On behalf of all the empaths who have crossed the path(s) of a narcissist, we thank you. You spoke for thousands and thousands of us who suffer the same fate. Our souls and God will forgive us for giving all of us away. The only thing after that will remain is hollow shell of those who tried to claim us. They may have conquered a season of our lives, but they’ll never take our hope and the will to live that eventually will make us all whole.
"My dear self, I apologise for not putting you first, for making your worth dependant on what they said.. Forgive me for believing that something was wrong with you.."
"I hope from the bottom of my heart that no one ever hurts you the way you hurt me. I could easily wish you pain, but you hurt me so much that I would never wish it on anyone, let alone someone I love."
when i was 20, i broke up with my ex after 3 and a half years. i listened to this every night and cry myself to sleep. because i couldn’t fall asleep without doing so. i was in such a rough spot. now i’m 22 and i was suddenly reminded of this video.
Her poem is very beautiful and she speaks with a lot of power. I love how soft spoken she is because you don't need to be super loud to be heard. The fact that she is willing to express her vulnerability is amazing.😌
I’m 15. And I can tell you that every part of this video, I felt. Every single part. I am already broken before I’m even grown up, and he doesn’t understand it. It was 3 months ago yesterday when he left. He’s been with someone else since then, and I can’t bring myself to even find interest in someone else. I am still in love with him, or maybe who he used to be. Sometimes i forget the sound of his voice. I don’t remember the last time he spoke to me, or the last words he said to me. I remember our last kiss, when I didn’t even know it’d be our last one. I remember the feeling of his hands on my bare waist and the electric shock it sent through my body. I remember the feeling I’d get in the pit of my stomach when he told me I was beautiful, and when he’d say “I love you”. I remember holding him so tight every time I embraced him, because I knew how fast he’d slip out of my hands. I prepared myself for our end. As much as I could. I prepared myself for the time he’d say “I don’t love you anymore” and for the last time he’d hang up the phone and never pick it back up. And for the pain he’d leave me while I watched him hold her hand. But, no matter how much I thought I knew how it’d feel, no matter how long I prepared myself for it, I still ended up on my bathroom floor crying and blaming myself. For hours. Day after day. I forgave him. He never apologized or even acknowledged it, but I needed to free myself. I told him thank you, because without the heartbreak i would have never found myself. Today marks one month since that conversation. I don’t even think he replied to it. He just read it, but I didn’t need his acceptance because this wasn’t for him. It was for me. Even though I’ve accepted that he won’t come back, and that it’s over, the nostalgia occurs every day. I look back at old cards he gave me, and the old pictures we had together. Videos of his laughter. I still have the roses he gave me last year, obviously dead now. Like us. I miss him, I miss us. I wish he’d come back, but it’s okay if he doesn’t. Because i don’t need him, I don’t depend on him anymore. He isn’t my only source of happiness anymore. But the happiness I felt when we were together is something that can never be replaced. I’ve tried too many times to replicate it. But none of them even come close to comparison. He was my first love, first boyfriend, first kiss. First everything. I wish he was the last.
I know every part of us hurt when they say that they don't love u anymore , when they say their love is dead...nd deep inside we feel that they love us but now they don't show it anymore.. but you know they are true their affection is dead.. they didn't loved us it was only their affection.. coz love is like we loved them , thqt whatever they did we love them till now .. And we must thank god for showing us their real colours on time so that we can reserve this love for the one who will love us from their soul nd until they come we should invest this love on ourselves ♥️ Nd ha thank god u r broken in early age of your life so that you can now focus on yourself nd heal others who are broken around you
riley a you brave soul you...God bless you. My heart breaks for your sweet spirit. I commend you for bearing your soul...for sharing your pain. Know that you are in the midst of your healing process. So much joy awaits you! I wish you the best✨
How is is that I can relate to every word? 💔 how is it that I feel like I wrote this myself? 😭😭😭 This definitely brought back a lot! Four years later, the pain is still fresh. Thank you for this. Beautiful ❤
I really love the opening line, it's so true of so many people I know and maybe even me! "These mountains that you are carrying, you are only supposed to climb" simply tragic but utterly beautiful emotional truth.
Today i decided to forgive you ; not because you apologise for hurting or you acknowledge the pain you caused me ; but because my soul deserves peace. And i couldn't deny it's RIGHTS. just wow 💔🏆
I have listened to this so many times this morning. It resonates deeply in my heart, but at the same time, brings me peace. That feeling, when you throw something into the ocean and know it will not come back, but you're okay with it- that's how I feel right now!
Today I decided to forgive you not because you apologised but because you acknowledge the pain you caused me but because my soul deserves peace and I'll not denay my soul it's right. Beautiful💓
I haven’t cried for her in 6 months. And here I am again in tears. Thank you, Najwa. Because these tears bring healing. And they tell me I am worth so much more. Such a sad story you tell. But your story is mine. So beautifully written, and said.
So relatable to my story. Difference is just that a girl broke me into pieces and from then i am trying hard to assemble again all my shattered pieces to create a new version and stronger version of me. 💔
I cannot describe how much I can relate to this. I have been controlling my emtions all this while. But I just broke down listening to this. I couldn't stop my tears. Every single word speaks my heart. This is the best poem I've read in my entire life. I've never come accros something like this that could actually describe my pain. And this does
I have no words that can explain how I'm feeling right now. It feels like you took every piece of my broken heart and put them all back together ❤ Thank You for sharing it with us
You just talk all the things that have been messing with my heart recently, you just talk what i wanna hear. You gave me encouragement. I hope everyone that feel the same way may find their peace, i know its not easy but its gonna be worth it. Thank you Najwa, you are such a beautiful woman with a pure heart. An angel without wings. A silentful protector. A wonderful human being.
Thank you for speaking for my heart 🙏🏾 this was beautiful and a revelation and release for so many including myself. Years, months, days of hurt just died in your words. You are a hero 😇
Finally decided to search up this video after yet another Calm app ad started off with that powerful quote about forgiveness. So glad that I did, because it was just what I needed to hear, since I was revisiting old wounds after a bad day today
Thank you so much, for the words I thought i will never find to express the pain of my heart. Thank you for making me cry and realise that i am strong. These words are always going to be close to my heart. ❤️ thank you for this
I feel compelled to send this to the love that broke me. I won’t but I wish he could listen to that as if it came straight from me. Would it make a difference? My heart and love to everyone going through the same.x
Each word resonated with my experience I had .....I m speechless..I cried my eyes out till my head became hot with shame until the last word u said. I understand...u...u understand me....thank you...you are living godess
I feel as if someone is giving me a warm comforting hug whenever I listen to your voice. Your words have an amazing healing power and you are a blessing Najwa ♥️
I am a new fan of yours. I’ve been to break up recently with a lot of questions in my mind that I feel no one can answer. And I find this, I was crying the whole 10mins. It’s like you putting my words to my pain. Thank you for this.
A J 5 months ago I was here crying in pain and now I can tell that I’m at least 75% healed. Take your time, spoil yourself more, do what you can’t do before and cry as many as you want until you’re tired of it already. You’ll get there. We’ll get there. This is the time for us to start loving ourself. 💕
Jovie Yang thank you so much. I’m happy to here you have almost healed. It’s such a long journey. Did you feel like you couldn’t live without him? Did the days feel so long? Did you feel you won’t be loved ever again? It hurts so bad 😭
A J yes back then I felt that I don’t know how to live without him, I cried when I wake up and before I go to bed, I was like that for a month. Until I tried to find other hobbies to distract me from thinking about him. Whenever I feel like texting him to beg I always tell myself “don’t betray yourself” for a million times, and this video and her book helps me a lot as well. I know you’ll find peace and you’ll get healed soon. 💕
Little did i know that, it takes forever to heal from a real heart break. I had never suffered this much like I'm rn and it exactly feels the same, like what she's written there. She spoke every word, that I couldn't put it in words. I hope she's healed now and I pray that, those who are hurting immensely, HEAL completely and I pray that I heal too, so that i can finish the race victoriously and rest peacefully. This too shall pass 🙏
Why is that after listening to Ur poem my heart is racing n skipping a beat, why do I feel claustrophobic n cry out .. I want to cry out loud because this exactly what I felt n put it in words. It's been a year since my break up but still reminds me everything...
It's verses like these, so beautifully delivered that have kept the essence of spoken poetry intact in the present. I praise you for all that you've bestowed upon us by this verse. Thank You for sharing. A well wisher...
If this resonates with you like it did with me- this video shows that you are not the only one hurting. With a knot in your chest and a headache from crying. So many others have been where you are. And they made it through. This isn’t forever.
Najwa Zebian Thankyou n God bless you. Thankyou for helping me to overcome n telling me that what is actually happing with me. I can relate with every single word. Thankyou for making me stronger.❤
I’ve just seen your tiktok of you reading a page of your book and it captivated me so much it tugged my heartstrings as you read it. It’s in my summer reads for sure, thank you for sharing.
I would never try to stop someone from leaving more important is my sense of dignity i would never show my face and risk losing it i would never give them my takeaway heart and lose it in some street on some dark night
Feels like you are speaking for me!! Each and every word, how relevant, how close, it's exactly my story, what I have been dealing with since long! Thank you so much ♥️
On behalf of all the empaths who have crossed the path(s) of a narcissist, we thank you. You spoke for thousands and thousands of us who suffer the same fate. Our souls and God will forgive us for giving all of us away. The only thing after that will remain is hollow shell of those who tried to claim us. They may have conquered a season of our lives, but they’ll never take our hope and the will to live that eventually will make us all whole.
I was born in a narcissistic family. My mom, few siblings. Exes as well. Today I'm healing day by day.
"My dear self, I apologise for not putting you first, for making your worth dependant on what they said..
Forgive me for believing that something was wrong with you.."
Little Miss Jane hey just wanted to mention this to you
THANKS! 😊
"I hope from the bottom of my heart that no one ever hurts you the way you hurt me. I could easily wish you pain, but you hurt me so much that I would never wish it on anyone, let alone someone I love."
I would like your comment but it’s at 69 and I don’t wanna mess it up-
when i was 20, i broke up with my ex after 3 and a half years. i listened to this every night and cry myself to sleep. because i couldn’t fall asleep without doing so. i was in such a rough spot. now i’m 22 and i was suddenly reminded of this video.
Her poem is very beautiful and she speaks with a lot of power. I love how soft spoken she is because you don't need to be super loud to be heard. The fact that she is willing to express her vulnerability is amazing.😌
My heart literally ached during every line.
Every time I hear it, tears just flow down my eyes..I pray no body has to go through this pain...
I’m 15. And I can tell you that every part of this video, I felt. Every single part. I am already broken before I’m even grown up, and he doesn’t understand it. It was 3 months ago yesterday when he left. He’s been with someone else since then, and I can’t bring myself to even find interest in someone else. I am still in love with him, or maybe who he used to be. Sometimes i forget the sound of his voice. I don’t remember the last time he spoke to me, or the last words he said to me. I remember our last kiss, when I didn’t even know it’d be our last one. I remember the feeling of his hands on my bare waist and the electric shock it sent through my body. I remember the feeling I’d get in the pit of my stomach when he told me I was beautiful, and when he’d say “I love you”. I remember holding him so tight every time I embraced him, because I knew how fast he’d slip out of my hands. I prepared myself for our end. As much as I could. I prepared myself for the time he’d say “I don’t love you anymore” and for the last time he’d hang up the phone and never pick it back up. And for the pain he’d leave me while I watched him hold her hand. But, no matter how much I thought I knew how it’d feel, no matter how long I prepared myself for it, I still ended up on my bathroom floor crying and blaming myself. For hours. Day after day. I forgave him. He never apologized or even acknowledged it, but I needed to free myself. I told him thank you, because without the heartbreak i would have never found myself. Today marks one month since that conversation. I don’t even think he replied to it. He just read it, but I didn’t need his acceptance because this wasn’t for him. It was for me. Even though I’ve accepted that he won’t come back, and that it’s over, the nostalgia occurs every day. I look back at old cards he gave me, and the old pictures we had together. Videos of his laughter. I still have the roses he gave me last year, obviously dead now. Like us. I miss him, I miss us. I wish he’d come back, but it’s okay if he doesn’t. Because i don’t need him, I don’t depend on him anymore. He isn’t my only source of happiness anymore. But the happiness I felt when we were together is something that can never be replaced. I’ve tried too many times to replicate it. But none of them even come close to comparison. He was my first love, first boyfriend, first kiss. First everything. I wish he was the last.
I know every part of us hurt when they say that they don't love u anymore , when they say their love is dead...nd deep inside we feel that they love us but now they don't show it anymore.. but you know they are true their affection is dead.. they didn't loved us it was only their affection.. coz love is like we loved them , thqt whatever they did we love them till now ..
And we must thank god for showing us their real colours on time so that we can reserve this love for the one who will love us from their soul nd until they come we should invest this love on ourselves ♥️
Nd ha thank god u r broken in early age of your life so that you can now focus on yourself nd heal others who are broken around you
riley a you brave soul you...God bless you. My heart breaks for your sweet spirit. I commend you for bearing your soul...for sharing your pain. Know that you are in the midst of your healing process. So much joy awaits you! I wish you the best✨
Mario Charleston thank you so much that means more than you know!
I hope you are okay now!🤗
Oh sweety. This is his loss!
How is is that I can relate to every word? 💔 how is it that I feel like I wrote this myself? 😭😭😭 This definitely brought back a lot! Four years later, the pain is still fresh. Thank you for this. Beautiful ❤
Patience Nthako the same here😭 three years later n the pain n wounds makes it feel like yesterday...
@@lisafaithful3787 We will heal one day 💓 it doesn't seem like it right now, but I know we will.
Same😔😔
Its still so fresh too for me 😢
Thank you for this beautiful reading. The “Today I decided to forgive you” part was something that I truly needed to realize.
I think I can now understand why I kept going back to an abusive relationship. just so sad that every sentence is my story💔
Racheal Stone I hope u can move on and find true love in yourself and in your relationship🖤
I really love the opening line, it's so true of so many people I know and maybe even me! "These mountains that you are carrying, you are only supposed to climb" simply tragic but utterly beautiful emotional truth.
Today i decided to forgive you ; not because you apologise for hurting or you acknowledge the pain you caused me ; but because my soul deserves peace. And i couldn't deny it's RIGHTS. just wow 💔🏆
I wasn’t ready for the best thing I’ve heard in my life!
It's healing, and I come here everytime I need it the most. Thank you
I just woke up and too early to watch this and i'm crying right now at 6:44am with one eye open.
Hahahaha saaameee
Same here but the time is 1:28am
I have listened to this so many times this morning. It resonates deeply in my heart, but at the same time, brings me peace. That feeling, when you throw something into the ocean and know it will not come back, but you're okay with it- that's how I feel right now!
Oh my god. I cried. Snot and all. Every. Single. Word. Evey word. Was me. Wow.
I never felt so understood in my life. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you 💔
Thanks again... Felt better again.. Anyone here 2022 ..??
Nectar of Pain 😞💔
He never did loved me.
Now my callous heart don't need love
Today I decided to forgive you not because you apologised but because you acknowledge the pain you caused me but because my soul deserves peace and I'll not denay my soul it's right.
Beautiful💓
This incredible woman ripped my heart out of my chest with this wondrous piece
I haven’t cried for her in 6 months. And here I am again in tears. Thank you, Najwa. Because these tears bring healing. And they tell me I am worth so much more. Such a sad story you tell. But your story is mine. So beautifully written, and said.
So relatable to my story. Difference is just that a girl broke me into pieces and from then i am trying hard to assemble again all my shattered pieces to create a new version and stronger version of me. 💔
How are you now?
This is 7th time I am listening this.... Proud to be a Najwa Fan ❤️
Wow! Just letting you know that I came across this and started weeping!
I replayed it again and again like the music. It is the elegy of my heart.
I cannot describe how much I can relate to this. I have been controlling my emtions all this while. But I just broke down listening to this. I couldn't stop my tears. Every single word speaks my heart. This is the best poem I've read in my entire life. I've never come accros something like this that could actually describe my pain. And this does
Pure passion and inspiring courage....a true poet
I have no words that can explain how I'm feeling right now. It feels like you took every piece of my broken heart and put them all back together ❤ Thank You for sharing it with us
You just talk all the things that have been messing with my heart recently, you just talk what i wanna hear. You gave me encouragement. I hope everyone that feel the same way may find their peace, i know its not easy but its gonna be worth it. Thank you Najwa, you are such a beautiful woman with a pure heart. An angel without wings. A silentful protector. A wonderful human being.
Thank you for speaking for my heart 🙏🏾 this was beautiful and a revelation and release for so many including myself. Years, months, days of hurt just died in your words. You are a hero 😇
Finally decided to search up this video after yet another Calm app ad started off with that powerful quote about forgiveness. So glad that I did, because it was just what I needed to hear, since I was revisiting old wounds after a bad day today
Thank you so much, for the words I thought i will never find to express the pain of my heart. Thank you for making me cry and realise that i am strong. These words are always going to be close to my heart. ❤️ thank you for this
I feel compelled to send this to the love that broke me. I won’t but I wish he could listen to that as if it came straight from me. Would it make a difference? My heart and love to everyone going through the same.x
I already did and it been 3 years with this pain!
Very touch hearth. My tears droped 😥
Each word resonated with my experience I had .....I m speechless..I cried my eyes out till my head became hot with shame until the last word u said. I understand...u...u understand me....thank you...you are living godess
You really do speak right to the core of my soul and I thoroughly appreciate your existence. I needed you and you are saving me.
I'm so sorry for the pain you went through. lovely poetry so relatable. bless you for sharing your journey! you are a beautiful soul!
😊❤️ this is the reason why im still alive ❤️🙏 thanks najwa
I sent this to my narcissist ex boyfriend who cheated on me. We got back together, he never mentioned the beautiful words, he just cheated again💔
Once a cheater is always a cheater. Just forgive him behalf of your goodness.
I feel as if someone is giving me a warm comforting hug whenever I listen to your voice. Your words have an amazing healing power and you are a blessing Najwa ♥️
I am a new fan of yours. I’ve been to break up recently with a lot of questions in my mind that I feel no one can answer. And I find this, I was crying the whole 10mins. It’s like you putting my words to my pain. Thank you for this.
Hi there
Me too! It took the words out of my mouth and it hurts so bad. How do you feel now? I feel like death 😔
A J 5 months ago I was here crying in pain and now I can tell that I’m at least 75% healed. Take your time, spoil yourself more, do what you can’t do before and cry as many as you want until you’re tired of it already. You’ll get there. We’ll get there. This is the time for us to start loving ourself. 💕
Jovie Yang thank you so much. I’m happy to here you have almost healed. It’s such a long journey. Did you feel like you couldn’t live without him? Did the days feel so long? Did you feel you won’t be loved ever again? It hurts so bad 😭
A J yes back then I felt that I don’t know how to live without him, I cried when I wake up and before I go to bed, I was like that for a month. Until I tried to find other hobbies to distract me from thinking about him. Whenever I feel like texting him to beg I always tell myself “don’t betray yourself” for a million times, and this video and her book helps me a lot as well. I know you’ll find peace and you’ll get healed soon. 💕
I'm crying so hard right now 💔😭
Little did i know that, it takes forever to heal from a real heart break. I had never suffered this much like I'm rn and it exactly feels the same, like what she's written there. She spoke every word, that I couldn't put it in words. I hope she's healed now and I pray that, those who are hurting immensely, HEAL completely and I pray that I heal too, so that i can finish the race victoriously and rest peacefully.
This too shall pass 🙏
Amazing. Hard to watch when eyes are filled with the tears. Thank you for sharing this beautiful poem 💜
Why is it so hard for me to let go of you.....
@Najwa you are a gift to those around you.
Love ❤ & Respect from Kashmir
I can listen to this video forever
Why is that after listening to Ur poem my heart is racing n skipping a beat, why do I feel claustrophobic n cry out .. I want to cry out loud because this exactly what I felt n put it in words.
It's been a year since my break up but still reminds me everything...
Yeah the part when she said without a home I was homeless when I left my ex I started crying
That voice...wonderful. Gets me each time
It's verses like these, so beautifully delivered that have kept the essence of spoken poetry intact in the present. I praise you for all that you've bestowed upon us by this verse. Thank You for sharing.
A well wisher...
Your Love is My Cure...
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Though You never Cure,
Atleast, Heal My Soul...!
My skin is not fair but this is the MOST BEAUTIFUL POEM I heard in my life🙏🏽🌹💕
It’s unbelievable how I could relate and feel everything that she said.
Powerfull ! I'm in tears.. thank you for this Najwa . God bless you
This made me cry so much. You spoke my heart
I'm lost in your words! Your words and your voice... totally magical 😭😭😍✨
I fetl each and every line of it tears rolling down my eyes
And today I decided to forgive you.... 😊
Every words touched! ❤️
I just found this and it speaks to me in ways I cannot explain. THIS is how I feel! This is me! ❤️
It is truly amazing
It doesnt make sense that all of us can relate to every single words :(
If this resonates with you like it did with me- this video shows that you are not the only one hurting. With a knot in your chest and a headache from crying. So many others have been where you are. And they made it through. This isn’t forever.
I'm crying since " my dear self ...." 😭😭
U just made me cry and the lines which u read is exactly wat I am leaving my life so thank u for such great lines and ❤️😭😭😘😍🥰just love u
Beautiful ❤️❤️❤️ ... who in their right mind would give it a thumbs down ?!
I love you so much ❤ Thank you for sharing ; expressing in words I couldn’t translate my experiences and emotions with. You did for me. So grateful 🙏
Najwa Zebian Thankyou n God bless you. Thankyou for helping me to overcome n telling me that what is actually happing with me. I can relate with every single word. Thankyou for making me stronger.❤
Heart touching and the way you read it out wants me to listen many times.
I’ve just seen your tiktok of you reading a page of your book and it captivated me so much it tugged my heartstrings as you read it. It’s in my summer reads for sure, thank you for sharing.
I would never try to stop someone from leaving
more important is my sense of dignity
i would never show my face and risk losing it
i would never give them my takeaway heart
and lose it in some street on some dark night
I have a very good friend who will benefit from these profound words of understanding of loss.
How in the world this could have dislikes??? I just wanna think those 2 dislikes were of people who really loved your poem that thought they hated it.
These mountains that you are carrying , you're only supposed to climb.❤
Najwa , I can't thank you enough, just wow ❤️ I cried with every sentence you said , I wish you a life full of happiness dear Najwa ❤️
Every word just touched my soul ❤ These are the words of my soul and my emotions ❤
I'm in tears watching this, the words are so relate to me😢
Most favorite poem from The Nectar of Pain
At first situation is like : not understanding me is not ur fault , but making u understand who u r for me that ,s what my soul called
Wow. I relate so much. 💔 I hope that one day, just one, I'll heal completely and forget the pain I've been through. 🙂 This is amazing. 💯
On repeat ♥️
No words. Just tears.
Real words with real meaning.. thank you , much love
Beautiful words
Oh My God... I have no words to describe how it felt... Cuz I felt everything!
i am dealing with what you had been through, all of the situations you’ve stated is just suited with my condition, ❤️😭
Oh my god..i hate poetry before...but you changed my whole mind and i am literally crying 😭😭😭😭
Thank you so much for this. It made me cry, laugh and release. It inspires me to share my own voice in the world too. Thank you❤️
I'm so emotional after watching this video because I can relate to everything she talks about
Thank you so much, Najwa. Sharing your writing is healing. You inspire me.
I love your voice it's so soothing and the back sound is so smooth and touching and so matching to the poetry.
This really touch my heart .... thank you for expressing yourself... I appreciate it
Your poetry reading ia full of appreciation,. Very very nice,.
Hallo.. I'm Indonesian Poet,.
Your words, your voice are reflection of your heart filled with so much beauty n love
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Feels like you are speaking for me!! Each and every word, how relevant, how close, it's exactly my story, what I have been dealing with since long! Thank you so much ♥️
Excellent piece
Please make more of these video