Chynna in the past three weeks in between watching California Preachin I have been dealing with a mother who does not take care of her three kids. She mistreats them. She drives up to 100 mph with them in her car. She talks about rapes and sex in front of them all day. the list is long. I talked to DHS Child protection but this woman has a relationship (maybe romantic) with this worker and this worker gets her off from the inside. HELP? these kids will be dead what do you do when the mother is unfit, abuses them, neglects them and the system is blocked from helping them. Help, what can I do?
As a teen in the 70's, I thought rock stars were so very glamorous. I was 20 when Papa John's book came out, which I snapped up immediately. By the time I finished reading it, I was truly horrified. The stark reality of the lives some rock people lead is nothing short of tragic.
It's not an accident that I have discovered CalPreach at this most difficult part of my life, that seem to be parallelling yours. Thank you for sharing so openly. I do not relish having to tell anyone about my traumas, but see now that therapy is the way to go. Can't thank you enough.
My mother was not an addict but her father was. She was so messed up and mean her entire life. When she was dying, Hospice quit twice. Addiction hurts generations. Hang in there and be calm within yourself. You are loved. Peace of Christ.
Addiction is no joke and can have those generational effects. Thank you Chynna for having the courage and honesty to share this painful memory with us. You are definitely not alone.
Oh Chynna you really struck a strong emotion in me with this video. My dad was an alcoholic and my mom was very verbally abusive to us 6 kids. Ill never forget failing my written drivers permit test and my dad cussing me out in the DMV and telling me how stupid I was in front of everyone.My sister and I cleaned the whole house one day when our parents were gone and when they got back our mom cussed us out because we hung her clothes up wrong.Like you there are many stories to tell. I looked for love in all the wrong places in my twenties but finally at 32 found a loving man and we got married and got baptized together and raised our 5 kids. I still have pain but have forgiven my parents and they actually taught me what not to do as a parent. Thank you and God bless you! Praying your broken pieces get put back together 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️
Sorry my dear, that that happened to you. I’ve had people say those same type of things to me, my mom especially but also many others. We just live in a very narcissistic abusive culture, for some reason. Such people should not have children, it wounds the child for life when they do that stuff. Anyway sorry again and i pray you have been able to forgive them and move on in life, for your own benefit
@@EphemeralProductions thank you. Same to you. Im sure God allows things for a reason and I believe it is so we can help others through things like Chynna is doing through her youtube channel.
@@jeanniejones4869 I hope you were able to overcome those early experiences and have surrounded yourself with loving, caring and supportive people. Sometimes we have to look for those outside our family and create a community of like minded souls 💕
I’m sorry that someone was offended by Holy Spirit Activate but I wanted you to know that I was having a day where I felt lonely so I was catching up on Cal Preach and I found myself singing it as loud as I could in my kitchen. So thank you 🙏🏼
Chynna--wow. Just wow. You are an absolute treasure of a person. Thank you for sharing something so hard. No child should have to endure the horrors of drugs, neglect, or abuse. I appreciate your struggle, vulnerability, and strength. I am praising God right now that Jesus chose you and saved you. You are my sister in Christ! God bless you.
Chynna, you are so precious to God. You are such a blessing to everyone who watches this channel. I thank God for the platform he has given you. Your honesty is a sacrifice poured out to God. You are his beloved daughter. I love your boldness for him. You probably don't even see but others do.
My grandmother use to take care of kids and one girl she started sitting at 3 months old. The parents had Adopted her but had a trip planned. So they still went...duh, cause thats what you do. Well my grandmother started watching her on a regular basis, usually over the weekend when they went to the lake on their boat. There were many time they would come to puck her up totally wasted. My grandmother would tell them, oh she just fell asleep can we just bring her home in the morning. The little girl(who i still know at 54) and i both respected grandma so much for doing that. Like your mother, it makes you look at them differently.
Thank you both. Grandma Katie was everyone grandma. I could write a book on all the things she did. Kids and babies were everything to her. She raised 2 kids that my grandfather (loyal)had when he was in the army. He left her with 2 small kids in 1943 i think. 1946...47 and 48 he still hadn'tcome home yet. My grandmotherbecamefriendswith another man and her sister in law ended up hiring a private investor to find grandpa. They found him in Mississippi shaking up with a woman who at this point had 2 kids. He came back to az and back to grandma. The other man was a much better man but she stayed with the father of her kids. Then she found out the woman in Mississippi put the boys she had up for adoption and skipped town. So grandma told Loyal to go get those babies. When he was walking up to the orphanage the oldest boy was on a trike out front...(and it had been over a year) he pointed thats my daddy. And it was. So my grandmother and grandfather adopted the 2 boys and she raised them as her own. I really didnt even know all of this until i was an adult. I think people looked at life so much differently back then. My grandmother was born in denver and raised in the depression all over Colorado and Wyoming. They came to Arizona in 28 to warm up. Boy did they warm up. Some of the family moved to California, that was a smarter move in my opinion. Lol
Being a sensitive person is a precious gift, even though it is often looked at as being weak. Your videos continue to help me. Thank you for sharing. 💖
Oh Chynna, I feel like God was protecting you by allowing your father to leave you..I’m so happy you had your mother to love you and protect you and your little brother. Jesus (and your mother) SAVED you from so much more trauma. ❤️
Your mother did not protect you don't believe it for a minute. I have yet to hear her apologize for anything and until she does your pain with endure.....
Wow. I absolutely LOVE what you said that “trauma is really layered.” So deep and it gives us the opportunity to give ourselves grace. Jesus scoops us into His arms when we feel neglected and are hungry. He provides us sustenance and comfort when we feel so alone!
People will misunderstand your intentions but God never will!! Your story about your brother made me cry too. Therapy will bring up so much but don’t give up. We have to go through it to deal with it.
You are brave for sharing your struggles and sadness. You are a great role model for me. Thank you for showing your vulnerability and how you can survive.
So your childhood was like mine. Now imagine how many others shared the same childhood. It was a cultural hell our parents were in and the reasons and answers are complex. Education helps us understand snd survive it. Peace of Christ Chynna.
Chynna.....you have lived through some tough stuff..me too. You inspire me. I love you. and I'm going ro say it ................SHINING!!!! just amazing you are.
So I keep coming back to see more posts. The religious isn’t what draws me. It you sharing your truth and willing to be vulnerable. It helps. Thank you.
Thank God your mom watched over your little brother..there are so many children suffering similarly every day right now. I pray our precious Lord Jesus hold them and protect them 🙏
Thank you, Chynna. I am binge watching all of your videos, which have me thinking about my walk with God. Also, I asked my doctor what the spots on my hands were. She said, “Here (in France) we call them cemetery flowers!”
A lot of people shouldn't. Some are the people who look like solid citizens on the outside. But "druggies" are also loved by God. They aren't a special kind of Unforgivable People. Everyone is trying is trying to fill that God-shaped hole. My Uncle overdosed and died, and was one of the people I loved the most in this world. The loss of so much potential sucks. I miss him. Because struggling with addiction was not what defined him.
@@amylh322 God bless you for these words. I truly believe drug addiction is a kind of mental illness. But I also believe that children should be protected from drug addicted people...their visits must be monitored. Just because the severely addicted r not rational at times.
I agree. But you can't legislate this. People are on drugs and this included prescription meds. There are even psych drugs that can cause rage and personality issues. There is no easy answers. Pray.
you inspire me so much. you have been through so many trials and tribulations but still radiate so much love to the world. you have such a way with words - the way you described those scenarios, especially with your brother with the eggs and flour on the floor...my heart just broke, so totally. I know you say your intent is not to make us feel sorry for you. I don't. But you bringing it up makes me think of abuse/unkindness I experienced when I was a young child up until I was a young adult and still tolerating toxic behavior from people who knew better than to treat others like s***. i know john made billions of people happy with his music but he left so much strife, misery and turmoil in his wake that people are still dealing years and years later. And it's not just him. i will never understand what makes people make such bad decisions that hurt so many of us well-meaning, benign people (especially when we are young, innocent children). I know people say "God only gives you what you can handle" but part of me thinks...why should we have to experience such bad things? Why? Thank you Chynna for your honestly. Sorry I always write so much in your comments. On a happier note, I love your hair in the double buns!!! But you have the perfect, classic face shape that can rock any hair style and make it seem chic and effortless - super long, double bun, bowl cut, bangs and then no bangs. You lucky!! You got those supermodel features, girl!!
Holy Spirit activate song is cute. I do find myself singing it when I am low. Fill the void with God, even when you don't want to. That is a sincere prayer.
Your transparency is such a beautiful thing Chynna. You do help many being by just being you. That's why Jesus called you for such a time as this. God bless you sweet sister. You are beautiful!!!!!!!!🙏 ❤️🕊️🌹
Chynna, you have blessed my life. Chilly has made me laugh out loud and I love when you are on here together. Also, love the shows with Beckett Cook. Thanks for all of your sharing, very raw and real. Much love!
I can’t imagine having a beautiful daughter like Chynna & not giving her the love she needs 🥺 God Bless You! Thank You for being you & sharing your stories with us to break these cycles ✨🙏🏼✨
I’m so amazed by you Chynna. I also had a traumatic life. My dad was mentally ill and I still have PTSD. I’m the one you mentioned who is sensitive and easily held to emotion. But I’m so grateful I have Christ. He is seeing me through and I keep remembering what you said FROG- you are beautiful Chynna! Thank you for this!
Chunks, I am a 67 yo man and I just want to tell you that your videos inspire me. I watched one recently where you talked about the strength of faith. My faith has always wavered and as a consequence made me doubt my salvation at times. What you said made me realize that my salvation is not based on the strength of my faith. It is based on the strength of the Blood of Jesus. It was a true ah-ha moment. Thank you for that. Blessings
I felt physically sick to my stomach hearing about your brother going hungry. How aweful! Having a parent be so unreliable, irresponsible, and abusive is devastating. If anyone is watching this & you are experiencing this, as a child or a parent, please, please get help! Help is available! May all who suffer this way come to know their Lord & Saviour, Jesus Christ. He never leaves us alone in our suffering
Thru your bravery talking about your childhood , you are helping others, and it helps you to. You are a strong person!! You have beautiful children, a wonderful husband, an adorable doggie, and your faith in Jesus Christ!!! Keep being amazing!!
Thank you for sharing yourself so freely..Your messages are always beautifully transparent and truthful & you thoughtfulness to clarify your messages is second to none. God Bless❤️🙏🏻
You are strong and so honest. And you are touching more people than you know with sharing your experiences and overcoming. Your faith is so very uplifting. Please keep sharing🙌❣️
Dearest sister... You are gorgeous inside and out!!! You are His precious daughter. Such difficult memories come to us at different times. Out of no where we have a memory that is so painful it's imbedded. Through Christ, He has given us grace that is sufficient to handle it all!!! I must remember the good times and the blessings. He has sustained us and continues to walk with us on our way. He was always there, when we didn't feel close to Him. Thank you Jesus!!! I must remind myself that His dying for us, means that we too will conquer death. Joy of everlasting life!! Amen, Amen , Amen Death is swallowed up in victor un O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting? Hugs to you sister Chy!!! Blessings in abundance I'm so grateful for you. Holy Spirit activate, Holy Spirit activate..activate, activate 🙏🏻❤️
Chynna...that story about your little brother is heartbreaking...I can understand your feeling this way & crying as you have in this video.It's okay to cry, Chynna. We are here for you. Know this. & so is God. You are a wonderful perfect human being- just remember that. There are some things within our control & others not. Keep expressing what's inside you as you have been doing here- the more you let out, the more you let go. the more you let go, the freer you will become. i'm sorry about Grandma Jacks- she seemed wonderful. I'm sorry too about the worries you've had over your boy's well being. I will keep praying with you over all of this. i have been watching your videos for a few months now & really feel for you. I enjoy how you make us all feel like part of your family by sharing your heart. That takes amazing courage. Love & Light always.
The Lord is giving you healing from these hurts. He loves us soooo much and wants to help us out of the chains that bind us. Cheering and praying for you♥️
Thank you for sharing your stories. We all have to wade through our experiences and traumas from childhood. I, too, had some experiences with traumatized me. It takes time and talking about these traumas to help you become centered and grounded. You are a good mom, wife, daughter and sister. Give yourself credit for living through your experiences and enjoy the family you have created with your husband. Live in the now and enjoy life. A year ago today my dad passed away. He was 88. He worked so hard to take care of our family. We were five kids, plus my maternal grandparents and parents. So, nine of us in a big house. Dad studied at night to earn his engineering degree. He designed a part of the guidance system that got the Apollo to the moon. From him I learned to study and work hard. Thanks dad. Thank you mom for choosing him. I miss him and his gentle voice and advice, especially in his final weeks. God bless you for working so hard to ground yourself. I love you too. Take care of yourself. 💞🙋🏻♀️🙏✝️
You’re helping people in so many ways, it was not my parents but my young adult kids father , I have so much empathy and love for you, thank you chynna.
You’ve created a platform of light and truth! Thank you for sharing your heart Chynna. I know we all have the light of Christ- the spirit of light and truth. When I hear or see acts of kindness and truth, the light of Christ witnesses to me that goodness, and I in turn want to be better! I don’t know why some people are born into challenges - but God knows. My heart hurts for that little girl that longed for a relationship with her dad, and you having to see what you saw regarding the drugs. You have gone through so much, but yet you are a shining example of light and goodness! You are loved Chynna! Keep shining bright for all the world to see❤️
So sorry that you and your brother had to go thru this. It's sad for families where there is drug addiction. It is especially sad for the children because their parents can't help themselves let alone their kids. It is good that your mother came thru or you and your brother.
I cried right along with you this morning. Thank you again for your honesty, and for sharing your most personal stories with us. I have related to many of your childhood stories, and share some similar ones....and unlike you, I have not been as brave as to share. God Bless you, Chynna! 🙏🏻❤️ Continued prayers for you, your son, and your family 🙏🏻
You are helping a lot of people by telling your story. It is honestly tear jerking....but I am so glad to hear your story. I knew you a long time ago in NYC. I thought u were so sweet and very kind and real...had no idea you had been though all this! I watch all your posts and yet I am not very religious. I just like your honesty with the real struggles....serious, funny, nutty, fantastic and refreshing! Also love it when you say Holy Spirit activate! Love it! Why not!? What is the harm! All good. Peace xo
Chyna your sister McKenzie came out with her story many years ago and the world supported her. Your trauma was paid for on the cross, you are still reliving some bits of this trauma, you deserve the respect and love of that little child that was so innocent. The Lord has given you a platform to the world, be kind to yourself you are loved.
Chynna I am jewely from Ojai...just found your channel...don’t know how I stumbled upon it...but your stories are FASCINATING in the searching of a path to healing I’m really proud of you for doing this work and self care.💕💕💕
Chynna, your honesty and baring your flaws helps me immensely. Knowing that such a lovely person as yourself, experiencing similar struggles and calamities, makes me feel not so bad...thank you for that! ❤️
Please never apologize for being raw and real. You sharing the trauma you experienced is inspiring because you have triumphed over your fears, misguidance of some of the adults in your childhood, and more. You are lovely. Peace of Christ!!! P.S. I love your alien hairdo. Too cute.
You are a very smart woman. To understand all of this at the age of 6 is amazing. What is amazing is that you went through all of this and became such a great person. You are an amazing Mom and give back to this world. So many girls lived your life of partying etc that is a part of life for a lot of girls. You rose above all of this. NOT to say that you do not need to release this now. You have buried all these emotions for the sake of others and now it's time for you to heal. The first step to healing is doing what you are doing now...you are releasing them and hey on top of it you are helping others in your journey. You are brave and care about others! God is smiling right now.
Chynna, I’m glad I tuned in. I’ve been in a very sad place and instead of connecting with you and others I’ve shut down and what a Cal preach for me to watch! I endured childhood trauma and I shut down, became stone. I’ve started Therapy and praise God, we are never to late to be healed. Oh, living in Florida I have old lady hands and they drive me crazy. I’m curious about what it entails.
Dear Chynna, I just want to wrap you in a HUGE HUG! I know that it’s difficult for you to share certain situations from your past but know that you really are helping others when you do so. I’m incredibly sorry that you and your siblings had to be witness to... and experience in your life the demons of your father’s addictions; no child should ever be put in such a place. You know that God only gives us that which He knows we can handle and, I’m not trying to make less of your struggles or reality in any way... but I truly believe that your truth is not only a testament to the Christian being that you are, it’s also a testament to the strong and caring person that you are... and your tender heart. With every new episode of Cal Preach, not only are you growing in your faith and journey... you are also helping many of us grow in our faith and journey! I just love you, girl! Never apologize for bearing your heart and soul when your purpose for doing so is to unburden, release, grow, enlighten and help. You’re beautiful in every way! God Bless you and your family. ❤️ 🤗 🙏 🙌
I've watched several of your videos and have noticed that every so often you address something that someone is offended about. I appreciate your sensitivity, but I have to say, what in the world are people so offended about all the time? Here is this radiant woman who escaped so many of the pitfalls of the lives of celebrities, who survived her parent's drug abuse, abandonment, and the lies and abuses of Hollywood. Here she is beautiful and healing and telling the world about the mercies of a loving God. What in the world are you offended at, people? Thank you for these videos, Chynna, for being your real self, and for loving the Savior with such honesty. You inspire me. For real.
Raw and powerful testimony Chynna. You know that Jesus has gotcha covered...BTW, Holy Spirit activate fires me up so much, it gets me through tough times and helps my temperament. It's so uplifting! I'm not offended...I guess you can't please everybody 🤷
You are so sweet, don't feel embarrassed about your hands, for goodness sake, it's comforting to those of us who have body image issues to know we are not alone. Mine is my "turkey neck". We all have something. Thank you for sharing the hard stuff. You are helping people. Drug addiction is so damaging to everyone whose lives have intersected it. It knows no boundaries, rich, poor or in between. It is an equal opportunity destroyer. Praise God for His hand on your life. You were able to keep your children from such a life. You're a survivor! I cried right along with you. We have to help each other through this life in what ever way God directs us. God bless you, Sister in Christ. You're a blessing!❤
God bless you and continue to guide you on this beautiful path. So grateful for your raw honesty and trust in God. Keep California preaching, I LOVE it!
Chynna, my Dad too was nonexistent my whole life & I felt like a person at the end of a runway examining & "choosing" which woman would be my next stepmom ! Awful childhood. But so thankful Jesus's love endured! God Bless you & Billy &.your families always!!🙏🙏💕 Peace in Christ
Bless you. I have been catching up and watching your videos so much since I lost my husband on Feb 28, 2022. Liver disease. 51 years old. He was a believer and loved Christ. You are inspiring. I have a distant connection to your family. I'm so happy for your faith and love of Jesus.
Chynna, once again...know this...your transparency is helping those that feel isolated by similar experiences. Thank you for sharing. This scripture came to my mind. 2 Corinthians 12:9. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
Thank you Chynna for just being YOU and for sharing and being vulnerable. I know you are helping people who are struggling(or who have struggled) with anything. Especially parents. You are an overcomer! Sending big hugs to you. This video was heartbreaking, but to see you dealing with your pain through the strength of Jesus is so encouraging. May God continue to bless your ministry and may He give you the peace that passes all understanding. And last, I think your look is adorable- love it❣️- and I also love your “Holy Spirit Activate” song. I sing it and smile. 🤗
Don't be embarrassed about your appearance on the outside. How we look on the inside is what matters and you shine of beauty. It is is very generous for you to share your painful memories. You are turning your pain into good for others by your sharing and that is beautiful too! A big hug from NY!!!
I just found your channel a couple days ago. I am completely smitten with your Christianity walk. I was raised by Christian family but strayed for many years. Now I am now 67 and am back. You are such a blessing to the world for this. Jesus will take care of Billy. I know your fear as if Jesus returns tomorrow my husband will be left behind. God will fix it when he is ready. Praise the Lord. Love you.
Hi Chynna. I was born and raised in California, now in Texas. I thank you for your transparency and am so sure you are helping so many individuals who may relate. I wish you the best always and thank you again.
Sometimes it’s scary how similar someone’s story is to yours. You’re so brave. I remember telling a group of people in rehab one of my stories, that is very similar to yours, and I shook and cried the entire time. True healing begins when someone bears witness. You helped me and have helped me with your childhood stories. Somehow when the story is over, I end up not feeling so alone. I’ll always be grateful for that. Maybe one day I’ll get the chance to sit down and actually talk to you🧡 Until then, your resilience and your raw vulnerability is contagious. You should be so proud of yourself and all you’ve overcome!
Your story about your brother just broke my heart. It is good that you are sharing your stories, because it truly might help someone else who has had trauma. God bless you and your family Chynna 💗
All of our trials and hurts are for not for nothing. It’s hard to understand why God allows these things to happen to us but He can use them to conform us more into the image of His son. Once again, I am touched by your deep humility. You speak of fear but I see you standing up to it. You allow us to be encouraged by your weaknesses. It’s in our weakness that Jesus shows His strength. ♥️♥️♥️
Oh Chynna, that must have been so awful finding your little brother like that. It's good Mama Michelle cared so much for him and you. Jesus was guiding her, even if she didn't know it at the time. It's so difficult to have a parent who has to be a realist, like your mom, and one who always breaks your heart, like your dad. I care deeply about you and what you have gone through. I have had a lot of trauma, being bullied, losing a baby, having to settle for a master's degree instead of a doctorate I put in 6 years of work toward, and most of all, developing Congestive Heart Failure in 2018. I feel Jesus loves me no matter what. I have felt him in the hospital, in times when I cry.
Proverbs 19:1
Better is a poor person who walks in his integrity
than one who is crooked in speech and is a fool.
I LOVE this Proverb. It's like a holy "arrow" straight to the heart.
❤️❤️❤️😇
Amen 🙏😇🥰 ... As I get older (66) Vanity is not as important as my spiritual relationship with Christ and quality of life
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Chynna in the past three weeks in between watching California Preachin I have been dealing with a mother who does not take care of her three kids. She mistreats them. She drives up to 100 mph with them in her car. She talks about rapes and sex in front of them all day. the list is long. I talked to DHS Child protection but this woman has a relationship (maybe romantic) with this worker and this worker gets her off from the inside. HELP? these kids will be dead what do you do when the mother is unfit, abuses them, neglects them and the system is blocked from helping them. Help, what can I do?
As a teen in the 70's, I thought rock stars were so very glamorous. I was 20 when Papa John's book came out, which I snapped up immediately. By the time I finished reading it, I was truly horrified. The stark reality of the lives some rock people lead is nothing short of tragic.
Excellent book.
Exactly and that doesn’t touch the surface for many
So horrible for a child to be forced to witness such depravity. You are so strong and brave for sharing your personal stories with us.
I'm so glad you found Jesus. You will be used by God to be a witness to so many people including your family members.
Amen 🙏
Wow Chynna, such an honest and articulate back story, I was riveted.. Don't apologize for anything.
It's not an accident that I have discovered CalPreach at this most difficult part of my life, that seem to be parallelling yours. Thank you for sharing so openly. I do not relish having to tell anyone about my traumas, but see now that therapy is the way to go. Can't thank you enough.
How’s it going lately Elle?
My mother was not an addict but her father was. She was so messed up and mean her entire life. When she was dying, Hospice quit twice. Addiction hurts generations. Hang in there and be calm within yourself. You are loved. Peace of Christ.
Addiction is no joke and can have those generational effects. Thank you Chynna for having the courage and honesty to share this painful memory with us. You are definitely not alone.
Your momma could've benefitted from al-anon...im so sorry to know she passed...addiction is awful...I hurt so many people...
Oh Chynna you really struck a strong emotion in me with this video. My dad was an alcoholic and my mom was very verbally abusive to us 6 kids. Ill never forget failing my written drivers permit test and my dad cussing me out in the DMV and telling me how stupid I was in front of everyone.My sister and I cleaned the whole house one day when our parents were gone and when they got back our mom cussed us out because we hung her clothes up wrong.Like you there are many stories to tell. I looked for love in all the wrong places in my twenties but finally at 32 found a loving man and we got married and got baptized together and raised our 5 kids. I still have pain but have forgiven my parents and they actually taught me what not to do as a parent. Thank you and God bless you! Praying your broken pieces get put back together 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️
Sorry my dear, that that happened to you. I’ve had people say those same type of things to me, my mom especially but also many others. We just live in a very narcissistic abusive culture, for some reason. Such people should not have children, it wounds the child for life when they do that stuff. Anyway sorry again and i pray you have been able to forgive them and move on in life, for your own benefit
@@EphemeralProductions thank you. Same to you. Im sure God allows things for a reason and I believe it is so we can help others through things like Chynna is doing through her youtube channel.
@@jeanniejones4869 I hope you were able to overcome those early experiences and have surrounded yourself with loving, caring and supportive people. Sometimes we have to look for those outside our family and create a community of like minded souls 💕
@@EphemeralProductions I do pray that more than forgiveness, you’ve found true healing and ow have loving, arming people in your life 💕
@@FreedomofSpeech865 thank you and yes I have. And I am very close to my siblings as well 😍
Thinking of that child sitting on the floor hungry...😔
Thank God you and your mother were there to care for him.
Your honesty is so refreshing. God bless you China girl. ❤
I’m sorry that someone was offended by Holy Spirit Activate but I wanted you to know that I was having a day where I felt lonely so I was catching up on Cal Preach and I found myself singing it as loud as I could in my kitchen. So thank you 🙏🏼
Chynna--wow. Just wow. You are an absolute treasure of a person. Thank you for sharing something so hard. No child should have to endure the horrors of drugs, neglect, or abuse. I appreciate your struggle, vulnerability, and strength. I am praising God right now that Jesus chose you and saved you. You are my sister in Christ! God bless you.
Thank you for being so transparent. You are a woman of valor, an inspiration and are helping so many.
Chynna, you are so precious to God. You are such a blessing to everyone who watches this channel. I thank God for the platform he has given you. Your honesty is a sacrifice poured out to God. You are his beloved daughter. I love your boldness for him. You probably don't even see but others do.
My grandmother use to take care of kids and one girl she started sitting at 3 months old. The parents had Adopted her but had a trip planned. So they still went...duh, cause thats what you do.
Well my grandmother started watching her on a regular basis, usually over the weekend when they went to the lake on their boat. There were many time they would come to puck her up totally wasted. My grandmother would tell them, oh she just fell asleep can we just bring her home in the morning. The little girl(who i still know at 54) and i both respected grandma so much for doing that. Like your mother, it makes you look at them differently.
MONDAY MUNDY, GOOD FOR YOUR GRANDMOTHER. I ALWAYS SAID,SOME PEOPLE ARE NOT MEANT TO BE PARENTS( MY OPINION )
God Bless Your Grandmother.
Thank you both. Grandma Katie was everyone grandma. I could write a book on all the things she did. Kids and babies were everything to her. She raised 2 kids that my grandfather (loyal)had when he was in the army. He left her with 2 small kids in 1943 i think. 1946...47 and 48 he still hadn'tcome home yet. My grandmotherbecamefriendswith another man and her sister in law ended up hiring a private investor to find grandpa. They found him in Mississippi shaking up with a woman who at this point had 2 kids. He came back to az and back to grandma. The other man was a much better man but she stayed with the father of her kids.
Then she found out the woman in Mississippi put the boys she had up for adoption and skipped town. So grandma told Loyal to go get those babies. When he was walking up to the orphanage the oldest boy was on a trike out front...(and it had been over a year) he pointed thats my daddy. And it was. So my grandmother and grandfather adopted the 2 boys and she raised them as her own. I really didnt even know all of this until i was an adult.
I think people looked at life so much differently back then. My grandmother was born in denver and raised in the depression all over Colorado and Wyoming. They came to Arizona in 28 to warm up. Boy did they warm up. Some of the family moved to California, that was a smarter move in my opinion. Lol
@@studiokohl1 All I can say is WOW !! Blessings from Orange County. 🕊
Some adults just do great things to counteract other adults failures... Bless your grandma 🙏
I do not cry easily--seldom cry, but the story about your brother was heartbreaking.
Seeing her cry got me 💔😢
Wow did John phillips mess up so many people chynna you are wonderful and will make it please hold on to your family and especially billy
It is amazing all his children are close though.
Being a sensitive person is a precious gift, even though it is often looked at as being weak.
Your videos continue to help me. Thank you for sharing. 💖
Chynna, you are an amazing human being! I love your messages!
Oh Chynna, I feel like God was protecting you by allowing your father to leave you..I’m so happy you had your mother to love you and protect you and your little brother. Jesus (and your mother) SAVED you from so much more trauma. ❤️
I do too and he was protecting you from himself. 🥺❤️🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Yes! Hallelujah!
Your mother did not protect you don't believe it for a minute. I have yet to hear her apologize for anything and until she does your pain with endure.....
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Wow. I absolutely LOVE what you said that “trauma is really layered.” So deep and it gives us the opportunity to give ourselves grace. Jesus scoops us into His arms when we feel neglected and are hungry. He provides us sustenance and comfort when we feel so alone!
Chynna, I just wanted to say your heart illuminates so much goodness and kindness.
People will misunderstand your intentions but God never will!! Your story about your brother made me cry too. Therapy will bring up so much but don’t give up. We have to go through it to deal with it.
I LOVE “Holy Spirit Activate”. There will always be critics and self righteous judgers. Sing away.
I love it too.
I love that you sing, "Holy Spirit, Activate!" 🎉 We should all sing it all the time!!! God bless you, Chynna!
You are brave for sharing your struggles and sadness. You are a great role model for me. Thank you for showing your vulnerability and how you can survive.
So your childhood was like mine. Now imagine how many others shared the same childhood. It was a cultural hell our parents were in and the reasons and answers are complex. Education helps us understand snd survive it. Peace of Christ Chynna.
Yes, so many of us out there!!
Education and the Lord !! 🕊🎶
Chynna.....you have lived through some tough stuff..me too. You inspire me. I love you. and I'm going ro say it ................SHINING!!!! just amazing you are.
So I keep coming back to see more posts. The religious isn’t what draws me. It you sharing your truth and willing to be vulnerable. It helps. Thank you.
Same here, I love her honesty and openness. It is very healing.
Amen and Amen🙏🙏
@@FreedomofSpeech865 Jesus gave that to her
Same for me.
Her fame gives her this power she believes in Jesus Christ and still having her own focus on the word.
Thanks for sharing these difficult memories... Childhood trauma affects us our entire lives... therapy helps process our past...God bless you...
Thank God your mom watched over your little brother..there are so many children suffering similarly every day right now. I pray our precious Lord Jesus hold them and protect them 🙏
❤️ Singing “Holy Spirit Activate” energies me too. I catch myself singing it ❣️
Forget the haters, Holy Spirit Activate!!! 💯
Thank you, Chynna. I am binge watching all of your videos, which have me thinking about my walk with God. Also, I asked my doctor what the spots on my hands were. She said, “Here (in France) we call them cemetery flowers!”
Druggies should never be able to have children around them.
A lot of people shouldn't. Some are the people who look like solid citizens on the outside.
But "druggies" are also loved by God. They aren't a special kind of Unforgivable People. Everyone is trying is trying to fill that God-shaped hole. My Uncle overdosed and died, and was one of the people I loved the most in this world. The loss of so much potential sucks. I miss him. Because struggling with addiction was not what defined him.
@@amylh322 God bless you for these words. I truly believe drug addiction is a kind of mental illness. But I also believe that children should be protected from drug addicted people...their visits must be monitored. Just because the severely addicted r not rational at times.
I agree. But you can't legislate this. People are on drugs and this included prescription meds. There are even psych drugs that can cause rage and personality issues.
There is no easy answers.
Pray.
Why do they even want you to visit if this is what they are doing?
Thanks for sharing. I understand how childhood memories and or trauma can affect us as adults. We are all ahaped by the good & the bad.
you inspire me so much. you have been through so many trials and tribulations but still radiate so much love to the world. you have such a way with words - the way you described those scenarios, especially with your brother with the eggs and flour on the floor...my heart just broke, so totally. I know you say your intent is not to make us feel sorry for you. I don't. But you bringing it up makes me think of abuse/unkindness I experienced when I was a young child up until I was a young adult and still tolerating toxic behavior from people who knew better than to treat others like s***.
i know john made billions of people happy with his music but he left so much strife, misery and turmoil in his wake that people are still dealing years and years later. And it's not just him. i will never understand what makes people make such bad decisions that hurt so many of us well-meaning, benign people (especially when we are young, innocent children). I know people say "God only gives you what you can handle" but part of me thinks...why should we have to experience such bad things? Why?
Thank you Chynna for your honestly. Sorry I always write so much in your comments. On a happier note, I love your hair in the double buns!!! But you have the perfect, classic face shape that can rock any hair style and make it seem chic and effortless - super long, double bun, bowl cut, bangs and then no bangs. You lucky!! You got those supermodel features, girl!!
His word does not return void. Thank you for sharing. You are blessing!❤️
Holy Spirit activate song is cute. I do find myself singing it when I am low. Fill the void with God, even when you don't want to. That is a sincere prayer.
Your transparency is such a beautiful thing Chynna. You do help many being by just being you. That's why Jesus called you for such a time as this. God bless you sweet sister. You are beautiful!!!!!!!!🙏 ❤️🕊️🌹
Chynna, you have blessed my life. Chilly has made me laugh out loud and I love when you are on here together. Also, love the shows with Beckett Cook. Thanks for all of your sharing, very raw and real. Much love!
I can’t imagine having a beautiful daughter like Chynna & not giving her the love she needs 🥺 God Bless You! Thank You for being you & sharing your stories with us to break these cycles ✨🙏🏼✨
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I’m so amazed by you Chynna. I also had a traumatic life. My dad was mentally ill and I still have PTSD. I’m the one you mentioned who is sensitive and easily held to emotion. But I’m so grateful I have Christ. He is seeing me through and I keep remembering what you said FROG- you are beautiful Chynna! Thank you for this!
Chunks, I am a 67 yo man and I just want to tell you that your videos inspire me. I watched one recently where you talked about the strength of faith. My faith has always wavered and as a consequence made me doubt my salvation at times. What you said made me realize that my salvation is not based on the strength of my faith. It is based on the strength of the Blood of Jesus. It was a true ah-ha moment. Thank you for that. Blessings
I typed in Chynna... stupid spell check!
I felt physically sick to my stomach hearing about your brother going hungry. How aweful! Having a parent be so unreliable, irresponsible, and abusive is devastating. If anyone is watching this & you are experiencing this, as a child or a parent, please, please get help! Help is available! May all who suffer this way come to know their Lord & Saviour, Jesus Christ. He never leaves us alone in our suffering
I felt physically sick too.
That was so pitiful so glad you and mom walked in at the right time.
Thank you Jesus 🙌
Absolutely you can get help with child/ CPTSD from child hood trauma.💖
EMDR
Thru your bravery talking about your childhood , you are helping others, and it helps you to. You are a strong person!! You have beautiful children, a wonderful husband, an adorable doggie, and your faith in Jesus Christ!!! Keep being amazing!!
Thank you for sharing yourself so freely..Your messages are always beautifully transparent and truthful & you thoughtfulness to clarify your messages is second to none. God Bless❤️🙏🏻
You are strong and so honest. And you are touching more people than you know with sharing your experiences and overcoming. Your faith is so very uplifting. Please keep sharing🙌❣️
Love your truthfulness Chynna! God is amazing at healing and setting us free from past pain. He restores us!
Thank you for sharing! It means more than you know! ✝️
Dearest sister... You are gorgeous inside and out!!! You are His precious daughter. Such difficult memories come to us at different times. Out of no where we have a memory that is so painful it's imbedded. Through Christ, He has given us grace that is sufficient to handle it all!!! I must remember the good times and the blessings. He has sustained us and continues to walk with us on our way. He was always there, when we didn't feel close to Him. Thank you Jesus!!!
I must remind myself that His dying for us, means that we too will conquer death. Joy of everlasting life!! Amen, Amen , Amen
Death is swallowed up in victor un
O death, where is your victory?
O death, where is your sting?
Hugs to you sister Chy!!! Blessings in abundance I'm so grateful for you.
Holy Spirit activate, Holy Spirit activate..activate, activate 🙏🏻❤️
I love you so much Diane! 🌺
Chynna Phillips Baldwin love you too !!🌸
@@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin Where is the episode about John kidnapping his son? How is this boy/man doing in life now?
I love your honesty and vulnerability!! Thank you for all the little ways we can remember where we came from. Wishing you a miraculous day!!
Chynna...that story about your little brother is heartbreaking...I can understand your feeling this way & crying as you have in this video.It's okay to cry, Chynna. We are here for you. Know this. & so is God. You are a wonderful perfect human being- just remember that. There are some things within our control & others not. Keep expressing what's inside you as you have been doing here- the more you let out, the more you let go. the more you let go, the freer you will become. i'm sorry about Grandma Jacks- she seemed wonderful. I'm sorry too about the worries you've had over your boy's well being. I will keep praying with you over all of this. i have been watching your videos for a few months now & really feel for you. I enjoy how you make us all feel like part of your family by sharing your heart. That takes amazing courage. Love & Light always.
Your testimony will help someone in need❤️I love you for sharing your heart💖
One's personal testimony is a gift from God that we share with other when His Holy Spirit moves us to do so✝️💕
Your honesty is fearless and is helping to heal so many here. Thank you!
The Lord is giving you healing from these hurts. He loves us soooo much and wants to help us out of the chains that bind us. Cheering and praying for you♥️
Thank you for sharing your stories. We all have to wade through our experiences and traumas from childhood. I, too, had some experiences with traumatized me. It takes time and talking about these traumas to help you become centered and grounded. You are a good mom, wife, daughter and sister. Give yourself credit for living through your experiences and enjoy the family you have created with your husband. Live in the now and enjoy life. A year ago today my dad passed away. He was 88. He worked so hard to take care of our family. We were five kids, plus my maternal grandparents and parents. So, nine of us in a big house. Dad studied at night to earn his engineering degree. He designed a part of the guidance system that got the Apollo to the moon. From him I learned to study and work hard. Thanks dad. Thank you mom for choosing him. I miss him and his gentle voice and advice, especially in his final weeks. God bless you for working so hard to ground yourself. I love you too. Take care of yourself. 💞🙋🏻♀️🙏✝️
You’re helping people in so many ways, it was not my parents but my young adult kids father , I have so much empathy and love for you, thank you chynna.
God Bless your testimony! Your commitment to getting spiritually well is nothing short of a miracle!
You’ve created a platform of light and truth! Thank you for sharing your heart Chynna. I know we all have the light of Christ- the spirit of light and truth. When I hear or see acts of kindness and truth, the light of Christ witnesses to me that goodness, and I in turn want to be better! I don’t know why some people are born into challenges - but God knows. My heart hurts for that little girl that longed for a relationship with her dad, and you having to see what you saw regarding the drugs. You have gone through so much, but yet you are a shining example of light and goodness! You are loved Chynna! Keep shining bright for all the world to see❤️
So sorry that you and your brother had to go thru this. It's sad for families where there is drug addiction. It is especially sad for the children because their parents can't help themselves let alone their kids. It is good that your mother came thru or you and your brother.
Your hair looks so cute Chynna I'm so sorry the horror you went through
Bless u, Chynna...trauma is so difficult to navigate through. You are a trooper...and a fighter. 💜
I cried right along with you this morning. Thank you again for your honesty, and for sharing your most personal stories with us. I have related to many of your childhood stories, and share some similar ones....and unlike you, I have not been as brave as to share. God Bless you, Chynna! 🙏🏻❤️ Continued prayers for you, your son, and your family 🙏🏻
You are helping a lot of people by telling your story. It is honestly tear jerking....but I am so glad to hear your story. I knew you a long time ago in NYC. I thought u were so sweet and very kind and real...had no idea you had been though all this! I watch all your posts and yet I am not very religious. I just like your honesty with the real struggles....serious, funny, nutty, fantastic and refreshing! Also love it when you say Holy Spirit activate! Love it! Why not!? What is the harm! All good. Peace xo
Chyna your sister McKenzie came out with her story many years ago and the world supported her. Your trauma was paid for on the cross, you are still reliving some bits of this trauma, you deserve the respect and love of that little child that was so innocent. The Lord has given you a platform to the world, be kind to yourself you are loved.
Chynna I am jewely from Ojai...just found your channel...don’t know how I stumbled upon it...but your stories are FASCINATING in the searching of a path to healing I’m really proud of you for doing this work and self care.💕💕💕
Thank you 🙏 just said a little prayer for your peace tonight. Looooove Ojai! 🌈🌈🌈
Chynna, your honesty and baring your flaws helps me immensely. Knowing that such a lovely person as yourself, experiencing similar struggles and calamities, makes me feel not so bad...thank you for that! ❤️
Please never apologize for being raw and real. You sharing the trauma you experienced is inspiring because you have triumphed over your fears, misguidance of some of the adults in your childhood, and more. You are lovely. Peace of Christ!!! P.S. I love your alien hairdo. Too cute.
You are a very smart woman. To understand all of this at the age of 6 is amazing. What is amazing is that you went through all of this and became such a great person. You are an amazing Mom and give back to this world. So many girls lived your life of partying etc that is a part of life for a lot of girls. You rose above all of this. NOT to say that you do not need to release this now. You have buried all these emotions for the sake of others and now it's time for you to heal. The first step to healing is doing what you are doing now...you are releasing them and hey on top of it you are helping others in your journey. You are brave and care about others! God is smiling right now.
Chynna, I’m glad I tuned in. I’ve been in a very sad place and instead of connecting with you and others I’ve shut down and what a Cal preach for me to watch! I endured childhood trauma and I shut down, became stone. I’ve started Therapy and praise God, we are never to late to be healed. Oh, living in Florida I have old lady hands and they drive me crazy. I’m curious about what it entails.
It’s sounds like you might of gotten dsyregulated it’s especially common for people with CPTSD.💕✌️
Thank you Chynna for helping us release our traumas through your sharing of yours. God bless us all.
Dear Chynna, I just want to wrap you in a HUGE HUG! I know that it’s difficult for you to share certain situations from your past but know that you really are helping others when you do so. I’m incredibly sorry that you and your siblings had to be witness to... and experience in your life the demons of your father’s addictions; no child should ever be put in such a place. You know that God only gives us that which He knows we can handle and, I’m not trying to make less of your struggles or reality in any way... but I truly believe that your truth is not only a testament to the Christian being that you are, it’s also a testament to the strong and caring person that you are... and your tender heart. With every new episode of Cal Preach, not only are you growing in your faith and journey... you are also helping many of us grow in our faith and journey! I just love you, girl! Never apologize for bearing your heart and soul when your purpose for doing so is to unburden, release, grow, enlighten and help. You’re beautiful in every way! God Bless you and your family. ❤️ 🤗 🙏 🙌
I've watched several of your videos and have noticed that every so often you address something that someone is offended about. I appreciate your sensitivity, but I have to say, what in the world are people so offended about all the time? Here is this radiant woman who escaped so many of the pitfalls of the lives of celebrities, who survived her parent's drug abuse, abandonment, and the lies and abuses of Hollywood. Here she is beautiful and healing and telling the world about the mercies of a loving God. What in the world are you offended at, people? Thank you for these videos, Chynna, for being your real self, and for loving the Savior with such honesty. You inspire me. For real.
Such s wonderful comment.
God bless you too. Thank you sharing your journey of faith.
Love the powerful and radient light.
Raw and powerful testimony Chynna. You know that Jesus has gotcha covered...BTW, Holy Spirit activate fires me up so much, it gets me through tough times and helps my temperament. It's so uplifting! I'm not offended...I guess you can't please everybody 🤷
You are so sweet, don't feel embarrassed about your hands, for goodness sake, it's comforting to those of us who have body image issues to know we are not alone. Mine is my "turkey neck". We all have something. Thank you for sharing the hard stuff. You are helping people. Drug addiction is so damaging to everyone whose lives have intersected it. It knows no boundaries, rich, poor or in between. It is an equal opportunity destroyer. Praise God for His hand on your life. You were able to keep your children from such a life. You're a survivor! I cried right along with you. We have to help each other through this life in what ever way God directs us. God bless you, Sister in Christ. You're a blessing!❤
God bless you and continue to guide you on this beautiful path. So grateful for your raw honesty and trust in God. Keep California preaching, I LOVE it!
Yes .. you are Chynna .. a beautiful radiant light. Keep shining!! ⚡☀️🌞🌝⚡
Chynna, my Dad too was nonexistent my whole life & I felt like a person at the end of a runway examining & "choosing" which woman would be my next stepmom ! Awful childhood. But so thankful Jesus's love endured! God Bless you & Billy &.your families always!!🙏🙏💕 Peace in Christ
Bless you. I have been catching up and watching your videos so much since I lost my husband on Feb 28, 2022. Liver disease. 51 years old. He was a believer and loved Christ. You are inspiring. I have a distant connection to your family. I'm so happy for your faith and love of Jesus.
Chynna, once again...know this...your transparency is helping those that feel isolated by similar experiences. Thank you for sharing. This scripture came to my mind. 2 Corinthians 12:9. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
Thanks Teresa. Indeed!
That’s a great selection! 2Corinthians 12:9.
Thank you Chynna for just being YOU and for sharing and being vulnerable. I know you are helping people who are struggling(or who have struggled) with anything. Especially parents. You are an overcomer! Sending big hugs to you. This video was heartbreaking, but to see you dealing with your pain through the strength of Jesus is so encouraging. May God continue to bless your ministry and may He give you the peace that passes all understanding. And last, I think your look is adorable- love it❣️- and I also love your “Holy Spirit Activate” song. I sing it and smile. 🤗
Thank you for sharing these painful memories. You’re very beautiful- inside & out!
You are so kind, you help so many.
Chynna, wishing you PEACE for the past, STRENGTH to persevere and ALL your days filled with LOVE. Let’s keep going!! 😘 XO
Don't be embarrassed about your appearance on the outside. How we look on the inside is what matters and you shine of beauty. It is is very generous for you to share your painful memories. You are turning your pain into good for others by your sharing and that is beautiful too! A big hug from NY!!!
I just found your channel a couple days ago. I am completely smitten with your Christianity walk. I was raised by Christian family but strayed for many years. Now I am now 67 and am back. You are such a blessing to the world for this. Jesus will take care of Billy. I know your fear as if Jesus returns tomorrow my husband will be left behind. God will fix it when he is ready. Praise the Lord. Love you.
Hi Chynna. I was born and raised in California, now in Texas. I thank you for your transparency and am so sure you are helping so many individuals who may relate. I wish you the best always and thank you again.
I KNEW THAT HOLY SPIRIT COMPLAINT WAS COMING,THERE IS ALWAYS THAT ONE PERSON. WE KNOW YOUR HEART CHY AND COMPLETELY BELEIVE YOU. GOD BLESS!!!
Whew. Crying with you. So glad I found your channel. Thank you for being so open and honest❤️❤️❤️
Thanks for sharing, your strength is reassuring and encouraging.
Fear not.
Sometimes it’s scary how similar someone’s story is to yours. You’re so brave. I remember telling a group of people in rehab one of my stories, that is very similar to yours, and I shook and cried the entire time. True healing begins when someone bears witness.
You helped me and have helped me with your childhood stories. Somehow when the story is over, I end up not feeling so alone. I’ll always be grateful for that. Maybe one day I’ll get the chance to sit down and actually talk to you🧡 Until then, your resilience and your raw vulnerability is contagious. You should be so proud of yourself and all you’ve overcome!
Your story about your brother just broke my heart. It is good that you are sharing your stories, because it truly might help someone else who has had trauma. God bless you and your family Chynna 💗
God bless you! We love your vulnerability and honesty! Life has seasons and some are very hard.
All of our trials and hurts are for not for nothing. It’s hard to understand why God allows these things to happen to us but He can use them to conform us more into the image of His son. Once again, I am touched by your deep humility. You speak of fear but I see you standing up to it. You allow us to be encouraged by your weaknesses. It’s in our weakness that Jesus shows His strength. ♥️♥️♥️
❤ you & your message!! ❤ your relationship with GOD....i feel the same!!
Oh Chynna, that must have been so awful finding your little brother like that. It's good Mama Michelle cared so much for him and you. Jesus was guiding her, even if she didn't know it at the time. It's so difficult to have a parent who has to be a realist, like your mom, and one who always breaks your heart, like your dad. I care deeply about you and what you have gone through. I have had a lot of trauma, being bullied, losing a baby, having to settle for a master's degree instead of a doctorate I put in 6 years of work toward, and most of all, developing Congestive Heart Failure in 2018. I feel Jesus loves me no matter what. I have felt him in the hospital, in times when I cry.