HAPPY RAVE!!! [vent]

this was made before i took my social media hiatus, i haven't touched it since.
I was originally planning on adding to it but at this point I'm finally over it. Like don't get me wrong, I'd take him back in a heartbeat but at the same time he wants absolutely nothing to do with me and I CAN'T SAY I BLAME HIM.
It was literally KILLING ME inside, even if he's the best person I've ever met. There's some things we can't change for each other, and I'm not sure if it hurt him nearly as much as it hurt me but it's clear to me now that he won't change. I respect that, but I can't have him in my life anymore if he's gonna ignore me for weeks on end when he KNOWS it hurts me more than anything. There's a tiny part of me holding on to hope that maybe we can reconnect one day, but I've decided that the reasons we split can't be waivered.
I need clear communication of feelings. I want him to be happy, I don't want him to have to change for me because... why would he? I'm some random cunt on the internet, how much can someone mean to you when they've never even met you... right...?
D, if you are reading this. I miss you more than I could ever put into words. I was thinking about maybe reaching out to you for your birthday but I decided against it since it goes against my promise to you. I know you don't want to talk to me, and I understand. I am very much aware it's on the 20th, but happy birthday. You're an amazing guy regardless of the small hiccups, do what you love no matter what anyone else says, and just take care of yourself. I'm wishing the best for you everyday. There's a lot I want to apologize for, but your business doesn't deserve to be in a vent animation meme description. I will say, though, I'm sorry you had to deal with the brunt of my obsession with you. I was so fucking happy that I didn't care how unhealthy it was and I can't be remorseful enough for that. I had my heart on my sleeve and it is not your fault that I got hurt as much as I did. I'm also sorry for lashing out at you how I did after I found out you were "shit-talking" me (YOU WEREN'T). I felt so strongly that you would never do that, didn't want to see what you said, and assumed the worst like I always do. I was so angry, and NOTHING excuses how I lashed out. The reasons why don't matter, I just want you to know that I'm sorry.
I still stand firm that if you ever genuinely need me, I will shove EVERYTHING aside and be there for you for however long you need me. You're still my best friend and I'll always be your ride or die.
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[@parrotinshoes]

Hope u feel okay dude and maybe take care if yourself sometimes. Those voice will maybe go away if you take care and give positive thoughts . Idk how to comfort someone but i try

[@SudaneseHoodNigga]

Can u apologize for being racist

[@Applekinz]

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[@parrotinshoes]

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[@Applekinz]

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