Mothica - UPSIDE (Official Music Video)
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- Опубликовано: 5 фев 2025
- on the upside, everything's gonna be just fine.... i'm already dead on the inside, nobody can hurt me now.
Directed by Mothica & Samuel Halleen
Edited by Samuel Halleen @samuel_halleen
Cinematography by Neema Sadeghi @thenamesneema
1st AC - Ian Finneran @okiewankenobi
Gaffer - Tim Katz @timkatz
Grip - Blake Brown @blakenolanbrown
Colorist - Strack Azar @strackazar
VFX - Matt Collamore @matt_collamore
Location by Meaghan & Ernie @saudadevintage_ @bigblockblondie
Set Design by The Junk Fairy OK @thejunkfairyok
Hair & SFX Makeup - Lacey San Nicholas @lacey.san.nicholas
Zombie Girl - Jayden Andews @earlymorningrobert
Party Guests:
Domonique @justdam
Camille Thomas @camillethomas444
Isaiah Pickens @iziapluscamera
Xander @405kingping
Lacey San Nicolas @lacey.san.nicolas
Johnny Scoggins @josco.visual
Han @tumblrdaddyirl @misery.cloud
Johnny Manchild @johnnymanchild
Meaghan Syrälä @bigblockblondie
Drew Cockrell @drewsview_
Gian Archiniaco @popisdead
Styled by Mothica & The Junk Fairy OK
Styling Assistant - Drew Crockrell @drewsview_
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Theory: the greatest ad for beef jerky in the history of advertising
Plss✋🏽💀
I actually did get an ad for jerky before getting to watch the video, so…
@@Jinx_of_Nyx OMG 😳
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It's like people don't even know the Macho Man Randy Savage anymore. What is this world even...
Theory: you’re representing how you feel on the inside, struggling mentally and battling depression, and that’s why you’re a zombified Mothica in the video. Everyone around you sees life in color, but you see only grey. Toxic positivity is tough to deal with so you just have to be there physically with these people despite not being there mentally while they celebrate your birthday. You’re an outcast with this group. You can’t relate to anyone and finally at the end find someone else who’s “already dead on the inside” who you can relate to. I think this is a powerful message and very creative video!! 🖤
I love how this video has so many levels to it. First off, she's a zombie because she feels dead inside. I liked how all of the party people seemed super bright and happy- often when I'm feeling "like a zombie", everyone around me seems almost obnoxiously happy. I think also it seemed like she was trying to do normal things (brush teeth, eat, smile), but it felt wrong and forced, like going through the motions (😉). It's a perfect representation of what so many of us feel like- totally empty on the inside but trying to act smiley for everyone around us. I also feel like at the end she finds another person like her, and by taking the girls' arm, Mothica takes a little piece of her with her. Basically- it was a dope video. Mothica, bravo you've done it again 👏
SO SO GOOD!! On October 30th, it'll be the 6 year anniversary of a childhood friend's suicide. You and our music have helped me heal so so much. It was an honour to be a part of your forever fifteen lyric video. I'm now 5 years, 9 months, and 30 days free from self harm, and last week I hit ONE HUNDRED DAYS sober from Opiates! Your story, your art, your music, has truly changed my life. I wouldn't be where I am today without you and Blue Hour. If my friend was still here, I know for a FACT she would absolutely adore it. Thank you for sharing your art with us. I know how hard it is to make it big completely independently. You've got this! The production quality of this video is also top notch👌🏻
Congrats on your 100 days and almost 6 years!
Congrats!
Wow, that's amazing. I'm happy you've come so far. :) I'm slowly healing from self-harm myself, but I know I'm getting better.
I'm so sorry about your friend, but I know they would likely be proud of you.
Keep it up. :) :) I'm sure you're an amazing person, and I can't wait until the day I can say it's been 5 years. But I'm still just reaching for 1 year now. If I can stay strong until then, I might make a celebration out of it.
Congrats on the 100 days too!
Congratulations! I'm very sorry to hear about your friend, it's very admirable that you've turned it into positive motivation. Thank you for sharing your story 💕 super inspiring c:
So proud of u for this.Every MV is a masterpiece 🖤
i’m so insanely excited for this!! this song got me out of a really rough time (as did the rest of the EP)
Theory: I don’t wanna like be too presumptuous, but definitely the feeling that everyone around you is experiencing joy and happiness in a way that doesn’t feel palpable for you. Like your on the outside of the veil everyone else feels and tries to impress on you. You’re like conveying exhaustion from the wear and tear of how that weighs?
SO GOOD 😍
Lyrics:
I come home to lights off, missed calls, don't even bother
Can't sleep, can't eat, I'm underwater
There's nothing that you can say, I've always felt this way
Left out, leftovers on the counter
Feels like I'm only sinking further
There's nothing that you can say, just chemicals in my brain
There's a little voice running through my head
Reminding me of the stupid things I said
All the mistakes I've ever made
Playing over again
On the upside, everything's gonna bе just fine
I'm already dead on thе inside
Nobody can hurt me now
On the outside, having the time of my life
Hanging with people I don't like
Nobody can hurt me now
Nobody can hurt me now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me
Bloodshot, no tears, at least it's something
Still here, didn't even see you coming
I don't like the way it feels but at least I can say it's real
There's a little voice running through my head
Reminding me of the stupid things I said
I let the monsters in my bed, they say
On the upside, everything's gonna be just fine
I'm already dead on the inside
Nobody can hurt me now
On the outside, having the time of my life
Hanging with people I don't like
Nobody can hurt me now
Nobody can hurt me now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me
Now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me now
bumping this
Man, I love this look on her. 😭 She literally makes dead makeup look pretty 🥺🖤✨
This era's music videos have been so great. I'm so proud of you
My theory is walking through life feeling as though you've already died while everyone around you is alive and happy, and they keep giving you things that will "make" you happy or make you alive like them, even though it doesn't work and it doesn't bring you back. The only thing that does give you a reaction is when you finally see someone that's like you
These music videos are always so good, the style is just perfect.
Omg with the yellow smiley faces it reminds me of my new song Life’s Like This a little haha. Life has kicked me around too dude 😩
I discovered you this week and ended up binging your entire discography, your music is already helping me through some rough times so thank you so much for making this art, you're such an inspiration to me already ❤️❤️❤️
Saw this lady in St. Louis with Coheed. She's amazing. Made a fan that day. Love this chick.
This song scratches the same itch as when i listen to the first panic! at the disco album.
FeelsGoodMan.
i love that we're slowly getting music videos for all of the songs in this EP, because dear lord do i love it so, so much
I think the meaning is that you can be present in all the things happening around you but you aren’t having fun because you aren’t like the people around you. But will feel happier when you find someone similar to you. So like feeling dead inside and being with people you don’t like. But the upside is finding your like person!
This video is the epitome of being surrounded by “Positive vibes only” folks
my theory for the mv is that life is constantly going and going. it never stops- no matter how you feel. it seems like everyone around you is so lively & happy and you’re just…. not. even if you feel dead on the inside, things will get better.
ITS A F MASTERPIECE. AS ALWAYS YOU NEVER DISAPPOINT US
You're an angel. When I died last year you helped me find myself with your gift of music. Don't ever forget that we're here with you. Keep your eye on the ball.
The whole music video is such a mood.
i love this so much!! to me this is about feeling so overwhelmingly numb while everyone else around you is perfectly fine, and you're just wondering how they're so happy and what's wrong with you, because you should be happy like them, what's wrong with you? but then you finally find someone like you, who too struggles with feeling nothing sometimes. and it's great having someone who finally knows what you're going through, so you don't have to hide anymore
when you are dead inside but still have a social life, oh the struggle.
I do not understand how Mothy is NOT one of the biggest stars in todays popular music. She is better than basically everything else on my radio dial. Her and Poppy.
This is the best thing ever!! Thank you for buying that duck kettle last year, without it I would never have found your videos and found my favorite artist!
it’s like I always feel like something is wrong with me and I’m not as happy as everyone else around me and then there’s finally someone who gets you and that’s an upside. you finally feel not alone on your feelings.
Mothica you’re different 🔥🎶 I love it
“Have you tried beef jerky?” IM SCREAMING YESSSSSSS I LOVED THIS SO MUCH
This is so amazing and brings so much more meaning to upside I love this song so much it and motions I’m a Pisces and it really sucks feeling so much at once then not feeling anything. I love you mothica 🤘🏻
Omg this is so good!! How is she not everywhere!?!?!?!?
Right when I feel at my lowest you drop another masterpiece and help me keep going, tysm
This is precisely the song I needed at this particular time. Thank you.
That thing at the end is what happens when I listen to Mothica's songs. I'm not alone.
THIS IS INCREDIBLE !! I REALLY ENJOYED THE MUSIC AND THE MUSIC VIDEO !!!
Theory: youre dead inside, around a world who doesn’t seem to notice. And yet, the people you feel closest too/the people who always seem to care, are the ones that are equally as miserable as you.
This is way too fucking accurate. I hate you.
yep. lonely people are like stand users. they're drawn towards each other.
Everyones equally as miserable and some choose to ignore it and live while others focus on it
I have a plethora of mental and physical disabilities and i still force myself to suck it up and practice gratitude
Its the only real way to live, otherwise youre at the bottom of a pit pulling everyone in with you and causing an endless cycle of self pity and shallow beliefs
Beautiful song! Seems to describe how you feel life is gray sometimes when mental clarity becomes pale, instead of being in colour like others who feel just fine. Hope you will get more colours and happiness in life!
This looks sooo freaking awesome already!
This is such a masterpiece. I need the lyrics omg
The artistic talent is on point. I’m impressed. Happy Autumn, everyone.
Mothica flies!
dope
WOOOOOOO!!! THIS IS GOING TO BE AMAZING!!!! IM SO EXCITED!!!
SO FIRE
Just the whole being in a group of people having a good time and feeling left out and off, like I was pretending to be happy. I had that moment at a friends birthday party when I was 14 and remember thinking “oh somethings wrong with me”.
Meeting someone and immediately checking their pulse on their neck should be the standard tbh
I love this song so much. I always come back to it, it's like my anthem or theme song lol. Great work Mothica, you deserve way more recognition.
oh my god i’m already in love:)
🐸But did 🥀👏🏻
This song popped up in my Spotify recommended and I am so happy it did
As always : perfect one from Mothica
You are so good. Sometimes honesty is the best way to summon your inner beast. You embrace so many emotions that people can relate with, myself included. Great stuff that buzzes with emotional fallout.
I've been obsessed with Mothica's music for the past weeks and now I'm obsessed with the videos as well. Phenomenal!
Mothica is Supreme day and Night. Love your music sm!!
you said one that this song was about optimistic nihilism which means nothing matters that means i can give life my own meaning, making music, learning, changing, it won’t matter in reality but it’ll matter to you, your life and the people around that. ‘i’m already dead on the inside nobody can hurt me now’. you get to live your life by your own meaning. UPSIDE
CMON PRODUCTION!!! this is so good!
Cheer~~~the positive or favorable aspect of something.(all rhythm accompaniment...good)😊
this is like the song that the cinemas would play at the end of a horror movie to make it more "uplifting" and "positive"
Great video, nice colour contrast. Great go back to song.
YES YES YES YES YES!!! I’ve been waiting for this one-
Always so fantastic. I love this so much. 🫀
First off, I love the video and the song (its one of my favorites!!
I somehow stumbled onto this song on March 12th, how amazing, happy birthday i guess
Wow the colors and contrast are amazing I love it,I haven't heard the song yet but now that I have, it's another songs I relate to soo much
i really needed this right now. my relationship is struggling so much because of mental health problems from both ends but this song makes me feel invincible. everything you create makes me able to keep pushing forward. much love moths
ok we broke up but i’m gonna hold onto this video
Once you hit rock bottom, the only way left to go, is up
Listened to Mothica’s forever fifteen EP a couple weeks ago so when this came up in my recommended I thought she’d dropped something new, and I noticed the same with upside. They’re both on the album so I have heard them before, but I haven’t listened to either a ton since, and the amazing thing is it feels new again. You can listen to one of her songs a second time and it can feel like the first time again, all these little eccentricities to her music and the added dimensions of the videos can give you a whole new perspective and make you appreciate the song in a way you didn’t before. She’s really a great in my book for that and many other things
Edit: Omg the end lmao
my theory: it’s like the music video is showing the version of you on the inside -the “dead” version you truly feel to be yourself sometimes- that is numb to what’s going on around you. in situations that you would normally mask to keep other people happy, the link between who you are and what you show is broken but life still goes on as if no one notices. the reason “nobody can hurt you now” is because you’ve already accepted the worst. if people leave you, you figure that maybe you deserved it or it was going to happen eventually. but at the end when you find someone like you, that sees you for who you are and they show who they are to you, you realize you aren’t as alone as you thought you were. 🖤🖤
Accidentally listened in 1.5 speed. I do not regret it
This will always be my life anthem, breakup or with someone. It just is my life.
this girl will grow, and grow, and i will be here listening to allm
This is a gorgeous music video, I love it, and really needed to see and hear something that covered this feeling today, ty so much for all your amazing work 💜✨
I FREAKIMG LOVE YOU MOTH!!! THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOU MUSIC!!!
OMG I LOVED THAT!!!! That might be your best music video so far!! I can’t believe your music videos are just as good as your music!!!
the theory: i think that this music video (along with the song) is about how you’re tired of just forcing yourself to be happy when you’re not. everyone around you is living life and having the best time while you feel like a zombie that is so dead of emotions that nothing even phases you anymore. but in the song i love the switch in the chorus because it’s saying how at least you can’t sink further and won’t get hurt even more which makes me 🥲 because of how true it can be
anyways mothica u killed this as alwaysssss
insanity! Dense, dark, night music... The band brings into the sphere a slithering metalish masterpiece!
So good Mothica!!!!
I'm dead on the inside too. Great song.
absolutely love it, keep up doing the good work and making the music we all appreciate
I am so proud! Excellent video quality and content! You never disappoint!! 🤘🏼🤘🏼🤘🏼🤘🏼
absolutely in love
this video to me is about seeing everybody around you be able to feel happyness while feeling like you can't because you're dead inside (zombie). the part where she is eating on the floor could either be about her eating disorder, and the part at the end when the girl's arm rips off while she walks away could be about her not being able to continue the relationship or it could just be a goofy thing to end the music video.
All of her songs just hit different, I love it
Just discovered your tunes. Amazing stuff! Keep on rocking.
it is about the pressure of acting happy when you know you're supposed to be but you can't genuinely be happy or enjoy yourself, you're dead inside. everything seems insignificant and stupid (not caring abt the bday) because the horrible dark thoughts in your mind take over everything (there's a little voice running through my head reminding me of those stupid things i said). the outside world and how you feel are just a a contrast that nothing ever feels real anymore and you are numb to everything happening around you as we see her ignoring her bday party in the video. also the fact that no one even noticed something wrong reflects how people would rather you be fake happy than have to deal with you being sad. but oh on the upside at least no one can hurt you since you're already at your worst!
at the end mothica finds someone else who is dead inside and they are able to connect because they understand each other and are in that same world.
"I don't like the way it feels but at least I can say it's real" has such a strong "I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all" vibe to it... my emo heart can't deal with it- 🥲
This is amazing! What a wonderfully executed project!
She got some perrie Edwards vibessss,,,,,, love you mothica
this is why i stopped having birthday parties lolll
Wow, so good. Great lyrics!
Ok, but how does she still manage to look gorgeous even as a zombie?
Theory: when one is that numb (dead on the inside) there is little to no relating to those around them living their happy-go-lucky lives. There is just more loneliness and emptiness. When you finally do find someone with that in common it can instantly draw you together.
Omg this is my favorite song now!!! ❤️
YESSS I LOVE HER LOOK
theory: all the people wearing yellow could mean that they’re living a problem free life, they’re full of happiness and joy. perhaps there’s toxic positivity involved with all the yellow since there was a poster with a smiley face saying “Keep on smiling”. all the black has to do with depression/sadness in one’s life, the same thing with the makeup. in fact, the makeup makes it look like you and the other person look dead (enter a dead inside joke). once someone meets someone like them, they’re content thus the ending of the music video.
edit: i don’t know how i missed this but i recently rewatched the video multiple times in a row to see if i was right, and i saw someone wearing the heart shaped glasses but it was a rosey colour instead of yellow. this could be a reference to the saying of looking through rose tinted lenses. idrk, just a thought.
NAILED IT
wow the lyrics hit really hard on this one.... also very nice video
My theory is no matter how bright your future is, past events can prevent progress towards that future. Just like the opening scene of the clock, it isn't ticking. Signifying the limbo of being in a comatose state. Those with past traumas continue to experience moment by moment. The world keeps moving, people keep smiling, continuing living.
It gives me a sense of existential questioning. What's next after you come back to life. How do you live when you're dead inside. What's the point, why keep going on? There's more to it than that.
The ending is significant by showing there are people going through similar experiences. Though they may not stay with you in life, you can take a peice of that relationship with you. Walking away from the past with a helpful hand, Zombitha, walks towards the door,,,aka next stage in their life.
lG- lovelishpunk
Such an amazing visual and song 😍 keep it up girl!!
i love everything about this