Hey so .. I get this question A LOT 🙂 I named my daughter the foster parents did not. They would only be allowed to change her name if they adopted her 🙂
It is crazy how things differ from state to state. I'm in Kansas and I took in an orphaned teen and the state had her severed from her first son by four months old. I am a Florida girl and never seen anything like it. She was staying with me and they made her get her own place and then grabbed the baby literally the first day. Your beautiful story always makes me smile. I know how hard it was for you, but you got your miracle and I think because your helping people eh I don't know what I am on about. You rock. Also, please talk about in one video, what you did to get your girl home. So many people will miss a visit with their kiddo, you shouldn't ever miss a scheduled visit.
I remember when I was pregnant with my first child I was terrified of postpartum depression. I told my husband that if I ever called him at work and sounded strange, he had to come home, or if I acted like I no longer wanted to be alive, he had to take me to a hospital, or if I made any remarks about hurting myself or the baby, he had to take me to the hospital immediately. I have suffered with depression for many years and I knew there was a chance that I would have PPD. And I did- for the first five months of the baby’s life. Fortunately, it never got so severe that I needed to be hospitalized, but I think that we as women need to make it safe for other women to say “I’m not okay.” We all think that having a baby is going to be this monumental occasion that is joyful and exciting, but for so many women, it just isn’t. I don’t have a problem being completely open and honest about what I’m going through or about what I’m scared of, but I know that it doesn’t work that way for everyone and that is why it is so important to me that I am always listening when people are talking. They just might say something that lets me know they’re hurting and if I can help them, that’s what I want to do. Women need to be supporting other women, not tearing them down and judging them because they’re not over the moon about the birth of their child.
I hated being pregnant and my son and I almost died at birth 😑 But I love my son forever and a day 💖💖💖💖💖 I just wish the experience would have been happier for me. I also divorced my husband when my son was 6 weeks old so that also made stuff harder. But life is good now! Totally agree with you! 😊
CEDL4072 I hated pregnancy so much! And so many women would look at me like I had horns if I told them that I didn’t enjoy being pregnant. I did find out through my own honesty, that a lot of the women around me hated being pregnant but they were afraid to say it because of the judgement they would face! I’ve been pregnant three times and carried two babies to term, but I hated it all three times. I am so thankful for my children. I love them more than I can explain, but carrying them for 40 weeks was a lot! 😆
I just saw your pregnant in prison video on your friends channel. You really inspired me girl. I'll remember your story forever. After hearing how you turned your life around, I know that no matter what happens to me, I can get through it.
We will be alive if we would have enough to die I’ll die no yeah yeah oh I wouldn’t know I’ll be a dirt hello can one one one one one one one one one one one one I’m about to die because I’m not just call my mom
I just finished a training last month called “trauma informed care” so that I could learn more how to care for patients who’ve endured trauma and learn how the affects their behavior. The part of your story when you reacted to the nurse is so understandable but also so sad. You’re so strong and I love your story.
You've been through a lot sweet girl. I don't know you but I feel proud of you, for what you overcame and for where you are now. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️
A warm lead to throw on my room it’s a cylinder your new new new new new no no no no no no no no no no yeah yeah mint Hill I just let you know or meant do you like the song Miss Lester serviced invited her so yeah oh and thanks Cara nice to think like were going but I’m on my
I’m only 14 and I love your channel so much. Your personality is awesome and your story is so strong and motivating! I feel as though your helping me by giving me advice. Thank you so much.
Love that you talked about PPD. When I had my daughter, I literally didn't sleep for 4-5 days at a time, I had no appetite, I was paranoid something would happen to her if I wasn't holding her. I was ashamed, because I thought I was wasn't "parenting the right way" and I didn't tell my doctor until almost a year later when I was at my breaking point. Ppd is very real & definitely don't be ashamed to ask for help! My daughter's first year of life is like a blur to me because I was always SO out of it....I wouldn't even sleep when she slept, in case something happened. It was unhealthy, I wish I knew PPD was a thing when I had her (13 years ago).
It’s a let them bother big big big big big big big big big big big big big big big big pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig keep keep keep keep keep keep keep keep you give me give me give me until I can get a little
I’m so happy for you. Your videos are something I WAIT FOR & cannot get enough of. You have NO idea what you have done for my & my mental heath. I love you 💕
You are an amazing mother! I have a 6 month old and have cried non stop watching your videos about pregnancy. I don't personally struggle with addiction but it runs in my veins and I watch so much of my family struggle. Watching your life after recovery is so inspiring. 💜
I was raised that way too and it was horrible! I was 21 yrs old with my first and 31 yrs old with my 2nd and I was afraid to tell my family..was on my own and everything and was terrified to them...my girls will have to feel that way, ever!
You’re amazing. Your family is amazing. I am SO happy and thankful you’ve chosen to share your life with us. Micah and Riely are absolutely beautiful. Love you lots 💜💜💜
I love watching you talk about your love for your children. Every video I think about what an inspiration you are. I cannot imagine the PTSD you felt, but it's great that you identified the issue. I love what you said about PPD. I never had it, but was very sleep deprived at the beginning with my second and I felt guilty because I was exhausted and wanted a break. Thankfully, I have a good support system...and baby started sleeping! There is no shame in PPD!
I just wanted to say, from the bottom of my heart, you’re incredibly brave to share your story online. I’m sure you get some nasty and unnecessary comments... ignore them. Easier said than done, of course but your story is truly inspiring and simply incredible. I cannot imagine having my baby taken from me just 48 hours after her birth. That’s traumatic and honestly inhumane. You’re a strong mama and you’ve raised some amazing girls who are destined to do great things, like their mom. 💖 I know Christina mentioned due to a charge of hers she cannot go into a prison for motivational speeches. I’m not sure if it’s the same for you, but if you can do it. People need to hear your story and know that they too can beat the odds and not be a statistic with some hard work and self love. 👏🏼🙌🏼
U look beautiful Jess! 💃I immediately fell in luv with ur story and channel after watching u on Christina's channel u r soo deserving of ur beautiful family!! Ty for always encouraging us to stay sober at the end💖I'm 225 days clean and feel amazing . Looking forward to the next vid💯
Thank You for sharing an emotionally difficult story...It still breaks my heart thinking how awful your first birth experience was in prison. However they are both now a Blessing beyond compare! Although it’s not remotely the same as having a baby while incarcerated...I too had 2 polar opposite birth stories. When I was younger I had a baby whom I gave up for adoption. Because I was so young, emotional & afraid it was a much different feeling than when I had my son as an adult. No pregnancy is easy or the same. But motherhood is most definitely the GREATEST gift. (Also: I was BLESSED to be a part of my daughters life with an open adoption. Although I didn’t raise her she is part of my family too!) Thank You again for being you. 💜🙏🏻
Binge watching you since i found you through Peter the other day!! You have really changed the way i think of myself and my past and my addiction in only a few days!! I am loving you so much Jess!
When you mentioned how sweet Micah is to Riley- kids are little mirrors of their parents and it shows how gentle and kind of a mother you are that Micah takes that and imitates it in her life too. You are doing amazing mama 😫🥰🙏🏻💜💖
Thank you for sharing. My friend and her husband are foster parents and although they love every child they help, they are heartbroken for the parents. So inspiring to hear your story 💕💕 PS I'd love to hear more about your experience with postpartum depression. I dont think I'd ever get bored of hearing your stories 😊
Love your vids girl. I can so relate. I understand that feeling! The *My life is over because I'm pregnant feeling.* I also grew up in a town a lot like the one you explained at the beginning. Proud of you for getting out of it, because it's just BS.
My oldest daughter Bella(14) taught me responsibility and my second daughter Savannah(11) taught me patience. My twins (Adella and Lilianna) was like a whole knew experience from pregnancy to birth and they're 6yo and learning lessons from them each day!!
Girl I was 20 when I had my daughter and I felt like my world was ending bc of the way I grew up too. My folks made their own pregnancies look horrible you know? But when you meet that baby something in you changes. You and I have so much in common that way. Glad we both overcame the negativity we had from how we were brought up!
Theres a lot of liability (any nurse) as a labor/delivery and postpartum nurse. Thats why they check and assess so much. Theres many unwanted complications after pregnancy and theyre just doing there job. I understand it is irritating at times but any complications we didn't assess comes down to us at the end.
She did not tell her important and great story because some nurse might be offended, but because Jess' reaction is very important part of the whole development of this unique story.
As human beings we rarely feel one emotion at a time. I don’t know even one new mother that felt only joy, it’s a wonderful, stressful, beautiful, chaotic time and it’s okay to feel all of it.
I love the way you tell stories so much, I could literally listen to you tell a story about grocery shopping and it’d be entertaining to me 😂💞💞 I have so much support and love for you and your amazing family and story !!
You're such a role model for everyone, thank you so much for sharing this. I'm not even a mum yet but I love hearing your story. You've come such a long way and I'm so freaking proud of you. You go Jessica! Love you, stay sober and cool, you're the best
im new to your channel. I am binge watching all your videos. Im in Australia. My dad has passed away. He was a CO. He was involved in the Fremantle Riot 1987. He was a prosecutor so was hated by prisoners. However the top dog protected my dad. My dad was old school. He treated the prisoners not the best. I can now understand more of his life behind the bars at work. Jess you are a inspiration. Keep being you.
Oh man. When you said “she basically cried for a year straight.” I felt that shit in my soul. My firstborn was the happiest, healthiest, easiest baby. He cried almost never, and was the sweetest, smiliest, cuddliest baby. Fast forward 8 years to #2... a month in the NICU, GERD/reflux, colic, never sleeps, cries constantly unless I have her in the ring sling and we’re walking around (which works about half the time. as long as I never stop moving). Post partum depression was INTENSE. Thank God mine was never directed at the baby (not for any reason other than I don’t think I could have handled the guilt of that) but I spent months in constant tears, hating and doubting myself, with intense suicidal ideation. And the worst part was, I couldn’t reach out for help... because I’m in recovery (despite having 2 years clean before even getting pregnant, I was in a program, so it didn’t matter) I had DCF up my ass 24/7 and was told that any reason I gave them (including PPD) would prolong their involvement and make things worse. I never understood that... I was not in active addiction at any point during my pregnancy. Never tested positive for ANYTHING. Idk why they got involved. But... my daughter is 11 months old now. Her birthday is next month, and things are so, SO good now. She’s a happy, brilliant little girl who lights up my whole world. We got through every curveball life lobbed our way, and so can anyone else who is struggling! Thanks for sharing your story. Much love to you and your family.
Mama Friend I’m so sorry for what you had to go through, but I’m so glad that you have come through it as a stronger and better person, living a happy life. While I can somewhat understand CPS being involved initially, as I know they see the worst case scenario on a regular basis and they try to avoid another child going through that, I think that it is SO beyond wrong to essentially shame and punish anyone for seeking treatment for mental illness. If anything, seeking treatment should be seen as an amazing thing, something that would demonstrate that you WERE a responsible parent looking out for your and your child’s health and wellbeing, rather than ignoring it and allowing it to turn into something far worse (the very things CPS should be trying to prevent). For you to feel like you didn’t have the freedom to get help because they essentially threatened to further tie up your parental rights/freedoms is appalling, and I am so sorry you were treated that way. Seeking help should ALWAYS be seen as a sign of strength, not a weakness. CPS essentially created an even more dangerous situation by preventing you from getting help, rather than encouraging you to get help in order to keep your child living in the safest possible environment with a parent of sound mind. I’m glad that you were able to make it through that extremely hard time despite not having the help you needed and deserved, and I’m glad that your story ended up with a happy ending, especially since things could have gone very differently when untreated PPD is involved. I wish you and your family the best. May God bless you! 😊💕
I love getting those little moments with my man too!!! I had a c section so he was the first to hold my twins and when I looked over and saw him holding them for the first time I just about died. I was so thankful. I'm so glad you got to experience such a peaceful birth.
New follower here! I'm so glad to see where you've come in your story and how you're helping others by sharing the not so pretty parts. You're an inspiration😘
I literally am great with words but my happiness for you for an amazing experience and receiving the ultimate blessing of pregnancy and a child im just speechless. Just so beyond happy for you and your family .... What a great blessing and almost the ultimate reward for you having the courage to get clean and stay clean
Your so real. Love it. Yes it’s not all peaches and cream like the world makes it look. I had a 14 month crier. It puts postpartum on a whole other level.
Been binge watching your videos for the past day. Amazing how you overcame all the crazy events and ended up coming up on top. It would be great if you can turn your story into a novel or autobiography.
Beautiful story, beautiful family and beautiful victory! Congratulations on all you have overcome, God has a wonderful plan for your life. “Micah changed your life and Riley is going to change your heart.” Those are such beautiful words for your daughters to carry with them. I saw in another video you said “Riley healed my heart”. God is so gracious to give us just what we need to help heal our trauma and pain. I am so happy that you were able to have this experience and see the blessing that it was. Many Blessings, Lisa
This is gonna sound so weird but I’m so grateful for Riley. I’m so glad that trauma was not necessarily replaced but nearly with a new situation with support and love and you got to take this baby home! I’m so glad you have both of your girls. You’re so strong mama
I know I'm late to the game with this video. But when she explained how she felt when Reece came into the room and she was so happy to see him.. i CRIED. That is so sweet and pure love. I hope I have that one day 💕
Jess you are so strong you are such an amazing mom I absolutely love hearing you talk about your babies because I just think how you talk about them is so sweet and it really shows how much you love them💕
I’m a student mental health nurse & I want to go into perinatal mental health💓 this is a beautiful story & shows just how strong you are & how much you’ve grown idk you but I’m proud of you😂✨
Your such a positive role model! Know that you are doing wonders with your chanel. I watch you and I have never been to jail, or been involved in any of the things you talk about, but you still amaze me. I really like listening to your stories. Stay blessed, keep doing you❣
Heather Machala i’m currently going through this. 4months old today. Clubbed foot, wearing his brace now. and cries constantly. very tough. and i have a 1 year old. it’s very hard.
@@morganmacy2787 hang in there!!! The braces are pure torture!! My son was casted the 1st six months. He was in pain non stop. I feel for you and in the now it seems there's no end in sight. I truly hope you have family and friends to help out. One other thing when it came to his brace we were very lenient. Which at the time was a must. Now at 15 he struggles from time to time but he manages pretty well. A positive in my eyes is he can never go military. Which bothers him. Yet, I celebrate quietly!! Lol Anytime u need to vent I'm seriously here for you!! We need to stick together in this motherhood journey!!😜
It gets better! I was born with 2 clubbed feet. My mom said I cried a lot because I was probably in pain. I was casted for a year and got surgery a 1 year old. I am now 24 with 3 kids of my own! Give him Tylenol or Ibuprofen if he seems to really be hurting.
I heard your birth story when you were in jail ! I cried how awful you were treated ! It’s so scary being a first time mom and having to go through all that !! Thank you for sharing your story!
You teach me so much... i‘m not really into drugs but i do all kind of other stupid shit that could get me in a lot of trouble.. you really made me rethink my life and the way i handle things... rn all i wanna do dumb shit and not care but i need to realize that i‘m gonna have to live with my decisions for the rest of my life and that‘s not something i wanna think about but i have to... Thank you for inspiring me❤️
Man i would feel the same anxiety if my first pregnancy was that traumatic. All your feelings were valid and extremely justified due to your ptsd. you did amazing, i’m so proud of you in general 🤍
Hi Jessica My name is Zara and I am a social worker in Australia. I have watched your first pregnancy video and I was appalled with how you were treated. You deserved compassion and assurance. I just wanted to say how inspiring your story was to hear your fight to get your life on track for your baby and for yourself. It sounds like the odds were highly stacked against you. Mums get quite a lot of support here and reunification is always the goal. I am so glad to hear you have your daughter back in your care and you fought the good fight. You can do anything and I am sure everything else feels easy in comparison. I can’t wait to see what other content you will share on this platform. Xx
Aw that’s so sad that you associated pregnancy with devastation. I kind of did too. For a long time. Because my mom had me when she was 15 yrs old so I always told myself I was NEVER gonna have a kid. I also had to help raise my siblings. So I waited til I was older to start having kids because of all that. How blessed are we that we realized how incredible it is to experience motherhood ❤️
I could totally see Reece’s reaction to it now like he would have the hugest smile on his face like well great I’m glad then he would be like it’s ok Jess I love you and we’re stable and we got this he would be the voice of reason to help calm u in the situation u got a great man girl
I love your advice on putting the baby in a safe space and taking a minute! I work in human services and that’s always the first thing I tell parents. It’s always okay to take a second and calm yourself
Thank you so much for being so open and honest about your PPD. I had very bad PPD after having both my kids, very bad after my first, and I think had I known more about it going in to motherhood it would have made it a lot easier for me to treat. Love your channel. ❤️
The #1 best piece of advice I was ever given when going through utter hell with my oldest son, was to lay him down in his crib or somewhere safe and just step into the other room where I can still hear him or even see him but to step away and just breathe for a minute or 2, because if they are crying then they are still breathing and that means he is ok. I can relate so easily to Riley crying that entire first year. My oldest son had both acid reflux w/ projectile vomiting and horrible colic all the time and the poor baby lived with constant ear infections. To the point he was on Perscription baby formula and then the doctor had me putting so much cereal in it just so he would keep some of it down, it was like a slushy. I was by myself raising him for the entire 1st year because my husband left for Iraq, 10 days after I had our son. I would just pace the floors all the time rocking him to try and get him to sleep or just to comfort him, I was so sleep deprived that some nights I would sleep at my mother in law’s house and she would help me with him so I could get back to some sense of not feeling like a zombie.
Jess, you are amazing and I know you will be an amazing Mom. Reece will be a great Dad as well. You have something great and you are on the right path. You got this.
Came here from Peter's channel ! I really loveee your personality!!! I am a new subscriber !! Can't wait to see more videos !! But I really wanted to hear more about your story!!! :) you are a very strong woman for sharing your story on RUclips!! And thank you for educating us folks who have no idea about addiction and prison:)
I’m currently pregnant with number two ❤️ I’m so grateful I found your channel . New subscriber. By the way , never doubt yourself . Your doing great !
Omg my morning sickness with my daughter was awful too. First trimester I lost weight bc EVERYTHING made me nauseous.. Even smells.. Dog food had to go outside..the basil wafting thru the kitchen window from my garden had to come out bc it now made me sick. Lol..ugh even shampoo!!!! I had to buy travel bottle size bc a scent would be ok .....annnnnd...then it wouldn't..and I couldn't continue using it. But come my 2bd trimester? Like a stopwatch the morning sickness completely went away. Holy shyt... I didn't stop eating until I had her🤣🤣 ((Idk why they call it morning sickness bc for me it was around the clock for 3 months)).
Well THANKSSSS for the cry... the HAPPY!!!! cry!! Lol omggg when you explained that moment of Reece coming in the dooorrrrr. Sighhhhh... MY HEART YOU TWO!! Love love love y'all ❤❤❤
Awww Jess this was a great video girl!! Such a world of change frm ur 1st to ur youngest 💖 I'm so happy an glad for U that U got to experience this blessing in such a different way 💖 That is a true blessing girl friend. An it jus goes to show that U DESERVE EVERY bit of the best in life. Even tho U have a past girl U have served ur time an it's great that U found an amazing man to share it with. Jess I loved the part where U said Ur 1st daughter changed Ur LIFE but Ur 2nd daughter was gonna change Ur HEART! That was such a beautiful way to view that an say it 💖 keep on keepin on girl friend U got this an ARE doing it RITE!! Thanks for sharing this with us girl U rock!! Much love frm FL!! 💜💜🍀🍀🔥🔥🌴🌴🌞🌞🌈🌈🌥🌥🌊🌊🏖🏖🏝🏝🦈🦈🦑🦑🦀🦀🦐🦐🐊🐊🐡🐡🐚🐚🐙🐙🐠🐠🐬🐬🐳🐋🦎🦎🥀🥀🌼🌼🌻🌻🌺🌺🌸🌸🌹🌹🍀🍀🌴🌴😂😂🤷🤷
Hahaha the way you explained the calmness of your doctor reminds me of Stewart from either mad TV or SnL ... Remember the man child with the glasses who spoke so soft and quiet and weird. Hed say "look what i can do" and then kinda hop or something lol ... IDK im laughing for real right now
I couldn’t imagine girl ... had to be so damn hard 💜 Also wanted to say I’m 30 weeks pregnant with my third and last baby. I seriously respect you girl! So much
Good luck with the remainder of your pregnancy & with delivery!! Hoping for a happy, healthy baby & family for you!! Take advantage of the these next 10 weeks as best you can!! 😉
Haters got their bell on!! You’ve officially made it boo!!! Love you!!! ❤️
😂💯Facts girl!!! 💕
My two favorite girls!!!!!
Christina Randall love you both
My two favs😍😍😍😭
Love a supportive sister
“Not to get graphic or anything, but it was a Friday morning...” 😂❤️
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this made me laugh out loud I’m dyinggg
“Micah changed your life, but Riley’s gonna change your heart”
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Inspirational wisdom, girl! ❤️❤️❤️
I teared up at that part.
I literally was going to make a comment about this. That was such a moment for her 😭♥️
I cried 😭😭❤️
Vanessa WOH thag part made me cry 😭❤️
Hey so .. I get this question A LOT 🙂 I named my daughter the foster parents did not. They would only be allowed to change her name if they adopted her 🙂
Jessica Kent love your strength! Most ppl who judge wouldn’t have the balls to put their truth out there! Good for you girl
So much love for you, Jess! You really are amazing
Thx for sharing this video so heart warming and touching purely amazing❤❤ :'-) ❤❤👍👍
It is crazy how things differ from state to state. I'm in Kansas and I took in an orphaned teen and the state had her severed from her first son by four months old. I am a Florida girl and never seen anything like it. She was staying with me and they made her get her own place and then grabbed the baby literally the first day. Your beautiful story always makes me smile. I know how hard it was for you, but you got your miracle and I think because your helping people eh I don't know what I am on about. You rock. Also, please talk about in one video, what you did to get your girl home. So many people will miss a visit with their kiddo, you shouldn't ever miss a scheduled visit.
Jessica Kent did Foster parents want to adopt your daughter?
When you said “the nurses came over and said happy birthday Riley!” It literally got me in tears
“Micah changed your life. But Riley is going to change your heart”
If that isn’t the most beautiful thing I’ve ever heard ... 😭💗
I remember when I was pregnant with my first child I was terrified of postpartum depression. I told my husband that if I ever called him at work and sounded strange, he had to come home, or if I acted like I no longer wanted to be alive, he had to take me to a hospital, or if I made any remarks about hurting myself or the baby, he had to take me to the hospital immediately. I have suffered with depression for many years and I knew there was a chance that I would have PPD. And I did- for the first five months of the baby’s life. Fortunately, it never got so severe that I needed to be hospitalized, but I think that we as women need to make it safe for other women to say “I’m not okay.” We all think that having a baby is going to be this monumental occasion that is joyful and exciting, but for so many women, it just isn’t. I don’t have a problem being completely open and honest about what I’m going through or about what I’m scared of, but I know that it doesn’t work that way for everyone and that is why it is so important to me that I am always listening when people are talking. They just might say something that lets me know they’re hurting and if I can help them, that’s what I want to do. Women need to be supporting other women, not tearing them down and judging them because they’re not over the moon about the birth of their child.
I hated being pregnant and my son and I almost died at birth 😑 But I love my son forever and a day 💖💖💖💖💖 I just wish the experience would have been happier for me. I also divorced my husband when my son was 6 weeks old so that also made stuff harder. But life is good now! Totally agree with you! 😊
CEDL4072 I hated pregnancy so much! And so many women would look at me like I had horns if I told them that I didn’t enjoy being pregnant. I did find out through my own honesty, that a lot of the women around me hated being pregnant but they were afraid to say it because of the judgement they would face! I’ve been pregnant three times and carried two babies to term, but I hated it all three times. I am so thankful for my children. I love them more than I can explain, but carrying them for 40 weeks was a lot! 😆
I hated being pregnant as well, but I love my daughter more than anything. ☺️
I hated pregnancy, but was happy to be pregnant and even more happier when they GOT OUT OF MY BODY! Lol ( 3 kids fully grown now)
I just saw your pregnant in prison video on your friends channel. You really inspired me girl. I'll remember your story forever. After hearing how you turned your life around, I know that no matter what happens to me, I can get through it.
We will be alive if we would have enough to die I’ll die no yeah yeah oh I wouldn’t know I’ll be a dirt hello can one one one one one one one one one one one one I’m about to die because I’m not just call my mom
I just finished a training last month called “trauma informed care” so that I could learn more how to care for patients who’ve endured trauma and learn how the affects their behavior. The part of your story when you reacted to the nurse is so understandable but also so sad.
You’re so strong and I love your story.
This shit happens but divorce shit I have ever seen is when it comes out of you
You've been through a lot sweet girl. I don't know you but I feel proud of you, for what you overcame and for where you are now. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️
You know your fingers are beautiful but it will look beautiful inside a cow
"Micah changed your life, but Riley's gonna change your heart."
Girl, you made me full sob tears of understanding and joy.
My auntie told me my fingers couldn’t walk and he said shut down
thank the stars for micah 💜 without her, all of these beautiful things couldn’t have happened. love you, jes!
A warm lead to throw on my room it’s a cylinder your new new new new new no no no no no no no no no no yeah yeah mint Hill I just let you know or meant do you like the song Miss Lester serviced invited her so yeah oh and thanks Cara nice to think like were going but I’m on my
I’m only 14 and I love your channel so much. Your personality is awesome and your story is so strong and motivating! I feel as though your helping me by giving me advice. Thank you so much.
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The fact that you barely have to edit because you’re such a great storyteller 😍🙏 love it love you!
Stupid Bluetooth couldn’t come I would like to see your finger
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love listening to one of my fav girls while getting ready in the morning
chloyayy I do the same tjingggg
I'm getting emotional with you
Love that you talked about PPD. When I had my daughter, I literally didn't sleep for 4-5 days at a time, I had no appetite, I was paranoid something would happen to her if I wasn't holding her. I was ashamed, because I thought I was wasn't "parenting the right way" and I didn't tell my doctor until almost a year later when I was at my breaking point. Ppd is very real & definitely don't be ashamed to ask for help! My daughter's first year of life is like a blur to me because I was always SO out of it....I wouldn't even sleep when she slept, in case something happened. It was unhealthy, I wish I knew PPD was a thing when I had her (13 years ago).
It’s a let them bother big big big big big big big big big big big big big big big big pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig pig keep keep keep keep keep keep keep keep you give me give me give me until I can get a little
I’m so happy for you. Your videos are something I WAIT FOR & cannot get enough of. You have NO idea what you have done for my & my mental heath. I love you 💕
You are an amazing mother! I have a 6 month old and have cried non stop watching your videos about pregnancy. I don't personally struggle with addiction but it runs in my veins and I watch so much of my family struggle. Watching your life after recovery is so inspiring. 💜
Reece just sounds like such an amazing dude!! Love you Jess!! I’m so happy for you and your family!!
I was raised that way too and it was horrible! I was 21 yrs old with my first and 31 yrs old with my 2nd and I was afraid to tell my family..was on my own and everything and was terrified to them...my girls will have to feel that way, ever!
Quit doubting your self u are killing it.
You and Christina are my new go to people on RUclips! Love you girl! So proud of how far you've come. ❤️
I am so happy that you turned your life around. I can't imagine how tough it was to get to where you are now.
I need a Mama Doctor Jones reaction. She might cry though, because I sure am.
She did idk how long ago in relation to when this video was made
@@Kekeliz She reacted to "I had a baby in prison". I guess I just want more😅
You’re amazing. Your family is amazing. I am SO happy and thankful you’ve chosen to share your life with us. Micah and Riely are absolutely beautiful. Love you lots 💜💜💜
Amazing video, I'm glad you touched on post partum depression. Could've easily just been like nope, it was all amazing. Seriously one of the best. 💜💜
I love watching you talk about your love for your children. Every video I think about what an inspiration you are. I cannot imagine the PTSD you felt, but it's great that you identified the issue. I love what you said about PPD. I never had it, but was very sleep deprived at the beginning with my second and I felt guilty because I was exhausted and wanted a break. Thankfully, I have a good support system...and baby started sleeping! There is no shame in PPD!
Doctor:you have about 4 or 5 hours
Jessica:you have about 20 min
Me:😂
Right right she was like nah this man only has 20 mins lol
I just wanted to say, from the bottom of my heart, you’re incredibly brave to share your story online. I’m sure you get some nasty and unnecessary comments... ignore them. Easier said than done, of course but your story is truly inspiring and simply incredible. I cannot imagine having my baby taken from me just 48 hours after her birth. That’s traumatic and honestly inhumane. You’re a strong mama and you’ve raised some amazing girls who are destined to do great things, like their mom. 💖 I know Christina mentioned due to a charge of hers she cannot go into a prison for motivational speeches. I’m not sure if it’s the same for you, but if you can do it. People need to hear your story and know that they too can beat the odds and not be a statistic with some hard work and self love. 👏🏼🙌🏼
U look beautiful Jess! 💃I immediately fell in luv with ur story and channel after watching u on Christina's channel u r soo deserving of ur beautiful family!! Ty for always encouraging us to stay sober at the end💖I'm 225 days clean and feel amazing . Looking forward to the next vid💯
“This would be a good day to have a baby” lmao 😂 😂 that’s how you know you’re a mom
No I am baking the bug Lipke killer and bug like a dog Pooh Pooh Pooh Pooh Pooh Pooh
Thank You for sharing an emotionally difficult story...It still breaks my heart thinking how awful your first birth experience was in prison. However they are both now a Blessing beyond compare!
Although it’s not remotely the same as having a baby while incarcerated...I too had 2 polar opposite birth stories. When I was younger I had a baby whom I gave up for adoption. Because I was so young, emotional & afraid it was a much different feeling than when I had my son as an adult. No pregnancy is easy or the same. But motherhood is most definitely the GREATEST gift.
(Also: I was BLESSED to be a part of my daughters life with an open adoption. Although I didn’t raise her she is part of my family too!)
Thank You again for being you. 💜🙏🏻
Binge watching you since i found you through Peter the other day!! You have really changed the way i think of myself and my past and my addiction in only a few days!! I am loving you so much Jess!
When you mentioned how sweet Micah is to Riley- kids are little mirrors of their parents and it shows how gentle and kind of a mother you are that Micah takes that and imitates it in her life too. You are doing amazing mama 😫🥰🙏🏻💜💖
Thank you for sharing. My friend and her husband are foster parents and although they love every child they help, they are heartbroken for the parents. So inspiring to hear your story 💕💕
PS I'd love to hear more about your experience with postpartum depression. I dont think I'd ever get bored of hearing your stories 😊
Love your vids girl. I can so relate. I understand that feeling! The *My life is over because I'm pregnant feeling.* I also grew up in a town a lot like the one you explained at the beginning. Proud of you for getting out of it, because it's just BS.
My oldest daughter Bella(14) taught me responsibility and my second daughter Savannah(11) taught me patience.
My twins (Adella and Lilianna) was like a whole knew experience from pregnancy to birth and they're 6yo and learning lessons from them each day!!
Side note. Your kids names are really cute.
@@SjofnBM1989 awww thanks! I call the twins Addy and Lili 😊
I really love your kids names 🥺💕 there so unique and so cute!!
My aunt's sister and law is name lilianna but it's spelled Liliana 💕
Girl I was 20 when I had my daughter and I felt like my world was ending bc of the way I grew up too. My folks made their own pregnancies look horrible you know? But when you meet that baby something in you changes. You and I have so much in common that way. Glad we both overcame the negativity we had from how we were brought up!
Theres a lot of liability (any nurse) as a labor/delivery and postpartum nurse. Thats why they check and assess so much.
Theres many unwanted complications after pregnancy and theyre just doing there job.
I understand it is irritating at times but any complications we didn't assess comes down to us at the end.
She did not tell her important and great story because some nurse might be offended, but because Jess' reaction is very important part of the whole development of this unique story.
As human beings we rarely feel one emotion at a time. I don’t know even one new mother that felt only joy, it’s a wonderful, stressful, beautiful, chaotic time and it’s okay to feel all of it.
I love the way you tell stories so much, I could literally listen to you tell a story about grocery shopping and it’d be entertaining to me 😂💞💞 I have so much support and love for you and your amazing family and story !!
You're such a role model for everyone, thank you so much for sharing this. I'm not even a mum yet but I love hearing your story. You've come such a long way and I'm so freaking proud of you. You go Jessica! Love you, stay sober and cool, you're the best
im new to your channel. I am binge watching all your videos. Im in Australia. My dad has passed away. He was a CO. He was involved in the Fremantle Riot 1987. He was a prosecutor so was hated by prisoners. However the top dog protected my dad. My dad was old school. He treated the prisoners not the best. I can now understand more of his life behind the bars at work. Jess you are a inspiration. Keep being you.
Oh man. When you said “she basically cried for a year straight.” I felt that shit in my soul. My firstborn was the happiest, healthiest, easiest baby. He cried almost never, and was the sweetest, smiliest, cuddliest baby.
Fast forward 8 years to #2... a month in the NICU, GERD/reflux, colic, never sleeps, cries constantly unless I have her in the ring sling and we’re walking around (which works about half the time. as long as I never stop moving). Post partum depression was INTENSE. Thank God mine was never directed at the baby (not for any reason other than I don’t think I could have handled the guilt of that) but I spent months in constant tears, hating and doubting myself, with intense suicidal ideation. And the worst part was, I couldn’t reach out for help... because I’m in recovery (despite having 2 years clean before even getting pregnant, I was in a program, so it didn’t matter) I had DCF up my ass 24/7 and was told that any reason I gave them (including PPD) would prolong their involvement and make things worse. I never understood that... I was not in active addiction at any point during my pregnancy. Never tested positive for ANYTHING. Idk why they got involved.
But... my daughter is 11 months old now. Her birthday is next month, and things are so, SO good now. She’s a happy, brilliant little girl who lights up my whole world. We got through every curveball life lobbed our way, and so can anyone else who is struggling!
Thanks for sharing your story. Much love to you and your family.
Mama Friend I’m so sorry for what you had to go through, but I’m so glad that you have come through it as a stronger and better person, living a happy life. While I can somewhat understand CPS being involved initially, as I know they see the worst case scenario on a regular basis and they try to avoid another child going through that, I think that it is SO beyond wrong to essentially shame and punish anyone for seeking treatment for mental illness. If anything, seeking treatment should be seen as an amazing thing, something that would demonstrate that you WERE a responsible parent looking out for your and your child’s health and wellbeing, rather than ignoring it and allowing it to turn into something far worse (the very things CPS should be trying to prevent). For you to feel like you didn’t have the freedom to get help because they essentially threatened to further tie up your parental rights/freedoms is appalling, and I am so sorry you were treated that way. Seeking help should ALWAYS be seen as a sign of strength, not a weakness. CPS essentially created an even more dangerous situation by preventing you from getting help, rather than encouraging you to get help in order to keep your child living in the safest possible environment with a parent of sound mind. I’m glad that you were able to make it through that extremely hard time despite not having the help you needed and deserved, and I’m glad that your story ended up with a happy ending, especially since things could have gone very differently when untreated PPD is involved. I wish you and your family the best. May God bless you! 😊💕
I love getting those little moments with my man too!!! I had a c section so he was the first to hold my twins and when I looked over and saw him holding them for the first time I just about died. I was so thankful. I'm so glad you got to experience such a peaceful birth.
Reece stress-eating ice cream in the kitchen for a few minutes because he was so nervous is equal parts hilarious and adorable.
I was anxiously awaiting this video :). You should definitely expand on PPD in future videos. Thank you for keeping it real!!
New follower here! I'm so glad to see where you've come in your story and how you're helping others by sharing the not so pretty parts. You're an inspiration😘
I literally am great with words but my happiness for you for an amazing experience and receiving the ultimate blessing of pregnancy and a child im just speechless. Just so beyond happy for you and your family .... What a great blessing and almost the ultimate reward for you having the courage to get clean and stay clean
Your so real. Love it. Yes it’s not all peaches and cream like the world makes it look. I had a 14 month crier. It puts postpartum on a whole other level.
Been binge watching your videos for the past day. Amazing how you overcame all the crazy events and ended up coming up on top. It would be great if you can turn your story into a novel or autobiography.
Beautiful story, beautiful family and beautiful victory! Congratulations on all you have overcome, God has a wonderful plan for your life.
“Micah changed your life and Riley is going to change your heart.”
Those are such beautiful words for your daughters to carry with them. I saw in another video you said “Riley healed my heart”. God is so gracious to give us just what we need to help heal our trauma and pain. I am so happy that you were able to have this experience and see the blessing that it was.
Many Blessings,
Lisa
You inspire me, and I am inspired to get a man that loves me like Reece loves you and your little girls
This is gonna sound so weird but I’m so grateful for Riley. I’m so glad that trauma was not necessarily replaced but nearly with a new situation with support and love and you got to take this baby home! I’m so glad you have both of your girls. You’re so strong mama
I know I'm late to the game with this video. But when she explained how she felt when Reece came into the room and she was so happy to see him.. i CRIED. That is so sweet and pure love. I hope I have that one day 💕
Jess you are so strong you are such an amazing mom I absolutely love hearing you talk about your babies because I just think how you talk about them is so sweet and it really shows how much you love them💕
I don't know you personally, but I'm proud of the person you are today. ❤️
I'm so proud of u. God has restored your life.
As Much As Micah Saved You Riley Healed You 🫶🏼 Both Of Your Beautiful Babies Have VERY Special Stories. ❤️
I’m a student mental health nurse & I want to go into perinatal mental health💓 this is a beautiful story & shows just how strong you are & how much you’ve grown idk you but I’m proud of you😂✨
Your such a positive role model! Know that you are doing wonders with your chanel. I watch you and I have never been to jail, or been involved in any of the things you talk about, but you still amaze me. I really like listening to your stories. Stay blessed, keep doing you❣
Post pardom is the real deal!! My son was 4lbs...clubfoot and colic. It was torture!! Hes 15 fine and a line backer...all worth it!! Love u jess
Heather Machala i’m currently going through this. 4months old today. Clubbed foot, wearing his brace now. and cries constantly. very tough. and i have a 1 year old. it’s very hard.
@@morganmacy2787 hang in there!!! The braces are pure torture!! My son was casted the 1st six months. He was in pain non stop. I feel for you and in the now it seems there's no end in sight. I truly hope you have family and friends to help out. One other thing when it came to his brace we were very lenient. Which at the time was a must. Now at 15 he struggles from time to time but he manages pretty well. A positive in my eyes is he can never go military. Which bothers him. Yet, I celebrate quietly!! Lol
Anytime u need to vent I'm seriously here for you!! We need to stick together in this motherhood journey!!😜
It gets better! I was born with 2 clubbed feet. My mom said I cried a lot because I was probably in pain. I was casted for a year and got surgery a 1 year old. I am now 24 with 3 kids of my own! Give him Tylenol or Ibuprofen if he seems to really be hurting.
he can never go into the military because of the birth defect?
@@morganmacy2787 that's what i was told. I hope it's correct!! Lol
I heard your birth story when you were in jail ! I cried how awful you were treated ! It’s so scary being a first time mom and having to go through all that !! Thank you for sharing your story!
Some crazy stuff homie! You strong as hell for having gone through this!
Peace
You teach me so much... i‘m not really into drugs but i do all kind of other stupid shit that could get me in a lot of trouble.. you really made me rethink my life and the way i handle things... rn all i wanna do dumb shit and not care but i need to realize that i‘m gonna have to live with my decisions for the rest of my life and that‘s not something i wanna think about but i have to...
Thank you for inspiring me❤️
I'm so glad you have a happy healthy family now 💖
Man i would feel the same anxiety if my first pregnancy was that traumatic. All your feelings were valid and extremely justified due to your ptsd. you did amazing, i’m so proud of you in general 🤍
Honestly thank you so much for being so real and raw in your videos.
My own mother said she was on cloud nine as well right after I was born, I also felt the same when I had my daughter. What a sweet video. Xoxoxo
Hi Jessica
My name is Zara and I am a social worker in Australia. I have watched your first pregnancy video and I was appalled with how you were treated. You deserved compassion and assurance. I just wanted to say how inspiring your story was to hear your fight to get your life on track for your baby and for yourself. It sounds like the odds were highly stacked against you. Mums get quite a lot of support here and reunification is always the goal. I am so glad to hear you have your daughter back in your care and you fought the good fight. You can do anything and I am sure everything else feels easy in comparison. I can’t wait to see what other content you will share on this platform. Xx
Watching in Australia too.
Aw that’s so sad that you associated pregnancy with devastation. I kind of did too. For a long time. Because my mom had me when she was 15 yrs old so I always told myself I was NEVER gonna have a kid. I also had to help raise my siblings. So I waited til I was older to start having kids because of all that. How blessed are we that we realized how incredible it is to experience motherhood ❤️
Girl you must be a saint that you were that happy during labor 😂😂 i was freakin the eff out!
I could totally see Reece’s reaction to it now like he would have the hugest smile on his face like well great I’m glad then he would be like it’s ok Jess I love you and we’re stable and we got this he would be the voice of reason to help calm u in the situation u got a great man girl
I love your advice on putting the baby in a safe space and taking a minute! I work in human services and that’s always the first thing I tell parents. It’s always okay to take a second and calm yourself
Thank you so much for being so open and honest about your PPD. I had very bad PPD after having both my kids, very bad after my first, and I think had I known more about it going in to motherhood it would have made it a lot easier for me to treat. Love your channel. ❤️
The #1 best piece of advice I was ever given when going through utter hell with my oldest son, was to lay him down in his crib or somewhere safe and just step into the other room where I can still hear him or even see him but to step away and just breathe for a minute or 2, because if they are crying then they are still breathing and that means he is ok.
I can relate so easily to Riley crying that entire first year. My oldest son had both acid reflux w/ projectile vomiting and horrible colic all the time and the poor baby lived with constant ear infections. To the point he was on Perscription baby formula and then the doctor had me putting so much cereal in it just so he would keep some of it down, it was like a slushy. I was by myself raising him for the entire 1st year because my husband left for Iraq, 10 days after I had our son. I would just pace the floors all the time rocking him to try and get him to sleep or just to comfort him, I was so sleep deprived that some nights I would sleep at my mother in law’s house and she would help me with him so I could get back to some sense of not feeling like a zombie.
Your impression of the quiet doctor got me 🤣🤣😂😂🤣🤣
Jess, you are amazing and I know you will be an amazing Mom. Reece will be a great Dad as well. You have something great and you are on the right path. You got this.
Came here from Peter's channel ! I really loveee your personality!!! I am a new subscriber !! Can't wait to see more videos !! But I really wanted to hear more about your story!!! :) you are a very strong woman for sharing your story on RUclips!! And thank you for educating us folks who have no idea about addiction and prison:)
Nurses made my hospital stay very stressful too. Agree they have a job to do but there comes a point where less is more lol.
I was really depressed this morning , I watched you and I feel like I can do anything. You are amazing and I can't wait to hear more 💜
I have a cold and am binging your and Christina's videos. Thanks for all you share, Jess ☺💜
No matter how many times I watch this, I cry my eyes out every time.
Your such a wonderful mother and women ❤️ I absolutely love watching your videos!!
I’m currently pregnant with number two ❤️
I’m so grateful I found your channel . New subscriber. By the way , never doubt yourself . Your doing great !
I’m so glad you did this video! I requested this one and you did it! Thank you for listening to your subscribers! ❤️
Omg my morning sickness with my daughter was awful too. First trimester I lost weight bc EVERYTHING made me nauseous.. Even smells.. Dog food had to go outside..the basil wafting thru the kitchen window from my garden had to come out bc it now made me sick. Lol..ugh even shampoo!!!!
I had to buy travel bottle size bc a scent would be ok .....annnnnd...then it wouldn't..and I couldn't continue using it. But come my 2bd trimester? Like a stopwatch the morning sickness completely went away. Holy shyt... I didn't stop eating until I had her🤣🤣
((Idk why they call it morning sickness bc for me it was around the clock for 3 months)).
Watching this while I’m pregnant with baby number 2 ❤️
Benyan Kouame same here. I’m having my second daughter in July.
Me too!
This was an excellent video Jessica 💕😀♥️ Thank you for being so real and bringing awareness to post partum depression.
Well THANKSSSS for the cry... the HAPPY!!!! cry!! Lol omggg when you explained that moment of Reece coming in the dooorrrrr. Sighhhhh... MY HEART YOU TWO!! Love love love y'all ❤❤❤
Awww Jess this was a great video girl!! Such a world of change frm ur 1st to ur youngest 💖 I'm so happy an glad for U that U got to experience this blessing in such a different way 💖 That is a true blessing girl friend. An it jus goes to show that U DESERVE EVERY bit of the best in life. Even tho U have a past girl U have served ur time an it's great that U found an amazing man to share it with. Jess I loved the part where U said Ur 1st daughter changed Ur LIFE but Ur 2nd daughter was gonna change Ur HEART! That was such a beautiful way to view that an say it 💖 keep on keepin on girl friend U got this an ARE doing it RITE!! Thanks for sharing this with us girl U rock!! Much love frm FL!! 💜💜🍀🍀🔥🔥🌴🌴🌞🌞🌈🌈🌥🌥🌊🌊🏖🏖🏝🏝🦈🦈🦑🦑🦀🦀🦐🦐🐊🐊🐡🐡🐚🐚🐙🐙🐠🐠🐬🐬🐳🐋🦎🦎🥀🥀🌼🌼🌻🌻🌺🌺🌸🌸🌹🌹🍀🍀🌴🌴😂😂🤷🤷
You are so honest, so real, so kind! Bless you!
Your channel is growing so quick! I subbed at like 11k not too long ago & you’re already coming up on 40k 🤯
You are so real and loving, God has blessed you with such a beautiful family! Thanks for sharing your story with us!
Your videos make medical school life & studying so much more bareable 😂 love your videos❤
Hahaha the way you explained the calmness of your doctor reminds me of Stewart from either mad TV or SnL ... Remember the man child with the glasses who spoke so soft and quiet and weird. Hed say "look what i can do" and then kinda hop or something lol ... IDK im laughing for real right now
I couldn’t imagine girl ... had to be so damn hard 💜
Also wanted to say I’m 30 weeks pregnant with my third and last baby. I seriously respect you girl! So much
Good luck with the remainder of your pregnancy & with delivery!! Hoping for a happy, healthy baby & family for you!!
Take advantage of the these next 10 weeks as best you can!! 😉
Marie Langemeier aww thank you! 💜💜
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you are so strong :) but I wish you didn't have to be! hugs girl. take care of yourself and those precious babies :)
Aww your man sounds amazing!! Ps thanks for the inspirational stories!!
This was so beautiful Jessica i am so happy you got this experience the second go round. You are such a gem