I just watched this follow up to your previous video (VLOG 19 Social Anxiety) and agree with the positve messages here. You are exactly right, in my opinion, that a person's gender is an innate phenomenon of the mind and expressed in personality before anything else, i.e. womanhood or manhood is in how you think, feel and react to the world around you, and so is centred in your personality, a product of the mind. The sum of that is then what one chooses to reflect outwardly. In my observations over the years, I've seen many variations in levels of masculine and feminine characteristics in the personalities of people of both sexes. Sometimes you get more emotionally sensitve men, and more dispassionately inclined women. Similarly, people that can't be defined as completely heterosexual or evenly bisexual or completely homosexual. The world is full of variation and it's only the totally black and white that is the true minority, but the problem is, our very materialistic and appearance obsessed social culture teaches us to look no further than "skin deep" when judging one another. As a result people become unaware that being attracted to someone is not only about what they look like, but also how they make you feel when you are with them. So when we are faced with a biological anomaly where someone's physiology developed in contrast to their mentality, social constructs fall apart as they are too unsophisticated to cope, and people run to their stereotypes out of fear. Hopefully, we will change this slowly but surely by continuing to educate and set better examples, and positive role models like you are vital part acheiving that. So thanks for sharing your journey.
A lot of the things you are saying hit me like a ton of bricks. I have a lot of friends on the Internet, but few in my actual surroundings and I usually sit alone at meals unless I go with a group which is twice a week. And the ways people treat women is yeah just as you say it! (Lol) And all people have a mix of feminine and masculine traits, some women may have less. I love this video because you talk over a lot of things that are on point! You go, girl!
Your gorgeous. I am more along the lines of trans-genderist forced by circumstances beyond my control can not be who I feel I should be. I know the whole emotional ups and downs. I also know the whole no real local friends thing. I am mostly there my self. The majority of the few friends I have are online. How people perceive you in some cases is as much based on how you act. Even looking like a man because of how I act some times I have been refered to as one of the girls. Despite me not planing on going all the way I have mixed emotions when that happens. I am both embarresed and at the same time it feels good. I wish I could offer you advice but what works for me may not work for you. I learned early on to ignore my inner critic. It is all in confidence.
You need to know that you are worth it and it needs to come from someone you love and that loves you. Maybe the lows wont last so long and not as harsh. So all you have to do is find a significant other. Easy, right. Lol. And you do look pretty Carrie. Take care young Lady.
Carrie please don't be upset or take this comment the wrong way. with bunch of extreme lows followed by some highs.... have you or anyone else considered bipolar disorder? hang in there I'm glad things are looking up for you ;). love and hugs to ya girl!!!
+C Harris I've considered it, but I don't think I have it because I really don't go through any sort of "mania." My happy times between depressive episodes aren't really any sort of mania. I'm not suddenly an abnormally-bubbly abnormally-excited person, I'm just more or less normal. Only the depressive episodes are significant enough that they're affecting my quality of life. And usually they're caused by anxiety, so it's not like they're unpredictable, it's almost always because something very specific has triggered my anxiety and made me overthink myself into self-loathing. I had my mental health evaluated by my therapist very early in transition, and she rated me an 80/100 in terms of global functioning, with those twenty points mainly being because of these issues that I'm talking about now, that I have persistent issues with stress and self-doubt, but only to the point that they make me personally feel bad, not to the point that I have major depression or bipolar or anything of that nature.
+cheetaking243 well let's trust your therapist and better your own gut instinct. listening to your own body is very key in understanding yourself :). I am proud of you. you've come so far and have done so awesome - as a straight cis woman I don't think I could be as strong or as brave as you!! you are important in this world - don't let others or your own mind tell you otherwise. wish I lived closer to you I think we would make great friends! hugs to you!! you can overcome every one of life's struggles and I can't wait to watch the rest of your story!! love from Canada :)
+SHG85XO Again, I don't really think that I have any sort of depressive disorder. Because it's not like I can't feel any joy or anything, or like I'm constantly down. It's more like I think myself into oblivion. I take tiny little things that shouldn't make me feel bad, or maybe should make me feel a little bad or a little worried at best, but my brain's tendency to obsess and overly worry spirals out of control until I have a big breakdown. And even when I'm feeling good I'm always worried like this, and can't get my mind to stop worrying. So again, I think anxiety is much closer to what I feel than depression.
your helping my anxiety healing process so much thank u soooo much literally is life saving
I just watched this follow up to your previous video (VLOG 19 Social Anxiety) and agree with the positve messages here. You are exactly right, in my opinion, that a person's gender is an innate phenomenon of the mind and expressed in personality before anything else, i.e. womanhood or manhood is in how you think, feel and react to the world around you, and so is centred in your personality, a product of the mind. The sum of that is then what one chooses to reflect outwardly. In my observations over the years, I've seen many variations in levels of masculine and feminine characteristics in the personalities of people of both sexes. Sometimes you get more emotionally sensitve men, and more dispassionately inclined women. Similarly, people that can't be defined as completely heterosexual or evenly bisexual or completely homosexual.
The world is full of variation and it's only the totally black and white that is the true minority, but the problem is, our very materialistic and appearance obsessed social culture teaches us to look no further than "skin deep" when judging one another. As a result people become unaware that being attracted to someone is not only about what they look like, but also how they make you feel when you are with them. So when we are faced with a biological anomaly where someone's physiology developed in contrast to their mentality, social constructs fall apart as they are too unsophisticated to cope, and people run to their stereotypes out of fear. Hopefully, we will change this slowly but surely by continuing to educate and set better examples, and positive role models like you are vital part acheiving that. So thanks for sharing your journey.
A lot of the things you are saying hit me like a ton of bricks. I have a lot of friends on the Internet, but few in my actual surroundings and I usually sit alone at meals unless I go with a group which is twice a week. And the ways people treat women is yeah just as you say it! (Lol) And all people have a mix of feminine and masculine traits, some women may have less. I love this video because you talk over a lot of things that are on point! You go, girl!
our brains think alot alike ths video literally is giving me life rright now
I'm the same way; it only takes something to hit me the wrong way to get me in a bad head space.
Your gorgeous. I am more along the lines of trans-genderist forced by circumstances beyond my control can not be who I feel I should be. I know the whole emotional ups and downs. I also know the whole no real local friends thing. I am mostly there my self. The majority of the few friends I have are online. How people perceive you in some cases is as much based on how you act. Even looking like a man because of how I act some times I have been refered to as one of the girls. Despite me not planing on going all the way I have mixed emotions when that happens. I am both embarresed and at the same time it feels good. I wish I could offer you advice but what works for me may not work for you. I learned early on to ignore my inner critic. It is all in confidence.
heeling is a slow process, keep up the great work, you're looking prettier now a days in your videos too.
You need to know that you are worth it and it needs to come from someone you love and that loves you. Maybe the lows wont last so long and not as harsh. So all you have to do is find a significant other. Easy, right. Lol. And you do look pretty Carrie. Take care young Lady.
your voice is so pretty
You are beautiful and awesome just as you make yourself.
Carrie please don't be upset or take this comment the wrong way. with bunch of extreme lows followed by some highs.... have you or anyone else considered bipolar disorder? hang in there I'm glad things are looking up for you ;). love and hugs to ya girl!!!
+C Harris I've considered it, but I don't think I have it because I really don't go through any sort of "mania." My happy times between depressive episodes aren't really any sort of mania. I'm not suddenly an abnormally-bubbly abnormally-excited person, I'm just more or less normal. Only the depressive episodes are significant enough that they're affecting my quality of life. And usually they're caused by anxiety, so it's not like they're unpredictable, it's almost always because something very specific has triggered my anxiety and made me overthink myself into self-loathing.
I had my mental health evaluated by my therapist very early in transition, and she rated me an 80/100 in terms of global functioning, with those twenty points mainly being because of these issues that I'm talking about now, that I have persistent issues with stress and self-doubt, but only to the point that they make me personally feel bad, not to the point that I have major depression or bipolar or anything of that nature.
+cheetaking243 well let's trust your therapist and better your own gut instinct. listening to your own body is very key in understanding yourself :). I am proud of you. you've come so far and have done so awesome - as a straight cis woman I don't think I could be as strong or as brave as you!! you are important in this world - don't let others or your own mind tell you otherwise. wish I lived closer to you I think we would make great friends! hugs to you!! you can overcome every one of life's struggles and I can't wait to watch the rest of your story!! love from Canada :)
u look awesome !
Cyclic Dysthymia?
+SHG85XO Again, I don't really think that I have any sort of depressive disorder. Because it's not like I can't feel any joy or anything, or like I'm constantly down. It's more like I think myself into oblivion. I take tiny little things that shouldn't make me feel bad, or maybe should make me feel a little bad or a little worried at best, but my brain's tendency to obsess and overly worry spirals out of control until I have a big breakdown. And even when I'm feeling good I'm always worried like this, and can't get my mind to stop worrying. So again, I think anxiety is much closer to what I feel than depression.
hON, it's just hormones.. make ya moody. you'll be OK. Really impressed with you...