Reckful talks about his low self-esteem with Dr. Kanojia
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- Опубликовано: 8 сен 2024
- Reckful opens up about his biggest personal problem - an incredibly low self-esteem.
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Should think about putting these Dr K talks on Spotify just list it under ‘podcast’
It’s there but he doesn’t upload them anymore
I had this same thought recently. This is an amazing format for a podcast.
@@dnt000 What exactly do you feel is fishy about Dr. K?
When he broke down after realizing he hadn't experienced ever valuing himself.... That cut deep. This was hard to watch, but I'm glad I did.
I wish he had come back and just watched this video again.
Conversation begins at 57:39
Really enjoying these talks
Dr. K breaking twitch with adding random words to Pog. xD
COCK Pog
That was actually really funny lmao
R.I.P. you can tell the kid was always battling something
dude I never post comments might be the second or third one ever, I really relate to you I lost my best friend last year of the same thing, I felt really guilty because we talked about suicide and depression so much, we grew up together and as long as we could remember we were suicidal and fucked, I know it's not true though it's not my fault, but we can't be logical with these kind of feelings, our guts says that it's our fault and that we fucked up somewhere. My mom have a genetic cancer,so I lived my all life with it, and she's the most important person in my life, I did the same things you do. I love you, your afraid because your brain has been hacked by your losses, you invested love and care into someone that you loved unconditionally and felt betrayed because he took his own life, you felt emotions you weren't able to process and understand, so much in fact that you "wired" your brain badly, you made a defense mechanism that keep you off relationships, friendship and love. Your afraid because the one that you loved the most "betrayed" you, he didn't but you thought he did though, all your life, and now when you feel love when you feel the start of a connection with someone you protect yourself severing those bridges you started to build, you sabotage yourself because of auto conditioning everybody does that, especially kids, they can't understand the facts, they feel, and often it hurts. Every time that you start to feel this, when you start to cage yourself in your apartment avoiding what makes you uncomfortable, dive on in my friend, you truly are a great human being I watched you for a very long time and I love you, you need to hangout with actual people with whom you can have real talks, about yourself your issues and your friend's issues use empathy, use connections to grind your fucking problems to the ground, you need friends, true friends, not fucking yesmen, embrace the unease my friend I really love you and wish you the best I'd be your friend if I could but I'm way too far from you lol, keep it up, people really love you, you're genuine and intelligent. Never forget we're monkeys, social beings and we're nothing without relationships your empathy is your greatest friend and foe, muchos love from France, hugs and kisses xoxo. NEVAR GIVE UP
Damn :)
Dr. K is like persistent guy who tries to explain homework to his drunk friend.
Wow and now he took his own life, he always looked so successful to, he is the gamer every other gamer inspired to be... he had looks, friends, money, successful career doing what he loved, what was he missing? it's just tragic.
He lacked love.
Reckful should've gone to a real shrink, Dr. Kanojia isn't what Reckful needed.
Dr. Kanojia is very general just for stream content.
He lacked religion like Islam that would prevent him commit a suicide
@Demoniclily 100x0=0. If the people around you are fake/toxic they account for nothing really.
@@Blazingwheel It feels like he dodged his issues for a long ass time.. like decades. You can't just start self-reflecting at your 30s and expect a quick solution to the dozens of issues..
I didnt like this one as much, reckful too distracted and high
It is good for people to see what they are like on drugs. Basically child like.
it gets much better in the second later half
yeah this was a weird one.
But it is not about being good to watch, it's about being helpful for him and the viewers, and like Dr.K said, a lot of people struggle with lack of attention in a day to day basis, so sure, it may not be good for you to watch, but to another person it may be very helpful.
@@pedrohenriquea.1477 It might be helpful or it might not. Not sure if any of us can make the evaluation is it more helpful. Sometimes it does feel like he gets super distracted and sidetracks the conversations too much though.
Been feeling down for several years now, always thinking that therapists only talk to you for your money, but these videos are really helping me and dr k changed my perspective on this, so thank you both very much, greetings from Germany and sorry für gramatical mistakes, english isnt my mother tongue lol
Jogiking this series has done the same for me and really changed my mind on therapy... although this episode rubbed me the wrong way and actually kind of made me sad because Reckful seemed so distracted and couldn’t focus or listen to dr k
@@markmoretti27 yeah thats true, appreciated the last episode more where reckful wasnt on his medication, seemed more genuine and thought through even if he seemed depressed but you know seemed like his true persona even if he doesnt like this state of his mind
you have to realize this -- there are GOOD and BAD THERAPISTS. There ARE bad therapists just there to take your money. That's fine. Get rid of them. You WILL find a good one and they WILL HELP YOU. Believe that.
I legit can't look at chat ever. It always turns a good learning moment into a meme and I just lose it. I love chat.
I love these talks! Best part of my week
Around the 57 minute mark he tells Byron about 20 more minutes of talking. Then goes on to talk to him for another hour. SUCH dedication!
Literally 15 mins into the vid and i stumble upon my problem in relationships. These interviews are gold for me
The psilocybin is not a medication at this dose
LOL
@@Parpeing Neither of them are inherently bad. Bullshitting yourself into believing you're not getting high when you really are to deal with life? That's bad.
Smoking is carbonization and that objectively always is bad too.
at this dose? he's microdosing. Otherwise he would not be able to do it every day as your tolerance skyrockets once you take a normal dose.
@@Rebella1337 Yeah, but you can still get a bit too much than what your goal is when microdosing (no noticeable effects), wether it's because of the mushrooms you take today might be more potent than your last ones, or accidently take a too large dose. As said, microdosing is about having no noticeable effects which is not the case in this video compared to the previous ones where he's been on psilocybin.
@@Parpeing Smoking cannabis is not the only, or the recommended, dosage path. Edibles and vaping are far superior (and healthier).
It's pretty sad watching reckful being so damaged,and being so talented at the same time,Dude is being S tier in whatever he touches,he probably can't even realize it.It's really pretty sad.
Imagine being in the same situation and don't have even 1% of his abilities and talents.Still it's great video for people to watch and learn..
have you heard the news brother
@@Win-tq2uf Yup i made this comment one month ago,it's really sad
@@TheDiBoG :( - his friends did not even hang out (seems like) how he communicated like this.
@@TheDiBoG I can't really see how his skills and abilities, would make his depression any better?
I'm 23 and never had a girlfriend, I want to fix this, but don't know where to start and constantly failing in my mind, like it's not gonna work, rejection, etc.
Lower your expectations.
Listen to Jordan Peterson. He has some pretty interesting thoughts on what’s going on with that specifically
Rhinik RF - my man out here trying to redpill people
Know that relationships arent always meant to work but they should teach you aswell. They are gonna make you feel good for a while and then bad but always good in the end no matter outcome
lower your standaards :P
I feel like you're so high that it is taking away from the quality of the stream
Bro who the fuck cares he’s talking to Dr K. Sit there with your entitled ass and be thankful you get this for free.
@@neuro4205 he is giving feedback you degenerate
@@owotime6883 based
@@owotime6883 based af
@@Parpeing So are you assuming that Reckful doesn't care about the quality of his stream for the SAKE of his viewers? Because in just this video alone he has proven that this is not the case. Giving feedback=/=entitled.
Reckful needs to lay off the shrooms for these, he couldn't stay focused on a subject for shit lmaoooo
Shut up u disrespectful shit he’s just trying to live his life leave him alone
@@porsche206 this comment was before he passed. And he was high during this session. But still in shock about this 😞
@@porsche206 this comment was before he passed. And he was high during this session. But still in shock about this 😞
jazzysk8rgirl oh sorry but yeah he was still always down on himself and people should have been nicer
dont worry he layed them off forever now
It's great to see more awareness being brought to the mental health and well-being of streamers and content creators. As a content creator myself I'm scared of burn out and loosing confidence in my videos, but this video has really helped me
Nobody cares about content creators its about human beeings
@@Marimasura content creators ARE human beings.
no hate reckful! Maybe just a little too much shrooms this time, try 0.05-0.3ish, 0.5+ gets a little hard to focus and turns more into a real trip and real trips make conversations a little bit difficult, confusing, or distracting. (the shroom confusion ;) ) But I personally think you'd be best using shrooms as medication in other times when you're not having conversations with Dr. K
exactly. People who have experienced psychedelics will understand the frustration Reckful must have been going through.
Hey brotha, I feel like shit too and like I don't have value. Knew exactly what you meant when you said you don't jump off the edge for the people that would be affected. I've been getting stoned and running away from my feelings for over a decade now, started using ecstasy just to be able to think clearly. Wish I could give you a hug man. Let's keep going and kick ass.
I think a very good analogy of that parabola discussion would be the moment when you throw the rock in the air and it stops moving completely, it doesn't go up, but doesn't start to fall yet too.
Yep, inflection points. Pretty basic, but not when you're that blasted on psilocybin lol.
My problem is I need to stop caring what people think, it takes a lot of mental energy to reach the conclusion that opinions of others don't matter. I also get anxious about my social skills sometimes, times I can talk very well but a lot of it is questions posed to the other person. I need to be able to make statements and talk about myself. I'm working on it but progress is slow, I feel some people have the answer and talk very naturally.
The hardest thing is knowing that caring if what other people think is stupid but yet you can't shrug it off
@@Kgamer64 I thought about your comment and I think you're right, caring what other people think is directly connected to your own self-confidence. The wolf doesn't care what the sheep think.
The stoics talk about doing the virtuous thing and how this can instill a self-confidence within you. If you value virtue over all else, then why would it matter if someone criticizes you for something irrelevant to virtue. 'No man can do me any real injury, because no man can force me to misbehave myself' - Marcus Aurelius
Thanks again for your insight.
Chat in response to the first therapy question: "my problem is face" LMAO
I'm fucking dying when Dr say something from twitch chat :Dddd
Reckful turning dark is so fitting for this conversation
Look all I know is that Destiny got destroyed in this debate.
For real though, when are we gonna have the Destiny crossover episode with Dr. K, Reckful, and Destiny?
REST EASY RECKFUL.
I genuinely enjoy these videos but at the same time I somehow feel like this will end with Byron being more depressed and using even more in an effort to try escaping the feeling.
@@Parpeing I think that Dr K sees reckful at a state where criticizing him too much is too harmful. Telling him to deal with intense trauma and deal with drug abuse is too much at the same time.
1:46:30 everything afterwards is so wonderfully carried out by Dr. Kanojia. One could be hopeful about the future...
Im in a V e r y rough spot, a pressure chamber. The talks are very helpful, Dr. Kanojia I appreciate your support. I am still devastated, I hope Byron is in a better place.
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this was hard to watch. dude is high af on psilocybin and all over the place with his thoughts. wasn't one main goal of the sessions with Mr.K to learn how to focus on things?
What better time to train the brain to focus than when it's incredibly distracted? Volcanoes, tsunamis, lightning strikes, as Dr. K said.
@@hughesd22 Sure, but I don't think it is the same when your brain is on a substance.
1:42:16 Dr.K knows what he was doing, he knew that reckful needed a good laugh.
1:29:25 I was like "Facts dont care about your feelings"
rip reckful kind soul
I think Reckful used too much shrooms. He can't seem to focus this time.
@@Kgamer64 I disagree entirely
@@Parpeing maybe you can explain?
@@JohnJohnson-rl6so I think Dr. K did a pretty good job describing it in the video. How much did you watch?
Different feel to this discussion which is great to see everyone’s different sides. Reckful was acting off (I’m guessing due to drugs) and was constantly distracting/ interrupting Dr K. Dr K handled the situation very well and showed his assertiveness to counter Reckfuls ‘drugged’ state.
Barbazboub no? Did you even watch this video? Words can be used in other contexts mate.
Twitch chat influences Reckful so much, he acts as if every human interaction outside of it is the same
Yep. Need for validation.
I can't believe it's only been two years.
Conversation starts at 1 hour 26 minute mark
Seems like Reckful needs to have control over everyone involved in his life. Would be a tough friend to have feel bad for the guy .
Nah, it's overbearing and clingy. Desperation is a great word to describe it as Dr. K said before. Comes from a lack of self esteem and feeling like people are going to abandon you no matter what you do. It's rough. I feel bad for him too.
Reckful,understand that you are using psylocibin as a crutch to navigate through life. Psylocibin doesn't let you process your samskara or unprocessed trauma because it just numbs it. It is like a painkiller for your emotional wound. Your ultimate objective is to stop using shrooms so that you can navigate the ups and downs of life strongly by yourself.
As far as emotional healing goes, you have to face trauma in your mind without identifying with it and meditation is such an incredible tool for this. For example when you tried to meditate and got pissed off with the construction noise, try to isolate the emotion you felt from the scenario- annoyance or anger from the situation. Now rest your mind on this sensation of anger or annoyance alone,WITHOUT THE ACCOMPANYING SITUATION ie CONSTRUCTION . You'll find your anger or annoyance dissipating and it won't bother you or bother you as much ,at least , as your proceed to meditate. Do this with every thought that comes to your head in the beginning minutes of meditation,especially the negative ones. Persistence is key.
I hope you read this,Reckful.
Ehhhh, there's some research coming out showing that psilocybin can actually help a lot in a therapeutic setting. Assuming dosage is correct though. It lets you think about familiar things in a different way, opens your mind, and like Reckful said, delve into topics you likely wouldn't otherwise want to breach. I do think he went a little overboard here though. But I have to be forgiving. Not every session is going to be a breakthrough, or even that useful.
If there was any doubt that shrooms could have potential issues, the first hour of this is pretty evident. It's similar to talking to a drunk person. Byron is usually like this to some degree, but the shrooms amplify it. (not trying to throw shade, he just seemed like he was having a very hard time with focusing.)
You gotta lay off the shrooms, i don't see how you can be helped mentally when you're on a substance that drastically changes your mental state during the therapy #nottherapy session.
Most high I've ever seen him. I wish Dr. K reminded him that you're not supposed to take regular doses of psychedelics every day, especially when you have BPD
reckful is shroomful again in this episode. the last one where he didnt take it was so much better!!
Just came across this guy, beautiful ❤️
Deffo not a microdose.
1:23:51 YEP
Can someone summarize the part when they talked about how Reckful's fear of rejection is worse for him than the rejection itself? When they talked about the tension and hope that he can't stand?
I myself have that aswell, but what was the solution...? I am kind of confused rn because Reckful was so distracted and interrupted the conversation a lot
Imagine yourself taking it easy while not being told yes or no yet. this way you don't stress so much. on the other hand, why the fuck should men play these games when it should be clear af if you can make up with somebody or not. I guess doc came to this topic from another perspective. w/e I didn't understand it as well XD
The point was that not knowing is worse than rejection, because it instills hope. Being in that limbo between yes and no, the relationship work out or you can be abandoned, that's what he's terrified of. Abandonment. Taking rejection is far more simple than that. They didn't get to a solution per se but Dr. K tried to help him understand that those are just feelings and your feelings aren't you, if you can rise above them through meditation then things don't really matter or hurt you because you'll be at peace within. He tied it into him seeing his self worth - which also didn't matter if you transcend that.
Assuming Reckful is on Psilocybin here, to me it seems to be a debuff in the smarts department - he seemed to process things not only faster but also more correct when not on it.
It's largely dependent on the dosage and everybody reacts differently. But yes, psilocybin is a nerf to concentration and staying on a singular train of thought. As Dr. K put it, Reckful's brain became stimulus focused and unable to filter miscellaneous information from his environment (and from conversation). So you get a Reckful who is incessantly talking about the construction sounds, about how to enunciate pog, walks around and moves things around/cleans instead of engaging in conversation, and lots of interruptions and bringing up irrelevant and disconnected information mid sentence, because likely he was on a different train of thought in his mind or saw a connection that he couldn't explain well or that he thought was there, but wasn't.
The best way I can think to put it is to imagine that your train of thought is moving at 100 mph, but your speech and social communication can only go 60 mph. There's a 40 mph gap there that can't be overcome and it leads to frustration and miscommunications.
looking at this compared to when you were sober I think you're shooting yourself in the foot by "micro-dosing". having done psilocybin for therapeutical reasons myself I know that it can help but this just seems that you are wasting Dr K's time being a bit distractive. don't get me wrong, I just think you would get a better return doing this sober. keep it up byron
I highly highly doubt this was a microdose.
Double Upload Pog
Shroomers gonna shroom
Was he on drugs again during this session?
Yep
Cock Pog
Does it really matter?
@@Reactx309 In a conversation about mental health, yes it really fucking matters. This went from watching the real Reckful really focusing on an experience of genuine therapy to this other person that is now tweaking on psychedelic drugs and now, half focusing at best on Dr K.
@@I2handedI As Dr. K said in the video, no it doesn't matter. The brain, on substances or not, can be this distracted. Also, the distinction of the "real" Reckful isn't really useful. This Reckful is part of who he is too. Masking it might make it more convenient or comfortable for you to watch, but that's not the goal of these talks now is it?
video basically starts at 1:38:05 for anyone wanting to get to the better stuff. nearly everything before that was just reckful getting to distracted for dr. k to help.
Qatar Investment Authority is the deal reckful did.
What?
Vaya piso tenía luminoso. Me muero en esta oscuridad. D.E P.
1:27:03 when someone says something heart felt give a heart felt response. Especially when dosing, reckful didn't 100% believe what he said and Dr K dismissive sure sucks
I think it would be awesome if Dr K would use Reckfuls first name Byron
Reckful got too wrecked this time
Isn't pog when you're surprised or someone did something cool? Like reckful beat depression that's fucking POG? 90% of twitch doesn't even know how to use the emotes tho. I'm one of them.
I find it so funny when chat spams sumscar.
would love to seem him play bgs :D
How has nobody guided Dr. K to download BTTV...
How can I talk to Dr.k? I relate to you so much and I think it would really help me
$$$
@@yngfljm2277 Nah, more like viewership. Dr. K has to AoE heal!
reckful makes me want to try shrooms
Great "doctor" 😂😂😂😂
pog
player of the game!
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RIP:(((((((((((((((
:( RIP
holy shit, never seen Reckful this out of it.
Shroomful WeirdChamp
bruh reckful be high asf lmao
same
Ayy Reckful I live in Austin, TX too and i'm 24 and would love to hang out sometime!
uh he dead
ice cold
newvideopog
Кто знает о чем они тут говорили?
What was the NDA about
For some reason I have a feeling that we won't find out
probably everland related
Guessing it has to do with the company Reckful made the Qatar deal for, but this Non Disclosure Agreement means they probably won't disclose this.
Is there a reason why Jewish people tend to be more neurotic? I'm half Jewish and it definitely runs on my mother's side.
@Timmy No I don't understand what you wrote. Isolated gene pools? What does that mean.
@@CoachDitka That's interesting I wonder why that was historically. My mom told me the neuroticism comes from centuries of trauma and oppression carried on through the DNA but that sounded like b.s. to me.
@@NexusCapital Yeah that's bs, but it is possible that the gene pool for Jewish people was permeated by genes or genetic mutations that could cause such a thing. I'm not at all stating that as fact, I personally was never even aware of any correlation between neuroticism and Jewish people (I don't really mentally separate Jewish people from general white people, so that may be why), but that would be the likely explanation.
@@NexusCapital How is that BS? Collective learning is a staple of the sciences and our survival, that's how each generation has progressed with more and more knowledge by building on top of our ancestors work. This idea can be applied to the experiences and learned behaviors that people develop under times of stress, therefor, when going through a stressful period and you're raising a child, chances are likely, your kids are going to develop or inherit behavioral neuroticism. Not saying that some genetic factor is not a case or a concerning factor of neuroticism as a trait, but, at least in the behavior sciences, it seems to be largely a result of experience rather than any innatist causality.
@@JohnSmith-yr4vi Beautifully said.
Gnyancat
Legit watched all of this
congratulations
I realized things that my mind thinks about which are logical not necessarily good
37:39 ...
Didn't help apparently.
LMAO
hey editor you should have brightened up reckful at some parts :)
no
@@Alecsand3r from the 32nd until the 55th minute he's underexposed
@@Kgamer64 What are you talking about? i.imgur.com/yICVFn0.gif
Reckful should've gone to a real shrink, Dr. Kanojia isn't what Reckful needed.
Dr. Kanojia is very general just for stream content.
why is chat so fkn toxic jesus
Activate Windows
>>>>>
He needed real help, this "doctor" guy isn't making much sense
as much as i love chat, turn it off in these videos reckfull please.
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Reckful: *sighs* COCK ... POG
kek
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