ive just begun my last year of highschool and I just can't believe that this journey is coming to an end. your speech on growing up and having to eventually leave your childhood home and your family hit really close and made me cry. I can't wait to be independent and have a life of my own but still its so scary and truly sad. anyways I wish you the best, you're so comforting it's like talking to a really close friend.
she is the main character, she is the girl we read about in books with small town tropes, she is the one people write love songs about, its carys world and we are just living it in, you have no idea how much comfort and happiness your vlogs brings me.
Growing up really is both terrifying and exciting. Your video is calming and lovely as always, and I just wanted to say that if you're thinking about moving out already and how that will affect you in the future, then you will definitely be cherishing the moments spent with your family and friends as you are now until that time comes, and you will be okay. Take care 💕
the thing you said about lockdown is really true. Our mental ages were the ones that we started it all with. We were shielded from reality in a way and that made it hard for us to mature and grow up. it's actually pretty crazy.
As someone who's just entered their second year of uni, It's kinda mad how much you evolve as a person in just a year of living independently. For me, being forced to have to provide for myself was the push I needed to better understand myself and my own needs, but it can also be overwhelming. It's also an opportunity to have and be in control of your own space. Wishing the best for anyone moving to uni. :)
i’m 17 too and i relate so deeply to what you were saying about realising things are suddenly going to change next year with uni/moving out. it was so comforting to hear you discuss that and to know i’m not the only one who’s feeling overwhelmed with it rn
I’m 17, too. This vlog catched the mine eye really suddenly and I’ve just realized that I’m 17 and this video perhaps has a right relation to me! It means, that I am a person, who’s going to pass exams, who’s going to apply to university, who’s going to dance with somebody on the graduation party. My school life has really brought me so much; and today I even don’t want to go to school. I mean, some things have changed for the last two years at school, and I got as a so much well, as I lost something pleasant for me. Today I’m preferring the education. And the cost of it is the reduction my friendships’ bolds; I pretty rarely can see my lovely friend, although we’re living in two steps. She prefers studying, too. I’m glad that we both appreciate that and try to understand each other. On the whole, I don’t regret, that once made a decision and decided to study( I don’t think, that I learn to exhaustion), besides, I could study and improve my English skills till that moment, that I can really communicate with someone and I always get a real pleasure from it. I choose to pass English exam, while my native language is Russian. I’ve always been in the last rows and I’m grateful my parents, who always maintain me and give me the faith in myself. It’s hard for me to believe that, but I’ m telling my own story on the language, which always brings me only a sense of shame, which I promised to never study in former times and right now I’m disrupting all the my principles! I just wanna say thanks to my destiny for all the opportunities, which it gives me all the time.
@@ВишнёваяБулочка-з5п привет ещё раз) извини за поздний ответ, во-первых, мне очень нравится лингвистика, но я хочу поступить на журналистику. Во-вторых, я пока что не удовлетворена знанием языка, хотя моя душа так сильно рвётся наружу, чтобы испариться красивыми английскими строками в атмосфере, что кусочки бумаги, на которых эти слова только будут написаны, уже истлевают, горя от горячего прикосновения контура ручки))) И все-таки, за год самообучения я тоже многое успела сделать - обесценивать себя, тем более за все свои труды, станет просто сущей несправедливостью по отношению к самой себе, к своему будущему, которое предстаёт перед тобой самым светлым и самым лучшим! За этот год я стала переводить все что вижу и не понимаю, смотреть видео-ролики, так как язык должен восприниматься на звук, на второй месяц я уже так дышала мечтой влиться в язык, что купила себе пару книжек, правда, первую из них читаю до сих пор) но это не исключает моего желания поскорее приступить ко второй! Весной я решала сборник Murphy ( он хорош для грамматики), и может быть это немного облегчило мне понимание языка, но самое эффективное, на мой взгляд, - чтение. Но это я говорю, ещё будучи незнакомой с разговорной практикой) вот тогда, я думаю, я действительно заживу. Ещё бы! Я чувствую, что моя душа уже забрасывает свои языки пламени на полочки с «моими мечтами», по порядку выбирая самые лучшие из них. Но порой, я чувствую себя всесильной и мне так много хочется сказать! Я читаю русский текст и понимаю, что знаю столько, что смогла бы все это переводить, но, за неимением практики, к сожалению, очень часто забываю слова. С временами дела обстоят по-сложнее, но зато времена группы Perfect достаточно логичны, на мой взгляд. В принципе, этот язык очень логичен. Сейчас подруга одолжила мне Gateway B2 - и, после этого момента я осознала, что вот он мой настоящий уровень. Пока не C1, но разговорный уровень, позволяющий жить заграницей, тоже неплохо, не правда ли? Хотя… очень часто я недовольна собой. И если честно, я считаю это правильным чувством! Чтобы я на расслаблялась
as someone who is in their third year of uni but actually living alone alone, with 0 flatmates, for the first time this year - there is something beautiful about your individual journey into adulthood. no two experiences are the same, so try and not get too caught up in comparing your journey to others. i missed my alevels and first year of uni bc of lockdown, so part of me feels like i’m still 17. but physically, i’m 20, no longer a teenager, it’s fucking weird but you get used to it after a while lol thank u for the video, it was beautiful ~~~ look after yourself !!
For anyone reading this who’s scared about growing up/moving out, I had a full on existential crisis when I turned seventeen worrying about turning eighteen and having to move out the following year. I am now just starting my first year of uni and I just have to say that the growth you do in that one year is absolutely insane (at least it was for me). Try and think about where you were last year and how much you’ve changed since then. That much change and more will happen in this next year! I promise you’re going to be fine and I believe in you! Lean on those around you who love and care about you and try and be as open to life as possible! Much love to every single one of you x
I've literally been thinking the exact same thing about going to uni next year. It's a very sweet and sour concept because theres so many new things i'll experience but it also feels like i'm leaving my childhood behind, like leaving my family and saying goodbye to my friends that i've had for the longest time.
Everything you said about growing up was so relatable. I´ve also just started my final year of high school, I´m turning 18 in November, I´ve never lived anywhere other than my childhood home and I have no idea where I´ll be this time next year. As much as I love my home, there is this part of me that really wants to leave and see more of the world. But at the same time, the thought of leaving can be terrifying because there´s just so much I don´t know yet... Anyways, it is so comforting to see that other people are going through the exact same thing right now :)
It's really daunting to me that I'm on the tail end of my time spent with my parents, my brother, my grandparents, my childhood friends etc. As a kid you spend nearly all of your time with them, then when you go to school, it slowly becomes less and less, and next year when uni starts and I move out It might be that I only see my family every couple of weeks. That means I've probably spent about 85% of my time with my family that i will ever spend, it's really confronting to think about. At the same time, I'm excited to finally have a go at making a change in the world, being respected a bit more, having the independence to live where I want, do what I want etc. I wasn't the type of person that loved school but I always understood that it's a time where I always have a safety net made for me. Now I have to make my own safety net, learn to climb on my own. I'm excited for the future, and excited to try to solve some problems in the world.
i’m 19 and this year i graduated from school and for me it was the most overwhelming thing i’ve ever experienced. i was so lost and i started to feel really depressed because i didn’t know what i wanted to do with my life while i felt like everyone else did and i was just so scared in general. i’m still struggling with anxiety and depression but i just wanna say u really don’t have to figure everything out by now! please just take ur time, u have enough’
Im at the same place, also 19 and I feel so lost. I've had a existential crisis and been so anxious every day because it stresses me out so much that I dont know what I want. Everyone tells me that I'm not supposed to know yet, and I've started to accept that. I'm just trying as much stuff as I can and trying to be okay with being unsure of my identity and where I want to go next..
your channel was made for autumn. can’t wait to keep watching you this winter :) and thank you for talking about getting older and things changing as that’s something that plays on my mind
I don’t know how I got to this channel, but I’m so thankful that I did. Your way of seeing things is so beautiful and also so relatable. I really cannot explain, I just felt home while watching it. Plus, the combination of showing your day and this crazy (but also valid) realization you had several days later really had me fascinated.
I just turned 20 and I feel what you are saying. I’ve been moved out of my childhood home for 2 years being at uni and it’s still a weird adjustment for me. I feel like a lot of people just move or accept change and get on with their lives but I never understood that, I still feel 18. I think Covid ruined that for a lot of young people as well as literally everything else it’s ruined
Every sentence of your paragraph is describing me fr😭 I turned 20 last month and i still feel 17. I am having anxiety attacks bc of that. I am seeing the people on the internet that feel like me exact the same way. It relieves me cuz i am not the only one who thinks that. We need to fix this but i really dont know how. Therapy is so expensive🥲
i feel u :') i'm turning 20 next march and i still feel like 17... i can't believe how much my responsibilities have changed and how everyone from my grade in school know what they're doing or at least know what they want to do. and here i am having absolutely no plan at all :') it's so scary hahaha
@@justnicole4030 omg I am too gonna turn 20 in March lol!! And I also feel you, I got so used to being a teenager that now it just hit me.."oh wow I'm not gonna be a teen for life"..went through a real tough blurry time but it eased eventually(at least inside my head fingers crossed for irl)
@@ilayd6257 the anxiety attacks are too real 😭 it's reassuring knowing that we aren't alone in feeling this way, and therapy is expensive but you could try meditating! i use headspace it really helps me calm down my anxiety :) don't hesitate getting help if you have the means though, therapy literally changed my life
@@justnicole4030 i feel you!! the people that make it seem like they have everything figured out are definitely just as lost as you and me.. everything will work out how its meant to :)
It's so interesting to see you talking about this. In Brazil we have to decide what career we want to pursue at the age of 16 (I've just decided mine and I'm going to go to university), but we don't have to leave our parents' house. I'm going to go to university when I'm 17 and still live with my family. I would personally love to have the experience of leaving home to go study at 18, but here in Brazil this is not very common.
September IS WEIRD!!! I never could stick an adjective to the month but I always feel so exhausted and mentally drained. Your video felt comforting and refreshing like it’s not just me! Sending good vibes for this school year 🫶🏻
i feel like your videos always come at the perfect time! september does feel weird for those who struggle with changes,but knowing that we are not alone to feel that way is really comforting so thank you for that!
I love September ( I’m a virgo so I’m biased) but its definitely a weird time, so oddly nostalgic but theres so many new things that you’ve introduced too. Its such an amazing time for growth. Glad I found your channel!! Its very nice !!
i kinda agree w/ u about september, it's a confusing month for me. and i just started senior year in HS and all I'm thinking ab is the thought of moving out is scary, but i came to realize that we all need to change to make our future better (if that even makes sense...) btw, when u uploaded ur vid it made me forget all the bad things and immediately made my day 100x better :] i luv u caryss .
I am a sorta oldie (RUclips brought me here) and I think it’s so sweet how y’all are sharing this type of comforting content with one another. I would have loved to have had this sort of thing during this time in my own life… instead we millennials got that cursed Graduation (Friends Forever) song.
I moved out of my house and my country at 18 last year and I've been living alone for almost a year now and it's been such an experience. It's a very emotional process but its 100% worth it.
i've just move out not only from my childhood house but also from my country, super weird experience i've been extremely scared bout. i totally relate my year ago self to what you said. I feel like there is no good advice, but moving out to new place is itself sooo exciting, you develop throught a few months and you can basically design your life from fundaments
that is so true. I had freshly turned 13 when covid had hit. and since a few months things have started to change, we're out in the world again, I just always feel like I'm stuck in my 13 year old self.I still mentally feel 13 & I hate it 😭
i'm now in my last semester of undergrad, almost 23, and finally feeling inner peace and a sense of home within myself. the passage of time is a hard pill to swallow, but growing into myself has been such a blessing. best of luck to you
you seem like such a nice person, i loved this video so much! i’m also going to uni next year and although i’ll probably not move out it still feels scary and weird. much like growing up and september :p subscribed :)
Im 18 and I’m moving out of my home this week too! The difference is ive moved about my whole life, but I’ve never been away from my family. Because nowhere has been stable, wherever my family was has been my home. But I’m moving away from them to the UK for uni, so scared! Good luck to you too ❤
it’s my last year of sixth form too. me and all of my friends keep having conversations about our plans for next year and university, but it always culminates in us saying we’re scared and uncertain. i’ve never been away from my parents for longer than a week and even then we called every day. i feel your nervousness too and it’s nice to hear someone else share their experience :)
I just moved out of my childhood home to a totally new place, not knowing anyone, not having any car. It was scary, of course, but DAMN has it been a wonderful experience!!! Obviously you do have to move eventually but I'd just like to say that you should not feel forced to move out or figure out what you are doing. I graduated in 2021 and took a gap year because I had no idea. That year ws so great for me to not have to be a complete adult and just live at home for awhile. I LOvE gap years and if you think that would be an option that's great!! But also I am so excited for you if you decide to move because like I said, ITS AMAZING!!
Omg I’ve graduated from uni last year and moved from my parents house only this summer which is quite late but your take about the life being boring if we live in a same place just made me rethink some stuff in my head !
Moving out is literally as exciting as it terrifies me. I am moving to another country next autumn (for university). Of course that is what I dream of, but I am scary to leave my family. I believe it will be hard times for me, but guys, everything comes to an end, and those fears will too. Good luck everyone, and remember to follow your dreams!
i actually am moving out of my childhood home of 21 years, and i have 3 days left. I know i’m not emotionally ready for this change as an autistic person, but I’m also so excited for the new change of environment and seeing family members I’ve never been able to spend time with. I’ve also always lived in my hometown, and despite being tired of it, I love it so much. Everything we’ve ever experienced was at our hometowns! Although I’ll still be living with my parents, I’ve already been learning how to navigate life as an autistic+adhd person and what I can do to make money on my own. It’s scary, but I try my best to not think too far into the future :)
I finished school right before lockdown, so I think I was very fortunate to be at the age group I was. I can’t imagine how hard it must be transitioning life in the middle of schooling.
Hey! Carys rachel your vlogs are as always too too wonderful and I really love your vlogs so so much you inspired me so so much and I wish you 200K Subscribers very very soon!✨☺️❤️
She’s my comfort RUclipsr. I can really relate to the whole growing up thing. In my case, I was too excited to grow up and be free because my parents never really let me go out with friends or leave the house without them. Now I’m 16, and realizing that it’ll happen eventually, much sooner than I realize And I’ll be free. Maybe not right now, but when the right time comes.
the way this was filmed, edited, ... chefs kiss. i turned 18 a few months ago and uni is kicking my ass. i haven't moved out yet (it's not super common in my country for first years) but i'm slowly becoming ready to go but it's going to be heartbreaking having to leave my childhood home
i love your home and the place you're living in. to me , i had to leave my parents house for study and it was really hard ; lot of days i cry because i miss them; and i miss being taken care of as a teenage girl; but im trying my best to enjoy this time and work better and learning how to love my self and do all what it takes to be there for her especially the last year of highschool and for me in my country ;this year this exam can really draw my future so im working on that!!
well hi and thank you for this video because your thoughts totally makes sense and i relate to you so much it made me feel less like i'm the only one feeling that scared but also excited for next year and what it implies so thanks a lot it truly helped me not feeling alone
thank you my love so much for this video. i felt so alone with these confused thoughts about what i should be doing with the upcoming of leaving my childhood home and fending for myself too. It's nice to know we are all kinda living with this uncertainty and i suppose it's our choice to either embrace or fear away from it
I've been thinking the same thing about going to uni next year. The thought of living alone scares me soo much. And the thought of being away from family makes me happy and sad at the same time.
Idk how I got to come across your channel..I’m in my very late thirties from very different country so it’s hard to find any similarities with your life but somehow I’m getting so much comfort from your channel, your videos are so relaxing..and those beautiful nature🥰
I actually had/have the opposite mindset. I’m 20 now but I always wanted to grow up and move out etc. I just moved into my first apartment and I had a bread down the first month. I did NOT want to grow up. All I wanted was to be back in my home with my mom. It’s really weird Lol but that’s just my mind. It is fun but I really don’t like growing up now that I’m an adult (almost 21). Just enjoy every moment until you move out!!
so weird. i was just thinking about how weird september is and how nothing makes sense somehow haha. this year in particular was one of the scariest i've ever experienced in my life while at the same time i've already been feeling lost for like almost 2 years... everything just came flying at me and now that it's september it feels like the year is going to finally end (even tho that doesn't mean that this hard time ends) but at the same time i am so sad bc i feel that i couldn't really live this year and enjoy the moment. i miss summer. i miss feeling happy when the first flowers start blooming in the beginning of spring. all these things i couldn't experience or they just flew past me bc of bitter worldy circumstances. but new flowers grow and bloom every year despite of the struggles you face in life.. idk september is weird. and it's 2am i need to sleep.
Same here, I just started my first year in university 2 months ago. I left home for the first time.I was excited at first but then turned to be upset. I have to live in dormitory, so I’m always wondering how it feels to live alone. In my point of view, living alone can absolutely help you to deal with your own business and stick to your own plans without others’ interruption😢.
I left this summer. Found an apartment thankfully with my sister but it’s 4 hours away from my home and I transitioned from a small village to the second biggest city in my country. It’s scary I’ve had many panic attacks but honestly it’s a nice adventure.
wow, now that was relatable... i thought i was the only active september hater... i hate september so that i even wrote a full song about it and posted on my insta at the start of the month...lmao to that... this video was hella relatable
I was in grade 11 when we went into lockdown so when I graduated last year, it felt weird. I remember thinking “this isn’t how graduating is supposed to feel”. Now I’m 19 and turning 20 in less than 2 weeks. Growing up is uncomfortable yet beautiful
I'm 18 in two weeks, and like... what? I remember my first day of highschool, my first sentance was 'I can't wait to be 4th year and get out of here'. Bzt now I love my highschool. It might put crazy academic prrssure on me and got my mentality bit shittier in that field, but also I learned so much, also my hs has loads of good programs and fun things and like...I want more of it. I just got out of lockdown last srmester and...It was so fun! We had 100 of celebrations and school clubs and we have a thing where at April, there is a week off classes and the whole week is filled with different activities (minni footbal, basketball, some more sports, us drama club make a huge play and our local theatre lets us perform it on their stage, biology club makes expreciments, literature club makes everyone write poems, cooking competition and last is HUGE competition between classses in with one has a best costume- something like halloween in america). Plus some more things, but it would be too much to write it. And...Because of corona, I experienced nothing of it. I never went to the grade school trip, I never had a reaserch presentation in classes I haver had that fun part of school that made it easier to be in. I was also locked up as a freshmen (15) and lost all of my school experience and I won't forgive that to a Universe.
Im 16 yo and its my last year in school and i start feeling grown up.idk why but maibe its because im the first child in my family and i just cant accepte the fact that i will move out my childhood home .ily
ive just begun my last year of highschool and I just can't believe that this journey is coming to an end. your speech on growing up and having to eventually leave your childhood home and your family hit really close and made me cry. I can't wait to be independent and have a life of my own but still its so scary and truly sad. anyways I wish you the best, you're so comforting it's like talking to a really close friend.
I started my last year too and I been thinking about this a lot. It's kinda sad
School sucks
Same it's my last year too.
I felt so alone with those thoughts for a while, its so comforting to know that its normal to struggle with this
i’m on the same boat
she is the main character, she is the girl we read about in books with small town tropes, she is the one people write love songs about, its carys world and we are just living it in, you have no idea how much comfort and happiness your vlogs brings me.
i'm the main character
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@@hankersoree as u should be
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Growing up really is both terrifying and exciting. Your video is calming and lovely as always, and I just wanted to say that if you're thinking about moving out already and how that will affect you in the future, then you will definitely be cherishing the moments spent with your family and friends as you are now until that time comes, and you will be okay. Take care 💕
the thing you said about lockdown is really true. Our mental ages were the ones that we started it all with. We were shielded from reality in a way and that made it hard for us to mature and grow up. it's actually pretty crazy.
As someone who's just entered their second year of uni, It's kinda mad how much you evolve as a person in just a year of living independently. For me, being forced to have to provide for myself was the push I needed to better understand myself and my own needs, but it can also be overwhelming. It's also an opportunity to have and be in control of your own space. Wishing the best for anyone moving to uni. :)
your vlogs are always so cozy, I cant wait to watch the autumn and winter ones with a cup of tea or hot chocolate
i’m 17 too and i relate so deeply to what you were saying about realising things are suddenly going to change next year with uni/moving out. it was so comforting to hear you discuss that and to know i’m not the only one who’s feeling overwhelmed with it rn
I’m 17, too. This vlog catched the mine eye really suddenly and I’ve just realized that I’m 17 and this video perhaps has a right relation to me! It means, that I am a person, who’s going to pass exams, who’s going to apply to university, who’s going to dance with somebody on the graduation party. My school life has really brought me so much; and today I even don’t want to go to school. I mean, some things have changed for the last two years at school, and I got as a so much well, as I lost something pleasant for me. Today I’m preferring the education. And the cost of it is the reduction my friendships’ bolds; I pretty rarely can see my lovely friend, although we’re living in two steps. She prefers studying, too. I’m glad that we both appreciate that and try to understand each other. On the whole, I don’t regret, that once made a decision and decided to study( I don’t think, that I learn to exhaustion), besides, I could study and improve my English skills till that moment, that I can really communicate with someone and I always get a real pleasure from it. I choose to pass English exam, while my native language is Russian. I’ve always been in the last rows and I’m grateful my parents, who always maintain me and give me the faith in myself. It’s hard for me to believe that, but I’ m telling my own story on the language, which always brings me only a sense of shame, which I promised to never study in former times and right now I’m disrupting all the my principles! I just wanna say thanks to my destiny for all the opportunities, which it gives me all the time.
@@gossipgirl9425 а куда хотите поступить?
@@ВишнёваяБулочка-з5п в МГУ)))
@@gossipgirl9425 на лингвтстику? Кстати, а вы изучали английский самостоятельно? Если да, то с каких источников? Или в школе с уклоном на английский?
@@ВишнёваяБулочка-з5п привет ещё раз) извини за поздний ответ, во-первых, мне очень нравится лингвистика, но я хочу поступить на журналистику. Во-вторых, я пока что не удовлетворена знанием языка, хотя моя душа так сильно рвётся наружу, чтобы испариться красивыми английскими строками в атмосфере, что кусочки бумаги, на которых эти слова только будут написаны, уже истлевают, горя от горячего прикосновения контура ручки))) И все-таки, за год самообучения я тоже многое успела сделать - обесценивать себя, тем более за все свои труды, станет просто сущей несправедливостью по отношению к самой себе, к своему будущему, которое предстаёт перед тобой самым светлым и самым лучшим! За этот год я стала переводить все что вижу и не понимаю, смотреть видео-ролики, так как язык должен восприниматься на звук, на второй месяц я уже так дышала мечтой влиться в язык, что купила себе пару книжек, правда, первую из них читаю до сих пор) но это не исключает моего желания поскорее приступить ко второй! Весной я решала сборник Murphy ( он хорош для грамматики), и может быть это немного облегчило мне понимание языка, но самое эффективное, на мой взгляд, - чтение. Но это я говорю, ещё будучи незнакомой с разговорной практикой) вот тогда, я думаю, я действительно заживу. Ещё бы! Я чувствую, что моя душа уже забрасывает свои языки пламени на полочки с «моими мечтами», по порядку выбирая самые лучшие из них. Но порой, я чувствую себя всесильной и мне так много хочется сказать! Я читаю русский текст и понимаю, что знаю столько, что смогла бы все это переводить, но, за неимением практики, к сожалению, очень часто забываю слова. С временами дела обстоят по-сложнее, но зато времена группы Perfect достаточно логичны, на мой взгляд. В принципе, этот язык очень логичен. Сейчас подруга одолжила мне Gateway B2 - и, после этого момента я осознала, что вот он мой настоящий уровень. Пока не C1, но разговорный уровень, позволяющий жить заграницей, тоже неплохо, не правда ли? Хотя… очень часто я недовольна собой. И если честно, я считаю это правильным чувством! Чтобы я на расслаблялась
as someone who is in their third year of uni but actually living alone alone, with 0 flatmates, for the first time this year - there is something beautiful about your individual journey into adulthood. no two experiences are the same, so try and not get too caught up in comparing your journey to others.
i missed my alevels and first year of uni bc of lockdown, so part of me feels like i’m still 17. but physically, i’m 20, no longer a teenager, it’s fucking weird but you get used to it after a while lol
thank u for the video, it was beautiful ~~~ look after yourself !!
For anyone reading this who’s scared about growing up/moving out, I had a full on existential crisis when I turned seventeen worrying about turning eighteen and having to move out the following year. I am now just starting my first year of uni and I just have to say that the growth you do in that one year is absolutely insane (at least it was for me). Try and think about where you were last year and how much you’ve changed since then. That much change and more will happen in this next year! I promise you’re going to be fine and I believe in you! Lean on those around you who love and care about you and try and be as open to life as possible! Much love to every single one of you x
this is so sweet and helpful, thank you!! 💚 i have my ib exams in may, and am applying to uni soon. so confused!
@@VivaciousLyla Good luck! I have every faith in you and I’m sure you’re going to smash them! xxx
I've literally been thinking the exact same thing about going to uni next year. It's a very sweet and sour concept because theres so many new things i'll experience but it also feels like i'm leaving my childhood behind, like leaving my family and saying goodbye to my friends that i've had for the longest time.
Everything you said about growing up was so relatable. I´ve also just started my final year of high school, I´m turning 18 in November,
I´ve never lived anywhere other than my childhood home and I have no idea where I´ll be this time next year. As much as I love my home, there is this part of me that really wants to leave and see more of the world. But at the same time, the thought of leaving can be terrifying because there´s just so much I don´t know yet... Anyways, it is so comforting to see that other people are going through the exact same thing right now :)
It's really daunting to me that I'm on the tail end of my time spent with my parents, my brother, my grandparents, my childhood friends etc. As a kid you spend nearly all of your time with them, then when you go to school, it slowly becomes less and less, and next year when uni starts and I move out It might be that I only see my family every couple of weeks. That means I've probably spent about 85% of my time with my family that i will ever spend, it's really confronting to think about. At the same time, I'm excited to finally have a go at making a change in the world, being respected a bit more, having the independence to live where I want, do what I want etc. I wasn't the type of person that loved school but I always understood that it's a time where I always have a safety net made for me. Now I have to make my own safety net, learn to climb on my own. I'm excited for the future, and excited to try to solve some problems in the world.
growing up is a bitter and sweet thing
i’m 19 and this year i graduated from school and for me it was the most overwhelming thing i’ve ever experienced. i was so lost and i started to feel really depressed because i didn’t know what i wanted to do with my life while i felt like everyone else did and i was just so scared in general. i’m still struggling with anxiety and depression but i just wanna say u really don’t have to figure everything out by now! please just take ur time, u have enough’
Im at the same place, also 19 and I feel so lost. I've had a existential crisis and been so anxious every day because it stresses me out so much that I dont know what I want. Everyone tells me that I'm not supposed to know yet, and I've started to accept that. I'm just trying as much stuff as I can and trying to be okay with being unsure of my identity and where I want to go next..
your channel was made for autumn. can’t wait to keep watching you this winter :) and thank you for talking about getting older and things changing as that’s something that plays on my mind
I don’t know how I got to this channel, but I’m so thankful that I did. Your way of seeing things is so beautiful and also so relatable. I really cannot explain, I just felt home while watching it. Plus, the combination of showing your day and this crazy (but also valid) realization you had several days later really had me fascinated.
love this and absolutely love watching your vids! brings such a breath of fresh air and calming energy. september has been weird
September is weird for me too..
So many ups and downs
but your video makes my day tho
being a 15 year old being SO SCARED and loathing growing up, this has made me feel a bit better about it all. it’s just so scary. so thank u xxxx
I just turned 20 and I feel what you are saying. I’ve been moved out of my childhood home for 2 years being at uni and it’s still a weird adjustment for me. I feel like a lot of people just move or accept change and get on with their lives but I never understood that, I still feel 18. I think Covid ruined that for a lot of young people as well as literally everything else it’s ruined
Every sentence of your paragraph is describing me fr😭 I turned 20 last month and i still feel 17. I am having anxiety attacks bc of that. I am seeing the people on the internet that feel like me exact the same way. It relieves me cuz i am not the only one who thinks that. We need to fix this but i really dont know how. Therapy is so expensive🥲
i feel u :') i'm turning 20 next march and i still feel like 17... i can't believe how much my responsibilities have changed and how everyone from my grade in school know what they're doing or at least know what they want to do. and here i am having absolutely no plan at all :') it's so scary hahaha
@@justnicole4030 omg I am too gonna turn 20 in March lol!! And I also feel you, I got so used to being a teenager that now it just hit me.."oh wow I'm not gonna be a teen for life"..went through a real tough blurry time but it eased eventually(at least inside my head fingers crossed for irl)
@@ilayd6257 the anxiety attacks are too real 😭 it's reassuring knowing that we aren't alone in feeling this way, and therapy is expensive but you could try meditating! i use headspace it really helps me calm down my anxiety :) don't hesitate getting help if you have the means though, therapy literally changed my life
@@justnicole4030 i feel you!! the people that make it seem like they have everything figured out are definitely just as lost as you and me.. everything will work out how its meant to :)
It's so interesting to see you talking about this. In Brazil we have to decide what career we want to pursue at the age of 16 (I've just decided mine and I'm going to go to university), but we don't have to leave our parents' house. I'm going to go to university when I'm 17 and still live with my family. I would personally love to have the experience of leaving home to go study at 18, but here in Brazil this is not very common.
I love rewatching your video they’re so calming ❤
September IS WEIRD!!! I never could stick an adjective to the month but I always feel so exhausted and mentally drained. Your video felt comforting and refreshing like it’s not just me! Sending good vibes for this school year 🫶🏻
i feel like your videos always come at the perfect time! september does feel weird for those who struggle with changes,but knowing that we are not alone to feel that way is really comforting so thank you for that!
I love September ( I’m a virgo so I’m biased) but its definitely a weird time, so oddly nostalgic but theres so many new things that you’ve introduced too. Its such an amazing time for growth. Glad I found your channel!! Its very nice !!
Okay her vlogs are comforting but she is so pretty too omg 🧡🥺
i kinda agree w/ u about september, it's a confusing month for me. and i just started senior year in HS and all I'm thinking ab is the thought of moving out is scary, but i came to realize that we all need to change to make our future better (if that even makes sense...) btw, when u uploaded ur vid it made me forget all the bad things and immediately made my day 100x better :] i luv u caryss .
your vids allways comfort me in another level,please never stop
I am a sorta oldie (RUclips brought me here) and I think it’s so sweet how y’all are sharing this type of comforting content with one another. I would have loved to have had this sort of thing during this time in my own life… instead we millennials got that cursed Graduation (Friends Forever) song.
I love watching your videos so much. They bring me so much comfort 💗
I moved out of my house and my country at 18 last year and I've been living alone for almost a year now and it's been such an experience. It's a very emotional process but its 100% worth it.
I actually really get the whole COVID thing. We missed a massive chunk of year 10 and 11 so it feels so mad being an adult in like 2 weeks 😭
i've just move out not only from my childhood house but also from my country, super weird experience i've been extremely scared bout. i totally relate my year ago self to what you said. I feel like there is no good advice, but moving out to new place is itself sooo exciting, you develop throught a few months and you can basically design your life from fundaments
Completely completely agree on the start of the school year. It’s such a hard transition, I always feel super weird around that time
that is so true. I had freshly turned 13 when covid had hit. and since a few months things have started to change, we're out in the world again, I just always feel like I'm stuck in my 13 year old self.I still mentally feel 13 & I hate it 😭
your videos make the world a better place ♡
i'm now in my last semester of undergrad, almost 23, and finally feeling inner peace and a sense of home within myself. the passage of time is a hard pill to swallow, but growing into myself has been such a blessing. best of luck to you
as someone who doesnt see fall as the best time of year, i loved this video so much and i felt so good while watching it:)
your room looks SO comfortable and cozy.
I loved the lil conversation ,and honestly I feel a lot less anxious
you seem like such a nice person, i loved this video so much! i’m also going to uni next year and although i’ll probably not move out it still feels scary and weird. much like growing up and september :p subscribed :)
I was feeling really nervous about graduating and the future, but this video really helped me ❤ thx for the advice!
Im 18 and I’m moving out of my home this week too! The difference is ive moved about my whole life, but I’ve never been away from my family. Because nowhere has been stable, wherever my family was has been my home. But I’m moving away from them to the UK for uni, so scared! Good luck to you too ❤
it’s my last year of sixth form too. me and all of my friends keep having conversations about our plans for next year and university, but it always culminates in us saying we’re scared and uncertain. i’ve never been away from my parents for longer than a week and even then we called every day. i feel your nervousness too and it’s nice to hear someone else share their experience :)
your videos are always so comforting, thank you 🫂
I just moved out of my childhood home to a totally new place, not knowing anyone, not having any car. It was scary, of course, but DAMN has it been a wonderful experience!!! Obviously you do have to move eventually but I'd just like to say that you should not feel forced to move out or figure out what you are doing. I graduated in 2021 and took a gap year because I had no idea. That year ws so great for me to not have to be a complete adult and just live at home for awhile. I LOvE gap years and if you think that would be an option that's great!! But also I am so excited for you if you decide to move because like I said, ITS AMAZING!!
I’m in Australia and September is my favourite time of the year because it’s the beginning of summer and it’s almost Christmas !!!
Oh can you give more info about it? As a britsh i cannot describe?✨️
i turned 18 yesterday and this was the most comforting thing ever, thank you
Omg I’ve graduated from uni last year and moved from my parents house only this summer which is quite late but your take about the life being boring if we live in a same place just made me rethink some stuff in my head !
Moving out is literally as exciting as it terrifies me. I am moving to another country next autumn (for university). Of course that is what I dream of, but I am scary to leave my family. I believe it will be hard times for me, but guys, everything comes to an end, and those fears will too. Good luck everyone, and remember to follow your dreams!
the peace i got with your video… i loved your house 🥺 it's totally different from spanish houses
I think this is the best video i saw in a long period of my life, thank you
i actually am moving out of my childhood home of 21 years, and i have 3 days left. I know i’m not emotionally ready for this change as an autistic person, but I’m also so excited for the new change of environment and seeing family members I’ve never been able to spend time with. I’ve also always lived in my hometown, and despite being tired of it, I love it so much. Everything we’ve ever experienced was at our hometowns! Although I’ll still be living with my parents, I’ve already been learning how to navigate life as an autistic+adhd person and what I can do to make money on my own. It’s scary, but I try my best to not think too far into the future :)
I finished school right before lockdown, so I think I was very fortunate to be at the age group I was. I can’t imagine how hard it must be transitioning life in the middle of schooling.
Hey! Carys rachel your vlogs are as always too too wonderful and I really love your vlogs so so much you inspired me so so much and I wish you 200K Subscribers very very soon!✨☺️❤️
I was watching your old videos and the part about leaving home made me cry because I'm starting college and it's my last two weeks at home😭
This video found me at the perfect time. Fell in love with your content
This video brought me so much comfort and joy. Thank you
She’s my comfort RUclipsr.
I can really relate to the whole growing up thing. In my case, I was too excited to grow up and be free because my parents never really let me go out with friends or leave the house without them.
Now I’m 16, and realizing that it’ll happen eventually, much sooner than I realize
And I’ll be free. Maybe not right now, but when the right time comes.
This video is everyhting i love about September.
your cat chillin’ while you’re journaling ❤
I missed these so much I’m so happy
the way this was filmed, edited, ... chefs kiss. i turned 18 a few months ago and uni is kicking my ass. i haven't moved out yet (it's not super common in my country for first years) but i'm slowly becoming ready to go but it's going to be heartbreaking having to leave my childhood home
i love your home and the place you're living in. to me , i had to leave my parents house for study and it was really hard ; lot of days i cry because i miss them; and i miss being taken care of as a teenage girl; but im trying my best to enjoy this time and work better and learning how to love my self and do all what it takes to be there for her especially the last year of highschool and for me in my country ;this year this exam can really draw my future so im working on that!!
im 21 now and lockdown started when i was 18 i feel like i just started my adult phase like i'm still stuck in my 18
gosh, ur bold for putting a cup on ur bed near ur cat too!😭
well hi and thank you for this video because your thoughts totally makes sense and i relate to you so much it made me feel less like i'm the only one feeling that scared but also excited for next year and what it implies so thanks a lot it truly helped me not feeling alone
i just feel rerlax watching this video, thank's for that
In luv with the way this video start ❤️❤️❤️
thank you my love so much for this video. i felt so alone with these confused thoughts about what i should be doing with the upcoming of leaving my childhood home and fending for myself too. It's nice to know we are all kinda living with this uncertainty and i suppose it's our choice to either embrace or fear away from it
it's literally so cold outside as if it was winter already omfg
I've been thinking the same thing about going to uni next year. The thought of living alone scares me soo much. And the thought of being away from family makes me happy and sad at the same time.
your vlogs feel so real 💖
Idk how I got to come across your channel..I’m in my very late thirties from very different country so it’s hard to find any similarities with your life but somehow I’m getting so much comfort from your channel, your videos are so relaxing..and those beautiful nature🥰
I actually had/have the opposite mindset. I’m 20 now but I always wanted to grow up and move out etc. I just moved into my first apartment and I had a bread down the first month. I did NOT want to grow up. All I wanted was to be back in my home with my mom. It’s really weird Lol but that’s just my mind. It is fun but I really don’t like growing up now that I’m an adult (almost 21). Just enjoy every moment until you move out!!
This video was so calming
so weird. i was just thinking about how weird september is and how nothing makes sense somehow haha. this year in particular was one of the scariest i've ever experienced in my life while at the same time i've already been feeling lost for like almost 2 years... everything just came flying at me and now that it's september it feels like the year is going to finally end (even tho that doesn't mean that this hard time ends) but at the same time i am so sad bc i feel that i couldn't really live this year and enjoy the moment. i miss summer. i miss feeling happy when the first flowers start blooming in the beginning of spring. all these things i couldn't experience or they just flew past me bc of bitter worldy circumstances. but new flowers grow and bloom every year despite of the struggles you face in life.. idk september is weird. and it's 2am i need to sleep.
Same here, I just started my first year in university 2 months ago. I left home for the first time.I was excited at first but then turned to be upset. I have to live in dormitory, so I’m always wondering how it feels to live alone. In my point of view, living alone can absolutely help you to deal with your own business and stick to your own plans without others’ interruption😢.
september is always the worst month for me :( so much change
i can literally relate to u :'>>> glad i've found ur channel
Im in love for your hair, you are so sweet e pretty.
Staying the same mental age from before covid is so real
OH MY GOD YOU LIVE IN THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PLACE IVE EVER SEEN
This was most probably my fav video
I feel the exact same as you so very comforting this a common feeling. Thank you for sharing x
This girl always makes me feel better 🌚😇
Love u from Algeria 👀❤
I left this summer. Found an apartment thankfully with my sister but it’s 4 hours away from my home and I transitioned from a small village to the second biggest city in my country. It’s scary I’ve had many panic attacks but honestly it’s a nice adventure.
Your amazing,I see your video and I’m so glod that I find you , keep doing these❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
wow, now that was relatable... i thought i was the only active september hater... i hate september so that i even wrote a full song about it and posted on my insta at the start of the month...lmao to that... this video was hella relatable
I was in grade 11 when we went into lockdown so when I graduated last year, it felt weird. I remember thinking “this isn’t how graduating is supposed to feel”. Now I’m 19 and turning 20 in less than 2 weeks. Growing up is uncomfortable yet beautiful
ur growing so fast omg
oh my god you look like bella hadid you re so pretty! i love your videos, they are really comforting
this was such a comforting video
I love your videos! could you please make a video about your book collection, and give ratings or suggestions? I would love that so much ☺🫶
I'm 18 in two weeks, and like... what? I remember my first day of highschool, my first sentance was 'I can't wait to be 4th year and get out of here'. Bzt now I love my highschool. It might put crazy academic prrssure on me and got my mentality bit shittier in that field, but also I learned so much, also my hs has loads of good programs and fun things and like...I want more of it. I just got out of lockdown last srmester and...It was so fun! We had 100 of celebrations and school clubs and we have a thing where at April, there is a week off classes and the whole week is filled with different activities (minni footbal, basketball, some more sports, us drama club make a huge play and our local theatre lets us perform it on their stage, biology club makes expreciments, literature club makes everyone write poems, cooking competition and last is HUGE competition between classses in with one has a best costume- something like halloween in america). Plus some more things, but it would be too much to write it. And...Because of corona, I experienced nothing of it. I never went to the grade school trip, I never had a reaserch presentation in classes I haver had that fun part of school that made it easier to be in. I was also locked up as a freshmen (15) and lost all of my school experience and I won't forgive that to a Universe.
I literally agree with you.. I can't believe I'm about too turn 17 next year.. 😭😭😭 OHMYGOD..
I love your videos, they are amazing!!
Im 16 yo and its my last year in school and i start feeling grown up.idk why but maibe its because im the first child in my family and i just cant accepte the fact that i will move out my childhood home .ily
i love you carys
September still feels weird after all these years.
omg same me and my friends too. we're 19 yrs old now but mentally we are still 16 😭