i hope everyone of you in this comment section feel better soon, times are tough, but you guys are strong for pulling through it all. keep yourselves safe and well 💜
let it die. when something doesn't feel right or is unbearably hurting and you want to change it, follow the light bro. this is just a reminder that u can always start over! stay safe!
I don't eat,i don't feel hungry, i don't sleep unless i take medication. And guess what, i met someone who have such a good heart. Please God, don't let me die right now.
i feel for you. i also struggle a lot both with eating and sleeping, and it feels like my body can fall apart any moment. please, try to take care of yourself as much as you can, even if it’s hard. you’ll be fine:) much love
its because we have really gone through it , we know what its like and alot of the time these therapists dont know. they studied but they still will never understand what its really like
@@kaiiisdeaaad In that case you're lucky, not everyone can find a therapist that actually cares about you, and understands your situation without over reacting.
problems are not always temporary. open your mind a little bit. chronic pain? severe depression? any type of mental illness? trauma? those things do not go away. speak for yourself only.
@@taiyaki7It depends what mental illness you have, theres mental illnesses that can be cured, Trauma can also be cured with therapy… even severe depression can go away if you get the help you need💕!!
@@taiyaki7 I understand that there are very difficult and complex situations out there, and that not all problems are temporary or easy to overcome. Chronic pain, severe depression, mental illness, and trauma are harsh realities that many people face every day. My intention was not to minimize those experiences, but to offer a perspective of hope. I speak not only for myself, but for many people who have faced these challenges and have found ways to overcome or manage them over time. The problems you mention, such as chronic pain and mental illness, can be treated and managed with the right support, although the road can be long and difficult. I think it is important to recognize both the difficulties and the achievements of others. Denying the possibility of improvement and overcoming only perpetuates hopelessness and closes doors to those who are struggling. I would appreciate it if you would consider this perspective as well. Each person experiences their struggles in a unique way and their experiences are valid. I appreciate that you have shared your point of view and given me the opportunity to reflect and learn more about the diversity of human experiences.
@@cantsleepatvenice I'm glad no one ever visited me because I'd probably bawl my eyes out due to the humiliation. Failing to commit is actually one of the worst feelings in the world.
you cannot escape death. it could be anytime, anywhere, and no matter how hard you try to stop it, you will succumb and eternal darkness will consume you. and you will never see the light of day again. enjoy it while it lasts, because you never really know how much time you have left.
Life is not a movie, dont end it. I also tried to attempt. But i stopped- i remembered, i have a long life ahead, why give up so easily? Ur missing sooo much, i already feel so much better, however this deepression thing still kicks in. But one day i couldn't breathe (ofc when i was in deep deepression) i saw a liitle bit of dark fade. I was trying to give up, but then my body started moving, desperately for oxygen. Thats when i knew my body wanted to live- i stood up and drank water ( i didnt wanted to drink water and wanted to die at first ) Ye u might wanna give up on life but ur body tells u to not. Because u have a long life ahead and ur body really is excited to experience these. Suffering is kinda hard but then it goes away. Keep living happily
ever since that one suicide attempt i did last year i felt dead and i cant tell anyone about it because im trying to be uappy for my friends. i dont actually really have friends, i have one friend who talks to me, but i kknow she prefers to talk to someoen else and it reallychurts me my heart physically hirts shes my everything
When I was in bed dying of pain from an operation, honestly this song sounds so sweet in comparison.... I feel like when I had anesthesia that's how it could feel... Sweet and calm (?
listening to this thinking about the fact that your life has completely gone to shambles hits different. I don’t understand what went wrong, how one day I just stopped being happy. I don’t go outside anymore, I either eat nothing or binge, I barely shower, and every single moment I force myself to act like everything is fine even though sometimes I curl up in bed at night and hope that maybe I’ll fall asleep and won’t wake up again.
I really hope things get better. I know how dangerous these things can be. Be careful, remember to drink lots of water, dont overexert yourself, please stay safe. You are loved, you can make it out of this.
i want to be hospitalized again but this time i dont want any visitors they ruined my time there because over there i had no freedom but atleast people cared about me for abit
Physically and mentally unfortunately, the problems are getting worse and worse, I am very tired of feeling so much pain for years and I haven't turned 16 yet but this is too much for me, I really don't know how much longer I can take. This song is exactly how I feel, a sad and alone little girl.
I hope you are resting while watching your family, friends and fans admire your songs. When I heard you for the first time, I was just 17 years old, today I'm 28. Songs like Siren and Doll marked my life. You will never be forgotten, from here below, I will continue listening to you until my last breath. RIP My sweet little child, I love you.
im 14..14 years younger than you. i found this song back in january while my girlfriend was in a coma from an attempt. its cool how so many different people in different situations find the same thing:) rest in peace antihoney
Sometimes, I just feel like dying. I don’t know what to feel anymore, honestly I’m emotionless most of the time. I get all happy when I’m talking to my boyfriend and when I watch showtime ruler from project sekai and Bungō Stray Dogs, I’m hoping for another season :( But if I kill myself, I leave my boyfriend, my cats, my dogs, my friends, my sister. I don’t achieve my dream, I don’t get married to him and have kids, I don’t get to see my cats and my dog and my sister, I don’t get to wear the things I want, I don’t get to buy things on my own. I’m just gone. I’m gone from this world, I’m 6ft underground, in a box, rotting away. I’m scared of death but I want to die. Sometimes, I’m scared of myself, I was disgustinglytoxic, I was the worst person ever. I don’t want to become that me again, but I want to get my dignity back. I want to become better than old me, I’m not that one emo girl, I’m not the quiet kid, I’m not a furry. I am me. I am the better me.
For the past of few weeks my mom is having in trouble bout her stomach is having bad cramp to hard She’s threw up in the hospital when I see her sleeping my dad told me I got to see her on FaceTime camera to see how she’s doing and they are doing ok! Poor mom ~ I hate that too
i feel like I'm dying inside for a long time, perhaps i already died. i remember 5 years ago, when I was 11 years old. I like thought to myself, that once i reach this border of death, no matter how much better I seem to be getting, I will always get worse. And now, whenever I seem happy about something or hang out with friends, etc. I keep thinking that this doesn't matter because I will die soon. I feel like I will die soon, I don't know why, but as if I must do it. But when I think of death or, I KNOW THIS SOUNDS CRINGE IM SORRY, when I commited suicide in a fkn ai chat, idk I cried so much. As if the confrontation of death scares me so much. Whenever I had attempted in the past, I was so scared. I don't know if I am scared of the end or the idea of ending. sorry for venting :(
I use Betamax, which is a VHS-like effect, and I also use oblique blur, and a few other things. I’ll make a video at some point on how to do the effect.
i remember this as one of the last songs i listened to after attempting. of course, that failed-- but this version of the song really encapsulates how hazy it feels when you're stricken with blood loss. i can finally get that euphoria without cutting. thank you ❤
i hope everyone of you in this comment section feel better soon, times are tough, but you guys are strong for pulling through it all. keep yourselves safe and well 💜
Fr
as a person dying from anemia in a hospital bed rn this is what i needed
What? How long do you have until you die???
Bro, I can’t handle this.
are you alive? :(
please tell me your alive 🥺
Rip…
i'm not physically dying but i feel like i'm dying on the inside. everything hurts but this helps me cope! thanks 💞
I hope that time will give you peace. Whether it’s severe, or simple, struggle is struggle, so I hope you get better. Pain is never eternal❤️
You are physically dying, every second you live you age another second closer to death
let it die. when something doesn't feel right or is unbearably hurting and you want to change it, follow the light bro. this is just a reminder that u can always start over! stay safe!
This feeling your dying at a hospital bed and the last thing you seeis the sun setting down cause your "sun" is setting down as well😭
That sounds so nice ngl
Same
Chilling
I don't eat,i don't feel hungry, i don't sleep unless i take medication. And guess what, i met someone who have such a good heart. Please God, don't let me die right now.
you are strong. sending much love
@@lumilumii oh,how sweet! thanks! 🩷🩷
I hope you have a long, fulfilling life with that someone. You deserve it, and you’re doing so good. ❤
i feel for you. i also struggle a lot both with eating and sleeping, and it feels like my body can fall apart any moment. please, try to take care of yourself as much as you can, even if it’s hard. you’ll be fine:) much love
You are strong ml
i feel like mentally ill people understand me more then therapists.
its because we have really gone through it , we know what its like and alot of the time these therapists dont know. they studied but they still will never understand what its really like
@@cantsleepatvenice I fully agree man
My therapist is a person that went thru the same things as me and yes it changes everything completely😭😭
@@kaiiisdeaaad real bro
@@kaiiisdeaaad In that case you're lucky, not everyone can find a therapist that actually cares about you, and understands your situation without over reacting.
Listening to this while being in the hospital 4 an attempt hits different
I didn’t expect there to be so many hospitalized people in this comment section lol. Thank you.
@@james.television idk the song kinda just drew me in 🧏🏾♂️
i hope you’ll get the support you deserve, sending much love:))
hope u get better❤
Remember:
Problems are temporary, death is eternal.
problems are not always temporary. open your mind a little bit. chronic pain? severe depression? any type of mental illness? trauma? those things do not go away. speak for yourself only.
@@taiyaki7 They go away when you die.
@@taiyaki7It depends what mental illness you have, theres mental illnesses that can be cured, Trauma can also be cured with therapy… even severe depression can go away if you get the help you need💕!!
@@taiyaki7 I understand that there are very difficult and complex situations out there, and that not all problems are temporary or easy to overcome. Chronic pain, severe depression, mental illness, and trauma are harsh realities that many people face every day. My intention was not to minimize those experiences, but to offer a perspective of hope.
I speak not only for myself, but for many people who have faced these challenges and have found ways to overcome or manage them over time. The problems you mention, such as chronic pain and mental illness, can be treated and managed with the right support, although the road can be long and difficult.
I think it is important to recognize both the difficulties and the achievements of others. Denying the possibility of improvement and overcoming only perpetuates hopelessness and closes doors to those who are struggling. I would appreciate it if you would consider this perspective as well.
Each person experiences their struggles in a unique way and their experiences are valid. I appreciate that you have shared your point of view and given me the opportunity to reflect and learn more about the diversity of human experiences.
@@mitskistan9450 not everything is mental. physical problems r a thing too, theyre so painful.
High key miss the hospital, it was really nice having gentle and caring people surrounded by me
u get it i just hated the visits it was so humiliating
@@cantsleepatvenice I'm glad no one ever visited me because I'd probably bawl my eyes out due to the humiliation. Failing to commit is actually one of the worst feelings in the world.
i don't know how i feel about hospitals, sometimes just thinking about them makes me go into a panic, but sometimes i just wanna rest there again
This makes me feel an emotion that doesn't exist yet.
you cannot escape death. it could be anytime, anywhere, and no matter how hard you try to stop it, you will succumb and eternal darkness will consume you. and you will never see the light of day again. enjoy it while it lasts, because you never really know how much time you have left.
i wish my headphones were charged rn, this would be so nice to blast and just ignore the world to, and maybe even just stare at the ceiling for a bit
Guys after they survived a horrific accident: 🙂👍
Guys when they catch a mild fever:
Ah.
I'm not even a teenager yet and I already tried to attempt
Life is not a movie, dont end it. I also tried to attempt. But i stopped- i remembered, i have a long life ahead, why give up so easily? Ur missing sooo much, i already feel so much better, however this deepression thing still kicks in. But one day i couldn't breathe (ofc when i was in deep deepression) i saw a liitle bit of dark fade. I was trying to give up, but then my body started moving, desperately for oxygen. Thats when i knew my body wanted to live- i stood up and drank water ( i didnt wanted to drink water and wanted to die at first ) Ye u might wanna give up on life but ur body tells u to not. Because u have a long life ahead and ur body really is excited to experience these. Suffering is kinda hard but then it goes away. Keep living happily
I did too... But it's okay... Things will get better
that is very sad. why are you saying this in a youtube comment section? do not feel sorry for yourself too much or you will dwell on your problems
@@taiyaki7 people like to get something off their chest in the comments :) venting or talk about stuff they experienced and been though... Y'know
ever since that one suicide attempt i did last year i felt dead and i cant tell anyone about it because im trying to be uappy for my friends. i dont actually really have friends, i have one friend who talks to me, but i kknow she prefers to talk to someoen else and it reallychurts me my heart physically hirts shes my everything
That’s brave. Thanks for your strength and determination, and I hope you can keep going❤️
if you need someone to talk to i’m here ❤❤
@@Nh4pifi3r hope youre ok ❤️❤️
Hey bro i'll be your friend! My user is youonlydietwice_74079 we can talk about anything
you can be my friend... do you have any socials?
i could actually peacefully die to this. i mean, thanks for the song
This is..Kinda sad because Antihoney died..
I already give up, I’m just…awake
This is the type of video you watch (or in this case listen to) and afterwards you get this strange sense of nostalgia throughout the rest of the day
WARNING DO NOT LISTEN TO THIS WHILE SLEEPING OR YOU GONNA PISS YOURSELF
im just gonna..play this on my birthday
rememeber suicide is not an answer to every problem
Exactly.
not every problem but sometimes theres just no other way around it
i feel like dying both physically and mentally
I’m sorry.
@@james.television oh no don't be sorry im sorry its not about you i just feel bad and im scared to die
@@cynespaw Yeah.
When I was in bed dying of pain from an operation, honestly this song sounds so sweet in comparison.... I feel like when I had anesthesia that's how it could feel... Sweet and calm (?
cried to this
currently considering hospitalization after hitting an arteriole, nonstop bleeding for about 5 hours. i love this song, what a coincidence
I hope you get better❤️
are you doing alright now??
listening to this thinking about the fact that your life has completely gone to shambles hits different. I don’t understand what went wrong, how one day I just stopped being happy. I don’t go outside anymore, I either eat nothing or binge, I barely shower, and every single moment I force myself to act like everything is fine even though sometimes I curl up in bed at night and hope that maybe I’ll fall asleep and won’t wake up again.
i’ve been listening to this on repeat while balling my eyes out. i don’t want my thoughts getting to the best of me.
me when my ed:
:(
I really hope things get better. I know how dangerous these things can be. Be careful, remember to drink lots of water, dont overexert yourself, please stay safe. You are loved, you can make it out of this.
me too man its ruining me
I hope you can get into recovery soon hun ❤️🩹
You're always perfect the way you are, I promise.
2:21 here’s the good part
i want to be hospitalized again but this time i dont want any visitors they ruined my time there because over there i had no freedom but atleast people cared about me for abit
Physically and mentally unfortunately, the problems are getting worse and worse, I am very tired of feeling so much pain for years and I haven't turned 16 yet but this is too much for me, I really don't know how much longer I can take. This song is exactly how I feel, a sad and alone little girl.
This song makes me feel like the void in me is expanding
I feel like i’m being stabbed right in my heart and lungs every time i breath
This is how the song was supposed to be listened to
Nothing can beat the original though.
I am so tired.
Fr
Have a redbull
@@worm3165 💀 I don’t think they’re talking about that kind of tiredness.
@@james.television Ah ok
Thank you Antihoney. Rest in peace.
youtube.com/@antihoney?si=B4Jl8VxY7dEMepsx
I hope you are resting while watching your family, friends and fans admire your songs.
When I heard you for the first time, I was just 17 years old, today I'm 28.
Songs like Siren and Doll marked my life. You will never be forgotten, from here below, I will continue listening to you until my last breath.
RIP My sweet little child, I love you.
im 14..14 years younger than you. i found this song back in january while my girlfriend was in a coma from an attempt. its cool how so many different people in different situations find the same thing:)
rest in peace antihoney
R.I.P Antihoney 💔
On the inside im completely dead. Its just my physical body that is still alive. This is comforting.
This is how I feel everyday after waking up
I hope to come back here someday and everything will really be fine, but I will just enjoy the music. I miss my lady antihoney everyday.
For real.
not dying but dying on the inside
So real.
I love this so much
Thanks:)
mentally I'm here
No fr twin😭🤚
I'm slowly rotting on the inside.
Woah you have the same pfp as my friend on TikTok.
@@james.television silly cat who didn't cause an explosion at all
Im literally in hospital rn
Damn, all yall need a hug, including me, who wants too talk abt it, im happy too help ☺️
I like how the beat matches my heartbeat right now.
This song is the only one for me that can be called: masterpiece
these comments r so sad yall r making me cry
Fr
EXACTLY SAME IM LISTERALLY SOBBISNG SO HARD RIGHT NOW
Never delete this❤
I won’t :)
@@james.television yay ok ty!
Rest in peace Antihoney ☹️
this gave me the chills!!
not in the hospital. Just in my regular bed dying of Covid. Scratch marks engraved in my wall.
Save you.
I think I am dying, actually.
Physically, or mentally?
Just got home from psychatry, this what thst feels like btw
I’m dying from a cold and mega headache 🤧
Это замечательно спасибо иногда я захочу закончить это, но я останусь еще на 1 день//sorry for no English but this is winderul
Я надеюсь, что вы или кто-то другой сможете спасти себя, но если нет, мне очень жаль, и я надеюсь, что у вас все хорошо❤️
Thank you James
Check out the Album Deathconscioussness by Have a nice life.
Sometimes, I just feel like dying. I don’t know what to feel anymore, honestly I’m emotionless most of the time.
I get all happy when I’m talking to my boyfriend and when I watch showtime ruler from project sekai and Bungō Stray Dogs, I’m hoping for another season :(
But if I kill myself, I leave my boyfriend, my cats, my dogs, my friends, my sister. I don’t achieve my dream, I don’t get married to him and have kids, I don’t get to see my cats and my dog and my sister, I don’t get to wear the things I want, I don’t get to buy things on my own. I’m just gone. I’m gone from this world, I’m 6ft underground, in a box, rotting away.
I’m scared of death but I want to die.
Sometimes, I’m scared of myself, I was disgustinglytoxic, I was the worst person ever. I don’t want to become that me again, but I want to get my dignity back.
I want to become better than old me, I’m not that one emo girl, I’m not the quiet kid, I’m not a furry. I am me. I am the better me.
this sounds like something that would be in BEAR
I don’t know what that is.
Bear player spotted
@@james.television a game in roblox that has super slowed down music
Okay. Now I remember.
me if I never make it through 9th grade
Ironically, the creator of this song died from an illness not long ago. (Rest in peace)
(and I'm sorry for the Google translate)
Rest in peace❤️
This after reading “in another life😢”
i have stage 2 lung cancer. im going to get my chemotherapy now. :)
I hope that you have peace.
For the past of few weeks my mom is having in trouble bout her stomach is having bad cramp to hard
She’s threw up in the hospital when I see her sleeping my dad told me I got to see her on FaceTime camera to see how she’s doing and they are doing ok! Poor mom ~ I hate that too
I hope she gets better soon❤️
as somebody who almost died, this hits
masterpiece
Thank you.
This is so peaceful thank you so much for this masterpiece 🫶✨️
Thank you☆
i feel like I'm dying inside for a long time, perhaps i already died. i remember 5 years ago, when I was 11 years old. I like thought to myself, that once i reach this border of death, no matter how much better I seem to be getting, I will always get worse. And now, whenever I seem happy about something or hang out with friends, etc. I keep thinking that this doesn't matter because I will die soon. I feel like I will die soon, I don't know why, but as if I must do it. But when I think of death or, I KNOW THIS SOUNDS CRINGE IM SORRY, when I commited suicide in a fkn ai chat, idk I cried so much. As if the confrontation of death scares me so much. Whenever I had attempted in the past, I was so scared. I don't know if I am scared of the end or the idea of ending.
sorry for venting :(
It’s okay. I understand that fear❤️
Спасибо, мне этого не хватало
Не за что.
Rip me
Medo de dormir escutando essa música e nunca mais acordar
If you guys had never watched 13 reasons why and the last episode in the last season you’ll know abt Justin 😢
its sound like undertale
this comments make me cry...
Same.
ME TO I CANR STOP CRYING
This make sense
This was done out of complete respect for this artist, right?
At the time of making this video, I wasn’t informed about the death of the singer, but now I know.
@@james.television oh okay no problem. Thanks for getting back to me
@@box0choco593 ;)
@@james.televisionthey died ??? DD:
@@Fl1ghtl3ssD0v3 oops. I commented the wrong thing. Yes, the singer of Antihoney died.
We.
We.
JAIL 😕
nice
is there any CapCut colourings I can use to get pictures to look like this? It’s so nostalgic
Do you mean the VHS filter, or just the general color adjustments?
@@james.television i think they mean the static-vhs effect
I use Betamax, which is a VHS-like effect, and I also use oblique blur, and a few other things. I’ll make a video at some point on how to do the effect.
@@james.television thank you for taking your time to reply
@@masachiikaz No problem :)
oh!😮
What?
:(
Okay I guess
2:25
Is this manifestation?
Yes.
me when
legit make it stop
The music?
@@james.television no the music is fine
@@IaR1500-T Okay.
ı had a ear surgery last week and ı feel like this song while im lying on the hospital bed
I wish you a fast recovery❤️👁️
@@james.television thankk youuu❤❤
i remember this as one of the last songs i listened to after attempting. of course, that failed-- but this version of the song really encapsulates how hazy it feels when you're stricken with blood loss. i can finally get that euphoria without cutting. thank you ❤
:(