Vevian I just left the organization this past October 2018. I too just uploaded my first video. You may be surprised at how many people are starting to leave. Finding this community of Ex Jehovah's Witnesses has been a blessing to me & my husband. Thanks for sharing your experience.
ExJW Mother Hold up!! Are you the one with the Heart Wrenching Story?? The Abusive husband, The Sister that ended up being Lesbian.. and her partner finding you.. Your son working at the Russian Hall.. and just couldn't do it anymore.. Is this you???
I know absolutely how you feel Vivian. I was a JW for 63 years, until November of 2013. That's I started waking up to the fact, that that corporate was false. I now knw the real truth. I have just slowly faded away and feel so free now. I love Jehovah, Yahweh or Yahaweh or whatever our true heveanly fathers name is, more now than all my 63 years as a JW. Also my understanding and love for Jesus Christ has increased dramatically. Hang in there and kniw you are loved by Jah and Jesus Christ. Take care and be happy. Tom T.
The Jehovah’s Witnesses cult seems so innocent to people on the outside looking in. But people who’ve experienced it knows exactly how damaging it is!!! So glad you made it out!!! The freedom is sooooo worth it!!! 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽 you’ll always have my support.
Mandy Lyons a true jw would never watch apostate video like this. Why dont you tell your elders you watch this stuff, maybe you will see the truth about the truth when they disfellowship you.
Vevian, I should have commented first on your video. Well done! Thank you for sharing. For the first time I felt validated for all my feelings. I felt a total affinity with you as my fate was very similar to yours. It stole my childhood and future prospects as a young adult. I am learning to let go of anger and resentment. As you said Live! I was very shocked to realize its a cult. I am so happy to have "woke up". Freedom from oppression, judgement, guilt and fear. etc. There is a loss of family and community. Its a small price to pay. I think its worse being born into this religion, our choice was taken from us. Finally I get to choose, I walked away. We are told right from wrong, I have discovered I don't need to be told anymore. I am a good person, I have morals and ethics. Just posting a comment was a huge step. Its wrong to watch your video and comment! haha Thank you for your positive attitude. I am not alone anymore and the best part FREEDOM!
My husband was baptized at the Pontiac Silverdome in 1990. I was baptized at Holt Assembly Hall in 1994 at the age of 17. I am SO HAPPY to say that we both are out of the cult! So glad you are also out too. :)
Thanks for sharing your story, Vevian! Appreciate all you do to positively support the community during the transition and to move forward in our new lives.
Vevian I’m so sorry for what you have been through So happy your doing so well now So so sad how this religion brainwashs people to the point they don’t treat their family with love My brother has been disfellowshipped for 25 years I’m so saddened by the fact my family doesn’t speak to him Him and I are in contact but not enough I miss him so much especially since I’m out too I woke up a quite few years ago but only in the last few years is the fear gone and I’m totally comfortable with where I am Thank you for sharing your story 🙏
Just gawd ...your mom hasn’t spoken to you in seven years ahhhhhhh . Wow just wow. They are so cold hearted and mislead by lies. Thank you for sharing your message. Self love is the foundation to our purpose .
I'm an ex Elder and I say to you welcome to the real world or people really care for you as a person not how you fit into the group this is a toxic mind-controlling group I've been out of it for 20 years but still feel the pain and loss of family cruelty is there middle name welcome and have a great life thanks for sharing
Dude you say to her welcome to the "real world" lol oh my what a pleasure it must be to live in a world full of haterd, right is wrong and wrong is right...I pity you both
Wow this is so crazy I was also raised as a Jehovah's witness and I could relate to your stories so much as my mom being disfellowshipped and her family not speaking to her but the funny thing is that I met you years ago at Winco in Pomona in Jan of 2014 and you inspired me so much to lose the weight and make a change in my life till this day I always remembered your words of advice thank you so much for your inspiration😘 I even have the picture of us from that day😂
How brave and giving of you to do this. I'm an XJW, but every single experience of an XJW affects me, and your story has too. Telling these stories make a difference. So happy for you that you got out safely. Isn't life grand?
Wow, I cant get used to these kind of stories. I have felt the same, still having scars from the past... But I'm so happy for you you got out! What doesn't kill you makes you stronger girl. Thanks for sharing, you're inspriring!
my mom got disfellowshipped, reinstated years later, and dragged us forcefully back to the cult. we all hated it. she died at age 50 because she wouldn't take blood for a tumor. what a shame. thanks for the video!
Thanks for reaching out. Congratulations on waking up. Awesome job. There is tons of good people waking up and will need comfort from caring people just like you🤗
Congratulations on making this video. I still have not done a video as an ex-JW but I am living without fear of what people think about me and still love God in my heart.
You can sum up the evil of the cult with your question at 33:13.........."what kind of person are you to not even look at somebody who is so close to you and just like disregard them as a human being?" Answer: Jehovah's Witness
@@laneasellem3990 Wow! That seems to mean that she has some unresolved issues and is in because of her issues, or her family issues, and she can't move on from them. Maybe living in the past and she can't or won't see her children's lives forward. There is a JW woman in our area who has had 5 children, no-one but she is in the Borg. Her husband and children are out. Two of her children committed suicide, one recently, I'm not sure what is going on there. And another person in the same congregation just last week also committed suicide. It's better to wake up but these people maybe can't see a way out of the cult - trapped.
Thank you so much for sharing this part of your past Vevian! I am in Michigan and married to a Chaldean. I had several friends in the Chaldean congregation. I faded many years ago so my JW Mom still talks to me because she needs help. In fact my husband just asked me last week "why is there no one of Jws helping your Mom out, just me her Catholic son in law does everything"? I told him because the Jws have no idea what unconditional love is. It occurred to me after marriage that the Chaldean community can be oppressive to many women like the Jws are. It seems you had double subjugation to overcome. I am so glad that you did just that and I am looking forward to go and listen to your podcasts as soon as I have time.
WOW! You understood me to a tee! Your situation also sounds challenging! You are EXTREMELY right about the fake love that the JW's give. Its complete BS! I really hope you love the podcast! If you are ever in LA, Id love to meet you:) Always looking for new real connections!
I was disfellowshipped 6 months ago, watching this video made me cry. I wrote my letter 2 months ago, but the elders never told me anything. I just want to be able to talk to my family. This whole time that I’ve been disfellowshipped, I’ve had a really clean life. Because of my beliefs and feeling guilty all the time lead me to get marry 3 days before I was announced disfellowshipped. I just can’t believe how one mistake can lead you to not talk to your own family. If I could go back to summer 2016 when I got baptized I would... I would have never gotten baptized if that meant signing a contract that meant I could never talk to my family or friends for making mistakes. I don’t see why men have to judge me, I just want Jehovah God who sees me and knows me to judge me.
wow girl! If you need someone to talk to, I'd love to connect through a phone call! I know exactly what it feels like to be in your shoes! Are you on Facebook or Instagram ?
Thank you for this wonderful testimony. Your sincerity and honesty touched me. You are a beautiful person. Today your confidence gives you quiet strength and this testimony attests to it. The JWs are not capable of this because they are always in "control mode". This counterintuitive "mode" makes JWs more and more fragile, sick, neurotic, and ultimately unhappy and uneasy about themselves. Welcome to Watchtower society.
"I'm done pleasing people", I'm with you on that. You have bent over backwards to please those shunning you. I'm sure you will leave your door open to them for when they too see the light. Thanks for sharing your experience.
You are so strong!! And so inspiring... thank you for sharing!! Crazy cause I’ve been following you since you lived in Chicago & would have never guessed you were going through all that because no matter what you’ve always remained so positive. I’m so happy you are in a much better place & may you continue to be blessed xoxo
This video showed up on my recommended, and i honestly clicked on it because i thought you were pretty, but asides from that i actually ended up staying for the message. I think you are really strong. Admitting that you cheated and realizing at the end what was the best for you. Also opening up about mental health, disfellowship, and all the bullshit that comes with it. Keep on being free and letting things out. You just earned a new sub, greetings from Chile, South America. p.s: i also loved your recipes! i hope you upload more soon.
Thank you for posting this!!! I appreciate your story at this point of my life I feel that way as well I just want to be happy & I’m trying to pick which religion I would want to go with and be baptized in and I was stuck between Christianity & JW I would hear stories that JW couldn’t do certain things/very controlling(brainwashed) but at first I didn’t believe it until I started coming across videos like yours it popped up in my recommendations & I decided click the video and I’m glad that I did I made up my mind also someone in the comments said “when looking on the outside looking in the religion looks innocent but when you’re in the religion it’s a different story” and I couldn’t agree with that enough because I saw people on I’m IG who are JW and on the outside looking in I’m like they look so nice & welcoming and I would like the religion very much but with all of these stories from exJW I would love to applaud all of you guys for making these videos I’m living for me and making myself happy.... Thank you beautiful ✨❣️
Vevian, thank you for sharing your very moving story. I notice you called JWs a big growing religion. In fact, in recent years there has been a big slowing down of growth. Nowadays, the organization only reports peak publishers of each country, dropping average numbers from the picture for each country. In the West, including Europe and the UK, they’re actually in decline. But you make some excellent points about the JWs. Thank you for sharing.
@@vevianvoz Pls go to JWfacts.com and you will see a detailing of the decline of Jehovah's Witnesses with real statistics analysed from JW.org data for service year 2018
No, I am no longer an active JW but I have extended family members who - as far as I know - are still active or associating. But many of the older generation JWs in my extended family have died.
I feel your pain. I grew up a JW since the age of of about 2 or 3 yrs of age. Everyone in the religion feels as if college is a worldly influence. My parents struggled financially with 5 kids and my father was a laborer and my mother did not work, the elders and society at the time discouraged the spouses that being exposed to the world would be detrimental to the family and the congregation. I've always felt that had my mom taken on even a part time job the struggles of the family would have been lessened. The religion does not love it's members if they did they would not want to see it's members hurting. I also felt as if we were forced to go to meetings. My parents used to tell us if we as children dont go to the meetings we were going to have to clean, and would not be allowed to do anything. So we were punished instead of helped to understand why it would be in our best interest to go t ok the meeting. Long story short all 5 of my siblings did not follow my parents into the religon. O I felt as if the actions of the religion caused a lot of self esteem problems. Like you said having low self-esteem causes issues in your relationships. For many years I was mentally abusive towards my wife and son. I am embarrassed and remorseful for treating them that way. I am grateful that she did not give up on me, and within the last 3 years I've began to see a shrink and have started sorting out the psychological effects of the religion. I've re-learned how to treat and how to love my beautiful family.
Hi, Vevian. I am a Cult Exit Counselor and applaud your courage in posting this video. Great job! I come from a family of 4 generations of Witnesses. So I know the courage it took you to post this on RUclips.
Hi Vevian! WOW! What an incredible journey and story! I am so horribly sorry for what you experienced, through and through. Just, WOW! So FOUR "reinstatement" letters and the elders still did not even budge. Incredible! Happy you found your freedom! You got baptized two years after I did. I actually grew up in Chicago and walked into the Borg in 1992, baptized in May 1994 in Romeoville, IL, the AssHall outside Chicago. I really just woke up in 2017 about 20 months ago. That "Return to Jehovah" brochure they came out with at the conventions 3-4 years ago coincided with the enhanced shunning protocol that Watchtower and the Guttering Booty clowns in New York like Tony "Tight Pants" "Lotta Dead Bodies" Morris was pontificating from public talk platforms. This Borg has flip-flopped so much since we were baptized. It sounds like you were around the Dearborn, Michigan area (wild guess) before your stay in Chicago. Were you actually in Chicago or the suburbs? I was twice a ministerial servant at the 1250 Farwell KHall - North Shore in the Rogers Park neighborhood before my then-wife in JW and I bought a home in the south suburbs in 2007. Sounds like you've been through the absolute ringer. My prayers are that you have found serenity, tranquility, true happiness (non-JW style🤣) and, as you made a great point, you are living much more your authentic life!!! May you and your husband continue your trajectory toward a continuously fulfilling future and be blessed! And I hope and pray that your family and friends will start to observe the REAL "new light" that this high-control organization of watchtower run primarily by old white men in New York is really an ailing, dying business corporation and publishing company masquerading in disguise as a "religion". A number of my neighbors I grew up with in Chicago - non-JWs - were Iraqis and of Chaldean background. Truly fascinating history and culture - so much more than what Watchtower ensnared us and kept us captive in - mentally and physically! Time to go rebuild my own life here in Wisconsin at age 46 going on 47! God bless!
WOW DAVE! Thank you SO much for taking the time to write such a detailed comment! Love your sense of humor:) I grew up about 20-30 minutes away from Dearborn. My father actually had a liquor store in dearborn from when we moved to America to 1996. I then went on to live in Lincoln Park(like 10 minutes from Dearborn) when I was married. When I lived in Chicago, I was in Edgewater. What made you "wake-up" 20 months ago?
I had a dream. I was standing before the Lord. The first Question he asked me was, WHY HAVE YOU PUT YOUR FAITH IN MAN. Have you not been warned? I new it was the governing body of jw.s he was talking about.
What a truly inspiring story, thank you for sharing. I do recall when we were children and you weren’t allowed to play with us and remember us wanting to play so bad. I’m so happy to hear how amazing you’re doing and how you escaped this madness and found true happiness. You’re an inspiration xxxxxooooo Christina B
@@moisesbeyond - That does not mean that today you must shun your family. And there are NO place in the bible that instructs us to do as God did to Adam and Eve.
Hi Vevian, Thank you for being so honest and sharing your story. I have been studying with the JW.s for over a year now and do really enjoy the in depth bible teachings. With that said i know i could not be a Jw because i could never dis own / Shun my boys no matter what anyone says.....nor do i beleive 100% in there teachings. Anyway thank you......
Giic Llc research their history and not by what they say about their history but by using outside sources. By doing so you will see all the lies, half truths and hypocrisy. Anthony Morris a governing body member said, “ stick with what we say. We’ll do the research for you”. No do your own research.
I got to uncover their cult practices in divorce court! I am not a JW and my wife left me because I would not convert. My lawyer told me to stay away from talking about her religion, but my daughter was deeply disturbed and afraid so I "let er rip". The Judge stopped the proceedings twice and asked me "is that a real thing?"..........made some notes and was a completely different person on the next court date. He was very harsh towards my wife and I got full physical and legal custody of our daughter! People are starting to wake up to this cult and I am really diggin it!!!
What do you mean your daughter was deeply disturbed. My cousin (16) was admitted to a psychiatric ward and won’t stop talking about this damn religion. She has hallucinations and irrational fear. Her dad converted a few years ago and they’re still participating, I’m concerned
Thanks for sharing your story. It’s so sad that you’re family would treat you that way. Prayers for your healing and continued strength to be happy and be the person you were intended to be.
Thank you! My family has always been toxic energy for me to be honest. They have never shown me support or true love. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders by them not wanting to talk to me. I am however EXTREMELY excited about starting my own family in the near future with my husband so I can show love to my child or children in ways I was never shown!
@@vevianvoz Sending love and prayers! This video was enlightening in the fact that I am a counselor and have a client that is JW and they just stopped coming. I thought I did something wrong but now I know how they feel about outsiders and influence.
Thank you Vevian! Looking forward to your other videos. My son and I were able to fade together. He told me how magic mushrooms changed his whole perspective and allowed him to finally free his mind and understand the mind control he had been under Watchtower. You’re the second person I have heard relate how you were impacted the same way. Take care ❤️
Just be careful with the magic mushrooms not everyone has good experiences with them . Try therapy and reading about narcissistic abuse as well. That’s what JWs sound like they go through, abuse by a narcissist
Set and setting are the key factors when taking any type of psychedelics! people have bad experiences because they are using them in the wrong way, mixing them with other drugs, and many other reasons! used correctly one deep session of mushrooms is like a decade of really good therapy!@@dancingnature
I'm so sorry for what you went through. Man, I'm glad you were able to find freedom, too! I'll be praying for your fam to have their hearts softened by God so you can have you family restored!! I'll also be praying for you that you wouldn't allow drugs to take the place of a sober relationship with our wonderful God, enjoying His wonderful creation in purity. Stay strong, sis! I love you!
I appreciate your bravery for sharing this. I too believe I will soon be able to share my stories. I feel your want and need to make your mom proud. I'm glad you found your strength and I hope you take the time to find your true self.
Thanks for sharing your story. I am a ex witness but was the only member of my family in this cult. I am truly sorry that your mother treats you this way. This cult has destroyed more families with their reducless and nonsense beliefs.
+Vevian Vozmediano Praise the LORD i was never a Jehovah's Witness (Hallelujah !!!!!) but thank you for sharing your incredible story. you are an awesome and an amazing young lady. God bless. Agape love
Thank you for sharing your story with us. Just want to say how much I respect you for striking out on your own! I have heard how amazing Ayahuasca is for people with trauma. I grew up JW, but left four decades ago. It's only been nine months since I discovered this whole community of former JWs. I had to deal with my JW family on my own with no advice, but my situation never got as bad as yours. Sending you a big hug and best wishes for your channel.
My pleasure sweet heart. I am a big fan of DrGabor Mate and what he has to say about trauma, addiction, the origins of illness. Again, thank you for sharing your story, brave girl! I am in a better place and more balanced than I could expect to be except time heals. Just glad to meet a fellow traveller on the road to spiritual, mental freedom!
I grew up in the Catholic Church and experienced almost the same thing. I had to stop blaming the religion and god. I realized when I got older I had to blame the people that made it hard on me as individuals. There are good people in every relgion, its just the bad ones that stick out. I hope I helped a little.
No way!! I run into all my former "friends" and I totally enjoy the look of disgust in their faces when they realize it's me!!😂😂 The look on their faces is priceless!
Thanks for your vids. I was raised as a JW as well. It was tough growing up. My sister was a JW but she got disfellowshipped and I never got baptized (I was the smart one in the family). I feel relived that I'm out of the organization!!
Wow, never knew your story before now. How brave you are, how you overcame - amazing. I'm not exactly an ex JW, but my siblings are and my Mother was before she passed away -- long story. Anyway, you're a conqueror, a champion, and simply fierce!!! I'm proud of you and you should be too.
Thank you for this video. I appreciate it because it’s making me think. I’ve felt stuck in life since 2014 and just self-destructing. Not really feeling optimistic of the future, living life in auto-pilot, just no ambition for life, no courage to take a leap into new ventures. It’s just sucks.
Well done .hello from England. You are very intelligent and beautiful. You are free.i have been kicked out and yet such nice person.was cruel.im alone now but becoming happier take care thanks for uplifting me.
I was lucky enough that have some family members and some friends who still talks to me even though I decided not to keep on practicing anymore since I stopped believing. I was not disfellowshipped since there is no proof I commited any "sins" and I do not plan on seeing any of the elders ever again. Edit: Also for the after school activities and "wordly" friends it truly depends on the parent unfortunately. So some people are lucky enough to be able to have close friends outside of the religion while others are very cut out from the rest of the world.
I once was so close to get baptized into Jehovah's Witness, and the only thing that stopped me, was because my mother told me I could never see my younger sisters anymore, if I became a JW. I couldn't stand that. Now, many years later, I am wondering how my life could've been, if I had let myself baptized. I am wondering if the Jehovah's Witnesses could've told me I shouldn't asociate with my family who's not a part of JW either, if I were? Thanks for sharing your story. Sorry if any typos - English isn't my 1st language.
Yass! Psychedelics are so very wonderful. I'm glad that they found you and that you put all of the bullshit fear that you were raised with aside. I hope that more ex-jw's do the same. Stay up! Lots of us had our families torn apart by this ridiculous cult. Thanks for sharing.
Hi Vevian…. all of that time you were trying to get reinstated the elders were doing you a big favor. You ended up getting your freedom because of them. I haven't been a JW thank God but I have gone to a kingdom hall and I saw how wrong it all was. The way they treat people should be reason to prosecute the governing body. Keep enjoying your freedom. You are a beautiful person......
oh wow, knew I saw you before. I used to follow your old account on instagram. came on here as an exjw and said "why do I know here". small world, never knew you were an exjw. enjoyed your yoga videos.
@@vevianvoz Yes, thankfully. I still believed when I was baptized but things moved pretty quickly after that. In time I turned "apostate" and as a result of my activity the congregation had several families leave, never to return. Over 30 people left in all (including my wife!), most of whom I had some contact with afterwards, exchanged stories and whatnot. It's so great to see people waking up, and it really seems to have accelerated the past few years.
@@vevianvoz well, they shouldn't have disfellowshipped me. You know, I didn't know it was a judicial until they df'd me. I thought it was a really lovely session with some blokes I trusted. It totally blew my mind. If that hadn't happened and they'd said "ok bruv, here's the thing, stop smoking, come to meetings, reflect on these verses, you've got a week or you're out," I'd have still been in today probably. Okay, maybe not, but still... I might have gone quietly 😁
Everything happens for a reason! I tell people, what i thought was the worst thing that ever happened to me, ended up being one of the best things thats ever happened to me!@@RealDukeOfEarl
THANK YOU for sharing your experience in getting out ofnthat cult. I was a JW for three years and left at age 23. I am now 56. The best that has helped me since then are many things. One in particular is on youtube JEFFERY DAUGHERTY. He is 😎
Wow hello Vevian born in here born and raised in Pontiac Michigan 1964 the 1996 Pontiac Silverdome convention was my last thank you for being so brave to tell your story and welcome to your freedom and your happiness.
Wow. Just finished this and you’re amazing. Sounds like you found a great husband for reinventing yourself! Lol but it did make me laugh when you concluded this tale of high-demand convervitive cult life with casually endorsing all the psychedelic drugs lmao XD (just be safe ppl and do your research and prioritize your health okay) :)
You clearly have so much to offer this world, and have reached so many people. I’m so glad and happy for you for getting out. I am so glad that I got out too. It’s truly sick and disgusting what they (elders) think they can do when they have a young girl all alone in a room with them. I would never let my child alone in a room with men like that. I still cannot believe my mother’s choices sometimes. But she drank the kool aid for sure.
It is a gift to see new possibilities. Restraints that most people use to reign in their thoughts disappear when fear is replaced by curiosity. You show an amazing mind. I’m very glad you are present in this adventure we call living. Space😻CAT
Just now stumbled along your video. You have overcome so much. We all have our stories of leaving this cult. It takes courage. All of us who have thrown it away for the trash it is know that. Congratulations, I hope you are doing well
Okay, I have a question. I feel like traveling the world would really help with my happiness. Like you, I don't really have family. So it would be solo. How did you get the courage to travel alone?
To be honest, I didn't think about being lonely! I was doing this for me, and I enjoy time by myself. I would call myself an introverted extrovert. You will meet people along the way that will make your travels memorable.
Great video. Thanks for sharing your story. It's crazy how many things ex/jws have in common. Like you I fell out with the jws in 2011 for sexual reasons. And moved to Orange county CA. For the first couple of years I was missing them. But after that the longer I have been away the more I never want to go back. Especially after I learned about how dirty the gb is by things like being part of the he UN. Covering up child abuse. And much more! I never did any psychedelics. I heard some good things about them though. I'm especially curious about DMT. That's what got Mike Tyson to give up boxing. I may need to check out your podcast. :-)
I was a jehovah's witness as well since childhood, I had no choice on religion when I was little and pretty much had to go through with it. Now my entire family left the cult completely. I feel uncomfortable around it, there was something about it that just didn't make me feel safe. I get nervous around religion. I feel you don't need a religion just to believe in god so, I'm not in any religion. I believe in god and every thing my family and I celebrate birthdays and holidays but we're not in the cult anymore. I didn't like that they claim family is so important but yet they cut all ties with a person just because you do something like celebrate a birthday or something they kick you out and your not allowed to talk to anyone, It was stressful and upsetting. I'll never join a religion again please becareful out there people.. I have friends outside of the religion and they didnot approve of that and I stopped going instantly my friends are important to me as are my family. If they aren't welcome, neither am I
i´ll never understand what disfellowshipped people are getting to miss and try to get reassembled. when i´ve signed out from the organisation, i felt free - i realized that i´ve had the freedom to decide on my own what to do, what to believe, who to be friends with. i never felt lonely or shunned, never. because i did not miss anything, i did not feel a loss of something. i think most exjw, as i can hear it on and on here on you tube, are not used to live on their own, make their own decissions, find their own social network. i mean people, you are not legaly incapacitated, use your brains!
I am from MI also, thanks for sharing your experience . I just subscribed your channel . I disassociated myself recently, i was born in. No longer belive in this cult.
My mom's threats of sudden Armageddon and bipolar personality and arbitrary beatings left me with no sense of purpose and a lifetime of anxiety and panic attacks. I left that cult when I was 18 and never want to hear from them again. And I won't even go into detail about the "brother" who groomed me and my older blood brother but only managed to molest one of us.
Amen! My older brothers won’t speak to me or look at me and I’m not even DF’d. But I completely understand, there comes a point when it comes down to you or me, and I’m choosing me! I tried for so long and never once ever had any of them say a kind word to me, ever! All I ever got was how I’m not doing enough, I’m not submissive enough, I don’t comment enough, go in service enough.....whatever, and that’s when I was going to all the meetings and out in service, even auxiliary pioneering. It’s not me, it’s them. Congrats on your new and better life!
My aunt is a Jehovahs witness and she almost let her son die after an accident because she didn't want him to have a blood transfusion. If other family members hadn't stepped up he would have died because of this. This cult is crazy to be honest. PS. She still is in contact with the rest of the family even though everyone is Catholic
Vevian I just left the organization this past October 2018. I too just uploaded my first video. You may be surprised at how many people are starting to leave. Finding this community of Ex Jehovah's Witnesses has been a blessing to me & my husband. Thanks for sharing your experience.
I am going to check out your video now! Thank you:)
Congrats on your freedom. Checking out your video after this.
ExJW Mother Hold up!! Are you the one with the Heart Wrenching Story?? The Abusive husband, The Sister that ended up being Lesbian.. and her partner finding you.. Your son working at the Russian Hall.. and just couldn't do it anymore.. Is this you???
ExJW Mother No it's not who I thought it was.. but I'm gonna check you out too.
@@fillupbanks7885 No. That's not me....
I know absolutely how you feel Vivian. I was a JW for 63 years, until November of 2013. That's I started waking up to the fact, that that corporate was false. I now knw the real truth. I have just slowly faded away and feel so free now. I love Jehovah, Yahweh or Yahaweh or whatever our true heveanly fathers name is, more now than all my 63 years as a JW. Also my understanding and love for Jesus Christ has increased dramatically. Hang in there and kniw you are loved by Jah and Jesus Christ. Take care and be happy. Tom T.
The Jehovah’s Witnesses cult seems so innocent to people on the outside looking in. But people who’ve experienced it knows exactly how damaging it is!!! So glad you made it out!!! The freedom is sooooo worth it!!! 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽 you’ll always have my support.
You are spot on , about jws, thats right they look not harmful out side, but inside is deadly,
Mandy Lyons a true jw would never watch apostate video like this. Why dont you tell your elders you watch this stuff, maybe you will see the truth about the truth when they disfellowship you.
@@jaceacekalgoorlie looks like Mandy deleted her post 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
So authoritarian and tyrannical
This is so spot on!
Vevian, I should have commented first on your video. Well done! Thank you for sharing. For the first time I felt validated for all my feelings. I felt a total affinity with you as my fate was very similar to yours. It stole my childhood and future prospects as a young adult. I am learning to let go of anger and resentment. As you said Live!
I was very shocked to realize its a cult. I am so happy to have "woke up". Freedom from oppression, judgement, guilt and fear. etc.
There is a loss of family and community. Its a small price to pay.
I think its worse being born into this religion, our choice was taken from us. Finally I get to choose, I walked away.
We are told right from wrong, I have discovered I don't need to be told anymore. I am a good person, I have morals and ethics.
Just posting a comment was a huge step. Its wrong to watch your video and comment! haha
Thank you for your positive attitude. I am not alone anymore and the best part FREEDOM!
You are absolutely NOT alone girl! and their has been several girls that have reached out to me privately and said this video helped them too
My husband was baptized at the Pontiac Silverdome in 1990. I was baptized at Holt Assembly Hall in 1994 at the age of 17. I am SO HAPPY to say that we both are out of the cult! So glad you are also out too. :)
:) HUGS!
Thanks for sharing your story, Vevian!
Appreciate all you do to positively support the community during the transition and to move forward in our new lives.
Vevian I’m so sorry for what you have been through
So happy your doing so well now
So so sad how this religion brainwashs people to the point they don’t treat their family with love
My brother has been disfellowshipped for 25 years
I’m so saddened by the fact my family doesn’t speak to him
Him and I are in contact but not enough
I miss him so much especially since I’m out too
I woke up a quite few years ago but only in the last few years is the fear gone and I’m totally comfortable with where I am
Thank you for sharing your story 🙏
Just gawd ...your mom hasn’t spoken to you in seven years ahhhhhhh . Wow just wow. They are so cold hearted and mislead by lies.
Thank you for sharing your message.
Self love is the foundation to our purpose .
thank you for watching
I'm an ex Elder and I say to you welcome to the real world or people really care for you as a person not how you fit into the group this is a toxic mind-controlling group I've been out of it for 20 years but still feel the pain and loss of family cruelty is there middle name welcome and have a great life thanks for sharing
Thank you for watching! We are more connected now as ex JWs then we were while in the cult!
I experienced the exact same thing. I grew up Catholic.
Dude you say to her welcome to the "real world" lol oh my what a pleasure it must be to live in a world full of haterd, right is wrong and wrong is right...I pity you both
@@stareyes453
There is a bit of everything in this world my friend, you choose hate, aren't we prollecting what's inside us?
Wow this is so crazy I was also raised as a Jehovah's witness and I could relate to your stories so much as my mom being disfellowshipped and her family not speaking to her but the funny thing is that I met you years ago at Winco in Pomona in Jan of 2014 and you inspired me so much to lose the weight and make a change in my life till this day I always remembered your words of advice thank you so much for your inspiration😘 I even have the picture of us from that day😂
OH WOW!!!! Well, thank you for stopping by and leaving me a comment on here!
And what would it take for the woman i care about to find out who Jesus really is?
How brave and giving of you to do this. I'm an XJW, but every single experience of an XJW affects me, and your story has too. Telling these stories make a difference.
So happy for you that you got out safely. Isn't life grand?
Thank you for your kind words! Life is truly amazing once you deprogram your mind!
Wow, I cant get used to these kind of stories. I have felt the same, still having scars from the past... But I'm so happy for you you got out! What doesn't kill you makes you stronger girl. Thanks for sharing, you're inspriring!
my mom got disfellowshipped, reinstated years later, and dragged us forcefully back to the cult. we all hated it. she died at age 50 because she wouldn't take blood for a tumor. what a shame. thanks for the video!
wow! she's one of thousands that have died at an early age due to not taking blood :(
sorry for your lose! I feel bad for all the kids and people that have passed because of not taking blood! its really a shame
Thanks for reaching out. Congratulations on waking up. Awesome job. There is tons of good people waking up and will need comfort from caring people just like you🤗
thank you for watching!
Congratulations on making this video. I still have not done a video as an ex-JW but I am living without fear of what people think about me and still love God in my heart.
good for you beautiful! Sending you a big hug!
You can sum up the evil of the cult with your question at 33:13.........."what kind of person are you to not even look at somebody who is so close to you and just like disregard them as a human being?" Answer: Jehovah's Witness
I’m from Mi as well! Baptized at Holt assembly, I’ve been out for over 30 years! Thank you for sharing your story! Hugs!
hugs back! Hope you are staying warm :)
It's interesting how your mother recruited so many people....... but her own three daughters do not want a bar of what she is selling.....
LOL! aint that the truth
Lol
Same here. My mother is a Witness but yet none of her five kids are.lol
@@laneasellem3990 Wow! That seems to mean that she has some unresolved issues and is in because of her issues, or her family issues, and she can't move on from them. Maybe living in the past and she can't or won't see her children's lives forward. There is a JW woman in our area who has had 5 children, no-one but she is in the Borg. Her husband and children are out. Two of her children committed suicide, one recently, I'm not sure what is going on there. And another person in the same congregation just last week also committed suicide. It's better to wake up but these people maybe can't see a way out of the cult - trapped.
@@matilda4406 wow that's crazy. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much for sharing this part of your past Vevian! I am in Michigan and married to a Chaldean. I had several friends in the Chaldean congregation. I faded many years ago so my JW Mom still talks to me because she needs help. In fact my husband just asked me last week "why is there no one of Jws helping your Mom out, just me her Catholic son in law does everything"? I told him because the Jws have no idea what unconditional love is. It occurred to me after marriage that the Chaldean community can be oppressive to many women like the Jws are. It seems you had double subjugation to overcome. I am so glad that you did just that and I am looking forward to go and listen to your podcasts as soon as I have time.
WOW! You understood me to a tee! Your situation also sounds challenging! You are EXTREMELY right about the fake love that the JW's give. Its complete BS!
I really hope you love the podcast!
If you are ever in LA, Id love to meet you:) Always looking for new real connections!
I was disfellowshipped 6 months ago, watching this video made me cry. I wrote my letter 2 months ago, but the elders never told me anything. I just want to be able to talk to my family. This whole time that I’ve been disfellowshipped, I’ve had a really clean life. Because of my beliefs and feeling guilty all the time lead me to get marry 3 days before I was announced disfellowshipped. I just can’t believe how one mistake can lead you to not talk to your own family. If I could go back to summer 2016 when I got baptized I would... I would have never gotten baptized if that meant signing a contract that meant I could never talk to my family or friends for making mistakes. I don’t see why men have to judge me, I just want Jehovah God who sees me and knows me to judge me.
wow girl! If you need someone to talk to, I'd love to connect through a phone call! I know exactly what it feels like to be in your shoes!
Are you on Facebook or Instagram ?
Vevian Vozmediano hello ! my instagram is @Dr.lemus I would love to talk you :)
Thank you for this wonderful testimony. Your sincerity and honesty touched me. You are a beautiful person. Today your confidence gives you quiet strength and this testimony attests to it. The JWs are not capable of this because they are always in "control mode". This counterintuitive "mode" makes JWs more and more fragile, sick, neurotic, and ultimately unhappy and uneasy about themselves. Welcome to Watchtower society.
I have no contact with my Family. Shunned 100%
sending you a massive hug!
@@vevianvoz Thank you. And please stop by if you ever og to Norway.
:) thank you@@GoatlikePersonality
Goatlike Personality We will be your family. Us and the goats!
Same here, almost 40 years of shunning (except for some cousins that were never jws) started new life...
"I'm done pleasing people", I'm with you on that. You have bent over backwards to please those shunning you. I'm sure you will leave your door open to them for when they too see the light. Thanks for sharing your experience.
thank you for watching my video David!
Welcome to your freedom sis. Admire your strength!
Thank you!
50 years in this cult, finally out, I always knew it was wrong. I actually felt a bad demonic feeling at Kingdom Hall!!!
glad you are out too:)
You are so strong!! And so inspiring... thank you for sharing!! Crazy cause I’ve been following you since you lived in Chicago & would have never guessed you were going through all that because no matter what you’ve always remained so positive. I’m so happy you are in a much better place & may you continue to be blessed xoxo
Than you so much Dena!
This video showed up on my recommended, and i honestly clicked on it because i thought you were pretty, but asides from that i actually ended up staying for the message. I think you are really strong. Admitting that you cheated and realizing at the end what was the best for you. Also opening up about mental health, disfellowship, and all the bullshit that comes with it.
Keep on being free and letting things out. You just earned a new sub, greetings from Chile, South America.
p.s: i also loved your recipes! i hope you upload more soon.
WOW! Thank you for the nice comment Matias!:)
Giiiiiiirl!!! Thank you so much for sharing and adding your voice to the movement. We’re free to live for ourselves!! Much love ❤️
YES! thank you for watching my video! :)
Welcome to your freedom! And your new marriage, my daughter went to Peru a few weeks back. Anyway I look forward to seeing more from you.
thank you!
Thank you for posting this!!! I appreciate your story at this point of my life I feel that way as well I just want to be happy & I’m trying to pick which religion I would want to go with and be baptized in and I was stuck between Christianity & JW I would hear stories that JW couldn’t do certain things/very controlling(brainwashed) but at first I didn’t believe it until I started coming across videos like yours it popped up in my recommendations & I decided click the video and I’m glad that I did I made up my mind also someone in the comments said “when looking on the outside looking in the religion looks innocent but when you’re in the religion it’s a different story” and I couldn’t agree with that enough because I saw people on I’m IG who are JW and on the outside looking in I’m like they look so nice & welcoming and I would like the religion very much but with all of these stories from exJW I would love to applaud all of you guys for making these videos I’m living for me and making myself happy.... Thank you beautiful ✨❣️
thank you for watching!
Vevian, thank you for sharing your very moving story. I notice you called JWs a big growing religion. In fact, in recent years there has been a big slowing down of growth. Nowadays, the organization only reports peak publishers of each country, dropping average numbers from the picture for each country. In the West, including Europe and the UK, they’re actually in decline. But you make some excellent points about the JWs. Thank you for sharing.
are you still an active member?
@@vevianvoz Pls go to JWfacts.com and you will see a detailing of the decline of Jehovah's Witnesses with real statistics analysed from JW.org data for service year 2018
Be glad you were never reinstated despite your gruelling journey...your very articulate & beautiful.
No, I am no longer an active JW but I have extended family members who - as far as I know - are still active or associating. But many of the older generation JWs in my extended family have died.
thank you Jim!@@jimtube56
I feel your pain. I grew up a JW since the age of of about 2 or 3 yrs of age. Everyone in the religion feels as if college is a worldly influence. My parents struggled financially with 5 kids and my father was a laborer and my mother did not work, the elders and society at the time discouraged the spouses that being exposed to the world would be detrimental to the family and the congregation. I've always felt that had my mom taken on even a part time job the struggles of the family would have been lessened. The religion does not love it's members if they did they would not want to see it's members hurting. I also felt as if we were forced to go to meetings. My parents used to tell us if we as children dont go to the meetings we were going to have to clean, and would not be allowed to do anything. So we were punished instead of helped to understand why it would be in our best interest to go t ok the meeting. Long story short all 5 of my siblings did not follow my parents into the religon. O
I felt as if the actions of the religion caused a lot of self esteem problems. Like you said having low self-esteem causes issues in your relationships. For many years I was mentally abusive towards my wife and son. I am embarrassed and remorseful for treating them that way. I am grateful that she did not give up on me, and within the last 3 years I've began to see a shrink and have started sorting out the psychological effects of the religion. I've re-learned how to treat and how to love my beautiful family.
WOW! Good for you for that mental shift! Sending you a massive hug!
Hi, Vevian. I am a Cult Exit Counselor and applaud your courage in posting this video. Great job! I come from a family of 4 generations of Witnesses. So I know the courage it took you to post this on RUclips.
thank you Daniel!
Thanks for sharing and adding your voice to the Exjw Community. I love your honesty. Thanks for visiting my channel today too.
Thank you for watching my video! We are more family now then ever! XO
Hi Vevian! WOW! What an incredible journey and story! I am so horribly sorry for what you experienced, through and through. Just, WOW! So FOUR "reinstatement" letters and the elders still did not even budge. Incredible! Happy you found your freedom! You got baptized two years after I did. I actually grew up in Chicago and walked into the Borg in 1992, baptized in May 1994 in Romeoville, IL, the AssHall outside Chicago. I really just woke up in 2017 about 20 months ago.
That "Return to Jehovah" brochure they came out with at the conventions 3-4 years ago coincided with the enhanced shunning protocol that Watchtower and the Guttering Booty clowns in New York like Tony "Tight Pants" "Lotta Dead Bodies" Morris was pontificating from public talk platforms.
This Borg has flip-flopped so much since we were baptized. It sounds like you were around the Dearborn, Michigan area (wild guess) before your stay in Chicago. Were you actually in Chicago or the suburbs? I was twice a ministerial servant at the 1250 Farwell KHall - North Shore in the Rogers Park neighborhood before my then-wife in JW and I bought a home in the south suburbs in 2007.
Sounds like you've been through the absolute ringer. My prayers are that you have found serenity, tranquility, true happiness (non-JW style🤣) and, as you made a great point, you are living much more your authentic life!!!
May you and your husband continue your trajectory toward a continuously fulfilling future and be blessed! And I hope and pray that your family and friends will start to observe the REAL "new light" that this high-control organization of watchtower run primarily by old white men in New York is really an ailing, dying business corporation and publishing company masquerading in disguise as a "religion".
A number of my neighbors I grew up with in Chicago - non-JWs - were Iraqis and of Chaldean background. Truly fascinating history and culture - so much more than what Watchtower ensnared us and kept us captive in - mentally and physically!
Time to go rebuild my own life here in Wisconsin at age 46 going on 47! God bless!
WOW DAVE! Thank you SO much for taking the time to write such a detailed comment! Love your sense of humor:) I grew up about 20-30 minutes away from Dearborn. My father actually had a liquor store in dearborn from when we moved to America to 1996. I then went on to live in Lincoln Park(like 10 minutes from Dearborn) when I was married. When I lived in Chicago, I was in Edgewater. What made you "wake-up" 20 months ago?
I had a dream. I was standing before the Lord. The first Question he asked me was, WHY HAVE YOU PUT YOUR FAITH IN MAN. Have you not been warned? I new it was the governing body of jw.s he was talking about.
good for you for leaving!
They manipulate dates to suit their agenda 607 to 1914 saga ~~the 607 date is fully made up and cannot be found in real history
You are so wonderful! Chronologically speaking your story is amazing! I am glad you are out of the cult!
thank you for watching! :)
What a truly inspiring story, thank you for sharing. I do recall when we were children and you weren’t allowed to play with us and remember us wanting to play so bad. I’m so happy to hear how amazing you’re doing and how you escaped this madness and found true happiness. You’re an inspiration xxxxxooooo Christina B
:) Christina!!!! I have fond memories of you and Jennifer! Thank you so much for the nice comment!
As an Ex-JW myself, I've definitely found value in psychedelics. Gonna check out that podcast, for sure!
I hope you love it!
@Dominique Parker Yep! Wait, are you talking to me, or Vevian?
Disfellowshipping and shunning is one of the cruelest things the J-Dubs practice.
yes!
And not Bible based 👍
Especially from your own family
Jehovah expelled Adan and Eve (Genesis 3:1) and Satan also was expelled (Revel 12:7-9)
@@moisesbeyond - That does not mean that today you must shun your family. And there are NO place in the bible that instructs us to do as God did to Adam and Eve.
Thank you for sharing,you are a strong woman glad you got out of the CULT xx
thank you for watching!
❤️❤️❤️❤️ amazing story. You are so brave!
thank you
Hi Vevian, Thank you for being so honest and sharing your story. I have been studying with the JW.s for over a year now and do really enjoy the in depth bible teachings. With that said i know i could not be a Jw because i could never dis own / Shun my boys no matter what anyone says.....nor do i beleive 100% in there teachings. Anyway thank you......
I really hope you make that clear to them and stop studying!
Giic Llc research their history and not by what they say about their history but by using outside sources. By doing so you will see all the lies, half truths and hypocrisy.
Anthony Morris a governing body member said, “ stick with what we say. We’ll do the research for you”. No do your own research.
I got to uncover their cult practices in divorce court! I am not a JW and my wife left me because I would not convert. My lawyer told me to stay away from talking about her religion, but my daughter was deeply disturbed and afraid so I "let er rip". The Judge stopped the proceedings twice and asked me "is that a real thing?"..........made some notes and was a completely different person on the next court date. He was very harsh towards my wife and I got full physical and legal custody of our daughter!
People are starting to wake up to this cult and I am really diggin it!!!
GOOD FOR YOU for getting full custody of your daughter! Thats really wonderful! :)
What do you mean your daughter was deeply disturbed. My cousin (16) was admitted to a psychiatric ward and won’t stop talking about this damn religion. She has hallucinations and irrational fear. Her dad converted a few years ago and they’re still participating, I’m concerned
Thanks for sharing your story. It’s so sad that you’re family would treat you that way. Prayers for your healing and continued strength to be happy and be the person you were intended to be.
Thank you! My family has always been toxic energy for me to be honest. They have never shown me support or true love. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders by them not wanting to talk to me. I am however EXTREMELY excited about starting my own family in the near future with my husband so I can show love to my child or children in ways I was never shown!
@@vevianvoz Sending love and prayers! This video was enlightening in the fact that I am a counselor and have a client that is JW and they just stopped coming. I thought I did something wrong but now I know how they feel about outsiders and influence.
Thank you Vevian! Looking forward to your other videos. My son and I were able to fade together. He told me how magic mushrooms changed his whole perspective and allowed him to finally free his mind and understand the mind control he had been under Watchtower. You’re the second person I have heard relate how you were impacted the same way. Take care ❤️
WOW! Thats SO awesome! They truly are life changing if used correctly! HUGS:)
Just be careful with the magic mushrooms not everyone has good experiences with them . Try therapy and reading about narcissistic abuse as well. That’s what JWs sound like they go through, abuse by a narcissist
Set and setting are the key factors when taking any type of psychedelics! people have bad experiences because they are using them in the wrong way, mixing them with other drugs, and many other reasons! used correctly one deep session of mushrooms is like a decade of really good therapy!@@dancingnature
Perfect religion for attracting controlling abusive men since they are told women should be in submission to them. My experience was just like yours.
Thanks for your experience. I´m glad you are so happy.
thank you for watching
I'm so sorry for what you went through. Man, I'm glad you were able to find freedom, too! I'll be praying for your fam to have their hearts softened by God so you can have you family restored!! I'll also be praying for you that you wouldn't allow drugs to take the place of a sober relationship with our wonderful God, enjoying His wonderful creation in purity. Stay strong, sis! I love you!
I appreciate your bravery for sharing this. I too believe I will soon be able to share my stories. I feel your want and need to make your mom proud. I'm glad you found your strength and I hope you take the time to find your true self.
thank you!
Very well done. What a relief you must be feeling. Good job and so thankful you found true happiness.
Thanks for sharing your story. I am a ex witness but was the only member of my family in this cult. I am truly sorry that your mother treats you this way. This cult has destroyed more families with their reducless and nonsense beliefs.
SO TRUE! they also make it seem that having your family against you while being in the cult is a good thing! What a fucked up way of thinking!
I've always known you were an amazing and strong woman. You, Vevian, are a badass. The one thing that cult did right is made us sisters.
I love you!!!!! XO
Also gorgeous 😍
Think of all the Badasses throughout history whom religious groups have persecuted .
You can now count yourself amongst them!
thank you, Lamonica!
the true christians were also persecuted by the Romans
+Vevian Vozmediano Praise the LORD i was never a Jehovah's Witness (Hallelujah !!!!!) but thank you for sharing your incredible story. you are an awesome and an amazing young lady. God bless. Agape love
thank you!
I did but I wanted to know how you feel today and this second. We all can change, but we have to have the correct attitude.
Thank you for sharing your story with us. Just want to say how much I respect you for striking out on your own! I have heard how amazing Ayahuasca is for people with trauma. I grew up JW, but left four decades ago. It's only been nine months since I discovered this whole community of former JWs. I had to deal with my JW family on my own with no advice, but my situation never got as bad as yours. Sending you a big hug and best wishes for your channel.
Thank you for your kinds words! Psychedelics can be life changing if used properly! Im glad you are in a better place today:) Hugs back! XO
My pleasure sweet heart. I am a big fan of DrGabor Mate and what he has to say about trauma, addiction, the origins of illness. Again, thank you for sharing your story, brave girl! I am in a better place and more balanced than I could expect to be except time heals. Just glad to meet a fellow traveller on the road to spiritual, mental freedom!
XO :)@@cindyarnold7322
You speak well and you are a amazing person.well done keep it up.lots of hugs from little old England. Thanks for encouraging me.x
Gabriel Koncowski are you flirting? lol only joking beautiful girl
I grew up in the Catholic Church and experienced almost the same thing. I had to stop blaming the religion and god. I realized when I got older I had to blame the people that made it hard on me as individuals. There are good people in every relgion, its just the bad ones that stick out. I hope I helped a little.
Move to a new location where nobody knows you so that you don't run into anyone in the store or street
yup!
Bullshit sit in there front lawn the self righteous bastersd
No way!! I run into all my former "friends" and I totally enjoy the look of disgust in their faces when they realize it's me!!😂😂 The look on their faces is priceless!
Why move? Zero poops given for how people see you is my motto after being out since 18.
Same they recruited my mom after we moved to a town where we were one of few only immigrants, my mom couldn't speak any English and was very lonely.
they seek out people at the most vulnerable and helpless times of their lives!
Thanks for your vids. I was raised as a JW as well. It was tough growing up. My sister was a JW but she got disfellowshipped and I never got baptized (I was the smart one in the family). I feel relived that I'm out of the organization!!
We need to Wright a letter to the WatchTower about Thier disfellowship procedure a group of us and lots of supporters.
Wow, never knew your story before now. How brave you are, how you overcame - amazing. I'm not exactly an ex JW, but my siblings are and my Mother was before she passed away -- long story. Anyway, you're a conqueror, a champion, and simply fierce!!! I'm proud of you and you should be too.
Thank you so very much Bonita♥️
@@vevianvoz You're very welcome, Vevian!!!
Thank you so much for sharing your story!!! :)
my pleasure!
Good for you-it's so hard to see the truth at first-their "love" turns on you in a second!
so true!
Thank you for this video. I appreciate it because it’s making me think. I’ve felt stuck in life since 2014 and just self-destructing. Not really feeling optimistic of the future, living life in auto-pilot, just no ambition for life, no courage to take a leap into new ventures. It’s just sucks.
maybe its time to move and start live in a new town?
So if I want them to stop bothering me at my door I should just tell them I'm disfellowshipped and they'll leave me alone..?
LOL! just tell them to stop coming and they will.
Well done .hello from England. You are very intelligent and beautiful. You are free.i have been kicked out and yet such nice person.was cruel.im alone now but becoming happier take care thanks for uplifting me.
thank you for your kind words! sending you a big hug:)
You’re never alone Gabriel. Hope you find real friends and real love.
I was lucky enough that have some family members and some friends who still talks to me even though I decided not to keep on practicing anymore since I stopped believing. I was not disfellowshipped since there is no proof I commited any "sins" and I do not plan on seeing any of the elders ever again.
Edit: Also for the after school activities and "wordly" friends it truly depends on the parent unfortunately. So some people are lucky enough to be able to have close friends outside of the religion while others are very cut out from the rest of the world.
I feel so connected already with you. I have subscribed to you. Thank you so much for sharing. I will listen to the podcast xxx
Thank you Rachael! Sending you a BIG hug:)
I once was so close to get baptized into Jehovah's Witness, and the only thing that stopped me, was because my mother told me I could never see my younger sisters anymore, if I became a JW. I couldn't stand that. Now, many years later, I am wondering how my life could've been, if I had let myself baptized. I am wondering if the Jehovah's Witnesses could've told me I shouldn't asociate with my family who's not a part of JW either, if I were?
Thanks for sharing your story.
Sorry if any typos - English isn't my 1st language.
im glad you never joined! thanks for watching my video!
Thank you for sharing your story.
thank you for watching!
Thank you for sharing your story.
From an exjw. 😊☺😉
thank you for watching my video! HUGS :)
Yass! Psychedelics are so very wonderful. I'm glad that they found you and that you put all of the bullshit fear that you were raised with aside. I hope that more ex-jw's do the same. Stay up! Lots of us had our families torn apart by this ridiculous cult. Thanks for sharing.
they truly are life changing! i will be making a video about them again soon!
Hi Vevian…. all of that time you were trying to get reinstated the elders were doing you a big favor. You ended up getting your freedom because of them. I haven't been a JW thank God but I have gone to a kingdom hall and I saw how wrong it all was. The way they treat people should be reason to prosecute the governing body. Keep enjoying your freedom. You are a beautiful person......
thank you for your kind words! I never knew freedom could feel this good! :)
Congrats!!!! You are my lady!!!!
Best thing that you made.
Please, we need more videos.
thank you for watching!
oh wow, knew I saw you before. I used to follow your old account on instagram. came on here as an exjw and said "why do I know here". small world, never knew you were an exjw. enjoyed your yoga videos.
OH WOW! Yes! My next video is going to be about how my account was hacked 6 months ago and how that was a blessing in disguise!
I'm so happy I didn't become a jw. I'm grateful to my mom that she gave me a choice. I would attend but never fully converted.
You were baptized just as I was being disfellowshipped. The revolving door keeps turning.
you have been free for a while!
@@vevianvoz Yes, thankfully. I still believed when I was baptized but things moved pretty quickly after that. In time I turned "apostate" and as a result of my activity the congregation had several families leave, never to return. Over 30 people left in all (including my wife!), most of whom I had some contact with afterwards, exchanged stories and whatnot. It's so great to see people waking up, and it really seems to have accelerated the past few years.
good for you for getting that many people out of the cult!@@RealDukeOfEarl
@@vevianvoz well, they shouldn't have disfellowshipped me. You know, I didn't know it was a judicial until they df'd me. I thought it was a really lovely session with some blokes I trusted. It totally blew my mind. If that hadn't happened and they'd said "ok bruv, here's the thing, stop smoking, come to meetings, reflect on these verses, you've got a week or you're out," I'd have still been in today probably. Okay, maybe not, but still... I might have gone quietly 😁
Everything happens for a reason!
I tell people, what i thought was the worst thing that ever happened to me, ended up being one of the best things thats ever happened to me!@@RealDukeOfEarl
THANK YOU for sharing your experience in getting out ofnthat cult. I was a JW for three years and left at age 23. I am now 56. The best that has helped me since then are many things. One in particular is on youtube JEFFERY DAUGHERTY. He is 😎
thank you for sharing!
Wow hello Vevian born in here born and raised in Pontiac Michigan 1964 the 1996 Pontiac Silverdome convention was my last thank you for being so brave to tell your story and welcome to your freedom and your happiness.
No way?! thank you for your kind words!
Thank you for sharing this. you’re a great speaker.
Wow. Just finished this and you’re amazing.
Sounds like you found a great husband for reinventing yourself!
Lol but it did make me laugh when you concluded this tale of high-demand convervitive cult life with casually endorsing all the psychedelic drugs lmao XD
(just be safe ppl and do your research and prioritize your health okay) :)
thank you Anthony!
You clearly have so much to offer this world, and have reached so many people. I’m so glad and happy for you for getting out. I am so glad that I got out too. It’s truly sick and disgusting what they (elders) think they can do when they have a young girl all alone in a room with them. I would never let my child alone in a room with men like that. I still cannot believe my mother’s choices sometimes. But she drank the kool aid for sure.
But remember what the Bible says jahova is always ready to forgive
I'm so glad you got out. I was raised as a Jehovah's Witnesses, but thankfully I was never baptized and left. I'm so glad we're both out!!
Thank you! So am I♥️✨
@@vevianvoz EXJW hugs for you!!
I grew up in a JW household and I refused to get baptized because I absolutely did not agree with their unrealistic beliefs! 😖
It is a gift to see new possibilities. Restraints that most people use to reign in their thoughts disappear when fear is replaced by curiosity. You show an amazing mind. I’m very glad you are present in this adventure we call living. Space😻CAT
thank you!
Just now stumbled along your video. You have overcome so much. We all have our stories of leaving this cult. It takes courage. All of us who have thrown it away for the trash it is know that. Congratulations, I hope you are doing well
thank you Barbara! :)
Okay, I have a question. I feel like traveling the world would really help with my happiness. Like you, I don't really have family. So it would be solo. How did you get the courage to travel alone?
To be honest, I didn't think about being lonely! I was doing this for me, and I enjoy time by myself. I would call myself an introverted extrovert. You will meet people along the way that will make your travels memorable.
try wwoof :-)
Great video. Thanks for sharing your story. It's crazy how many things ex/jws have in common. Like you I fell out with the jws in 2011 for sexual reasons. And moved to Orange county CA. For the first couple of years I was missing them. But after that the longer I have been away the more I never want to go back. Especially after I learned about how dirty the gb is by things like being part of the he UN. Covering up child abuse. And much more! I never did any psychedelics. I heard some good things about them though. I'm especially curious about DMT. That's what got Mike Tyson to give up boxing. I may need to check out your podcast. :-)
How crazy! If you ever get the chance to go to south america, go! its an incredible experience
Marya ambarkhlakh sister
God bless you sister
thank you
I was a jehovah's witness as well since childhood, I had no choice on religion when I was little and pretty much had to go through with it. Now my entire family left the cult completely. I feel uncomfortable around it, there was something about it that just didn't make me feel safe. I get nervous around religion. I feel you don't need a religion just to believe in god so, I'm not in any religion. I believe in god and every thing my family and I celebrate birthdays and holidays but we're not in the cult anymore. I didn't like that they claim family is so important but yet they cut all ties with a person just because you do something like celebrate a birthday or something they kick you out and your not allowed to talk to anyone, It was stressful and upsetting. I'll never join a religion again please becareful out there people.. I have friends outside of the religion and they didnot approve of that and I stopped going instantly my friends are important to me as are my family. If they aren't welcome, neither am I
i´ll never understand what disfellowshipped people are getting to miss and try to get reassembled.
when i´ve signed out from the organisation, i felt free - i realized that i´ve had the freedom to decide on my own what to do, what to believe, who to be friends with. i never felt lonely or shunned, never. because i did not miss anything, i did not feel a loss of something.
i think most exjw, as i can hear it on and on here on you tube, are not used to live on their own, make their own decissions, find their own social network. i mean people, you are not legaly incapacitated, use your brains!
BUT you are brainwashed
Thank you for giving us hope! ❤
Always!♥️
I am from MI also, thanks for sharing your experience . I just subscribed your channel . I disassociated myself recently, i was born in. No longer belive in this cult.
Thank you! Sending you a massive hug! XOXO
I have never saluted the flag, I thought I was the only one who stayed seated the whole time. Thanks for your courage young lady.
My mom's threats of sudden Armageddon and bipolar personality and
arbitrary beatings left me with no sense of purpose and a lifetime of
anxiety and panic attacks. I left that cult when I was 18 and never want
to hear from them again. And I won't even go into detail about the
"brother" who groomed me and my older blood brother but only managed to
molest one of us.
good for you:)
Amen! My older brothers won’t speak to me or look at me and I’m not even DF’d. But I completely understand, there comes a point when it comes down to you or me, and I’m choosing me! I tried for so long and never once ever had any of them say a kind word to me, ever! All I ever got was how I’m not doing enough, I’m not submissive enough, I don’t comment enough, go in service enough.....whatever, and that’s when I was going to all the meetings and out in service, even auxiliary pioneering. It’s not me, it’s them. Congrats on your new and better life!
My aunt is a Jehovahs witness and she almost let her son die after an accident because she didn't want him to have a blood transfusion. If other family members hadn't stepped up he would have died because of this. This cult is crazy to be honest.
PS. She still is in contact with the rest of the family even though everyone is Catholic