Being Disabled In School [CC]
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My life as a disabled teenager... I video in which I cry a lot and get angry about school policy.
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omg, the stabbing you with protracter thing happened to me, but it was a metal ruler that someone found in the metal workshop at my school. Yeah, so I'd paralysed both my hips because I went rollerblading and smashed into a tree. I was in a wheelchair and people tried to catch me out and this person came up from behind me while I was sat in my wheelchair eating my lunch and just jammed the ruler into my thigh. And because MY THIGHS WEREN'T PARALYSED, I screamed in pain but because my hips couldn't really rotate I couldn't turn around and see who'd done it before they sprinted away from me. So the rumour that I was in a wheelchair for attention and that I could actually walk spread around my school. Someone then proceeds to tip me out of my wheelchair and leave me stuck crawling on the floor in a corridor for 25 minutes. I wish that people didn't see disabilities as people trying to be special snowflakes and that we're just doing for attention WE AREN'T! On a lighter note though I can walk now YAY!!
Oh. Dear. Lord. That is exactly the type of thing teachers need to crack down on! Discrimination against people with disabilities is so painfully acceptable, even when it comes to children casually tossing slurs like 'sp*zz' around. I'm sorry that happened to you but glad you're doing better 🌟
Jessica Kellgren-Hayes Oh I got names a lot to but they've stopped now because I'm in college and people tend to get more accepting when they're older. I totally agree that schools and councils need acknowledge that this is happening to disabled people on school and that it needs to be fixed! I really hate thinking that someone else could be in the same place I was when I was in secondary school. Also thanks Jessica most days now I don't even need to use my walker unless I'm doing a lot of walking around which is a vast improvement :) x
This is fucking terrible and a complete disgrace and I'm so sorry you've ever had to experience this - sending all my love your way! I'm so glad you're doing better :) nothing is better revenge than doing well and succeeding in life! I wish you the best of luck in the future xx
What kind of freaking monsters did you people go to school with?! Wtf?!?!
@@jessicaoutofthecloset I asked people to stop using words like that as 'jokes' in an assembly on inclusion. So far, it doesn't seem to have helped.
I didn't cry UNTIL you said "But I bloody did it". YES YOU DID
Aw, thank you! 💪
Actually cried when you were talking about pinching your arms and stabbing you with a protractor thats not ok really not ok people are awful☹️😢
honestly kids are assholes (which doesn't excuse it, god no), but those kids were.. particularly horrible
@Shufei some of them are just kids going along with the environment and would be ashamed by now.
You are the ultimate embodiment of resilience
Thank you ❤
@@jessicaoutofthecloset you're very brave for telling your story so candidly and I'm honestly so impressed. Thank you for telling your story
Preach
Very emotional but very brave video.
*curls up and clutches this video to my chest* “You are not alone.” Someone somewhere needs to hear this message every single day. Some days that’s me; some days it’s some other stranger on the internet who might be coming across your videos for the very first time. I don’t know how many times I’ve watched this section. Thank you, Jessica. Thank you for sharing your story and for making others like you feel just a little bit less alone.
My boy gets sick because of his ADHD meds. I believe him 100% and you make me feel glad I do.
Just found this. I have a mental illness, and am constantly tired, and often feel very alone in my struggle. But I wanted to thank you, you sweet sweet person for being so kind and open in sharing. Your heart is made of gold, and I pray God continues to bless you with those few real friends and a strong heart ♡♡♡
Crying through this whole video! It made me realise how poorly my school was designed when it came to wheelchair access, I used to climb 3 flights of stairs then pass out soon after. And your touching words at the end broke me down, it's just what I needed to hear. So often I feel bad for being extra work for people but knowing I could be giving something in return that people value more than the extra time it takes to be my friend is such a wonderful thought
Aw, I'm so glad that the video connected with you- especially my little pep talk! 😉 You definitely bring good things to the people around you xx
Aww, I cried too... school was horrific for me as well, and although I know I didn't have the same challenges as you, I feel your pain. xx
Sorry to hear that, I hope everything is heaps better for you now! 💗
my own family treated me this way for a long time...not believing I needed to go to the hospital when I was in fact severely ill. Now Im 28 with two failing kidneys and its incredibly difficult to forget and forgive but im finally living my life the way i want to.
I'm not even at school anymore but I really needed to hear that ending right now, thank you.
You made me cry cause I'm in the same situation you were in high school where no one helped and everyone thinking I'm lying I'm currently in university and I have a service dog. He makes everything worth it. Thank for sharing your story and for the kind words I really needed that at this point in time. So thank you from me and my pup, Sebastian !!!! :D
I had M.E. as a teen and this really resonated with me, I was dropped by all of my friends and it is a time I like to forget and never talk about.
Awww, I've been going through some undisgosed health stuff the last 9 months or so. And I'm in high school, this video gave me so much hope and strength. Thank you, I love you❤️
You are so, so welcome lovely. Remember, you're never alone and I hope things start to improve for you 💖
I know that you wont see this but to anyone that does and has ever felt like you did, you deserve the biggest hug in the world. You as so amazing that even thought you were going through so many different medical problems you still went through school, you still got your education and you have/will do so much better than those b*stards from your school
(hello 7 months later!) I think your story should reach more people, and make everyone aware of the "unseen" problems in schools. All the children and teenagers who has gotten sick or impaired, even for a short amount of time, have experienced this invisibility-treatment. Your story was so touching, and oh how I envy your determination!
Thank you for sharing your story
My gosh, that's a classic tale of parents who should have listened to their child! 🙈
Yep! Luckily my epilepsy has become entirely manageable and i've been seizure free for quite some time :) My parents were you though, and things happen
Oh good! I'm so pleased you're seizure free! 💖
You are just such a lovely, sweet, and kind hearted person. I can't even imagine how you came through everything that you did being the wonderful person you are, but I'm glad you did!🥰
Thank you for sharing this. I had an untreated learning disability all through school and although my disability wasn't physical, I know exactly how it feels to feel like nothing more than a burden. You are an incredible person. Thank you for sharing your story.
This video brought back a memory of a girl I used to go to elementary school with. She was deaf and did not speak, and I don't know of anyone who knew how to sign to communicate with her. So she was always alone and always crying. I remember she was a few years older than me, and I tried to communicate with her once. She was bawling her eyes out and I could just feel how lonely and sad she was, which broke my heart. I didn't have any disabilities, but I was mercilessly teased and left out, so I really felt like I related to her in our shared loneliness. I tried to reach out to her, but she was so upset at the time and we had no means of communicating... so I remember being outside at recess, after attempting to talk to her, and going to see a teacher who was nearby. I told her that this girl was crying and upset, and I desperately wanted her to do something about it, because she was an adult, and she must know what to do, I thought. You know what she said to me? She said 'Oh, her? She's always crying, ignore it'.
Thinking back, I can't believe how this grown woman was so dismissive of this lonely, sad girl. I've always had a soft spot for people who are lonely, it really gets to me and upsets me, because I KNOW how awful it feels to be desperately grasping at straws, anything, anyone, to feel a human connection and to be pushed away. I think that's why this video touched me so much. No one should have to feel the way you were made to feel. Since then, I've dedicated my life to making the world a better place :) I have a degree in psychology and am finishing my Master's in social work next spring, and I really hope to make a difference for the lonely people out there
I'm really proud of you for getting through that with your compassion still in tact. It would have been so easy to become cynical and closed off.
I found your channel today. It's easy to talk about teens being mean, but what your classmates did to you was beyond cruel!
The pain of bullying lasts a long time, glad to see that you have happiness in yourself and your life
I know this is a very old video but I'm glad I found it today. I don't have a physical disability but I've struggled with depression and anxiety since I was 9. It impacted my schooling extremely badly, and I only graduated out of sympathy from a teacher(she gave me just enough extra credit, which I did not earn, to graduate by 1%). I've been struggling a lot lately, even at 27, so it's nice to listen to someone say the loving things you say at the end of your video, even if it's not targeted to me. So thank you very much.❤
this makes me cry every time. you are such an inspiration to me, i don't know where I'd be without you. you make me feel seen. you make me feel strong and beautiful and like i am worth something, and that means the world to me. thank you.
I cried when you cried. Hate seeing you upset. You're so amazing xx
I literally bawled my eyes out on this video. Thank you so much Jessica. This is exactly what I needed right now because it's exactly what I'm going through.
I know it has been a while since you posted this, and I am not even certain if you are going to see this, but I really want to thank you for making the video. It is incredibly rewarding to see the hardship that you have been through, and how happy you are, when I am currently in a situation that on some aspects is very similar to the one you were in. I have been struggling with depression, anxiety and stress for at least ten years, even long time after the bullying stopped, and it has gotten worse and worse over the last couple of years. It is so, so very hard to fight just to keep on, when your life seems to crumble into a heap of glass shards while your body is burning internally and people are refusing to admit that there is something wrong, making it impossible to get help. Especially the isolation really hit me, as well as the points about education - which seems to very far away currently.
So despite the many tears and the raging headache that they caused, thank you a lot for this video. It really means a lot to me.
loved this video, it’s must’ve been so hard to deal with all that shit but thankfully you got through it and look where you are now! I feel very lucky to be in the school I am in, I’m not personally disabled but there is a boy in one of the older years who’s legs are paralyzed and everyone is just so supportive of him and it makes me so happy to see that.
Such a strong beautiful woman. So hard to hear how you were treated. Thank you for sharing. Your bravery and honesty is inspiring.
you are so brave for sharing your story. I am so happy that you have a loving wife and wonderful dog companions, you deserve the world!
Just thought I'd pop in to thank you for these videos... I've actually been watching through your stuff on Chronic illness and disability and this seemed like a good place to comment.
I have minor cerebral palsy and as such I've always had an interest in how disabilities and other minority groups get treated. But since my disability was minor I think I always resisted actually identifying or considering myself as disabled (it probably didn't help that I got rather bullied in primary school for my limp and the odd way I walked before my operations). While I didn't have a negative view of disability in general I tended to be really resistant to asking for help or accepting visible adjustments (I was fine with my insoles and exercises but I really fought against the idea of applying to type exams)… Your videos helped me quite a bit with dealing with this. I found the way you carefully explain everything really helpful and the being able to ground it in a real life story really helped me.I could go into more detail here, but if I cover everything I'll be here all day. I just thought I had to comment in one of your videos on this. I haven't found that many other people talking about this sort of thing (and even academic papers don't have very much on non-congenital disability) and certainly not in as compelling away.So again, thank you so much.
I wish I could like this a million times. I'm so touched with your sometimes brutal honesty of situations you have been in. It's absolutely inspired me to continue on through my hardships. I'm so glad you are a creator.
My gods I am continually stunned by the cruelty of people. I'm so sorry you went through that awfulness. You are such a beautiful human being what the fuck.
I’m honestly just sobbing. That end is so true, you, whoever is reading this, are not a burden - you never have been and you never will be, you are useful and you are NEVER alone! You are loved, you are worthy and there are people out there just dying to be your friend.
Jessica, you are so wonderful! Thank you for sharing your inspiring story and being the incredible person you are. Your wife is such a lucky woman ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I’m in tears at the moment. ❤️
Wow. You are so strong. Thank you for sharing your story Jessica, there are very few people as brave as you. x
How you are such a happy person after you went through all that I dont know. Thankyou for sharing your incredible story with the world, it really touched me. I wish you all the best with the rest of your life and fingers crossed for the continuation of your working arms.
Thank you 😊
Thank you for this. I feel as though you alone truly understand my struggles and I wish I could meet you. You’re such a beautiful person and I’m so grateful for your inspirational videos. Much love. ❤️
For every disabled student out there: I'm able-bodied, and it has taken *10 years* for me to get my bachelors. _From an art school_ . I've dropped out TWICE. You're doing fine, and even if you can't finish... hey, I earned more during one of those drop outs than I do now, so. You'll be fine, and you are doing amazing already.
You are so amazingly inspirational and strong, I found your videos at the right time. I had been feeling so down and seeing you get through all of these things makes me realize how many things people can go through and come out as a strong person 💛
Thank you for sharing this. It's wonderfully strong and genuine people like yourself who get through extremely hard times, only to come out more empathetic and wise. They then use whatever they have gone through to help others 💗 x (You are so far from useless!)
This is so kind, thank you 💕
I go stress blind sometimes and when I told teachers so they would know I'm not cheating I'm just trying to see the kids in my class would flip me off and wave at my right eye or poke it to test if I was "faking" I know it's not at the same level but it's how I can relate
Thank you
I first saw you on BBC. I love everything about you! You are so inspirational, beautiful and you are completely useful. You have purpose. ❤️ You and your wife are beautiful!
I think all children/teens should watch this video.
You are such a wonderful and beautiful person.
At the end there I felt like you were talking to your younger self. You are strong and amazing and beautiful! Thank you for posting this video.
You're so brave Jessica. Thank you for sharing your struggles and shining your positivity.
You give me hope, and I thank you for that and I wish the best of life for such a beautiful human being
Very touching. I am very impressed by you and your life story. Keep doing what your doing. You are an inspiration.
Thank you so much xxx
i am legally blind and i had struggles with school but in the states they are required to aide in all ways (tho sometimes they fightagainst it). you clearly had much more stronger struggles then i physically. a lil off topic, sign language which i did learn some in college, is so much easier then learning braille lol. ♥
Thank you so so much for sharing this!
By the way, your smile is absolutely infectious. Thank you for that as well ❤️
Boy, can I relate!
i just want to give you a great big hug xx
oh my god ur cry just broke my heart i love you so much
Jessica you are bloody amazing!
aw, thank you! 💖
thank you
i needed this
I find you to be a very courageous women and I love your videos.
Thank you so much x
You are absolutely AMAZING! I'm so inspired by you and your strength
You inspire me to take each day by storm :)
Thank you so much for sharing all of this, Jessica
You are so, so welcome! I hope it helped 💕
England likes red tape so much they put it on their flag!
In all seriousness though, you are an incredible woman. I have a mild disability of my own, having been diagnosed now with fibromyalgia and arthritis. I’ve been in pain since I was in middle school. Imagine a 12 year old who’s wrists hurt too much to write her school work. A 14 year old in high school who can’t run in gym class without braces on both ankles. You give me hope that no matter how bad my pain gets, I can achieve my goals and my dreams. Thank you so much Jessica.
As for the “friends” and the people who stepped up to fill the roles they left abandoned, it seems to me that you were blessed to find the people who truly do care. Teenagers can be awkward and nervous but as demonstrated by Mary and others, they can also be incredibly kind and compassionate despite the self centered worlds we often dwell in within our minds at that age and all ages. There is no excuse for cruelty though and it’s a shame the way you were treated by them and the school and the council to. The whole damn lot of them ought to be ashamed of themselves. If I had been your classmate (and had I been really able to in the first place if I’m being honest) I would have carried you up as many stairs as needed to help you continue your education. There is no excuse for treating another person so callously without any regard whatsoever.
After 3 years trying to get an elevator pass (I can walk up/down a couple times, but 5 times a day, goodbye hips, hello numbness my old friend). I'm in my senior year now and I have it, but it doesn't move fast enough to get me to class on time, and even aside, I constantly get asked "hey wtf r u doing on there?" By teachers. Some even question the validity of the pass, thinking it's forged.
Oh yeah, the nurse has to hold any OTC meds (takes a damn hour to get it too...), And any prescription meds that are too "hard' or w/e aren't even allowed to be on school grounds. Even if the doctor says "hey, keep these, she might die" they're just like, sorry fam.. they also won't give me a full dose of ibuprofen and so they're basically sugar pills 🙃
OH YEAH it's so easy for ppl to get an elevator pass for "anxiety" (no proof or diagnosis needed. Not, like, GAD, just normal human anxiety.) But they yell at you when you can't walk cause ur hips are both out of socket and thr legs are pins needles and I'm struggling with crutches aaaha, wish I woulda known I could just say "the hallway makes me anxious" before I mentioned the *physical medical things*
Oh Jessica 😢
My mother broke the first two rules and now I don't talk to her because 1- she said mean things to me, 2 - she'll argue with me (I think she's worried that she won't be able to one-up me in the 'who's got the worse medical problems') because I don't 'really have something wrong with me'. (Mine is IBS currently, which in terms of chronic diseases isn't too bad - it won't kill you)
Aww Jessica that's really awfull how some of them people treated you not nice. I'm not disabled but I'm Autistic and I understand I get picked on ive been picked on most my life since a teenager I'm 28 now and still do get picked on. I've been punched spat at a cig threw at me and bike's let go to hit me and pop thrown up me and chewing gum threw at me and got rammed by a trolley. I know it's hard and seeing You cry made me cry. I'm always here for You my friend. I'm happy that you and claudia are both happy together. I hope I get a nice girlfriend too. I hope your all well and alright.xx.
You are so beautiful inside and out
This video is one of the reason I like the fact my mom works with sped kids. I learned to accept special needs people as different but also just the same as everybody else at the same time. I’m a lot more patient with people with extra needs then others because people who do need help just need extra help and that is just fine
Thank you so much for sharing this video, your amazing :-) xxxx
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I Think beauty really helps and you look like a goddess, so of course you did it! ;)
This video hit me in the face like a baseball bat....
Did any one noticed her eye makeup. That only one eye was done
She wears braces! I didn’t even realize, her so white. She still looks very pretty with them
Wow damn girl you are a huge inspiration this is why I love you so much I’ve never gone through what you went through and I’m constantly wanting to KILL MYSELF wow you are so amazing I’m
Sorry you went through all that holy crap
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You are seriously the furthest thing from being useless as in without purpose. Just in the short time I've been watching your videos you brought so much joy to my life and I'm just one of your thousands of followers. Most days I feel so lonely and I watch your videos I feel so uplifted like after hanging out with a friend. You're changing lives Jessica. You are light, you are love and you are more than good enough.
Thank you so much for your lovely words 💖
My heart breaks for this little girl being called usless when she was just ill.
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TheSammami Same ☹️ teachers can be so cruel
Imagine being a full adult saying anything that mean to a child. I work with kids and they annoy me all right but I'd never ever ever call them anything like that to their face or behind their backs for that matter
Thank you so much for sharing this, it was painful and I hate you went through that. I totally get what you mean by people walking away when you get sick, it's so lonely and horrid I cried during that part because it bought up so much! You are a badass and a fighter so proud of you!!
Thank you lovely! Sorry for your tears but I hope they were cathartic 💖
Jessica Kellgren-Hayes yes they were much like yours seemed to be xxx
I always feel as if people, even my own family, get fed up with something always hurting or me being fatigued etc. I decided a long time ago to stop apologising for all my ailments as I literally have no control over them. It does get to you sometimes and I totally understand where this video comes from. I love your videos & think you're awesome xx
Not apologising for things you can't control is such a freeing and wonderful experience I wish I had started it much earlier in my life! You keep on being awesome too 😉
@Twitchyboi he makes you apologise??? Next time he hurts himself I think you should make him realise how silly that is. In fact, if your injuries are due to a genetic disorder then maybe you should make him apologise to you after every injury.
I totally relate but in a slightly different way. I find people always expect/ask for apologies out of me for needing to leave because of my mental illness and treat it as if I can control it (btw nothing like storming out or anything. Like having a panic attack and trying to get to a place where I can calm myself because its humiliating to do that in front of others)
Jessica, I love all of your videos but this one really resignated with me. I am nineteen and also have a chronic illness, and some of my worst memories are of dealing with people in school. I am consistently impressed with your grace and happiness, and so grateful that you make videos like this. ❤️
Thank you so much, lovely. I'm really glad the video spoke to you ❤
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I wish I could have been your friend back then. You're brilliant x
Aw, thank you, I wish you could have been my friend too! x
“Puppies exist so the world is a beautiful place” -Jessica
"their voices are minimized"
That is something I have wanted to hear for a long time.
I was put on the wrong medications from age six to fourteen, during most of my education, and my childhood. In school I came out as openly gay and the other girls locked me out of the gym showers because I would quote 'stare at them' wich I had never done before and I was already gay before that moment. Keep in mind I we were in 6th grade at the time.
I am gay (lesbian and happy to be so), mentally disabled (properly diagnosed by medical professionals with papers and documentation) with extreme anxiety wich is so bad i cannot have a job because I can barely get out the door or speak on the phone, I am actually terrified of using the disabled bathroom after using it once and a woman berated me for 'not being disabled' just so I could relax a bit and not be paranoid about someone hearing me pee, and having better space to (yes) jump away form the toilet as it flushes, I don't like loud noises, I hate them and I don't want to be near the toilet when it does.
This is probably one of my favorite videos of yours...
I cried thru the entire thing.
It sounds like our childhoods were very similar (why can't adults just believe children?!) and being called weak, wimp, useless, etc hurts like daggers. I didn't start getting any dx's until I started searching for answers at age 19 (didn't get any dx until age 22).
You're such a beautiful person, all the way to your core! I'm going to be sharing this video with people because I think out can really help.
Love it!
Oh, thank you for sharing the video, I'm really glad you found it helpful! It was difficult to make (obviously- destroyed my make up with those tears!) but that makes it worth it 💕
The problem with society today is how certain people are uneducated about those of us with disabilities. Like you, Jess, I don't look disabled on a surface level, and also came across a similar path full of bureaucracy, scepticism, and downright silliness, all because those around us were unable to define the severity of what we have. But as you say, thankfully there were some who cared and were able to see things as they really are, which is saying something, considering I'm partially sighted, ha! Great video. You're a diamond.
Thank you! Sorry you too had the path of most resistance but glad we made it through to the other side x
i found you on the video "what not to say to deaf people!" and what a lovely find this was!
Welcome to the channel 😊
I can’t tell you how much I heard “what’s wrong *now*” I thought everyone bumped into something and felt that initial “bump into” pain for the next 10 minutes. I thought everyone had to rest after a shower, or had pain all the time. Or their elbows cracked and we’re sore so much. I ended up always “cracking” my elbows because they always hurt. I was trying to hyperextend them to the point where pain was gone. Obviously didn’t work. I thought other 7 year olds had back pain or woke up crying from back pain. Or having intestinal cramping all the time. Or were able to pop their bones out and in. Or were able to stretch everything BEYOND normal. And then came to the point where my TMJ pains as so bad I couldn’t eat anymore. I lost weight because of it. My teeth are straight but not in the right place. And then I sprained my ankle 3 times. And then dislocated my knee. Then dislocated my knee a year later. And I’ve just been going down hill since. But your videos are what made me realize that my pain and symptoms and issues weren’t normal. And made me seek help.
I know I am abled and I can't rlly compare but I need to take a break after everything I do whether it is showering or walking around I get super tired so I can somewhat understand
I started to cry almost immediately and then my roommate asked if I was okay. She started to watch with me and now we're just both in tears. Thank you for sharing your story. I was bullied in school for far different reasons but it still hurts all the same. People are going to be able to see this video and feel the sincerity behind your words and know that they are not alone and that things will turn out to be okay.
Thank you so much! ...And sorry for making both of you cry 😘
You are soooo brave! The world is definitely a better place because you are in it. I have learned so much from your videos and I truly look forward to seeing them each week. You are a rock star!!! Thank you for being you.
That's such a touching comment, thank you so much! I hope I continue making videos you like to watch ❤
Dear Jessica, this video broke my heart. I am a retired teacher,(in the states, California) and many of my students had special needs. I am so very sorry for the pain you experienced and the memories that still cause you so much pain. I hope the strength you have now, and the willingness to share your story, will encourage kindness and inclusion for all who hear it. Bless you and I am so happy you and Claudia found each other.
Thank you so much Sandy! You're such a kind person I am sure you were a wonderful teacher xxx
I wish there were more teachers like you xoxo
I am watching this while yet another family member texts me and tells me how much of a burden I am. I am disabled, and just recently became this way so I am still coming to terms with it. At the moment, I have no support, no friends or family that care or even say anything supporting, just constant reminders that I am a drain on society. Thank you for making this video. It helps to know that someone understands. You are a beautiful person and I wish you all the happiness in the world.
You're such an incredible human being, and the way you manage to stay positive throughout hardships is truly inspiring. You're really an illuminated soul who deserves all of the best and brightest things in the world
Thank you so much! ⭐💖
"Puppies exist, so the world is a beautiful place" is literally how I get through some days. I don't even have a dog. I just watch videos of other people's dogs or remember seeing a dog outside and hold onto the reality that they exist.
Why are people, kids especially, so mean. This broke my heart. You’re always so sweet and trying to make light of a crap situation and it’s admirable. I’m so glad I found you on here. You deserve all of the happiness that Claudia brings to you. And your puppies 🐶.
Thank you for telling your story. I cried along with you. While I did not have a terribly difficult time in high school, my college years have been incredibly difficult. I think some people treat chronic mental illness as made up illnesses and that makes it hard for people to understand because they cannot physically see anything wrong. Being bipolar has shown me who my real friends and family are. Currently, I am laid up in bed with the covers practically over my head, but you have certainly given me a glimmer of hope :)
I'm sorry you've had a hard time with people accepting your mental illness but you're quite right, being ill really does show you the best in people as well 💕
Same with mental illness stuff.
I was never bullied in school, but I feel I was, at work, the last 3 years by 3 of my managers occasionally chastising me, saying I was doing it for attention. They didn't know about my suicide attempt 4 years ago.
All 3 of those managers are gone-two retired and one transferred to another location so I am healing from that, as well as anxiety, depression, and ptsd. I have the nicest store manager now. She's so nice and so supportive and treats me like a human being. She also has anxiety so she 'gets' it.
I have the weekend off and wasn't productive at all yesterday. Spent just 4 hours out of bed. Today was better though. More productive and stayed out of bed. I think I've watched 30 or more of Jessica's videos in the past 2 days. 😍
I can’t weigh in on the exact experience you had I can say I was bullied to a degree in middle and high school. Mostly for being poor and not fitting In physically (clothes, super frizzy curly hair that I didn’t know how to deal with) and even though it was more than 15 years ago I do still tear up remembering how it made me feel back then. I just had to comment about how your dog came in and made it better. My little pup got me thru the last year of a horrendously emotionally and mentally abusive relationship and even now, more than 3 years after it ended, he will still climb in my lap and lick my tears off my face if I’m crying. 💜
"And don't worry about feeling like a burden, because you are bringing something to people; you just can't tell"
I'm probably just in a dramatic mood today but this really hit me. I feel like most of us (people with disabilities I mean) have felt that at some point, and, honestly, sometimes I still catch myself stuggling with it, so hearing this was really... validating I guess? I don't even know if that's a word. Anyway I'm sorry about all this rambling, I just wanted to thank you for saying that. I think I sort of needed to hear it... and I doubt I'm the only one.
This is the most beautiful and touching story that I ever heard. My heart goes out to you and I send you my love. I don't have a disability but I was the victim of bullies through my whole schooling, I was either painfully visible involving verbal, physical or emotional abuse or was completely invisible. Just because I was different and liked different things. But like you, I find joy and beauty in the small things in life, I love to day dream and I am thankful for all that I have. I certainly would have wished to be able to appreciate all the wonder of life without having to go through those things that I did but if that was the price, it was worth it. I love your videos and thank you for sharing your obvious joy and happiness in life, the beauty and love of your family with Claudia and your dogs and friends. It makes me realize that there is nothing wrong with being a hopeless romantic and optimist. Thank you for bring joy to my day with your videos. I would have gladly carried your chair up those stairs in Uni.
Cheers, Michele
Being a hopeless romantic and optimist is definitely the best way to live! We would definitely have been friends at school ❤