the counsellor once a week and I constantly feel like I'm annoying her and when I do talk to her I sit there awkwardly trying not to freak out. I'm bullied and it's horrible but trust me. It will get better, no matter how hard things are right now they will get better but for now just try and find one thin that you can do to keep your mind off self harm, try something like drawing or writing poetry or writing or listening to music but whatever you do don't give up just yet. I'm here if you ever need to talk to anyone
itskalihere Hi I'm 12 to and I can relate to you in some way. my dad just found out about my self harming in the start of March and since then I have been in and out the doctors office and have a time in the hospital to find out if i have a depression or not. I know that it feels like crap right now but I also know that it will get better and I'm here to talk to if you need someone of whom you could never be a bother to
Luke, this video is definitely one of the best I have watched on this topic. You are such an amazing person and such a big inspiration to me. I've been there and know what it feels like and I can't stress how important what you're talking about is. Your story shows that everthing gets better and everything finds a way. RUclips needs to leave this video alone because this has helped so many people, as you said in your most recent video and is still continuing to help people 2 years on. I am so glad you made this video and are continuing to, basically, save lives. Thank you, Luke Cutforth, for being an inspiration to me and many other people. You are amazing
One thing that I disagree with that people say is that you should love yourself. No. God no. If you love yourself, then before you know it, your life WILL tumble down. Am I saying that you should harm yourself or hate yourself either? No. Fuck no. Accept yourself. Know what makes you happy and do that.
I think you're getting confused between loving yourself and being conceited/narcissistic. You should love yourself, love who you are and be confident in your appearance and personality. Being conceited would be putting yourself before others and only worrying about yourself. Two completely different things.
that_pac12 Why are you guys shitting on this person? Good for them! I don't think there's any good reason to put someone down just for not being depressed.
I love you dude :')
Luke is sexy, I don't care what his username says.
I love you your the reason I wake up every morning I hate life and I have been trying to keep clean I have been thinking about killing myself but my friend would miss me so much same with me please never change love you
I love him too
I love you too! Oh you were talking to Luke? Well this is awkward...
Very very proud of you friend
Very very thank to you my friend
***** I just want you to know Luke, that you are a wonderful human being. Thank you for being you.
+Lukeisnotsexy
Dear Luke ,
I hope you read this we all love you . You are a wonderful human being and I don't want you to feel so down. You are amazing and I love you . You have helped me through some pretty rough times . I was horribly bullied at school and when I came home from school I would watch your videos because they were the only thing that could make me feel better . You literally brought me back from the brink of giving up and I love you for that. I would watch all your videos with Jason and patty and emma and they would make me smile. You are beautiful inside and out. I felt like you where the only person there for me . No one would listen and I love you luke. If you don't read this it's fine but I just wanted to know that you helped me sooo much and you are amazing ! Just hang in there Luke we all love you and never give up . You are beautiful.
Luke I love you and I can't thank you enough
You both helped me, the reason why the scars are SCARS not cuts are you guys, you gave me hope when I was lost, thank you. I love you x
Bry all people like luke
Saying someone can't be sad because other people have it worse is like saying they can't be happy because others have it better.
Exactly!
Holy Sh....! You might have triggered my guilt-stopper. Thank you!!!
Props for the bravery in posting this. I personally appreciate your disclaimer about self-harming: "if you don't do this, please don't ever start, and if you do, please try and stop"
Bless you!
Strong video Luke, glad you got through the crap to get to the happy Luke everyone knows and loves today.
Luke. I know you probably won't read this. But I just wanna say. We are all proud of you. And this vid saved my life. 24days ago I tried to OD. I told one person beforehand as I didn't want my little brothers too find my body so I needed her to tell my dad first. She said okay and walked away. Later on She sent me a link to this vid. Since then I have been watching this everyday. I still selfharm badly and I still think about suicide all the time. But it helps. It helps me get through the day. It helps me not feel so crap after my stepdad has punched me in the gut or someone at school has kicked me in the ribs or try put their hands up my top. I still get on with life and fake a smile until I'm on my own. But if I ever feel really bad again I just go through and watch all your vids. Like you are amazing. Thank you so much. For everything.
anna grom he never read it 😂
You go girl 😀😚
His eyes are so pretty. Idk of it was just me but I seen some pain in his eyes as he was telling his story. I'm glad everything worked out for you Luke. "Chin up"
When I self harmed the first 'person' I told was my dog, because I felt like she wouldn't judge me and I actually believe that pets can understand human emotions and can pick up when things aren't right. It helped me as I found it easier to tell my parents once I found out I could say it out loud. Things are ok now and one thing that helped me to over come it was your video for self harms and I have recommended it to other people because it really REALLY did help. Thank you, Luke. ;)
I had started self harming when I was 11, I had just moved to a new town quite far from where I grew up. I was made fun of for being light skinned, sounding weird and being fat and ugly. I stopped halfway through being being 14 but started again last year.. I still struggle and I am now struggling with anorexia, bulimia and binging. Stay strong everyone
I have blue hair and I'm to skinny and tall and I love you........ More than music
michael roy What xD
I know this is a bit late but big well done for the bravery of being so open on here about depression i have depression i was diagnosed with emotional persunalerty disorder i know what is like this video made me cry but i love it THANK YOU LUKE
Luke, Im sorry there are immature people who did not listen and decided to make a joke out of this. You are braver than so many people who are so scared to come out and share their stories. So thank you so much. :)
This video still helps me to this day. Thank you Luke.
I'm glad
My best friend suffers from depression, anxiety, and also self harms. She tells me that having me in her life has helped her so much, and she never wants me go. Every day I check her wrists for new cuts, and it's only recently that those cuts have turned to scars. I'm so proud of her, and I'm proud of you, Luke for sharing this story that literally brought me to tears.
That's an amazing story, thank you and good luck.
Today in school I was actually thinking of making one of these videos for bullying and then I came and watched this and cried. I am so proud of you Luke for uploading this!x
I feel bad watching this cuz I was immensely distracted by how soft ur hair looked
you should feel even worse for commenting that
hey sorry I still feel bad but he didn't want us to pity him anyways
Same, I was listening, just also staring at his hair, and also maybe..kinda..petting the screen-Don't judge me!
Hi Luke, I can't hide the fact that I'm silently crying on the other side of the screen. I have suffered from depression and self harm too and I got through it all by myself. I didn't have anyone help me and it was very hard, and I think it's very brave of you to talk about your own story like that and try to possibly help other people get through it too. I am very proud of you, and for everyone who still suffer from depression and or self harm, hang it there. It gets better. Luke and I and many other people are proofs that it does get better.
I couldn't help but cry at this because i know exactly how it feels, the lenghts you go to when you're not in a happy place can be so awful but i have to say that please god anyone who feels this way please tell someone, we're all so special in our own way and all deserve to be happy! Hats off to you Luke this was so brave and touching xxx
I haven't cut in 9months, hey the whole time I haven't cut someone's held a baby in their womb :)
Well done!:)
I wish you well.
Congrats! :)
That's great! :) well done- we're all so proud of you :)
Ans since you posted that, that little baby has been born
I can't stop. It's the only release from the pain in life.
Luke, I'm so sorry that you had to go through that bullying. I was bullied but I eventually started standing up for myself and the bullies kind of faded out of my life luckily. I just don't understand how people can sink so low. It makes me feel bad for humanity that people enjoy hurting others...
I self harmed with a blade from a pencil sharpener and today in a assembly I gave it to my friend and told him to put it in a bin and he looked at me blankly and said, well done
We'll done that's such a strong,brave thing to do stay strong😘
Good for you 😀
Well done!! I'm very proud of you. I wish I had that strength!!!! 💖
Well done x 😀
+Not The Best Vlogger well done my friend. well done. take it one step at a time. it gets better
"... I don't know how to be happy anymore." Hit the nail right on the head. That is word for word exactly how I feel at the moment. The end of the video (when you said it would be okay) made me smile though, which is something I never do anymore. Thank you for sharing your story with us :)
I really don't know what to say.You are just such a nice person and I hope you never feel that way again!
Luke, we are a few people here in Sweden that have discussed this subject alot. After discussing it some more and seeing your videos and others that you took part of, we have decided to try and start up a project of our own.
I belive that we together can get stronger making this video shows your strength. And it makes me proud that people like you take this step and show people the truth. You just grew so much in my view. Thank you once again.
You are very brave to admit all of this, and I have a lot of respect for you. It's never easy getting this kind of stuff off of your chest, but I'm glad you're not depressed anymore. :)
Ive had depression, my bestest friend has been bashed and everything majourly bullied with huge depression, never smiled.
Ive made him smile, im starting to get him to finally stop cutting all together and he laughs alot of the time now, he even says school is fun.
Best. Feeling. Ever.
I self harmed last year and i almost took my life when i was in grade 7 and also 2014. I was losing so many friends and they turned into fake friends talking behind my back and blackmailing me😔 but im all better now and im not depressed anymore because of youtube and alot of positive people❤️
I'm glad you got through it, it takes strength, I admire you :)
Georgina Davis thank you
katysprismaniac your welcome!
Your amazing and lovely don't let people get in the way of you life xxxxx
You are an inspiration I wish I was as strong as you
YOU MADE ME CRY, DAMN IT!
You've helped me through a lot Luke, the first time I stopped self harming was because of seeing one of your videos. To see that the start of your depression was pretty much the exact same as what happened to me (but you were 2 years older) really helps prove to me that I will be fine someday. The only difference is when you told your parents things got better. When my parents found out it felt like they were disappointed in me and everything got worse. I was still self harming but I was suicidal too. Heck, I still am. I want help but after what happened with my parents I don't know where to get help.
Thank you for helping me through some of the toughest times in my life, Luke, I owe you so much xx
very inspiring and close to my heart....i am a long term sufferer of depression and for the last year i have just shut out all my friends and family and stayed all alone in my flat playing computer games. i then discovered you and Emma blackery on RUclips and your videos made me laugh and feel somewhat normal for 10 minutes. think its about time i put the xbox pad down and started breaking down the walls i created almost 15 yrs ago (im 29) thank you luke your a top dude
"I want you to know it's going to be okay." I think that's the but that made me cry the most, thank you so much luke.
I'm sitting here with an infected looking cut in my arm and this video has really helped me feel a little better about myself. thanks luke x
Thank you. I seriously mean it thank you so much... Your videos have helped me so much through my depression and I'm still struggling to be happy and stop self harming. It's been 3 months the 1st day of May since I stopped cutting. I really mean it Luke thank you so so much. You don't know how much your videos make me smile laugh and help me through all the shit I am feeling. You're amazing my role model thank you... So so much.
luke, oh the relates, i do understand, i lost my friends coz of depression. i turned to harm and substances as well!! i had close mates that tried to help. (this is ages 9-16) im kept saying ill be dead by 16. im 7 months into 16 and my boyfriend is freaking amazing!! im so inspired by you and im so thankful you are still around. i dont feel sorry for you, i just understand harm, depression and the whole idea of being trapped. im so much better than i was 5 months ago, a new years goal was: "no substances that could potentially harm me" and ive stuck to that. im doing so well.. and anyone out there going through a rough time, i encourage you to speak up. Everyone is going to give you shit. ignore them, they aren't worth it. but as you said Luke, have someone there you can trust. its not easy to find, but they exist.
This is really inspiring! I know how hard it is to deal with depression and how hard it is to get it out of it, or ever see the light at the end of the tunnel, or to even speak about it. I'm so proud of you. You make people laugh on a daily basis and just even from this 7:45 video, you have showed people that it'll be okay and to get out of it.
I really hope some people take this advice in hope to get better and speak about their problems. I know it takes years, trust me...it took me four years to even come to terms with the fact that I had depression.
So proud of you Luke!:) keep doing what you're doing!x
How can some of you come and watch this, then comment something terrible? He literally put his heart and soul into this video, then you come and call him unmentionable names! If you watch his other videos and are fine with them, you best be fucking fine with this one.
this made my day, even though there isn't much of it left. whenever i get depressed for more than a few days it feels as if the world is crumbling, or that the air is dirty, or it's too hot, or too cold, ir to dry, or too humid. and i feel like no one gives a damn. but you made my day Luke, and that's why the internet is beautiful.
Im slightly speechless, I wasn't sure what to expect from this video but I am so thankful you shared this, Luke you'll do more good then you'll ever know you deserve all the happiness you have and the happiness that will come xX
Thank you Luke for sharing that. It's very hard to tell people your depression story, I've find it hard myself. I've been watching your videos for years and it has helped me through my time of need. You made me laugh and smile when all I wanted to do was cry but the tears didn't want to come out. And, thank you for sharing your story and thank you for helping me :)
When you said "it's going to be okay"... I believed it. This made me feel so much better. I've been clean of self harm for awhile now but I've wanted to start again; but this changed the way I think about it.
In tears right now.
Tonight was my suicide date and tbh I don't feel like I need to anymore,I've had severe depression for a year and been unhappy for afew more years,and recently started self harming worse than before. I've talked to my friends but they both turned on me and told everyone it was fake and that I didn't acctualy have depression or eating disorders and people think I'm a freak now but you turned out an amazing person and your inspiration so I want to be like you Luke :) x
I stopped self harming 2 weeks ago and I feel so great my friends cheer me up I'm 13 BTW I still get bullied by several people but I just now build up a barrier of all the bad things they say to me . fat gay idiot tramp ect and it goes straight through my head and I've never been happier in my life stay strong ;-)
I've not cut in about 3 years, and my life goal is to help as much as I can to put a stop to people cutting.
Hey Ryan, i would be up for talking. Would it be possible to talk in twitter? (mines @Phanillion
I unfortunately don't have a Twitter, I have Kik and BBM if you wanna add me on one of those?
I have been depressed {Not diagnosed} for the past year, but I have recently [About after New Years] met my soul mate. Not sexually, we have only cuddled and almost kissed [Go me!]... I have seen many videos like this, but like you, I have overcame the worst part. Thank you, and I hope all of us depressed people will overcome our shitty feeling emotions. Help and Hope are on the way.
Btw, My soul mate broke up with me... but it was only because WAY to many people told a lot of douche bags in our school [the reason we didn't want a lot of people to know is because she is Bi and I am Lez]. We are still best friends and cuddle buddies... She said that once we both are in high school that we will start back up again... WISH ME LUCK!!! I WISH ALL OF YOU LUCK THAT ARE IN A SIMILAR SITUATION!!!!
Almighty Spencer Awe, that's great c: I wish you luck gurl! Good for you, you go!
:P
Shed a few tears watching this..ik exactly how you felt..
Im really grateful for this video. I've fallen out with many close friends over the past few years and everyone just says its part of 'girls growing up'. Which it isn't. I've realised recently that even though I'm always smiling on the outside I never am on the inside. As soon as I get close to someone they always find something wrong with me and push me away and no matter what you say to yourself, you never get over it. You can never ignore them. Thank you so much for this video, it's helped me realise that this will all be over soon 😀
Luke, we all fucking love you no matter fucking what.
Talked to my bestfriend about 2 bullies that was mean and hitting me and making me very sad and the next day i come to school i see one of the bullies with a broken arm and the other one with a snappes shoulder i looked at my friend and he was just smiling akwardly at me :|
Don't ask
Snapped shoulder *
That's what friends are for! I'd do that if someone bullied my friends, actually, I have hit someone because they were bullying my friend...
I can't turn to my friends because all of my friends from primary school started to bully me and threatened me to bully my new friend, my pet dog and uncle died, my nan who only cares about her self started to stay for a year which is now 4 years, then I got problems at home it did involve my dad and it did affect me my sister and mum it made me really depressed I could not tell my mum about it because it is not something that you can normally talk to someone about but I never self harmed. All the things before the family problems happened in the same year.
DomDiddyDom
Poor you i really feel bad for you.
I wish i could help :/
Well, any of you can always talk to me if you want someone to talk to about anything. I've been told that I'm a good listener.
luke i honestly don't know what to say
i cried all the way through this video
you're a true inspiration, thankyou
I'm literally heartless but this made me cry.
I can't tell my parents. It's come up before (ages ago, before I got myself into this mess) and they just told me 'it's a normal part of teenage life. You get over it.' And it doesn't feel normal. It's not a normal part of life. Maybe it's normal to be a bit confused about your place in the world or whatever but what i feel isn't. I feel like I need to hurt myself to make myself feel okay, like I really exist, and sometimes to zone out of my mind... I am trying to stop but it's only been a day since I last did it and IT'S SO FUCKING HARD I CAN'T EVEN! I don't know what to do when i'm thinking too much any more. I've been to a therapist before and that makes me feel alone and as if I have no secrets... I don't know what to do with myself.
For me, music is the best thing that could have ever happened to me. Playing an instrument or even just listening to my favorite artists kept my mind off of bad thoughts, and soon I started to find joy... What I mean by this is: try to find a passion, something you like doing and enjoy it! life is a hard trip but it can only get better! Peace
luke this has got me streaming with tears right now. totally just having a massive stalk to cheer myself up and I came across this one. I've been 2 days clean of self harm.. I can relate to so much of what you were saying and it's just got me so emotional :(
just gone 2 months clear from self harm, still get the urge to do it but im getting slowly better. Still have the depresson, and still want to self harm but ive done it, so i believe any of you reading can do it :) im here to talk
Wow, congratulations! ;) you should be really proud
congrats!
Well done 💖❤️
+Romy Daryanani thanks :) i kinda a,
+It'sGabi's Turn thanks :)
Im crying
i saw your comment when i started to
Luke, I love you and you are my inspiration, I used to have very high anxiety levels, I had no one to turn to, it wasn't up to the levels of depression or self harming, thank god. Again, I love you very much. I was bullied because I was dyslexic, I struggle at school and I hated going, but this video and so many others, has showed that I am not stupid, that's bullshit, I see that now. I am getting ready for my GCSEs and im not worried. So once again, Luke, thank you and I love you very very much. xx
I feel okay when I hear you say "it's gonna be okay."
I needed to hear that someone else who others think is in a privileged position (fairly stable family, no abuse, roof over my head, food on the table, etc.) was depressed. I wish that more people would understand that depression isn't situational. You can wake up one day and decide to change it, but it doesn't happen overnight like everyone thinks. It's not a deliberate choice to be unhappy, because if I could've flipped a switch and made my depression go away, I would have.
Drugs don't help either like everyone thinks. They made me more of a wreck than I already was.
I cried at this, I know the feeling you went through luke and im proud of you
Thank you so much for sharing this... its really amazing to me to see all these stories.. I am currently going through a really, really hard time in my life right now, and this video gave me a bit of hope where I have been feeling hopeless.. I hope one day I can open up to somebody and learn to be happy again. Thanks once again Luke, its really brave to upload this for the world to see;
+AskingShayna
I'm in a horrible time right now,
I've become anti-social,
From the thought that I make people sad by just being near them.
This is still my way of thinking,
And I've steeled my conscience against people who ask me to change,
I don't know what to do anymore,
I want to Isolate myself no matter the cost,
Id really like how it'd feel to be wanted..
I'd love that...
miahgeorge99 You are wanted, don't ever tell yourself you're not. I may not know you, but I know of you, and I care, and want to see you get better! It is really, really hard to open up believe me, but opening up is the first step in getting better;; if you want to get rid of these feelings, you are going to have to slowly open back up. I recently started counselling, and though it was the scariest thing i have ever done, it is also the best thing i have ever done; i really hope you know that you are loved, by your family, friends; even if it doesnt feel like people care, there is someone. there is always someone. I hope to hear that you someday find a way to open yourself up and feel better; remember that you are beautiful, and worth it, and that i love you
I'm crying :'3 I think I need a hug
:'3
I am crying to its so sad ;3
Virtual hug
Sending virtual hug... :3
virtual hug =3
*internet hugs* to you, friend
you will never know how much this video helped me as well as many others when it first came out and I still watch it now
I've been dealing with sh for such a long time & it's been 2 years since I last cut & I just wanted to stop by and tell you all that you can do this. I promise you'll be okay.
+Sophie Marx thats brilliant i'm so proud of you
My friend, she cut her wrist to shreds the other day, and I'm not so sure how to react, I mean, I took her somewhere private and told her I'd always be here for her, and that I wouldn't walk away from our friendship because of this, and I hugged her and we cried, but I still feel like I'm not doing everything I should be, like she seems happy, and I know she wouldn't like to be constantly asked, but I'm afraid if I don't ask she'll think I don't care. I'm not sure what I should do.
I had the same problem, make sure she knows she can tell you anything. The. Every day or something when your just randomly in a Convo, just say u ok? But don't act like all serious, jut act like its part of the Convo, and if you she's yh I'm fine and u don't believe her drag her aside and re ask x hope it help... Sorta
I have a friend who is going away for uni. She is suicidal like your friend. She cuts. Even overdose herself one time with pills. Now, she is back at therapy. Getting better as far as I can see. Not in one time have I told her to stop being sad. Like you did, I hugged her and cried when she told me. I wanted to protect her. Protect her away from any harm. From any monsters. Since she is going away now, I won't be there all the time to give her the speech so I have created a way to make her feel my presence. I have written few letters. One each for every emotion and feeling I know she will possibly feel. Like for example, if ever she feels sad, there is a letter for that. If she is ever feels alone, I have written something for that too. More importantly, I have a letter for her "empty and don't give a fuck days" as we call it. I have written few words and along with it is a coy of Emma's The Promise lyrics. Most importantly, talk to her often. Ask her mundane questions like 'you all right?'. It is dangerous to leave them on their own. Just maybe a bit of personal time with the two of you every now and then it will pay off. Been doing that lately and I hope I am helping her because losing her is like having your stars stop twinkling. Depressed people think that they are alone. Prove them that they are wrong.
You should probably just burst into tears if you saw her wrists tore up again and tell her you're crying because of how badly you want her to stop and how seeing her upset makes you upset, I did this with my ex when we were going out and now she is one of the most happy person I know.
Really brave of you to share your experiences, for some people depression will no simply go away, as for some people their depression is caused by a chemical imbalance and they will need to see their Doctor and will need medication, there is no reason to feel embarrassed about this, it's no different than someone who is diabetic and them needing insulin. For people with that type of depression, the medication really helps to make the depression life and bring back the motivation, and enjoyment back into your life.
5 months clean today from self harm and it's cause of my mum. If you think your parents or someone close to you could help you stop then please please ask them for help. It helps so much more than you think it will.
somehow this made me cry. thank you!
You're a good lad, Luke. Respect to you for sharing this, being depressed isn't a good place to be, glad you got out. And I'm sure plenty of people use you as a way of escaping their own depression, so that's admirable. Keep it up.
you, patty walter, bry bry, dan and phil, Emma blackary help me
the only thing that stopped me from crying was lukes laptop background
Coming from someone who has been through depression, this just made me cry. It is incredibly brave that you shared this with everyone.
I know how you feel... I haven't talked to my father in 2 years, we live in the same house still but he doesn't really care about men neither does my mother. I self harm and I have since I was 8, I'm trying to stop for my girlfriend but it's really hard. I have tried to commit suicide 6 times in my life but all of them failed..... The 3 time I had to go to the emergency room to get my stomach pumped (I tried to o.d) it's one of the scariest things that has ever happened to me. For anyone that has had anything like this happen to them, stay strong and your beautiful.
You are a brave person, and you have my deepest sympathy and respect. Hang in there! Killing yourself will not stop it from getting worse, it'll only stop it from getting better ❤️
I know how you feel. If you want me to I can tell you a hotline for depression (and all of the lovely accessorys.) and tell you some tips to stop cutting. Btw if you don't believe that I know how you feel then check the comments above for my story, I would repeat it but I'm on my iPod and it was absurdly long so, yeah, sorry. Btw keep strong and carry on! I promise you if you want to get better and you are willing to try your hardest and believe in that small sliver of hope and not give up (or if you have get up again.) then you, my friend, will achieve your goal no matter how impossible it seems. Just remember you can't have impossible without it saying I'm possible! ^.^
Write a song, don't hurt yourself
I tried to tell my mom I was depressed and suicidal but she couldn't face the fact that I was and believes I was just over reacting. My mom is not me she can't say if I like something or if I am something. Only I can but she doesn't understand that.
On another point I might as well tell you my story. I new I was suicidal and depressed since 3rd grade. Since I can remember I was bullied and beat up every day by my brother. And I'm some cases I would say to myself "if I wasn't here right now this would happen. I wish I was dead." That started in first grade. I also don't have much self confidence because my dad would yell at me and raise his voice at me and being young, I would run, hide, and cry. In 3rd grade at the end of the school year a girl called me out in front of the glass because our teacher was strict about school snacks. The girl said something like this, "emily has blah blah blah (i don't remember what I had) and you should take it away because it has sugar in it" and I cried, in front of everyone. Later that year I was bullied by a boy in my 3rd grade class who was also on my bus which meant I didn't go away so easily. In 5th grade there was a girl in my class that was just plain mean. One day during lunch (we had to sit with our class) I was trying to get my friend's attention so I called her name multiple times. The mean girl was a couple girls away and she went over to me and yelled, " you are the most retarded person I have ever met other than _____ (one of my friends) and you are so annoying... Blah blah blah..." And she went on with that. I started crying at that point and a lunch lady came over to me and asked me what was wrong. I didn't answer. During me crying at lunch the mean girl realized what she just did and went over to me and goes don't tell Mrs. Teacher (not saying names) about this. The crying carried on after lunch, during reading time, where the teacher would read a book to the class. My teacher also asked me what was wrong, I again said nothing.
In 6th grade it got better and I had her in only 1 of my classes that lasted for a month and I never talked to her during the class.
Here I am starting 7th grade in a week or so feeling better than ever. During 6th grade I gained confidence and got into a school play. I loved it and am going to do lots more because it makes me happy when I'm not always the happiest.
Luke, if you read this, thank you because this video helped me. I've been smiling more and more every day.
seriously knowing this has happened to you makes me so sad. i can't even fathom you being sad, you are just so fucking important to me and so many other people and to think that you even for a second thought negatively of yourself breaks my heart. you are so bloody important and so many people love you so much xx
This is why everyone loves you :D
People think self harming is just making yourself bleed yet it comes in so many forms. I tried cutting my wrists once, it didn't give me any satisfaction. I've also burnt myself in the shower, that didn't satisfy me either. But food has, for the past 10 years I've found comfort in food. A year ago I was diagnosed with a few I guess you could say mental health problems: compulsive overeating disorder, low self esteem, anxiety, bi-polar and mild suicidal depression. I can't seem to let go of my past of bullying, sexual assault and mental abuse from ex boyfriends. It's haunting me and slowly killing me, if it wasn't for my baby nephew I wouldn't be here today. The day before I was going to kill myself my sister told me she was pregnant, I've never been so happy and I couldn't go through with it. I sort of regret it now, but knowing i would have died and this tiny little life would only have stories of me I couldn't. Till this day my parents and family don't know exactly what I've gone through, they know I suffer with depression, but not the rest, not why I am the way I am and I don't have the guts to tell them, I'm too ashamed. I'm okay with speaking about it, because I'm more confident people I don't know, don't know me will be more understanding and won't judge me. I'm sorry this is so long, I just needed to let my story be heard.
Please don't be scared to message me if you have any issues or need someone to talk to. I'm happy to help anyone through this, no deserves to feel the way I feel. I love you for this video Luke, well done for getting through it xox
I got to the end of the video... I was about to cry... But then I saw the wallpaper on your computer and I laughed. Thanks Luke!
im 12 and have self harming in 2 years.. now im 5 days clean and I'm so fucking proud of it! and btw i love you :)
I was getting really sad and then I looked at his laptop wallpaper.
I literally couldn’t make it *one minute* without crying. Just hearing all the things you say and then realizing that I’m going through the same thing brings me to tears. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
My sister has depression, she's had it for 3 years, and I don't know what it's like but just from witnessing it, I was scared. My sister was self harming trying to kill herself and my parents divorced, not really helping and it hurt to see my sister in such despair. She is older than me by 6 years (18 now), and now she a little better. I remember when I first saw her self harm marks, I was at a family dinner and she couldn't cover up the scars because she had a new tattoo for her 18th birthday, and I saw her arm covered in thin lines... it was scary, but I looked away and got over it. She's getting better, I hope.
my sister is 3 years older then me and had very bad depression last year. she is 14 but this year she is alot better. our parents were fighting every night but fortunately didn't split up. i tried to help her but sometimes i made it worse. i understand how it feels all you want to do is help her and have a loving and normal sister.
I personally don't know what depression is like either but I have studied it quite extensively and I just want to let you know that I hope she's okay. Also, I hope you're doing okay, I know from experience that someone close to you having depression, self harming, or even being suicidal can be extremely scary and can cause you a lot of worry and stress. I'm quite a few years older than you and it's hard for me to cope with now, I can't imagine how you feel about your sister at such a young age. Just know that your sister loves you and I'm sure she appreciates any support you give her, even if it might not seem like it sometimes. Deep down your love for her is the best thing she could have. I hope you both can move past these hard times in your lives and be able to embrace more positive experiences in the future. Everyone deserves to be happy. :)
I kind of want to share my story here so please dont judge me. I lost my best friend at the beginning of the school year. Rather i broke up with him for family reasons, and he abandoned me for another girl. For all of this school year i've been bullied and i've lost a lot of friends because of how unhappy i was with my situation. New years is when my situation became dire. I began to have serious anxiety attacks every day, and my self harming escalated from a few cuts a week, to almost a hundred cuts on my body at a time. Around this time my sister began drifting away from me, and i felt completely alone in life. Towards the end of the school year i met a boy, who was infatuated with me. He made me happy, gave me a taste of what i use to feel. But i had promised one of my friends to not date till the end of school. Well she took going to the movies as friends with him as a date, and officially i lost the last remaining scraps of my close friends. Thats probably when i hit the worst stage i could reach. about two months after losing her i broke up with the boy, seeing as he had developed a new infatuation, and i basically attempted suicide. Towards this point i had a total of around 600 healing cuts on my thighs, stomach, and wrist. I forced myself to stop so that i could attend summer camp, and i've started back up again. I still have virtually no friends, but slowly, day by day, im growing a bit happier with who i am. Im not recovered yet, and im sure ill have more lows before im truely happy, but yeah. thats my story. and it felt really good to let that out.
Thank you. Thank you for the courage of speaking up and I'm glad that you feel better saying all of this. I hope that life gets better for you. Are you doing okay today? I wonder
A true friend is someone who supports you through everything you do, the one who disapproves of you hanging out with a lad is either a fake friend or just seems to think they can control you in some way.
Luke, I just want to say thank you, you have helped me so much,you are one of the reasons I'm still alive, you're amazing. ❤️❤️
I had a friend. Her name was Anna. She was bullied, and tumbled into depression. I was the only one who knew, but I regret not saying anything. She told me not to and I followed her wishes.
She cut her wrists. She started doing it when she was 13 and carried on. She did it every now and then, which eventually turned to weekly, daily.
She was bullied for a year, eventually... she suicided. The day Luke uploaded this it was the first anniversary of life without Anna.
I wish I could've showed her this.
rest in peace...
Araylie Thank-You
I have a friend, who is also called Anna, she's bullied and depressed, I'm definitely showing her this video, she also cuts once she did it so much her arm slit open... Rest In Peace to Anna ❤️
Jaipreet Badachha Tell her to stop, please. Please. I'm telling you it will help you and her. Do everything you can to fix it.
+Scarlett Cloudberry Thanks, I'll try, she's slowly getting better. If she stops, you're the reason, because you're a good person.
Every Time i try to tell my parents that i selfharm and that i feel depressed they tell me im look for attention and that im perfectly happy
I'm so sorry:(
+olivia aguado you crazzzyyyyyyyyyyyyyy....
+kraftworm whats that supposed to mean
+olivia aguado tell them "mum dad let me say this" and then say what started it and if they say your looking for attention call some friend therapist anyone you are not alone.
I'm so sorry that's horrible :(
''It's like taking an emotion that's in your head that you can't express, and expressing it on yourself.''
I screamed when I heard that sentence. That's exactly how I felt when I was doing those stupid things. I really want to say thank you and I love you to you not just because of the empathy but also I really really appreciate your bravery to share this. Just keep on and go get all the love you deserve!!!
I started cutting... It doesn't hurt at all but then I saw scars on other people and now I'm terrified of knifes because I always attempted
Dan loves you:)
Brendon Urie's Forehead Can't Handle The PHANdom. Your username 😂
i don't have anyone to talk to.
i just get left behind
Isabel Telke thats what internet for to talk to random people that want t listen and talk :3
matthias engelen but perverts are out there.
yes thats tru if you see omegle XD but people like me? XD im no prev im ust weard
matthias engelen hank you?can i talk to you then?
Aaaa, this was so brave for you to post. So many people suffer in silence because mental health issues are so stigmatized, and the more people that come out and talk about their experience, the more people it will help. And you're right; talking about it is good and healthy, and hurting yourself is not, and you won't be depressed forever. Help is out there. And I know this from personal experience as well, and I'm a rambling nerd, and basically I'm just glad you shared.
im only 12 i know this sounds stupid but... I have depression ive selfharmed if you know what I mean it got really bad so my mum and dad said I might have to see a therapist :( I found you channel and ever since you made me laugh it made my self convidence go up ! :) hearing this your story shows me and many more that were not alone there are people out there that ARE there for you
i remember i never told my family they found out i screamed i really didn't want to talk about it :(
I really do hope you go to see a therapist or get some kind of professional help if your depression has lead you to self harm. 'Talk Therapy' is shown to be one of the best treatments when dealing with depression (sometimes it isn't but that could be a biological thing and you may just have an imbalance of hormones in your brain, which is something you can't control or fix on your own) and if this treatment isn't enough for you they can steer you in the right direction for further, and perhaps more effective, therapy or even drug intervention. You're so young and have so much to experience in life still. I sincerely hope you get the help you so deserve and talk to someone (if you don't feel comfortable talking to your family try some sort of older and trusted role model or friend) as social support from those around you is so important to dealing with depression. Also, I know I'm just some random person but I do care and you do matter, so just think about how much more your friends and family care for you if some internet random has taken time to reach out and so their support! :)
Ik what you mean, by looking at most of these, most people parents or family or friends tried to help them, my mum just screamed, my dad hugged me saying it will get better and left it :( only my friends tried to help which resulted in them self harming, and I'm no longer aloud to be friends with them because of that reason :'( and it all started when I was 12 too (age 13 now)
CupCake Girl I really think you should talk to a trusted adult, perhaps a favourite teacher or other family member, if you're parent's aren't able to take the next step to help you. You're parents do care and love you it just seems like your mum is having trouble with the reality of the situation and you're dad is slightly weary of the actual gravity of what is happening. I know it can be difficult watching the way what you're going through affects your friends and there is no easy solution to that. This is a difficult topic and you too are so young with such a large future. I think you need to find a strong and more mature support system perhaps in some adults because your friends are likely the same age as you and don't have the emotional maturity or stability to help you with what's going on in your life. That doesn't mean to give up. There are 7 billion people on the planet! That's quite good odds for you to find at least one person who is able to love, support, and help you out! Even reaching out to people online like me as some form of support is better than none! xox
Everything gets better with time, but you gotta give it the push to get the momentum going :)
i talkked to my dog it helped alot cause he seemed like he listened alot but then my dog died ;-; but hey im clean now :) which is great but im scared now, i moved 5 hours away from home and scared to fall back into depression cause i got no friends starting a new school i dont know it could be great for me or not great idk we will see. but aye stay awesome luke :)
I'll be ur friend?
When luke says "get rid of anything thats making you sad"
It works. I rid of it for one week and felt almost instant (no fucking joke) freeness and stress free. I'm now alone a lot and grades are higher and stress is lower!
Love you all. Start strong
I fucking love you so much
Well here's my problem, I can't tell my parents. I don't self harm anymore because I know it its stupid but I'm still not happy, the reason being my parents. And I'm not this teenager that hates her parents because they're annoying NO! My parents are emotionally and even sometimes physically abusive, but I still do love them, I don't want to call the cops on them. I wish I had friends so I could at least talk to someone that is not going to call the cops on my parents and cared about me, but all of my classmates are not...well they don't like me and I don't like them... I guess I'm just going to have to hold on for a few years and move out as soon as possible...
Listen. First thing to say is its not your fault. I know how hard you are going to find it but call someone like childline . they can help you through this. If they get worse you may have to call the police. I hope things improve for you
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Thank you both for the support :)... but unfortunately they won't listen they deny it to me and themselves and i don't want to call the cops on them, the last thing i need is more drama in my life, i just hope i can get some friends some time soon, i really need some real friend support...
maybe you can talk to your guidance ounsellor?
I'm really sorry about that- I'm always here if you need someone to talk to! I'm not exactly the most popular person either so I know how it feels but you'll find amazing people, I promise you!
Thanks :)
I literally cried at this. this was so relatable and I honestly feel like I'm going through exactly what you did. thank you Luke,I love you forever
over a year without cutting myself :DD i literally have nowhere else to say this lmao
so happy for you, hope you continue to find peace, there are so many good places on the internet you can share these things :)
Ollie Embourne thats AMAZING! Keep it up m8 :3
Ollie Embourne 6 months no cuts
Ollie Embourne well done xx
i love you so much Luke.. i'm 12 and i self harm and what scares me is i'm not even a teenager yet and i want to be dead. If it keeps getting worse and worse I dont know, how i'll make through teen years or if i even will..! please dont reply saying talk because a kid who knew (because a 'friend' told everyone in our year of over 280 kids that i selfharm and nobody really knows who i am so that's fine) but he's always telling me that if i dont buy him lunch or give him my money, he'll tell my year head.. so i always gave him miney and on January 9th (2015) i was sick and he just told the year head and that was a Thursday, I was sick on the Friday too and on the Monday I spoke to my year head and all this and he sent me to the counsellor and she was really nice but she's always so busy and i feel like i'm annoying her when i ask her if i can make an appointment.. sorry for ranting!!
I know people say this a lot but it's going to be okay in the end. You have so much to live for that you can't give up before you get to the good part in life. This is just a really rough time in your life. I am 14 and I'm going through a rough time too but somehow I have managed to keep myself occupied so I don't want to self harm because I don't want to hurt the few people that care about me. My friends believe I'm fine because I can put on a really persuasive fake smile but on the inside I feel like a worthless piece of shit. I see the counsellor once a week and I constantly feel like I'm annoying her and when I do talk to her I sit there awkwardly trying not to freak out. I'm bullied and it's horrible but trust me. It will get better, no matter how hard things are right now they will get better but for now just try and find one thin that you can do to keep your mind off self harm, try something like drawing or writing poetry or writing or listening to music but whatever you do don't give up just yet.
I'm here if you ever need to talk to anyone
itskalihere Hi I'm 12 to and I can relate to you in some way. my dad just found out about my self harming in the start of March and since then I have been in and out the doctors office and have a time in the hospital to find out if i have a depression or not. I know that it feels like crap right now but I also know that it will get better and I'm here to talk to if you need someone of whom you could never be a bother to
Luke, this video is definitely one of the best I have watched on this topic. You are such an amazing person and such a big inspiration to me. I've been there and know what it feels like and I can't stress how important what you're talking about is. Your story shows that everthing gets better and everything finds a way. RUclips needs to leave this video alone because this has helped so many people, as you said in your most recent video and is still continuing to help people 2 years on. I am so glad you made this video and are continuing to, basically, save lives. Thank you, Luke Cutforth, for being an inspiration to me and many other people. You are amazing
One thing that I disagree with that people say is that you should love yourself. No. God no. If you love yourself, then before you know it, your life WILL tumble down. Am I saying that you should harm yourself or hate yourself either? No. Fuck no. Accept yourself. Know what makes you happy and do that.
Well. I think everyone should love themselves for who they are. Not just doing things that make you happy
I think you're getting confused between loving yourself and being conceited/narcissistic. You should love yourself, love who you are and be confident in your appearance and personality. Being conceited would be putting yourself before others and only worrying about yourself. Two completely different things.
I know it sounds selfish but you should always care for yourself before anyone else...
I feel like I am the only one (14 yrs. old) who isn't depressed.
Naa your not alone I quite dam happy but I respect all
that_pac12 the word just tends to be thrown around to a point of disrespect (I'm not saying that luke's fibbing)
that_pac12 Oh wow that really helps
Please shut up
that_pac12 Why are you guys shitting on this person? Good for them! I don't think there's any good reason to put someone down just for not being depressed.
This made me cry. The way that someone so perfect and kind could feel like this.
Depression is a terrible thing.