This is extremely timely. This evening I felt God drawing me to spend time with Him so I spent some time in prayer and the Word of God. When I came across a scripture that referenced heaven I felt a fear come over me that I’m not going to heaven. This is the third time this has happened in a weeks time so it really scared me. I really do believe I’m a Christian and going to heaven but Satan was throwing fiery darts at me. I know I suffer with OCD but I don’t always recognize it as OCD, so when I saw this video on my feed it was definitely from God! Also, the way you pointed out that we need to have child-like faith was very helpful. I am so intellectual but I need to learn to live by child-like faith.
Been dealing with this theme for about 9 months now. Working on experiencing my thoughts but not interacting with them, and observing the fear but not fighting it. I start Prozac tomorrow, which will hopefully be an aid as I seek to change my thought patterns. Not to mention I try to be in consistent prayer, reminding myself of who God is. I am holding on to hope.
@@onward8231 I believe we suffer due to our fallen nature and that God in His mercy has given us medication to help heal our ailments while we are in this flesh. And obsessive compulsive disorder is no less an ailment than anything physical, and you would not deny a person with a physical illness medication.
I have listened to this twice because its something I struggle with. Growing up in a ministry and having personal issues - I’ve always gone back and forth with deep dive thinking that leaves me overwhelmed and I just go numb.
Mark, so thankful I found your page I’m hoping you can help me. I’ve been suffering from existential OCD for 8 months now. It’s been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I’m 28 I have 2 young kids and I’m trying so hard to recover. My existential thoughts were triggered from a tiktok on the simulation theory, I then had a panic attack started looking around at everything like what’s real? From there I started compulsively googling other theories and forums of people going through the same theme. Then I came across the solipsism theory and this has been by far the stickiest to get over. Even on better days I will constantly have thoughts like “what’s even real” or just how absurd existence is in general. It’s like Iv become hyperaware of it all. I’ve been raised a Christian since I was little and I’ve always believed in God, but I only just started actually reading the bible and learning the word of god as I’ve been going through this. But I’m still struggling so much and I get very hopeless. I just want to live life again without questioning every single thing including the existence of the people I love the most. Please help
"Please help!" seems to be the way we feel with OCD when it feels insurmountable. I have had this for 32 years now and I am so happy to see a young person dealing with this because from my perspective. Not because you are in distress but because you have more time to make adjustments in your life before it all becomes more challenging. There is wisdom in seeking out experts. I am not an expert on anything but in this area Mark really seems to be an expert. I have no advice but to keep listening. He hits the nail on the head so much it is hard not to recognize that OCD drives a truck through the door doubting opens. Rather than trying to get answers contra your fears maybe sit with the anxiety. I think there is something to be said about feeling discomfort and trying to avoid it too much. I wish you nothing but luck because you are young and you can develop skills to deal with doubt that will help you.
Gracias hermano. Acabo de ver todo el video. Me hizo llorar, y darme cuenta que en realidad lo que quiero solucionar es mi vida y no los problemas mentales.
Hey Mark, i would like to say thank you for your channel. I am from Poland, today i''ve found your channnel and you are just saying about me, and my life.
I could comment on every sentence you made here. I will just say this… Thank you Mark and Melissa for this ministry the two of you have deep dived into. 🙏🏼❤️. At the time you guys were starting on your journey, God had been speaking to me about very similar things. God even placed it on my heart to write a book about his love. I never did it though because of the one thing I never thought of… OCD. I just purchased your book and will be going through it line by line!
Ive definitely struggle to receive Gods love. Ive only obeyed him in the past because ive been scared that he will send me to hell. I have a hard time seeing him as a loving father. Its unfortunate but i dont know a loving God
Hey mark! Is this kind of OCD Similar or related to arguing about solving situational problems like when you are trying to figure out what God is speaking to you? Like when you keep arguing the “what ifs” in trying to land? I find myself falling into “what ifs” regarding is God really saying this or can i listen to these peoples advice? I hope this makes sense!
I have struggled with this since i was a child. I would stay up at night terrified i was going to hell repenting washing my hands intrusive awful thought s. Always reading and seeking. I struggle with addiction PTSD and ADHD. I was raped when i was a virgin and have a beautiful little girl but after she was born i fell into addiction and was in and out of psych hospital s. I went to Christian school s and alot of my college friends are in the ministry. I have felt mental torment on and off my whole life. I had an encounter with what i believe was God and i was radically set free. I tried really hard to he good since I was little and after my daughter was born fell into things and things happening that I never could have imagined. I obsess all the time. I'm weary. I watch videos about losing your salvation. I haven't felt like worshipping and have fears that this means i hate God or He hates me. Is any of this common? I feel like i do not know what it's like to have a normal day. I'm not sure what to do. Everyone says obedience brings peace but when i was obsessively good as a little girl i was still very tormented and after my daughter i have struggled many years. I am trying to get on track again and that alone is almost an obsession. I just want to he free. My own family has left me out and does of everything. Its debilitating esp the last five months. I pray constantly and I am just weary of it. Even reading or listening to sermons about it. I don't understand why my battles are so much harder and my life has gone so differently than all if my friends i grew up in church with. I pray and even ask God to plead help me love Him. When i was obsessively "obedient" still much torment. I have MANY blessings in my life. Sometimes when I hear about the Lord lately I feel like i cringe physically bc maybe im so exasperated from just trying to connect and be free. I confess my sins always and even to others. I would love some prayer s. I used to write about my faith and even was published in Christian magazine. Lots of trauma also.
My latest obsession. Universalism vs. Compatalism. vs. Annihilism. Ugggh...Im tired. Im compulsively watching RUclips videos supporting each viewpoint. Its going on well 6 to 12 hours of this. This is what this disorder does. It has made me hate religion and god in the past. The torment. The fear of hell. The fear of not having the right answer. Dont worry....something else will take its place in several weeks.
Hola hermano. Yo soy una joven cristiana. Recientemente encontré tu canal. Hace un año me diagnosticaron TOC justo antes de iniciar un ministerio de alabanza. Donde había pensamientos de "Dios no existe", "eres lesbiana", "eres una p*ta", "mejor acaba con tu vida". Estuve 1 año entero así, día y noche con pensamientos de todo tipo;sobre todo cuestionamientos sobre la existencia de Dios. Ahora, siento que fué algo que Dios permitió para fortalecer mi carácter. Los pensamientos que tenía ya los percibo como parte de mi TOC, a veces vuelven y ya los dejo pasar, pero ahora me queda la ansiedad (siento dolor de estómago y miedo, sudo de las manos pero sin los pensamientos) La verdad que he orado a Dios por sanidad mental, para poder servirle en libertad. ¿Me podrías dar alguna sugerencia? ¿Luego de dejar pasar los pensamientos y no tener rumiaciones es normal sentir ese miedo o pánico? (¿así es el proceso?) Gracias hermano. DIOS TE BENDIGA y muchas gracias por tu canal. No dejes de subir videos.
The problem with Bible based Christianity is that it DOES not answer all questions and actually creates more issues and problems. If your so called salvation from some so called hell is based on determining whether some Jesus man did this and people argue over it, then it's the problem. As an atheist, I find that this so called God is the author of confusion if it exists. That's this so called God's problem then. The teaching of some place called hell ALONE is problematic morally and otherwise.
Christianity itself leads to tons of uncertainties. Who exactly is saved. Who isnt. Literal vs figurative reading of bible verses. Why so many religions on Earth? Is my Jewish friend saved? If not, why. So so many things.
I have major problems with this channel. Major problems. You do know Muslims, atheists, Jews and others have OCD and it latches onto their OCD existential worries. If OCD leads me to atheism, then if God exists that is God's problem, not mine anymore. Not mine. Not mine. Faith itself can be the problem. I'm repeating again. Faith itself can be the problem.
Hey you’re right. It is God’s problem. Not yours. He doesn’t expect you to solve it, he wants you to give it to him. Faith isn’t relying on you but trusting in God. And he helps you trust him. There is a verse in mark 9:24. I believe help my unbelief. All you need is the faith the size of a mustard seed to move mountains and even in that Jesus help you have faith.
This is extremely timely. This evening I felt God drawing me to spend time with Him so I spent some time in prayer and the Word of God. When I came across a scripture that referenced heaven I felt a fear come over me that I’m not going to heaven. This is the third time this has happened in a weeks time so it really scared me. I really do believe I’m a Christian and going to heaven but Satan was throwing fiery darts at me. I know I suffer with OCD but I don’t always recognize it as OCD, so when I saw this video on my feed it was definitely from God! Also, the way you pointed out that we need to have child-like faith was very helpful. I am so intellectual but I need to learn to live by child-like faith.
Been dealing with this theme for about 9 months now. Working on experiencing my thoughts but not interacting with them, and observing the fear but not fighting it. I start Prozac tomorrow, which will hopefully be an aid as I seek to change my thought patterns. Not to mention I try to be in consistent prayer, reminding myself of who God is. I am holding on to hope.
Why take meds? God is all powerful
@@onward8231 I believe we suffer due to our fallen nature and that God in His mercy has given us medication to help heal our ailments while we are in this flesh. And obsessive compulsive disorder is no less an ailment than anything physical, and you would not deny a person with a physical illness medication.
Thank God for your ministry, it is one of the few things keeping me sane. God bless you and your family!🙏
God is all knowing we are not.
I have listened to this twice because its something I struggle with. Growing up in a ministry and having personal issues - I’ve always gone back and forth with deep dive thinking that leaves me overwhelmed and I just go numb.
Mark, so thankful I found your page I’m hoping you can help me. I’ve been suffering from existential OCD for 8 months now. It’s been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I’m 28 I have 2 young kids and I’m trying so hard to recover. My existential thoughts were triggered from a tiktok on the simulation theory, I then had a panic attack started looking around at everything like what’s real? From there I started compulsively googling other theories and forums of people going through the same theme. Then I came across the solipsism theory and this has been by far the stickiest to get over. Even on better days I will constantly have thoughts like “what’s even real” or just how absurd existence is in general. It’s like Iv become hyperaware of it all. I’ve been raised a Christian since I was little and I’ve always believed in God, but I only just started actually reading the bible and learning the word of god as I’ve been going through this. But I’m still struggling so much and I get very hopeless. I just want to live life again without questioning every single thing including the existence of the people I love the most. Please help
Yes, I’m in the same boat now. I’m currently thinking about therapy.
"Please help!" seems to be the way we feel with OCD when it feels insurmountable. I have had this for 32 years now and I am so happy to see a young person dealing with this because from my perspective. Not because you are in distress but because you have more time to make adjustments in your life before it all becomes more challenging. There is wisdom in seeking out experts. I am not an expert on anything but in this area Mark really seems to be an expert.
I have no advice but to keep listening. He hits the nail on the head so much it is hard not to recognize that OCD drives a truck through the door doubting opens.
Rather than trying to get answers contra your fears maybe sit with the anxiety. I think there is something to be said about feeling discomfort and trying to avoid it too much.
I wish you nothing but luck because you are young and you can develop skills to deal with doubt that will help you.
hey courtney, you literally just described me word for word except that i am 20. are you feeling better and do you have any advice?
Gracias hermano. Acabo de ver todo el video.
Me hizo llorar, y darme cuenta que en realidad lo que quiero solucionar es mi vida y no los problemas mentales.
I literally just was thinking to comment for you to talk about this thankyouu
Hey Mark, i would like to say thank you for your channel. I am from Poland, today i''ve found your channnel and you are just saying about me, and my life.
I could comment on every sentence you made here. I will just say this… Thank you Mark and Melissa for this ministry the two of you have deep dived into. 🙏🏼❤️. At the time you guys were starting on your journey, God had been speaking to me about very similar things. God even placed it on my heart to write a book about his love. I never did it though because of the one thing I never thought of… OCD. I just purchased your book and will be going through it line by line!
10:53 as someone who deep dive into stuff and often spin, it felt like it was meant for me
Really helpful thank you
Ive definitely struggle to receive Gods love. Ive only obeyed him in the past because ive been scared that he will send me to hell. I have a hard time seeing him as a loving father. Its unfortunate but i dont know a loving God
Hey mark! Is this kind of OCD Similar or related to arguing about solving situational problems like when you are trying to figure out what God is speaking to you? Like when you keep arguing the “what ifs” in trying to land? I find myself falling into “what ifs” regarding is God really saying this or can i listen to these peoples advice? I hope this makes sense!
So, yep this was a real big blessing. I have a tendency to think on the why questions.
It looks like u’re using an HDR-capable camera. Contrast and quality is amazing.
Wow, you described my past year 😅
Im going through alot of doubt right now and again and again. My anti-depressants arent helping my mental health either.
This was amazing.
Can you talk about healing from depression
Yes plz
I have struggled with this since i was a child. I would stay up at night terrified i was going to hell repenting washing my hands intrusive awful thought s. Always reading and seeking. I struggle with addiction PTSD and ADHD. I was raped when i was a virgin and have a beautiful little girl but after she was born i fell into addiction and was in and out of psych hospital s. I went to Christian school s and alot of my college friends are in the ministry. I have felt mental torment on and off my whole life. I had an encounter with what i believe was God and i was radically set free. I tried really hard to he good since I was little and after my daughter was born fell into things and things happening that I never could have imagined. I obsess all the time. I'm weary. I watch videos about losing your salvation. I haven't felt like worshipping and have fears that this means i hate God or He hates me. Is any of this common? I feel like i do not know what it's like to have a normal day. I'm not sure what to do. Everyone says obedience brings peace but when i was obsessively good as a little girl i was still very tormented and after my daughter i have struggled many years. I am trying to get on track again and that alone is almost an obsession. I just want to he free. My own family has left me out and does of everything. Its debilitating esp the last five months. I pray constantly and I am just weary of it. Even reading or listening to sermons about it. I don't understand why my battles are so much harder and my life has gone so differently than all if my friends i grew up in church with. I pray and even ask God to plead help me love Him. When i was obsessively "obedient" still much torment. I have MANY blessings in my life. Sometimes when I hear about the Lord lately I feel like i cringe physically bc maybe im so exasperated from just trying to connect and be free. I confess my sins always and even to others. I would love some prayer s. I used to write about my faith and even was published in Christian magazine. Lots of trauma also.
My latest obsession. Universalism vs. Compatalism. vs. Annihilism. Ugggh...Im tired. Im compulsively watching RUclips videos supporting each viewpoint. Its going on well 6 to 12 hours of this. This is what this disorder does. It has made me hate religion and god in the past. The torment. The fear of hell. The fear of not having the right answer. Dont worry....something else will take its place in several weeks.
My existential questions are very often "why"s about life.
maybe my OCD lead me to become an atheist, because it was easier than obsessing over the idea of a god.
Hola hermano. Yo soy una joven cristiana. Recientemente encontré tu canal. Hace un año me diagnosticaron TOC justo antes de iniciar un ministerio de alabanza.
Donde había pensamientos de "Dios no existe", "eres lesbiana", "eres una p*ta", "mejor acaba con tu vida".
Estuve 1 año entero así, día y noche con pensamientos de todo tipo;sobre todo cuestionamientos sobre la existencia de Dios.
Ahora, siento que fué algo que Dios permitió para fortalecer mi carácter.
Los pensamientos que tenía ya los percibo como parte de mi TOC, a veces vuelven y ya los dejo pasar, pero ahora me queda la ansiedad (siento dolor de estómago y miedo, sudo de las manos pero sin los pensamientos)
La verdad que he orado a Dios por sanidad mental, para poder servirle en libertad.
¿Me podrías dar alguna sugerencia?
¿Luego de dejar pasar los pensamientos y no tener rumiaciones es normal sentir ese miedo o pánico? (¿así es el proceso?)
Gracias hermano. DIOS TE BENDIGA y muchas gracias por tu canal. No dejes de subir videos.
Hola, me relaciono mucho con lo que dices, podría sugerirte algo pero no me deja subir un link aquí...
@@CalebGonzCordgracias hermano Caleb. Dios te bendiga
¿También te pasó lo mismo que a mi?
The problem with Bible based Christianity is that it DOES not answer all questions and actually creates more issues and problems. If your so called salvation from some so called hell is based on determining whether some Jesus man did this and people argue over it, then it's the problem. As an atheist, I find that this so called God is the author of confusion if it exists. That's this so called God's problem then. The teaching of some place called hell ALONE is problematic morally and otherwise.
Christianity itself leads to tons of uncertainties. Who exactly is saved. Who isnt. Literal vs figurative reading of bible verses. Why so many religions on Earth? Is my Jewish friend saved? If not, why. So so many things.
Going through both of those comments right now so hard which is comforting thank you for sharing that you were going through it too
I have major problems with this channel. Major problems. You do know Muslims, atheists, Jews and others have OCD and it latches onto their OCD existential worries. If OCD leads me to atheism, then if God exists that is God's problem, not mine anymore. Not mine. Not mine. Faith itself can be the problem. I'm repeating again. Faith itself can be the problem.
Hey you’re right. It is God’s problem. Not yours. He doesn’t expect you to solve it, he wants you to give it to him. Faith isn’t relying on you but trusting in God. And he helps you trust him. There is a verse in mark 9:24. I believe help my unbelief. All you need is the faith the size of a mustard seed to move mountains and even in that Jesus help you have faith.