Hi Ethel, I'm really happy you like the work of Beskinski! He's from Poland (my home country). Just a small correction referring to what you said: he didn't fight in war, he was born in 1929 so he was 7-16 years old when the war happened. He was a boy during WWII and lived most of his life during the communist era in Poland, and the atmosphere of that time might be reflected in some of his paintings. It's important to know that he always insisted he doesn't use symbolism in his work and the things he paints don't have any "hidden meaning" behind them. He was initially an engineer, then a photographer and later taught himself to paint when he was around 30. If you ever visit Poland you can see his works in museum in Sanok(his birthplace) or in Warsaw (Muzeum Archidiecezji Warszawskiej).
thank you for the insight Alex, I have always loved the overwhelmingly foreboding feeling of beskinski and it's interesting to hear that he was purely expression himself without any focus on a specific theme
listening to people infodump about things they're passionate about is so comforting. :) will be listening to this while i hang up some thrifted picture frames!
this just feels so cozy and warm, i hope you know how loved you are by all of the children of cain. please post more content like this!! love you forever meemaw
@GreenMayoMan69_ its very much daughters of cain. Daughters, in this regard, is inclusive of everyone. I go by he/him pronouns, but consider myself a daughter of cain...I get wanting to feel part of the fanbase, but the name is definitly inclusive. Daughters of Cain is for everyone! Children just doesnt hit the same :((
43:43 i really like this part about being surrounded by scary creatures that don't pay attention to you as being scarier! i feel like as a person who has been very isolated from/rejected by my peers for a long part of my life, it would have been almost preferable for my peers to bully me rather than ignore me? because at least if they were directly giving me a hard time, i would have a goal or a way to escape it or fight against it or whatever, but you can't punch away loneliness. when you grow up and think back about it, it feels really hard to resolve, in a way, because you can't really blame them for not being interested in you. there's no clear enemy to "blame", there's just you and all this time you had to spend alone. i just thought it was a very interesting perspective about how feeling invisible could be represented through art (:
Pro tip on the any Mexican soda or Cola. Put it in the freezer for 20 minutes. Part of the end gets slushy and frosty. It's sooo good. Also, could be the reason you like Mexican Cola more than regular is because they use sugar cane natural sugar. So it's made a bit differently.
I must live under rock! As a 53 year old mother....my teen daughter's just introduced me to Ethel Cain music and I am HOOKED. To read some bio info and find this video :-) This momma over here is one proud momma that my girls musical taste are amazing. She may never read this but Ethel your helping saving a part of my soul that I tucked away, suppressed and tried running from. Thank you.
@chadwagoner7056 screaming over you replying to seemingly every single comment telling people they're just begging for attention or calling then stupid or whatever....... baby look in the mirror
Something about this feels so extremely comforting and warm. No pressure to present a certain way, no formalities, just existence. Thank you for introducing me to the world of art in a simplistic, easy way to comprehend~ much love meemaw 💜
Hearing Ethel speak about her dream was truly fascinating, it actually quite reminded my of a dream I once had despite the similarities being liminal. I've always loved talking about dreams but it's difficult because I've never really met someone that thinks the same way.
I was so excited when you pulled out the Beksiński collection, his work is just so interesting to look at. You might enjoy Leonora Carrington's art too. Her work is considered surrealist although I don't believe she ever considered herself to be a surrealist painter during her life. I can't find a source for that but I was deep into her work in highschool and remember hearing it somewhere. She's my absolute favorite artist of all time, her work is so fascinating. I think it's definitely in the realm of alien and otherworldly type stuff. So incredible.
This is the type of content I'd love to see a part 2 of, seriously. I find myself coming back to this video all the time cause it's so fascinating and low-key relaxing and the fact that it all implies a second part is leaving us hanging lol Whenever you get the time it'd be really cool to follow up on this cause I'm so invested!
This was unintended ASMR. I did art the entire time while listening to you talk about artists that interested you. I love the way you explain how and why things mean to you. I really hope you post more video like this.
The anime of the 80s and 90s just have a sort of ambience the modern kind doesn’t. Some that make me feel that ambient feeling is Cowboy Bepop and Serial Experiments Lain. Something about it was different, and like the works and lines were more personal, in a way? I don’t know, but it’s not like those of today, where everything feels more crisp and vibrant.
The 2000s also had some good stuff going for it with the likes of ergo proxy, texhnolyze, and boogiepop phantom, but that has been lost over the 2010s and I wonder if that could even exist now. It would've been wonderful if dorohedoro had gotten an anime adaptation earlier so it could've had an older look to match its already dark visuals that the recent anime doesn't. It's too clean.
@@mirroredhour yeah the 2000s is honestly my favorite era of anime! Fooly Cooly is one that comes to mind when i think of that stylized, kind of gritty animation
I enjoyed this a lot. I was into the third year of a music project when an ear injury forced me to not only abandon the project but music listening entirely. After a few dark months I started getting into modern art and writing and finding fresh inspiration. This pulled me out of the abyss. I still miss music terribly but this video reminded me of the inherent connection between music, art and literature and how one can channel the inspiration from one medium into another. They’re really not so different, in a creative and spiritual sense. Sounds, colours, words. Hearing, seeing, translating perceptions into language. It’s important not to limit yourself. There’s inspiration everywhere and hidden depths waiting to be discovered, if only you fine-tune your senses and dial in your perceptual apparatus. It is a matter not just of art but is the essence of life.
@@chadwagoner7056 if you don't like the band or my comment you could have kept scrolling. It costs zero dollars and zero cents to mind your own damn business 🙄
All I want is for all my favorite artists to be this candid. I know I’m not entitled to it, but it is such a treat seeing into the raw inspirations behind the music. Love you, praise you, Ethel Cain
your description of being in a place where everything is frightening, but nothing is out to get you, resonates with me deeply. there's a lot of emptiness in that.
It’s interesting as well that a lot of this art is from a perspective that makes it seem so much larger than life, a low perspective that allows the subject matter to kind of swallow you, makes you feel small in the grand scheme of the universe. I love it Ethel thank you for sharing with us!
Scorn is such a good game, the whole atmosphere and melancholy of it just blew me away and left me in shreds for days afterwards... every single still from the videogame is a work of art.
if you get the chance you should definitely visit rothkos chapel in houston. extremely haunting, it's his last works before he passed. it's completely free to the public, and a lot of people go there to process death or emotions in a visceral way.
Glad you're able to by art books for the artists you see on tumblr 😊. I love sharing that stuff, but don't have the money to buy art books or photography books so I try to collect/upload the ones I can find on my account.
I’m absolutely interested on the Anime Architecture book you showed. I’m just as picky with my anime series, and one of my favorite series is Revolutionary Girl Utena. The architecture is mind-blowing, especially in the movie “Adolescense of Utena”. It’s super dreamy and surreal, maybe you know it already, otherwise I really recommend it!
I am so happy you posted this, I was in the Instagram live where you talked about different books you owned and liked and I couldn't find a recording of it to rewatch. Thanks!
I haven’t posted a yt comment in years but just listening to you describe art you care about has inspired me so much and I’ve actually picked up my paint brush for the first time in a long time. You are truly such a gift to the earth. 💖💖💖
I love listening to her talk while I’m drawing, she’s so inspiring, relaxing and informative, I just recently discovered her and I’m so glad I did, I’m trans too, and seeing her thrive helps me find comfort with being trans, I don’t know how to explain it, I see her as a role model, I hope I get to meet her one day.
The pop of blue color in Beksińskis work is said to be a reference to the blue hue the Zyklon B left in the gaschambers. Don't qoute me on that one, but I saw it in a videoessay about his work. Truly an amazing artist.
my dad and grandpa love you and the way you love art. Andrew Wyeth has been my grandpas favorite thing ever for years and Christina’s world is one he always talks about. This feels like such a world collision lolol
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you really just have an ominous noise in ur house all the time huh 😭😭
I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST ME
OH MY GOD YOU PINNED MY COMMENT
Anyone else think it kinda sounds like the ambience from Five Nights at Freddy's? Anyways ily meemaw
Lynchian youtube sketchbook tour
i think the song in the background (if thats what ur talking abt) is an ambient song she wrote
i love this its like my cool big sister finally let me in her room
I was abt to comment something just like this lol
no bc this is exactly how it feels
yess
NO YOU ACTUALLY RIGHT
literally
What a day to be an Ethel Cain fan and an art major
Same fr
Literally
SAME!!
PERIODDD
here!
never seen an artist so connected and willing to share their interests like this, we really appreciate it
it's amazing honestly, this world needs this
Beg for attention
@@chadwagoner7056 ??? It was a genuine compliment i dont care if she see it or not what do you mean by this
Mothers voice is like ASMR. So soothing. So excited to watch this.
“It’s one thing to be hurt but it’s another thing to be hurt and forgotten” Ethel you kill me i love you
I read this comment at the exact moment it was said.
“Sometimes i just do k*tamine and just lie in bed and read” i love her
Thats not cute yall are weird
Mind ur business
Timestamp?
The ambiance track really fits the nightmarish art work discussions.
Imagine if Ethel Cain did horror ambiance tracks too, would die. Literally.
housofpsychoticwomn?
The ambient track IS Ethel Cain. Omg
This is so pathetic. You beg for your shot at being acknowledged.
she's so wellspoken and sounds so calm and relaxing..... can't believe she wrote ptolomaea
imo she’s exactly the kind of woman that WOULD write a song like Ptolemaea and I absolutely adore that about her
@@tshypooooo no wait i see the vision you're absolutely right
pTolemy is a Biblical character you obviously know little about. Go to your Google search before you answer so you look so idiotic.
Hi Ethel, I'm really happy you like the work of Beskinski! He's from Poland (my home country). Just a small correction referring to what you said: he didn't fight in war, he was born in 1929 so he was 7-16 years old when the war happened. He was a boy during WWII and lived most of his life during the communist era in Poland, and the atmosphere of that time might be reflected in some of his paintings. It's important to know that he always insisted he doesn't use symbolism in his work and the things he paints don't have any "hidden meaning" behind them. He was initially an engineer, then a photographer and later taught himself to paint when he was around 30. If you ever visit Poland you can see his works in museum in Sanok(his birthplace) or in Warsaw (Muzeum Archidiecezji Warszawskiej).
oh interesting, thank you!! i must have read something wrong haha. i very much hope to visit poland someday, i’d love to see his works in person :’)
@@mothercain COME TO POLAND PLEASEEE ♥️♥️♥️
thank you for the insight Alex, I have always loved the overwhelmingly foreboding feeling of beskinski and it's interesting to hear that he was purely expression himself without any focus on a specific theme
zdzisław beksiński being on this list makes so much sense. both his work and ethel's discography is so so hauntingly beautiful.
Are, not is. Get a reality check
@@chadwagoner7056 just a grammar issue.
her liking beksiński is so correct
If she made a podcast id be listening to it all day
listening to people infodump about things they're passionate about is so comforting. :) will be listening to this while i hang up some thrifted picture frames!
Find your own life
@@chadwagoner7056I think you need to heed your own advice bro 😭😭😭
@@chadwagoner7056teenagers ruin everything my god
this just feels so cozy and warm, i hope you know how loved you are by all of the children of cain. please post more content like this!! love you forever meemaw
YES
@GreenMayoMan69_ perfect! just made a correction
@GreenMayoMan69_ its very much daughters of cain. Daughters, in this regard, is inclusive of everyone. I go by he/him pronouns, but consider myself a daughter of cain...I get wanting to feel part of the fanbase, but the name is definitly inclusive. Daughters of Cain is for everyone! Children just doesnt hit the same :((
@@tobygurd8752nigga what
I love seeing this side of an artist. The haunting dark themes all come together
UGH!
same
artist..hmm
Her sentence goes on and on but her train of thought never break. Her intuition is quite strong.
Glad you have such a connection with others. Rolling eyes.
literally what are you doing when you reply to several comments with this obnoxious tone, leave loser@@chadwagoner7056
43:43 i really like this part about being surrounded by scary creatures that don't pay attention to you as being scarier! i feel like as a person who has been very isolated from/rejected by my peers for a long part of my life, it would have been almost preferable for my peers to bully me rather than ignore me? because at least if they were directly giving me a hard time, i would have a goal or a way to escape it or fight against it or whatever, but you can't punch away loneliness. when you grow up and think back about it, it feels really hard to resolve, in a way, because you can't really blame them for not being interested in you. there's no clear enemy to "blame", there's just you and all this time you had to spend alone. i just thought it was a very interesting perspective about how feeling invisible could be represented through art (:
Pro tip on the any Mexican soda or Cola. Put it in the freezer for 20 minutes. Part of the end gets slushy and frosty. It's sooo good. Also, could be the reason you like Mexican Cola more than regular is because they use sugar cane natural sugar. So it's made a bit differently.
that natural sugar cane makes all the difference
It’s the “hurt & forgotten” that draws me to abandon & liminal places it’s speaks to my innermost self
Could we please get more of these? You taste in art is so good I’d love to see your book, music, movie, and video game collection!
I need to hear her talk more about anime tbh
Video Game???? UGH. This is ... I give up
@@chadwagoner7056 yes video games???? She literally has a whole ass stack of them behind her???? Are you ok????
Ignore him! This Chad guy had posted several comments just complaint about other people’s comments. I don’t know why he’s here!
I must live under rock! As a 53 year old mother....my teen daughter's just introduced me to Ethel Cain music and I am HOOKED. To read some bio info and find this video :-) This momma over here is one proud momma that my girls musical taste are amazing. She may never read this but Ethel your helping saving a part of my soul that I tucked away, suppressed and tried running from. Thank you.
i wish i had a mind like hers, she gets me in a way i never saw, but she manages to amplify those thoughts and deepen in a beautiful way
Ethel not only is your music beautiful but you’re so magnetic to watch and your art education is phenomenal
She stated clearly that she had no education in art. Cling-on
@@chadwagoner7056education can be self taught and she is in fact educating people? ur so annoying
@chadwagoner7056 screaming over you replying to seemingly every single comment telling people they're just begging for attention or calling then stupid or whatever....... baby look in the mirror
Needed proof that all this relentless pain is worth it, and you delivered fruitfully
Begger
I love how you’re sharing us more of what you like and what you’re interests are in art and paintings. You feel like such a sweet girl Hayden.
a video game collection vid would be so fun I d love to see what games inspire you and formed your storytelling!
I just threw up a little.
Huh??@@chadwagoner7056
Something about this feels so extremely comforting and warm. No pressure to present a certain way, no formalities, just existence. Thank you for introducing me to the world of art in a simplistic, easy way to comprehend~ much love meemaw 💜
We love you!!! We need a Preacher’s Daughter vinyl!!!
Fucking clingy
this is so soothing, I love hearing people talk about the things they love!
Hearing Ethel speak about her dream was truly fascinating, it actually quite reminded my of a dream I once had despite the similarities being liminal. I've always loved talking about dreams but it's difficult because I've never really met someone that thinks the same way.
I love hearing how you describe things, particularly your fears and nightmares.
I was so excited when you pulled out the Beksiński collection, his work is just so interesting to look at. You might enjoy Leonora Carrington's art too. Her work is considered surrealist although I don't believe she ever considered herself to be a surrealist painter during her life. I can't find a source for that but I was deep into her work in highschool and remember hearing it somewhere. She's my absolute favorite artist of all time, her work is so fascinating. I think it's definitely in the realm of alien and otherworldly type stuff. So incredible.
It's always intresting to see an artist pick apart and let you in on things they're into.
This is the type of content I'd love to see a part 2 of, seriously. I find myself coming back to this video all the time cause it's so fascinating and low-key relaxing and the fact that it all implies a second part is leaving us hanging lol
Whenever you get the time it'd be really cool to follow up on this cause I'm so invested!
This was unintended ASMR. I did art the entire time while listening to you talk about artists that interested you. I love the way you explain how and why things mean to you. I really hope you post more video like this.
Find yourself
her voice is so calming and nice
your thoughts on horror are so interesting. it's like you explained thoughts+feelings that I didn't even know I had
The anime of the 80s and 90s just have a sort of ambience the modern kind doesn’t. Some that make me feel that ambient feeling is Cowboy Bepop and Serial Experiments Lain. Something about it was different, and like the works and lines were more personal, in a way? I don’t know, but it’s not like those of today, where everything feels more crisp and vibrant.
The 2000s also had some good stuff going for it with the likes of ergo proxy, texhnolyze, and boogiepop phantom, but that has been lost over the 2010s and I wonder if that could even exist now. It would've been wonderful if dorohedoro had gotten an anime adaptation earlier so it could've had an older look to match its already dark visuals that the recent anime doesn't. It's too clean.
@@mirroredhour yeah the 2000s is honestly my favorite era of anime! Fooly Cooly is one that comes to mind when i think of that stylized, kind of gritty animation
You are truly an icon! I hope in the future you will preform at award shows!! You deserve all of the awards❤️❤️
I majored in art history but since leaving uni I haven't met many people that talk about art so thanks❤
I probably wouldn't understand most of what she's saying but this is so relaxing and it's Hayden talking passionately about books and art. ❤
I enjoyed this a lot. I was into the third year of a music project when an ear injury forced me to not only abandon the project but music listening entirely. After a few dark months I started getting into modern art and writing and finding fresh inspiration. This pulled me out of the abyss. I still miss music terribly but this video reminded me of the inherent connection between music, art and literature and how one can channel the inspiration from one medium into another. They’re really not so different, in a creative and spiritual sense. Sounds, colours, words. Hearing, seeing, translating perceptions into language. It’s important not to limit yourself. There’s inspiration everywhere and hidden depths waiting to be discovered, if only you fine-tune your senses and dial in your perceptual apparatus. It is a matter not just of art but is the essence of life.
literal unintentional asmr queen
WE NEED A DVD/ VHS TOUR PLEASE
Listening to you and Ghost has given me the inspiration and the push I needed to start writing again
Yessss ! Write that book !!! Release your written world unto the earth for all to sink their teeth into ♥️
Ghost?! I JUST explained why Ghost is the 2020 KISS. Pathetic.
@@chadwagoner7056 if you don't like the band or my comment you could have kept scrolling. It costs zero dollars and zero cents to mind your own damn business 🙄
Isn’t Ghost Satanic tho
Just ran into her Music and it’s some of the best stuff I’ve heard in recent memory. This woman is mesmerizing in every way.
love getting these intimate glimpses into your room and mind!! thank you so much for sharing 🫶
these types of videos are so comforting to me and the fact that it’s hayden makes it so much better
you have a very advanced sense of the through lines that weave all these different artists together. Thank you for the recommendations meemaw ❤
I’ve genuinely never felt more connected to an artist in my life. Thank you for being you.
I love this video so much, an artist talking about art in a different medium and seeing how that parallels her artistic expression is so cool!
the way you articulate your thoughts is so perfect for my brain to understand.
All I want is for all my favorite artists to be this candid. I know I’m not entitled to it, but it is such a treat seeing into the raw inspirations behind the music. Love you, praise you, Ethel Cain
your description of being in a place where everything is frightening, but nothing is out to get you, resonates with me deeply. there's a lot of emptiness in that.
Perfect thing to end my day with. Feels good to see you after so long. Love you mother!
It’s interesting as well that a lot of this art is from a perspective that makes it seem so much larger than life, a low perspective that allows the subject matter to kind of swallow you, makes you feel small in the grand scheme of the universe. I love it Ethel thank you for sharing with us!
You nailed pronunciation of Beksiński meemaw.
Bless you for putting me on to Andrew Wyeth, I love his work. I can’t really put into words what his pieces make me feel, it’s magical.
the coke and burrito bowl are too good of a combo
these are so cool, i love how you talk about these books it makes me want to get some of my own. i hope you do more like this!
Scorn is such a good game, the whole atmosphere and melancholy of it just blew me away and left me in shreds for days afterwards... every single still from the videogame is a work of art.
well butter my back and call me a biscuit! this video will be perfect for my ipad kid meal time!
You would be perfect at voicing a relaxing podcast that goes into history, art, music, film, etc. I know I would love it and be an avid listener!
Mother's voice is so soothing 🥺💕✨ istg there's always an ominous ambience and I'm here for it.
I love Scorn. That game just lives in my head at all times. It’s so surreal it’s like a playable nightmare.
literally jumped on outta fear of deletion so quickly!!
I didn't know I needed a video of ethel showing us her art books
Ethel is the epitome of an angel on earth. Such a sweet soul
if you get the chance you should definitely visit rothkos chapel in houston. extremely haunting, it's his last works before he passed. it's completely free to the public, and a lot of people go there to process death or emotions in a visceral way.
Please continue these kinds of videos this was very comforting and I love the art
Your Tumblr account is already so inspiring but hearing you talk so openly about your thoughts and what you love is such a gift. Thank you, Hayden 🖤
Love the painting of Andrew Wyeth, Christina's world on your wall. One of my favorite painting 🖤
Glad you're able to by art books for the artists you see on tumblr 😊. I love sharing that stuff, but don't have the money to buy art books or photography books so I try to collect/upload the ones I can find on my account.
I’m absolutely interested on the Anime Architecture book you showed. I’m just as picky with my anime series, and one of my favorite series is Revolutionary Girl Utena. The architecture is mind-blowing, especially in the movie “Adolescense of Utena”. It’s super dreamy and surreal, maybe you know it already, otherwise I really recommend it!
you are so right on about the connection between sadness and horror, it's attachment that causes both.
I am so happy you posted this, I was in the Instagram live where you talked about different books you owned and liked and I couldn't find a recording of it to rewatch. Thanks!
I haven’t posted a yt comment in years but just listening to you describe art you care about has inspired me so much and I’ve actually picked up my paint brush for the first time in a long time. You are truly such a gift to the earth. 💖💖💖
omggg hi mother! please make more content like this, ilysm!!! i’m in love so far, i’m watching this whilst waiting for my yoga class to begin!
I love listening to her talk while I’m drawing, she’s so inspiring, relaxing and informative, I just recently discovered her and I’m so glad I did, I’m trans too, and seeing her thrive helps me find comfort with being trans, I don’t know how to explain it, I see her as a role model, I hope I get to meet her one day.
I strive to have a space like yours.
Absolutely beautiful room and a great taste in art books.❤
Hayden im so glad you use such amazing words I can add it in my vocabulary😭 you’re amazing
she is so full of knowledge and good taste, I hope she knows how special she is :(
The junji ito-Shiver on ur bookshelf is speaking to me 😭❤️
I would kill for more videos like this! 🤍
I could listen to you for hours its like finally someone with a ruminative mind I love you so so much
"sometimes i just do ketamine and lie in bed and read them" phahhahahahah i died at that casual comment
was looking for a comment mentioning this lmao i adore her she’s so funny
ur collection is so good im so jealous 🙏
The pop of blue color in Beksińskis work is said to be a reference to the blue hue the Zyklon B left in the gaschambers. Don't qoute me on that one, but I saw it in a videoessay about his work. Truly an amazing artist.
Knowing you exist is reassuring.
there’s something so soothing about her
You’re an artist to the core ! I love it !
the background reminds me so much of my grandparents house, especially the huge shelf of dvd's (in the best way possible of course)
that Beksiński box set oh my god i need it
id love to play around your house for a year alone hypothetically
my dad and grandpa love you and the way you love art. Andrew Wyeth has been my grandpas favorite thing ever for years and Christina’s world is one he always talks about. This feels like such a world collision lolol
I for one love the stop n go rambling, this is fascinating, please do more soon 🙂🥰
hi Ethel, love the way you pronounced Zdzisław Beksiński, btw come to Poland to visit his museum and play a concert here
Christina's World inspired an iconic shot from a late 80's horror movie called Bad Dreams. It's worth a watch if you've never seen it.
watching this before going to bed. so soothed. even with the terrifying white noise
Not you being a Mexican Coke fan, I always knew you were Latina 😍 you’re an honorary prima 🤭♥️