Even after listening to this song a thousand times while animating, I still can’t get enough ❤️ It’s been a huge honor working with you and bringing Nesta to life!
@@Erlance This is wonderful and fully colored which must have took forever. And I love your art style and I have so many compliments but I don't know how to put them to words. You did an amazing job.
The drawing is so amazing!! You're so talented. Keep making your dreams come true. Have you ever read the series Legend by Marie Lu. It would be awesome if you would draw the characters from the series if Beth Crowley or another singer wrote a song about the book series, and make it seen like a movie. Just like this awesome video.
I love how you did not include Cassian and their romance. You just let the girl be by herself and made it abojt her. It's lovely to see that ypu saw Nesta's emotions and arc more important than the man.
Adding that romance to the story disappointed me, and establishing the third pairing made me drop the author at the end of this book. The story could have been much more interesting if it didn't try to stay bound to the genre of earlier books. Imagine if it focused on the trauma and the weird flashes of power instead, unpredictable but with the character trying to exploit them.
This song makes me think of how difficult is is for people to flee from their anxieties, depression, PTSDs, etc... I can understand how hard it is for those people to escape those mental blockages.
Climbing out of the hells our abusers did to us is meet with a cold look of "you should be over this by now" from society. We are told healing takes time, day by day, though we are always given less time to truly heal within society that's always moving forward. We will heal. We just need proper support, if we can find it, whatever it may be.
@@lora7418 I unfortunately endured 8 years of it. Even though it's been over 10 years since, I still have troubles at times. I just found out I have Adhd. Sad, instead of helping, they used it against me. I have a alright support group. I'm just grateful the beautiful people who have helped and gave me time to heal. Might never be fully, though with each breath I will my hearts wishes out and sometimes the universe answers. It's recognizing those answers, whatever it might be, that is somewhat tricky still.
Strike first Make it hurt When everyone assumes the worst I never have to say I'm sorry Spiteful Ruinous I'm all things you feared I was Another villain in your story You think that I'm a spitfire? You should Afraid you're on my bad side? That's good If I wanted to end you I could I could I'm sinking down If you only knew how hard it is For me to climb out I'm kicking and screaming But no one can hear me So what happens now? The shadows are creeping in I didn't ask for I didn't ask for this Cold rage Hides the shame Of images I can't escape Scars that live under the surface It's strange What I became When part of me was ripped away And replaced with something worthless You think that I'm a spitfire? You should Afraid you're on my bad side? That's good If I wanted to end you I could I could I'm sinking down If you only knew how hard it is For me to climb out I'm kicking and screaming But no one can hear me So what happens now? The shadows are creeping in I didn't ask for I didn't ask for this Take what's left Of my fractured heart Bloodstained 'cause The pieces are so sharp Take what's left Of my fractured heart Bloodstained 'cause The pieces are so sharp I'm sinking down If you only knew how hard it is For me to climb out I'm kicking and screaming But no one can hear me So what happens now? The shadows are creeping in I didn't ask for I didn't ask for this Never forget I didn't ask for this
@@iwillbejudge disregard my previous message, I just realized which series you were talking about. I HAVE read this one lmao, just not this book I don’t think
Seriously this song blows me away bc it fits my dnd character PERFECTLY. I can attach every single line to something in her backstory, her present, or my plans for her. She's a cleric of the Silver Flame so the fact that this character's flame is ALSO SILVER?? Wild. Just. Outstanding.
I've never known lyrics to relate so much, my partner agrees. Cried so much because I struggle to use words, and this explains everything and why I do the things I do. Thank-you for your music, you have helped me get through some terribly tough times.
i love how Cassian is present for a brief moment in this. he really stuck with Nesta through thick and thin, but let her figure it out on her own. everything about the lyrics & animation is absolutely stunning. very well done to everyone involved, and thank you for sharing. ❤️
This fits my current breakup with my daughter’s father too a T, the drowning feeling, the unexpected everything, the rage but then also the realization that I’m so much stronger, resilient, capable, and better than I ever knew.
This is absolutely beautiful, The art and music are incredible, the lyrics are so *good* "I didn't ask for this" The whole thing captures Nesta perfectly I can imagine her singing this one night when she finally reached a snapping point She's a badass, but none of its easy for her. She's so strong and has managed to make it through so much but because she has to, and you can feel it in every lyric This really is her song It's like a threat and a cry for help all at once I am absolutely in love with every part of this
Oh my goodness, I hardly had to listen to it once before adding it to my playlist of my absolute favorite songs. The song was absolutely beautiful, so emotional and, well, real. It was an amazing portrayal of how people who have been through traumatic events can fall deeper and deeper into a hole that nobody else can see. And the animation - simply amazing! Beth and Erlance, you’re both incredible. My favorite line was “When part of me was ripped away, and replaced with something worthless.” I thought this was one of the really raw moments of the song, where we get a true glimpse behind a cold, mean exterior to an insecure girl who thinks that she is a monster. I’ve never read this series, but now, i really want to!
Beautiful! You really write down Nesta in a song. I think her characters is one of the best, and the line about the villain in the story dang girl! Love your work!
That gave me chills, it was so beautiful and so perfect for Nesta's character in ACOSF. Another amazing piece that will be going on all of my playlists!! The chorus is my favorite part, it's so haunting and breathtaking. Amazing work!! and the art is SOOOO pretty too!!
How could anyone not love Beth , She's so kind and beautiful. If I was her lover, I'd be shaking my head everyday and asking myself. What's my beautiful lady's creations of the mind thinking 🤔 about today ? 🤔 There's no doubt here ..Beth is one beautiful person...LUCKY DOG
I read A Court of SIlver Flames a few weeks ago. Nesta is my fav Character and I also love Cassian. I was in love with the 5th part and I'm so happy that I've found this.
I've been waiting for this song since you hinted about it in one of your videos! This is absolutely perfect, and it describes Nesta and her trauma really well. She was thrown in to a horrible situation, and she couldn't figure out how to deal with it. She never asked for it.
I actually went and bought this book series after hearing this song and seeing this video. You are an awesome singer and songwriter. Thank you for turning me on to a new author.
I love it! another epic song by Beth Crowley. I'm in tears after listening. I love and hate Nesta but this song is so Accurate. I learned to love her in A Court of Silver Flames and this song reminds me of all the reasons she is such a great character.
This song is so beautiful, I just love the overall mood which the animation captured PERFECTLY! Such an awesome collaboration deserves all the love, just a big compliment to both of you. I hope to see more of this combination in the future ❤
This is absolutely the best song I have ever heard that describes my current self with my narcissistic husband. Although extremely painful for me in my present situation, you did an absolutely amazing job with this song and Shelly incorporating the amazing animated video! I relate to this song 100% nowadays and keep rewatching it for a bit of comfort as I do with most of your songs. Thank you so much for your music. Be very proud of the gift you share with the rest of us out here, your music accomplishments are valued Beth. Blessings to you dear and thank you. 🙏😇💝❣
This song actually matches one of my own characters. She’s a wolf called Asrani who was cruelly traumatised by her own best friend who almost killed her when he wanted to be Beta of their pack. She survived but became selectively mute due to the trauma. Her ex-friend planned to exile her after their pack turned on her and made her feel worthless but she left before he could and became a loner, where she quickly learned that it was either kill or be killed. She earned a reputation of being a merciless serial killer known as the “Shadow Bandit”. Later on, when she has found family in her new friends, they find out about her old reputation and they are shocked. Getting defensive, Asrani gives them the cold shoulder for a while until her mate, Faith (yes, she’s a lesbian), talks to her and Asrani says “They seem to forget I never asked for this. I didn’t have a choice.” All I can see when I hear this song, is my character.
@@AubreyFaye Good news! I have turned the roleplay where Asrani is from into 4 books. Currently in the process of writing book one - I will link it here when I've finished it
I just found this song and I immediately started creating a dance to it just naturally. I’ve replayed it 5 times and now I’m continuing to do it again. This is such an amazing song and I absolutely love it! Thank you for this song that speaks so dearly to my soul. ❤️
Wow, I somehow only discovered this amazing song and animation now but boy am I glad I found it!!!! This is fantastic!!! Great lyrics, incredible music, and some really talented animating!!! Great job to both of you!!!! Thank you for gifting this to the world
Such an amazing song !!! So meaningful and personal, it reminds me of my D&D character which makes me relate to this song. One of my favourites, amazing job
Even after listening to this song a thousand times while animating, I still can’t get enough ❤️ It’s been a huge honor working with you and bringing Nesta to life!
thank you for animating! you did a wonderful job, it looks absolutely stunning 💗
@@aliight Thank you! 🥰
@@Erlance This is wonderful and fully colored which must have took forever. And I love your art style and I have so many compliments but I don't know how to put them to words. You did an amazing job.
@@elcat2577 Thank you so much!❤️
The drawing is so amazing!! You're so talented. Keep making your dreams come true. Have you ever read the series Legend by Marie Lu. It would be awesome if you would draw the characters from the series if Beth Crowley or another singer wrote a song about the book series, and make it seen like a movie. Just like this awesome video.
I love that you can see
Cassian sitting on the rooftop with the lyrics "kicking and screaming but no one can hear me"- perfect placing!
This is gorgeous.
My favorite line is "Take what's left of my fractured heart; blood stained cause the pieces are so sharp."
Same!
💯
This played when I read this.
and how the heart begins to BEAT in time with the song! Masterfully done!!
I read this as it played....
I love that she says "I'm kicking and screaming, but no one can hear me", but doesn't realize Cassian is on the roof
I love how you did not include Cassian and their romance. You just let the girl be by herself and made it abojt her. It's lovely to see that ypu saw Nesta's emotions and arc more important than the man.
Cassian is on the roof...
Adding that romance to the story disappointed me, and establishing the third pairing made me drop the author at the end of this book. The story could have been much more interesting if it didn't try to stay bound to the genre of earlier books. Imagine if it focused on the trauma and the weird flashes of power instead, unpredictable but with the character trying to exploit them.
I put this on and my two year old sister just went from crying to completely silent, I am in awe.
Even she knows what a good song sounds like. 🥰🥰🥰
This song makes me think of how difficult is is for people to flee from their anxieties, depression, PTSDs, etc... I can understand how hard it is for those people to escape those mental blockages.
It is
Climbing out of the hells our abusers did to us is meet with a cold look of "you should be over this by now" from society. We are told healing takes time, day by day, though we are always given less time to truly heal within society that's always moving forward. We will heal. We just need proper support, if we can find it, whatever it may be.
I agree. That's my first thought -- PTSD and trauma from narcissistic abuse. It's very real. No one deserves this.
@@lora7418 I unfortunately endured 8 years of it. Even though it's been over 10 years since, I still have troubles at times. I just found out I have Adhd. Sad, instead of helping, they used it against me. I have a alright support group. I'm just grateful the beautiful people who have helped and gave me time to heal. Might never be fully, though with each breath I will my hearts wishes out and sometimes the universe answers. It's recognizing those answers, whatever it might be, that is somewhat tricky still.
I don't know what I love more; the song, the animated music video or the fact that it's based on a book
Strike first
Make it hurt
When everyone assumes the worst
I never have to say I'm sorry
Spiteful
Ruinous
I'm all things you feared I was
Another villain in your story
You think that I'm a spitfire?
You should
Afraid you're on my bad side?
That's good
If I wanted to end you
I could
I could
I'm sinking down
If you only knew how hard it is
For me to climb out
I'm kicking and screaming
But no one can hear me
So what happens now?
The shadows are creeping in
I didn't ask for
I didn't ask for this
Cold rage
Hides the shame
Of images I can't escape
Scars that live under the surface
It's strange
What I became
When part of me was ripped away
And replaced with something worthless
You think that I'm a spitfire?
You should
Afraid you're on my bad side?
That's good
If I wanted to end you
I could
I could
I'm sinking down
If you only knew how hard it is
For me to climb out
I'm kicking and screaming
But no one can hear me
So what happens now?
The shadows are creeping in
I didn't ask for
I didn't ask for this
Take what's left
Of my fractured heart
Bloodstained 'cause
The pieces are so sharp
Take what's left
Of my fractured heart
Bloodstained 'cause
The pieces are so sharp
I'm sinking down
If you only knew how hard it is
For me to climb out
I'm kicking and screaming
But no one can hear me
So what happens now?
The shadows are creeping in
I didn't ask for
I didn't ask for this
Never forget
I didn't ask for this
Thankkk uuu :)
thank you so much
Dang Beth Crowley has done it again an epic song based on a book that I am now aching to read
I've never read this book, but the song & the video are great!
The court series is amazing, I also recommend it's counterpart A Throne of Glass
@@iwillbejudge Throne of Glass is one of my favorite series; I’ll definitely have to check this one out! Sarah J. Maas is a SPECTACULAR author!
@@iwillbejudge disregard my previous message, I just realized which series you were talking about. I HAVE read this one lmao, just not this book I don’t think
@@iwillbejudge Rhysand always made me think of Hades: Misjudged and just looking for love. (VERY simplified version of Rhys’ character, but still)
@@TrisFireblood aaaaaaaaaaaaand he has two brothers!
Nesta is my favourite character. I saw myself in her throughout the final book. Most underrated character imo.
Seriously this song blows me away bc it fits my dnd character PERFECTLY. I can attach every single line to something in her backstory, her present, or my plans for her. She's a cleric of the Silver Flame so the fact that this character's flame is ALSO SILVER?? Wild. Just. Outstanding.
That's awsome that you can see how it fits your character!
Nesta is by far my fav acotar character i love her sm!!
I've never known lyrics to relate so much, my partner agrees.
Cried so much because I struggle to use words, and this explains everything and why I do the things I do.
Thank-you for your music, you have helped me get through some terribly tough times.
how is she so unpopular?
i just LOVE HER
i love how Cassian is present for a brief moment in this. he really stuck with Nesta through thick and thin, but let her figure it out on her own. everything about the lyrics & animation is absolutely stunning. very well done to everyone involved, and thank you for sharing. ❤️
Wow, wow, wow, wow, wow. Blown away how a story is told in a few minutes. You've done the work justice.
💫
This fits my current breakup with my daughter’s father too a T, the drowning feeling, the unexpected everything, the rage but then also the realization that I’m so much stronger, resilient, capable, and better than I ever knew.
It's perfect!! The animation works so well with the song, amazing job!!
I love that Cassian is on the roof ♡
Perfect song for the Villain Era that is starting. I always love your music and now I really want to read the book.
A RWBY fan? Noice!!
This is absolutely beautiful,
The art and music are incredible, the lyrics are so *good*
"I didn't ask for this"
The whole thing captures Nesta perfectly
I can imagine her singing this one night when she finally reached a snapping point
She's a badass, but none of its easy for her. She's so strong and has managed to make it through so much but because she has to, and you can feel it in every lyric
This really is her song
It's like a threat and a cry for help all at once
I am absolutely in love with every part of this
Oh my goodness, I hardly had to listen to it once before adding it to my playlist of my absolute favorite songs.
The song was absolutely beautiful, so emotional and, well, real. It was an amazing portrayal of how people who have been through traumatic events can fall deeper and deeper into a hole that nobody else can see. And the animation - simply amazing! Beth and Erlance, you’re both incredible.
My favorite line was “When part of me was ripped away, and replaced with something worthless.” I thought this was one of the really raw moments of the song, where we get a true glimpse behind a cold, mean exterior to an insecure girl who thinks that she is a monster.
I’ve never read this series, but now, i really want to!
I love the part where she says "but no one can hear me" and the illustration is Casiano on the roof
Beautiful! You really write down Nesta in a song. I think her characters is one of the best, and the line about the villain in the story dang girl! Love your work!
That gave me chills, it was so beautiful and so perfect for Nesta's character in ACOSF. Another amazing piece that will be going on all of my playlists!! The chorus is my favorite part, it's so haunting and breathtaking. Amazing work!! and the art is SOOOO pretty too!!
How could anyone not love Beth , She's so kind and beautiful. If I was her lover, I'd be shaking my head everyday and asking myself. What's my beautiful lady's creations of the mind thinking 🤔 about today ? 🤔 There's no doubt here ..Beth is one beautiful person...LUCKY DOG
I read A Court of SIlver Flames a few weeks ago. Nesta is my fav Character and I also love Cassian. I was in love with the 5th part and I'm so happy that I've found this.
I've been waiting for this song since you hinted about it in one of your videos! This is absolutely perfect, and it describes Nesta and her trauma really well. She was thrown in to a horrible situation, and she couldn't figure out how to deal with it. She never asked for it.
Your songs like these always make me want to read the books they’re based on
Same!!
You should they are so amazing
This is me..... thank you for showing others in a beautiful way
wow..just in awe with all of beth crowley's song. I wish there were one on The Cruel Prince series
@@isthissomegoodemotionaldamage actually I didn't, thanks for it
this fits perfectly!! I haven't read Nestas book yet but now I'm even more determined to do so!!
Now is a good time to read it
@@fallenroseknight8238 absolutely!!
this book, its really great 😭😭😭
I love Nesta and relate to much to her story. Thank you for this.
you should have so many more subscribers, your songs keep me going in times when i just want to give up.
I feel the exact same way ...Beth Crowley helps empower me and gives me the strength to pull through whatever life throws at me
I found this song a week ago and it’s been stuck in my head ever since.
I actually went and bought this book series after hearing this song and seeing this video. You are an awesome singer and songwriter. Thank you for turning me on to a new author.
Your music is a work of art.
And your voice is so beautiful.
Never stop
Dealing with a narcissistic. Your music is a lifesaver.
Honestly this song just represents me. Like I just can't stop wanting to scream in the real world, but this song just screams for me, mentally.
I love it! another epic song by Beth Crowley. I'm in tears after listening. I love and hate Nesta but this song is so Accurate. I learned to love her in A Court of Silver Flames and this song reminds me of all the reasons she is such a great character.
One of us!! I Love this song and this series!!!! This animation is beautiful and this song. I'm I love with this whole thing
My favorite singer out there hands down on all songs!
Omg I just finished reading the book last week this is such good timing and it's Beth Crowley!!!!!!!!!
I just finished this series and I'm so obsessed! This fits so perfectly to her story ❤
Awwww Nesta!! Lovely song and animation!
i'm so glad youtube randomly reccomended you, you've such good character songs
"Take what's left of my fractured heart" hits so hard😩❤️
Screaming right now, this is perfect for Nesta!
Going to go reread the series for a third time. This song is amazing!!!! Honestly my favorite books
"I Didn't Ask For This" is definitely one of my favorite songs that I have written Beth. Luv u and ur music❤
This deserves so many more views, it's an incredible song and beautiful animation work.
Oooooh Im a big fan of Tamlin and nesta they are my most fave characters THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS A AMAZING MUSIC VIDEO!!!
still cant get enough... AMAZING VIDEO ANIMATIONS AND GREAT LYRICS
This song is so beautiful, I just love the overall mood which the animation captured PERFECTLY! Such an awesome collaboration deserves all the love, just a big compliment to both of you. I hope to see more of this combination in the future ❤
This is absolutely the best song I have ever heard that describes my current self with my narcissistic husband. Although extremely painful for me in my present situation, you did an absolutely amazing job with this song and Shelly incorporating the amazing animated video! I relate to this song 100% nowadays and keep rewatching it for a bit of comfort as I do with most of your songs. Thank you so much for your music. Be very proud of the gift you share with the rest of us out here, your music accomplishments are valued Beth. Blessings to you dear and thank you. 🙏😇💝❣
I really wish i had the money to buy this book now! This sounds so good!
Don't mind me, just admiring this new masterpiece 😍
This is such a good song!!! I never read the books, but the animation is amazing and it's definitely one of my new favorite songs:)
I love the little nod to Cassian without making it about him and letting it be her story!!!!❤❤❤
This song actually matches one of my own characters. She’s a wolf called Asrani who was cruelly traumatised by her own best friend who almost killed her when he wanted to be Beta of their pack. She survived but became selectively mute due to the trauma. Her ex-friend planned to exile her after their pack turned on her and made her feel worthless but she left before he could and became a loner, where she quickly learned that it was either kill or be killed. She earned a reputation of being a merciless serial killer known as the “Shadow Bandit”. Later on, when she has found family in her new friends, they find out about her old reputation and they are shocked. Getting defensive, Asrani gives them the cold shoulder for a while until her mate, Faith (yes, she’s a lesbian), talks to her and Asrani says “They seem to forget I never asked for this. I didn’t have a choice.” All I can see when I hear this song, is my character.
That actually sounds really cool plus it's gay, that's always a bonus
Is this an actual book? I'd love to read it; it sounds like a great read.
I’d also love to read this
@@angelcalderon7456 It’s not a book, unfortunately, but I might just turn into one now since people want to read it :)
@@AubreyFaye Good news! I have turned the roleplay where Asrani is from into 4 books. Currently in the process of writing book one - I will link it here when I've finished it
The animation, the song everything is perfect ! Thank you both so much !
I love your music and her books. It' s a marriage made in heaven. Love from Portugal !
"I didn't ask for this"
As a trauma victim truest comment ever
Trauma survivor not victim ❤
@@temporaryamusement3936 you know- that is the most comforting thing I've ever heard
This is sooo goood!!!! The lyrics fit Nesta perfectly 😍🖤🖤
I love this. While watching this, I was kind of expecting to see Cas's hands coming up to cup hers as she held her cracked heart in her hands
Omg, this is amazing, literal perfection. The music, the lyrics, the art!! Congrats to you both for making something so breathtakingly beautiful ❤
It describes my feelings almost exactly! Thanks for giving voice to my unspoken emotions!
I´ve been listening for 3 days non-stop and I love it so so much!!!!
My Nesta Archeron this video is amazing 🥰😍
Crying because Nesta is my favorite character and this is a MASTERPIECE. ❤️
if this song isn't used in the real life adaptation, I'm gonna be very upset... it's amazing!!!!
oh my god, i am crying thank you for this 😭😭😭😭
The song is beautiful and the animations are amazing! They fit together so well, this should go viral!
Amazing song and wonderful animation! Now I have to read that book
Amazing, beautiful words and music.waiting for more like this.
I just found this song and I immediately started creating a dance to it just naturally. I’ve replayed it 5 times and now I’m continuing to do it again. This is such an amazing song and I absolutely love it! Thank you for this song that speaks so dearly to my soul. ❤️
This is so fitting of how I feel right now. Really awesome song and animation
Wow, She did an Amazing job!😍
Words cannot express how much I love this. Just one little thing. I wanted more Cassian ;)
This animation is Amazing!
OMG THE ANIMATION AND THE SONG ITS SOOO GOOODDD
Am I the only one who found this song and listens to it on repeat
Another banger by Beth crowley
OMG! It's so cool and sensitive... I almost cryyy
I can’t wait to watch this!
Not even done but so many thoughts
I love the chorus so much and the entire thing is amazing
Wow, I somehow only discovered this amazing song and animation now but boy am I glad I found it!!!! This is fantastic!!! Great lyrics, incredible music, and some really talented animating!!! Great job to both of you!!!! Thank you for gifting this to the world
I have never read the book series. But the song and animation is beautiful and amazing work.
you make me wanna read a series I have never heard off in just one song
I guess I don't even have to say that this is perfect, right? ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I read the whole series!!! I loved it!!! Thank you for making this!!!
Never heard of this show/movie before now, but this song has my interest in it.
Yep yep yep .....
I dig this song u can dance to as well.well written thank you Ms. Crowely yes maybe a pun thrown in side this message
This song makes me want to like Nesta, instead of hate her. Wonderful job!
I’ve been waiting forever for this song!! I’m so excited!
Such an amazing song !!!
So meaningful and personal, it reminds me of my D&D character which makes me relate to this song.
One of my favourites, amazing job
Amazing when she turrns gold I love this
I needed a new Beth Crowley song to play on repeat while studying for Step 2. Storm Chaser, In the End, and Was it Just Me got me through Step 1
Blessings to you Beth such beautiful music!