I love that you are seriously talking about the strange emotions involved in illness. I spent ages 15-18 feeling like I'd rather have terminal cancer than have my symptoms "be normal for a certain percentage of the population" and thus get no treatment for them whatsoever. Luckily, that time, there actually was something all the doctors were missing, and it got fixed when I was 18. I spent even longer with back pain, and whenever I brought it up, doctors said I have scoliosis, but "not big enough to cause pain." That was the end of the conversation. But then why was I in pain? Nobody cared, until I was almost 40, when I was referred to a rheumatologist, who immediately said I have a "textbook case of fibromyalgia". Weirdest whirlwind of emotions ever. I grieved for myself and the person I thought I was. I grieved for the idea that I could do anything anyone else could, as good if not better than them. But at the same time, I felt a sense of relief that I didn't have to try so hard to be perfect anymore. I could relax and just be, even though I was in pain. I could stop pushing myself so hard that I spent days in bed crying, and instead pace myself. My pain having a name and a way of managing symptoms has been a true rebirth. Sure, I still have pain almost every day. But once it had a name, I learned to dance with it. And these are things nobody talks about. Which is why we love and, more importantly, respect Ren.
Thanks Zack - this tune sits pretty high in my Ren playlist as well. Hard to image how he found the inner strength to keep trying for so long, I'm not sure I have that kind of fortitude but I guess you don't really know until you're challenged.
I love that he ended this one with Hold On. I play it every day, when I need some comfort/ motivation. I love it when he 'flips the script' and says, 'If so...'. 'I'll be back' means a lot, too. He's coming back. I want to come back, too. That song makes me feel like I can, right now. I don't have to wait. Live it now, in whatever way you can.
Everybody Drops. Shows the doctors office. Actually in his Lyme101 blog in 2016 before stem cells, he has a gut wrenching post of his fear of treatment because of the let down. The distance between hope and hopeless. He says almost the same that you did. If it was terminal, he could just make peace with it. But he always had just a little bit of hope. When he says 8 year nightmare, he means it.
I saw a comment on IG or on the Fred Again Mashup video from the person that made Ren the Sick Boi neon light. Ren said he's going to try to offer them on his website as part of the Sick Boi Merch for the people that want to buy one. ❤❤
Your humor is priceless 😂 straight faced even 🤣 Love your reactions! Ren has a great sense of humor as well. You gotta make light in the dark. Thats how I live as well.
I'm loving your humor through this, changes the energy for real. I second the idea of the 80yr old behind you... seems fair since he started off behind Ren 🤣
When you are struggling with your symptoms, doctors not helping, you start doubting yourself and everything and you try the craziest things to get some answers.
@Hexenkind1 I'm all for supporting Ren on bandcamp! I'm just wanting him to react to all of those songs, but everyone seems to think they are off limits because they're not on Ren's actual channel....If it's possible to react to a song on bandcamp, then I'm all for going that route! 😊 Those songs need way more love!!
It was a great (humorous) choice to use (poor) Marvin as background music for such an unexpected and shocking medical act... no?! And now we know where our artist got the inspiration for a certain line in the lyrics of "Murderer"!.... Thanks for the reaction.
Now i realise where the line in murderer comes from "shocking like a finger in the anus" poor Ren 😢
Lol, not worse than going to the gynecologist :P just part of life.
@@Irmelinis haha been there, done that lol
Love how Ren dressed with the ripped jeans to match his song...."holes in these jeans, Hold On".😊
Great observation!
I love that you are seriously talking about the strange emotions involved in illness.
I spent ages 15-18 feeling like I'd rather have terminal cancer than have my symptoms "be normal for a certain percentage of the population" and thus get no treatment for them whatsoever. Luckily, that time, there actually was something all the doctors were missing, and it got fixed when I was 18.
I spent even longer with back pain, and whenever I brought it up, doctors said I have scoliosis, but "not big enough to cause pain." That was the end of the conversation. But then why was I in pain? Nobody cared, until I was almost 40, when I was referred to a rheumatologist, who immediately said I have a "textbook case of fibromyalgia". Weirdest whirlwind of emotions ever. I grieved for myself and the person I thought I was. I grieved for the idea that I could do anything anyone else could, as good if not better than them. But at the same time, I felt a sense of relief that I didn't have to try so hard to be perfect anymore. I could relax and just be, even though I was in pain. I could stop pushing myself so hard that I spent days in bed crying, and instead pace myself. My pain having a name and a way of managing symptoms has been a true rebirth.
Sure, I still have pain almost every day. But once it had a name, I learned to dance with it.
And these are things nobody talks about. Which is why we love and, more importantly, respect Ren.
Thanks Zack - this tune sits pretty high in my Ren playlist as well. Hard to image how he found the inner strength to keep trying for so long, I'm not sure I have that kind of fortitude but I guess you don't really know until you're challenged.
Love your jokes Zack! Ren is a unicorn for sure! ❤️🔥✌🏻🫶🏻
Definitely the part about "I get in front, you get behind" in Uninvited has to be about Dr. Octogenarian.
They are making the neon Sick Bio sign to sell them in the merch store. They are not there yet. Waiting
I love that he ended this one with Hold On. I play it every day, when I need some comfort/ motivation. I love it when he 'flips the script' and says, 'If so...'. 'I'll be back' means a lot, too. He's coming back. I want to come back, too. That song makes me feel like I can, right now. I don't have to wait. Live it now, in whatever way you can.
Everybody Drops. Shows the doctors office.
Actually in his Lyme101 blog in 2016 before stem cells, he has a gut wrenching post of his fear of treatment because of the let down. The distance between hope and hopeless. He says almost the same that you did. If it was terminal, he could just make peace with it. But he always had just a little bit of hope. When he says 8 year nightmare, he means it.
Zach, I'm here for it, love your reaction!!!
I love Ren all that he went through is so very sad. Protect Ren who is a great young man.
I saw a comment on IG or on the Fred Again Mashup video from the person that made Ren the Sick Boi neon light. Ren said he's going to try to offer them on his website as part of the Sick Boi Merch for the people that want to buy one. ❤❤
"If I get in front, could you get behind?"
Your humor is priceless 😂 straight faced even 🤣
Love your reactions!
Ren has a great sense of humor as well. You gotta make light in the dark. Thats how I live as well.
Coolidge, Arizona. Right outside of Phoenix.
Have I told you lately how much I love your dry sense of humor?
I'm loving your humor through this, changes the energy for real. I second the idea of the 80yr old behind you... seems fair since he started off behind Ren 🤣
Lol
Not usually into sloppy seconds but it's better than prison.
@@zack_reacts LMAO I had just thought of the sloppy seconds line right after submitting the comment!
@@zack_reacts lol very true
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Oh Zack! 😂😂😂
When you are struggling with your symptoms, doctors not helping, you start doubting yourself and everything and you try the craziest things to get some answers.
Humour can get you through the dark times if you can laugh that fights the sadness 😉👍❤️
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Ren hinted in an interview that the neon Sick Boi signs may be coming to the merch site eventually.
That neon thingy is coming to the store soonish
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His song New York City is on the Ren Unreleased page! Just sayin! 🙃
And on bandcamp to buy. Just sayin!
@Hexenkind1 I'm all for supporting Ren on bandcamp! I'm just wanting him to react to all of those songs, but everyone seems to think they are off limits because they're not on Ren's actual channel....If it's possible to react to a song on bandcamp, then I'm all for going that route! 😊 Those songs need way more love!!
It was a great (humorous) choice to use (poor) Marvin as background music for such an unexpected and shocking medical act... no?!
And now we know where our artist got the inspiration for a certain line in the lyrics of "Murderer"!....
Thanks for the reaction.
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