keep drawing, don't stop, use it to vent, it's what I do, it's a comfort place, a coping mechanism if you will. I hope you're doing well. this problem you're going through will have its place
I love to draw too! I think that it really helps with stress and makes every little bad thing about my day go away once I start creating things with my own hands and mind...I feel like every line I make is changing my perception of my world and that my emotions feel most at peace when I have a pencil/pen in my hands so I'm glad that you also feel good when you draw ^^) I know how a "home" can feel like as if you are trapped in a lions den and that it'll take time until you can escape from it so I want you to know that we believe in you and that you aren't alone here :) we are in this all together Just as long as you keep at what you love to do and don't give up on yourself as a creative and beautiful being!
Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words :) Until tomorrow, my friend :)
i honestly started crying while reading this. thank you so much, these were the words i needed to hear today, i return these words to you and hope you have an amazing day. - another random person on the internet
oh my! please don't... you have so much to live for!!! please don't do it! I want you to know that you are beautiful, smart, and important. I hope you have a great day... and may all your other days be great! Bless you! I'm so sorry you are feeling this way...please get better!
The therapy has helped a bit but they don’t understand how scared I am of myself. I know that I’m aggressive and have anger issues but I hide it insanely well. I seriously come so close to hurting someone and it generally terrifies me…
I can’t exactly relate to the anger part, but I can somewhat understand the fear. I’m always so paranoid that I’ll become a horrible person and spiral out of control and do something terrible.
same, the most obvious reason for me why im scared of myself because i dont know what im capable of doing. "will i be able to hold myself back?" but also me saying that proves that i unconsciously know what im capable of doing, and that scares me thank god i finally put it into words
My heart hurts so much..., I want to just graduate high school, go to college and Uni in California and make so much money that I never thought I could, and live so happy and free. The place I am in doesn't make me truly happy, just..happy. But I also don't want to leave everything behind. I want to cry, I want to cry so much.
You get to lose money, but get it back easily. Your comfort, privacy, and happiness is something hardest to find when you lose it. Think about what you want to do, and what you're willing to sacrifice for it. Celebrities never get a moment of privacy, or someone on social media spreading rumors, doctors are always on the run, and barely get any sleep, and rich people always have to worry about paying the bills, sustaining your business, and many more. We all make sacrifices, it just matters what we make them for. You don't have to listen to me, just something that I think is helpful when you don't know what path you have to choose for yourself. I hope this helps, lol
I really love my parents but they make my life a bit complicated, I get scared or anxious every time I have to talk to them cause I don’t want to say anything wrong or say something that causes them to scream at me. I like to go to school cause I don’t get to stay at home and stress over how I am or how I dress, yeah, school can stress me too but I can be myself and no one cares, just me, in school, I feel like my opinion is respected and valid I just hope to get out of my house as soon as I get a stable job and enough money. At the moment, I just can wait.
...ayo same 0-0 sometimes i talk with my cousins who also have difficult parents and we realize how they affected how we are today (like me with not being able to handle authority figures ÿelling at me" bc im so afraid to do the wrong thing or make mistakes, they're just so judgey and i hate it, itll be alright friend :)
I understand that. I cant stand being at home sometimes because no matter what happens, It seems like my sister is always yelling at me. I cant stand it but i cant do anything about it, my cousin who is always around us just tells us to stop yelling, and my mom just gets mad that me and my sister are fighting. And no matter what happens it feels like my fault even though i know its not.
being the jokester, loud friend myself you'd think i wouldn't be listening to something like this... but this playlist hit close to home for me... i guess even the extrovert, happy friend has had enough..
its painful to be the happy friend. please know that you have no obligation to put the people you loves mental state first. you deserve to feel bad sometimes. you're only human. and you matter so much. even if it feels selfish, you're allowed to put yourself first. stay safe. sincerely, a comedic relief friend.
I know how you feel just it was with a guy not a girl but don't worry touch please stay here with me I have to stay for someone I know I'm a stranger but maybe stay here for... Me I care about you and everyone else
(kinda of a vent) does anyone feel like you want to have that pain there. People keep writing about how your worth it and your loved but i don’t really want that i want to go back to how it was when it was really bad i miss that. i barley feel anything now and the pain was kinda really relieving. I also miss the way i would think when i was like that and all the hallucinations they were scary but i enjoyed the fear. How can I change when I don’t want to fix this. Update: I almost killed myself tonight and it was enough of a scare to know i really need help it’s 3:30am right now so i will be asking in the morning but please if you reading this just so you know it’s terrifying to almost do it i was barely able to stop myself from getting off my bed and doing it. it took everything i had. anyone who reads this all you need to do it make it till tomorrow that’s it nothing more just make it please i promise you it might not seem like it but it’s worth it update 2: i got worse and didn’t ask for help yet
TW: suic!dal thoughts, toxic parent (?), racist comments from parents, insecurities, I’ve always known my mental health or my thoughts weren’t exactly normal since I was quite little. I didn’t have a lot of friends and I don’t feel like some friends are there for me when I need to vent and I’m the therapist friend. I just feel like I have to be the adult all the time and be tough but I’m mentally and physically hurt. My parents refuse to take me to the physical and talk therapist I’m supposed to go to even though the hospital is literally calling them to ask if I’ve gone yet just because they think they’ll brainwash me into thinking that I’m not “normal”. They believe mental health exists but they think therapy only adds to it. I mean I guess it can happen but I felt ready to take action and better myself only to be shut down. I trusted my mom so much that maybe just maybe she’ll take me to physical therapy at least. My ankle hurts so bad for four years. Please it was her fault too because I’m the past I’ve told her numerous times that my ankle hurts to run on and soon walk on but she said it’s normal after spraining it but talking to people and searching it up, it isn’t. She straight up gets in a sour mood when I talk about my feelings and my mental health. I have times that last from two weeks to a month where I’m extremely suic!dal and can’t sleep but I act fine and smile and even get A’s on my tests but I’m struggling. I have many friends who is a particular race and the country their race is from and mine aren’t particularly on good terms. So my parents of course trash talk about their race and make horrible remarks saying it’s true and that there’s even proof. But my mom brings it up every time I have an issue with my friends saying “oh they’re acting like that because their race is like this blah blah” and she even had the audacity to laugh and ask why I always get pissed. It’s because they’re my friends and you shouldn’t smack talk about them, or make racist comments to their race. My dad at least doesn’t say it often and doesn’t smack talk my friends. They always ask the race of anyone and when I tell them they say their own stereotype of their race. I’m of course annoyed by this because they tell me “you can’t date this race because of blah blah” and “you shouldn’t be friends with them because of their race.” I’m so fucking pissed. I was crying and ranting after having a weirdly rough day today and my mom just interrupted to ask “wait can you talk after my question? Ok, what do you want for dinner.” With a smile as if unfazed by me crying and being slightly panicky and in pain because of my fucking ankle. Like ok I love food and that may help but really interrupt me? I feel like I can’t tell them that I’m struggling in any way or else I get a lecture. Like seriously I’ve been an angel and hid my insecurity and I felt like I could trust my mom to maybe give me advice but she asked “you’re pretty. You’re not ugly like so and so, so why are you crying?” First of all, rude to so and so, and second of all ok I may be pretty from your perspective but I don’t think I’m pretty or smart enough to be anything in the future. I can’t see my future at all. I have zero plans. I want to be a voice actor and my parents support it but refuse to put me in any vocal training as well and my mom thinks I can just ace any roles after watching RUclips videos. Like i can’t get advice through a video can I? I get the price is a little jarring but we literally live in a nice ass neighborhood and I go to one of the top ten public school like??? There may be other stuff idk I’m a minor. But what if I can’t be a successful voice actor in the future? I would need a different occupation. But what? I want to be a paleontologist but I’m not great at remembering dates and I’m a little bit too careless. I want to be a CSI but again I’m a bit careless and horrible at math and riddles gosh I hate them. Pharmacist? No. Teacher? No. Therapist? Can’t do that if I’m also unstable. Ugh I hate it here. I can’t even go to school therapist because they’re untrustworthy as fuck. Wow I sound so ungrateful for the things I have. I sound like a brat I just realized oops sorry. Anyways thanks for reading I’ve just been really pissy about things and have a lot of pent up anger towards my mom.
Me pasa también, tenemos una buena vida sobre todo, supongo. Pero me siento tan....¿Vacía? WHFJSKKXE no sé cómo explicarlo, ni siquiera sé que quiero estudiar o hacer, solo pienso en matarme y soy muy joven todavía pero aún me da más miedo pedir ayuda.
hello friend itll be alright and i felt that, if u ever need to vent or talk we can, my mom is a sterotypical asian mom who kinda killed my dreams while trying to make sure im prepaired in life and it hurts :') i believe in u
Childhood trama, parents fighting infront of me and my siblings when we didnt understand what was going on, being abused by my grandma, being sexually harassed four times, backstabbed, forgotten, bullied…crap happens, but it doesnt mean things wont get better, it did for me and i have learned to grow as a person, if i can you can too, but it doesnt mean its not gonna be there to haunt, all i can say it continue your story and grow, make sure no one goes through what you went though, and i hope you can heal over time, your not alone and you will never be alone! People are here for you, and i as a human will be there for you! (๑╹◡╹๑)
Im slowly losing myself , who ever is here i just want to say life will never be easy but i just want to say keep it together everything will be allright
I'm geniuenly surprised of how well the songs hit straight in my head,especially the ones i know. That painful feeling of knowing things weren't meant to be this way. _Or were they?_
Parents:its just a phase Friends :you just want attention! Teachers :stop with the excuses just admit your lazy Body: Plz stop hurting me the scars are too deep and im hungry Eyes :please just let me close Boyfriend :ur toxic, were done Mouth:why do you hide me with a smile?? Sketchbooks and music:let it all out.....im here for you
I always have this feeling that I just don’t want to exist in this reality. I keep hoping that the next time I go to sleep, I will wake up in a world I created in my mind where it has all my comfort characters and all my friends where people will take me more seriously
I need to get this out so im putting it here you can read it or not but its pretty much just gonna be a rant. lately there's been a voice in my head telling me that everybody hates me and that they'd be happier if i died. i legit sat in my room for like 10-15 minutes trying to convince myself otherwise. it kinda worked but not really. I really like to listen to music because its a way of escaping from reality for me so playlists like this one really help. anyways, if you read it through or not thanks for taking time off your day to read it.
Hm... Ik this isn't my business, but have things gotten better? I hope they do, even tho I'm a complete stranger, I still care about you, and everyone reading this, bc I'm substituting for the people that don't, and just one person who loves u can make a difference :) (No homo) I'll be here if u ever need to talk ❤️ -complete stranger that loves everyone
I hope that both of you are able to get better, I Want to let you know anyone can vent to me whenever shit gets too much, remember to eat something and drink water! Have a good day/night❤❤
I have a voice like that and when I look on the friend groups I had in middle school they seen way happier now than they ever did when my dumbass was hang out with them as if I was a burden so I believe all the word that voice tells me although it's wrong I just can't bring myself to go against it.
"One Day I Just Wanna Hear You Say 'I Like You'..." God, Yeah. I'd love for my friends to say they like me rather than to give me weird looks when I join the group...
SO UNDERRATED PLEASE POST MORE PLAYLISTS LIKE THESE!! I LOVE THE FACT THAT I DON'T HEAR LITERALLY ALL THE SAME SONGS IN OTHER PLAYLISTS WITH KIND OF VIBE, THANK YOU FOR THIS PLAYLIST, LOVED IT!
I never was the favorite child in my family. I was always treated differently than my older siblings. I thought it was because I was just the baby of the family. I grew up in a religious household, I basically grew up in the church. I went to church in a town called Jesup in the state of Georgia all the way up until 2nd grade, before that I lived in two different towns in Georgia, Hinesville and Ludowici. I barely ever knew my mother, I was told she just left us and lost custody of us in the court battle. I had a very young stepmother, she was in her early twenties when my dad and her got married. My father started drinking and would get drunk a lot after my parents joined a motorcycle association. Skip to 3rd grade, I got bullied so bad that year. The bullying only got worse and I realized that the reason why I was always treated differently from my older siblings is because my parents hated me. The bullying and abuse only got worse from there. In fifth grade the bullying was halfway to its breaking point. I could barely take it anymore and I said to my best friend as I was being bullied “See? This is why I want to die” a kid heard it and immediately told the counselor. I got lectured by the counselor for a long time. Things weren't so good when I got home that day I got yelled at by my dad. He was the worst when it came to abuse. I would get slapped, and he’d say it’s just a light pop to the face, but as we all know a light pop doesn’t leave a long term hand print on a face. I wish that parents will just love and understand their children. Things only went downhill from there, I would get punished for the stupidest reasons. I got the harder whoopings and my father would say it was to “toughen me up” of course that wasn’t the case. I had to watch idly by on a cold night in december of 2019 as my brother got socked in the stomach several times by the cruel man I used to call “Dad”. I was scared to death that I would be next but, to my surprise I wasn’t harmed at all that night, well other than a spanking. When It came to December of 2020 things got uncomfortable. We were on our way to North Carolina to meet my mother halfway so I could spend the Christmas Break with her. Things got weird on that trip though. My father started to touch me, and yes I mean what I said he literally put his hand on my lower area. When we made it to the meetup place my father handed me $40 unexpectedly, of course that was just a bribe to keep my mouth shut and I did. I played right into his little game, his little rabbit hole. When it came time for me to return back I broke down into tears and told mom everything that was going on. All the abuse and everything. I was so scared to return back to that house, it wasn’t a home for me, it was like a prison. When I got here to Ohio things were bad too. Mom and Dad are arguing a lot. Not everything in my life is a great as it seems.
"Is there really any value to this thing we call living?" -Osamu Dazai This quote really hit me, because I am still trying to find the meaning, the value of living, but unsuccesfully. I really just see life as a video game- there are just too many similarities between these two things. I just wanna leave, press the escape button and maybe return and start from zero as someone better, someone with higher value, someone, who can see the meaning of life.
Someone wanted to take anime away from me, it's one of my comfort things and it always make me happy. I'm afraid of being judged for the music I listen to bcs it's different than what my friends listen to, they listen to juice wrld and others, meanwhile I listen to depressive songs like miss wanna die and artists like citizen soldier bcs I relate to it, and I find comfort on what I feel Tbh it feels like those songs express what I can't say :)
I don’t really know what’s happening sometimes. I keep feeling like I’m tricking myself into feeling the way I do. There are some days when it’s so hard to socialize/be around people and all I want to do is throw up and cry. Then the next day I feel a bit better and then my brain is like “Attention seeker-you just pretend to be sad because you want to be different” Like- 👁👄👁
Hello, some tips on things that have really helped me get through Middle School for anyone that needs this you might not read at all I don't know how long it's going to be but whatever is going to help. Do not starve yourself it doesn't work I was doing that for a very long time and it got to the point where the thought of food and the smell and the taste would cause me to get very nauseous and feel like every second I was going to throw up but the second I started eating again I finally got into a normal habit and was a lot healthier and more energetic I stopped listening to what people said about me and I got to be the bigger person I'm not saying that you need to be super nice or really mean just to the point where someone's picking on you you don't let him do that and I know it's hard when you do get in trouble for standing up for yourself but sometimes even though it might be against a rule it doesn't mean that it's always morally bad. You are beautiful and people's beauty standards are just faced on some people who are a lot bigger in popularity so they're considered to be perfect but I know this sounds cliche but no one's perfect in the eyes of someone else and if you thought someone was you you wouldn't think that they were hideous ugly and undeserving of all the things in life. Don't be scared I know it's hard to always have a wall around you trying to block out everyone and everything I know it's hard to trust in people to help you I've done it many times myself I love the people I have trusted have betrayed me or done me wrong in some way so I stopped depending on people it started depending on myself which has mentally taking a toll on me but it's the only thing getting me through. Whatever people say about your outfit or the way you done your hair or what pronouns you go by what your sexuality is who you like doesn't matter it's not their life anyway it's yours and yours is perfect of however you dream for it to be. Life doesn't come knocking on your door you have to knock on it and even if it doesn't answer you're going to have to find a way in somehow on the inside it's whatever you dream of the best things that you can think of if you're alone or not alone just know that someone might not always be there for you but that doesn't mean that the world would be any better without you. you never know will you be in the future or a future partner looking for someone like you and only someone like you and it's hard because people take your self-worth but you can't let them do that because they're only taking it so they can gain some themselves but since it's not their actual self-worth from their mind it's just taking more away from them but if you don't let them have it then both of you will be a better person. Thank you to whoever made it to the end of this I hope that this helps you or changes your mind in some way but just know that you were loved by whoever you ever want to be loved by and I hope that you have a great time trying to figure out who you are or who you want to become. Bye,
even though i knew it was wrong i still did it. even though i knew it would hurt others i still did it. sometimes rage can drive a person over the edge. it can make people lose their consciousness. i should've listened
I thought college would be more fun but I forgot the fact that im actually a loner and i was fortunate enough to have friends around me and now i hate my college and i have no friends around me anymore
This was exactly my dilemma about a month ago, I dropped out because I couldn't handle it anymore. I felt so lonely and fake being there, like everyone around me wasn't real and I was entirely alone all the time. I don't really have advice but I do know exactly how you feel, you're not alone
Glad that this playlist exists. Just came hear to wash away the anxiety i stole from my friend. Thank you from making this. Also to anyone reading, if you need to talk I'll try my best to help, i might not be able to reply right away cuz timezones but still. Traumadump me, I'm more then happy to listen
So, yesterday I thought it would be a good idea telling my parents I'm trans, my whole entire family has been making fun of me for it and it doesn't feel like family anymoer just distant people I use to know as kind people
Little vent :) . . . . . . I just got on depression and anxiety medication the other day, one of the side-effects is increased suicidal thoughts. School has been really stressful lately, ive had to switch to completely online. No zoom meetings at all. Im being pressured to do my school work which is making me stress out even more than i already am. My mom is a manipulative bitch who doesnt take my feelings into consideration. She got mad at me for not doing my school work today, I explained to her that i am mentally tired and that school is really stressful for me rn and i needed a day off. I also almost had a panic attack again, i have had so many panic attacks over school. That just shows how fucked up school is. My sibling also bashed me for not doing my school work and invalidated my reason for not doing it, they played the victim card like they always do. My mom and brother always believe them when they say i did something to them. Its like i dont even exist sometimes. Everyone ignores me until they need me for something that will only help themself. Im sick and fucking tired of being treated this way, i get treated like im worthless. Im literally so close to just overdosing. No one cares about me anymore, no matter how much they tell me that they care i wont believe them. Everytime someone said that they cared for me they just ended up using me and leaving. I have no friends to talk to, I feel like the only person I can trust is myself, even than I cant really trust myself. I always get headaches daily, i cant see straight and my vision goes blurry. It got to the point that i fell over today, my sibling witnessed it and just yelled at me for it. They acted like i can control it, you'd think that something would click in their stupid brain and make them think that I need help?! But no. No one even notices that I dont eat anymore, at first they cared and was encouraging me to eat even though at the time I WAS eating. Now that I am starving myself they dont notice. Im begging for help but no one notices, i want to be honest with my therapist buy I cant. If im honest with her ill get sent to a psych ward. She thinks im low-risk, im definitely not. I am high-risk, I have lied to her, doctors, and other medical professionals and said that ive never hurt myself. BIG lie. I have so many times, but I know if I open up I'll get sent to a psych ward. I dont want that, even though it would be better than my house.. i might actually make friends that wont leave me for onve in my life. I just wish someone was there for me. Someone cared and understood me. But no one can do that. My sibling doesnt realize how much they hurt me mentally. If i could tell them, i would. I would do anything in the world to build up the courage and tell them how much they are breaking me. They're making me even more suicidal than I already am. Mom does as well, she acts liks she cares for me sooo much even though in reality she doesnt. She screams and yells at me and my siblings for just existing. Im slowly breaking. I dissociate for hours on end, i can remember nothing for hours, days, and even sometimes entire weeks. I just wish things could go back to normal. When I was happy, no cares in the world.. just joy and laughter. But I cant have that anymore. That went away a long time ago.. long as in 8 almost 9 years ago. Everything has felt so fake.. Like nothing is real anymore. One moment im laying down on my phone next moment I know im at the doctor again. I go to the doctor so often for so many medical problems. Im getting tested for autism which is good, but at the same time its not good. When my mom figured out that my brother had autism she babied him for a bit. I don't want that, my siblings already see me as the golden child. Which, yes. I am, they arent wrong. But i cant control that, our mom thinks that since im the youngest im still her baby. I will listen to her and do what she says, shes wrong though. I am old enough to form my own opinion and stand up for myself now, but she hasnt realized that yet. If i could make it so where i wasnt the golden child, i would. My sibling bashes me for being the golden child even though i have expressed to them SO many times that i can't control it and that i dont like that im the golden child either, they still yell at me for it. Im sick and tired of this, why cant I just be normal and have a normal caring family? Just imagine.. always happy, never fighting, not having any mental issues, not having an eating disorder.. life just being perfect.. Ty for reading have a good day
I'm also the youngest... my mom wants me to respect my sister who literally stabbed my arm, even after that...but I dont care anymore I feel so numb but I wanna feel number, I wanna go back to my ED, i wanna be suicidal again, I mean I still kinda am but idk, I just wanna feel numb again Hey, I hate school too.... atleast I found a way out of it( noone would understand...), im still in school though my mom is a narcissist bitch , Same I lied to my therapist...he thinks I am ok, actually better than my sister, mentally, I just answered every question perfectly, he just wouldn't understand.... I also had an eating disorder!!!! Idk how I even got better but im definitely going to relapse (like go back to starving) I am the black sheep in the family...soooo yeah, anyways I didn't read ur whole comment yet but yeah I totally get the emotions part, it used to be the same 4 me but I just stopped telling her or anyone, not my fake friends, not my sister(who doesn't listen wen I try to talk to her, she zones out, sooo yeah....) no one, Also get alot of panic attacks, and hve anxiety, worse one was because of my friends(I'm not close to them but like I guess I just walk with them) , and dad, like I get them alot but that one was really bad, I dont try to care anymore but it's kinda hard, again I would never tell my parents coz they would simply shout at me and say something like: "that's why ur gonna fail...or something stupid like that.... It's sad that ppl who are supposed to love u are actually the cause of most of our mental illnesses
I remember one time my parents got so mad at me and my sister plus they were giving here a lecture about something they mention something about me saying “Thanks to you you’re little sister thinks we’re the monster” my sister was my 2nd parent kinda I’m sometimes naturally scared of them.
I’m always worrying about others feeling but nobody worries about mines I am the only who worries, worries that I might get to the point of being suicidal again, when I tell someone how I feel it’s always “I don’t care” or they think I’m lying, but I’d never lie about my mental health. All I want is for someone to hug me and say they really care about me and love me. I silent cry everyday now and it hurts.
I don't even know how I feel or how I should react to anything anymore. I try my hardest but people just see me as lazy. As much as I love my parents they cause so much stress in my life expecting me to be a "perfect child" I love learning at school but students and teachers don't see that all of us aren't as fast of learners like some. Making it hard to fill in the gaps to learn. I want to be myself and tell people who I really am but I don't know how they would react/ if they would still see me the same. Some of us are just kids. I really do hate it here.....
I believe there are a lot of people who are suffering. I would like to say, you are all amazing, very strong and very patient. I know it doesn't have to look like this now, but it will get better, sometimes for sure, of course it would be best now, but as we all know, it's not possible. so for anyone trying to cut off the real world at least for a while. relax as much as you can, go outside if natural and other conditions allow it. Feel free to turn up the volume to the max, but again, be careful not to hurt your ears. Take a piece of paper and a pencil, for example, and just scribble. Take a deep breath and lie down or sit in any position. It's hard now, I know, but you can do it, yes. Do not doubt yourself, you are beautiful, even though some may need to ease the pain at the moment, by crying, you are strong, smart, kind, understanding and perfect at all. Please don't forget that. I love you, even though I don't know you, and I send you a long and loving hug or whatever you like. With this I say goodbye and go back to study. For you who also planned to learn, but you ended up here with the rest. Relax, time is only relative. That's all..Good night, morning or whatever part of the day. I love you.
@@Ihaveadog230 Oh you're welcome..I didn't thought someone will read this. Anyways.. I'm okay...my grades aren't so perfect as I want them to be but hey I did everything to make them perfect so if that didn't work out then whatever. But thank you for asking. 🤗
my parent's fight, am not a week clean, school is overwhelming, I have to be perfect, lgbtq+ and surrounded by homophobes I don't know if it can get better the only place I feel safe in my room or when am with my friends. I don't know if it will ever get better
I lost my bff of 3+ years recently, and it has hurt a lot. She would let me vent with her and she would comfort me and calm me down when I felt that there was no reason to live and she was always there..but now I lost her and I dont know what to do. She would make me feel comfortable and I would talk to her about things that I don't even feel comfortable talking to my mom about. She was my last friend since I lost my other bestie of 2- years and my mom made me loose contact with my other firends..I dont even know how to make friends now since im homeschooled and we don't go out much and so Ive been lonely..now i'm always doing my classes and just listen to music..and it hurts knowing that throughout the day I have no time for me since some days classes take 8+ hours. It is stressful dealing and constantly getting pushed around about grades and my brother, plus my family tend to think it is funny to insult my weight and other sentsitive stuff yet when I call my brother a rat or tap his head my parents start freaking out and start yelling at me! Like what the heck? He is 4 and spoiled rotten. Society has became more selfish and insensitive, parents are becoming more, and more blind and kids are becoming more and more upset about there life. Living is awful. This world sucks and and nobody understands, luckily us people have each other on the internet..hopefully someone understands me and could help..
I'm sorry this is currently happening to you. Although I can't really relate. i hope your life gets better soon. And as for your parents, have you ever tried calling them out on their bullshit? I'm sorry if this seems cliche or rude. But i hope life gets better for you.
Putting up this mask is so hard, I have to do it so my mom doesn't send me back to the hospital, they never helped in the first place, they kept me there for 5 days, put me on meds and kicked me out. I have to keep up my mask for my sister, who's going through things at school that I went through at her age. I have to keep my mask up for school, so I can pass. Whenever I do get a break from masking, people need me to be there for them, I can't say no to them. I put myself aside for others and I never get a break. I want to give myself a break but its so hard for me to actually be able to say no to someone. I've been trying to cry for a while, but my body won't let me cry since my sister is home and I don't want to risk her seeing me upset, I don't want people to see me vulnerable ever, at all, I don't want people to worry about me since I feel like a burden whenever I talk so I just cover everything up by either being happy, or I cover it by stupid memes and being an idiot.
When ever I’m panicking my mind always goes to a place we’re im the one doing the killing. It’s calming and it seems easy for me. Just going apeshit. A full on massacre in my brain. Inhale, people. Exhale, dead. It’s pretty bad actually, sometimes I look outside and I see people walking and I see what I could do to them. At stores, fictional characters, people in dreams, etc. Sometimes I see myself in the mirror and I get sad. It’s every where. I live death. I dream about it, think about it, I can smell it if it’s really bad. I used to want to be a doctor, to help and be able to stand in a room and do a surgery. Nah not anymore, I feel like if seen enough hurt to fill up a lifetime. I don’t want to die anymore, but I’m seeing death more that ever now.
Everything is so bad right now. I finally have the kind of friends I always wished for but now I'm constantly terrified that they're going to leave and that their closer with each other than me. I've gotten so out of control with my emotions thay I've resulted to taking it out on myself because I'm absolutely terrified I might hurt someone else if I don't. I don't want to hurt anyone but my head is slowly breaking apart and I can't figure out what to do anymore. Therapy did nothing and my anger issues just keep getting worse. I want to run away and leave this place behind but I'm afraid to at the same time. I need help but I'm too scared to ask. Save me, please.
My parents are constantly judging people’s weight on the TV making me uncomfortable to the point where I’m tempted to skip meals so they don’t judge me, and to add to the fact they’re making me feel like i can’t come out to them about being part of LGBTQ+ because they have literally taken my phone away because the saw my messages between me and my cousin about him being trans. ‘Rät’ really hits hard. “I hate it here”
i just want to be happy. i just want to live my life. i just want to have a loving family. i just want decent parents. but no. things gotta be shitty. i try to get better, i really do. its just so hard. all the time and effort and dedication and i have none of that. its just to hard
thinking if its worth even living anymore, not when literally everyone takes advantage of me, frames me, abandons me, resents me. all i did was try to be a good friend, good daughter, good sister, good neighbor, good HUMAN BEING. what did i do? why wont anyone forgive me?
it hurts a little that i dont even want to get better, im so used to the pain that im honestly a little scared to get 'better' and no one seems to understand because now i think that being sad is better than risking everything to be happy
i feel like my only 2 options in life are try to achieve my dream but be miserable. or give up and try to be happy. i just want to be happy and still have the thing I've wanted since elementary school. i just want to be happy. i just want to be normal.
Vent comment! TW. I sorta managed to somehow turn this into poetry um- It's 2:45 in the morning. Under my blanket, crying my eyes out, it's like this every night. I'm used to it. I haven't showered in what.... 6 days? My freinds blowing up my phone asking me if I'm okay, I'm not gonna respond to them. All he'll do is try to cheer me up by saying "Your perfect!" Or something gross like that. I feel hungry. I'm not gonna eat. I sit up from the pile of blankets. Disgust fills my stomach. This isn't my dream world. I look around my room. Messy. Gross. I look down at my body. A stomach that I can see better then my gross chest. I sit up and walk to my bathroom. I stand there for two minutes. Praying I'll be able to see who I want to see. I man with a flat chest and clear skin. Short hair. Just your classic punk boy.. please? I open my eyes. I have to puke. I run to the toilet. Emptying my stomach. What monster did I just see?! I saw a gross monster in the mirror. Someone with a gross chest, acne covering every inch of their fat body. Gross. Gross. Gross. Gross. Ew. Ew. I don't remember being gross. It's like this every night. This replying over and over again. 6 hours a night. If only I could be the "cute skinny" if this gets any worse I might give up. Gross.
Being at the point where one day everything feels amazing and then for the next week I go downhill quicker than a rollercoaster. 5 years I’ve dealt with this. It’s suffocating me. Everyday feels like I am fighting myself just to survive in this god forsaken world. I’m aware that putting this here is useless, but perhaps someone can offer so sort of comfort since everybody stopped caring at home. Sure they recognize that I’m upset, but that’s the furthest they’ll go with it. I know deep down they’ve given up on me. And to be honest, I’m about ready to give up on me too. I’m tired all the time, I don’t have any motivation, and when I do it always backfires on me. I wanna keep fighting but for 5 years it’s had no outcome other than making me feels worse. I can tell I’m declining in health, mental and physical. I’ve been eating less, not drinking as much water. I’ve been locking myself away. Social situations are a lot more draining then I remember them being. The only way I can feel normal is through video games. They’re my escape, my happy place. But lately it’s been affecting me negatively. I’ll be on for hours, and when I’m not on I’ll be very aggressive towards my family, not my friends because I quite literally have none. I don’t have a social life. I have breakdowns weekly. I can’t stand the silence, it gives me to much room to think. The memories I have are more like reliving a nightmare than the fond ones you normally hear about. I feel worthless, and I feel wounded. To be honest I’m an elephant on a bridge made of twigs right now, ready to snap at the slightest movement. I’m tired.
i needed this so bad. i’m going thru a lot. i started playing this and decided to draw. i made a beautiful artwork, a self portrait of the younger me surrounded by my questions for the man who raped me when i was 15. if anyone wants to know some of the questions: “was i worth it?” “did you cry too?” “what about me did you like?” “do you know you killed me?” “are you proud to be the first man to touch me?” “are you sorry?” the title of the artwork is: To: _____ the man who raped me
Im so sorry that has happened to you. Please know You're loved and cared for. That man is an asshole and such a terrible man. I hope you're doing better than before. Love you
love this playlist, from the music to how everyone can express themselves down in the comments. aside from the playlist i also love whomever is scrolling through the comments to acknowledge other's situation and the ones who is brave enough to express their feelings. i might not completely understand you current situation nor your feelings, but you should know that i fking love you. of course, i too hate this disgusting and toxic society. future once seemed like a dream to me too, but the toxicity of my surrounding crushed my dreams into pieces. "is there really any value to this thing called living?". the answer is no. life it self is really just an long period of time where you meet people and develop interests. i might just be a kid who have really never realized how the society really is. all i know is that, no matter how much you hate this place, you will always have two options, "to die or not to die". if you decided to die, die naked. if you cant, you are not ready to do so. enough of the depressing talk, PLEASE learn to appreciate yourselves. YOU are worth everything. just if my death can make everyone happy, it would be an honor to to so. YOU are the one in control of your life. make the dictions for YOURSELVES, NOT for others. from: a 13 yr kid who is trying her best to cheer u up :)
I haven't liked it here for a while I thought it couldn't be worse but then my dad found out I was dating someone and I'm non binary, he banned me from seeing my girlfriend, seeing her was the only thing I was looking forward to, plus he has not used my correct pronoun's once since he found out, and now I hate it here.
I'm lazy too much to say it all in english so I'm just gonna say it in my national lenguage. Eu me odeio muito. Não odeio pessoas, escola, minha casa e nenhum outro lugar. As pessoas podem me magoar muito, mas eu não vou odiar elas, pois o meu ódio por mim mesmo supera tudo. Meu corpo é nojento e feio, meu rosto é cheio de espinhas e olheiras, minha personalidade é uma merda e sou completamente preguiçoso e inútil. É incrível como eu consigo trazer prejuízos para todos por simplesmente existir. Essa melancolia toda também me faz odiar à mim mesmo mais ainda, tipo, foda-se os meus sentimentos tristinhos de adolescente, eu preciso melhorar e ser forte, não uma ameba burra. Se pudesse, eu seria uma alga ou uma planta, qualquer coisa que me faça menos pior do que eu já sou. Eu sou um completo lixo descartável sem no mínimo um futuro decente, é decepcionante ser essa desgraça e ainda ser amado... Se não fosse um completo covarde e ninguém me amasse, eu provavelmente já teria me encravado uma faca na garganta.
I am an extroverted person surrounded by friends at school and support from my parents, but holy shit this playlist made me cry. I'm more stressed than I thought, and to those out there who are having it worse than me, please, don't give up. Get the help you need, and if it's unavailable, find a reason to keep living. It could be a small childhood object, your bed, the fact that you hate existence so much you just want to keep living out of spite, anything. Please, don't give up. Heck, dm me if you want to vent. I'll be there. We'll be there. Just don't give up.
I completely understand, stress is difficult to deal with, and understanding how you feel is one of the most difficult steps, but you really did say it yourself. you should never give up, even if you struggle, and sometimes finding that reason to keep going, which may not be a whole lot admittedly, really can keep you going.
For a few weeks I feel like I really hate everyone I know and that they hate me too. I'm mad at myself that I have so much anger in me, I feel hopeless, I want to cry because of it. I feel bad about hating people, but also i know I hate them for a reason. I am overwhelmed when i sit in my class and hear all this people, i just want to disappear
tw: suicidal ideation yes, it does. I used to think i was a worthless, no good, lazy, piece of shit, and when i was at my lowest all my friends left me and belittled my own needs. needless to say this led me to the edge and i attempted. obviously it was a fail, but after that i went to and iop (intensive outpatient) program. there i learned that art, and music is the way i express how i feel, think, or react to different situations. ----- what you need to figure out is what works for you. Do you see writing journals as helpful? Drawing, painting, coloring, playing video games, or even something a simple as being more mindful like watching the clouds or stars.
One day, i had a sister how truly cares for me alot! One day, she quit being sister.. she commited suicide. After that.. my parents and my whole fricking family fights every time.i get trauma everytime i hear it. I already know how it felt. no need to tell me i already know iam dumb and selfish. I wish i wad like you. You are smart,beautiful,kind AND i would never be such a darling like you! Its my honour to you. My words. Your heart. Keep your heart burning. -from a stranger that loved you 💕
i dont even know who i am anymore. my "home" isn't my home anymore, i'm drifting from irl friends, and everything i do feels like a waste of effort and time. i just want help..
The title 'i hate it here' explains how I feel at school or while getting ready or the day before the weekend is over But the thing is it not because I hate test and all that I don't care about test anyways or my grades but it's because my grade is full of people that are annoying makes jokes a lot and could make you sad when they joke and the rest is full of people you shouldn't trust one reason is because they I guess kinda bullied/made fun of people(manly just one person just because she sings a lot at school I know the reason why she sings and it's annoying when they tell her to stop) they still hate her for like no reason I mean yes she is a bit annoying and drags me everywhere but even so she is still nice I don't get why people hate people who are nice there was a new student she was starting to copy people or something like that or that's what I heard honestly the people in my grade is a mess or well the personalities some ate annoying not trust worthy and I feel like they would actually hurt someone I really don't want to be in that school I know its stupid to complain about but I messed a lot of school because of that and got a warning even though school hadn't start that long ago maybe like 2 months ago I tried going to a new school and I wasn't excepted or something so now im stuck in this school yay for me and not to mention once I fail my grade I well be stuck with more annoying people I may just yell at them when I finally can't control my angry at school anymore I forgot one thing about like 2 people maybe 3 or 4 are nice the rest are like not trust worthy and others are annoying
I have a good family, good things, everything... But god, I hate living here so much. I try so hard to not hyperventilate every day I wake up. I miss the sea, my old friends, the memories, everything... Where I live now, I'm surrounded by tragic people. All I ever hear is "So how many times did you cut yourself last night? Bet you didn't get more than me" or "I don't see myself living in a couple months"... I just feel so horrible, I'm miserable here, and the best part? Even if by some miracle I am able to move back to where I used to live, it won't feel the same. It won't have that childhood nostalgia and god.. I just.. I don't care where I go, I just don't want to be here. I want to be somewhere- *anywhere* else.
My older brother is really down all the time, even if he jokes about stuff. It really hurts seeing your siblings like that instead of what they are usually like, but I won't let it get to me. I'm trying all that I can to help him but to keep him comfortable as well, like y'know joking around and watching stuff together. He's starting to get better, hanging out with friends irl or on vc, but he still seems a little off sometimes. I over worry about situations as if he is going to get back to his previous state, but I know with a bit of time and company, things WILL get better. I hope that you, whoever you are, are doing okay. No matter what you're going through, there are millions of people to talk to. Even If it doesn't seem like it in real life, I know that feeling. Just me, myself and my problems hehe. I really hope some of the things listed here will help - Go take a rest, or just lay down and close your eyes somewhere comfortable. Try not to think too much about your problems, think about things that make you smile or laugh. Give your mind a rest for a little. - Take a shower, warm or cold, whatever u like lol - Go get some walter and drink. - Go outside and get some air. I know this might not be the solution to everyone's problems instantly, but I hope it at least helps and calms down people, even for just a little while. Thank you for reading, have a wonderful rest of your hours of your day
I'm in a relationship with somebody I pretend to love, I used to love them and I still care for them just they're going through some bad stuff and they're really sad and depressed. I don't want to make it worse for them. I'm also pretty scared of this person...they've hurt me and violated me. Does that make me selfish? Does that make me a horrible person for staying in the relationship when I know I don't love them. be honest, I don't want your pity. should I break up with them so I don't make it worse later? But we promised a lot and planned a lot. I'm too empathetic, or maybe not empathetic enough? I also just hate the world (Except my besties) I know I want to make a difference because I've been sad my whole life and got tired of it. Because I discovered that i'm systemically effected to hate myself in order to keep me submissive. So I wanted to become a bad bitch. And I know I want to make a difference and i've been thinking of trying presidency in order to make change. But the person I'm with is kind of weighing me down it's sad to say but, as much as I care for them it's hard to deny. Does that make me selfish? I wanted to put myself first for a change but I feel too darn much. I even feel bad saying that because I fear not caring and being selfish but I don't have any room to grow to better myself... This is so hard. Jeez you're still here?
hey so obviously im no one to make a judgement but sometimes, you need to prioritize yourself over them. It doesn't matter (well, yes it does) but it's going to hurt them anyways. Sooner or later, you're both going to have to face it. If you are in danger, physically or mentally or if you're unsafe, then, no matter what, you have to whatever it means to keep yourself safe. I understand you don't want to hurt them but if that means that you're hurt then you really need to make a decision. If they bring you down, it doesn't make you selfish at all, it's the truth. As painful as it is, sometimes you need to think about yourself. I really hope this helps and I hope you stay safe >3
its not wrong to leave them when they are low, once it starts affecting you and being toxic its best to leave. Sometimes you cant help/change/fix someone by loving them enough, itll be alright and i know how u feel :/ u should break up with them and focus on ur self, heal and thrive friend :)
i feel so hopeless now tbh. my grades arent to my expectations although i studied so hard. like i feel so discouraged now. not only that, i get so irritated easily now these days. the same bad feeling is coming back. i thought i was getting better
When i go to school u always makes Jokes like "Hey, come we're going to kill ourself with Dazai on the top of our school" to my friends, they always laugh and i too, but imma being honest with you, it's not always a joke... (:
i have never had anyone in my whole living career, the one friend i had was in kindergarten but they just left me for another, up until now im still all alone and i've never had anyone to share my feelings with, im an only child and that just makes it so much worse, i grew up and i still am lonely, and all i can do is comfort myself. its so easy for others to just make friends while im here struggling so much, i just want to get out of here already. i want to restart my life and start over again
It will be over soon. I'll be free. In a place where there is no pain. That day is coming and I can't wait to leave this earth. Nothing keeps me here, nothing makes me happy, so I have to leave. I hope you, the person who is Reading this, have a great life! I wish you all the Best, I really mean it, you deserve it. I love every single one of you. Bye :)
when you 3 bestfriends have a matching pfp saying that ur gonna have it for eternity and then one day you see them having matching pfp leaving your pfp no one to match with and ignoring u 😊Dw i hate all people equally, i knew it. trios never work. damn i just wanna have someone to trust
IF SOMEONE IS VENTING IN THE COMMENTS, DO NOT TRAUMADUMP TO THEM WITHOUT PERMISSION. ITS RUDE. BE RESPECTFUL HERE.
What's traumadumping?
@@nonoo2157 dumping ur own trauma on others i believe
@@kaidenzworld oh.
fun fact : I'm actually watching Bungo Stray Dogs right now I'm just watching this cause it ain't loadeing
👏This👏
I hate that people tr4uma dump people even tho they never chose to have tr4uma.
I really hate my "home", ofc except for my room... But it's makes me feel really good when I draw
What type of draw... I draw too if it's what I think it is :) talk to me if u need to, okay?
keep drawing, don't stop, use it to vent, it's what I do, it's a comfort place, a coping mechanism if you will. I hope you're doing well. this problem you're going through will have its place
I love to draw too! I think that it really helps with stress and makes every little bad thing about my day go away once I start creating things with my own hands and mind...I feel like every line I make is changing my perception of my world and that my emotions feel most at peace when I have a pencil/pen in my hands so I'm glad that you also feel good when you draw ^^)
I know how a "home" can feel like as if you are trapped in a lions den and that it'll take time until you can escape from it so I want you to know that we believe in you and that you aren't alone here :) we are in this all together Just as long as you keep at what you love to do and don't give up on yourself as a creative and beautiful being!
This is the best comment I’ve ever related so much to
Litereally me
" when the only place you feel safe is your room but your parent's doesn't let you stay at your room because they think you do drug "
I Hate It Here.
me too
Same :/ if you ever need to vent or anything reply to my comment, i love you baby :)🤍
@@kisskaashi thanks
Same, I’m not allowed to bring any electronics up into my room, and they keep a camera in my room that’s on all times
One day you'll be able to leave forever :]
Dear person whoever reads this,
Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile.
Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs.
Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
I love you and send you hugs.
You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you.
YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.
I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC.
You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice.
You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is.
Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN.
I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.
It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you.
I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go.
I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.??
I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night.
If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you.
If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits.
If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :)
Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out.
Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up.
I am sorry you feel misunderstood.
But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :).
Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?!
- The stranger that cares about you more than anything.
I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay.
This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it.
And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you.
I hope you will remember my words :)
Until tomorrow, my friend :)
i honestly started crying while reading this. thank you so much, these were the words i needed to hear today, i return these words to you and hope you have an amazing day.
- another random person on the internet
@@phonecharger9958 I hope you also have an amazing day and thank you
Your an angel❤️
Thank you i started crying because life hasnt been kind lately
-a random person on the internet
@@jada5466 you are as well
I don't know how much longer I can hold on.. all I know.. is that I'm not gonna last much longer.
oh my! please don't... you have so much to live for!!! please don't do it! I want you to know that you are beautiful, smart, and important. I hope you have a great day... and may all your other days be great! Bless you! I'm so sorry you are feeling this way...please get better!
please dont say that, my friend said something like that and hurt herself, i'm sorry you feel like this.. we love you.
ah same. i apologize for your life, i wish i could help. i wish you luck.
in fact, take mine.
@@addie918 y’all please… don’t do it..
@@Gia10210 nothings gonna get better, and i see no clear reason not to.
Wow,I was venting and everyone started to traumadump in the replies
hope you'll feel better :
Ahm,
I'm 11, and I uhm...
I draw....
If ykyk
@@faithlucarelli7996 me too, i don't know what is happening. 🕴️
Me too.
Can relate. Im 11 years old and im slowly going insane.
The therapy has helped a bit but they don’t understand how scared I am of myself. I know that I’m aggressive and have anger issues but I hide it insanely well. I seriously come so close to hurting someone and it generally terrifies me…
Same here 😀
I can’t exactly relate to the anger part, but I can somewhat understand the fear. I’m always so paranoid that I’ll become a horrible person and spiral out of control and do something terrible.
Anyway, I hope y’all are doing well!
@Im.doing.Nøth!ng Same
same, the most obvious reason for me why im scared of myself because i dont know what im capable of doing. "will i be able to hold myself back?" but also me saying that proves that i unconsciously know what im capable of doing, and that scares me
thank god i finally put it into words
My heart hurts so much..., I want to just graduate high school, go to college and Uni in California and make so much money that I never thought I could, and live so happy and free.
The place I am in doesn't make me truly happy, just..happy. But I also don't want to leave everything behind.
I want to cry, I want to cry so much.
Hold on to that want. You have control over your life. I believe it. I believe in you. It will happen one day! I’m here to listen if you need it!
You get to lose money, but get it back easily. Your comfort, privacy, and happiness is something hardest to find when you lose it. Think about what you want to do, and what you're willing to sacrifice for it. Celebrities never get a moment of privacy, or someone on social media spreading rumors, doctors are always on the run, and barely get any sleep, and rich people always have to worry about paying the bills, sustaining your business, and many more.
We all make sacrifices, it just matters what we make them for.
You don't have to listen to me, just something that I think is helpful when you don't know what path you have to choose for yourself. I hope this helps, lol
I can relate to this so much
I don’t know if I can hold on any longer I hate myself. I hate it here. But the same time. I love it here I can’t decide😭
I really love my parents but they make my life a bit complicated, I get scared or anxious every time I have to talk to them cause I don’t want to say anything wrong or say something that causes them to scream at me.
I like to go to school cause I don’t get to stay at home and stress over how I am or how I dress, yeah, school can stress me too but I can be myself and no one cares, just me, in school, I feel like my opinion is respected and valid
I just hope to get out of my house as soon as I get a stable job and enough money. At the moment, I just can wait.
...ayo same 0-0 sometimes i talk with my cousins who also have difficult parents and we realize how they affected how we are today (like me with not being able to handle authority figures ÿelling at me" bc im so afraid to do the wrong thing or make mistakes, they're just so judgey and i hate it, itll be alright friend :)
@@galenavang427 yeah, just really hope everything gets better for everyone, good luck with like ig (I’m sorry I’m just really awkward)
I understand that. I cant stand being at home sometimes because no matter what happens, It seems like my sister is always yelling at me. I cant stand it but i cant do anything about it, my cousin who is always around us just tells us to stop yelling, and my mom just gets mad that me and my sister are fighting. And no matter what happens it feels like my fault even though i know its not.
This was probably one of the most relatable things I every read besides that I’m homeschooled
Same here but my parents get annoyed the first few seconds I talk
✨TIMESTAMPS✨
If I killed someone for you: Alec Benjamin
0:01 - 3:44
Freaks: Surf Curse
3:45 - 6:43
Washing Machine Heart: Mitski
6:44 - 10:01
Break it off: Pink Pantheress
10:02 - 11:53
Rät: Penelope Scott
11:54 - 15:31
Hey kids x Mikan: Molina
15:32 - 20:42
Brutal: Olivia Rodrigo
20:43 - 23:02
Legs Away: Mother Mother
23:03 - 26:39
The lonely: Christina Perri
26:40 - 30:28
I can't handle change: Roar
30:34 - 33:07
(Please let me know if I messed anything up)
Ty!
Thanks!
thanks :))
Why isn't this pinned-
Ty tho :D
that confused the shit out of me
being the jokester, loud friend myself you'd think i wouldn't be listening to something like this... but this playlist hit close to home for me...
i guess even the extrovert, happy friend has had enough..
Being the funny one doesn't mean your not the one who's hurting. Even if it's small it matters. And I know this is late but I hope your ok.
@@Therabeeee thank you
@@Maxwell_The_Pencil your welcome! Anytime
its painful to be the happy friend. please know that you have no obligation to put the people you loves mental state first. you deserve to feel bad sometimes. you're only human. and you matter so much. even if it feels selfish, you're allowed to put yourself first. stay safe. sincerely, a comedic relief friend.
@@rat3645 thank you, your words are appreciated more than you know- i know it's sappy, but thank you
the title is too relatable, the world sucks right now :/
Not only now
since when did the world not suck
@@snowwolf507 same:
It always sucked lmao
She seems so much happier without me. I wish I didn't exist... if I didn't exist, I wouldn't have hurt her
Stay, please. I want to not exist too, but lets stick around, and make it through this together.
Hey, it'll be okay. I could try to give you advice if you tell me what you're going through :)
forgive yourself
I know how you feel just it was with a guy not a girl but don't worry touch please stay here with me I have to stay for someone I know I'm a stranger but maybe stay here for... Me I care about you and everyone else
(kinda of a vent)
does anyone feel like you want to have that pain there. People keep writing about how your worth it and your loved but i don’t really want that i want to go back to how it was when it was really bad i miss that. i barley feel anything now and the pain was kinda really relieving. I also miss the way i would think when i was like that and all the hallucinations they were scary but i enjoyed the fear. How can I change when I don’t want to fix this.
Update: I almost killed myself tonight and it was enough of a scare to know i really need help it’s 3:30am right now so i will be asking in the morning but please if you reading this just so you know it’s terrifying to almost do it i was barely able to stop myself from getting off my bed and doing it. it took everything i had. anyone who reads this all you need to do it make it till tomorrow that’s it nothing more just make it please i promise you it might not seem like it but it’s worth it
update 2: i got worse and didn’t ask for help yet
hey dude, hope you are doing ok at the moment, hopefully you got someone to talk too. Proud of you for stopping yourself
I hope you're ok :((
I'm glad you're alive, stay strong
I can relate sometimes I just want to feel sad or depressed for some reason
Hey! I hope your okay! I get you. The fear I almost enjoy but it's terrifying. I REALLY HOPE YOU ARE SAFE❤
I’m so proud of you for stopping yourself and hanging on!
TW: suic!dal thoughts, toxic parent (?), racist comments from parents, insecurities,
I’ve always known my mental health or my thoughts weren’t exactly normal since I was quite little. I didn’t have a lot of friends and I don’t feel like some friends are there for me when I need to vent and I’m the therapist friend. I just feel like I have to be the adult all the time and be tough but I’m mentally and physically hurt. My parents refuse to take me to the physical and talk therapist I’m supposed to go to even though the hospital is literally calling them to ask if I’ve gone yet just because they think they’ll brainwash me into thinking that I’m not “normal”. They believe mental health exists but they think therapy only adds to it. I mean I guess it can happen but I felt ready to take action and better myself only to be shut down. I trusted my mom so much that maybe just maybe she’ll take me to physical therapy at least. My ankle hurts so bad for four years. Please it was her fault too because I’m the past I’ve told her numerous times that my ankle hurts to run on and soon walk on but she said it’s normal after spraining it but talking to people and searching it up, it isn’t. She straight up gets in a sour mood when I talk about my feelings and my mental health. I have times that last from two weeks to a month where I’m extremely suic!dal and can’t sleep but I act fine and smile and even get A’s on my tests but I’m struggling.
I have many friends who is a particular race and the country their race is from and mine aren’t particularly on good terms. So my parents of course trash talk about their race and make horrible remarks saying it’s true and that there’s even proof. But my mom brings it up every time I have an issue with my friends saying “oh they’re acting like that because their race is like this blah blah” and she even had the audacity to laugh and ask why I always get pissed. It’s because they’re my friends and you shouldn’t smack talk about them, or make racist comments to their race. My dad at least doesn’t say it often and doesn’t smack talk my friends. They always ask the race of anyone and when I tell them they say their own stereotype of their race. I’m of course annoyed by this because they tell me “you can’t date this race because of blah blah” and “you shouldn’t be friends with them because of their race.” I’m so fucking pissed. I was crying and ranting after having a weirdly rough day today and my mom just interrupted to ask “wait can you talk after my question? Ok, what do you want for dinner.” With a smile as if unfazed by me crying and being slightly panicky and in pain because of my fucking ankle. Like ok I love food and that may help but really interrupt me? I feel like I can’t tell them that I’m struggling in any way or else I get a lecture.
Like seriously I’ve been an angel and hid my insecurity and I felt like I could trust my mom to maybe give me advice but she asked “you’re pretty. You’re not ugly like so and so, so why are you crying?” First of all, rude to so and so, and second of all ok I may be pretty from your perspective but I don’t think I’m pretty or smart enough to be anything in the future. I can’t see my future at all. I have zero plans. I want to be a voice actor and my parents support it but refuse to put me in any vocal training as well and my mom thinks I can just ace any roles after watching RUclips videos. Like i can’t get advice through a video can I? I get the price is a little jarring but we literally live in a nice ass neighborhood and I go to one of the top ten public school like??? There may be other stuff idk I’m a minor. But what if I can’t be a successful voice actor in the future? I would need a different occupation. But what? I want to be a paleontologist but I’m not great at remembering dates and I’m a little bit too careless. I want to be a CSI but again I’m a bit careless and horrible at math and riddles gosh I hate them. Pharmacist? No. Teacher? No. Therapist? Can’t do that if I’m also unstable. Ugh I hate it here. I can’t even go to school therapist because they’re untrustworthy as fuck.
Wow I sound so ungrateful for the things I have. I sound like a brat I just realized oops sorry. Anyways thanks for reading I’ve just been really pissy about things and have a lot of pent up anger towards my mom.
Me pasa también, tenemos una buena vida sobre todo, supongo. Pero me siento tan....¿Vacía? WHFJSKKXE no sé cómo explicarlo, ni siquiera sé que quiero estudiar o hacer, solo pienso en matarme y soy muy joven todavía pero aún me da más miedo pedir ayuda.
hello friend itll be alright and i felt that, if u ever need to vent or talk we can, my mom is a sterotypical asian mom who kinda killed my dreams while trying to make sure im prepaired in life and it hurts :') i believe in u
Omg this playlist make me remember some shit from the last year , that hurt
I hope you're at least a little better now. Love u, unknown person
this comment made me remember some shit fromlast year... hits different now.
Childhood trama, parents fighting infront of me and my siblings when we didnt understand what was going on, being abused by my grandma, being sexually harassed four times, backstabbed, forgotten, bullied…crap happens, but it doesnt mean things wont get better, it did for me and i have learned to grow as a person, if i can you can too, but it doesnt mean its not gonna be there to haunt, all i can say it continue your story and grow, make sure no one goes through what you went though, and i hope you can heal over time, your not alone and you will never be alone! People are here for you, and i as a human will be there for you! (๑╹◡╹๑)
You are the purest soul my dear ❤
Im slowly losing myself , who ever is here i just want to say life will never be easy but i just want to say keep it together everything will be allright
I'm geniuenly surprised of how well the songs hit straight in my head,especially the ones i know.
That painful feeling of knowing things weren't meant to be this way.
_Or were they?_
Parents:its just a phase
Friends :you just want attention!
Teachers :stop with the excuses just admit your lazy
Body: Plz stop hurting me the scars are too deep and im hungry
Eyes :please just let me close
Boyfriend :ur toxic, were done
Mouth:why do you hide me with a smile??
Sketchbooks and music:let it all out.....im here for you
I always have this feeling that I just don’t want to exist in this reality. I keep hoping that the next time I go to sleep, I will wake up in a world I created in my mind where it has all my comfort characters and all my friends where people will take me more seriously
I need to get this out so im putting it here you can read it or not but its pretty much just gonna be a rant. lately there's been a voice in my head telling me that everybody hates me and that they'd be happier if i died. i legit sat in my room for like 10-15 minutes trying to convince myself otherwise. it kinda worked but not really. I really like to listen to music because its a way of escaping from reality for me so playlists like this one really help. anyways, if you read it through or not thanks for taking time off your day to read it.
Hm... Ik this isn't my business, but have things gotten better? I hope they do, even tho I'm a complete stranger, I still care about you, and everyone reading this, bc I'm substituting for the people that don't, and just one person who loves u can make a difference :)
(No homo)
I'll be here if u ever need to talk ❤️
-complete stranger that loves everyone
@@faithlucarelli7996 im doing better thanks for your concern i hope you have a good day!
I hope that both of you are able to get better, I Want to let you know anyone can vent to me whenever shit gets too much, remember to eat something and drink water! Have a good day/night❤❤
@@faithlucarelli7996 no probs :)
I have a voice like that and when I look on the friend groups I had in middle school they seen way happier now than they ever did when my dumbass was hang out with them as if I was a burden so I believe all the word that voice tells me although it's wrong I just can't bring myself to go against it.
"One Day I Just Wanna Hear You Say 'I Like You'..."
God, Yeah. I'd love for my friends to say they like me rather than to give me weird looks when I join the group...
I love how so many people opened up on how they feel and what happened in there life.
SO UNDERRATED PLEASE POST MORE PLAYLISTS LIKE THESE!! I LOVE THE FACT THAT I DON'T HEAR LITERALLY ALL THE SAME SONGS IN OTHER PLAYLISTS WITH KIND OF VIBE, THANK YOU FOR THIS PLAYLIST, LOVED IT!
i saw that in the title it says a vent playlist, are you doing okay? make sure that you get some sleep, food and water and everything will be okay
I never was the favorite child in my family. I was always treated differently than my older siblings. I thought it was because I was just the baby of the family. I grew up in a religious household, I basically grew up in the church. I went to church in a town called Jesup in the state of Georgia all the way up until 2nd grade, before that I lived in two different towns in Georgia, Hinesville and Ludowici. I barely ever knew my mother, I was told she just left us and lost custody of us in the court battle. I had a very young stepmother, she was in her early twenties when my dad and her got married. My father started drinking and would get drunk a lot after my parents joined a motorcycle association. Skip to 3rd grade, I got bullied so bad that year. The bullying only got worse and I realized that the reason why I was always treated differently from my older siblings is because my parents hated me. The bullying and abuse only got worse from there. In fifth grade the bullying was halfway to its breaking point. I could barely take it anymore and I said to my best friend as I was being bullied “See? This is why I want to die” a kid heard it and immediately told the counselor. I got lectured by the counselor for a long time.
Things weren't so good when I got home that day I got yelled at by my dad. He was the worst when it came to abuse. I would get slapped, and he’d say it’s just a light pop to the face, but as we all know a light pop doesn’t leave a long term hand print on a face. I wish that parents will just love and understand their children. Things only went downhill from there, I would get punished for the stupidest reasons. I got the harder whoopings and my father would say it was to “toughen me up” of course that wasn’t the case. I had to watch idly by on a cold night in december of 2019 as my brother got socked in the stomach several times by the cruel man I used to call “Dad”. I was scared to death that I would be next but, to my surprise I wasn’t harmed at all that night, well other than a spanking.
When It came to December of 2020 things got uncomfortable. We were on our way to North Carolina to meet my mother halfway so I could spend the Christmas Break with her. Things got weird on that trip though. My father started to touch me, and yes I mean what I said he literally put his hand on my lower area. When we made it to the meetup place my father handed me $40 unexpectedly, of course that was just a bribe to keep my mouth shut and I did. I played right into his little game, his little rabbit hole. When it came time for me to return back I broke down into tears and told mom everything that was going on. All the abuse and everything. I was so scared to return back to that house, it wasn’t a home for me, it was like a prison. When I got here to Ohio things were bad too. Mom and Dad are arguing a lot. Not everything in my life is a great as it seems.
"Is there really any value to this thing we call living?" -Osamu Dazai
This quote really hit me, because I am still trying to find the meaning, the value of living, but unsuccesfully. I really just see life as a video game- there are just too many similarities between these two things. I just wanna leave, press the escape button and maybe return and start from zero as someone better, someone with higher value, someone, who can see the meaning of life.
I forgot that you can only click the subscribe button once. this was lovely
Music:On
World/problems:Off
Remember guys,nobody can take music away from you. It won't leave it hurt you guys.
Someone wanted to take anime away from me, it's one of my comfort things and it always make me happy.
I'm afraid of being judged for the music I listen to bcs it's different than what my friends listen to, they listen to juice wrld and others, meanwhile I listen to depressive songs like miss wanna die and artists like citizen soldier bcs I relate to it, and I find comfort on what I feel
Tbh it feels like those songs express what I can't say :)
I don’t really know what’s happening sometimes. I keep feeling like I’m tricking myself into feeling the way I do. There are some days when it’s so hard to socialize/be around people and all I want to do is throw up and cry. Then the next day I feel a bit better and then my brain is like “Attention seeker-you just pretend to be sad because you want to be different”
Like- 👁👄👁
Hello, some tips on things that have really helped me get through Middle School for anyone that needs this you might not read at all I don't know how long it's going to be but whatever is going to help. Do not starve yourself it doesn't work I was doing that for a very long time and it got to the point where the thought of food and the smell and the taste would cause me to get very nauseous and feel like every second I was going to throw up but the second I started eating again I finally got into a normal habit and was a lot healthier and more energetic I stopped listening to what people said about me and I got to be the bigger person I'm not saying that you need to be super nice or really mean just to the point where someone's picking on you you don't let him do that and I know it's hard when you do get in trouble for standing up for yourself but sometimes even though it might be against a rule it doesn't mean that it's always morally bad. You are beautiful and people's beauty standards are just faced on some people who are a lot bigger in popularity so they're considered to be perfect but I know this sounds cliche but no one's perfect in the eyes of someone else and if you thought someone was you you wouldn't think that they were hideous ugly and undeserving of all the things in life. Don't be scared I know it's hard to always have a wall around you trying to block out everyone and everything I know it's hard to trust in people to help you I've done it many times myself I love the people I have trusted have betrayed me or done me wrong in some way so I stopped depending on people it started depending on myself which has mentally taking a toll on me but it's the only thing getting me through. Whatever people say about your outfit or the way you done your hair or what pronouns you go by what your sexuality is who you like doesn't matter it's not their life anyway it's yours and yours is perfect of however you dream for it to be. Life doesn't come knocking on your door you have to knock on it and even if it doesn't answer you're going to have to find a way in somehow on the inside it's whatever you dream of the best things that you can think of if you're alone or not alone just know that someone might not always be there for you but that doesn't mean that the world would be any better without you. you never know will you be in the future or a future partner looking for someone like you and only someone like you and it's hard because people take your self-worth but you can't let them do that because they're only taking it so they can gain some themselves but since it's not their actual self-worth from their mind it's just taking more away from them but if you don't let them have it then both of you will be a better person. Thank you to whoever made it to the end of this I hope that this helps you or changes your mind in some way but just know that you were loved by whoever you ever want to be loved by and I hope that you have a great time trying to figure out who you are or who you want to become.
Bye,
you are doing gods work
thank you.
@@makaylaknight6183 no worries, hope it helps
Haha, I got taken out of middle school but idrc nor want to go back bcs I get rlly bad anxiety 😁
I’m a simple creature, I see Dazai, I click
even though i knew it was wrong i still did it. even though i knew it would hurt others i still did it. sometimes rage can drive a person over the edge. it can make people lose their consciousness. i should've listened
I thought college would be more fun but I forgot the fact that im actually a loner and i was fortunate enough to have friends around me and now i hate my college and i have no friends around me anymore
This was exactly my dilemma about a month ago, I dropped out because I couldn't handle it anymore. I felt so lonely and fake being there, like everyone around me wasn't real and I was entirely alone all the time. I don't really have advice but I do know exactly how you feel, you're not alone
"don't want to live but I'm too scared to die"
Glad that this playlist exists. Just came hear to wash away the anxiety i stole from my friend. Thank you from making this.
Also to anyone reading, if you need to talk I'll try my best to help, i might not be able to reply right away cuz timezones but still. Traumadump me, I'm more then happy to listen
So, yesterday I thought it would be a good idea telling my parents I'm trans, my whole entire family has been making fun of me for it and it doesn't feel like family anymoer just distant people I use to know as kind people
My brother's are the same way i know how you feel what's your gender know? (Just so I know to not misgender you)
@@anxietyphantom9239 I'm male now, thank you for asking it means a lot to me
@@Someone-xn6mf your welcome I'm also female to male transgender 🥰
you're valid, and dont let anyone tell you differently
you’re still valid no matter how much they make fun of you for it
Little vent :)
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I just got on depression and anxiety medication the other day, one of the
side-effects is increased suicidal thoughts. School has been really stressful lately, ive had to switch to completely online. No zoom meetings at all. Im being pressured to do my school work which is making me stress out even more than i already am. My mom is a manipulative bitch who doesnt take my feelings into consideration. She got mad at me for not doing my school work today, I explained to her that i am mentally tired and that school is really stressful for me rn and i needed a day off. I also almost had a panic attack again, i have had so many panic attacks over school. That just shows how fucked up school is. My sibling also bashed me for not doing my school work and invalidated my reason for not doing it, they played the victim card like they always do. My mom and brother always believe them when they say i did something to them. Its like i dont even exist sometimes. Everyone ignores me until they need me for something that will only help themself. Im sick and fucking tired of being treated this way, i get treated like im worthless. Im literally so close to just overdosing. No one cares about me anymore, no matter how much they tell me that they care i wont believe them. Everytime someone said that they cared for me they just ended up using me and leaving. I have no friends to talk to, I feel like the only person I can trust is myself, even than I cant really trust myself. I always get headaches daily, i cant see straight and my vision goes blurry. It got to the point that i fell over today, my sibling witnessed it and just yelled at me for it. They acted like i can control it, you'd think that something would click in their stupid brain and make them think that I need help?! But no. No one even notices that I dont eat anymore, at first they cared and was encouraging me to eat even though at the time I WAS eating. Now that I am starving myself they dont notice. Im begging for help but no one notices, i want to be honest with my therapist buy I cant. If im honest with her ill get sent to a psych ward. She thinks im low-risk, im definitely not. I am high-risk, I have lied to her, doctors, and other medical professionals and said that ive never hurt myself. BIG lie. I have so many times, but I know if I open up I'll get sent to a psych ward. I dont want that, even though it would be better than my house.. i might actually make friends that wont leave me for onve in my life. I just wish someone was there for me. Someone cared and understood me. But no one can do that. My sibling doesnt realize how much they hurt me mentally. If i could tell them, i would. I would do anything in the world to build up the courage and tell them how much they are breaking me. They're making me even more suicidal than I already am. Mom does as well, she acts liks she cares for me sooo much even though in reality she doesnt. She screams and yells at me and my siblings for just existing. Im slowly breaking. I dissociate for hours on end, i can remember nothing for hours, days, and even sometimes entire weeks. I just wish things could go back to normal. When I was happy, no cares in the world.. just joy and laughter. But I cant have that anymore. That went away a long time ago.. long as in 8 almost 9 years ago. Everything has felt so fake.. Like nothing is real anymore. One moment im laying down on my phone next moment I know im at the doctor again. I go to the doctor so often for so many medical problems. Im getting tested for autism which is good, but at the same time its not good. When my mom figured out that my brother had autism she babied him for a bit. I don't want that, my siblings already see me as the golden child. Which, yes. I am, they arent wrong. But i cant control that, our mom thinks that since im the youngest im still her baby. I will listen to her and do what she says, shes wrong though. I am old enough to form my own opinion and stand up for myself now, but she hasnt realized that yet. If i could make it so where i wasnt the golden child, i would. My sibling bashes me for being the golden child even though i have expressed to them SO many times that i can't control it and that i dont like that im the golden child either, they still yell at me for it. Im sick and tired of this, why cant I just be normal and have a normal caring family? Just imagine.. always happy, never fighting, not having any mental issues, not having an eating disorder.. life just being perfect..
Ty for reading have a good day
I'm also the youngest...
my mom wants me to respect my sister who literally stabbed my arm, even after that...but I dont care anymore I feel so numb but I wanna feel number, I wanna go back to my ED, i wanna be suicidal again, I mean I still kinda am but idk, I just wanna feel numb again
Hey, I hate school too.... atleast I found a way out of it( noone would understand...), im still in school though
my mom is a narcissist bitch ,
Same I lied to my therapist...he thinks I am ok, actually better than my sister, mentally, I just answered every question perfectly, he just wouldn't understand....
I also had an eating disorder!!!! Idk how I even got better but im definitely going to relapse (like go back to starving) I am the black sheep in the family...soooo yeah, anyways I didn't read ur whole comment yet but yeah I totally get the emotions part, it used to be the same 4 me but I just stopped telling her or anyone, not my fake friends, not my sister(who doesn't listen wen I try to talk to her, she zones out, sooo yeah....) no one,
Also get alot of panic attacks, and hve anxiety, worse one was because of my friends(I'm not close to them but like I guess I just walk with them) , and dad, like I get them alot but that one was really bad, I dont try to care anymore but it's kinda hard, again I would never tell my parents coz they would simply shout at me and say something like: "that's why ur gonna fail...or something stupid like that....
It's sad that ppl who are supposed to love u are actually the cause of most of our mental illnesses
oh my fucking heck! Its alright matey, keep your heart burning!
@@cl0udc4tgamer33 DONT DIE!!
@@Girltiktoks thank you
Oms it's been a while since I listened to the first song but I still love it
I remember one time my parents got so mad at me and my sister plus they were giving here a lecture about something they mention something about me saying “Thanks to you you’re little sister thinks we’re the monster” my sister was my 2nd parent kinda I’m sometimes naturally scared of them.
I’m always worrying about others feeling but nobody worries about mines I am the only who worries, worries that I might get to the point of being suicidal again, when I tell someone how I feel it’s always “I don’t care” or they think I’m lying, but I’d never lie about my mental health. All I want is for someone to hug me and say they really care about me and love me. I silent cry everyday now and it hurts.
I don't even know how I feel or how I should react to anything anymore. I try my hardest but people just see me as lazy. As much as I love my parents they cause so much stress in my life expecting me to be a "perfect child" I love learning at school but students and teachers don't see that all of us aren't as fast of learners like some. Making it hard to fill in the gaps to learn. I want to be myself and tell people who I really am but I don't know how they would react/ if they would still see me the same. Some of us are just kids.
I really do hate it here.....
Im so tired and numb I don't know how much longer I can take this.
if its a bad day, that was a day not ur whole life. things can get better
* cries *
I believe there are a lot of people who are suffering. I would like to say, you are all amazing, very strong and very patient. I know it doesn't have to look like this now, but it will get better, sometimes for sure, of course it would be best now, but as we all know, it's not possible. so for anyone trying to cut off the real world at least for a while. relax as much as you can, go outside if natural and other conditions allow it. Feel free to turn up the volume to the max, but again, be careful not to hurt your ears. Take a piece of paper and a pencil, for example, and just scribble. Take a deep breath and lie down or sit in any position. It's hard now, I know, but you can do it, yes. Do not doubt yourself, you are beautiful, even though some may need to ease the pain at the moment, by crying, you are strong, smart, kind, understanding and perfect at all. Please don't forget that. I love you, even though I don't know you, and I send you a long and loving hug or whatever you like. With this I say goodbye and go back to study. For you who also planned to learn, but you ended up here with the rest. Relax, time is only relative. That's all..Good night, morning or whatever part of the day. I love you.
Thank you. How are you?
@@Ihaveadog230 Oh you're welcome..I didn't thought someone will read this. Anyways.. I'm okay...my grades aren't so perfect as I want them to be but hey I did everything to make them perfect so if that didn't work out then whatever. But thank you for asking. 🤗
Why is it I feel so empty and anxiety out in my stomach I hate it I can’t take all of this anymore I just can’t
You should go see someone about that
Depression can cause random pain in the stomach
I’ve needed this thanks.
Music like this helps me escape from life and my head... so thank you for making this. ❤
my parent's fight, am not a week clean, school is overwhelming, I have to be perfect, lgbtq+ and surrounded by homophobes I don't know if it can get better the only place I feel safe in my room or when am with my friends. I don't know if it will ever get better
I've been waiting for things to get better and it feels like they never will. I don't feel real anymore.
i just want to say that your underrated and i hope you get more subs this was one of the best playlist ive ever heard and ill play this in repeat
I lost my bff of 3+ years recently, and it has hurt a lot. She would let me vent with her and she would comfort me and calm me down when I felt that there was no reason to live and she was always there..but now I lost her and I dont know what to do. She would make me feel comfortable and I would talk to her about things that I don't even feel comfortable talking to my mom about. She was my last friend since I lost my other bestie of 2- years and my mom made me loose contact with my other firends..I dont even know how to make friends now since im homeschooled and we don't go out much and so Ive been lonely..now i'm always doing my classes and just listen to music..and it hurts knowing that throughout the day I have no time for me since some days classes take 8+ hours. It is stressful dealing and constantly getting pushed around about grades and my brother, plus my family tend to think it is funny to insult my weight and other sentsitive stuff yet when I call my brother a rat or tap his head my parents start freaking out and start yelling at me! Like what the heck? He is 4 and spoiled rotten. Society has became more selfish and insensitive, parents are becoming more, and more blind and kids are becoming more and more upset about there life. Living is awful. This world sucks and and nobody understands, luckily us people have each other on the internet..hopefully someone understands me and could help..
I'm sorry this is currently happening to you. Although I can't really relate. i hope your life gets better soon. And as for your parents, have you ever tried calling them out on their bullshit? I'm sorry if this seems cliche or rude. But i hope life gets better for you.
@@expired_coffee Thank you, and I really want to but they also say that im being a brat or ungreatful.
Putting up this mask is so hard, I have to do it so my mom doesn't send me back to the hospital, they never helped in the first place, they kept me there for 5 days, put me on meds and kicked me out. I have to keep up my mask for my sister, who's going through things at school that I went through at her age. I have to keep my mask up for school, so I can pass. Whenever I do get a break from masking, people need me to be there for them, I can't say no to them. I put myself aside for others and I never get a break. I want to give myself a break but its so hard for me to actually be able to say no to someone. I've been trying to cry for a while, but my body won't let me cry since my sister is home and I don't want to risk her seeing me upset, I don't want people to see me vulnerable ever, at all, I don't want people to worry about me since I feel like a burden whenever I talk so I just cover everything up by either being happy, or I cover it by stupid memes and being an idiot.
i just want smone to understand me :) ( and then i realised that that was too hard to ask for )
When ever I’m panicking my mind always goes to a place we’re im the one doing the killing. It’s calming and it seems easy for me. Just going apeshit. A full on massacre in my brain.
Inhale, people. Exhale, dead.
It’s pretty bad actually, sometimes I look outside and I see people walking and I see what I could do to them. At stores, fictional characters, people in dreams, etc.
Sometimes I see myself in the mirror and I get sad. It’s every where. I live death. I dream about it, think about it, I can smell it if it’s really bad. I used to want to be a doctor, to help and be able to stand in a room and do a surgery. Nah not anymore, I feel like if seen enough hurt to fill up a lifetime. I don’t want to die anymore, but I’m seeing death more that ever now.
DAMIT! AND IT'S A GOOD PLAYLIST TOO! UGH I LOVE THIS.
for some reason i love this playlist
i love this playlist..
Everything is so bad right now. I finally have the kind of friends I always wished for but now I'm constantly terrified that they're going to leave and that their closer with each other than me. I've gotten so out of control with my emotions thay I've resulted to taking it out on myself because I'm absolutely terrified I might hurt someone else if I don't. I don't want to hurt anyone but my head is slowly breaking apart and I can't figure out what to do anymore. Therapy did nothing and my anger issues just keep getting worse. I want to run away and leave this place behind but I'm afraid to at the same time. I need help but I'm too scared to ask.
Save me, please.
I feel so sorry for you, remember that you are never alone in life. I hope you can feel better sooner.. virtual hugs to you
bro omd me too, im so scared of being left out bc as a kid i was always left out and im so lost, lemme know if u need a friend to vent too
I wish I could help you in some way but I don't know how so I apologizes I wish I could help tho
My parents are constantly judging people’s weight on the TV making me uncomfortable to the point where I’m tempted to skip meals so they don’t judge me, and to add to the fact they’re making me feel like i can’t come out to them about being part of LGBTQ+ because they have literally taken my phone away because the saw my messages between me and my cousin about him being trans. ‘Rät’ really hits hard.
“I hate it here”
I'm so done with life, Thank u for making this, it really helps
Ur taste in music is amazing lol
i love this playlist
i just want to be happy. i just want to live my life. i just want to have a loving family. i just want decent parents. but no. things gotta be shitty. i try to get better, i really do. its just so hard. all the time and effort and dedication and i have none of that. its just to hard
thinking if its worth even living anymore, not when literally everyone takes advantage of me, frames me, abandons me, resents me. all i did was try to be a good friend, good daughter, good sister, good neighbor, good HUMAN BEING. what did i do? why wont anyone forgive me?
it hurts a little that i dont even want to get better, im so used to the pain that im honestly a little scared to get 'better' and no one seems to understand because now i think that being sad is better than risking everything to be happy
I don't remember the last time I had a good day and it stayed that way
Same, I just feel fake, faking emotions, faking my life....
i feel like my only 2 options in life are try to achieve my dream but be miserable.
or give up and try to be happy.
i just want to be happy and still have the thing I've wanted since elementary school.
i just want to be happy.
i just want to be normal.
Vent comment! TW. I sorta managed to somehow turn this into poetry um-
It's 2:45 in the morning. Under my blanket, crying my eyes out, it's like this every night. I'm used to it. I haven't showered in what.... 6 days? My freinds blowing up my phone asking me if I'm okay, I'm not gonna respond to them. All he'll do is try to cheer me up by saying "Your perfect!" Or something gross like that. I feel hungry. I'm not gonna eat. I sit up from the pile of blankets. Disgust fills my stomach. This isn't my dream world. I look around my room. Messy. Gross. I look down at my body. A stomach that I can see better then my gross chest. I sit up and walk to my bathroom. I stand there for two minutes. Praying I'll be able to see who I want to see. I man with a flat chest and clear skin. Short hair. Just your classic punk boy.. please? I open my eyes. I have to puke. I run to the toilet. Emptying my stomach. What monster did I just see?! I saw a gross monster in the mirror. Someone with a gross chest, acne covering every inch of their fat body. Gross. Gross. Gross. Gross. Ew. Ew. I don't remember being gross. It's like this every night. This replying over and over again. 6 hours a night. If only I could be the "cute skinny" if this gets any worse I might give up. Gross.
Being at the point where one day everything feels amazing and then for the next week I go downhill quicker than a rollercoaster. 5 years I’ve dealt with this. It’s suffocating me. Everyday feels like I am fighting myself just to survive in this god forsaken world.
I’m aware that putting this here is useless, but perhaps someone can offer so sort of comfort since everybody stopped caring at home. Sure they recognize that I’m upset, but that’s the furthest they’ll go with it. I know deep down they’ve given up on me. And to be honest, I’m about ready to give up on me too.
I’m tired all the time, I don’t have any motivation, and when I do it always backfires on me. I wanna keep fighting but for 5 years it’s had no outcome other than making me feels worse.
I can tell I’m declining in health, mental and physical. I’ve been eating less, not drinking as much water. I’ve been locking myself away. Social situations are a lot more draining then I remember them being.
The only way I can feel normal is through video games. They’re my escape, my happy place. But lately it’s been affecting me negatively. I’ll be on for hours, and when I’m not on I’ll be very aggressive towards my family, not my friends because I quite literally have none.
I don’t have a social life. I have breakdowns weekly. I can’t stand the silence, it gives me to much room to think. The memories I have are more like reliving a nightmare than the fond ones you normally hear about.
I feel worthless, and I feel wounded. To be honest I’m an elephant on a bridge made of twigs right now, ready to snap at the slightest movement.
I’m tired.
i needed this so bad. i’m going thru a lot. i started playing this and decided to draw. i made a beautiful artwork, a self portrait of the younger me surrounded by my questions for the man who raped me when i was 15.
if anyone wants to know some of the questions:
“was i worth it?”
“did you cry too?”
“what about me did you like?”
“do you know you killed me?”
“are you proud to be the first man to touch me?”
“are you sorry?”
the title of the artwork is:
To: _____ the man who raped me
Im so sorry that has happened to you. Please know You're loved and cared for. That man is an asshole and such a terrible man. I hope you're doing better than before. Love you
UNDERRATED WHAT
love this playlist, from the music to how everyone can express themselves down in the comments. aside from the playlist i also love whomever is scrolling through the comments to acknowledge other's situation and the ones who is brave enough to express their feelings. i might not completely understand you current situation nor your feelings, but you should know that i fking love you.
of course, i too hate this disgusting and toxic society. future once seemed like a dream to me too, but the toxicity of my surrounding crushed my dreams into pieces. "is there really any value to this thing called living?". the answer is no. life it self is really just an long period of time where you meet people and develop interests. i might just be a kid who have really never realized how the society really is. all i know is that, no matter how much you hate this place, you will always have two options, "to die or not to die". if you decided to die, die naked. if you cant, you are not ready to do so.
enough of the depressing talk, PLEASE learn to appreciate yourselves. YOU are worth everything. just if my death can make everyone happy, it would be an honor to to so. YOU are the one in control of your life. make the dictions for YOURSELVES, NOT for others.
from:
a 13 yr kid who is trying her best to cheer u up :)
i honestly dont know how much longer i can hold on
I haven't liked it here for a while I thought it couldn't be worse
but then my dad found out I was dating someone and I'm non binary, he banned me from seeing my girlfriend, seeing her was the only thing I was looking forward to, plus he has not used my correct pronoun's once since he found out, and now I hate it here.
I'm lazy too much to say it all in english so I'm just gonna say it in my national lenguage.
Eu me odeio muito. Não odeio pessoas, escola, minha casa e nenhum outro lugar. As pessoas podem me magoar muito, mas eu não vou odiar elas, pois o meu ódio por mim mesmo supera tudo. Meu corpo é nojento e feio, meu rosto é cheio de espinhas e olheiras, minha personalidade é uma merda e sou completamente preguiçoso e inútil. É incrível como eu consigo trazer prejuízos para todos por simplesmente existir. Essa melancolia toda também me faz odiar à mim mesmo mais ainda, tipo, foda-se os meus sentimentos tristinhos de adolescente, eu preciso melhorar e ser forte, não uma ameba burra. Se pudesse, eu seria uma alga ou uma planta, qualquer coisa que me faça menos pior do que eu já sou. Eu sou um completo lixo descartável sem no mínimo um futuro decente, é decepcionante ser essa desgraça e ainda ser amado... Se não fosse um completo covarde e ninguém me amasse, eu provavelmente já teria me encravado uma faca na garganta.
I am an extroverted person surrounded by friends at school and support from my parents, but holy shit this playlist made me cry. I'm more stressed than I thought, and to those out there who are having it worse than me, please, don't give up. Get the help you need, and if it's unavailable, find a reason to keep living. It could be a small childhood object, your bed, the fact that you hate existence so much you just want to keep living out of spite, anything. Please, don't give up. Heck, dm me if you want to vent. I'll be there. We'll be there. Just don't give up.
I completely understand, stress is difficult to deal with, and understanding how you feel is one of the most difficult steps, but you really did say it yourself. you should never give up, even if you struggle, and sometimes finding that reason to keep going, which may not be a whole lot admittedly, really can keep you going.
For a few weeks I feel like I really hate everyone I know and that they hate me too. I'm mad at myself that I have so much anger in me, I feel hopeless, I want to cry because of it. I feel bad about hating people, but also i know I hate them for a reason. I am overwhelmed when i sit in my class and hear all this people, i just want to disappear
i have a question!
*will it ever get better?*
Yes. Yes it will get better my friend.
yes... it will
Oh it will. I’ve been in dark spots and I’m not great but I’m better. We’ll get there just fake it till u make it 💕
It will!
tw: suicidal ideation
yes, it does. I used to think i was a worthless, no good, lazy, piece of shit, and when i was at my lowest all my friends left me and belittled my own needs. needless to say this led me to the edge and i attempted. obviously it was a fail, but after that i went to and iop (intensive outpatient) program. there i learned that art, and music is the way i express how i feel, think, or react to different situations.
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what you need to figure out is what works for you. Do you see writing journals as helpful? Drawing, painting, coloring, playing video games, or even something a simple as being more mindful like watching the clouds or stars.
I'm tired yes i have friends but i feel like im annoying them when i tell them my problems
Same, I just stopped...
One day, i had a sister how truly cares for me alot! One day, she quit being sister.. she commited suicide. After that.. my parents and my whole fricking family fights every time.i get trauma everytime i hear it. I already know how it felt. no need to tell me i already know iam dumb and selfish. I wish i wad like you. You are smart,beautiful,kind AND i would never be such a darling like you! Its my honour to you. My words. Your heart. Keep your heart burning.
-from a stranger that loved you 💕
honestly every day feels the same and if it weren't for those few people i don't think i'd continue, the loop is too much...
i dont even know who i am anymore. my "home" isn't my home anymore, i'm drifting from irl friends, and everything i do feels like a waste of effort and time. i just want help..
The title 'i hate it here' explains how I feel at school or while getting ready or the day before the weekend is over
But the thing is it not because I hate test and all that I don't care about test anyways or my grades but it's because my grade is full of people that are annoying makes jokes a lot and could make you sad when they joke and the rest is full of people you shouldn't trust one reason is because they I guess kinda bullied/made fun of people(manly just one person just because she sings a lot at school I know the reason why she sings and it's annoying when they tell her to stop) they still hate her for like no reason I mean yes she is a bit annoying and drags me everywhere but even so she is still nice I don't get why people hate people who are nice there was a new student she was starting to copy people or something like that or that's what I heard honestly the people in my grade is a mess or well the personalities some ate annoying not trust worthy and I feel like they would actually hurt someone I really don't want to be in that school I know its stupid to complain about but I messed a lot of school because of that and got a warning even though school hadn't start that long ago maybe like 2 months ago I tried going to a new school and I wasn't excepted or something so now im stuck in this school yay for me and not to mention once I fail my grade I well be stuck with more annoying people I may just yell at them when I finally can't control my angry at school anymore I forgot one thing about like 2 people maybe 3 or 4 are nice the rest are like not trust worthy and others are annoying
I have a good family, good things, everything... But god, I hate living here so much. I try so hard to not hyperventilate every day I wake up. I miss the sea, my old friends, the memories, everything... Where I live now, I'm surrounded by tragic people. All I ever hear is "So how many times did you cut yourself last night? Bet you didn't get more than me" or "I don't see myself living in a couple months"... I just feel so horrible, I'm miserable here, and the best part? Even if by some miracle I am able to move back to where I used to live, it won't feel the same. It won't have that childhood nostalgia and god.. I just.. I don't care where I go, I just don't want to be here. I want to be somewhere- *anywhere* else.
Me meditating to this it gets all my worries out
It's not , It's doesn't even feel like home
hmm why you're not famous :)))
The love of my life is moving to Spain tomorrow. It’s her last day … she was the only person that made me feel safe and happy
My older brother is really down all the time, even if he jokes about stuff. It really hurts seeing your siblings like that instead of what they are usually like, but I won't let it get to me. I'm trying all that I can to help him but to keep him comfortable as well, like y'know joking around and watching stuff together. He's starting to get better, hanging out with friends irl or on vc, but he still seems a little off sometimes. I over worry about situations as if he is going to get back to his previous state, but I know with a bit of time and company, things WILL get better.
I hope that you, whoever you are, are doing okay. No matter what you're going through, there are millions of people to talk to. Even If it doesn't seem like it in real life, I know that feeling. Just me, myself and my problems hehe.
I really hope some of the things listed here will help
- Go take a rest, or just lay down and close your eyes somewhere comfortable. Try not to think too much about your problems, think about things that make you smile or laugh. Give your mind a rest for a little.
- Take a shower, warm or cold, whatever u like lol
- Go get some walter and drink.
- Go outside and get some air.
I know this might not be the solution to everyone's problems instantly, but I hope it at least helps and calms down people, even for just a little while. Thank you for reading, have a wonderful rest of your hours of your day
and can u do a time leap ?
I'm in a relationship with somebody I pretend to love, I used to love them and I still care for them just they're going through some bad stuff and they're really sad and depressed. I don't want to make it worse for them. I'm also pretty scared of this person...they've hurt me and violated me. Does that make me selfish? Does that make me a horrible person for staying in the relationship when I know I don't love them. be honest, I don't want your pity. should I break up with them so I don't make it worse later? But we promised a lot and planned a lot. I'm too empathetic, or maybe not empathetic enough? I also just hate the world (Except my besties) I know I want to make a difference because I've been sad my whole life and got tired of it. Because I discovered that i'm systemically effected to hate myself in order to keep me submissive. So I wanted to become a bad bitch. And I know I want to make a difference and i've been thinking of trying presidency in order to make change. But the person I'm with is kind of weighing me down it's sad to say but, as much as I care for them it's hard to deny. Does that make me selfish? I wanted to put myself first for a change but I feel too darn much. I even feel bad saying that because I fear not caring and being selfish but I don't have any room to grow to better myself... This is so hard.
Jeez you're still here?
hey so obviously im no one to make a judgement but sometimes, you need to prioritize yourself over them. It doesn't matter (well, yes it does) but it's going to hurt them anyways. Sooner or later, you're both going to have to face it. If you are in danger, physically or mentally or if you're unsafe, then, no matter what, you have to whatever it means to keep yourself safe. I understand you don't want to hurt them but if that means that you're hurt then you really need to make a decision. If they bring you down, it doesn't make you selfish at all, it's the truth. As painful as it is, sometimes you need to think about yourself. I really hope this helps and I hope you stay safe >3
@@chunhua032 Thank you
its not wrong to leave them when they are low, once it starts affecting you and being toxic its best to leave. Sometimes you cant help/change/fix someone by loving them enough, itll be alright and i know how u feel :/ u should break up with them and focus on ur self, heal and thrive friend :)
You follow your hearts this person isn’t a good match for you. Please, find someone better. You come before them.
i feel so hopeless now tbh. my grades arent to my expectations although i studied so hard. like i feel so discouraged now. not only that, i get so irritated easily now these days. the same bad feeling is coming back. i thought i was getting better
I always feel like i'm gasping for air, suffocating because of everything and everyone around me and i don't know if i can take it anymore.
When i go to school u always makes Jokes like "Hey, come we're going to kill ourself with Dazai on the top of our school" to my friends, they always laugh and i too, but imma being honest with you, it's not always a joke... (:
I'm proud of you, ok?
i have never had anyone in my whole living career, the one friend i had was in kindergarten but they just left me for another, up until now im still all alone and i've never had anyone to share my feelings with, im an only child and that just makes it so much worse, i grew up and i still am lonely, and all i can do is comfort myself. its so easy for others to just make friends while im here struggling so much, i just want to get out of here already. i want to restart my life and start over again
It will be over soon.
I'll be free.
In a place where there is no pain.
That day is coming and I can't wait to leave this earth. Nothing keeps me here, nothing makes me happy, so I have to leave.
I hope you, the person who is Reading this, have a great life! I wish you all the Best, I really mean it, you deserve it. I love every single one of you.
Bye :)
when you 3 bestfriends have a matching pfp saying that ur gonna have it for eternity and then one day you see them having matching pfp leaving your pfp no one to match with and ignoring u 😊Dw i hate all people equally, i knew it. trios never work. damn i just wanna have someone to trust
It's okay to feel sad. I'm sorry for u. I also struggle with friendship problems :!