I’m so grateful to Nick for sharing his personal story. It has helped me identify what’s holding me back and inspires me to let go of my fears and enjoy the journey of being me. I have spent too much energy and life focused on everything but me. Im so full of fear and worry about the what others think it’s stifling but It’s not too late ! Thank you!!
Thank you so much Nick for sharing such a personal and vulnerable story. I was in a marriage for 26 years with a husband who developed borderline and ended up diagnosed with bipolar disorder. So , not possible to live with him anymore. During the difficult times in my marriage I started painting, scheduled one evening a week for myself to create. It was not good art, but I loved to create and get lost in the creativity. After my divorce I moved to another city and still love to live alone, enjoying my home, my garden and my art improved so much. I have a fulltime job and in my free time I paint. I have soli exhibitions in my area, I participate in group exhibitions abroad. Every now and then I sell a painting, from the Netherlands, to the USA, United Kingdom to Australia and I love it. I followed some of your free courses and I know I will follow the CVP next year. Thank you again Nick for being you ❤
Hi I really love your story truly inspires a beginner artist like me. Am looking to join the CVP program as well do you have any idea how much it cost so I start preparing?
This was fantastic. Thanks so much for sharing your past so eloquently. I found it really moving and I was painting as you were talking and I love the deep conversations, the ones that get you to really think and feel, I find this and music really help me to get into a flow state. I think art is a discovery and a healing process. Its about valuing yourself and your time enough which is 😁 challenging. These podcasts are awesome, thank you so much.
Thank you so much Nick. The recent referral to you has been life changing, from the content in your podcasts, to the Breadcrumb Challenge. I appreciate your advice to value our time and art that matters to our lives. Thank you!
Nic, Thankyou so much for this podcast!!! OMG! you spoke directly to me. I think this will change my life as an artist and beyond. I'm 78 years and kinda got stuck during covid when my husband started working from home. I like to be alone while painting! I am moving on now, trying harder. This podcast is wonderful for me and addressed so many issues. To say thank you just doesn't make it!!!! I think you just changed my life at a time I was thinking of giving up!!!!
Dear Nicholas, this video fully revealed what an extraordinary human being you are. Your willingness to share your vulnerabilities is yet another dimension of the depth of your commitment to our learning. I completed CVP this past spring, joined The Academy, and am doing your SPARK intensive now. You are one of the very best teachers I’ve had (there have been many). At the start of CVP I didn’t fully grasp the whole concept of art and life and soul. You’re leading the way to deep integration of art and soul is exactly what I was looking for. Thank you so very much.
Thank you so very much for this. You brought me to tears. You spoke directly to me, to my heart and I am able to see clearly what I have been missing and where I want to go. How I have to start and just go through the process even if I don’t know where I am going and where I will end up. I also like so many grew up in a trauma filled home and it is amazing how this has influenced my life through the limiting beliefs I internalized. I will listen to this again and have already emailed it forward to close friends. You bring so much light🌟🌟
Thanks so much for such an amazing share. I feel like your mother so much of the time, i was raised in England and have also emigrated to another life. Useing creativity to foster my courage has given me so much and im so grateful for this space that you have created. Thank you thank you thank you.
Nick, thank you for sharing your vulnerability. This is my type of therapy. Feeling we aren’t enough is real and affects us in many aspects in our daily lives, including creating our art.
So deeply appreciate you and your gift, which is exactly what your sharing was. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I loved the “thumbs up” to life - I am going to walk through my life and check it for the thumbs up. 😊😊😊
I really appreciate that you “ fire me up” each time you appear on my small screen. It is another step to get into the psychology field and learn how it affects my art. Thank you so much !
Thank you so much for sharing Nick. This episode brings all the puzzle pieces together. It's spot on. Although its not about painting, I have a creative job, which I'm good at, but the pricing is the issue. It's all about self-worth and I can feel it so clearly now. It's a common thread in my life. I'm really touched by this. Thanxxx again. X
Nick...this was just what I needed to hear today, for my life!! Sharing your experience growing up, so vulnerable and heartfelt creating this space for my own experiences, opened up a huge window of hope, joy for what I'm doing in giving this art I've wanted in my life ~ always ~ and give it the place in my heart that it deserves ~ and feel like I deserve it!!! Thank you infinitely
Nick, you are helping massively. Thanks for sharing. Family is so complicated and can eff you up....and the work on yourself and self worth is ongoing...like ebbs and flows. Jo.😊
I value my art. I love my art. I believe in myself, and know I’m worthy. Money for art supplies which cost so much is the only thing missing to carry on. Practice to grow the art is expensive.
Wow wow wow! I have BPD and I did a very similar thing to my two daughters. You saying this is a huge help. I shares this to my two daughters. Art wise you have helped me so much. Life changing art courses!
This super sensitivity towards feeling others is a trauma response - I have it too and it is a curse and a blessing. It took me years of unpacking and self-work to make it work positively for me, so much so that it drove me to become a certified coach so I can help others too. I love painting, always have and was deterred for years from practicing and developing in this directions....story for another time. Love the openness and sincerity!!
thank you nick. i learn so much from you. your kindness and vulnerability are a balm in this tough world. i am in your Sparks program starting tomorrow and i am looking forward it!! i walk around my art station and mostly am too afraid to do anything.....my childhood was emotionally tough too. i have no friends and find it hard and exhausting to relate to most people. i so want to paint but there is this invisible wall stopping me....i am so scared to be me. sad but true. hoping i can break through. thank you. i feel hopeful after hearing this.
It will be a chance for that beautiful child to come out and play, no judgment! You can start with finger painting! That’s how I started CVP. You will have so much fun!
Thanks so much for sharing this part of yourself. I’ve listened to many of your podcasts-something about this one really affected me emotionally. I hope to do an in person workshop with you some day. Your approach “lights me up”!
Hi Nick, posting from Australia. I just painted the cover of my Spark play book while listening. New to abstract but had a major 'wow' during breadcrumbs and I think I have found my style. Thank you so much for all you do
Keep it up. Love these. I art play while you talk and I listen to multiple utube pod casts and videos. You inspire me and sooth my angst as I continue to embark on art . 48:19
This was a powerful episode. I listened to it on the way to work this morning, but I'll listen a few more times. I'm sensitive because I grew up in a trauma-filled house. I was below average in school and barely graduated high school. Fast-forward four decades, and I achieved a Master's degree at 55. I'm thrilled with the different forms of art out on the Internet. There is so much to learn, and I'm loving my artistic journey. My goal is to sell art when I retire and make a living from my art and travel. Lots of travel. :) Thank you for sharing something deeply personal. But you give us hope and that's what is so important.
In Alanon I learned the slogan “Fake it until you make it”. Create your ‘self worth’. No one can do this for you. Get on the bike, maybe you need training wheels ( fake it till you make it wheels). This works!
Thank you Nick for being vulnerable and showing yourself. This episode was very touching and I really identify with your upbringing. The positive message you spread is so awesome. I especially love the idea that vividly imagining what you want to feel like and experience will light up your brain as though it is reality. I look forward to the podcast and Sunday vlog every week. Thanks so much for all you do 🙏😊
Very helpful and reassuring Nick. The way you share your life’s challenges is very brave but the end result is that those that can take in what your giving can really benefit. So thank you. 😍
Thank you so much for your sharing of how this has played out in your own life even as recently as yesterday. I found it so helpful when you have framed this as generosity and commitment to ourselves with time and energy for ourselves. I hadn't really seen how I spend my resources to get external validation quite so clearly before and the generational patterns of over giving and hyper sensitivity to others whilst shutting off more and more from myself and what I want. your podcasts are a wonderful gift of your own hard won wisdom and I understood some very profound aspects of my self expresssion from the breadcrumbs challenge. Thank you
This brought tears to my eyes. I’ve had so much rejection in my life and art is literally what has saved my life. I’ve had to overcome “others being better artists”, etc. With that thinking, I stepped away into many other career directions. Yet, there was always this small nagging voice in my ear telling me to create SOMETHING artistically. In my 60’s now and doing it. Whether bad or good, I must create.
Nick this was an honest and emotional view on individual art making/creativity. Overcoming childhood trauma and how it can skew ones perception of the world, but the triumph when we can express all this on paper or canvas. I'm sure you pushed the gate open to help so many of us enjoy the journey.
I so understand, my mother had the same disorder, consequently I learned to be "invisible", and now at 77 I'm still "invisible", but I do find my identity in my art.
Wow Nick, thanks for sharing such vulnerable memories from childhood. My mom was also boarderline, it was rough. I’ve been in 12 step recovery for the past 20 years so that has really helped. I’m glad you had some happy years before your mom passed. I took CVP last year with you…. and recently remembering and using techniques that have helped!!
Thank You. This conversation on self worth has so much valuable information and experienced ubderstamding of people. I'm taking away alot and will be setting up two containers that I can fill with beads when I ask myself where my energy is predominant - the external or the internal.
Writing down 5 goals for myself and took the leap to jump into Spark. Why? Because you have taught me that there is art that only I can make. God bless 😊
Great podcast! I’m still working on letting go. I’ve decided to drop down in size and work more on paper. I think it’s something to do with my lack issues ! 🤪
Sounds a bit dangerous equating art making with self making. I know, as a runner, that a sense of efficacy naturally occurs as your fitness improves. Art making is very similar. Tho, lots of the self worth is contingent on 'successful' art making, just as in actually completing a training session in running. The key is in realizing what the definition of a 'successful painting session' is. In my opinion, most people don't count "learning a lot" as a success. If you play an instrument and create lots of mistakes, you just end up learning how to recreate lots of mistakes. The self worth, the sense of efficacy, the empowerment, comes from improvement. So, how do you improve? I suppose that a good coach would help - in running and in painting. Someone external to your hypercritical inner voice who can put your experience in the "success" category.
You are describing my childhood to a T.. Except I was abandoned by my mother at birth. She went home in a cab without me. From there I went to an orphanage for 10 months and was raised by none's who I suspect were not very kind to me. By the time I was 10 months old I was able to speak in full sentences walk by myself feed myself and drink out of a cup..I was also potty trained during the day.I was dubbed I did not bond with my
I’m so grateful to Nick for sharing his personal story. It has helped me identify what’s holding me back and inspires me to let go of my fears and enjoy the journey of being me. I have spent too much energy and life focused on everything but me. Im so full of fear and worry about the what others think it’s stifling but It’s not too late ! Thank you!!
Painting as a spiritual practice is one path to God.
Thank you so much Nick for sharing such a personal and vulnerable story. I was in a marriage for 26 years with a husband who developed borderline and ended up diagnosed with bipolar disorder. So , not possible to live with him anymore. During the difficult times in my marriage I started painting, scheduled one evening a week for myself to create. It was not good art, but I loved to create and get lost in the creativity. After my divorce I moved to another city and still love to live alone, enjoying my home, my garden and my art improved so much. I have a fulltime job and in my free time I paint. I have soli exhibitions in my area, I participate in group exhibitions abroad. Every now and then I sell a painting, from the Netherlands, to the USA, United Kingdom to Australia and I love it. I followed some of your free courses and I know I will follow the CVP next year. Thank you again Nick for being you ❤
Hi I really love your story truly inspires a beginner artist like me. Am looking to join the CVP program as well do you have any idea how much it cost so I start preparing?
This was fantastic. Thanks so much for sharing your past so eloquently. I found it really moving and I was painting as you were talking and I love the deep conversations, the ones that get you to really think and feel, I find this and music really help me to get into a flow state. I think art is a discovery and a healing process. Its about valuing yourself and your time enough which is 😁 challenging. These podcasts are awesome, thank you so much.
Thanks for this. Now I understand why I trust your commitment to creating an art community. Authenticity is a goal through creativity.
Thank you so much Nick. The recent referral to you has been life changing, from the content in your podcasts, to the Breadcrumb Challenge.
I appreciate your advice to value our time and art that matters to our lives.
Thank you!
I love the idea of overcoming myself! Thanks Nick!
Nic, Thankyou so much for this podcast!!! OMG! you spoke directly to me. I think this will change my life as an artist and beyond. I'm 78 years and kinda got stuck during covid when my husband started working from home. I like to be alone while painting!
I am moving on now, trying harder. This podcast is wonderful for me and addressed so many issues. To say thank you just doesn't make it!!!! I think you just changed my life at a time I was thinking of giving up!!!!
💜
Dear Nicholas, this video fully revealed what an extraordinary human being you are. Your willingness to share your vulnerabilities is yet another dimension of the depth of your commitment to our learning. I completed CVP this past spring, joined The Academy, and am doing your SPARK intensive now. You are one of the very best teachers I’ve had (there have been many). At the start of CVP I didn’t fully grasp the whole concept of art and life and soul. You’re leading the way to deep integration of art and soul is exactly what I was looking for. Thank you so very much.
This podcast is my favorite in the art category but also just beautiful mindset and way of making life more beautiful!❤
Thank you so much for this wonderful, inspiring podcast! You are absolutely the best Nick!!!
Thank you so very much for this. You brought me to tears. You spoke directly to me, to my heart and I am able to see clearly what I have been missing and where I want to go. How I have to start and just go through the process even if I don’t know where I am going and where I will end up. I also like so many grew up in a trauma filled home and it is amazing how this has influenced my life through the limiting beliefs I internalized. I will listen to this again and have already emailed it forward to close friends. You bring so much light🌟🌟
Thanks so much for such an amazing share. I feel like your mother so much of the time, i was raised in England and have also emigrated to another life. Useing creativity to foster my courage has given me so much and im so grateful for this space that you have created. Thank you thank you thank you.
Nick, thank you for sharing your vulnerability. This is my type of therapy. Feeling we aren’t enough is real and affects us in many aspects in our daily lives, including creating our art.
So deeply appreciate you and your gift, which is exactly what your sharing was. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I loved the “thumbs up” to life - I am going to walk through my life and check it for the thumbs up. 😊😊😊
Thank you for your vulnerability. More people can relate to your story more than you may realize.
Thanks for these insights, for sharing your story, and for giving concrete examples of things to actually do to move the needle. I appreciate you.
Thanks so much for all these words Nick! Really makes me think.... In a very good way!
I really appreciate that you “ fire me up” each time you appear on my small screen. It is another step to get into the psychology field and learn how it affects my art. Thank you so much !
This was extremely helpful, authentic, honest an loving. Thank you so very much
Thanks for the podcast, always great to have some reassurance and positive talk around our art and our attitude. Very helpful thanks.
Your vulnerability is so helpful. Thank you for sharing.
Wow Nick - so brave to be so open! And so very helpful ❤
Thank you so much for sharing Nick. This episode brings all the puzzle pieces together. It's spot on. Although its not about painting, I have a creative job, which I'm good at, but the pricing is the issue. It's all about self-worth and I can feel it so clearly now. It's a common thread in my life. I'm really touched by this. Thanxxx again. X
Nick...this was just what I needed to hear today, for my life!! Sharing your experience growing up, so vulnerable and heartfelt creating this space for my own experiences, opened up a huge window of hope, joy for what I'm doing in giving this art I've wanted in my life ~ always ~ and give it the place in my heart that it deserves ~ and feel like I deserve it!!! Thank you infinitely
Nick, you are helping massively. Thanks for sharing.
Family is so complicated and can eff you up....and the work on yourself and self worth is ongoing...like ebbs and flows.
Jo.😊
Fantastic and so inspiring…. So appreciate your Heart centered sharing and wise guidance ideas🙏🏽 You are so generous 🌻🐝👣Lucy🪷
I value my art. I love my art. I believe in myself, and know I’m worthy. Money for art supplies which cost so much is the only thing missing to carry on. Practice to grow the art is expensive.
Thank you Nick, I know exactly where you’re coming from! 😊
Wow wow wow! I have BPD and I did a very similar thing to my two daughters. You saying this is a huge help. I shares this to my two daughters. Art wise you have helped me so much. Life changing art courses!
This super sensitivity towards feeling others is a trauma response - I have it too and it is a curse and a blessing. It took me years of unpacking and self-work to make it work positively for me, so much so that it drove me to become a certified coach so I can help others too. I love painting, always have and was deterred for years from practicing and developing in this directions....story for another time. Love the openness and sincerity!!
This is fantastic! It is as if you read my mind, Nicholas! I will follow your advice, post my paintings and work on my self-worth! Donna Hemenway
Can't ever hear too much of this "stuff". Thanks Nick!!!
I think being honest if it can help others grow also is beautiful. Thank you for your teaching! I love the depth lately and all your guests!❤
Great information Nick. Thank you for sharing your personal story. So heart felt.❤
Thanks for all you do for the Artist within me. Can't wait to start SPARK.
Enjoyed the message of this episode. Thank you.
Inspiring! Thank you Nick…
Brilliant ❤ thank you so much for sharing your story and being vulnerable. This is going to change my life. ❤ xxx
OMG Nick🙏Thank you so much Nick for sharing such personal issues we all can relate to on way or another ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for sharing some of your own personal struggles, and for the encouragement to Believe in oneself!
thank you nick. i learn so much from you. your kindness and vulnerability are a balm in this tough world. i am in your Sparks program starting tomorrow and i am looking forward it!! i walk around my art station and mostly am too afraid to do anything.....my childhood was emotionally tough too. i have no friends and find it hard and exhausting to relate to most people. i so want to paint but there is this invisible wall stopping me....i am so scared to be me. sad but true. hoping i can break through. thank you. i feel hopeful after hearing this.
It will be a chance for that beautiful child to come out and play, no judgment! You can start with finger painting! That’s how I started CVP. You will have so much fun!
@@Spiritmoving1z thank you for your support.
Thanks so much for sharing this part of yourself. I’ve listened to many of your podcasts-something about this one really affected me emotionally. I hope to do an in person workshop with you some day. Your approach “lights me up”!
Hi Nick, posting from Australia. I just painted the cover of my Spark play book while listening. New to abstract but had a major 'wow' during breadcrumbs and I think I have found my style. Thank you so much for all you do
You have changed my life.
Keep it up. Love these. I art play while you talk and I listen to multiple utube pod casts and videos. You inspire me and sooth my angst as I continue to embark on art . 48:19
This was a powerful episode. I listened to it on the way to work this morning, but I'll listen a few more times. I'm sensitive because I grew up in a trauma-filled house. I was below average in school and barely graduated high school. Fast-forward four decades, and I achieved a Master's degree at 55. I'm thrilled with the different forms of art out on the Internet. There is so much to learn, and I'm loving my artistic journey. My goal is to sell art when I retire and make a living from my art and travel. Lots of travel. :) Thank you for sharing something deeply personal. But you give us hope and that's what is so important.
Your amazing ❤
Thanks for your story!
Thank you again.
I so appreciate the heartfelt message today, it really resonates with how I've been feeling lately. Thank you!
This is such a heart-felt message. Thank you for sharing your stories and inspiring others.
In Alanon I learned the slogan “Fake it until you make it”. Create your ‘self worth’. No one can do this for you. Get on the bike, maybe you need training wheels ( fake it till you make it wheels). This works!
Thank you Nick for being vulnerable and showing yourself. This episode was very touching and I really identify with your upbringing. The positive message you spread is so awesome. I especially love the idea that vividly imagining what you want to feel like and experience will light up your brain as though it is reality.
I look forward to the podcast and Sunday vlog every week. Thanks so much for all you do 🙏😊
Thank you, Nick!! This has been so incredibly helpful. I appreciate you so much 🙏
Very helpful and reassuring Nick. The way you share your life’s challenges is very brave but the end result is that those that can take in what your giving can really benefit. So thank you. 😍
This was a good one, Nick
Thank you so much for your sharing of how this has played out in your own life even as recently as yesterday. I found it so helpful when you have framed this as generosity and commitment to ourselves with time and energy for ourselves. I hadn't really seen how I spend my resources to get external validation quite so clearly before and the generational patterns of over giving and hyper sensitivity to others whilst shutting off more and more from myself and what I want. your podcasts are a wonderful gift of your own hard won wisdom and I understood some very profound aspects of my self expresssion from the breadcrumbs challenge. Thank you
This brought tears to my eyes. I’ve had so much rejection in my life and art is literally what has saved my life. I’ve had to overcome “others being better artists”, etc. With that thinking, I stepped away into many other career directions. Yet, there was always this small nagging voice in my ear telling me to create SOMETHING artistically. In my 60’s now and doing it. Whether bad or good, I must create.
Thank you, thank you, thank you! This is just what I needed to hear.
Thanks for sharing this podcast which has covered lots of topics which has impact on journey of creativity…
Thanks for sharing.
Nick this was an honest and emotional view on individual art making/creativity. Overcoming childhood trauma and how it can skew ones perception of the world, but the triumph when we can express all this on paper or canvas. I'm sure you pushed the gate open to help so many of us enjoy the journey.
I so understand, my mother had the same disorder, consequently I learned to be "invisible", and now at 77 I'm still "invisible", but I do find my identity in my art.
❤ love you Nick
Wow Nick, thanks for sharing such vulnerable memories from childhood. My mom was also boarderline, it was rough. I’ve been in 12 step recovery for the past 20 years so that has really helped. I’m glad you had some happy years before your mom passed. I took CVP last year with you…. and recently remembering and using techniques that have helped!!
Thank You. This conversation on self worth has so much valuable information and experienced ubderstamding of people. I'm taking away alot and will be setting up two containers that I can fill with beads when I ask myself where my energy is predominant - the external or the internal.
Writing down 5 goals for myself and took the leap to jump into Spark. Why? Because you have taught me that there is art that only I can make. God bless 😊
Thank you so much for this inspiring talk!❤
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Great podcast! I’m still working on letting go. I’ve decided to drop down in size and work more on paper. I think it’s something to do with my lack issues ! 🤪
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Sounds a bit dangerous equating art making with self making. I know, as a runner, that a sense of efficacy naturally occurs as your fitness improves.
Art making is very similar. Tho, lots of the self worth is contingent on 'successful' art making, just as in actually completing a training session in running. The key is in realizing what the definition of a 'successful painting session' is. In my opinion, most people don't count "learning a lot" as a success. If you play an instrument and create lots of mistakes, you just end up learning how to recreate lots of mistakes. The self worth, the sense of efficacy, the empowerment, comes from improvement. So, how do you improve? I suppose that a good coach would help - in running and in painting. Someone external to your hypercritical inner voice who can put your experience in the "success" category.
You are describing my childhood to a T.. Except I was abandoned by my mother at birth. She went home in a cab without me. From there I went to an orphanage for 10 months and was raised by none's who I suspect were not very kind to me. By the time I was 10 months old I was able to speak in full sentences walk by myself feed myself and drink out of a cup..I was also potty trained during the day.I was dubbed I did not bond with my
Thanks you soon much. It was a good moment with you. Very conforting. You bring a lot to artists