My life in the past year has changed so much that I feel crazy. Last year in October I had the best night of my life at Homecoming with my friends and even had a girl to party with, then I go home and not long after my mom files for divorce on my dad. The house got really dark after that, and she hated that I chose my dad. Even he was shocked at it. In December of last year we finally moved out into an apartment complex for the time being. I still see my sister and mom sometimes but I miss my sister more than anything. Once I ended up going to a new school it turns out it's way worse than my last one. I hated it there. One day in March I saw someone, a girl. I still remember her name, age, Birthday, and height. I took one look at her and I felt something inside me click together. She was the only reason I kept going to school. I had walls and crap around my heart and somehow, this random girl just...walked in, looked around and walked out. She didn't even know that she saved me. I was madly in love to the point I'd come home to my dad jumping up and down like a little kid lol. I was 17 at the time and I'm 18 now. In April, my sister and her friend actually peer pressured me into calling her and we hit it off. We started playing video games more and more and soon after, she asked if she could come over to my house for a sleepover since my sister and her friend were doing the same. Two days later...we started dating. I was so damn happy. Just thinking about it is making me tear up again. This woman who I thought I'd never hold in my arms was now mine and she loved me. I felt so happy. Then in August, her "mask" fell off and I saw who she really was. She was lying and manipulating me into doing what she wanted, and she started doing that at around the time I kept telling her "No" to sex because I wanted to wait first. Keep in mind I've never had an actual girlfriend before so ofc I was nervous as all hell lol. But even when she started talking to other guys, even when she started shit talking me to her family which her family hated because they saw I wanted her for who she was, not for what was in her pants, even after all of that...I still loved her. I thought I was the problem so I fought myself to get out more, to be better, but in the end I nearly killed myself from the stress and pain. The only reason I didn't was my family. They stayed there with me while I was in that dark place. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't even be writing this right now. I'd either be dead or out on the street starving to death because I ran away. I did but I ended up coming back because my sister was crying. She called me and it snapped me out of whatever the hell was going through my head. I'm better now and I don't want her anymore. After all of this her family disowned her and she ended up getting with her fucking cousin. I WISH I was lying. During all of that, I lost my childhood friend. He changed after his dad died from cancer, God rest his soul, and afterwards he started trying to date a lot of women. He would threaten, mainly younger girls, that if they didn't send nudes then he would break in and (g)rape them. I stopped talking to him after that and I never went back. I still miss him from time to time. I loved him like my brother. My life fell apart, was fixed and then ruined by the same person who showed me what real love was like, and my brother since 2nd grade turned into a freak. I know that a better life is waiting for me in the future, but I'm feeling tired again and I just wanna sleep. I'm trying to stay strong but the memories are killing me. I listen to my music and play games to forget it but it doesn't work forever. The whole thing did humble me a lot and I matured because of all of it. If you, or someone else is going through something, please stay with them. Show them that you're there. Don't leave them fully in the darkness because that's when it truly attacks them. Even if they don't want to be around people, stay close to them. Don't let them fall to the horrible place we call out mind. And if you're going through something, you have to keep fighting. I know how stupid that sounds, you're tired, pissed off and over everything, but you have to keep fighting. If even I could rebound from a horrifying such as this one, I know you can beat it too. I believe in you. I love you all. Stay safe, have a merry Christmas, and a happy new year ❤❤❤
I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I'm unable to provide the help that you need. It's really important to talk things over with someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life.
@@onrainydays500 I have been, and even if things did get bad for me again, I wouldn't ask for help like this online. I love your videos because they've been getting me though my horrible thoughts each night. This video in particular is my favorite. I appreciate what you do. You help so many people with this kind of content that it seems like Magic. So thank you for what you do ❤
My bf often tells me tht my eyebags r becoming big and I can’t tell what’s the main reason. I can’t sleep like literally even tho I try so hard to sleep. Thanks to this kind of videos on Yt, It helps me a little. It’s so loud in here too since I have 2 older siblings with me here in one room and they don’t go to school anymore so they don’t care whether they’re being too loud like really loud. It’s irritating my brain when I’m hearing a lot of noise.
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My life in the past year has changed so much that I feel crazy. Last year in October I had the best night of my life at Homecoming with my friends and even had a girl to party with, then I go home and not long after my mom files for divorce on my dad. The house got really dark after that, and she hated that I chose my dad. Even he was shocked at it. In December of last year we finally moved out into an apartment complex for the time being. I still see my sister and mom sometimes but I miss my sister more than anything. Once I ended up going to a new school it turns out it's way worse than my last one. I hated it there. One day in March I saw someone, a girl. I still remember her name, age, Birthday, and height. I took one look at her and I felt something inside me click together. She was the only reason I kept going to school. I had walls and crap around my heart and somehow, this random girl just...walked in, looked around and walked out. She didn't even know that she saved me. I was madly in love to the point I'd come home to my dad jumping up and down like a little kid lol. I was 17 at the time and I'm 18 now. In April, my sister and her friend actually peer pressured me into calling her and we hit it off. We started playing video games more and more and soon after, she asked if she could come over to my house for a sleepover since my sister and her friend were doing the same. Two days later...we started dating. I was so damn happy. Just thinking about it is making me tear up again. This woman who I thought I'd never hold in my arms was now mine and she loved me. I felt so happy. Then in August, her "mask" fell off and I saw who she really was. She was lying and manipulating me into doing what she wanted, and she started doing that at around the time I kept telling her "No" to sex because I wanted to wait first. Keep in mind I've never had an actual girlfriend before so ofc I was nervous as all hell lol. But even when she started talking to other guys, even when she started shit talking me to her family which her family hated because they saw I wanted her for who she was, not for what was in her pants, even after all of that...I still loved her. I thought I was the problem so I fought myself to get out more, to be better, but in the end I nearly killed myself from the stress and pain. The only reason I didn't was my family. They stayed there with me while I was in that dark place. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't even be writing this right now. I'd either be dead or out on the street starving to death because I ran away. I did but I ended up coming back because my sister was crying. She called me and it snapped me out of whatever the hell was going through my head. I'm better now and I don't want her anymore. After all of this her family disowned her and she ended up getting with her fucking cousin. I WISH I was lying. During all of that, I lost my childhood friend. He changed after his dad died from cancer, God rest his soul, and afterwards he started trying to date a lot of women. He would threaten, mainly younger girls, that if they didn't send nudes then he would break in and (g)rape them. I stopped talking to him after that and I never went back. I still miss him from time to time. I loved him like my brother.
My life fell apart, was fixed and then ruined by the same person who showed me what real love was like, and my brother since 2nd grade turned into a freak.
I know that a better life is waiting for me in the future, but I'm feeling tired again and I just wanna sleep. I'm trying to stay strong but the memories are killing me. I listen to my music and play games to forget it but it doesn't work forever. The whole thing did humble me a lot and I matured because of all of it. If you, or someone else is going through something, please stay with them. Show them that you're there. Don't leave them fully in the darkness because that's when it truly attacks them. Even if they don't want to be around people, stay close to them. Don't let them fall to the horrible place we call out mind. And if you're going through something, you have to keep fighting. I know how stupid that sounds, you're tired, pissed off and over everything, but you have to keep fighting. If even I could rebound from a horrifying such as this one, I know you can beat it too. I believe in you.
I love you all. Stay safe, have a merry Christmas, and a happy new year ❤❤❤
I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I'm unable to provide the help that you need. It's really important to talk things over with someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life.
@@onrainydays500 I have been, and even if things did get bad for me again, I wouldn't ask for help like this online. I love your videos because they've been getting me though my horrible thoughts each night. This video in particular is my favorite.
I appreciate what you do. You help so many people with this kind of content that it seems like Magic. So thank you for what you do ❤
My bf often tells me tht my eyebags r becoming big and I can’t tell what’s the main reason. I can’t sleep like literally even tho I try so hard to sleep. Thanks to this kind of videos on Yt, It helps me a little. It’s so loud in here too since I have 2 older siblings with me here in one room and they don’t go to school anymore so they don’t care whether they’re being too loud like really loud. It’s irritating my brain when I’m hearing a lot of noise.
I'm really sorry to hear about your struggles, dear. I am glad our videos can provide relief, even if only a bit. Take good care of yourself.
There is nothing better than a deep and good sleep, helping us temporarily forget stress and fatigue. Don't forget to get enough sleep to stay fresh all day long.
Indeed, a good sleep is like a reset button for the body and mind. Stay healthy and keep up with good habits for a productive day!
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