Don’t worry about sharing “too much information”. It’s important to share those parts. It’s your reality. Eating disorders aren’t glamorous and they can be gross. Thank you for sharing your story!!
I lost my period for about a year and when I got it back, I felt like a failure. To me, not having it was a sign of achievement. And they just suck in general so I enjoyed not having to deal with it haha
S Smith Doesn't matter if you don't want children. Not having a period is a sign your hormones are in a detrimental state. This can extremely negatively affect your brain and your organs and cause cancer. It can also cause severe mental disorders. I hope you've gotten help by now.
I know this is a long time ago but maybe this will help someone. Your period is like your monthly report card. It shows your body is functioning as it should. When we are malnourished our bodies will shut down reproduction as it is non essential to our survival and will divert nutrients to keeping your organs functioning. Guess what is also non essential? Having nice hair and skin, these are all connected to hormonal health. And finally bone health! We need adequate levels of estrogen for healthy bones. Not having a period (ie not having healthy levels of hormones) puts you at risk for Osteoporosis. So take it from me as a 35 year old woman whose lost half her hair and has Osteoporosis, you want to have a period! You might not care now but I've had some form of Ed (swing between bulimia and ano behaviours) for 20 years and it's ruined my life. Not worth it!!
Even when I was a normal weight, my dad told me I was fat and needed to lose weight from a young age (12), so I was avoiding food as much as possible for about 1/2 a year. I lost a bunch of weight (46 pounds, originally 116 pounds) and he was happy until I was sent to the hospital for starving, to get treatment. I'm currently 13 and 99.25 lbs and now anytime I eat I get cramps. You should never let anyone influence how you feel about your looks. Be happy with yourself.
i feel like this is such a good informational video for those that have just started or only have a short amount of time with behaviors just because it will help them see reasons for them to STOP now! sooner than later
Aimee Contreras well actually I've been on and off with it for 2 years so I'm not new to it but it did go for a while it's only recently I've been more obsessive
Emma Bell It's not a decision. It just happens, usually after some trigger like not fitting into old clothes, or watching a RUclips video about how many calories are in food.
i had suffer with anorexia when i was 16 ( young and cared to much what people thought) and i developed fainting and blackouts, 6 years since then i still suffer with fainting and no matter how much food i eat, i faint on a daily basic between 1-5 times a day, and have had seizers from fainting too. being skinny is so not worth the issue it causes longterm after. also had IBS but luckly went away with time. don't do it kids, not worth it!
Natasha Jerjomina I'm so sorry you've had to go through all that! I'm lucky my complications weren't that bad. God bless you! This is so helpful for me to see this!
Have you been to a doctor?? That sounds very dangerous, and could be something other than anorexia side effect! Is there any medication you can take? Can you feel it before hand so you quickly lay down and don't fall and hurt yourself 5 times a day?? I'm so sorry for you!
You are so pretty 😍 I developed anorexia a long time ago, recovered, relapsed and recently started recovering again. It never went THIS far for me, but close, and whenever y start falling back I watch this video and it reminds to stay strong, thank you so much 💙
+Adriana Valdés Hey Adriana! Thank you for sharing, I hope you are doing good in you recovery, it's so worth it. I am the same, I always remind myself of all the negative effects. It's good to start living again :) Stay strong, keep fighting. Be free. Much love to you.
I hided my ED a long time and tried recovery by myself... But it already affected me too much... I have a irregular heartbeat and whenever I have sports at school it beats so fast, that I can't control it and it makes me very worried...
I'll sound like a teenage boy now, but oh well :D 1. You look even more gorgeous with this hat on 2. I could watch a 30 min video of you talking about gardening and would still enjoy it (I hate gardening) 3. I think I wanted to say something inspirational/motivating/reassuring here but I totally forgot what it was because I'm tired. So let's just pretend I did and I'll hit the hay ;)
thank you for sharing, you didn't take up too much time or share too much - you told us exactly what we needed to hear - and that's the truth. I hope you have a long lasting and successful recovery and I am very grateful that you had the courage to open up about the long and short term implications of anorexia nervosa. :)
Thank you for making this. I have been suffering for 12 1/2 years and I have not had my period for many years, and am wondering if I have developed ibs as well. Keep spreading awareness, it is something our medical system, in EVERY country, has to tackle.
Thank you for sharing about what you've been going through. I'm sorry you have had it for so long, I sincerely hope you will recover one day Barbara. I'm not sure how long your period has been absent for & if you have been examined for osteoporosis but it's something I wish I'd been warned about. Much love.
You're so beautiful, on the inside and outside. You radiate such a light that it's so difficult to realize that you've suffered so much. I admire you. I used to have anorexia and my worst long term effect is digestive. I have to eat a lot of fiber to combat it. And, I still miss it. I know I shouldn't but I do.Thank you for offering a nonjudgmental video to help other anorexics.
+Shannon Ryan Ugh digestion, never a fun issue. I get you when you say you miss it but it is good you are in a better place. I miss one specific thing about it but I have to remind my self that, that one thing I like about it is not worth giving up my life for. Keep moving forward, your strength in life inspires others.
Just FYI, since Dani didn't mention this in the video and it's hugely important: bone density loss is DIRECTLY linked to not having your period. Don't ask me to explain the science of it, but if you aren't having your period due to low body weight, YOU ARE RAPIDLY AND IRREPARABLY LOSING BONE MASS. I'm not saying this to try to scare anyone into getting well. It's just a fact and it's important. But here's the thing: as long as you ARE having your period, you're probably not losing a ton of bone mass. You could be right on the edge of losing your period, but as long as you weight just enough that you still menstruate, you won't end up with the bones of a seventy year old woman when you're twenty five. WHY is this not common knowledge for anorexics? This should be something every anorexic knows about, so that she can make an informed decision whether brittle, elderly bones is a price she's prepared to pay. I know it won't stop many anorexics from starving. I'm not sure whether it would've stopped me when I was in it. But it's incredibly important info, nonetheless. Here's the documentary that talks about this: ruclips.net/video/2-uBZk89qM0/видео.html Go to 27:58 for the relevant info.
For some CRAZY reason, even at my lowest of low weights, despite menstruation becoming slightly irregular/it might skip a month here and there, I never really lost my period 😳 I only know this because I would come off the contraceptive pill for a few months (I started taking it at 17 to help my acne) just to see if I was 'thin enough' to have lost my period. I never did. After 8 years of suffering anorexia, at the age of 24 I FINALLY got an opportunity to be treated by one of only 5 'specialised eating disorder psych ward beds' in my whole state. Their psychological management was pretty bad, but their medical monitoring was REALLY GOOD! This resulted in me turning up for my first ever bone density scan and at that point in my life, after 8 years of anorexia, I was at LEAST 'mentally preparing myself' for osteopenia 😬 My mouth absolutely DROPPED when the specialist said (regarding my bone density), "you're right in the middle of 'normal' for your age"... I was like, "how the hell did I get that lucky?!" But now you mention the connection between production of hormones for menstruating ALSO effecting bone density, I guess all my years 'taking the contraceptive pill' meant that I was somehow still getting the particular hormones I also needed for bone density! Now after reading this my bone scan results make SO MUCH MORE SENSE!
In 'simple terms', it has to do with the production of certain hormones (e.g. the hormones which cause you to menstruate). If your body is in 'starvation mode', basically your body is 'scared that you're not able to get enough food, so it tries to 'conserve energy' by turning off 'inessential processes' such as your period by REDUCING the production of hormones which allow this to happen. Unfortunately, the production of some of these hormones is ALSO essential to gain and keep bone density. So if these hormones have 'shut down' because your body is freaking out that it's starving (which it is), you not only lose your period but you also lose the particular hormones associated with that which give you a normal, healthy bone density. Hope that makes sense!
Thank you for this. My hair and teeth never recovered. My body doesn't hold iron well either. I also had a colonoscopy because I had symptoms of IBS and Crohns. But they never found anything. No one ever suggested an eating disorder until later on. I didn't think I had one either, I thought it was fine to control my eating, and that everyone was weird and enjoyed being fat (they weren't fat though) when they didn't have to be.
Its crazy how many people have or had eating disorders without even knowing about it! I had one on and off for the past year! and I wish I wasn't so good at hiding it, bc maybe I would have got help sooner. But anyways! finding Veganism and videos like this one helped me so much!!! Thanks for sharing your experience. Its makes me happy to think that just by you posting this is going to help so many people, And that's pretty amazing!!! so thank you
Hi Bailey! RUclips hid your comment in "waiting for approval" section for some reason. Aw yay I am glad you are doing better and well done for getting to a better place! And happy to meet a fellow vegan ;)
Cece Naoma Hey! So good to hear from you, I really love your blog, I must of found it from one of your videos last year, your blog posts/vlogs are so real, honest and so conversational (engaging is probably better word!). It is very relatable! Keep sharing and building awareness but also I hope one day you will experience even more freedom in your own life, not to please others but because you will know how amazing you truly are as a person, loved, valued and worth taking care of.
Things a lot for sharing your experience. Is important to be aware of all the consecuentes. I admire the strenght you take to make this vídeos. You aré beautiful, trust me, but moré in you
A very important thing nobody told me recovering is that you need to strengthen your core muscles. The ones we use when we sit, stand, walk, bend forward etc. I began exercising lots immidietly and got SO BAD BACKPAIN, I had to take morphine pills. Through the years I've slowly worked it up, with physiotherapists and on my own, so it's better. But before I lost weight I never had any troubles. Now - everyday. So guys and girls - do Yoga, pilates, or another CALM exercise when you're weight restored. Take it easy and slowly strengthen your back, stomach, knees etc. Go SLOW!
Stop apologizing this is great information to let ppl know that eating disorder aren’t glamorous and can permanently effect you! Your so beautiful and I rlly appreciate this video not only for me but for others I know❤️
thank you for posting this video. my cousin was one of the unfortunate ones who couldn't beat anorexia and I had been looking for a video made by someone who went through what she did. I always wanted to know what was happening to her while all this was going on. you can find tons of articles online explaining this disorder but they're usually from the eyes of a medical doctor or psychiatrist; or they're quoting their patient's words. you posted a very informative, organized and eye opening video and I'm glad I found it. I'm happy to see that you look quite healthy and have a cheerful attitude. I hope more of whom have suffered from this disorder can get past it as you have
Thank you for sharing. I'm so sorry to hear about your cousin, I can't imagine how you and her family must feel. Grief is one of the worst things anyone can go through in life. Please look after yourself as much as possible too. I'm glad you wrote about your cousin, not many take it seriously that people do die from Anorexia and I hope others see your comment.
Crazily Dani I saw my cousin go through the whole thing for nearly 10 years, she went into therapy a few times and she almost died once before. she was hiding under baggy clothing for a few years then I assumed she gave up on that disguise when it started to show on her face. her skin was gray, she had deep bags under her eyes, her cheeks barely hid the bones underneath, and that's just her face. once she started having to dress for warmer weather, is see that her wrists were just bone, her legs were all bone, she had no fat on her at all, not even the good kind. she was so tiny, wearing kid sizes for clothing. our last conversation was of something trivial but I'll never forget it. to anyone else reading this: I know it's easy to say "don't do it", it's easy to say anything. it's the "doing" part that people get stuck with. I'll never know why she went so far down this path, it's a very personal struggle. I couldn't help her, not her mom or dad or sister, even. they might have tried but it was already too late
Thank you so, so much for creating this video! I am currently relapsing, recovering, relapsing, recovering, ect. (from *anorexia*) and am trying very desperately to get myself back on track. However, I am experiencing just about every single one of those symptoms that you described (in addition to brain fog), with the exception of sore throat, tooth decay, and osteoporosis (so far as I'm aware, at least!). I'm so totally stressed with my body right now that I don't know what to do, how to handle how it's behaving, and how long this suffering will continue. While knowing that some of these things may be with me long-term isn't the most comforting thought in the world, it is nice to know that what's happening is at least somewhat normal. Goodness. I wish I could turn back the clock and have done things differently. :C Much love for the video, and many thanks once again! ♥ (P.S.) You are so pretty, and I LOVE how your lip gloss looks! It's beautiful on you!
You're really pretty. Also, thanks for this video, its really informational. I feel like more people should see this video so they know how Anorexia is. I hope you're better!
Thank you for sharing! I feel like people who think eating disorders are a choice or a diet gone wrong need to see this... I did the same thing with my period! I was so happy I had lost it (partially cause i hate periods and partially because I knew I was losing weight) but it felt very good to know it came back when I was in recovery! To anyone just starting these behaviours or have been doing them for a while and haven't gotten help- please do! I know you think its what you want now but it really isn't. Please get help! xx
Thanks for the honesty, just wanted to say you can totally make the stretch marks better (almost invisible) through "dry brush massages", it's nothing scary, you can do it at home by yourself, there are videos about it here on yt and it also helps increase the heart rate. And good luck to everyone here...🌺
Honesty is never TMI, my dear... it's helpful. I've been through everything you described, and my teeth? Well, let's just say that the store-bought ones look good (that was a joke). You've done a great service by being so honest about what the disease does to our bodies, and I thank you for it. Stay strong, and never, ever apologize for telling a truth which will (we can hope) help people still in the initial stage where they have a choice... before the hell and the insanity set in. "Seek treatment' is the best advice I've ever heard on one of these recovery videos (my therapist told me to watch due to a bit of a restricting relapse, and for once, I'm doing as told because I do *not* want to take myself back to hell). Seriously, my child, this video has uplifted me. Je te remercie.
crazilyloved Sisters in recovery... and we have *nothing to be ashamed of*. An illness doesn't mean weak character or bad morals or whatever the uninformed might think. I'll tell you what: there is so much misinformation about eating disorders floating around, and if there's another woman my age willing to be upfront about having suffered for so many decades, I don't know who she is. My dear, the treatment fads and theories... from psychics (bogus) to recovered memories (false) to trance channelers (crazy stuff) oh you wouldn't believe what-all they (various therapists) have told/done to me through the years. Hmmm... I might just need to make my own video. Seriously, why not? How many middle-aged women in recovery has *anyone* seen??? I've done a lot of theater and a few films... don't put it past me... I was anorexic before Lifetime movies, before the internet, before it was cool, before thinspo, before anyone had ever heard the word... ha ha ha! Soldier on!
Days ago my husband said I'm fat and that I'm always hungry. So for days now I have hardly eaten anything and drink more water and coffee to stop hunger and I exercise to tone my body
Late to find you but thanks for your video! I never considered myself anorexic but have been somewhat underweight most my life (my mom restricted food as a form of punishment) after I got emancipated from that abusive household I turned to opiates which kept me underweight for another 5-6 years. Anyway I have maybe less severe of these long-term effects but still very relatable. Thank you for sharing this information. Much love to you and I dig your style and Irish accent!
Thanks a lot go another awesome educational video, it's not an easy subject and you handle it so well, it really does speak volumes for you :) I hope things continue to get better everyday and that you have a great week
Hi Eisha, no not necessarily. It can depend on how long it was gone for & also other health factors that aren't anorexia related. I know women who naturally got pregnant after having no period for years. I also know another lady who didn't have it for 13 years but with doctors help & 2 of years of ivf treatment she now has a healthy baby girl.
It kinda depends on how long you had your period before hand like I had my period for 4 months and then I developed anorexia and learned that I was infertile (in between the ages of 12 and 16 I mean) until I stopped and recovered
Hey Dani..I wanted to say thank you for this, i am just sad i did not read this a year ago.The weird thing was when you said about a lump on your left side of the abdomen , i had the same and got it checked, i thought i had some illness as my whole body was hurting all the time at my lowest weight, they said is a hernia but when they did the ultrasound they said no, that i made it up or something, now i understand .Thank you and i can relate to all of your symptoms, chest pain and insomnia.Awful times
I was bulimic, I stopped because my esophagus started to bleed. This was 5 years ago. I also have IBS and did suffer from a sore throat for some time afterward too.
I SWEAR the digestion problems are one of the most uncomfortable things ever. I hate having someone over or be at somebody else's home because you never know how your body will react if you eat anything or more than the usual. Also, I'm glad you made this video, it made me feel less alone since I'm suffering from it for almost 9 years :) (Especially at the part with your veins popping out when it's warmer, that's something I just recently talked about with someone :D) Is it normal though, that my heart rate is usually around 120? I feel like it should "normally" be lower when you're having Anorexia, but mine has always been so high even though I don't have other blood pressure problems which could cause this.
So so SO happy you caught this young,it took me almost thirty years to start getting better and fourteen months into remission,goodness,i wish my eight year old self could feel what its like at almost fourty after doing this!!i belive i mentioned this but ive lived with chronic pain thats worse every year in my low back,pelvis and left hip with sciatica,keep the bones u have now,i take calcium plus vitamin d and most of my teeth are gone as well as infertility,i never wanted kids but i need to menstruate and luckily i have been regular for ten months as the bones get worse acter menopause since i belive u know,to absorb calcium,we need to have a period.best of luck!:)
Thank you for sharing this Christina, I'm so sorry you experience all of this. I actually teared up hearing a snippet of what you went through. Also, you woke me up. I haven't been taking any Calcium or Vit D. Even though I can get it free on prescription. I'm going to order more on Monday. Thank you for sharing this publicly, it could really help others. Many hugs to you Christina.
i've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder because i think i've been able to hide any symptoms well. but in the back of my head, i know i have an issue. my parents have made comments that i look "anorexic" for years now, but i've never decided to mention anything to them. a few of my close friends know about my issues with food, but that's about it. i started noticing weight loss when i was around 16 and i'm now 21 and currently at my lowest weight and i experience more than half of these symptoms you listed (about 80% of it). i don't know if i have an eating disorder of not, because i've never wanted to self diagnose, but after all the research i've done i think i definitely have something. i'm too afraid to seek for help though, my parents are already very misunderstanding about my other mental illnesses, i don't feel like i need to add another one. :/
+stylinzon Are you seeing anyone for your other illnesses? If you are you could mention something to them. Even if (for whatever reason) your parents have some form of custody over you still, any health professional (mental or otherwise) cannot tell them without your consent I definitely understand the whole not wanting to add something like that to your parent's plate, especially when there have been previous misunderstandings. Trying to convince my parents that social anxiety not only is an actual thing, but something prevalent in my life, has been and still continues to be one of the most difficult things I've had to do, and now in order to have accommodation that will allow me to take my educator's exams I need further documentation of my LD's which means I need more testing, which has to go through their insurance. Which means that I have to convince them that more than the "specific learning" general assessment made by the school is necessary, and worth $3,000. So, sorry I just ranted at you about that, but I know what it's like to not want to add these things to "the list". It does sound to me like you could have an eating disorder, and I really think you could benefit from at least having someone to talk to. I'd say mention something about maybe a potentially unhealthy relationship with food, or abnormal eating habits, or something like that, to a psychologist or psychiatrist if you are seeing one or the next time you go to your gp's office. They should have resources there to help you, and even to help you help your parents to understand. I really hope you get the help you need and understanding care you deserve
I’m not sure if I even have Anorexia, but I’m experiencing these symptoms, dizziness, cold all the time etc. I’m absolutely TERRIFIED of gaining weight and weigh myself at least twice a day. I have a lot of rules as well. Idek what to do😔 I’m still overweight as well
Ok I thought some of these things were just me! Thank you so much for uploading this, you're such a gorgeous gal and I'm so glad you're doing much better now :*
It should do, though of course I cannot say for sure because I am not a doctor but I know plenty of people who go back to a balanced nutritious diet regain back their hair loss over time. You're hair reflects your diet 2-3 months ago, so if you have been eating well for over the last few months or more, it should start to come back but it will take time. Be patient and look after yourself, I wish you all the best on your recovery journey!
I got diagnosed with anorexia (purging type) a couple of weeks after my 21st birthday/4 months ago but I also have Silent Reflux disease, so I get really bad sore throats even when I'm restricting because I had black coffee to keep my energy up but it irritated my stomach. Your videos are helping me with my recovery :) Ana can be beaten and I've realised that after 7 years of recovery and relapsing x
Gracie Cowan Keep going strong Gracie, thank you so much for sharing and being honest, it will help others to se your comment I really hope some of your stomach and throat symptons will ease more as you heal xx
I watched this video for a bit of research into the accuracy of one of my favorite comics (jthm by Jhonen Vasquez, the story of a mentally disturbed man named Johnny) and after hearing bits and pieces of your story I must say coo toes to you for over coming it and thanks, now I know my comic is pretty accurate.
I’m the only guy here lol. When I was 14 I began starving myself and had anorexia until I was 18. I was constipated for 4 years and am still really scrawny. The thing that still upsets me though is that I’m only 5”8. That’s not too small but my dad is 6”2 and my mom is 5”9. I was gonna be tall but now I’m below average. It’s sad, man
I just wanted to post this. When I was a teenager, I was anorexic. I starved to lose weight. I was never Regular with my period so somehow I managed To get pregnant after I got married.All.of a sudden, I had new problems that became more important than losing weight. For one thing, we had house payments, doctor visits, utility bills,etc. For the first time I can remember, when the baby was born, there was NO TIME TO OBSESS ABOUT MY WEIGHT. HE SEEMED TO WANT ATTENTION 24/7. WHEN HE SLEPT, I was too tired to think about food. I had a new baby every year and this cured me of my anorexia. I just didn't have time to eat, I wanted to sleep instead
She doesn't mention getting sick here but restricting will wreck your immune system too you know how restricting depletes bone density? it also impacts bone marrow where your body produces the white blood cells that fight infections the result is that you get sick more often and when you do your symptoms are more intense and last longer
Hope your are doing better. Some tips for dental health. If you ever do purge, don't brush your teeth before rinsing your mouth out well. Otherwise, you could add to the overall damage of your enamel since residual stomach acid would be remaining on your teeth. Even better, a quick rinse with some baking soda will neutralize the hydrochloric acid. Also include a enamel strengthening toothpaste like Pronamel. Take care!
+cliff burton Hey Cliff! Sorry late reply. Yes, helpful tips, ofcourse not doing it is 100 time way better. I don't do it anymore but it's good for others to read if they struggle with, so thanks for sharing :)
well, ive experienced a LOT of hair loss and low iron. i started eating a lot less around 1 year ago, but not enough to be considered an eating disorder. but recently ive started purging after eating, and restricting calories....
Did you get nauseous and sensation of throwing up all the time after the anorexia stage? Or any gastric problems like heartburn and acid reflux? Because I'm getting them all and I'm trying to eat but is hard bc everything hurts when i eat it, and the doctors say im clear of everything
Princess Livvie you can get Bio Oil at your chemist/pharmacy (at least in Australia you can!) Just ask someone who works there if they have it 🤷♀️ It's in a white box with orange on it and basically you just put some oil on your skin and gently rub it in. I personally used it for self-harm scars BUT that also means that once the scars went white, they didn't disappear anymore 😕 I only found Bio Oil helpful in regards to the fact that it helped speed up the recovery process of my skin and my scars would change from red/purple to white in a MUCH shorter amount of time! So it MAY only turn stretch marks white, but it WILL increase the speed in which that happens 😊
I've found Bio Oil helpful from turning red/purple scars to white. Does anyone have any personal experience with Bio Oil getting rid of stretch marks/scars once they've turned white?
Not too much information. This is good. Will the Osteoporosis decrease after 10 years (all cells in body completely new 10 years) or do the holey bones stay the same? Amazing isn't it. Everyone's a new human (sort of) every ten years.
I have a question, I have anorexia and I have had it for a year now but my heart beats are normal and my blood pressure is amazing!!! (says my docter) is this strange or does anyone else have this too?
I've been in recovery for two weeks and have binged every night. I just did tonight and it was a semi-binge. I had some control but chose not to stop. I think I'm developing BED, and I am scared. (14 year old male 5'7). I'm not on any eating plan either
Danny U made me realize that I'm in my recovery period. My aneroxic period wasn't so bad but I did have most of ur symptoms . It scares me as I have signs and the exact symptoms of ur permanent list. How can I stop over eating to solve my stress which I don't do purposely obviously or else I could help myself. And how can I avoid binge eating and throwing up with guilt? If I go to a doctor In my country they would immediately put me on weight gain or appetizer syrup and milks. Not a very good method but ours is conventional!
Hey, thanks for sharing. It's good to find out if you are really overeating or not eating enough which makes our bodies uncontrollably want to eat a lot more then we are used to which feels like over eating. For a long time I thought I was over eating but it was my anorexia that thought I was eating a lot but really my body was just eager to get in necessary calories asap. If you are genuinely eating a lot more than a healthy person should eat for their age and activity levels etc then I don't have a simple answer. I still struggle with stress eating sometimes, even if I am eating about 2000 calories. I've worked through a lot of my stress levels because I realised I am in control of whether I get stressed or not. That can help but sometimes it's hard to control stress when very bad things happen. I eat a lot more nutritious foods now, which are less addictive but still give me the nutrients my body really needs. Also they tend to be higher in fibre which fills you up when binging but I don't like fibre in my stomach because I feel very full and uncomfortable but it's better than being full of pure junk with no nutrients. I just try deal with the full feeling it gives me because I can't afford damaging my heart, teeth etc anymore and wasting money spent of good food. Even though I hate the feeling of food in my stomach, I get through it day by day but I don't feel guilty anymore because I'm helping my body and now I finally have respect for my body after all these years. I don't feel guilty anymore when eating because I programmed myself all day everyday until I believed and knew that it's only my anorexic mind that makes me feel that way and in reality food is good, it gives me to energy and strength go on adventures, have a job, go out with friends, feel better, look better etc. It took me 10 years to get to this mindset but I hope you get here much much quicker 💛
Don't worry about the TMI stuff- when I was sick I wish I knew that the stomach symptoms would literally look just like crohns or ulcerative colitis...I also had to have a colonoscopy only to find out that my ED had fucked up my stomach and exacerbated my IBS :/
The throat does take time to heal, mine is a lot better now. Even after we consistently eat well, it will take at least a few months before you see improvements in your hair. Certain foods are more beneficial than others for producing healthier hair, as you already know I'm sure 😊 Wishing you lots of health and wellness.
Mine healed over time. I used to suck on throat sweets but it actually made it worse. Drinking a lot of water can help ease a bit too. Though I did wonder if mine was not 100% restored yet because if I talk a lot it hurts but perhaps that happens to everyone.
Thanks for this video! Just a question...you got your period back, but it sounded like you were saying your infertility was permanent. Do you know if your fertility came back after having your period back for a while?
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Don’t worry about sharing “too much information”. It’s important to share those parts. It’s your reality. Eating disorders aren’t glamorous and they can be gross. Thank you for sharing your story!!
I lost my period for about a year and when I got it back, I felt like a failure. To me, not having it was a sign of achievement. And they just suck in general so I enjoyed not having to deal with it haha
S Smith I still feel the same as you but I now see the importance of having it if I want a family in the future
crazilyloved I'm one of those crazy people who don't want kids so I still don't care much for those monthly "gifts" :P
S Smith Doesn't matter if you don't want children. Not having a period is a sign your hormones are in a detrimental state. This can extremely negatively affect your brain and your organs and cause cancer. It can also cause severe mental disorders. I hope you've gotten help by now.
I’m experiencing the same thing right now. I honestly am worried but glad because of my lack of menstrual cycle. :(
I know this is a long time ago but maybe this will help someone. Your period is like your monthly report card. It shows your body is functioning as it should. When we are malnourished our bodies will shut down reproduction as it is non essential to our survival and will divert nutrients to keeping your organs functioning. Guess what is also non essential? Having nice hair and skin, these are all connected to hormonal health. And finally bone health! We need adequate levels of estrogen for healthy bones. Not having a period (ie not having healthy levels of hormones) puts you at risk for Osteoporosis. So take it from me as a 35 year old woman whose lost half her hair and has Osteoporosis, you want to have a period! You might not care now but I've had some form of Ed (swing between bulimia and ano behaviours) for 20 years and it's ruined my life. Not worth it!!
Even when I was a normal weight, my dad told me I was fat and needed to lose weight from a young age (12), so I was avoiding food as much as possible for about 1/2 a year. I lost a bunch of weight (46 pounds, originally 116 pounds) and he was happy until I was sent to the hospital for starving, to get treatment. I'm currently 13 and 99.25 lbs and now anytime I eat I get cramps. You should never let anyone influence how you feel about your looks. Be happy with yourself.
Elizabeth Duah-Mensahike like I have said sexism kills!
My parents tell me to eat more even though I'm normal
Did you exercise
I have the exact same story as you.. at least my dad understands his mistake now but the psychological scar doesn’t go away that easily. :/
Im 14 an 80 pounds male
I used to be so hungry and unable to sleep I would watch competitive eating videos all night and fantasize about food
For me I'll watch a disgusting video so I won't want to eat at all
i feel like this is such a good informational video for those that have just started or only have a short amount of time with behaviors just because it will help them see reasons for them to STOP now! sooner than later
Aimee Contreras Hopefully!
Aimee Contreras that is me rn I'm watching videos like this and it's making me realise
Aimee Contreras well actually I've been on and off with it for 2 years so I'm not new to it but it did go for a while it's only recently I've been more obsessive
*stares at screen realizing how bad ana is* 😥
Rachel Koch yep :/
What is Ana ? 😂my bestfriend is named Ana
Mariela Ramirez riiight
ana=anorexia
Mia=bulimia
I’m Anna
I'm relapsing, I think I'm screwed,
I hope you get better, never give up there is light at the end of the tunnel!
Thank you, I feel more stable these days!
+brendaeileen You're not, you can beat this, your mental health is much stronger than you think!!!
brendaeileen i know this was 2 years ago this comment was posted but don't relapse its the worst decision you could make please dont
Emma Bell It's not a decision. It just happens, usually after some trigger like not fitting into old clothes, or watching a RUclips video about how many calories are in food.
You look beautiful and your skin is glowing:)
+Ok Then Thanks! It's probably the lighting that helps ;)
Ok Then I noticed my skin looked better and my acne got better during treatment.
Also stunted height!! I’ve only grown to 5’2 when I was originally supposed to grow to 5’7 before anorexia
^ this is the bit that annoys me the most :\
Yup, I’m 4’11 😡😰
I’ve always been extremely underweight but I grew to 5’9
@@blackgirlmagic6467 everyone is different
I'm currently going through the beginning stages of anorexia nervosa recovery. This video was very helpful, thank you
i had suffer with anorexia when i was 16 ( young and cared to much what people thought) and i developed fainting and blackouts, 6 years since then i still suffer with fainting and no matter how much food i eat, i faint on a daily basic between 1-5 times a day, and have had seizers from fainting too. being skinny is so not worth the issue it causes longterm after. also had IBS but luckly went away with time. don't do it kids, not worth it!
Natasha Jerjomina i dont think you understand how much this comment has just made me feel better thank you :)
Natasha Jerjomina I'm so sorry you've had to go through all that! I'm lucky my complications weren't that bad. God bless you! This is so helpful for me to see this!
Ive haf it since 11 rip :(
Have you been to a doctor?? That sounds very dangerous, and could be something other than anorexia side effect! Is there any medication you can take? Can you feel it before hand so you quickly lay down and don't fall and hurt yourself 5 times a day?? I'm so sorry for you!
NASHA Travel I’ll be fine, I’m better off dead any ways.
So happy for you for your recovery :) and it's not TMI in my opinion, makes it so much more relatable xx
Thank you Anna, it's good to know. Take good care of yourself :)
you've literally just described me with all those side effects. Wish they would all just go away and let me be
Sorry to hear that you have had similar side effects Priyanka. I really hope that some things will get better over time for you 💙
thank you, your journey is inspiring x
Me too:( I have had muscle pain and weakness, tiredness and all that... Hoping we all can beat this someday
You are so pretty 😍 I developed anorexia a long time ago, recovered, relapsed and recently started recovering again. It never went THIS far for me, but close, and whenever y start falling back I watch this video and it reminds to stay strong, thank you so much 💙
+Adriana Valdés Hey Adriana! Thank you for sharing, I hope you are doing good in you recovery, it's so worth it. I am the same, I always remind myself of all the negative effects. It's good to start living again :) Stay strong, keep fighting. Be free. Much love to you.
I hided my ED a long time and tried recovery by myself... But it already affected me too much... I have a irregular heartbeat and whenever I have sports at school it beats so fast, that I can't control it and it makes me very worried...
+Nenee Wloe Please seek help! Take care love xx
Any update with the heart? Can it ever fully heal?
@@tonic777yes with Jesus everything is possible.Also the person needs to eat grass fed cow or goat liver.
I'll sound like a teenage boy now, but oh well :D
1. You look even more gorgeous with this hat on
2. I could watch a 30 min video of you talking about gardening and would still enjoy it (I hate gardening)
3. I think I wanted to say something inspirational/motivating/reassuring here but I totally forgot what it was because I'm tired. So let's just pretend I did and I'll hit the hay ;)
Oh and don't be confused, it's the former WingsOnMySkin ;)
Cruella de Vil Haha thanks (*blush*)!
That's good because my next video is all about how to plant the perfect rose bush ;)
ROFL :D
I was about to relapse and this video stopped me. Thank u so so much!!
thank you for sharing, you didn't take up too much time or share too much - you told us exactly what we needed to hear - and that's the truth. I hope you have a long lasting and successful recovery and I am very grateful that you had the courage to open up about the long and short term implications of anorexia nervosa. :)
Thank you for making this. I have been suffering for 12 1/2 years and I have not had my period for many years, and am wondering if I have developed ibs as well.
Keep spreading awareness, it is something our medical system, in EVERY country, has to tackle.
Thank you for sharing about what you've been going through. I'm sorry you have had it for so long, I sincerely hope you will recover one day Barbara. I'm not sure how long your period has been absent for & if you have been examined for osteoporosis but it's something I wish I'd been warned about. Much love.
You're so beautiful, on the inside and outside. You radiate such a light that it's so difficult to realize that you've suffered so much. I admire you. I used to have anorexia and my worst long term effect is digestive. I have to eat a lot of fiber to combat it. And, I still miss it. I know I shouldn't but I do.Thank you for offering a nonjudgmental video to help other anorexics.
+Shannon Ryan Ugh digestion, never a fun issue. I get you when you say you miss it but it is good you are in a better place. I miss one specific thing about it but I have to remind my self that, that one thing I like about it is not worth giving up my life for. Keep moving forward, your strength in life inspires others.
Just FYI, since Dani didn't mention this in the video and it's hugely important: bone density loss is DIRECTLY linked to not having your period. Don't ask me to explain the science of it, but if you aren't having your period due to low body weight, YOU ARE RAPIDLY AND IRREPARABLY LOSING BONE MASS.
I'm not saying this to try to scare anyone into getting well. It's just a fact and it's important.
But here's the thing: as long as you ARE having your period, you're probably not losing a ton of bone mass. You could be right on the edge of losing your period, but as long as you weight just enough that you still menstruate, you won't end up with the bones of a seventy year old woman when you're twenty five.
WHY is this not common knowledge for anorexics? This should be something every anorexic knows about, so that she can make an informed decision whether brittle, elderly bones is a price she's prepared to pay. I know it won't stop many anorexics from starving. I'm not sure whether it would've stopped me when I was in it. But it's incredibly important info, nonetheless.
Here's the documentary that talks about this: ruclips.net/video/2-uBZk89qM0/видео.html
Go to 27:58 for the relevant info.
For some CRAZY reason, even at my lowest of low weights, despite menstruation becoming slightly irregular/it might skip a month here and there, I never really lost my period 😳 I only know this because I would come off the contraceptive pill for a few months (I started taking it at 17 to help my acne) just to see if I was 'thin enough' to have lost my period. I never did. After 8 years of suffering anorexia, at the age of 24 I FINALLY got an opportunity to be treated by one of only 5 'specialised eating disorder psych ward beds' in my whole state. Their psychological management was pretty bad, but their medical monitoring was REALLY GOOD! This resulted in me turning up for my first ever bone density scan and at that point in my life, after 8 years of anorexia, I was at LEAST 'mentally preparing myself' for osteopenia 😬 My mouth absolutely DROPPED when the specialist said (regarding my bone density), "you're right in the middle of 'normal' for your age"... I was like, "how the hell did I get that lucky?!"
But now you mention the connection between production of hormones for menstruating ALSO effecting bone density, I guess all my years 'taking the contraceptive pill' meant that I was somehow still getting the particular hormones I also needed for bone density! Now after reading this my bone scan results make SO MUCH MORE SENSE!
In 'simple terms', it has to do with the production of certain hormones (e.g. the hormones which cause you to menstruate). If your body is in 'starvation mode', basically your body is 'scared that you're not able to get enough food, so it tries to 'conserve energy' by turning off 'inessential processes' such as your period by REDUCING the production of hormones which allow this to happen.
Unfortunately, the production of some of these hormones is ALSO essential to gain and keep bone density. So if these hormones have 'shut down' because your body is freaking out that it's starving (which it is), you not only lose your period but you also lose the particular hormones associated with that which give you a normal, healthy bone density. Hope that makes sense!
Thank you for this.
My hair and teeth never recovered. My body doesn't hold iron well either. I also had a colonoscopy because I had symptoms of IBS and Crohns. But they never found anything. No one ever suggested an eating disorder until later on. I didn't think I had one either, I thought it was fine to control my eating, and that everyone was weird and enjoyed being fat (they weren't fat though) when they didn't have to be.
My teeth didn't recovered either :( I guess it doesn't happen to everyone
Plzzzz reply for how much month do u binge continue
Try to get more sun and drink unpasteurized cows milk.
Its crazy how many people have or had eating disorders without even knowing about it! I had one on and off for the past year! and I wish I wasn't so good at hiding it, bc maybe I would have got help sooner. But anyways! finding Veganism and videos like this one helped me so much!!! Thanks for sharing your experience. Its makes me happy to think that just by you posting this is going to help so many people, And that's pretty amazing!!! so thank you
Hi Bailey! RUclips hid your comment in "waiting for approval" section for some reason. Aw yay I am glad you are doing better and well done for getting to a better place! And happy to meet a fellow vegan ;)
I’ve been binging and restricting for a year now and sometimes my family is the one who’s triggering me
i used to never go to the bathroom, i also had problems just getting the energy to walk around the house
I absolutely love your videos. You're videos definitely paint the true face of eating disorders.
Cece Naoma Hey! So good to hear from you, I really love your blog, I must of found it from one of your videos last year, your blog posts/vlogs are so real, honest and so conversational (engaging is probably better word!). It is very relatable! Keep sharing and building awareness but also I hope one day you will experience even more freedom in your own life, not to please others but because you will know how amazing you truly are as a person, loved, valued and worth taking care of.
Things a lot for sharing your experience. Is important to be aware of all the consecuentes. I admire the strenght you take to make this vídeos. You aré beautiful, trust me, but moré in you
Stephanie M. Thanks Stephanie for your kind words :)
A very important thing nobody told me recovering is that you need to strengthen your core muscles. The ones we use when we sit, stand, walk, bend forward etc. I began exercising lots immidietly and got SO BAD BACKPAIN, I had to take morphine pills. Through the years I've slowly worked it up, with physiotherapists and on my own, so it's better. But before I lost weight I never had any troubles. Now - everyday. So guys and girls - do Yoga, pilates, or another CALM exercise when you're weight restored. Take it easy and slowly strengthen your back, stomach, knees etc. Go SLOW!
Linn Samir, this is really helpful and good to know. Thank you for sharing!
You're welcome :-)
Stop apologizing this is great information to let ppl know that eating disorder aren’t glamorous and can permanently effect you! Your so beautiful and I rlly appreciate this video not only for me but for others I know❤️
thank you for posting this video. my cousin was one of the unfortunate ones who couldn't beat anorexia and I had been looking for a video made by someone who went through what she did. I always wanted to know what was happening to her while all this was going on. you can find tons of articles online explaining this disorder but they're usually from the eyes of a medical doctor or psychiatrist; or they're quoting their patient's words. you posted a very informative, organized and eye opening video and I'm glad I found it. I'm happy to see that you look quite healthy and have a cheerful attitude. I hope more of whom have suffered from this disorder can get past it as you have
Thank you for sharing. I'm so sorry to hear about your cousin, I can't imagine how you and her family must feel. Grief is one of the worst things anyone can go through in life. Please look after yourself as much as possible too. I'm glad you wrote about your cousin, not many take it seriously that people do die from Anorexia and I hope others see your comment.
Crazily Dani I saw my cousin go through the whole thing for nearly 10 years, she went into therapy a few times and she almost died once before. she was hiding under baggy clothing for a few years then I assumed she gave up on that disguise when it started to show on her face. her skin was gray, she had deep bags under her eyes, her cheeks barely hid the bones underneath, and that's just her face. once she started having to dress for warmer weather, is see that her wrists were just bone, her legs were all bone, she had no fat on her at all, not even the good kind. she was so tiny, wearing kid sizes for clothing. our last conversation was of something trivial but I'll never forget it. to anyone else reading this: I know it's easy to say "don't do it", it's easy to say anything. it's the "doing" part that people get stuck with. I'll never know why she went so far down this path, it's a very personal struggle. I couldn't help her, not her mom or dad or sister, even. they might have tried but it was already too late
your an amazing person.
I'm in the recovery journey : )
Thank you so, so much for creating this video! I am currently relapsing, recovering, relapsing, recovering, ect. (from *anorexia*) and am trying very desperately to get myself back on track. However, I am experiencing just about every single one of those symptoms that you described (in addition to brain fog), with the exception of sore throat, tooth decay, and osteoporosis (so far as I'm aware, at least!).
I'm so totally stressed with my body right now that I don't know what to do, how to handle how it's behaving, and how long this suffering will continue. While knowing that some of these things may be with me long-term isn't the most comforting thought in the world, it is nice to know that what's happening is at least somewhat normal. Goodness. I wish I could turn back the clock and have done things differently. :C
Much love for the video, and many thanks once again! ♥
(P.S.) You are so pretty, and I LOVE how your lip gloss looks! It's beautiful on you!
You're really pretty. Also, thanks for this video, its really informational. I feel like more people should see this video so they know how Anorexia is. I hope you're better!
Thank you for sharing! I feel like people who think eating disorders are a choice or a diet gone wrong need to see this... I did the same thing with my period!
I was so happy I had lost it (partially cause i hate periods and partially because I knew I was losing weight) but it felt very good to know it came back when I was in recovery! To anyone just starting these behaviours or have been doing them for a while and haven't gotten help- please do! I know you think its what you want now but it really isn't. Please get help! xx
amy robson Yay! Glad you got it back, I couldn't believe how happy I was to get mine....never thought I would say that! Stay strong hun x
Yes haha I know what you mean! Thank you you too xx
How much did you weight when you lost it/how much did you weigh when you gained it?
It's really kind of comforting to hear another person from N. Ireland who I can somewhat relate to when it comes to this topic.
You are so sweet! And your video is helpful and informative. Thank you! Best wishes for a steady, concrete path of recovery for you!
Thanks for the honesty, just wanted to say you can totally make the stretch marks better (almost invisible) through "dry brush massages", it's nothing scary, you can do it at home by yourself, there are videos about it here on yt and it also helps increase the heart rate.
And good luck to everyone here...🌺
Honesty is never TMI, my dear... it's helpful. I've been through everything you described, and my teeth? Well, let's just say that the store-bought ones look good (that was a joke). You've done a great service by being so honest about what the disease does to our bodies, and I thank you for it. Stay strong, and never, ever apologize for telling a truth which will (we can hope) help people still in the initial stage where they have a choice... before the hell and the insanity set in. "Seek treatment' is the best advice I've ever heard on one of these recovery videos (my therapist told me to watch due to a bit of a restricting relapse, and for once, I'm doing as told because I do *not* want to take myself back to hell). Seriously, my child, this video has uplifted me. Je te remercie.
Linda Broussard Thank you for this comment Linda! Keep on heading upwards ;)
crazilyloved Sisters in recovery... and we have *nothing to be ashamed of*. An illness doesn't mean weak character or bad morals or whatever the uninformed might think. I'll tell you what: there is so much misinformation about eating disorders floating around, and if there's another woman my age willing to be upfront about having suffered for so many decades, I don't know who she is.
My dear, the treatment fads and theories... from psychics (bogus) to recovered memories (false) to trance channelers (crazy stuff) oh you wouldn't believe what-all they (various therapists) have told/done to me through the years. Hmmm... I might just need to make my own video. Seriously, why not? How many middle-aged women in recovery has *anyone* seen???
I've done a lot of theater and a few films... don't put it past me... I was anorexic before Lifetime movies, before the internet, before it was cool, before thinspo, before anyone had ever heard the word... ha ha ha! Soldier on!
Days ago my husband said I'm fat and that I'm always hungry. So for days now I have hardly eaten anything and drink more water and coffee to stop hunger and I exercise to tone my body
Late to find you but thanks for your video! I never considered myself anorexic but have been somewhat underweight most my life (my mom restricted food as a form of punishment) after I got emancipated from that abusive household I turned to opiates which kept me underweight for another 5-6 years. Anyway I have maybe less severe of these long-term effects but still very relatable. Thank you for sharing this information. Much love to you and I dig your style and Irish accent!
Just about any kind of vitamin E oil will get rid of the stretch marks
your smile is so beautiful. :)
Aw thank you Xue Ming for your sweet comment ^^ Take care
Thanks a lot go another awesome educational video, it's not an easy subject and you handle it so well, it really does speak volumes for you :) I hope things continue to get better everyday and that you have a great week
Tim007lamb Thanks Tim, I hope you have a great week too!
I LOST MY PERIOD TOO. DOES THIS MEAN INFERTILITY FOREVER?! I'M SO SCARED I'M CRYING RN
Hi Eisha, no not necessarily. It can depend on how long it was gone for & also other health factors that aren't anorexia related. I know women who naturally got pregnant after having no period for years. I also know another lady who didn't have it for 13 years but with doctors help & 2 of years of ivf treatment she now has a healthy baby girl.
Eisha Sharjeel mine too... for like half a year
You never know how your body will react. I hope your better now... you can totally let yourself heal with recovery.❤️
update?
It kinda depends on how long you had your period before hand like I had my period for 4 months and then I developed anorexia and learned that I was infertile (in between the ages of 12 and 16 I mean) until I stopped and recovered
No you just need to gain some weight
Chest pains can be connected to anemia
Hey Dani..I wanted to say thank you for this, i am just sad i did not read this a year ago.The weird thing was when you said about a lump on your left side of the abdomen , i had the same and got it checked, i thought i had some illness as my whole body was hurting all the time at my lowest weight, they said is a hernia but when they did the ultrasound they said no, that i made it up or something, now i understand .Thank you and i can relate to all of your symptoms, chest pain and insomnia.Awful times
"Like those dogs"... haha. Great video, very informative. The chest pains really are scary, and all of the pain of all sorts is really sad. :(
TheJournalCEO Indeed, not a good place to be. Glad it was informative!
I can't tell if you're american or british haha...! Thank you so much for this video. :)
+Trisha Writes Music Haha this made me laugh. I'm N.Irish lol Don't worry, even people in my own country ask me!
Crazily Dani I noticed you were Irish =0
I was bulimic, I stopped because my esophagus started to bleed. This was 5 years ago. I also have IBS and did suffer from a sore throat for some time afterward too.
you are absolutely adorable!! Thank you for this video, Very informative (eve the TMI stuff is important to talk about!) I hope you're well!
I SWEAR the digestion problems are one of the most uncomfortable things ever. I hate having someone over or be at somebody else's home because you never know how your body will react if you eat anything or more than the usual.
Also, I'm glad you made this video, it made me feel less alone since I'm suffering from it for almost 9 years :)
(Especially at the part with your veins popping out when it's warmer, that's something I just recently talked about with someone :D)
Is it normal though, that my heart rate is usually around 120? I feel like it should "normally" be lower when you're having Anorexia, but mine has always been so high even though I don't have other blood pressure problems which could cause this.
Im so worried for Eugenia 😥
Carissa Mcdonald me too
Shes getting help now
Carissa Mcdonald she got help now :P I'm happy rn
Thank you so much for sharing. Its helping even 4 yrs later.
I’m In recovery an I have most of these symptoms. Thank you for sharing your story.
So so SO happy you caught this young,it took me almost thirty years to start getting better and fourteen months into remission,goodness,i wish my eight year old self could feel what its like at almost fourty after doing this!!i belive i mentioned this but ive lived with chronic pain thats worse every year in my low back,pelvis and left hip with sciatica,keep the bones u have now,i take calcium plus vitamin d and most of my teeth are gone as well as infertility,i never wanted kids but i need to menstruate and luckily i have been regular for ten months as the bones get worse acter menopause since i belive u know,to absorb calcium,we need to have a period.best of luck!:)
Thank you for sharing this Christina, I'm so sorry you experience all of this. I actually teared up hearing a snippet of what you went through. Also, you woke me up. I haven't been taking any Calcium or Vit D. Even though I can get it free on prescription. I'm going to order more on Monday. Thank you for sharing this publicly, it could really help others. Many hugs to you Christina.
i've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder because i think i've been able to hide any symptoms well. but in the back of my head, i know i have an issue. my parents have made comments that i look "anorexic" for years now, but i've never decided to mention anything to them. a few of my close friends know about my issues with food, but that's about it. i started noticing weight loss when i was around 16 and i'm now 21 and currently at my lowest weight and i experience more than half of these symptoms you listed (about 80% of it). i don't know if i have an eating disorder of not, because i've never wanted to self diagnose, but after all the research i've done i think i definitely have something. i'm too afraid to seek for help though, my parents are already very misunderstanding about my other mental illnesses, i don't feel like i need to add another one. :/
+stylinzon Are you seeing anyone for your other illnesses? If you are you could mention something to them. Even if (for whatever reason) your parents have some form of custody over you still, any health professional (mental or otherwise) cannot tell them without your consent
I definitely understand the whole not wanting to add something like that to your parent's plate, especially when there have been previous misunderstandings. Trying to convince my parents that social anxiety not only is an actual thing, but something prevalent in my life, has been and still continues to be one of the most difficult things I've had to do, and now in order to have accommodation that will allow me to take my educator's exams I need further documentation of my LD's which means I need more testing, which has to go through their insurance. Which means that I have to convince them that more than the "specific learning" general assessment made by the school is necessary, and worth $3,000.
So, sorry I just ranted at you about that, but I know what it's like to not want to add these things to "the list". It does sound to me like you could have an eating disorder, and I really think you could benefit from at least having someone to talk to. I'd say mention something about maybe a potentially unhealthy relationship with food, or abnormal eating habits, or something like that, to a psychologist or psychiatrist if you are seeing one or the next time you go to your gp's office. They should have resources there to help you, and even to help you help your parents to understand. I really hope you get the help you need and understanding care you deserve
Please get help
You are so brave to share this... Thank you so much!
You are beautiful. Inside and out. :)
I'm experiencing these short term symptoms but I thought I was losing weight healthily...
I totally understand you at the period situation. Like, people hate period, but when i got it for the first time in my recovery i was like "YAAAAS"
Haha so true!
I’m not sure if I even have Anorexia, but I’m experiencing these symptoms, dizziness, cold all the time etc. I’m absolutely TERRIFIED of gaining weight and weigh myself at least twice a day. I have a lot of rules as well. Idek what to do😔 I’m still overweight as well
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Ok I thought some of these things were just me! Thank you so much for uploading this, you're such a gorgeous gal and I'm so glad you're doing much better now :*
+Bea Goddard Thanks Bea! I hope you're doing ok x
I have really thick hair. when I get anorexia they of course get thin. but when I recover,does it go back the way it was befor??
It should do, though of course I cannot say for sure because I am not a doctor but I know plenty of people who go back to a balanced nutritious diet regain back their hair loss over time. You're hair reflects your diet 2-3 months ago, so if you have been eating well for over the last few months or more, it should start to come back but it will take time. Be patient and look after yourself, I wish you all the best on your recovery journey!
crazilyloved try vitamin E in lotion or tablet form for the stretchmarks.
I got diagnosed with anorexia (purging type) a couple of weeks after my 21st birthday/4 months ago but I also have Silent Reflux disease, so I get really bad sore throats even when I'm restricting because I had black coffee to keep my energy up but it irritated my stomach. Your videos are helping me with my recovery :) Ana can be beaten and I've realised that after 7 years of recovery and relapsing x
Gracie Cowan Keep going strong Gracie, thank you so much for sharing and being honest, it will help others to se your comment I really hope some of your stomach and throat symptons will ease more as you heal xx
Gracie Cowan apple cider vinegar cured my silent reflux.
I watched this video for a bit of research into the accuracy of one of my favorite comics (jthm by Jhonen Vasquez, the story of a mentally disturbed man named Johnny) and after hearing bits and pieces of your story I must say coo toes to you for over coming it and thanks, now I know my comic is pretty accurate.
+larissa osteen its kudos not coo toes
+Jenna Belle what ever. basically the same thing.
coo toes is like ur cooing at toes like ur talking to a baby- kudos is the word. im sorry if i offended you though :(
+Jenna Belle
nah bro, its cool.
Congratulations on your recovery
V. Hansen, thank you so much dear!
Very informative! I don't think people realize all the complications.
I’m the only guy here lol.
When I was 14 I began starving myself and had anorexia until I was 18.
I was constipated for 4 years and am still really scrawny.
The thing that still upsets me though is that I’m only 5”8.
That’s not too small but my dad is 6”2 and my mom is 5”9. I was gonna be tall but now I’m below average.
It’s sad, man
I’m a guy too and I also have very stunned height. Be glad you aren’t smaller like me :/
I just wanted to post this. When I was a teenager, I was anorexic. I starved to lose weight. I was never
Regular with my period so somehow I managed
To get pregnant after I got married.All.of a sudden, I had new problems that became more important than losing weight. For one thing, we had house payments, doctor visits, utility bills,etc. For the first time I can remember, when the baby was born, there was NO TIME TO OBSESS ABOUT MY WEIGHT. HE SEEMED TO WANT ATTENTION 24/7. WHEN HE SLEPT, I was too tired to think about food. I had a new baby every year and this cured me of my anorexia. I just didn't have time to eat, I wanted to sleep instead
Good video. Lots of good information. Thanks for sharing your story
Great video. It's nice to hear symptoms you had that I have now and realise that it's because of restricting food. :)
Thank you thank you thank you!!!!! Your my angel right now.
you are very brave for sharing this.. much love!
+Fenna van der Woude Thank you Fenna :)
The bathroom struggles are so true though. Severe constipation and so much bloating.
Thank you for your bravery and sharing
Megandancer0730 Thank you Megan :)
Thank you for making these videos.
She doesn't mention getting sick here but restricting will wreck your immune system too you know how restricting depletes bone density? it also impacts bone marrow where your body produces the white blood cells that fight infections the result is that you get sick more often and when you do your symptoms are more intense and last longer
I've had most of those. Even during periods of "recovery" I still have lower blood pressure than I should.
Hope your are doing better. Some tips for dental health. If you ever do purge, don't brush your teeth before rinsing your mouth out well. Otherwise, you could add to the overall damage of your enamel since residual stomach acid would be remaining on your teeth. Even better, a quick rinse with some baking soda will neutralize the hydrochloric acid. Also include a enamel strengthening toothpaste like Pronamel. Take care!
+cliff burton Hey Cliff! Sorry late reply. Yes, helpful tips, ofcourse not doing it is 100 time way better. I don't do it anymore but it's good for others to read if they struggle with, so thanks for sharing :)
IBS is awful. It's so painful all the time. I'm sorry you have to deal with that.
1:51 YAY LOTR ❤️ ily stay strong
well, ive experienced a LOT of hair loss and low iron. i started eating a lot less around 1 year ago, but not enough to be considered an eating disorder. but recently ive started purging after eating, and restricting calories....
Did you get nauseous and sensation of throwing up all the time after the anorexia stage? Or any gastric problems like heartburn and acid reflux? Because I'm getting them all and I'm trying to eat but is hard bc everything hurts when i eat it, and the doctors say im clear of everything
I now have osteoporosis and I’m year into recovery and it’s horrible illness! My memory was gone for so long and I still struggle to concentrate.
Iron and B12 cows liver
Actually, you can get rid of stretch marks☺😊, by using bio oil, it's really good and works like magic👌
Nambi Amazimo! So I've heard!
Where do I get that?
Princess Livvie you can get Bio Oil at your chemist/pharmacy (at least in Australia you can!) Just ask someone who works there if they have it 🤷♀️ It's in a white box with orange on it and basically you just put some oil on your skin and gently rub it in. I personally used it for self-harm scars BUT that also means that once the scars went white, they didn't disappear anymore 😕 I only found Bio Oil helpful in regards to the fact that it helped speed up the recovery process of my skin and my scars would change from red/purple to white in a MUCH shorter amount of time!
So it MAY only turn stretch marks white, but it WILL increase the speed in which that happens 😊
I've found Bio Oil helpful from turning red/purple scars to white. Does anyone have any personal experience with Bio Oil getting rid of stretch marks/scars once they've turned white?
Not too much information. This is good.
Will the Osteoporosis decrease after 10 years (all cells in body completely new 10 years) or do the holey bones stay the same?
Amazing isn't it. Everyone's a new human (sort of) every ten years.
I recovered from anorexia 4 years ago and I think I'm relapsing due to being so depressed and alone it's my way of coping
I hope you get better. You are lobed, whether you know it or not!
any of you suffer depression even after recovered from anorexia?
Anorexia is something that never goes away. You have to constantly be self aware.
Thank you for sharing , never to much sharing . I can relate thank you for your story
So recognizable 😂
No jokes... thnx for the video
I have a question, I have anorexia and I have had it for a year now but my heart beats are normal and my blood pressure is amazing!!! (says my docter) is this strange or does anyone else have this too?
I've been in recovery for two weeks and have binged every night. I just did tonight and it was a semi-binge. I had some control but chose not to stop. I think I'm developing BED, and I am scared. (14 year old male 5'7). I'm not on any eating plan either
I'm struggling with recovery rn. My best friend almost left me because of my starving myself.
Danny
U made me realize that I'm in my recovery period. My aneroxic period wasn't so bad but I did have most of ur symptoms . It scares me as I have signs and the exact symptoms of ur permanent list. How can I stop over eating to solve my stress which I don't do purposely obviously or else I could help myself. And how can I avoid binge eating and throwing up with guilt?
If I go to a doctor In my country they would immediately put me on weight gain or appetizer syrup and milks. Not a very good method but ours is conventional!
Hey, thanks for sharing. It's good to find out if you are really overeating or not eating enough which makes our bodies uncontrollably want to eat a lot more then we are used to which feels like over eating. For a long time I thought I was over eating but it was my anorexia that thought I was eating a lot but really my body was just eager to get in necessary calories asap. If you are genuinely eating a lot more than a healthy person should eat for their age and activity levels etc then I don't have a simple answer. I still struggle with stress eating sometimes, even if I am eating about 2000 calories. I've worked through a lot of my stress levels because I realised I am in control of whether I get stressed or not. That can help but sometimes it's hard to control stress when very bad things happen. I eat a lot more nutritious foods now, which are less addictive but still give me the nutrients my body really needs. Also they tend to be higher in fibre which fills you up when binging but I don't like fibre in my stomach because I feel very full and uncomfortable but it's better than being full of pure junk with no nutrients. I just try deal with the full feeling it gives me because I can't afford damaging my heart, teeth etc anymore and wasting money spent of good food. Even though I hate the feeling of food in my stomach, I get through it day by day but I don't feel guilty anymore because I'm helping my body and now I finally have respect for my body after all these years. I don't feel guilty anymore when eating because I programmed myself all day everyday until I believed and knew that it's only my anorexic mind that makes me feel that way and in reality food is good, it gives me to energy and strength go on adventures, have a job, go out with friends, feel better, look better etc. It took me 10 years to get to this mindset but I hope you get here much much quicker 💛
+Crazily Dani thanks so much .... for your encouraging words and good information
+Crazily Dani 💛💜💚
Don't worry about the TMI stuff- when I was sick I wish I knew that the stomach symptoms would literally look just like crohns or ulcerative colitis...I also had to have a colonoscopy only to find out that my ED had fucked up my stomach and exacerbated my IBS :/
My skin would get really patchy and red. My throat is still sore, my hair thinned and etc etc
The throat does take time to heal, mine is a lot better now. Even after we consistently eat well, it will take at least a few months before you see improvements in your hair. Certain foods are more beneficial than others for producing healthier hair, as you already know I'm sure 😊 Wishing you lots of health and wellness.
Crazily Dani thank you, I have recovered but it's still sore. have any tips?
Mine healed over time. I used to suck on throat sweets but it actually made it worse. Drinking a lot of water can help ease a bit too. Though I did wonder if mine was not 100% restored yet because if I talk a lot it hurts but perhaps that happens to everyone.
Crazily Dani thanks and i feel the same way );
I had that burning pain all over my body too. I could hardly walk, or even lift my arms; the pain was that intense!
Thanks for this video! Just a question...you got your period back, but it sounded like you were saying your infertility was permanent. Do you know if your fertility came back after having your period back for a while?
I suffered delayed growth and actually grew two and a half inches at 24_25 the adult height I was supposed to be but was shorter due to malnutrition.