So, I have cancer...
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- Опубликовано: 13 окт 2024
- it's been a hell of a year...
wanted to update you guys on my "disappearance" from social media the past year.
shout out to my #fam who supported me IRL and those of you lovely ones who supported from a far/online too!
Join the fam on my socials
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Hi guys! I am so so filled with warmth in my heart just from the comments and support you guys have given me either through RUclips or Instagram. I'm sorry if it takes a little long for me to reply but in the next couple of weeks, I will try to do so.
In the spirit of transparency, as mentioned I will be posting a video showcasing my chemo journey (give me a bit of time to edit - i still got full time job lol!)
On that note, there have been a couple of people asking me questions regarding the details of treatments, steps, prevention and what not. Do write them down below so I can consolidate them and either answer them myself from personal experience or if i can't, get someone more qualified to help me.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you for everything and i wish you guys all the best of health.
Hey, I just stumbled across your video & just wanted you to know that you will always be complete & perfect to the woman who chooses to spend the rest of her life with you.
Best wishes & good luck on your journey.
Take care .declaring healing over all part of your body bro
@JamesRainier
Just want to say you are such an incredibly nice and strong person; I pray that God can bless and guide you through this journey
It's very sad that cancers are affecting so many people. But why do you feel that you have to broadcast it? It is NOT an insult I'm trying to bring across. It is an actual question. Why do people feel this need?
My brother had testicular cancer in 1978 at the age of 23. He had surgery followed by cobalt treatments. He lives in California I live in Kansas. I will see him next week. He's 67 doing great 😊
Rip bros balls
@@S3rvantMaxits not funny he could die
Usually for such types, the earlier the removal the better the prognosis, whether one feel's like a man or not is not that important when it concerns life expectancy.
Stay strong, u can still be a dad. Just not biological father but you can show love to any kid you choose to foster. Father by Choice and not Blood.
I have a friend who was diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer earlier this year. He doesn't smoke, drink or have any vices. But he didn't give up on life, he's still alive and undergoing treatment. It's not over, stay positive and you can overcome this. Wishing you all the best.
Did ur friend take the covid vaccine, I know many people who got cancer after post jab. Pretty scary
Because 2nd hand and 3rd hand smoke!!!!
Not the first time time got such report but people still dont care and instead chid people who got a problem with selfish smokers.
i have a colleague diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. Like many he didn’t bother to go for a check up after not feeling well. A year or 2 passed, he fainted. Sent to hospital. Doctor told him it’s stage 4 cancer. Less than 3 months less he passed away
Vaccinated?
@@vihtahousu_404 Yes, radiation causes cancer. Realised this when I was given radiation therapy to treat my cancer. Ironic but I was told the amount I was administered during my treatment was akin to/ less than the radiation an average person gets from flying in a year blah blah blah, I had “no choice” but to go ahead with the treatment to “rid” my body of the cancer I had (& in the process damaging other things in my body => side effects). Anyway, my point is yes, radiation is a medically acknowledged cause of cancer. But if it’s because someone is staying in a place where the soil has a dangerous level of radiation, won’t everyone (or at least most people) living there get cancer too? I was also told that only places like Chernobyl that radiation in the soil/ air is of concern, SG is safe. Or if you fly extensively then you’re predisposed to getting some kind of cancer. Then I started to wonder if the EM waves from all our electronics like laptops, mobiles, TVs in our rooms & the over usage of them (I use my mobile A LOT & have all 3 in my room) indeed causes cancer like some rumours claim. 🤷🏻♀️ All my specialists told me they didn’t know what caused my cancer (since it wasn’t hereditary & there’s no way to pinpoint a cause otherwise) & based on my research it’s most like due to inflammation of the body that’s a result of a combination of bad eating & sleeping habits & stress. I think this could be the reason for most people getting cancer but why a specific area of the body like the lungs getting attacked puzzles me.
RAINIER 😢😢😢 I don't know what to say but sending love and support to you. Thank you for reminding us about so many important things and being SO brave to share this with us. You are forever our zaddy.
we always forget the small things but never again! ❤
That speach is inspiring
Please read my message, we love you soo much ! Please see Guy TENENBAUM's case about cancer :
Protocol I would apply in the event of cancer:
- a low-carb diet outside the fasting period (total elimination of carbohydrates/sugars) and eating OMAD (One Meal A Day) crucifers, garlic, onions, avocados, walnuts/almonds, olive oil and oily fish to avoid losing too much weight (avoid meat and cheese)
- taking specific food supplements (available over the counter to the general public) that Guy TENENBAUM has called TCC (The Cancer Cure) which correspond to his 5 essentials, with the dosage he took:
* High-dose melatonin 30 mgr before going to bed (Phycocyanine or Lithotamne, but the most powerful would be melatonin): inhibition of SCOT (I also supplement during the day with pure phycocyanine and lithotamne to increase the volume of SCOT inhibitors in addition to melatonin).
* Allicin (either as a 2400 mg quality concentrated pill, or with crushed raw garlic): upstream or downstream inhibition of SCOT.
* Matcha green tea (with turmeric and ginger): upstream or downstream inhibition of SCOT.
* Metabolic treatment (metabloc): Alpha Lipoic Acid (or Sodium R Lipoate, 600mg 3 times a day, 1800mg in total) + Garcinia Cambodgia (Hydroxycitric Acid, 600mg 3 times a day, 1800mg in total) + CoQ10 (the transporter, 100mg morning noon evening).
* Omega 3 in a DHA - EPA ratio (500mg DHA/200mg EPA): to combat keto paradox during ketogenic diet phases or the fasting phase.
* Bromelain (850mg to 5000 GDU) and Quercetin (500mg) for nodules
* Berberine and Curcumin to block several additional metabolic pathways
- Alkalinise the body with a combination of bicarbonate of soda and cider vinegar (see Guy TENENBAUM's videos showing how to make this mixture).
- if the body allows it: long fasting (14 days) then the following month followed by short fasting (7 days) and intermittent fasting + taking nutrients and minerals to avoid deficiencies in the young phase (vitamin D3, Magnesium Bisglycinate and multivatimes)
Rai rai you can do this! We are here to support you morally!
Thanks for sharing, Rainer. What a big couple of weeks - Hank Green, Grace Helbig, and now you. Cancer really doesn't discriminate. I'm glad you're mostly finished with your journey, and I'm glad you opened up to let people be with you through it all. Take care!!!
Hi Rainier, thank you for being so brave and sharing your story. Sending love and support to you and your loved ones 🫶🏻
hey! I’ve only met you a couple of times but I had no idea what you were going through cause you always were always smiling but I just wanted to say you’re so strong and brave for sharing all of this and going through what you’ve gone through. cancer really is very scary but you’ve done so well & losing that part of you really does not make you any less than. I hope remission and everything goes well for you, and I’m rooting for you! Sending you lots of love & support! ❤
Hey Rainer, it is definitely a tough journey. Be positive and keep your vibes upbeat! At 31 years old then, I was diagnosed with endometrial cancer, same I lost the opportunity to become a mother too. The same year, I lost my Dad too. Biggest loser for that year 2015! However, God will never give you a trial too strong for you to bear. You will gain a new life from this! Stay strong and carry on to do things you love! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻
HAHAHAHA
what is so funny????@@jarenong
Left 1 still can become dad one! If not can adopt!! You’re a very strong person, continue staying strong💪🏻 sending you love and blessing❤️
You are so brave. You are so right to say there are not many videos about sickness. Respect to you for being so transparent and authentic. Stay strong!
Hello Rainier, somehow, the universe led me to your video as I have not seen your videos before.
I'm sorry that you have to go through this.. I know I will not be able to fully understand your pain, but I just want to share that my husband was diagnosed with salivary gland cancer at the age of 35 in 2019. He was on a roll in his career, too.That was also the year when my son was 2 years old. It was a one hell of a ride for us as there were so many uncertainties in our lives but we pushed through together as a whole family. I'm glad you told your loved ones about it as they are your source of strength and courage. You made me tear at the part when you released the news to your mom. I'm really glad that u told her ❤
Sending you light & love and nothing else but happiness.
NOBODY can ever fully understand the struggles and pain that comes with Cancer unless they have been through it so thank you for documenting your experience and journey. I cant imagine how hard it must be to even make this video. Don't worry about anything else, it doesn't matter, only YOU being alive does. Have a speedy recovery!
YOU ARE A MAN. YOU ARE A MAN FOR MAKING THIS VIDEO, for going to get your shit checked out, for being brave enough to go public with this information, for being strong enough to go through the diagnosis and operation alone. you did what MANY OF US would never be able to do bro, best of luck and hope you get back to being in the pink of health.
Cancer is like an unwanted lottery win. Even people who live healthy can get them.
Best wishes to you bro, medical these days are so advanced.
I have multiple complicated health issues and have been wanting to make videos like this. But my body dysmorphia makes it very hard for me to see myself on the screen. So good job to you for overcoming that and sharing your vulnerability to the world!
Hey Rainer! ❤ You're really amazing. Thank you for sharing your journey so vulnerably. This was so raw and my heart ached with you. Please continue to be amongst your support system! I am praying alongside you and the many others who shared their stories in the comments section. Continue to do the things you enjoy too :> In times where you feel afraid, uncertain and more, may you continue to hold on to hope 🔥 You have been so brave (even in the ups and downs)! God bless you :) Take good care 🙆🏻♀️
hey Rainier, knew you from your tsl days and i'm so sorry to hear this. kudos to you for keeping a strong and cheery front despite the diagnosis 💪🏻 thanks for being vulnerable to share much wisdom from your experience so that others can avoid going through the same thing. as someone interested in preventive healthcare, this is a gem of a video! and as a christian, wanted to remind you that God has never forsaken you so you're not alone. your desire to be a dad one day is precious, and it really reminded me of our heavenly Father's love for you, all because you're His child. Keep trusting in God, the only One who has overcome death. though i don't know you personally, i'll be keeping you and your family in prayer!
Personally I’ve just met and known many people in their 20s who suffer from cancer and unfortunately it’s very true that people don’t like talking about it or avoid the conversation because they think they’re still young. I sincerely hope you feel better because I love watching your content. It’s not an easy process having to struggle with body image and cancer at the same time and I hope you push on!! Hang in there🤗🤗🤗
Health is wealth guys. Career, school, having fun is important, but you can't do any of these things if you are unwell. Keep a healthy lifestyle, and visit the doctor immediately when you think something is wrong.
All the best and stay strong @JamesRainier, and to all my fellow Singaporeans.
I just had my first hospital experience recently. I had really bad cramps in my adominal area, and I was sent to A&E in the middle of the night. It's not cancer but it made me realise that I'm not immune to illnesses and I need to be careful with what I eat outside. I cannot be complacent with what happens in my life, I need to start taking care of my body.
Rainer, whatever you went through, I hope you are doing well and have a safe recovery ahead!
Hi rainier, actually I don't know who you are but somehow RUclips led me to this video. I just want to say that you should not feel emasculated as your masculinity is not defined by your nuts but who you are as a person. As for fatherhood, you can always consider alternatives, like adoption which gives you the opportunity to change someone's life. Listening to you talk about not wanting to trouble your parents is very relatable and I applaud you for your courage and honesty. Now that you've overcome so much, I hope that you seize the opportunities that I'm sure will come your way.
It takes a lot courage to come out and talk about it, much respect to you man. You have taken it so positively, you know damn well you are gonna walk out victorious from this battle. F**k the “C”
I’m so sorry, Rai. I could semi-relate to you (being diagnosed w not 1 but 2 chronic illnesses🤡🤡) @ a tender age of 24yo😭💔- the tough gulp we need to swallow to accept & embrace the reality of our diagnosis, the obstacles that may come (financial / emotional / etc burden). But please don’t ever feel you’re not whole - you’re always enough & precious the way you are. You are strong, and you can do this!!! Sending lots of love & the BIGGEST VIRTUAL HUG❤️❤️❤️
sending prayers to you too to recover ❤️🙏
Hi Rainier, I appreciate you being courageous to share about your health. I pray that God will be with you every day through this incredibly tough journey as I had a grandaunt who went through cancer as well. Not to worry, your viewers and fans are here to support you emotiionally and morally as well!
Sending you lots of love and hugs Rainier! It’s never easy but you’ve come so far. Its very brave of you to share your story. I was diagnosed with advanced stage ovarian cancer in my late 20’s. I cannot have my own kids but I share my love with my school kids. Medical technology is very advanced now. It’s been 5 years and condition is in remission. I didn’t have much symptoms then and was in total disbelief too. I’ve a long scar because of the surgery but it’s a scar of victory! 💪 Jiayou together and you’re not alone ❤ I love watching your videos and thank you for always spreading positive vibes!
You're a very good-looking guy, but more importantly, you are such a brave man! Light, love & kindness to you.❤
Rainer, I have been following TSL and many other channels, and u have been one of my favourites. Today I feel compelled to leave a comment.
Your courage to speak out on this is commendable. I personally had seen a friend of mine who didn’t dealt with it as well as u did. Cancer is one hell of a journey, but also one that many of us will go through at some point in life.
I dont think we can help much other than supporting you in views, words of encouragement, and financial aid by getting your merchandises. (Something for the season here in VN will be good haha). Have subscribed to follow your journey and wish you the best!
All the best Rainier, trust me, you will get through it. I'm slightly older than you, and also had T-cancer back in 2018 and did a left-orchiectomy then. Its going to be 5 years (i.e. complete remission) next month for me. It will be for you too. Take care.
Hello! I've somewhat been diagnosed with a genetic condition at 10 years old, went through close to 10 operations, both minor and major ones, had both ovaries removed over 3 major surgeries, and im 30 now. There is never a good time to receive such news, be it at our age or when we were younger but now we are more knowledgable and have a lot more data to look through and decide how to tweak our lifestyle to benefit us in a better and healthier way. Hopefully you can find peace within yourself soon and may everything work out the best way it can for you ❤
Hi rainer! just saw this video and your chemotherapy… you are a really strong and amazing person for going through all this! not just the physical illness and pain but this emotional and mental obstacle! all the best and take care❤
I was diagnosed with testicular back in May 2022. Had to go through 2 surgeries and 3x BEP chemo. Definitely understand that it wasn't easy. I personally have not gotten over it mentally to the point it has affected my relationship. Everyday is still a struggle to get out of bed. Wish you the best in recovery and I salute you for being strong.
Even since my late dad was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer in dec 2017..my whole life change and i was introduced to the world of cancer...i keep worried that i have cancer or colon after my dad pass away..i do blood test where i was so afraid of needles. But needles is way better than cancer. I figured. But it took me 4 years to do the colonscope and this year jan..my stone had finally lift from my heart. My colonscope n results went well. Before tat my life a bit roller coaster as i paranoid. I understand your intention as i also want to raise awareness to colleagues about cancer so tat they can prevent it or urge their family to go health check out. Full Health checkout or for cancer is really important.
There are quite a number of ppl i know that have cancer, and they are still alive and in remission. Drugs and technology these days have improved so much compared to past. My sister-in-law had terminal cancer(breast) that spread to her bones&lungs five years ago and she's still with us. The treatment gave her an early menopause. So recently she tied the knot. Her partner didnt mind if she can/cant have kids. He didn't care also if she had boobs or not. He was just thankful she's alive . Sex is not everything when it comes to having a relationship
My point here is please dont think having a cancer is the end of the world. Because its not. There is still hope. As long as you're alive there's still hope.
Since the cancer has spread , it must be stage 4 already . How did she manage to survive till now ? Did she take any special supplements/medications/treatments ? Sorry for being so forward but I really want to know as I have stage 4 cancer that is non-operable and chemotherapy is not viable , only radiation is offered . Thank you 🙏
@bakkwa8705 Hi, I actually already replied, but I noticed it wasn't posted. Sorry. I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through. No, she did not eat anything special and no special treatment. It's not like we can afford to send her overseas for treatment. We just 'harap' the govt 🇧🇳. But during the treatment when she still had cancer she ate more than her usual amount. She even woke up to eat at night. My dietitian/nutritionist friend told us that ppl with cancer dont just die from cancer, quite often it is also from malnutrition. During the treatment her body feels extremely heaty so she had cooling stuff that our relatives and friends give like bird nest in jar or Manuka honey. She also had chicken broth every day.
Truthfully...we didn't think she could make it. But i strongly believe her mindset is what push her through it. She had never once complain about her treatment and pain, and she didn't think she was gonna die. All she thinks is she's sick and so needs to go to the hospital to get treated. She only told us when the doctor insisted on seeing the next of kin. She hid from us all when she was hospitalized or undergoing treatment.
@@shirleycool166Wow , she’s really strong 👍 Yes , during treatment I couldn’t eat well because of pain and I lost 5kg . Now I am eating like a pig and gaining back the weight . I think it’s her strong mental outlook and the support of her loved ones that help her through it . Thank you for sharing and may she continue to do well .
@bakkwa8705 Back then we didn't think she could make it because from 40ish Kg she drop until 30 something. It was quite scary to see a healthy mid 30s woman suddenly just become sick and look like a skeleton.
I will keep you in my prayers. Get well soon my friend. You are stronger than you think .
@@shirleycool166Thank you my friend for your kind message . Luckily or not , I am very fat 73kg with 49% body fat , so I don’t mind losing weight 😂
Thank you for sharing Rainier!! And praying for your speedy and full recovery ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻
Hi Rainer, I have been watching your videos since TSL and I really love your happy-go-lucky personality. I'm glad that you're alot better now, even to the extent of setting up your own company!! Congrats!!! I just wanted to say I feel you, I just went through a brain tumour surgery myself and now recuperating so I can understand how you feel to a certain extent. Thank you for sharing this video and for being so vulnerable on your feelings.
I will continue to root for you and your health to be better! Don't give up on yourself and your dreams!
Thank you so much for your kind words and right back at you! Don't give up and hope you are recovering well. If you want to talk - DM me on instagram :)
I just watched a RUclipsr I love Sam and colby talking about testicular cancer, and now I just saw this video.. as someone who has lumps in my chest, this has been hitting for me so I'm sorry to hear this but the fact you are talking about it really helps
Everyone is incomplete in their own way/looks. You are definitely more man than those who does not show respect/hit woman. I would like to applause your bravery to showing your craft and journey in RUclips. Hang in there bro~ you are not alone!
You're amazing for opening up and yes. We dont talk enough about being sick, much less something as heavy as cancer when I was diagnosed in 2016, it felt so alone. I've since experienced the impact on others when we gather the courage to be open about it. Keep going, warrior!
Hi Rainer, sending you my prayers brother... i wish you a speedy full recovery. Big love brother❤
Huggssssss ❤
And, never ever apologize to the public about what u want to do with your hairsss! None of their business!
After going through what you have gone through, you are more man than many
I think the most informational video are videos that are not asked for. I appreciate you being open and it helps boys that just don’t know or understand. Having a son this will be something I teach him. Thank u
You are a complete soul, and strong.❤ you are so courageous and I am really sorry you have to go through that. Never give, you are not alone.
Hey Justin, I almost never comment but I've been watching you since your early TSL days and one thing I've always appreciated is how vulnerable you've often allowed yourself to be on camera. And that lends a level of authenticity not many content creators have. Just know you are so loved and supported even by the people you don't necessarily see face to face all the time. As an old millennial, I can say that I'm thankful that with age my opinions about masculinity have transcended physical attributes wrt what it means to be a guy and gotten a lot more comfortable in my own skin despite my insecurities. Know that you are one heck of a man to be posting about this (you have more balls than many men ever will). The road ahead will not be easy - give yourself all the time you need to process the emotions and i can't assume to speak for your experience but hope you'll be able to find the little silver linings to keep going every day (glad you got this sorted out through early detection) and know you've eventually got this, champ!
Stay strong bro!!! Thanks for speaking out and spreading awareness to the boys and the mass public ! ❤❤❤💪🏻👏🏻
Thoughts and prayer to you
😢 u are so brave to share with everyone 💪🏻 stay strong, not easy but u can do it 🔥💪🏻 jiayou!!
thank you for being so transparent about your story ♥️ YOU ARE STILL YOU, STAY STRONG 💪
This is just utterly heartbreaking 😢 Pls stay strong and troop on Rainier! You will triumph over this!
Same - I've had health scares and I've also thought to myself, if it turns out to be cancer, should I not tell my parents? But how would I handle it alone? I'm rubbish at dealing with stuff by myself. The trying to be strong, making light of things, coping mechanisms etc - very relatable. The part about your mom got me emotional too. I understand you're still dealing with the aftermath of everything, and it isn't easy. I hope you have good people around you to support you. Take care. All the best!
stay strong bro! i was diagnosed w stage 2 cancer a year ago (now in remission) and it sucks ngl, especially with covid where u gotta take more precautions (I felt really lonely sometimes). i don't know exactly how your experience is, but know that it's not a hopeless situation and there is so much you can still do and look forward to!!
:( this is so tough. Im sending lots of hugs over.
Take care, Rainer. My thoughts and prayers are with you. ❤
Hey Rainier! It shocked me to see the video title, not just coz it's cancer, but because I've always seen you like a fellow Taurus May baby brother on youtube, also being born in 1991, it's like finding out my brother has got cancer, I don't know how to explain how this has impacted me, but thank you for being so brave to share this with us, strangers on the internet and showing the human side of influencers, also having own struggles and all. Sending all my love to you, my fellow taurus 91 brother!
Thanks for sharing your journey and it provided me much comfort in what I went through. You are very brave to share this and yes, keep the hope alive. Surviving cancer, our lives may not be the same. We need not be the same, it's our own unique journey. Embrace it, adjust and live it our way. You are not alone. Keep on doing what you enjoy 😊🙏🏼
Cherish life everyday even the littlest things … thank you for inspiring
Omgggg I’m sending you so much love. It must be so hard to share. Feel free to reach out if you need to vent. a close person who has cancer too, so I understand. I’m so sorry, Rai
Stay strong Rainier!
Your down to earth, brave and honest personality is what that matters most. I’m sorry that you have to go through this… but I feel confident that you’ll recover from this and be a great inspiration to others.
Life is such a mystery but with that positive attitude you hold dearly, I’m sure you’ll have a great one.
Wishing you a speedy recovery ☺️
😢😢😢 extremely sad to find my favorite TSL guy to go through sooooo much!!! Please take care of your health 💔💔💔 May God bless you with your wishes 🙏🏼🙏🏼
hi Rainer! i'm not really an active commenter in general but i just wanted to say that your video came at just the right time for me. a close family member of mine has also just been diagnosed with cancer and it's been hard for me to process it. hearing your experience has allowed me to understand how they might be feeling and how i can support them. thank you so much for sharing this video and i know it must have been hard to share something so vulnerable to the whole world. i wish you all the best and i hope you'll be in remission soon :)
sending you lots of love, hugs and support!
appreciate your courage to share your story.
its pretty rare for someone to share their story, it made me understand that these health related issue happens for a reason. I had brain injury back when I was 17, which I completely forget, for the past years my doctor kept telling me I have brain tumour until more than a month ago I was told my pituitary gland was damaged, irreversible. few weeks later while going up the stairs to the mall, I tripped and fall, nearly hit my head to the railings as I was barely few centimetres away, but when I got up my forehead was very red and swollen. few week later I remember what happened nine years ago, I woke up from my sleep and had flashbacks to what happened nine years ago.
I was standing infront of the goal post while playing girl's soccer match as teacher emptied the entire field for us as the boys only allowed to play games outside the field.
suddenly I saw a ball kicked to sky outside the field, and when I realised the ball was heading towards me, its too late to move and I got headshot. I left the field nose bleeding and went home immediately.
nine years late to realised, what I encounter was head trauma, I told my mom the whole incident and she told me when she came to fetch me, the teacher didnt even let her know that I got hit by soccer ball. I went home and sleep through the nights, and went back to school the next day, few days later I start experiencing that everyday after school, I forgot my way home. many times it took me few hours to get home when it usually takes less than ten minutes to get home. I started having issue walking.
especially if I sit on the floor during morning assembly, I couldn't start for national anthem as I dont have the leg muscle, my classmates would start screaming at me to stand. I couldn't stand as I dont have the strength to as I was dealing with vomiting after eating.
and also I encounter my classmates following me home as none of my classmates live in the nearby blocks which doesnt make any sense for them to walk past my block, and when I got home they came to my doorstep.
I stopped going to school as apart from not having the strength to walk to school, my dad drove me to school even though it would only take him barely few minutes to drive me there but I stopped going as I cant deal with class bullies. everyday I had to deal with getting scolded by them for unable to stand up, so my form teacher requested from the principal to allow me enter the school ten minutes before class start, but was scolded by student councillor instead as no teacher informed them, I was an introvert and didnt know how to explain that I have walking difficulties, so I stopped going to school. I only went for n level English papers and failed as I missed out more than a semesters worth of lesson as I stayed at home instead. and my anxiety kinda pulled me from going to the rest of the subject exam as I have no confidence in passing those subjects. I didnt further my studies. so teacher asked me to meet the principal, when the principal saw me, he told my mom to get me tested for thyroid, and bingo, he's spot on. since then I didnt further my studies and went for all the appointments. my doctor since the very beginning said I have brain tumour since I dont get natural menstruation. so I did MRI scan and proved her wrong. then for the past nine years she would kept bugging me to do another MRI scan she's sure its brain tumour. nine years later which was month ago, she said it was pituitary gland damage. which now I remember all the things happened nine years ago after the fall, turns out I had brain injury after classmates kicked the soccer ball and hit my head. its either brain damage or head trauma
I understand the struggles, especially when families doesnt understand what you're going through. when I had brain injury/head trauma, I had to relearn how to walk again by myself, without any physiotherapy.
I didnt go to school as im mentally tired to deal with getting laughed by my classmates and I was experiencing my leg muscle soft like jelly. so I spend the first year learning how to walk properly, without jerking my leg while walking. eventually things got better, but my dad and sis would always argue with me or my mom as I didnt get a job after resting at home. it stopped after doctor kept saying I have brain tumour, and this year, an optician asked me to go get my eyes checked for glaucoma as he's worried I might go blind. I went for my doctor appointment two months ago and was told my pituitary gland was damaged and arranged for glaucoma eye test. few weeks later I tripped and fall nearly hit my head but when I got up my forehead was red and swollen. and few weeks later I remember what happened to me nine years ago, I got brain injury/head trauma during pe lesson. after remembering these, I quickly google check to realise what I experiencing the past years was actually called brain trauma. so the next appointment I need clarification from the doctor whether what was I experiencing, head trauma, brain trauma or brain injury.
Oh no…. Please stay strong
Thanks for sharing what you've been through in the cancer journey! I deeply admire your courage facing one of the worst situations any person could ask for. Your positivity despite going so much at a young age is admirable and you exemplify a pillar of strength to many other cancer sufferers. More importantly, I am certain your future would be brighter in more ways than many simply because a young body heals significantly better from the treatment and this episode would have landed you with renewed perspectives towards life and its purpose.
You are so brave to talk about this. Thank you for sharing your journey, and your narration of this hard experience. My late dad and cousin who battled cancer did not talk about it, so I never know how/what they feel. Stay strong, and I wish everything will go smoothly for you onwards.
Thanks for Sharing, Rainier! You are incredibly brave for sharing your experience and staying positive about it. Wish I could give you a hug now. Take care!!
I am sending you so much love. You are strong, beautiful, wonderful human and here’s to a speedy recovery my friend 🩷
Thank you for sharing so vulnerably Rainer!! It would have been totally ok that you kept it to your own, but you chose to accept it and faced it so well and sharing it in a lighthearted way... it must have been so tough for you... so haopy to hear how you are recovering and on remission :))) youre so brave!!! Stay healthy!!
thank you for sharing this and hope you feel better and continue to be better after seeing so many comments supporting you here despite all of us dont know you in real life. You are very strong and definitely an inspiration for other people who is in pain over sickness.
Bro, thank you for raising awareness on this. Time heals and people cope and adapt. Stay strong through this.
Sending support your way Rainer! Stay strong and keep fighting! Thanks for sharing your journey with us!
You are extremely inspiring and strong. I just dignosed with diabetes, it was/still hard for me to cope. I admire the courage you have to talk about health. Hope you enter the remission stage soonest possible and live a long & healthy life.
You are a strong, brave man. I send you love and support. Keep doing what you're doing, and you can still inspire, now and always. God Bless you brother.
My well wishes to you. Cancer isn’t easy to talk about, but you’ve set aside your fears and shared your thoughts and feelings with us. Continue to have faith and be strong no matter what. The treatments may be painful, but let that not stop you from going further than you’ve ever been before.
Thank you for making this video, fellow cancer sufferer here though I’ve been in remission for a few years already.
It’s uncanny how similar our stories are. I was diagnosed when I was 30. Like you I took my health for granted, to be honest I still do, which is terrible, but I have made improvement, it’s just hard to be consistent in my case, & when I was diagnosed at that young age I just couldn’t believe it. I was calm for the most part since I was first told by specialists that I could had cancer. There was a lot of questioning & researching but I was actually calm. Then I unexpectedly cried as I was being pushed into the operating theatre for my operation to confirm the diagnosis, I think it only hit me then that I might not wake up from the operation & I was actually not ready. You spent your 31st birthday in the hospital, I had my operation a few days after my 30th birthday, I thought I would be going home after 2-3 days but it was confirmed that I had cancer & I was advised to immediately go through a second operation to “ensure” any possible remnants of malignant cells were physically removed & I ended up spending the new year countdown in the hospital alone. I think I was hospitalised for 5-6 days in total. Like you I didn’t know how to tell my family about my situation & ended up telling just my mom but in a very casual manner (I didn’t even prep her, I just dropped the bomb in person lol, & my mom was in her 60s). My mom panicked & shared the news with everyone in the family without me knowing then soon everyone was asking me questions & some started pushing non-legit advice & treatments on me. I was under a lot of pressure because I was adamant to go ahead with the first operation (which in hindsight I think I kinda regret, I can share further if you’re reading this & are interested) yet I had family members dissuading me & getting me to try dubious MLM “cancer-fighting supplements”, I felt that my voice was disrespected & I was gaslighted into believing that I was being ungrateful, stubborn & rude. There would be a quarrel over this every couple of weeks before I finally went for my first operation. This is not to say that I had no family support, my family members did visit me when I was at the hospital, with my mom making the most & the longest visits & even cooking soup for me for a whole week after I was discharged because I couldn’t swallow food without pain. However, I still felt alone, as you mentioned. In my case, my family members until this day have not put in the effort to truly understand what cancer I had (they don’t even know the name of the cancer, don’t know I had to go through radioactive iodine treatment twice after the operations, don’t know I’m on lifelong medication, don’t know I’m still struggling with the side effects of the operations & treatments until today, despite me having shared with them on more than one occasion before). Less than a handful of my friends know about my condition & I don’t expect them to be invested in anyway. I don’t know if it’s because I’m a terrible person so no one is interested to really understand what I went through & help me cope now or it’s because people in general don’t like to/ don’t know how to handle the topic of cancer & (ex-)cancer patients. Sometimes I blame myself too, I’m not exactly easy to deal with because sometimes I really want to talk about the struggles that I’m still facing as an aftermath but sometimes I just brush the topic away when someone brings it up (like I need understanding & help but no one likes to be cancer all the time & some days I’m just not in the mood to talk about it) so maybe I unintentionally push people away too? Anyway, it’s freaking lonely. I have been searching for support groups for my specific cancer over the years but I have found none. I chanced upon quite a few YT videos from the US/ UK talking about the side effects patients like me suffer from & how the system has failed us & that’s the only time I find solace in knowing that I’m far from being alone but at the same time frustrated because there are soooo many of us around the world feeling screwed over by the illness & the system & feeling helpless. When you say that you have support from family & friends but you still feel lonely, I get it. The whole maybe you won’t be a dad thing, I get it too. I don’t really want my own kids but I would love to have that option. My OBGYN doctor tells me there’s no issue with my fertility but oncologists think it may be affected. Then there will be ignorant & insensitive men (friends/ men I dated) who assumed because my operations fucked with my hormones, I am “no longer a real woman”. Like seriously wth, these people don’t understand that there are different hormones that our body produces. So sometimes I rather not bring up my cancer history. I can also relate to the regular blood tests omg. I am still afraid of needles, I can’t look, but I’m kinda immune too considering I have to have my blood taken every 3-9 months. I wish you all the best in your recovery & I hope you enter remission soon. Hopefully no/ minimal longterm side effects because really very sian one. Thank you again for making this video! ❤
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You’re very brave for sharing this with everyone. I know very well the possible outcomes & how much thought & courage is involved.
And I know every cancer patient’s journey is different, am not comparing mine to yours, in case it comes across that way. Just want to share some of the similarities & how your video has helped me feel a little less alone. And hopefully my sharing helps you a little bit too.
Not here to sugarcoat things & wish you speedy full recovery (physically, mentally & emotionally). It will take time. And some things will never be the same again. But you will learn to cope with this & it’s possible to live a close to normal happy long life! Jia you! 💪🏼
I am also a cancer patient , recently diagnosed . If you don’t mind telling what type of cancer did you have ?
@@bakkwa8705 *pat pat* 😞 Have you sought second/ third opinion? I highly recommend that if you’re financially able to do so. And do your own in-depth research (but don’t anyhow believe those “miracle treatments”) cos sometimes it may not be as bad as what your first doctor tells you!
I had Thyroid cancer by the way. It’s one of the less deadly cancers, prognosis is very positive (death rate super low, remission rate very high). But still you’ll never be physically (and emotionally) the same after traditional treatment (operation & post-op therapy). If you dont mind sharing, what are you diagnosed with?
@@sylh8173 I was diagnosed with Stage 4 Adenoid Cystic Carcinoma in the right pterygopalatine fossa last December . Unable to operate as it’s near the brain and critical nerves area . No chemotherapy was offered , they didn’t tell me why . The oncologist recommended me to go for Carbon Ion Therapy but unfortunately it’s not available in Singapore . They can only offer me the basic radiation therapy . I went for a second opinion with another oncologist who encouraged me to go for the basic radiation as it could be scheduled immediately with no delays . After much discussion with my family , we borrowed money from everyone and made arrangements to go to Japan for Carbon Ion Therapy . I had 16 sessions within two months and just came back late April . Going for MRI this coming Monday , hopefully the tumour has shrunk or disappeared . I was told it’ll take time to shrink . All throughout no medicine was prescribed .
Thank you for being so brave to share your journey. I am praying for your body, mind, and spirit - may you have more than enough strength for each day, overwhelming comfort, and all your financial and physical needs cared for. May He be merciful to you and may you be healed miraculously and to have the comfort of Christ and all you love with you. Rooting for you and remembering you in my prayers. One day at a time, but may you always have more than enough for each day. Much love to you!!!
Hey Rainier, I’m so sorry to hear what you had to go through, but also a big thank you for being so brave to share something so immensely personal, for the benefit of others going through something similar, that need that someone they can cling on to.
You did so well in navigating through this whole situation alone! May you stay strong and healthy always
can’t imagine what you’re going through and how scary this must be. keeping you in my prayers rainier
Thanks for sharing such a vulnerable and raw story :'( Really admire your courage to go through this tough period of time! Your behaviour, actions and character is so much more important than any physical elements. Hope you take care and stay strong, will always support you from far
Aw yes, usually it takes an illness or sudden disaster to humble us and appreciate our health/life better. Sometimes in life, this lesson needs to be learned over and over again. I’ve also encountered many people who say the same (I worked in the health field as a nurse). It’s okay though, do what you need to do and follow your doctor’s advice. Take the time to focus on what truly matters to you. Take care of health, always!
Thank you for being so brave and strong to share about this. But I want you to know that your fans have your back and supporting you. Cheering you on and praying for you! The only difference we see in you now is, WOW RAINIER is such a strong person, standing strong when so many things just come in your ways. You have the right and excuse to many things in life, but you face it! Which not many can do it. Thank you @Rainier you are such an inspiration to many. Be kind to yourself and accept yourself and love yourself MORE! This world needs another one like YOU!!! Cheering you on Bro.
Thank you for being so courageous to share this with us. Your story really reminds us not to take our health for granted. Wishing you a full recovery and take care 💕
thanks for sharing rainier, youre very strong!
THIS. TOO. SHALL. PASS. sending a big virtual hug and good vibes your way!
Hi Rainier, i am glad you made this video. There are lots of advice that everyone will learn from. My name is Vijay and I am in similar situation. 2 years ago, i had issue with lots of blood in my skull (between skull and brain). I had issue at work that day, and was brought to the hospital. After the MRI, it was shocking. I called my mum, just like you, but they stayed further away. So because of the pandemic, it was hard for them to come. But somehow i was glad, i will be super emotional speaking to my mum. Weirdly, this was a day before my birthday. I had a crazy operation, and got up with a bag taped to my head. It was draining excess blood. It was really crazy. Luckily i survived, and met my parents the next day. I had a spine surgery too, there was blood in my spine as well. I really dont know how i survived. And i am tell most people i meet to perform a yearly healthcheck and get insurance coverage when young. Just because we look and feel healthy on the outside, we might need help on the inside. You are very positive, this attitude will not only heal you but point you in your lifes direction. God bless, please take care.
We found out on Mother’s Day this year that my mom’s cancer came back this time in her lungs (first time was ovarian cancer), she just started chemo to treat it today. But from what my mom says I think just doing activities you love everyday and having family and friends around you will hopefully give you the strength and emotional support to get through everything.
Sorry to hear that! Your mom is very strong and resilient and I suppose she just wants to cherish her time. ♥️ hoping your family will get through this!
Wishing you a speedy recovering! Thank you for being so brave in sharing your story, supporting you all the way :)
This is such an important sharing, such an important sharing. Thank you for speaking so candidly about this, from the bottom of my heart. Stay strong
Hi Rainer, I’ve been following you since the early days of TSL. It is really brave and courageous of you to share your personal story and really, you’re always loved by your family and friends. You will never be alone and it is okay, and you will get better.
All the best brother you have more BALLS than most people don't ever doubt that!! and you're gonna beat it in no time!!
It is very brave of you to make this video and share your experiences with us. You are extremely strong ❤
Hi Rainier, hope you’re coping well and staying strong. I rarely post a comment on RUclips but really felt obliged to leave a message of encouragement here ❤ My mum was diagnosed with a rare and aggressive breast cancer and it was also a roller coaster ride for everyone. We cried a lot while also developing a deeper appreciation for life. She was also really scared of the needles despite all the constant blood tests 😀 I hope that you have a speedy recovery and that you can go into remission soon because you’re still young and have a better chance. You are strong enough and you’ll defeat cancer!!! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻regarding the financial part, surprisingly a lot of the chemo & surgical costs was subsidised by the government and it was lesser than what we expected, hopefully it’s the same for you too💗
this is really a important video. being aware and getting the courage to put yourself out to the medical side and acknowledge the issue is very very tough. for me, although i am healthy but being financialy stable give me a lot of opportunity to get my body health checked whenever i feel some abnormalities, even the subtle ones. thankfully there is no issues. but dont ever let small issues become big issues. thats why we as adults start working isnt it?
Supporting you always Rai. You're amazing and so brave
Hi Rainier.. Please be strong. Stay positive and keep your best vibes up always. Thank you for sharing your journey. I know how you felt as my younger sister had ovarian cancer and she went through what you went through.. And today, she's healthy and survived.. Hugs.
Sending all the love in the world. Thank you for being such a light towards others and your audience as well. Will be cheering you on!
No wonder you've been missing.. and I have been wondering where you were. I hope that you always in a good health.. fans from Malaysia❤
definitely looking forward to you pulling through all these.. so thankful there are ppl like u that aren’t afraid to share, it really comforts many.. jia you!
Thank you for sharing, Rainer. I tested higher than the marker for Anti-EBV EA IgA (IIFT) in February this year. It was also crazy for me, i joked about it and laughed about it until i had to visit an ENT then i broke down. I've still yet to go for my second detailed test (its in afew weeks!), so this video really helped prepare me. Keep fighting! :)