GIRL! The reason you felt fine/not hungry/not needing snacks one week and then starving the next/putting a few pounds on is because of your cycle! Hormones control everything, and we have peaks and dips throughout our cycles. It’s totally normal even though it’s frustrating. You’re doing so good!!!
Also the stress and dare I say trauma she faced during lipstick gate has GOT to be a major contributor, at least IMHO. She started having issues around that time which makes sense. I dont recall her age but if shes in perimenopause which can start at 30 this can cause many of the issues shes been dealing with. The stress shes gone thru would cause cortisol surges which is SO bad for our bodies, its very under estimated. I hope shell look into this if she hasnt & just see if these are part of whats going on bc shes trying so hard & deserves so much good! I think it will come in time.
I personally like the vulnerability in Jaclyns journey. Every person on this planet is struggling with something… so it’s relatable. Most influencers always act like their life is perfect and in turn people want to be just like them and have their lives. That isn’t real! Keep doing you, keep putting out bomb product, and you have your entire life to make positive health choices!
Throw the scale away. It was the best thing I ever did. Seeing the scale go up and down was so terrible for my anxiety during my journey. I started weighing in monthly rather than daily/weekly just to make sure I was on the right track. YOU GOT THIS J!
Yes ! I only see my weight at my Dr appointments. I focus on fueling my body with good amazing fuel 75% of the time and working out 3 days a week. Some seasons look different and that’s okay! Let’s just focus on taking care of the ONE and ONLY body God gave us ☺️🙏👍🤛💪 Blessings to all ♥️
100000000000% agree. The scale is a demon and doesn’t help, AT ALL. I threw the scale away 10 yrs ago. Just trust the process. You’ll know when you’re losing weight.
The best thing you can do is to not handle your emotions with food. “I had a shit day so I’m going to eat whatever I want.” “I had an amazing day so I’m going to treat myself to pizza and ice cream!” “I worked out so I deserve this cookie”. That’s when you build a bad relationship with food. Food shouldn’t be a reward or a punishment. We literally need it to survive. If you’re hungry, eat!! You got this girl! We’ve all fallen into these ruts.
I disagree that food shouldn’t be a reward. Yes, creating habits surrounding food is not the best but I think it’s totally normal to have food as a reward. Not everyday obviously but once a month, or even once a week, it’s totally okay to have some cheesecake to treat yourself or whatever.
I really hope she doesn’t stop the series it’s my favorite thing on RUclips right now! But everyone’s gotta take care of themselves and do what’s right for them 💕
Same i really hope she keeps going because this is really inspiring and it’s real life tbh like this is just a stepping stone for her and everyone else that’s going through it as well
When you said “I wish my brain was normal” I can’t tell you how many times I’ve said that exact thing. Fighting ourselves is exhausting but you’re inspiring so many people just being you ❤️
Girl it’s not being “negative”- it’s legit the REALEST type of struggle and super real and relatable. Not sugar coating this journey is comforting and I’m all for itt ! 🙌🏼👏🏼👏🏼
You nailed it. Comforting is absolutely the word for this series. It's comforting to hear someone else is going through something similar to me. We're not often this open in every day conversations.
This is a genuine question. Does Jaclyn have a personal trainer/nutritionist? I feel like this is a perfect instance where money can get the results she needs in regards to a more healthy lifestyle/fitness/wellness.
That was one of the things that I mentioned to her from chapter one of this series, she need an intervention team that includes a life coach, a trainer, a nutritionist and above all a psychologist all working in unison to guide her on this journey. because alone is too difficult if not impossible... It's a total change of lifestyle and with only the intention is not enough.
I don't know if you guys know the "Body by Madison" program but I witnessed the strong support of the health coach and the girls. Enjoying favorite foods without sacrificing the health is truly encouraged. Hope she could be encouraged too 💖
I was thinking that. Like where is your chef and personal trainer. However, I think I understand her attitude of I can do this on my own. It’s ok to build a team of people that will hold you accountable
Jaclyn, it’s perfectly okay to PIVOT while you’re on this journey. Eat what you want, practice portion control and find exercise you look forward to. Have fun trying new stuff until you find it. There isn’t one way to lose weight. Don’t forget that this was supposed to be a fun journey where you find yourself. Walk around your neighborhood at your own pace daily to clear you mind. Try yoga. Take a self defense class. Get Hello fresh - the food is good and portion sized and they’ll sponsor you. Make this journey FUN. I hate seeing go through your depression and anxiety but it does make me feel like I’m not alone. Thanks for being open. 💕
"I just want my brain to be normal" - that's the most relatable thing ever. I hear you. It's so incredibly hard and I can't imagine how difficult it must be for you sharing your life and feeling like this.
Jaclyn, I’m saying this with the most love to you. NOT EVERYONE is going to like you. YOU cannot please EVERYONE. Like you said about your products and how they can’t be perfect and it’s out of your control so is this. Continue to be the great person you are and even when you’re not ITS OKAY! ❤️We are all human. But anyways continue your journey! I love seeing you overcome and I do see a difference! 🙌🏼❤️❤️❤️
YES! This was a very hard lesson for me to learn. I was a people pleaser in my younger days…..being so nice and accommodating to others and had nothing left for myself. I finally learned that no matter what I do, there will be people who will still not like me. And that is okay. Life will go on.
When you muscles hurt, you go to a get a massage. When your thoughts hurt, therapy is like a massage for your brain and emotions. The only stigma there is is the one that we create. Theres no shame Jac. Get that brain massage girl! you'll feel so much better each time! Might go for one myself in the coming weeks. We all gotta box tings off sometimes :) Love you x
@@kaelieudy7042 Exactly. When people realise that it’s a nice treat for you and not just a treatment. Perspective changes. We’re not broken. All we’re doing is allowing ourselves the luxury of reliving those muscles that have been working overtime. Nobody would be ashamed of going for a facial to take care of their skin. It’s all self care. Just because we can’t see it doesn’t mean we’re crazy. Thank you for commenting with such love today. I hope you have an amazing day 🥰 x
@@JohnFoleyBeauty of course! Exactly!!! It is just another form of self care and one that honestly I think everyone can benefit from ❤️❤️ I’m actually in school to be a psychologist and I think it’s such an important field and one that people think they need to be “broken” to go get help at which is just not the case! I hope you have. A great day as well!!:)
@@alexandradorman3034 It can. I remember one of my sessions basically spent the hour crying in entirety. My face hurt and so much was unearthed. I felt confused for days about what to do with what came to be realised. But not months later I look back and I realise I’m no longer confused. I accept what happened. I’m no longer in denial. Sometimes it has to run its course. But out is always better than keeping it in. Stay strong and believe in yourself. Trust the process. You got this ❤️
“I just want my brain to be normal” girl I FELT that because I literally said that to my therapist today. Struggling with anxiety, depression, and childhood PTSD lately so I’m with you. SO proud of you for making the step to see a therapist. It’s hard but so worth it. I also can’t blame you for not being able to “ignore” the haters - no one should have to endure that. I absolutely adore you, Jaclyn Roxanne, stay strong and give it all to your therapist!!! 💕
This is spot on I’ve been feeling the same way for the past two weeks with my anxiety & depression I feel okay for awhile then feel so low I’m trying too get back too my therapy also 😢🥺💔
It makes me sad seeing you being so hard on yourself. You are allowed to eat when you are hungry. You are allowed to have some treats even if you gained weight or skipped your training session. You can still lose weight while having a balance eating nutritious food and junkfood. No food should be off limits and trigger negative feelings if it's not labeled as clean food. It's all about finding a balance. Your stress and anxiety is also felt by your body and often underestimated in the progress of a weight loss journey. As you said, put your mental health first and your body will follow through. Love yourself
This journey has been so inspiring. Because it’s not perfect. It’s hard and difficult. But SOOO many people on social media like to portray the perfect life and that their health journey was so easy. THANK YOU for keeping it real with us Jaclyn❤️❤️❤️ We need more relatable influencers like you
Agreed. This journey, seeing the challenges she faces, whether its from family, friends, emotional, etc. Reminds me of my own and that its okay to "not be on it" 100% of the time this journey, as she stated in the beginning is a journey for a healthier lifestyle, not a crash diet, and its shaped some of my own decisions I face in my own personal life as well. Thanks Jaclyn for being authentic and real. Take care of yourself girl. We all deserve to, and know you know what is best for you.
Side Note: Even with all the stress, sleepless night, eating uncontrollably etc your skin is GLOOOOWING!!!! I kept looking at your face with no makeup and you are stunning Jaclyn! 😍😍😍
I have to agree. She looks amazing without makeup. I hate to be offensive, because it's kind of ironic, but she looks even more beautiful without makeup. ~shrug
this series makes me feel less alone. when you started crying about your anxiety and depression, it made me cry with you. i struggle with so many mental illnesses, and you just made me get a good cry out that i haven't been able to do for so long. hearing you talk about your struggles with mental health make me feel safe and seen because not many people around me get it. I wish we could be friends sometimes because of how much I can relate to you, but obviously that's not possible 😂 anyway, i love you and i wish you all the best and hoping you take care of yourself more!
You’re not alone queen! I get that when you say your friends don’t understand ugh and that’s such an aweful pain to feel as well! I’m here for you boo! 💖💜💖💜✌️
Jaclyn i truly wanna thank you for sharing your journey, because you‘ve inspired me so much to take better care of myself and my body again as well.. please never forget the positive impact you have on your audience! buuuuut, if you‘re no longer comfortable with sharing your journey on the vulnerable level we totally understand. but as i said, never underestimate all the love that is around ❤️
I'm so glad you're starting therapy! It can be so helpful. Remember, should you not like your therapist that's ok. Don't give up.. just look for another one. You'll be so much stronger!
I’ve seriously been eating better and at home again. I’ve been walking on the treadmill for 30 mins a day thanks to you! We’re all so proud of you. This shit is hard!!! I totally understand what you meant when you said you just want your brain to be normal… I fucking feel you. Food is so rough for me. We’re joining you and with you on this journey! Therapy is amazing, good for you ❤️🥺
Please don’t give up … you can fight through this. I was one of those “thousands of people” that went on your website to order earrings but couldn’t. I swear, I didn’t think “Lipsticks 2.0” … I thought, “good for you Jaclyn!! Your website crashed bc so many people wanted your products!!” I waited a bit and bought the earrings when your website was back up. We want you to have success!! Pls grant yourself some Grace and kindness during this journey. ❤️
Girl the fact that you can come back after feeling like you failed and created a whole new line shows how strong you are! Life has crazy ways of working and people look for every reason to talk own that shit your doing the dam thing! And I’m so proud of you for that! I’m so glad to have YOU as my role model!!!!! You’ve done nothing but show me that you can make things happen even when they don’t work out as planned. You are just such an amazing person inside and out thank you for all the motivation you give me! Girl roll with the punches your doing fucking amazing and no one can take that away from you!
Jaclyn- Your transparency is so refreshing. Your journey is so relatable. So many things you said in this video, especially in relation to emotions/food, struck a chord with me. I am there with you. You aren’t alone. Thank you for sharing your vulnerable side. It’s refreshing and makes me glad I came back to your channel to start watching again.
to you jac, and anyone else reading this: you are in no way a 'failure'. you are alive and your existence is amazing. you have touched the lives of so many people - people you don't even know. you have done your best, are doing your best, and will continue to do the absolute best you can in that given time. have faith in yourself. YOU are precious. x
We are human, words hurt! It’s so hard to just “ignore” especially when your primary love language is words of affirmation. Your beautiful inside and out Jaclyn, keep being you❤️
I'm just gonna say- I hope none of us will ever have to deal with the millions of people watching us make a mistake and microscoping every detail about it. That shit leaves not only scars but so much trauma. Jaclyn, you don't get enough credit for coming out of that strong and positive. You never gave up on your dreams and let me tell you a lot of us would just say- that's it, I'm done. So keep your head high, cause you proved yourself more than once that you can raise above bad times. ❤
Absolutely! She just pushes through and tries again and I know I would've said "screw this" a long time ago. She doesn't let the anxiety, despression, hard times, failures etc. define her. She is one strong queen!
I absolutely agree with everything you said. People act like she is responsible for every human watching her and she damn well better never make a mistake 😡 she should be robotic and perfect! Smh it’s disgusting! She is a human just the same as every single one of us. The only difference is she documents her journey. She is amazing for it! I truly hope everything will work out and be truly okay and you get all you wish for Jaclyn xx 😘
I’m no professional but I think when your body is restricting for awhile, after a few weeks it is just screaming for food! Try not to be so hard on yourself and stop limiting carbs and start focusing on fuelling your body with balanced meals that are satiating and emotionally satisfying too! Maybe then you won’t have this sense of all or nothing mentality! I love you girl and you can do this! 🤍
I agree! I think she needs to stop weighing herself every few days because it’s normal to fluctuate and 2 pounds is nothing to get discouraged about. I think she would have better success if she worked out and not just walking but who knows
I’m so tired of people labeling things as “healthy”. As someone recovering from anorexia nervosa, healthy is giving your body what it needs and eating a balance of foods that you enjoy from every food group. If your body is craving something you deem as unhealthy, it’s most likely because you’re not allowing yourself to have it. It’s so hard to listen to your body, but your body is soooo smart. I love you, Jaclyn. You’re jewelry is all beautiful💕
Totally agree with this but a lot of people are still learning this concept. After years of society telling us something totally different. But again I totally agree with you 🙂
That’s not entirely true. Chocolate cravings are from low magnesium for example. I do know that restricting yourself can definitely cause binging though.
oddly enough, I just want to say your eyes when you were crying were just the most clear gorgeous sea blue green colour ❤️ and I think that was a shine of light for you realizing it is time for help. love you jaclyn 🥲
In tears hearing you say “I just want my brain right” because I FELT that. Some days it feels like you’re all alone in this dark place but hearing it from someone like you who inspires me so much brings a little light to my dark place. Anxiety and depression can be so damn exhausting. You are so brave to talk about the things you have. Mental health IS REAL PEOPLE and it is okay to go to therapy!!! I will always love and support you Jaclyn. Keep being you girl, we’re all in this together ❤️❤️❤️
Hey Jacyln, my doctor once told me that when we’re stressed our body goes in panic mode where we get hungrier because we think we are in danger, it’s normal to feel stress once or twice a day but we’re not equipped to be in a constant state of stress (I’m a teacher so I understand what being stressed all the time feels like lol) Im probably explaining this wrong but I know when cortisol levels are high weight loss does get harder, it’s something I’ve been trying to work on too. I’d suggest going to a homeopathic doctor that can give you some vitamins that help lower stress and give you natural ways to help you in your journey. Best of luck to you!!! You’ve been a huge inspiration to me on this journey and have been showing your real struggles which I wish influencers did more of. I’m proud of you and I KNOW you will Reach your goals. We’re in this together!
Yes! I was going to say this about stress also. Cortisol can be a huge factor in why someone isn’t losing weight and stress management is a huge part of health and wellness.
I can see such a HUGE difference in her! Her face, her glow, her hair, her skin! Everything! She looks AMAZING!! All of your hard work is paying off, you are doing an amazing job & you are so so sooo strong! I am so excited to see the difference in her already, physically. She is an absolute beauty inside & out!
I bawled my eyes out watching this! Depression and anxiety doesn't come with a warning and it doesn't discriminate against anyone it smacks you in the face and doesn't stop. Don't stop doing what it takes to try to get to a place of peace please. For YOURSELF
Bawled when you said “I just want my brain right” I think the same thing all the time too. So don’t ever think you’re alone, we’re all in this together. I’m so glad you’re opening up to us because a lot of the times we think we’re alone in this dark place and we’re truly not. Know we all love you, just as much as you love all of us!
I’ve never related more to another human being regarding what you said when you were in your backyard. I wish none of us had to feel this way, but it’s comforting to know that I’m not alone in the world because I’m definitely alone in my friends and family setting. You’re amazing. Thank you for this 💕
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I’ve recently come across studies for the way our menstruating cycle affects our level of hunger, so that may be happening. And it’s just your body saying I need more for what I’m doing right now internally. I’m so proud of you and you make me feel not so alone in my own struggles with a similar get to my level healthy journey 🖤🖤🖤
“I just want my brain to be normal” Shift your thoughts: “My brain is normal” Just take a look at how many people said they “felt that to the core” You are uniquely you. Love yourself for it.
When you started talking about how awful it feels to look around at everything you’ve worked so hard for, everything you are so blessed with, yet unable to feel good and instead feeling anxious and depressed; feeling lack and emptiness instead of fullness, have you ever considered that maybe your purpose is no longer aligned? I discovered you in 2014, 7 years ago and had my own successful wedding makeup career from watching YOU. You have a gift and a purpose for being alive. I think for a long time it was helping people feel beautiful, showing us how to be creative, being a teacher but maybe now its changing. If I am being honest it seems like you’re on the brink of a next level spiritual awakening. Its always darkest before the dawn Jaclyn. Hang in there. Xoxo
Sounds like PMS to me girly pop... when pmsing you're body needs and craves more calories... also hormones cause bloating and water retention... which is why you aren't supposed to obsess over the scale. I love watching your journey... don't give up! this is a lifestyle change ♥
Girl you bring such a REALness to the RUclips world that honestly I truly appreciate you being so open about your life. I love this Jaclyn Journey series! You’re beautiful!!! ❤️
Even if it was a “cash grab” isn’t that the whole point of a business. You make money from a business?🤣 I just don’t understand why people are bothered by jewelry.
“I just want my brain to be normal”. Ugh. Felt that DEEP within my soul. I’ve said that exact statement over and over and over again. Still do, pretty much daily. Mental health, anxiety, panic disorders, depression, OCD, etc….they’re real and they’re not talked about nearly as often as they need to be. Those who don’t suffer from mental illnesses will never be able to fully understand what it’s like to be at a constant battle with your brain on a daily basis. Thank you for continuing to shed light on mental health. 💜 And good luck on your journey & congrats on all the wonderful progress you’ve made thus far. 👏🏼
“I just want my brain to be normal.” Oh how I felt this. I’m the same age as you Jaclyn, I feel like we’ve grown up together. I’m so sorry you’re struggling. I wish I could give you a hug.
Aweeee I felt her so much when she was talking about her depression😭 when your depressed you truly understand others when they say they just wish their brain was normal😭 Jacklyn healing your body and mind is really fucking hard! Your doing amazing! 🤎
People with severe anxiety and depression should probably be in therapy their whole lives and there is nothing wrong with that! Emotional and mental health is just as important and physical health ♥️ rooting for you in your journey!!
I felt that in my soul. I just want my brain to be normal... I say this every time I have a panic attack. The struggle with anxiety and depression is so hard. Way to be so open with everyone about your life. That takes so much courage and strength. Just know you are not alone. Just keep moving forward and looking up because that's where it all is. Stay Strong Jaclyn!
Mama! LET YOURSELF FEEL! However you feel! You’re human, you have emotions! The strong people are the ones that are open & vulnerable & you’re just proving to all of us how badass & strong you really are! I had so much respect for you before, but it’s on another level, & I didn’t even think that could happen.. but you’re doing the damn thing! In your health journey, in your career, in your life! You’re doing it & I’m so proud of you! ❤️
I was there for launch time, the site went down and my heart immediately went to “oh dear sweet Jaclyn…she’s going to be devastated.” I sent a message to your customer service just to tell them it’s okay and I’m excited for when I can buy. I just purchased today. I’m so thankful there was still stock. All the love sis. 💕
THIS has been therapeutic for me. It makes me feel like I’m not alone. I’m going through work things, personal things, major anxiety and I’m trying to be healthy all at once. Thank you for putting yourself out there for this. ❤️
I’m so PROUD of you, Jaclyn and I pray you hear that. You’re confronting every fear head on and this series has allowed all of your fans to see such a real side of you and we love it. Thank you for always sharing your heart with us. Jaclyn Roxanne is going to be incredible because YOU are behind it. Take care of yourself, so you can continue shining your light in this world. We’re all here for it💛
Jaclyn, you’re so strong. It’s actually insane how much I really relate to you in so many ways. I don’t feel so alone. I’m sorry you have to conquer these things.. but you posting about it IS making a difference in my life and so many others. Your break down talking about how your brain just doesn’t feel right…. I relate to this so much because I constantly think there’s something wrong with me and my wires aren’t connecting as they should. Thank you for speaking out about your struggles. You’re not alone.💜
I can’t lie after the lipstick drama I was hesitant about getting Jaclyn cosmetics but I recently got the mood glow and some bronzers and blushes and it makes my skin look amazing and I feel so confident! This series has inspired me to take my own journey! I look forward to these videos every week ❤️
This series is everything. I felt frustrated for you about the website issue for Jaclyn Roxanne I can only image how upsetting that would have been. Wishing you nothing but success from here on out! And sending you love on your mental and physical health journey 💕💕💕
I left a couple of years ago.... this Journey has brought me back. I love seeing your growth. People judge and I know its easy to say "Just don't listen to them". Thank you for sharing your physical and mental journey and growth with us.
Remember that even “normal” people benefit from therapy. I have been putting off therapy for a while because it makes my problems a little more real but it’s comforting to know that I am not the only one that has these feelings. I can’t imagine how hard it is to be vulnerable in front of thousands of people online so thank you. ❤️
If you decide to go for it, good luck with therapy! I hope it helps you to talk about what you're feeling. And don't be afraid to try a few different doctors if you don't feel a fit with the first one! But you probably know that. Best wishes xx
I literally say “I just want my brain to be normal” ALL the time!!!! I know exactly how you feel. I have everything I could ever want. I bought a house, new cars, I go shopping whenever I want and it’s not enough. I look at everything I have and how great my life is yet I still feel so empty and depressed and cry because my brain makes me feel miserable. I don’t understand it. It’s frustrating!!! Love you, girl
It's so normal to cycle in and out of depression/anxiety/therapy/medication over the years... I am living proof of this as well. You are not alone! I also LOVE my 2 necklaces I bought and can't wait to get a couple more. Please say you'll do rings in the future! Hang in there. xoxo
This is everyone’s fitness/health journey: no one is perfect. What matters is the desire to want to get back to a better, healthier you. This is a bump in the road! Your mental health matters just as much as your physical health. Take care of your mind, and the rest will soon follow. You got this Jaclyn! Every week I am rooting for you! Much love 🤍
I literally feel exactly like you do. I don’t sleep, I’m always tired, my anxiety is out of control too…. So yeah…. I literally FEEL YOU JACLYN! Ugh! It’s so fxk’n frustrating! I hope & pray we find our ‘answers’ soon! Love you J! ❤️
going to therapy is the best thing anyone can do for their mental health, everyone should be in therapy. I recently went through something traumatic and while i was in the trenches of PTSD i somehow pushed myself to sign up for therapy and it's been the best thing. Having someone to listen to all my shit for a whole hour each week without judgement is so refreshing. I'm happy you got back in it!
I don't know if everyone should be in therapy, only because there are a lot of bad therapists out there. But it is really nice to have someone listen to us without judgment. Thankfully there's not as much stigma behind it as there used to be.
@@ShaydahandSaharavlogs I agree that not every therapist is suited for everyone. Some people want a blunt therapist to just tell them how it is, some people need a softer approach. Both are okay so long as the person seeking therapy is on board 🤍
Keep your stress levels low. Cortisol has an impact on weight gain and stress triggers high levels of cortisol. You're going to be okay. Be kind to yourself, Jaclyn. We're all rooting for you.
It's so interesting how stress affect people differently. I know people who respond by overeating and then there's me, who barely eats from stress. Also, you do not have to feel overly stressed for your cortisol levels to be high or unhealthy levels. This is why stress is a silent killer.
I started therapy earlier this year and honestly it was the best thing I ever did. 👏🏼EVERYBODY 👏🏼NEEDS👏🏼THERAPY!!👏🏼 Don’t be embarrassed about needing/wanting therapy. It’s so amazing to have someone to talk to about anything and everything. So excited for you to hopefully get some mental relief!
You know what’s crazy, this is reminding me so much of when I was on birth control last year. I gained 20+ lbs and the weight gain & hormones had my head in a completely different space. I was negative and insecure and then the comfort food was putting me into this vicious cycle as well. I think we all “fail” sometimes but once you get into a groove it’s gonna stick, just take it day by day baby girl ❤️
As a therapist, therapy is good for everyone! It’s a step toward emotional wellness. And if anything, it means you’re strong for taking care of yourself 💗😘
This episode was by far, the most meaningful to me. "I just want my brain to be normal." I quote this daily as I work through anxiety and depression. There's days where I just feel like I'll never be "normal" and it feels like everyone judges. Thank you for being raw and honest with those of us that truly care and feel the same struggles. I needed this today. ❤️
Can we just give a round of applause for her simply for the fact that she was brave enough to put herself back out there with this launch after what she went through with the lipsticks 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 Very few people have done what you have girl. Regardless of whether or not you support her as a person, that fact alone deserves our respect. I know you’re going through a lot right now, but sometimes we have to endure persecution in order to be positioned where God wants us. Lean in to your discomfort. Pray, read, mediate, feel all the feelings, and please give yourself grace. You’re doing great sweetie. 🤍
“Happy people go to therapy to stay happy.” I can’t remember who told me that, but I personally think it’s true! Proud of you for making that appointment. Love ya Jac💛
Your hungry love because you are HUNGRY. Your body is begging for food. Sometimes your body gets used to what your doing and your weight stops on the scale or sometimes goes backwards. Sounds crazy, I know. But eat more to lose more. Still eat healthy. But switch up everything you’ve been doing. What you eat, the time you eat it. Play with your portions. Your body will kickstart again and by like woah. It’s constant change on this journey. Your body will get used to what you are doing. Play around with your exercise too. Instead of walking half an our, walk and hour. Or go do a dance class. Yoga. Mix it up. Keep going you got thi
Jaclyn from champagne pop from RUclips from the “drama/scandals” you have ALWAYS shown how genuine and ambitious you are. You fight hard for everything you want and desire with collabs your own line everything. I’ve been watching you since my later teen years and I’m 24 now a mom and I still love to check in on you and see your next accomplishment your next journey you’re ALWAYS onto another project you have more strength than most. I’m so proud of you 🖤 never stop.
i hadn’t watched your channel (or any beaty channel) in a while, because i just moved to a different side of youtube but i’ve really really been enjoying your vlogs. your transparency is inspiring and i love to see a success story, and this is part of your success story. love it. keep going strong.
I LOVE THIS SERIES JACLYN! pls don’t be so hard on yourself babe. you’ve accomplished so much, way more than most people will ever be able to do. you are an inspiration to me and so many boys and girls everywhere. pls don’t ever stop being you❤️
I wanna comment something that truly helped me SO much with my anxiety: I used to get so frustrated because my anxiety held me back. Why did I have to be so broken? Then I reframed the way I saw myself. If I told you the story of how I “earned” my anxiety, you’d think “Well of course she is anxious, she’s been through it.” So why couldn’t I extend that same kindness to myself? I earned this anxiety and I don’t need to be fixed. I take my time, I don’t rush myself through anxious episodes even though I wish they were over. I deal with those feelings right then and there and show myself kindness and grace. You aren’t a failure because you have anxiousness, you are a product of a collection of experiences. My heart goes out to you…. Be kinder to yourself, doll, because you’re pretty damn amazing just the way you are.
Oh hunny! This breaks my heart! I can’t wait to get your jewelry! I am beyond excited! There’s always going to be people that are just nasty. But that showcases them, not you. I’m so incredibly proud of you!! This is a huge step for you & i for one am thrilled!
YOU ASKED: "How come when you're stressed out and going through things it is so easy to make the worst food decisions?" You are at your most vulnerable with your body pushing against its food addiction (emotional eater, binge eater). It's going to throw a FIT whenever it wants what it wants and you are training it to not get its "fix." Your body is trained to get its happy hormones from food. First step in recovery is to replace how you get your happy hormones and to maybe also learn a bit more about your hormones in general. And above all else KNOW THAT IT IS NOT GOING TO BE EASY WHILE YOUR BODY/MIND TRANSITIONS OUT OF THIS STATE. You can't shortcut your way through your body's withdrawals. Just don't beat yourself up with that negative selftalk! ♥
I’ve been going through a fitness journey myself and it’s SO HARD. The reason we crave comfort foods (carbs, cheeses, things that help comfort you in that moment) is because it gives you a little endorphin rush in the minute. However it’s so deceitful because it’s using the stock of chemicals you already have, it’s not giving you nutrients for healthy new ones and ends up depleting your stock. The foods to eat during this time that will actually help long term are what I like to call “happy foods” (you can Google this term and find a huge list of foods that are healthy for your hormones and chemicals), some of these are salmon, deep greens, oats, etc. you’ve got this!!! It’s so so hard but you’re strong and it’s been wonderful seeing you get healthy. You’ve been inspiring me too!!
You know what? DO NOT ignore the hate. Acknowledge it. And realize that people like that are only reflecting what’s happening inside them. When you truly realize this, you won’t be as bothered, and not just on social media. Love you and proud of you ❤️
When you said “I just want my brain to be normal”. The amount of times I’ve said that to myself😔 makes me feel not so alone. Thanks for being so open❤️
I hate that people give you such a hard time! You’re one of the few “influencers/celebrities” that are actually humble, kind and deserve all the success you have! You definitely don’t deserve the constant scrutiny and hate that gets thrown your way! I’m always and forever rooting for you, girl! 😘
Hey! I cried when you cried! It’s hard struggling with anxiety and depression! You always have a ton of pressure on you. You’re so brave ! Thank you for sharing
I love how open you are about your anxiety. I recently had to up my Zoloft dosage and had that recurring thought “I just want my brain to be normal!” You’ve got this! You’ve made huge strides in how you fuel your body and you’ve lost weight. I’m proud of you for taking care of yourself in ALL aspects of life!
One thing I have learned is that your "set backs" are always setups for something BETTER. Yes, your lipsticks didn't work out but I feel that because of that "set back" it has launched you into something so much better. Keep putting one foot in front of the other! Millions of people are rooting for you. xoxo
Your journey has been the most inspiring thing to see as someone who is also trying to lose weight. Most youtubers don’t share the lows, the slip-ups, the cheat meals and the urges to cheat. You’re such a real, genuine human and you don’t gloss over your struggles for the camera or pretend to be perfect. I hope you can keep going, you have no idea how much you inspire me. ❤️
The amount of times I’ve cried for my brain to just be normal! I feel you so hard on this, thank you for being so vulnerable about this, just know you are not alone!! I feel like your anxiety will be a little relieved once the launch fully happens, stay strong beautiful!!!
Jaclyn I can so fucking relate to constantly obsessing and worrying, and eating poorly when I am upset. Honestly it’s so refreshing to see that I am not the only one who goes through this kind of stuff, so thanks for being so honest.
GIRL! The reason you felt fine/not hungry/not needing snacks one week and then starving the next/putting a few pounds on is because of your cycle! Hormones control everything, and we have peaks and dips throughout our cycles. It’s totally normal even though it’s frustrating. You’re doing so good!!!
I was just going to comment this! During ovulation I gain like 4 lbs of bloat and get ravenous.
She can be starving simply because she isn't eating enough
Ah, what's up Jaime French?! This is such a sweet message. Sending you and Jac love
Awww ❤️
Also the stress and dare I say trauma she faced during lipstick gate has GOT to be a major contributor, at least IMHO. She started having issues around that time which makes sense. I dont recall her age but if shes in perimenopause which can start at 30 this can cause many of the issues shes been dealing with. The stress shes gone thru would cause cortisol surges which is SO bad for our bodies, its very under estimated. I hope shell look into this if she hasnt & just see if these are part of whats going on bc shes trying so hard & deserves so much good! I think it will come in time.
I personally like the vulnerability in Jaclyns journey. Every person on this planet is struggling with something… so it’s relatable. Most influencers always act like their life is perfect and in turn people want to be just like them and have their lives. That isn’t real! Keep doing you, keep putting out bomb product, and you have your entire life to make positive health choices!
I could not have said it better!
@@laurieh.6508 I wrote things and deleted so many times so that is what I settled with ♥️
YES
Truth!!
Throw the scale away. It was the best thing I ever did. Seeing the scale go up and down was so terrible for my anxiety during my journey. I started weighing in monthly rather than daily/weekly just to make sure I was on the right track. YOU GOT THIS J!
This times 1000!!!
Yes ! I only see my weight at my Dr appointments. I focus on fueling my body with good amazing fuel 75% of the time and working out 3 days a week. Some seasons look different and that’s okay!
Let’s just focus on taking care of the ONE and ONLY body God gave us ☺️🙏👍🤛💪
Blessings to all ♥️
I needed this too. Thank you for sharing
100000000000% agree. The scale is a demon and doesn’t help, AT ALL. I threw the scale away 10 yrs ago. Just trust the process. You’ll know when you’re losing weight.
I said the same thing! I’ve lost 150lbs. and don’t own one scale!
The best thing you can do is to not handle your emotions with food. “I had a shit day so I’m going to eat whatever I want.” “I had an amazing day so I’m going to treat myself to pizza and ice cream!” “I worked out so I deserve this cookie”. That’s when you build a bad relationship with food. Food shouldn’t be a reward or a punishment. We literally need it to survive. If you’re hungry, eat!! You got this girl! We’ve all fallen into these ruts.
I disagree that food shouldn’t be a reward. Yes, creating habits surrounding food is not the best but I think it’s totally normal to have food as a reward. Not everyday obviously but once a month, or even once a week, it’s totally okay to have some cheesecake to treat yourself or whatever.
I really hope she doesn’t stop the series it’s my favorite thing on RUclips right now! But everyone’s gotta take care of themselves and do what’s right for them 💕
Me too! I love how real and raw she is. I truly love her. I wish the very best this year.
Same i really hope she keeps going because this is really inspiring and it’s real life tbh like this is just a stepping stone for her and everyone else that’s going through it as well
AGREED!!! I look forward to these videos! I never want them to end 😥
When you said “I wish my brain was normal” I can’t tell you how many times I’ve said that exact thing. Fighting ourselves is exhausting but you’re inspiring so many people just being you ❤️
I totally understand. I feel the exact same way.
Literally say that almost daily!
Very true 💔
I’ve said that for years
Girl it’s not being “negative”- it’s legit the REALEST type of struggle and super real and relatable. Not sugar coating this journey is comforting and I’m all for itt ! 🙌🏼👏🏼👏🏼
You nailed it. Comforting is absolutely the word for this series. It's comforting to hear someone else is going through something similar to me. We're not often this open in every day conversations.
This is a genuine question. Does Jaclyn have a personal trainer/nutritionist? I feel like this is a perfect instance where money can get the results she needs in regards to a more healthy lifestyle/fitness/wellness.
That was one of the things that I mentioned to her from chapter one of this series, she need an intervention team that includes a life coach, a trainer, a nutritionist and above all a psychologist all working in unison to guide her on this journey. because alone is too difficult if not impossible... It's a total change of lifestyle and with only the intention is not enough.
I don't know if you guys know the "Body by Madison" program but I witnessed the strong support of the health coach and the girls. Enjoying favorite foods without sacrificing the health is truly encouraged. Hope she could be encouraged too 💖
Right? I'd be really interested in seeing her work with Steve Zim if she were living in LA. Hope theres some good trainers in Florida.
@@preciousskyxo Body by Madison is based in Australia but she has members in US too. They organize the meal planning online :)
I was thinking that. Like where is your chef and personal trainer. However, I think I understand her attitude of I can do this on my own. It’s ok to build a team of people that will hold you accountable
“I just want my brain to be normal.” I felt that soooo hard.. sending hugs your way Jac!
@Alexis Sparks AGREED that was deep!
Same
Agree 💯
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Same
Please don’t stop this journey. It has not only helped me feel connected to you again but it has helped me want to better myself as well!
I couldn’t have said it better.
Jaclyn, it’s perfectly okay to PIVOT while you’re on this journey. Eat what you want, practice portion control and find exercise you look forward to. Have fun trying new stuff until you find it. There isn’t one way to lose weight. Don’t forget that this was supposed to be a fun journey where you find yourself. Walk around your neighborhood at your own pace daily to clear you mind. Try yoga. Take a self defense class. Get Hello fresh - the food is good and portion sized and they’ll sponsor you. Make this journey FUN. I hate seeing go through your depression and anxiety but it does make me feel like I’m not alone. Thanks for being open. 💕
This 👏🏼❤️
When I read this comment there was 111 likes, 1 comment, posted 1 hour ago… the spirit guides are talking!!
Alll of this ❤️
This Comment!👏👏👏👏👏👏
YES THIS COMMENT!
"I just want my brain to be normal" - that's the most relatable thing ever. I hear you. It's so incredibly hard and I can't imagine how difficult it must be for you sharing your life and feeling like this.
Jaclyn, I’m saying this with the most love to you. NOT EVERYONE is going to like you. YOU cannot please EVERYONE. Like you said about your products and how they can’t be perfect and it’s out of your control so is this. Continue to be the great person you are and even when you’re not ITS OKAY! ❤️We are all human.
But anyways continue your journey! I love seeing you overcome and I do see a difference! 🙌🏼❤️❤️❤️
YES! This was a very hard lesson for me to learn. I was a people pleaser in my younger days…..being so nice and accommodating to others and had nothing left for myself. I finally learned that no matter what I do, there will be people who will still not like me. And that is okay. Life will go on.
This was the hardest for me to learn. But it’s so freeing. ❤️
Not everyone has good taste!
When you muscles hurt, you go to a get a massage. When your thoughts hurt, therapy is like a massage for your brain and emotions. The only stigma there is is the one that we create. Theres no shame Jac. Get that brain massage girl! you'll feel so much better each time! Might go for one myself in the coming weeks. We all gotta box tings off sometimes :) Love you x
I LOVE this example!!! I’ve never thought of it like that before but it’s so true mental health is such a real thing and therapy helps so so much ❤️
@@kaelieudy7042 Exactly. When people realise that it’s a nice treat for you and not just a treatment. Perspective changes. We’re not broken. All we’re doing is allowing ourselves the luxury of reliving those muscles that have been working overtime. Nobody would be ashamed of going for a facial to take care of their skin. It’s all self care. Just because we can’t see it doesn’t mean we’re crazy. Thank you for commenting with such love today. I hope you have an amazing day 🥰 x
@@JohnFoleyBeauty of course! Exactly!!! It is just another form of self care and one that honestly I think everyone can benefit from ❤️❤️ I’m actually in school to be a psychologist and I think it’s such an important field and one that people think they need to be “broken” to go get help at which is just not the case! I hope you have. A great day as well!!:)
I wish therapy felt like a brain massage to me lol. It can be so mentally draining and exhausting sometimes.
@@alexandradorman3034 It can. I remember one of my sessions basically spent the hour crying in entirety. My face hurt and so much was unearthed. I felt confused for days about what to do with what came to be realised. But not months later I look back and I realise I’m no longer confused. I accept what happened. I’m no longer in denial. Sometimes it has to run its course. But out is always better than keeping it in. Stay strong and believe in yourself. Trust the process. You got this ❤️
“I just want my brain to be normal” girl I FELT that because I literally said that to my therapist today. Struggling with anxiety, depression, and childhood PTSD lately so I’m with you. SO proud of you for making the step to see a therapist. It’s hard but so worth it. I also can’t blame you for not being able to “ignore” the haters - no one should have to endure that. I absolutely adore you, Jaclyn Roxanne, stay strong and give it all to your therapist!!! 💕
This hit me hard. I hate when I get into those lows I can’t pull myself out of for sooooo long. I definitely relate. :(
Man... same here! Life is hard sometimes
This is spot on I’ve been feeling the same way for the past two weeks with my anxiety & depression I feel okay for awhile then feel so low I’m trying too get back too my therapy also 😢🥺💔
It makes me sad seeing you being so hard on yourself. You are allowed to eat when you are hungry. You are allowed to have some treats even if you gained weight or skipped your training session. You can still lose weight while having a balance eating nutritious food and junkfood. No food should be off limits and trigger negative feelings if it's not labeled as clean food. It's all about finding a balance. Your stress and anxiety is also felt by your body and often underestimated in the progress of a weight loss journey. As you said, put your mental health first and your body will follow through. Love yourself
A true, "imperfect" journey, not the usual glamourised journeys we see on social media! Thankyou for keeping it real x
This journey has been so inspiring. Because it’s not perfect. It’s hard and difficult. But SOOO many people on social media like to portray the perfect life and that their health journey was so easy. THANK YOU for keeping it real with us Jaclyn❤️❤️❤️ We need more relatable influencers like you
Agreed. This journey, seeing the challenges she faces, whether its from family, friends, emotional, etc. Reminds me of my own and that its okay to "not be on it" 100% of the time this journey, as she stated in the beginning is a journey for a healthier lifestyle, not a crash diet, and its shaped some of my own decisions I face in my own personal life as well. Thanks Jaclyn for being authentic and real. Take care of yourself girl. We all deserve to, and know you know what is best for you.
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Side Note: Even with all the stress, sleepless night, eating uncontrollably etc your skin is GLOOOOWING!!!! I kept looking at your face with no makeup and you are stunning Jaclyn! 😍😍😍
I have to agree. She looks amazing without makeup. I hate to be offensive, because it's kind of ironic, but she looks even more beautiful without makeup. ~shrug
As a therapist you’re never “too broken” for help❤️ we welcome you with open arms! Proud of you for getting help
this series makes me feel less alone. when you started crying about your anxiety and depression, it made me cry with you. i struggle with so many mental illnesses, and you just made me get a good cry out that i haven't been able to do for so long. hearing you talk about your struggles with mental health make me feel safe and seen because not many people around me get it. I wish we could be friends sometimes because of how much I can relate to you, but obviously that's not possible 😂 anyway, i love you and i wish you all the best and hoping you take care of yourself more!
I cried, too. But for some way it helps me, because I don't feel as lonely in this.
Sending you some hugs 🥰❤
We are all friends here 💕
You’re not alone queen! I get that when you say your friends don’t understand ugh and that’s such an aweful pain to feel as well! I’m here for you boo! 💖💜💖💜✌️
Jaclyn i truly wanna thank you for sharing your journey, because you‘ve inspired me so much to take better care of myself and my body again as well.. please never forget the positive impact you have on your audience! buuuuut, if you‘re no longer comfortable with sharing your journey on the vulnerable level we totally understand. but as i said, never underestimate all the love that is around ❤️
I'm so glad you're starting therapy! It can be so helpful. Remember, should you not like your therapist that's ok. Don't give up.. just look for another one. You'll be so much stronger!
Ditto girl...
Amen! I feel the same way!!!!!💖💜💖
I second this! I love watching your journey
I’ve seriously been eating better and at home again. I’ve been walking on the treadmill for 30 mins a day thanks to you! We’re all so proud of you. This shit is hard!!! I totally understand what you meant when you said you just want your brain to be normal… I fucking feel you. Food is so rough for me. We’re joining you and with you on this journey! Therapy is amazing, good for you ❤️🥺
Please don’t give up … you can fight through this. I was one of those “thousands of people” that went on your website to order earrings but couldn’t. I swear, I didn’t think “Lipsticks 2.0” … I thought, “good for you Jaclyn!! Your website crashed bc so many people wanted your products!!” I waited a bit and bought the earrings when your website was back up. We want you to have success!! Pls grant yourself some Grace and kindness during this journey. ❤️
Girl the fact that you can come back after feeling like you failed and created a whole new line shows how strong you are! Life has crazy ways of working and people look for every reason to talk own that shit your doing the dam thing! And I’m so proud of you for that! I’m so glad to have YOU as my role model!!!!! You’ve done nothing but show me that you can make things happen even when they don’t work out as planned. You are just such an amazing person inside and out thank you for all the motivation you give me! Girl roll with the punches your doing fucking amazing and no one can take that away from you!
This comment is literally so sweet!!💛🌟 We need more people like u girly spread positivity not hate !:)💗💗
“Jaclyn’s Journey has turned into me sitting here confessing all my problems in life” THATS WHY WERE HERE!!!! Keep it real and keep it going 💛
Exactly it’s needed. She’s juman
Jaclyn- Your transparency is so refreshing. Your journey is so relatable. So many things you said in this video, especially in relation to emotions/food, struck a chord with me. I am there with you. You aren’t alone. Thank you for sharing your vulnerable side. It’s refreshing and makes me glad I came back to your channel to start watching again.
to you jac, and anyone else reading this: you are in no way a 'failure'. you are alive and your existence is amazing. you have touched the lives of so many people - people you don't even know. you have done your best, are doing your best, and will continue to do the absolute best you can in that given time. have faith in yourself. YOU are precious. x
this is so sweet! and so true! You are loved
We are human, words hurt! It’s so hard to just “ignore” especially when your primary love language is words of affirmation. Your beautiful inside and out Jaclyn, keep being you❤️
I'm just gonna say- I hope none of us will ever have to deal with the millions of people watching us make a mistake and microscoping every detail about it. That shit leaves not only scars but so much trauma. Jaclyn, you don't get enough credit for coming out of that strong and positive. You never gave up on your dreams and let me tell you a lot of us would just say- that's it, I'm done. So keep your head high, cause you proved yourself more than once that you can raise above bad times. ❤
Absolutely! She just pushes through and tries again and I know I would've said "screw this" a long time ago. She doesn't let the anxiety, despression, hard times, failures etc. define her. She is one strong queen!
I absolutely agree with everything you said. People act like she is responsible for every human watching her and she damn well better never make a mistake 😡 she should be robotic and perfect! Smh it’s disgusting! She is a human just the same as every single one of us. The only difference is she documents her journey. She is amazing for it! I truly hope everything will work out and be truly okay and you get all you wish for Jaclyn xx 😘
I’m no professional but I think when your body is restricting for awhile, after a few weeks it is just screaming for food! Try not to be so hard on yourself and stop limiting carbs and start focusing on fuelling your body with balanced meals that are satiating and emotionally satisfying too! Maybe then you won’t have this sense of all or nothing mentality! I love you girl and you can do this! 🤍
Yessss 🙌🏻🙌🏻
Yes! Love this!
I agree!
totally agree! i find if i don’t eat enough carbs I am STARVING !!! carbs are a good fuel
I agree! I think she needs to stop weighing herself every few days because it’s normal to fluctuate and 2 pounds is nothing to get discouraged about. I think she would have better success if she worked out and not just walking but who knows
I’m so tired of people labeling things as “healthy”. As someone recovering from anorexia nervosa, healthy is giving your body what it needs and eating a balance of foods that you enjoy from every food group. If your body is craving something you deem as unhealthy, it’s most likely because you’re not allowing yourself to have it. It’s so hard to listen to your body, but your body is soooo smart. I love you, Jaclyn. You’re jewelry is all beautiful💕
Preach!
Totally agree with this but a lot of people are still learning this concept. After years of society telling us something totally different. But again I totally agree with you 🙂
such a sweet comment :)
Very true. Maybe her body is lacking something that is in the dairy products she forbids herself to eat.
That’s not entirely true. Chocolate cravings are from low magnesium for example. I do know that restricting yourself can definitely cause binging though.
oddly enough, I just want to say your eyes when you were crying were just the most clear gorgeous sea blue green colour ❤️ and I think that was a shine of light for you realizing it is time for help. love you jaclyn 🥲
In tears hearing you say “I just want my brain right” because I FELT that. Some days it feels like you’re all alone in this dark place but hearing it from someone like you who inspires me so much brings a little light to my dark place. Anxiety and depression can be so damn exhausting. You are so brave to talk about the things you have. Mental health IS REAL PEOPLE and it is okay to go to therapy!!! I will always love and support you Jaclyn. Keep being you girl, we’re all in this together ❤️❤️❤️
Agreed. 💗
Hey Jacyln, my doctor once told me that when we’re stressed our body goes in panic mode where we get hungrier because we think we are in danger, it’s normal to feel stress once or twice a day but we’re not equipped to be in a constant state of stress (I’m a teacher so I understand what being stressed all the time feels like lol) Im probably explaining this wrong but I know when cortisol levels are high weight loss does get harder, it’s something I’ve been trying to work on too. I’d suggest going to a homeopathic doctor that can give you some vitamins that help lower stress and give you natural ways to help you in your journey. Best of luck to you!!! You’ve been a huge inspiration to me on this journey and have been showing your real struggles which I wish influencers did more of. I’m proud of you and I KNOW you will Reach your goals. We’re in this together!
Yes! I was going to say this about stress also. Cortisol can be a huge factor in why someone isn’t losing weight and stress management is a huge part of health and wellness.
YES! Meditation can help too. So much.
I loved your comment so much thank you for saying all of those helpful things ☺️
I can see such a HUGE difference in her! Her face, her glow, her hair, her skin! Everything! She looks AMAZING!! All of your hard work is paying off, you are doing an amazing job & you are so so sooo strong! I am so excited to see the difference in her already, physically. She is an absolute beauty inside & out!
I bawled my eyes out watching this! Depression and anxiety doesn't come with a warning and it doesn't discriminate against anyone it smacks you in the face and doesn't stop. Don't stop doing what it takes to try to get to a place of peace please. For YOURSELF
you are so pretty!!
Bawled when you said “I just want my brain right” I think the same thing all the time too. So don’t ever think you’re alone, we’re all in this together. I’m so glad you’re opening up to us because a lot of the times we think we’re alone in this dark place and we’re truly not. Know we all love you, just as much as you love all of us!
I’ve never related more to another human being regarding what you said when you were in your backyard. I wish none of us had to feel this way, but it’s comforting to know that I’m not alone in the world because I’m definitely alone in my friends and family setting. You’re amazing. Thank you for this 💕
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The true gospel is the good news that God saves sinners. Man is by nature sinful and separated from God with no hope of remedying that situation. But God, by His power, provided the means of man’s redemption in the death, burial, and resurrection of the Savior, Jesus Christ.
Ephesians 2:8-9
For it is by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of GOD, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.
Romans 10:9
9 because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
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I’ve recently come across studies for the way our menstruating cycle affects our level of hunger, so that may be happening. And it’s just your body saying I need more for what I’m doing right now internally. I’m so proud of you and you make me feel not so alone in my own struggles with a similar get to my level healthy journey 🖤🖤🖤
“I just want my brain to be normal”
Shift your thoughts:
“My brain is normal”
Just take a look at how many people said they “felt that to the core”
You are uniquely you.
Love yourself for it.
When you started talking about how awful it feels to look around at everything you’ve worked so hard for, everything you are so blessed with, yet unable to feel good and instead feeling anxious and depressed; feeling lack and emptiness instead of fullness, have you ever considered that maybe your purpose is no longer aligned? I discovered you in 2014, 7 years ago and had my own successful wedding makeup career from watching YOU. You have a gift and a purpose for being alive. I think for a long time it was helping people feel beautiful, showing us how to be creative, being a teacher but maybe now its changing. If I am being honest it seems like you’re on the brink of a next level spiritual awakening. Its always darkest before the dawn Jaclyn. Hang in there.
Xoxo
THIS. This!!! THIS!!!
Sounds like PMS to me girly pop... when pmsing you're body needs and craves more calories... also hormones cause bloating and water retention... which is why you aren't supposed to obsess over the scale. I love watching your journey... don't give up! this is a lifestyle change ♥
“I just want my brain to be normal”
I felt that so hard that I wanna cry
Btw I also try to make positive videos
Girl you bring such a REALness to the RUclips world that honestly I truly appreciate you being so open about your life. I love this Jaclyn Journey series! You’re beautiful!!! ❤️
Even if it was a “cash grab” isn’t that the whole point of a business. You make money from a business?🤣 I just don’t understand why people are bothered by jewelry.
Except for kylie jenner. Her businesses are deff cash grabs. I would never consider jaclyns businesses to be cash grab 😓
I agree!!
I'm so annoyed by people throwing those words around. Like yeah people want to make miney, duh.
“I just want my brain to be normal”. Ugh. Felt that DEEP within my soul. I’ve said that exact statement over and over and over again. Still do, pretty much daily.
Mental health, anxiety, panic disorders, depression, OCD, etc….they’re real and they’re not talked about nearly as often as they need to be. Those who don’t suffer from mental illnesses will never be able to fully understand what it’s like to be at a constant battle with your brain on a daily basis. Thank you for continuing to shed light on mental health. 💜
And good luck on your journey & congrats on all the wonderful progress you’ve made thus far. 👏🏼
“I just want my brain to be normal.”
Oh how I felt this. I’m the same age as you Jaclyn, I feel like we’ve grown up together. I’m so sorry you’re struggling. I wish I could give you a hug.
Aweeee I felt her so much when she was talking about her depression😭 when your depressed you truly understand others when they say they just wish their brain was normal😭 Jacklyn healing your body and mind is really fucking hard! Your doing amazing! 🤎
People with severe anxiety and depression should probably be in therapy their whole lives and there is nothing wrong with that! Emotional and mental health is just as important and physical health ♥️ rooting for you in your journey!!
Yep! I take medicine and have a monthly therapy session. Even after I worked through all of the hard stuff, I still go and look at my progress.
It’s working Girl!!! Baby your face is slimming! That’s the first thing for me when I shed weight so keep going!!! 💪🏼
No, it’s not.
I felt that in my soul. I just want my brain to be normal... I say this every time I have a panic attack. The struggle with anxiety and depression is so hard. Way to be so open with everyone about your life. That takes so much courage and strength. Just know you are not alone. Just keep moving forward and looking up because that's where it all is. Stay Strong Jaclyn!
Mama! LET YOURSELF FEEL! However you feel! You’re human, you have emotions! The strong people are the ones that are open & vulnerable & you’re just proving to all of us how badass & strong you really are! I had so much respect for you before, but it’s on another level, & I didn’t even think that could happen.. but you’re doing the damn thing! In your health journey, in your career, in your life! You’re doing it & I’m so proud of you! ❤️
I was there for launch time, the site went down and my heart immediately went to “oh dear sweet Jaclyn…she’s going to be devastated.” I sent a message to your customer service just to tell them it’s okay and I’m excited for when I can buy. I just purchased today. I’m so thankful there was still stock. All the love sis. 💕
THIS has been therapeutic for me. It makes me feel like I’m not alone. I’m going through work things, personal things, major anxiety and I’m trying to be healthy all at once. Thank you for putting yourself out there for this. ❤️
I’m so PROUD of you, Jaclyn and I pray you hear that. You’re confronting every fear head on and this series has allowed all of your fans to see such a real side of you and we love it. Thank you for always sharing your heart with us. Jaclyn Roxanne is going to be incredible because YOU are behind it. Take care of yourself, so you can continue shining your light in this world. We’re all here for it💛
Jaclyn, you’re so strong. It’s actually insane how much I really relate to you in so many ways. I don’t feel so alone. I’m sorry you have to conquer these things.. but you posting about it IS making a difference in my life and so many others. Your break down talking about how your brain just doesn’t feel right…. I relate to this so much because I constantly think there’s something wrong with me and my wires aren’t connecting as they should. Thank you for speaking out about your struggles. You’re not alone.💜
I can’t lie after the lipstick drama I was hesitant about getting Jaclyn cosmetics but I recently got the mood glow and some bronzers and blushes and it makes my skin look amazing and I feel so confident! This series has inspired me to take my own journey! I look forward to these videos every week ❤️
I got the mood glow on sale at morphe and it’s truly worth it. I love it!
I feel so much better knowing that I am not the only person that literally throws a fit when it's needed and girl sometimes it's needed. Love you big
This series is everything. I felt frustrated for you about the website issue for Jaclyn Roxanne I can only image how upsetting that would have been. Wishing you nothing but success from here on out! And sending you love on your mental and physical health journey 💕💕💕
I ordered the cross for my grandma for Christmas and it’s beautiful I can’t wait to give it to her. It shipped so fast I was impressed ❤️
I left a couple of years ago.... this Journey has brought me back. I love seeing your growth. People judge and I know its easy to say "Just don't listen to them".
Thank you for sharing your physical and mental journey and growth with us.
Remember that even “normal” people benefit from therapy. I have been putting off therapy for a while because it makes my problems a little more real but it’s comforting to know that I am not the only one that has these feelings. I can’t imagine how hard it is to be vulnerable in front of thousands of people online so thank you. ❤️
If you decide to go for it, good luck with therapy! I hope it helps you to talk about what you're feeling. And don't be afraid to try a few different doctors if you don't feel a fit with the first one! But you probably know that. Best wishes xx
I literally say “I just want my brain to be normal” ALL the time!!!! I know exactly how you feel. I have everything I could ever want. I bought a house, new cars, I go shopping whenever I want and it’s not enough. I look at everything I have and how great my life is yet I still feel so empty and depressed and cry because my brain makes me feel miserable. I don’t understand it. It’s frustrating!!! Love you, girl
It's so normal to cycle in and out of depression/anxiety/therapy/medication over the years... I am living proof of this as well. You are not alone! I also LOVE my 2 necklaces I bought and can't wait to get a couple more. Please say you'll do rings in the future! Hang in there. xoxo
Why do people hate seeing others succeed, envy is everywhere. 😔
You will prevail Jaclyn, stay strong through these rough times. Sending love!!! 💕❤️
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This is everyone’s fitness/health journey: no one is perfect. What matters is the desire to want to get back to a better, healthier you. This is a bump in the road! Your mental health matters just as much as your physical health. Take care of your mind, and the rest will soon follow. You got this Jaclyn! Every week I am rooting for you! Much love 🤍
I’ve never been a fan of Jaclyn UNTIL NOW! I love how honest and open she is being throughout her journey! 💕💕💕
I literally feel exactly like you do. I don’t sleep, I’m always tired, my anxiety is out of control too…. So yeah…. I literally FEEL YOU JACLYN! Ugh! It’s so fxk’n frustrating! I hope & pray we find our ‘answers’ soon! Love you J! ❤️
going to therapy is the best thing anyone can do for their mental health, everyone should be in therapy. I recently went through something traumatic and while i was in the trenches of PTSD i somehow pushed myself to sign up for therapy and it's been the best thing. Having someone to listen to all my shit for a whole hour each week without judgement is so refreshing. I'm happy you got back in it!
Cheering you on-trauma survivor with C-PTSD here and getting mental health support is the bravest thing you can do ❤️
Exactly everyone needs therapy tbh
I don't know if everyone should be in therapy, only because there are a lot of bad therapists out there. But it is really nice to have someone listen to us without judgment. Thankfully there's not as much stigma behind it as there used to be.
@@ShaydahandSaharavlogs I agree that not every therapist is suited for everyone. Some people want a blunt therapist to just tell them how it is, some people need a softer approach. Both are okay so long as the person seeking therapy is on board 🤍
Keep your stress levels low. Cortisol has an impact on weight gain and stress triggers high levels of cortisol. You're going to be okay. Be kind to yourself, Jaclyn. We're all rooting for you.
It's so interesting how stress affect people differently. I know people who respond by overeating and then there's me, who barely eats from stress. Also, you do not have to feel overly stressed for your cortisol levels to be high or unhealthy levels. This is why stress is a silent killer.
I started therapy earlier this year and honestly it was the best thing I ever did.
👏🏼EVERYBODY 👏🏼NEEDS👏🏼THERAPY!!👏🏼
Don’t be embarrassed about needing/wanting therapy. It’s so amazing to have someone to talk to about anything and everything. So excited for you to hopefully get some mental relief!
I'm so proud of you!!!
Yes hunnnnyyy
You know what’s crazy, this is reminding me so much of when I was on birth control last year. I gained 20+ lbs and the weight gain & hormones had my head in a completely different space. I was negative and insecure and then the comfort food was putting me into this vicious cycle as well. I think we all “fail” sometimes but once you get into a groove it’s gonna stick, just take it day by day baby girl ❤️
As a therapist, therapy is good for everyone! It’s a step toward emotional wellness. And if anything, it means you’re strong for taking care of yourself 💗😘
This episode was by far, the most meaningful to me. "I just want my brain to be normal." I quote this daily as I work through anxiety and depression. There's days where I just feel like I'll never be "normal" and it feels like everyone judges. Thank you for being raw and honest with those of us that truly care and feel the same struggles. I needed this today. ❤️
Can we just give a round of applause for her simply for the fact that she was brave enough to put herself back out there with this launch after what she went through with the lipsticks 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
Very few people have done what you have girl.
Regardless of whether or not you support her as a person, that fact alone deserves our respect.
I know you’re going through a lot right now, but sometimes we have to endure persecution in order to be positioned where God wants us. Lean in to your discomfort. Pray, read, mediate, feel all the feelings, and please give yourself grace. You’re doing great sweetie. 🤍
And oh, about weight-loss…it’s called a ‘journey’ for a reason. If it were linear, they’d call it a ‘walk’.
“Happy people go to therapy to stay happy.” I can’t remember who told me that, but I personally think it’s true! Proud of you for making that appointment. Love ya Jac💛
What a beautiful saying
Happy is an emotion. Nobody is “happy” all the time and if they are they’re probably living in an illusion.
Your hungry love because you are HUNGRY. Your body is begging for food. Sometimes your body gets used to what your doing and your weight stops on the scale or sometimes goes backwards. Sounds crazy, I know. But eat more to lose more. Still eat healthy. But switch up everything you’ve been doing. What you eat, the time you eat it. Play with your portions. Your body will kickstart again and by like woah. It’s constant change on this journey. Your body will get used to what you are doing. Play around with your exercise too. Instead of walking half an our, walk and hour. Or go do a dance class. Yoga. Mix it up. Keep going you got thi
Jaclyn from champagne pop from RUclips from the “drama/scandals” you have ALWAYS shown how genuine and ambitious you are. You fight hard for everything you want and desire with collabs your own line everything. I’ve been watching you since my later teen years and I’m 24 now a mom and I still love to check in on you and see your next accomplishment your next journey you’re ALWAYS onto another project you have more strength than most. I’m so proud of you 🖤 never stop.
you got this girl. your success rate for getting through hard things is 100%.
i hadn’t watched your channel (or any beaty channel) in a while, because i just moved to a different side of youtube but i’ve really really been enjoying your vlogs. your transparency is inspiring and i love to see a success story, and this is part of your success story. love it. keep going strong.
I LOVE THIS SERIES JACLYN! pls don’t be so hard on yourself babe. you’ve accomplished so much, way more than most people will ever be able to do. you are an inspiration to me and so many boys and girls everywhere. pls don’t ever stop being you❤️
Being so vulnerable and putting yourself out there has been so inspiring, you don't even know how much you help other just by being YOU
I wanna comment something that truly helped me SO much with my anxiety: I used to get so frustrated because my anxiety held me back. Why did I have to be so broken? Then I reframed the way I saw myself. If I told you the story of how I “earned” my anxiety, you’d think “Well of course she is anxious, she’s been through it.” So why couldn’t I extend that same kindness to myself? I earned this anxiety and I don’t need to be fixed. I take my time, I don’t rush myself through anxious episodes even though I wish they were over. I deal with those feelings right then and there and show myself kindness and grace. You aren’t a failure because you have anxiousness, you are a product of a collection of experiences. My heart goes out to you…. Be kinder to yourself, doll, because you’re pretty damn amazing just the way you are.
You are so right!! I love your comment ❤
That's such a lovely way of extending compassion to yourself 💕 Thank you so much for sharing, I will be implementing this whenever I can!
Thank you for sharing!!
Oh hunny! This breaks my heart! I can’t wait to get your jewelry! I am beyond excited! There’s always going to be people that are just nasty. But that showcases them, not you. I’m so incredibly proud of you!! This is a huge step for you & i for one am thrilled!
“another fail for jaclyn hill” hurt my heart. i know how much you wanted this to be perfect and no one blames you. i’m so sorry this happened
YOU ASKED: "How come when you're stressed out and going through things it is so easy to make the worst food decisions?" You are at your most vulnerable with your body pushing against its food addiction (emotional eater, binge eater). It's going to throw a FIT whenever it wants what it wants and you are training it to not get its "fix." Your body is trained to get its happy hormones from food. First step in recovery is to replace how you get your happy hormones and to maybe also learn a bit more about your hormones in general. And above all else KNOW THAT IT IS NOT GOING TO BE EASY WHILE YOUR BODY/MIND TRANSITIONS OUT OF THIS STATE. You can't shortcut your way through your body's withdrawals. Just don't beat yourself up with that negative selftalk! ♥
I’ve been going through a fitness journey myself and it’s SO HARD. The reason we crave comfort foods (carbs, cheeses, things that help comfort you in that moment) is because it gives you a little endorphin rush in the minute. However it’s so deceitful because it’s using the stock of chemicals you already have, it’s not giving you nutrients for healthy new ones and ends up depleting your stock. The foods to eat during this time that will actually help long term are what I like to call “happy foods” (you can Google this term and find a huge list of foods that are healthy for your hormones and chemicals), some of these are salmon, deep greens, oats, etc. you’ve got this!!! It’s so so hard but you’re strong and it’s been wonderful seeing you get healthy. You’ve been inspiring me too!!
I’m so proud of you Jaclyn for going to therapy. Anxiety and depression is no joke!! You can do this honey 💗💗
You know what? DO NOT ignore the hate. Acknowledge it. And realize that people like that are only reflecting what’s happening inside them. When you truly realize this, you won’t be as bothered, and not just on social media.
Love you and proud of you ❤️
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Love this comment! So true.
When you said “I just want my brain to be normal”. The amount of times I’ve said that to myself😔 makes me feel not so alone. Thanks for being so open❤️
I hate that people give you such a hard time! You’re one of the few “influencers/celebrities” that are actually humble, kind and deserve all the success you have! You definitely don’t deserve the constant scrutiny and hate that gets thrown your way! I’m always and forever rooting for you, girl! 😘
Heck yes!!! She is SO caring and grateful and appreciative! She gives so much to her fans and even strangers and she deserves the love and success!
So true🙏🏼❤️
Hey! I cried when you cried! It’s hard struggling with anxiety and depression! You always have a ton of pressure on you. You’re so brave ! Thank you for sharing
I love how open you are about your anxiety. I recently had to up my Zoloft dosage and had that recurring thought “I just want my brain to be normal!” You’ve got this! You’ve made huge strides in how you fuel your body and you’ve lost weight. I’m proud of you for taking care of yourself in ALL aspects of life!
One thing I have learned is that your "set backs" are always setups for something BETTER. Yes, your lipsticks didn't work out but I feel that because of that "set back" it has launched you into something so much better. Keep putting one foot in front of the other! Millions of people are rooting for you. xoxo
As a woman with a severe anxiety disorder, I truly thank you. Ur journey is so real.
THAT IS SPIRITUAL JACLYN!! There is freedom in Jesus from those attacks!
Your journey has been the most inspiring thing to see as someone who is also trying to lose weight. Most youtubers don’t share the lows, the slip-ups, the cheat meals and the urges to cheat. You’re such a real, genuine human and you don’t gloss over your struggles for the camera or pretend to be perfect. I hope you can keep going, you have no idea how much you inspire me. ❤️
The amount of times I’ve cried for my brain to just be normal! I feel you so hard on this, thank you for being so vulnerable about this, just know you are not alone!! I feel like your anxiety will be a little relieved once the launch fully happens, stay strong beautiful!!!
Jaclyn I can so fucking relate to constantly obsessing and worrying, and eating poorly when I am upset. Honestly it’s so refreshing to see that I am not the only one who goes through this kind of stuff, so thanks for being so honest.
After watching this series I have become such a huge fan. I’ve never bought any of your products before but I definitely plan on it.