LIFE UPDATE : DIAGNOSED WITH DEPRESSION
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- Опубликовано: 19 окт 2024
- I've been getting a lot of DM's and tweets of some of you guys telling me what you're going through and how some of you are afraid of being judged to seek for professional help. So, I made this video to let you know that you shouldn't let vulnerability get the best of you and that it's alright to admit that you're not okay.
I keep a lot of things to myself thinking that it's the best way to cope with my personal issues but little did i know that doing just that would effect my perception of myself, mental health and my behaviour.
3 out of 10 malaysians have depression and anxiety disorder and i'm guessing a handful of them r within my age and my target audience.
If you're afraid to speak up and reach out, i hope this video would help by giving u courage to do just that. Know that you're important, loved and worthy.
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I want my channel to be a safe space for people to share their thoughts and feelings. Please feel free to share your stories and advice here. I love you, we’re all human and we’re gonna be alright ♥️
Thank you for the video. Ive been battling with depression since early 2019. My parents were trying to reach out to me too but i just couldn’t tell them what happened to me...
Thank you again. ❤️🤍
take care jo :) x
U can cry jo.. only thing i can do for u is doa..may Allah give u strength ..semoga berjaya jo.. u can do it..maybe u can go to anywhere to chill up urself..we love u..think about us that love u ok
Take care Jo. I sometimes I struggle as well. Besides seeking for therapist advice, you can always build/strengthen relationship with your creator, Allah SWT, recites Quran more, InsyaAllah u will have a lighten heart and mind. From my personal experience.
Hope you can do it too. Just sharing
Sending love and hugs for you johanis,i will always support you! im with you💗
“people talk a lot about self love but its so hard for me to do” this hits home i-
What I love about you :
1. Your beautiful cat eyes
2. Your mancung nose
3. Your Angelina Jolie lips
4. Your honesty to freely talk about anything on your channel
5. Your taste for your outfits, they were all looking so great on you
6. Your creative brains on editing videos, all the tiktoks moves.
7. Your height, your crazy thick beautiful hair
8. 1000 more things that I cannot put it on writing because at this point my thumbs are both lenguh already (because Im a silent viewer, never commented on your channel. Just hit that like button before it event started)
I love you eventho youre lacking on self love.
I pray that Allah will ease everything thats coming on your path and I hope you can listen to Quran recitation while you’re crying (not trying to be an ustajah here) just a tips.
You do you gal. Thanks for sharing this with us. 🌺❤️
Much love from Kota Bharu.
The most disappointing thing is when your loved ones underestimated your efforts that you are trying hard in life. As if like your struggles aren't worth it
Hi johanis, allah is there for you and all of us, be strong
When she said “but when you wake up, it’s the same thing again & u hve to go through them again” I felt that shit. I truly understand what she’s going through right now bcs I went through it when I was in high school & trust me, getting out of bed is just the starting point. Heads up, johanis gurl! I’m sending love to you and also sending a virtual hug bcs that’s the most I can do 😅💙
its just really heartbreaking to see you crying over how you cant really love yourself enough and i never thought that someone so beautiful with perfect everything could feel this way. i really understand you because there’s this one time i cried in public too after lookin in the mirror at the mall and how my heart shattered to see how ugly and fat i am. but now im workin on myself and i know we both gonna be alright! ilysm jo! i know you freakin stronggg!!! you can get through this! love you lots💖
I feel it. This situation is me too
The fact that I’m crying watching this because I feel u Jo. I know how hard it feels like to explain to someone while they’re not even in our shoes
“nobody understand me because of the way i think” - thats me 24/7 :(
I can feel you. I overthink about almost every single thing. I’ve absorbed too much of negative vibes. So what I did, I tried to figure out what actually have exposed me to all these negativities, and ofc socmed (fb and ig). I used to spend few hours a day only on scrolling my TL last time. So, I deactivated my account and it is for 6months now, and somehow it heals me. I tend to focus more about myself, learnt to self-love, appreciate every single moment that happened without any distraction and obsession towards socmed.
Please take a good care of yourself and take a break for a while. Much love for you ❤️
I'm not even your biggest fan but hearing you been through depression, I'm so worried. It is a very serious issue and I hope you can deal with it without hurting yourself. Don't be alone and surround yourself with people you love and believe. Please don't let others affect your life because there are more others who love you. Please get well soon love🧡🧡🧡
the fact that she describe almost everything about me is insane. dear people i am a book that hard for you to read i dont know how to express my feelings idk why i always feel bad and think negatively about myself, and when i try to reach out to few people that i believe can help me i just reach the point of disappointment. from that i no longer open up to them cause they just dont understand. i understand u johanis, and i swear i feel u. i swear im tired and i just want everything to end. imagine having trouble to sleep at night just to get some peace but i was awake in the middle of the night and continue to cry again, fgs sleep is the only way to escape, and the next day i have to deal with it again. i swear im tired, i tried to end my own life but i dont have courage and i know it hurts. i feel the pain in my chest i feel like want to cry for the whole day and imagine i have to control it everyday cause i have classes and all. i dont love myself and i always look down on myself idk how to stop it.. it is so depressing ):
Stay strong sis, we'll make it together i'm with u
“I’m a hard book to read” damn, i-
Keep that heart strong Johanis! You are not alone! You got this! Hope you are doing okay now! ❤️
when you couldn’t breathe while you were crying, i genuinely felt that- 14 minutes of watching you felt like i was watching myself back then. i understand you so much when you said that you can’t even explain to people what’s going through your mind, i’ve dealt with it alone, and like you said, it didn’t feel good at all. as a person whose gone through what your going through (i’m crying idkwhy), i genuinely wish you to have a fast recovery, because it’s exhausting- it’s mentally and physically draining, to cry at nights, all the thoughts running through your mind- it’s just tiring. i really hope you get through this jo, sending all the love and support. videos and youtube aside- i really want you to get better, stay hiatus if it has to be that way, just so that you can be better, inside and out.
I actually cried watching this video because I felt almost every single thing you said. I sometimes cry during class because those negative thoughts hits me and I can’t control it. It’s crazy how we always focus on those few negative opinions people throw to us instead of all the positive comments and opinions that people gives us. Although my friends keeps on motivating me and gives me compliments, I still have this negative thoughts about myself that I just can’t get rid of. I always feel like I am not enough. I always bring myself down for no reason. I don’t know why. I want to stop because I am so tired of being sad but I don’t know how. It feels like I’m drowning and I can’t breathe. All I needed to do is just go to the surface but there are these whispers that’s weighing me down and stop me, telling me to just sit there and suffocate myself. I’m trying to reach out for help but something is stoping me from doing it. I don’t know why I tend to block people out sometimes.
I’m still trying to love myself and I’m working on it.
One thing I’ve learned throughout this years is that to love yourself is to understand you don’t need to be perfect to be good. I hope you’ll be better, Jo.
Love you 💕
omg this is so heartbreaking, i can feel the pain by looking through your eyes. i don't love myself either. i think that people always underestimate me because i'm ugly. i'm crying everyday, countless of whys, a continuous episode of questioning my self worth. why i'm not like the others? i feel like i'm such a burden to everyone. usually i'd motivate people and tell them they can do it, but, look at me now, tired and demotivated. keep strong johanis, time will heal everything. thankyou for this video, it helps me a lot. love ya :(((
Don't skip 5 times prayer, recite Al Quran whenever you feel so sad, Inshaallah these will really help your condition gets better Jo ❤️
this year is gonna be my 13 years of depression. went through 24 hours per day, still a tiring time for me, going through daily life like normal people. shown people the extrovert me while during the night, i cried all night. randomly cried in public, in public transportation or anywhere else. for everyone who is having anxiety, depression, i hope you find someone you can talk to and find something that can distracts you from overthinking. by watching this, i cried from the start. pls everyone take care of yourself and self-care ❤️
That’s the problem of being too perfectionist Jo, all i can say is,always be strong 💖
Thanks for being open for your own problem. This gave me the strength to reach out about my own problem. I had post-partum depression just about 7 month ago after my husband took away my 2 of my child. This happen during my confinement period. It was a week after I gave birth to my third child. He cheated on me with another woman. I'm still trying to recover myself because sometimes it will trigger the dark side of myself. And I don't want to be a bad mom to my child. Take care Jo. We all know that you're a strong person and you can recover yourself from this pain.
I cried watching this.when u say "and then u wake up, its the same thing all over again."
I never thought i can feel so empty , never thought death would not be scary anymore. I was diagnosed with borderline personality and the mood swings are crazy.The self love concept sounds like a myth to me.
I wouldnt wish this disorder on my worst enemy.Its torture, agony and pain.I dont remember the last time i feel truly happy.
So girl, you are not alone.i wish i can come to u and hug u and said, its okay, You are not alone. You too, deserve all the happiness in this world.
I probably hit one of my lowest points today ... it’s tiring to keep having to resist crying. Thanks for posting this because it feels like I just got a massive hug , hearing someone talk about their experience makes me know I’m not alone 🙆🏽♀️❣️ hopefully we all get better soon
when you broke down and cry i wish i could reach my hands to you and give a hug. you will progress, i trust you. dont feel bad because you have too much ups and downs. progress isnt linear 🥰 i love you, and get well soon.
First of all, it's so brave of u to put so much of urself out there, and thank you for trusting us with this. This itself is progress and you're doing so well, love. I know first hand and talking urself out of cynical, anxious thoughts take alot of practice. Be well soon, my dear. There is so much love for you out here ❤️
I’m not okay seeing you crying like this 😭 I pray that you will recover from everything you’re going through rn & it’s totally okay if you don’t post often you can post anytime when you feel like you want to okay !! ❤️ Take care of yourself tauu & I love you 💛💛
i can feel you, jo. being sick but need to keep it to ourselves, i mean. we wanted to have someone to talk to, to share with but we don’t want to worry them. i’ve been there too before for A YEAR! but really, letting it all out and having someone who can twist the way we’re thinking is helpful. for example, i always overthink but my therapist putting all the puzzle for me and making me try to not overthink anymore. you’ll feel better soon, trust me. all you need is someone to be really close to you where you can always share your thoughts. just someone to listen & handle your exhausting emotions or mental then you’ll be okay. take care & try to love every little bit about you, jo ❤️
Listen to this is so heartbreaking and realized that im not the only one who feels that way. Hope u doin good and getting better! Xx
you know sometimes you feel like its easier to be sad than happy. you’re used with being sad and you think there’s no point of being happy anymore. that’s how i feel throughout my depressive and anxious episode. I feel yo Jo, I’ve been there too..everyday. But we got this. We got this shit.
it's hard... i've been diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety disorder & schizo too. but anyway sending much love for you jo
i hope you`re ok now =(
The fact that you sought help, that very fact, is a wonderful example of how strong you’ve been. Thank you for being brave and sharing your story. As long as you have your support system (it looks like you have an amazing set of friends and family) and take everything a step at a time, you’ll get to that level of ok-ness - slowly and surely. Some people here have said getting close to God helps, while it may work for some I also know people who are the most religious yet still so depressed. The Almighty will always be there, with all His love, grace and mercy - for now, just focus on getting through the day with what’s worked for you so far. You’ve gotten this far, keep going Jo!
This hit home. I've been wanting to hurt myself so bad just to ease other pains i feel when anxiety hits me. I constantly push myself aside to satisfy other ppl, just to fit with other ppl's preferences. I forgot to love myself and constantly worry about how ppl think about me. Every time anxiety hits me, i lose it and i hurt myself. Thanks Jo for opening up to us and be brave to tell us this. Love you
I feel you there, girl. Be strong. Not only being diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder but later with anxiety, panic attack and bipolar disorder type 2. It has never been easy to go through this kind of thing but I believe that you have a good support around you and I believe that your faith will help you to pick yourself up. Stay strong there girl, stay strong.
There was once i felt really alone, and your video came into my 'recommendation'. Thought to myself, why can't i have the luck you have; circle of friends like yours, and be really content with what you're doing. Ofcourse we can only judge through that 1 perspective. God knows the rest.
But jo, just know that you're enough in every aspect of life. I know life is hard, and the voices inside your head are always a bitch. Sometime maybe yell the fuck out loud till the voices get skek. Stay strong. Don't be too hard on yourself cause there are a whole damn world think you matters with just how you are.
xo
tips to make you feel better:
ur skin isn't a paper don't cut it
ur neck isn't a hanger dont hang it
ur life isn't a film dont end it
ur face isn't a target dont shoot it
ur body isn't a book dont judge it
you are who you are
be yourself and be free
forget the past and make your own path
and most importantly
you are beautiful just the way you are
try sleeping early and listening to calm music and taking bubble baths and eating lil more sweets
(yes I did copy the "your skin isn't a paper don't cut it" part.)
"im a hard book to read" again,your not a book to judge be yourself you are beautiful just the way you are
be urself
johanis,
be strong like horse. they are step down, being slapped yet they still run fast and strong till the end.
you are strong. you will be strong and stronger. hugs!
i started my youtube channel because of you . you inspire me when i feel like i’m in deep shit not knowing what to do with my life and to distract myself feeling like there’s nothing i can love about myself , you inspire me to do something useful so that i don’t keep on hating myself . my heart breaks so much to see you hurt like this boo because i really can relate . i just want you to know that you are an amazing person inside out . you are loved and you are bound to do so many kind and inspiring things . what’s most important is that you keep on loving yourself so that you can accept to be loved by others . i pray that you will be alright soon . sending you big love and hugs from here xx
It’s easy to say, ‘you are never alone’ ‘if you want to talk, i’m here’. But what if, despite what everyone says, i’m still feel alone? i’m still feel that nobody’s actually need me in their lives? i legit cried so hard when you said that you’re tired and you want everything to stop because that’s what i feel. i want to stop the pain. i really need someone to talk but we same jo. i don’t like to talk about my feelings too to anyone because they never understands. they’ll tell you that everything’s gonna be okay. but when???? i always have negative thoughts and even i tried to get rid of it, it still comes slowly to me. this hurts me a lot. A LOT 😔
Hey Jo, just want to say it will really really be okay one day. Have hope. I feel for you so much, I know what it’s like. I cried almost everyday for an entire year. I was mentally and physically exhausted. I kept overthinking, kept blaming myself, hating myself. I just wanted my thoughts to stop. It was honestly the worst thing and I don’t wish it on anyone else. Mental health is so so important. It’s really temporary and therapy is so so helpful. I’m happy you’re getting help. Don’t be too hard on yourself, it’s a process. Good luck, nothing is impossible
the fact that i was also having such a hard time today, makes me wanted to cry again. i cried a lot over all the things that i decided to overthink. my best friend, which is someone who i thought that she will never leave me alone, turns out to be the opposite. my heart keeps breaking whenever i think of her. i love her so much but at the same time, i actually wants to get rid of her.
i’m not that good in english but i tried my best to express my feelings lol
Man this is hard to watch. This is also a “try not to cry” challenge to me. Thank you for sharing this. As a psychologist I am so proud of you to reach out to professional help, not everyone is brave enough to talk about deep thoughts to strangers. It must be tiring to hear “yoU’rE juSt SAd” all the time from people who doesn’t even know what you’re going through.
I hope you’ll feel better day by day, I really hope it does. Take your time to heal, don’t worry about videos, nothing is worth more than taking care of yourself first.
I LOVE YOU! Forever and always
this is how i feel for almost 4 years 😭 I got diagnosed with anxiety and depression and i know how it feels but issokay we are a fighter ! eventually we will be fine soon just be strong okay?
I may not always watch your videos but this video really open my eyes. it's very a meaningful message to everyone to love themselves and if they feel lack about themselves, seek for help. also, my heart breaks a little when I heard you saying sorry. girl you dont have to blame yourself. it took a lot of courage for you to do this video. not bcs of the attention but you just want to spread awareness and that's really great of you. you are wonderful. I really hope everything will be okay for you, even though it will take some time. ❤️
Hey Jo. I know how it feels to have anxiety and depression. We’re on the same page. We took anti depressant every freaking night just to feel ok and hope all the bad thoughts go away. Just some advice from me, few things you can do to help with your depression are
always do the breathing techniques it helps a lot
Change your habits
Talk to people and smile even you feel like you’re faking it
Look around you and pay gratitude to even the smallest things that you never aware before. Ex: look at the sky and say thankyou 3 times and smile, the trees, the air you breathe, the food you eat, the people you meet, just anything surrounds you. Just do this and you’ll feel calmer and slowly you’ll realize you love yourself more than before.
And its very ok to stop doing what makes you feel worse about yourself you can try to stop from the social media for a period of time and come back when you’re ready.
I’m still struggling too but I’m happy to say my dose has slowly decreased and soon I’ll stop taking it.
Remember this: change your habits.
We love you sweetheart
Lots of love
I dont know whether u'll read this or not, but saying that "we shouldn't always show ONLY positive things cz its exhausting" is very TRUE. AND IT'S SHOWING RIGHT NOW. You see when u show this reality version of living, just look at the comments section right here. It has nothing but LOVE AND SUPPORT from all the people. In a way your intention was trying to help people, you actually made us help each other. There might be reasons why some people still afraid to open up about mental health, and I'm feeling so much better after I watch this video.Thanks to you. We can fix this! Love you j0
actually i cuba hold my tears . i felt you . we basically tired . tired of everything . we really don't know what is going on but . kita still tired . depress boleh menyebabkan maut . you should take care of yourself :) . love you 💗
Johanis sweetheart thank you so much for this. What you just put out takes so much courage and it speaks volumes about your true being. There’s so many out there struggling with their own voices but you’re helping out those who badly need this. I came across a video that resonates with depression which happened to a trooper, Shaheen Bhatt. Her book “I’ve never felt un(happier)” is such a revelation and you can try watching the video during the book launch. What doesn’t kills you makes you stronger and you’re a fighter!💞💞💞
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Im crying so hard :"""( bcs i have the same thought when you said you don't want other people to worry about you bcs i don't want other people to deal with my problems, at the same time i also need someone to express everything you felt but it's really hard 😭😭
I really wish I would go see a therapist about my mental health but every time I’ve decided to do it something in my head just invalidates everything I’ve been feeling thus it leads me to not go through it when I know there’s something wrong and the process repeats itself and it kills me. I hope you know that you are loved and whatever you are going through is valid and you can fight it even though it takes a lot of time. When I see you crying and explaining something you don’t know how to explain it reminds me of myself so much and it hurts. Sending love and hugs!
Allahu kesian akak 😭 you'll recover trust me because I've felt the same thing for 3 MONTH and it's the worst thing everrrrrrrr....I also took meds, xanax, lorazepam, brentlix...but now I'm off from them...trust me you'll recover...stay strong akak...the way you breathe..I've also experience that...sleeping and then waking up knowing the depressed thing still in you and all you wanted to do is sleep but you can't..constantly crying...I felt like my whole world is doomed and I gave up in life...I know sis...but you're gonna be okayyy...trust me
life is so complicated like i dont even understand, seeing jo with her life, pretty famous and live the life most of girls wanted. i know she had problems in her past (am jo's fan since she was form 5 with 5k followers on twitter) but what i see is she is a happy go lucky girl. behind everything she had, she has depression. its really hard to understand some ppl cs depression, anxiety are actually reallll
tbh im jealous with yr life and i wish i would have one jst like you. the confidence you had. i always feel so insecure seeing yr post in instagram. i feel so sorry for yr depression. i love you so much jo. stay strong. i hope you can be so much better in future 💕💕💕💕💕
ive my anxiety disorders and took along time to stable. but trust me, solat is all about. now im being a normal person 😌
This is the most genuine awareness video. And the way u teach us on breathing exercise, i felt the warmth 🌸 i dont have depression nor anxiety but if anyone is, REMEMBER, YOU ARE WORTH EVERY BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN LIFE ⛅
Get well soon deariest, I pray that you’ll find peace, happiness and joy.
Someone told me long ago, when there’s nothing to hold on to not even faith, there is always hope. Clingy onto it 😊
Take care, God speed and God bless.
Greetings Johanis, I have anxiety with panic attack and depression too. Recently, I experienced relapsed of this mental condition, and I just wanted to share one of my tips that can ease little bit. You can try pound fitness to release hate, thats what I did for few months back and it does helped me. Or, you can also try yoga to meditate. I totally gets you when we have a constant battle with our thoughts, just so you know, we're actually strong. You are strong! You can do this and it shall pass any sooner, just hold on and level up your faith that this will pass. You'll get better, you're born to be different and you're meant to do bigger things in life. And remember, you're not alone.. The most important thing is you need to be aware of the symptoms, like, if you know it's coming to you and giving bad rubbish talk about yourself, you need to immediately block the thoughts and reverse how you think by maybe listen to motivational speeches. It does help me.. try if you can. You can look up to me @tyaaamir on IG if you need help.. xoxo
2 years later, she’s happily married. So happy 🤍😭
So proud of you my G!! It takes real courage to let yourself be vulnerable in front of others & to use your platform to raise awareness about mental care. You carry the responsibility of taking care of yourself into your own hands; to me, that's self-care at its finest. You will forever be loved! trusssst, by me at least :D You're gonna be alright!
Remember to those who are watching; mental health is just as important as physical health!
“Self love is very hard for me..” damn johanis, I literally said that to myself everyday. I think im going thru the same struggle as you. Hm.
Hi Jo !! Seeing you like this makes me feel bad and I just wanna say sorry to you because I might or might not believe what people said abput you ... I’m very sorry and I want to say you can go through this !! Take your time and take care ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I don’t know you personally but I’m sure You’re beautiful inside out !!❤️
pineapple 91 it’s okay! Everyone makes mistakes.
crying is okey, just cry and feel the pain then heal it. don't worry everything will be fineee soonnnn! we are strong, we are fighter and we are deserve to be happy too❤️
You'll do amazing girl. Don't hurt yourself. We all go through those times of hardships, although it differs from one another, but someday you know that you're gonna do or be better than before. Hope you learn to treat your depression and recover from all that. We share the same age. I'm here to tell you that I was at that state too and I'm slowly coming out of it, so would you. We have so much more to face. Let's not break down now itself and be prepared to create an amazing life, for ourselves especially. You're beautiful, talented and intelligent. That itself will bring you a long way and make you successful. So, just trust the process and be happy again ❤
I feel u...every single things that u talked about and i can relate to every single of it... thankyou for voicing it out.. and i have not been able to find strength to seek for help yet, but im grateful that i have my friends that i can count on to. But sometimes...yeahh taknak kacau diorg jgk about our shits. Hm
I feel you when u said 'i'll be fine.. but fucking tired tho' .... yeap.. everyday same ol shit, yes kita akan okay, tapi penat..
What a breathe of..new air. Not exactly the freshest, but I love that young people are talking about mental health more openly. Kudos Jo ♥️
I can’t tell you what to do because I’m no professional and we all deal with our stuff individually, but I really won’t wish depression and anxiety even on my worst enemy because it is the most horrible thing anyone could endure personally.
I pray for your health both mentally and physically, and I pray for more self love, happiness, and peace for you and especially for all of us ♥️♥️
“I am chronically depressed. Ew, that is, so gross to say. But that is the truth.”
first of all, *virtual hug*. i hear you. thank you so much for this video. it was such a brave move to open up about your feelings to a large crowd. i know how it feels hating yourself so much. how loud the voice inside you, screaming about how unworthy you are. how hard it is to tell others about whats going on inside your mind because you’re afraid they’ll misunderstood you. i feel it too. i’m going through it too. its been several months now. sharing this just so you know that you’re not alone, jo. i don’t know you personally but we’ll fight this monster we created together, okay? ♥️
Remember that Allah is there for you, u just have to get back to him, pray and dekatkan diri dgnNya ♥️ stay strong
@Nuriqa Syazwa as sad as this may sound, but most of the time even religion can’t help. Depression comes from within. There have been cases of some of the most religious people who have actually killed themselves due to depression.
Hi jo. it means a lot that you posted this video. cause honestly, I feel the same way like what you've went through these days.
sometimes I am so in love with myself like I'm all over me. but the other times, I just wish I'm dead. people would say we're acting out. but the real thing is we've been struggling with our own feelings, trying to make things right, especially our mind.
and I must say your therapist is right. eversince I practice a realistic thought, I can say that I've been improving my life's health bit by bit. it took times it took courage to make me finally realize that we cannot just change ourselves to be 100% all the time positive cause its true, its exhausting. so bad. so what we can do is to be real. like it is okay for us to be sad. to cry our lungs out just to make us feel more better. and it is okay too to do whatever things that can make us happy. there's no one can stop you.
jo, I'm really sorry that you went through this phase. I never thought this has pain you a lot. my prayers are with you. live well.
i can relate . I got diagnosed too . I was scared of telling it to my other family members but during dinner my mom said it . Their reactions were priceless . They would say " it's your fault sya for being depressed . Who told you so to overthink ? Now u got it " see ? All u need i yourself . It's okay jo . We here for each other
I feel you Jo.. im tired of this too, crying every night, thinking a lot of things everyday.. i cant even express it.. trying to tell friends but i just can't. I don't know how to explain it, and they don't even understand.. sometimes i can't even sleep, sometimes im shaking like something really2 bad gonna hurt me, afraid of everyting surround me. If i feel this way i will tell my self that "everything going to be okey, you can do it, you dont have to be afraid, just follow the flow". I will repeat it until i'm okey.
i’ve been through the same :’) stay strong jo & others who felt the same thing ❤️
Be strong Jo 💪🏻 being depress is the worst feeling ever. Being sad we can still try to overcome it by doing other things to avoid from indulge into the sad feelings deeper than it already is. U’re a beautiful person inside and out. I never meet u but i know that u’re kind. The best thing for u and even for any of us to do now is seek and pray to God. InshaAllah, Allah will give more peace in our heart. He listens and love us all. I pray that u will find ways to be happy and love yourself again ❤️
avoid being alone.negative thinking comes when you're alone. you will hurting yourself when you're alone..I used feel the same way. pray to Allah.
when i watch this, i cried too. seeing how relatable and how i truly understand what ure going thru. Ive been crying everyday, every night these past few months and its been tiring for me. its draining me mentally & physically. Having family that doesnt understand u is a challenge itself. while having friend that used to be the person i go to, suddenly turn herself back, left me for someone else. I have no where to go to. Everyday is a challenge for me to stay alive. Nothing can makes me feel better and im tired. Tomorrow wouldnt promise me if i will be here. I know i will give up one day, i hope no one would think that im being selfish when im done trying.
˝it so hard to explain what im thinking about or what i feel”
this hit me hard
Hi Johanis ,
this is the first time for me to comment in RUclips. At first , i'm sorry for not finish go through your video.. That because we're in the same journey. I had been diagnosis Major Depression Disorder since past 2 years. And it had been with me since i'm high school . But, for the past 2 years, i take a step to show it. Literly, I go through a lot. i think it's same goes to you. eat medicine , counseling and etc. I'm can harm myself if i think much negative things that happen in my life. as simple to say, yes Depression is all about negativity thinker that keeps blame yourself than others. what i can says to cheer you up , you have a blast good damn life more than me . your mum is the stronger women that i have seen . you also got your boyfriend to always be on your side . and for the last one , when you really stress out and feel down . make yourself be humble and talk to Him through Solat and share with Him about your life in your Doa. By the ways, a some moment it's okay to you think that Tears is your bestfriend. Don't keep it just let it out. If can't get someone to share , just cry and scream.. When you get tired,take a sleep and keep wishing in mind that all this gonna be better later.. i know your are strong JOHANIS .. Cheer up darling .. There's a lot of journey that you need to be explore more ....
Lots of love ,
Your MDD Friend
sorry if my english not very well but i hope you understand about what i mean...
Its so heartbreaking to see you crying like this :( Stay strong Johanis ❤️❤️
I understand what you feel, been there before. What i did was to distract myself with sth i like, such as doing sports. It helps a bit, and alhamdulillah it goes away after some time ( i dont even realised when i completely feel okay). I believe you will get through this, and be stronger after all this hard time♥️
I love u & i feel this video deeply in my heart. Im crying so hard, imagine me giving u virtual hugs!!! ❤️❤️ stay as strong as u are, u can pull thru this!! I really hope u will feel better & its okay if u dont post often just take the time u need
i started crying when she started crying 😩 shit hits home, felt as if i were watching myself speak. sending you lots of love and strength, watching this really felt calming in a weird (but good!) way, almost reassuring, thank you for your bravery ❤️
Jo, that's why we need to solat or meditate.
in science it's prove that it clear out our mind and soul and it also strengthen our mind to think clearly and control our emotion.
there's a lot of mediate you can do but get back to creator is the most powerful meditate.
been in deeply depression is very dangerous because u dont even know you already there and that is causes of suicide.
so try solat or mediate even you don't want to do it.
you are the only one who can push yourself
de laila the fuck? depression is caused by low serotonin level.solat doesnt help shit
@@Buzzzxzz Allah or god can help at least , u narrow minded !!!
@@Buzzzxzz solat doesnt but Allah does. Just ask from him. Ik. Bc i was also proffesionally diagnosed MDD and OCD. But it also doesnt mean you dont have to take medications (bc b4 asking from Him, we need to put our effort first).
@@Buzzzxzz Allah himself asks us to seek for his help whenever. what's wrong with praying/solat?
@@Buzzzxzz are u Muslim? be careful of what you say it can lead to murtad
I really want to give u the biggest hug right now after seeing you cry😩💓. You’re stronger than you think and you can pull this through💪🏼. There’s so many things to love about you and i hope you’ll be able to see that too🥺🤘🏼💖
When you mentioned about the "what" question, I feel you.
Be strong girl! I'll pray for your recovery. It ain't easy but please be strong, you can do it! Take care of yourself and get better. 😔 Being depress is not easy to handle. Always talk to someone/ your closest people. And get better soon 💕 Sometimes , i also think that i am being a fake because I show how happy I am to the people to the world but the truth it isn't . Sometimes I just feel tired to satisfied other people. People always judge me and its hurt my feeling but what i do? I keep it inside my heart. People won't understand our problem but sharing to closest people would help improve our condition. Maybe. Just Pray a lot💕 Get well soon girl!😊
If u ever feel sad, remember that Allah is always with you❤️ although u dont know me and i dont know you. But you are strong🌹
I can truly relate to this bcos i have a gf who have depression and anxiety as well. Thanks for the vid johanis. Dont be afraid to talk about ur emotions and ur feelings bcos depression is very serious. Depression is the only illness that if some1 were to say, " i understand what u are gg thru", wouldnt even help you feel better. Johanis, yes, we can nvr fully understand wad u are gg thru but i really hope you would continue opening up to ppl who u really trust and love most bcos that is the best med for depression. I also pray that ppl who u opened up to would be there to support and understand ur feelings for u at all times. Take a break from social media. We subscribers, followers, fans and bystanders can wait. Gv sometime for urself to rest, relax and do something or even anything that would make u free or feel better, be it crying or binge eating. Take a break as long as u need but wadever it is, nvr ever gv up on urself. 🤗🤘🏾
i've been through that kind of situation almost everyday... i don't understand myself and no one understand me too.. i don't even know what is really happening inside my head :(
Tbh depression and anxiety is something that we cannot see but it suddenly coming. Well actually we all does experience it whether it a big one or small one. The way we handle is also different. This video really hit me hard so much. I've never seen this side of jo in her social media before. I really want to hug her now ☹️ but thank god she is surrounded with a lot of people that love her and bring her to meet the professional people to help her. I can feel how exhausted she is ☹️ that true jo it's okay not to be okay.take care of yourself and get well soon 💗
Comel comel “let me help you” , walaupun nangis still want to help people
I was diagnosed with anxiety and panic attack disorder. Its ok not to be ok johanis. Cara me handle it is terima and at the same time fight it. 😉 sbb the main reason is otak kita sedang menipu kita . Otak yg handle kita. Not all will understand apa yg kita rasa sbb people think that this kind of ill x wujud . The most impotant is you just have to fine your happiness. Do what you love. Stop overthinking . And everything will be ok. ☺
❤️ Keep counting the blessings Jo. Dont lose hope. You have received so much love from us. ❤️❤️ 2019 has been the best year for me but out of sudden i've been referred to psychiatrist at the end of the year. Let's stand stronger and fight this together
dude i literally feel ur pain that im legit crying. jo i swear ive been a fan since vine and ive seen u come a long way doh. just know that you are loved. i used to struggle with self love too and it took me two damn years to get myself back. gonna spend some time and pray for u. i hope u will find ur way soon. surviving is the key ah man i love u jo xo
Hey jo. Remember u still have your family, your friends and also u have fans that always be with you. You are perfect just the way you are. Don't feel sad. At the same time, try to increase your ibadah. Jangan tinggal solat. I love u, we all love u. Don't hate yourself dear💓 i hope u will be better. Xoxo, your fans💟
I've hit rock bottom that now I'm having emotion numbness. I hope you get through the hardest part of this without loosing yourself. Stay strong. The worst part of mental illness is that people expect you to pretend you don't have it.
thanks for making this at least i know that i’m not alone✊🏼🥺
please just whatever you do, do not ever self harm alright? we all love you no matter what and i obviously do not know you personally, but i have struggled with depression before and know that you’re not alone in this. feel better soon, and heal in your own time. god has a plan for you 💗
I just finished my degree june last year. Then i take the decision to continue my study in master in august. Im in electical engineering btw. Then right after 1-2 weeks in master, i read something on twitter about "you cannot get job if you further your study in master and phd". Im thinking about it for like few weeks, up untill now. I feel like im useless as all my friends getting job and building career. Im thinkig abou t quitting study and quitting life and even one time im thinking about suicide. Everyone around me is supportive but i just cannot. Im tired of overthinking but thats my life goes. Im just ranting here to express my feelings. Thank you jo for sharing how to handle this feelings. I love you.
Hey there. I wanna share my opinion regarding your situation right now.
As someone who's studying in HR field, it is so wrong to tell people that you won't get a job if you are pursuing Master etc. In fact, it's not a problem at all. I know sometimes we can't help but to degrade ourselves when our friends got a job already but here we are, still studying and will be paying for our edu loan etc. What I am trying to say is instead of having a thought that getting a Master or a Phd will secure us a good position in an organization, i suggest you to take what you are getting into as something that will bring you benefit later on. In this unstable economic growth nowadays, it's hard to guarantee that we will get a better job. It's all rezeki. However, the Master that you have can somehow be used as one of your employability characteristics. You might be underemployed (getting a job which isn't suitable for your qualifications or underpaid etc) at the first place but take it as a challenge. One thing that many employees lack of nowadays is career resilience. They do not know how to handle challenges at the workplace wisely. Once they can't stand it anymore, they start to be a job hopper.
So right now, take what you are studying as an experience and whatever job or position you'll get later on, take it as an experience too. Build experience as many as you can as that is what employers are looking for. Believe in your potentials and rezeki. Remember, you can't build something easily. Certain things take longer than what you expected. And the main key for all of this is patience. I wish you the best in your life 😊
Rennis hey there. I dont know what to say but i really appreciate your words and encouragement. Thank you so much for saying those things. May all goods return to you. 🥰
@@hanisahnabihah4888 thank you so much for this. exactly in the same situation as Fatin & that post hung over my head too ever since i saw it. thank you for this
Same 🙁
I'm on my last semester for my Master's Degree & I don't feel happy about it at all 😭 Been suffering with Insomnia for 6 months straight cos I overthink a lot abt my future la, how my career nnti la itu la ini la.. Seeing posts pulak pasal sambung Master susah dpat kerja, hmmm soooo hard to continue it 😔
Tapi tu lah, orang kata, get back balik to your original Niat in the 1st place of you doing that thing. As for me, I just lolololove learning, I love exploring new things & etc. So, tak apalah. I rely my nasib 100% on God. I kept on reminding myself , "it's ok, everything will work out eventually. Don't be so hard on yourself. Enjoy the little things in life. One by one, don't take 'em all in 1 day.." 🌼
Moon Ah-In yeah we have to just believe in ourself. And think that everything happen has it own reason.m and we cannot have everything at all time. Just step by step, slowly but surely 💕
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!! Do not give up babe. Remember to always be thankful and grateful to Allah ok. I've been thru the same phase too. When we learn to accept everything as it is, in shaa Allah, everything will get better. Sending u so much love hoping that u will recover soon🌷
"reach out to somebody " but its hard tho.. they just-- dont understand :'
I skipped when I saw the title but then I decided to come back and listen to your story. Everything you say is relatable. It is true, you're going thru the same shti every time you wake up. As you are someone who is known to people, it must be hard for you. Thank you so much for telling us your story. I have days of crying but still have to go to class w a smile on my face and get back to my crying mode. And when people ask, the only thing we can say is tired. As you're telling your story and your family and friends know, just know that you will and you already have a great support system. We will survive. I am embracing depdep and antsy even though it is hard at times but as I am currently living w it, why not befriend w it. Again, thank you for sharing your story.
same goes to me since May 2019 until rn and we have to stay strong i love you jo 💞
I feel you jo. I 'm going through some shit and depression but not everybody knows about it because I'm that type of a very ''cheerful'' friend bila lepak. but when I rasa down ke apa I normally don't tell people about my problems because they don't understand. even if so, they probably gonna ignore me because dieorg tak fhm i. that;s why when I watch your video I nangis because I pun mcm tu almost everyday. It's okay jo I'm one of your supporter dri zmn vine lagi. I know you're strong and please love yourself k. I love you jo I tak kisah if u upload or tak I will always be there for u even I rewatch balik your video if I bosan hehe. Btw, your tips tu pun I selalu guna if I'm feeling anxious tiba2. so, I just wanna say thank u for all these years for your content yang kelakar,fun and nice. Love from sarawak ❤️ ❤️