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omg listening to you talk is like listening to my own self. I know exactly what you're talking about-though I'm not a mom, but understand exactly what you mean regarding your identity & feeling inferior. Hope your migraines are better this week. I get them too.
I can relate to this. I had such a hard time giving up the anorexia because I didn't know who I was without it. I've learnt a lot about myself these last few years. But I'm in my thirties so that's an awfully late time to do it! But when younger life becomes about surviving something or many things, self discovery and self acceptance just isn't possible! It's funny because I actually see you as really headstrong in who you are. The way you talk has changed a lot over the years and you now sound so much more grounded - but I can understand not being able to answer open ended questions about who you are and where youve come from. I'm like a deer in headlights with those questions. Thank you for replying to me re your physical disabilities btw. I did read it even though I didn't get round to responding. P.s. Edie cuddling ants is the sweetest thing !
Heya, yeah it’s hard to know where to begin when answering questions Cos if you give a short answer it doesn’t tell the whole story and doesn’t make sense! I genuinely feel so nothing sometimes that I feel like I’m Hollow inside like a robot hence the not feeling like a real person. It’s weird and a massive head fuck! Glad I’m not completely alien in feeling like this though! And Edie does love her ants😂😂😂 she loves anytjing living tbf x
Hi. I really, really understand and relate to what you are talking about. I don't have any children but I've had a very long mental health history. Thank you for being so honest and open. Please keep making your videos. Thank you for making me feel a lot less alone with my thoughts.
I think you are amazing and you have many talents. I wish that you could see how magically amazing you are and have always been. Even when you have struggled, you have still had a million other amazing parts that make you who you are. I always end up telling people about me and how I am "different" because it's just easier that way because all that "Not Normal" unique stuff is part of me and if someone is part of my life it's all going to come out in some way eventually. It's easier if they know; but I try to say it all when I feel it fits in best. It's never really the perfect time to explain how I am not normal; but there are times that are better than other times. If someone is in my life they have to accept me and all.that is a part of me. I get embarrassed; but it's way more awkward when they only observe little bits that they don't understand because then they assume something that is so much worse. If I tell them I can.make sure they understand and then it's not a big deal. If they think it's a big deal or bad then why would I want them around me anyway. I usually until I get close with someone just focus on what affects and effects my life currently and then as I get closer to someone I tell them more. But i let them know in the beginning because it will always be part of me and effect me and my relationships with people. I told my husband the first day he asked if we could hang out. Mostly because sometimes when I don't feel well I have to cancel plans and people get mad when that happens a ton. So I said, we can be friends but I have all.this stuff......... I explain, and then I say you have to be okay with this if we are going to be friends. And he was okay with all of it. Later I found out that after that he did a ton of research about all my diagnoses. That was in 2010. And we are still going stong. Sometimes he gets frustrated; but that's mostly because he doesn't like how all this stuff hurts me. But he's just wants me to be happy and healthy. And because I always mention it in the beginning mostly, I usually don't have to deal with those that have issues with all the things that make.me different. Yeah sometimes I feel like an alien for another galaxy; but in the end I like and love who I am and most of what makes me different or even what makes me special. But it's not always easy and I do get very frustrated at times. Honestly, I would never want to be normal or just ike everyone else. I only want to be me. We all need friends and I'm always looking for new friends, especially ones that get me. I'll always be your friend if you want me as a friend. I know I live in the United States; but we can still be friends. We have a lot in common too. I'm on Facebook more than all the other social media platforms. Feel free to message me and send me a friend request. My nake is the same as on here because that's my name. Christine Clare Vilgos-Mitchell And I have a page and Facebook group called, Sincerely Christine, Hula Hailey, Tilly Fiona Tulip, and Friends. I do have Instagram; but I don't usually go on there because I'm just not used to it yet. You can always talk to me. I'd never judge you or think bad about you because I am a real and true friend to those in my life. ❤🧡💛🧡
I was actually bullied and harrassed a ton starting from an early age by kids and adults. I still sometimes still am. I think it's mostly because I've always been the weird kid and I still am the weird kid as an adult.
That made me cry that is so sweet and kind thank you! I genuinely feel hollow inside sometimes because I feel there’s so little to me mentally and personally. I’ve got no problem being as open as people like about my life and my past but suspect it’ll scare people off😂 I’m with you on the feeling like a weird kid even as an adult. And I don’t mind being weird and not normal as normal is boring I’d just like to feel even my weirdness has worth if that makes sense. I feel substanceless:/ that’s why I love my tattoos I think, aside from the physicality in that it’s the only physical part of me I’m proud of, I like what they mean and stand for, I like that I’m the only person in my family who has a tattoo let alone 11! And thank you so much for your kindness and support yours is a name I’ve recognised and appreciated for a long time x
@@Azofmymentalhead I am glad that what I said made you happy. 🧡 and your weirdness does have worth. Sometimes our weirdness can seem unglamorous; but it's part of what makes us special and we can use even the parts that seem bad for good and to help others. That's part of what your weirdness has allowed you to do. Your channel and other social media outlets have helped a lot of people and they will continue to do so forever and that is truly amazing. If you didn't have all those parts of you you could not have accomplished all of that. So you see what makes you different it amazing. And I agree that you have amazing tattoos. I have one that I designed behind my ear and I have been working on one that I want to put on my rib cage. But always remember that you have so much on the inside and the outside that makes you beautiful. I know you don't agree with that statement fully; but it's true. You are so creative and you make so many lovely things. If you ever question all the many things that make you beautiful all you have to do is look at your little girl. Because how can such a beautiful creature come from a mom that wasn't also beautiful in numerous ways.
omg listening to you talk is like listening to my own self. I know exactly what you're talking about-though I'm not a mom, but understand exactly what you mean regarding your identity & feeling inferior. Hope your migraines are better this week. I get them too.
Feel ya 💕
I can relate to this. I had such a hard time giving up the anorexia because I didn't know who I was without it. I've learnt a lot about myself these last few years. But I'm in my thirties so that's an awfully late time to do it! But when younger life becomes about surviving something or many things, self discovery and self acceptance just isn't possible! It's funny because I actually see you as really headstrong in who you are. The way you talk has changed a lot over the years and you now sound so much more grounded - but I can understand not being able to answer open ended questions about who you are and where youve come from. I'm like a deer in headlights with those questions. Thank you for replying to me re your physical disabilities btw. I did read it even though I didn't get round to responding. P.s. Edie cuddling ants is the sweetest thing !
Heya, yeah it’s hard to know where to begin when answering questions Cos if you give a short answer it doesn’t tell the whole story and doesn’t make sense! I genuinely feel so nothing sometimes that I feel like I’m
Hollow inside like a robot hence the not feeling like a real person. It’s weird and a massive head fuck! Glad I’m not completely alien in feeling like this though! And Edie does love her ants😂😂😂 she loves anytjing living tbf x
Hi. I really, really understand and relate to what you are talking about. I don't have any children but I've had a very long mental health history. Thank you for being so honest and open. Please keep making your videos. Thank you for making me feel a lot less alone with my thoughts.
I think you are amazing and you have many talents.
I wish that you could see how magically amazing you are and have always been.
Even when you have struggled, you have still had a million other amazing parts that make you who you are.
I always end up telling people about me and how I am "different" because it's just easier that way because all that "Not Normal" unique stuff is part of me and if someone is part of my life it's all going to come out in some way eventually.
It's easier if they know; but I try to say it all when I feel it fits in best.
It's never really the perfect time to explain how I am not normal; but there are times that are better than other times.
If someone is in my life they have to accept me and all.that is a part of me.
I get embarrassed; but it's way more awkward when they only observe little bits that they don't understand because then they assume something that is so much worse.
If I tell them I can.make sure they understand and then it's not a big deal.
If they think it's a big deal or bad then why would I want them around me anyway.
I usually until I get close with someone just focus on what affects and effects my life currently and then as I get closer to someone I tell them more.
But i let them know in the beginning because it will always be part of me and effect me and my relationships with people.
I told my husband the first day he asked if we could hang out.
Mostly because sometimes when I don't feel well I have to cancel plans and people get mad when that happens a ton.
So I said, we can be friends but I have all.this stuff......... I explain, and then I say you have to be okay with this if we are going to be friends.
And he was okay with all of it.
Later I found out that after that he did a ton of research about all my diagnoses.
That was in 2010.
And we are still going stong. Sometimes he gets frustrated; but that's mostly because he doesn't like how all this stuff hurts me.
But he's just wants me to be happy and healthy.
And because I always mention it in the beginning mostly, I usually don't have to deal with those that have issues with all the things that make.me different.
Yeah sometimes I feel like an alien for another galaxy; but in the end I like and love who I am and most of what makes me different or even what makes me special.
But it's not always easy and I do get very frustrated at times.
Honestly, I would never want to be normal or just ike everyone else.
I only want to be me.
We all need friends and I'm always looking for new friends, especially ones that get me.
I'll always be your friend if you want me as a friend.
I know I live in the United States; but we can still be friends.
We have a lot in common too.
I'm on Facebook more than all the other social media platforms.
Feel free to message me and send me a friend request.
My nake is the same as on here because that's my name.
Christine Clare Vilgos-Mitchell
And I have a page and Facebook group called, Sincerely Christine, Hula Hailey, Tilly Fiona Tulip, and Friends.
I do have Instagram; but I don't usually go on there because I'm just not used to it yet.
You can always talk to me.
I'd never judge you or think bad about you because I am a real and true friend to those in my life.
❤🧡💛🧡
I was actually bullied and harrassed a ton starting from an early age by kids and adults.
I still sometimes still am.
I think it's mostly because I've always been the weird kid and I still am the weird kid as an adult.
That made me cry that is so sweet and kind thank you! I genuinely feel hollow inside sometimes because I feel there’s so little to me mentally and personally.
I’ve got no problem being as open as people like about my life and my past but suspect it’ll scare people off😂 I’m with you on the feeling like a weird kid even as an adult. And I don’t mind being weird and not normal as normal is boring I’d just like to feel even my weirdness has worth if that makes sense. I feel substanceless:/ that’s why I love my tattoos I think, aside from the physicality in that it’s the only physical part of me I’m proud of, I like what they mean and stand for, I like that I’m the only person in my family who has a tattoo let alone 11! And thank you so much for your kindness and support yours is a name I’ve recognised and appreciated for a long time x
@@Azofmymentalhead I am glad that what I said made you happy. 🧡 and your weirdness does have worth.
Sometimes our weirdness can seem unglamorous; but it's part of what makes us special and we can use even the parts that seem bad for good and to help others.
That's part of what your weirdness has allowed you to do.
Your channel and other social media outlets have helped a lot of people and they will continue to do so forever and that is truly amazing.
If you didn't have all those parts of you you could not have accomplished all of that.
So you see what makes you different it amazing.
And I agree that you have amazing tattoos.
I have one that I designed behind my ear and I have been working on one that I want to put on my rib cage.
But always remember that you have so much on the inside and the outside that makes you beautiful.
I know you don't agree with that statement fully; but it's true.
You are so creative and you make so many lovely things.
If you ever question all the many things that make you beautiful all you have to do is look at your little girl.
Because how can such a beautiful creature come from a mom that wasn't also beautiful in numerous ways.
You ok? Thinking of you!
Still hope you're okay. Still thinking of you.