to me this is the best single episode in the show. it's an extremely heavy thing to watch but i feel very "seen" by it. it's comforting to know i'm not alone in the way i feel and that other people can relate and make art which conveys that feeling.
i’d say asuka actually got a relatively happy ending in eoe. yes she died, but she died fighting and knowing she had the love and protection of her lot her the whole time, which was the source of most of her problems. she didn’t go down cowering, and she didn’t die alone
I don't know if it's just me, but I always thought the moment that shifted the tone of the show entirely was Toji's death. Episode 22 was just the nail in the coffin that gave us a glimpse of the terrifying events to come from that point onwards.
Oh joy, he's talking about the episode that gave us what I'd hold up as the most disturbing scene in any media I've seen besides the climatic 40 minutes of the Soviet war film Come and See
I remembered when I saw this episode five years ago with the original dub directors cut...I was terrified the emotions that I felt during that episode was one of the most intense emotion I had during any anime and left me shocked and unable to move.
Neon Genesis Evangelion nearly drove me to suicide. Seeing Shinji suffering is like seeing myself suffer, because at one point in time I was almost exactly like him, especially back in 10th grade when I was bullied to the brink of suicide. I simply cannot tolerate watching Eva. I felt forced to relive my trauma upon viewing it. I’m deathly afraid of it. Twice I had a nightmare where I saw myself as Shinji choking Asuka and starting the Third Impact. I’ve been struggling with this newfound depression ever since. I was obsessed with the series for over a year to try and outwit the isolation of the Coronavirus pandemic. It only increased the burden, and kept the memory of my friend’s recent suicide alive. Watching the End of Evangelion was like peering into a broken mirror, and I was viewing the hell I would’ve put myself through had things turned out differently, had I decided to give up living. It still haunts me to this day. Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate what so many have claimed to idolize, and I beat myself further for failing to worship what they call praiseworthy, I forced myself to watch a show that reminded me of nothing but pain just so I wouldn’t be alone anymore, I was willing to sacrifice my individuality for some company amidst the isolation of the pandemic. I sought emotional refuge in the Evangelion fandom on social media, hoping they’d understand me and provide me with answers that would grant me peace of mind. Instead, they downplayed my trauma, going so far as to spread a rumor of my past to shame me of my mental illness, spiraling me deeper into depression, which I’ve been struggling with for over a year now. I just want Shinji to be happy, so this past self of mine can be laid to rest once more. I’m afraid to decouple myself from him after losing my friend to suicide, which Eva made me feel responsible for, especially when I saw Shinji kill Kaworu, of which I fail to understand how anyone can call it praiseworthy. Until then, I feel nothing else matters. There’s a reason why I keep coming back to Evangelion; something that reminds me of nothing but pain. I want to prove to myself I’m not crazy for feeling this way, that Evangelion really did force me to relive my trauma, that my depression is not just a figment of my imagination or another anime plot point. I want to feel that my fear and resentment towards Eva is justified. But the fact I’m the only one I know in existence who’s been traumatized by an anime makes me feel like I really am crazy. But finally, with 3.0+1.0 released, I can rest easy knowing that Shinji has finally reached the light at the end of the tunnel. Evangelion is finished, and I want it to remain that way. But if things hadn’t turned out that way, I wouldn’t be here today. Whenever I think of Shinji I cannot help but feel suicidal.
I truly hope Thrice Upon A Time gave you enough catharsis and closure for you to heal from this trauma. Shinji is finally happy, it’s time we start as well.
I almost stopped watching Evangelion too except instead of viewing myself as Shinji I viewed myself as Asuka, and this episode completely ruined me. I almost quit watching the show here but I had to know if she reached a happy ending, and as the only other person who struggled through the third impact I guess she did. I’m not happy that there’s no major happy ending for her but i’ve found other avenues and other ways of coping with my trauma now. I’m sorry you went through something similar
I hope you are of good mental heath now. I really do. Read the manga if you didn't yet. Sadamoto's take on NGE. It shines a different light on Evangelion and for me is my canon. Gendo is not that asshole, Misato''s distance is a bit more explained and Shinji's final fate, as another depressed person that also tried to commit suicide 5 years ago, is way more beautiful. Gives you hope for a better future. Asuka gets a good final too. Give it a chance, buy the mangas or find online, I know it is there, because I've read it sometimes. Stay well.
Not to be mean, but I cannot relate. 1) Eva is just a show. It's not real. 2) If the show isn't your thing or you don't like it, then you don't like it. I'm not into metalcore music, so I don't listen to it. 3) I don't understand how instead of having empathy for Shinji's (and honestly all the characters') pain and suffering, you had SI? I also watched Eva in highschool and what I took was many problems are caused from a lack or fear of communication. I felt for Shinji. Did you not watch episode 26 when he realizes that and that his life has meaning?? 4) you might want to stop looking up Eva videos and posting in the comments if the show is a trigger for you.
@@TheTrueRandomGamer y'know the guy that made a response video to Bennett the Sage's garbage review of End of Eva, I thought I recognized you from that?
Just watched this episode, and even though I don't like Asuka at times, I honestly felt bad for her when her mind got scrambled... It hurt to watch, tbh
I love your outlook and analysis into this series so much thank you for doing these videos and giving a greater understanding and discussion to a series made for it
If anything, when I first decided to make this series I wanted to add things to the greater Eva conversation, it seems as though I've been decently successful which makes me happy.
@@nicogarrucha6060 It varies. For the most part I’m thanked for my efforts. I say this because whenever I need to be responsible for myself, I tend to slack off. But when I’m responsible for someone else’s needs, I’m more on top of it.
@@Doughboy123x I see u as someone with a kind heart. Maybe you just got dealt with cards that you really hate. I don't see it as escapism. I see it as reassuring yourself that you're good enough for this world. You don't need to prove it anymore
@@evashogoki8703 I would ask him sincerely what kind of terms he approaches anime with and why he seems to play into people's insecurities about anime? Kind of like when called Kaguya-sama "girly" on a video a long time ago even though Kaguya was a seinen manga. Shaybs' segments on Scamboli when he was especially egregious explain it pretty well I think. The way in which there is this attitude that he found these diamonds in the rough through the cesspool that is anime even though they tend to be popular shows, irks me in a special kind of way and communicates to me that he hasn't seen enough anime as well as feeling insecure about enjoying a medium such as anime that makes one inherently a pariah. And there are plenty of these people in the community who are viewers that want their own insecurities validated that they are bad for liking anime but I don't necessarily think that's a good idea. I would also probably watch his last few videos and give some advice on how to improve, because we all can no matter how popular we are, even people like Gigguk. Scamboli Reviews just so happens to be a new popular youtuber. Though I could be dead wrong on his current work because I haven't watched any of his videos in months. Of course this is if I could contact him which probably is impossible.
Pesonally, I cannot stand Asuka Langely Soryu, as she constantly reminds me of my tormentors. In 10th grade, I was often called a "retard" by the others due to the fact I had aspergers syndrome. Unlike Shinji however, I tried to connect with them in spite of their attitude towards me, but the more I tried to befriend them the more they hated me for it, thus the more I hated myself for even trying. I even reached out to others for help, even the teachers. But as friendly as they were, none of them helped me at all. But the person she reminds me most of all is Grace, who attended trade school with me. I wanted to get to know her better but she was hesitant. We eventually got closer but as we did, she would constantly point out fault after fault I did like a policeman, like a hypocrite. One time I stood up for myself and said, “You know what Grace? You're a fault finder. You constantly nitpick at other people’s issues when you don’t have the audacity to admit your own!” And she only thing she said was, “I will not be yelled at!...fucking asshole.” And walked off. Despite this I kept trying because I wanted to understand her so she wouldn't have to feel alone, nor I. But the more I tried to confront her, the more she openly resented me and acted like the drama queen. Whenever Asuka appearas on screen, I cannot help but feel utterly ashamed for not trying hard enough to understand my tormentors. And yet people still waifu her, fetishize her, idolize her, and worship her. I cannot help but feel like an outcast, which to this day is one of my greatest insecurities especially in the wake of a pandemic.
To me, the real tragedy is breakdown in communication between Asuka and Shinji that leads to her death. Of course, it all ties in to what you've said here. Both her and Shinji share equal "blame" (I'm using quotes as I don't really blame them due to their life experiences) for this breakdown. Asuka pushes everyone away as a way to show her independence and control over everything and Shinji expects everyone to explain themselves to him and meet him on his own terms. He doesn't seem to understand that other people may have trauma too that prevents them from expressing themselves. I guess that's why I was so disappointed with the ending of 3.0+1.0. Shinji had finally worked through his issues and was ready to live in the world as it was, not as he wanted it to be and Asuka had time to come to terms with her feelings. I know she said she "thought" she had a crush on him but "grew up" but I think his reappearance made her realize that she still liked him. The way she was secretly checking up on him when he was alone at the lake and the fact that she went out of her way at the end to tell him that she had liked him but was over those feelings. That's not something you do thinking you're both about to die. I can understand apologizing to someone for the way you treated them but not saying "Hey I liked you but I'm over that". Plus, at the end, we see her sitting alone at the train station. I really would have liked to have seen her and Shinji pairing up. Who knows if it'll work or not but at least they're both in the right mindset to communicate openly and honestly with each other.
to me this is the best single episode in the show. it's an extremely heavy thing to watch but i feel very "seen" by it. it's comforting to know i'm not alone in the way i feel and that other people can relate and make art which conveys that feeling.
This episode was hard af to watch . Then the end of Evangelion put the nail in the coffin for asuka
@Tony Diers agree with everything you said. Never played dearh stranding and don't plan it
i’d say asuka actually got a relatively happy
ending in eoe. yes she died, but she died fighting and knowing she had the love and protection of her lot her the whole time, which was the source of most of her problems. she didn’t go down cowering, and she didn’t die alone
@@heyitzmae at least she came back
Literally... fuck
You know, the real purpose of this episode reveals itself in the very upbeat music for the end credits.
This is by far my favourite episode of evangelion. It left such an impact on me when my first watched it.
Same here
impact..
I don't know if it's just me, but I always thought the moment that shifted the tone of the show entirely was Toji's death. Episode 22 was just the nail in the coffin that gave us a glimpse of the terrifying events to come from that point onwards.
Oh joy, he's talking about the episode that gave us what I'd hold up as the most disturbing scene in any media I've seen besides the climatic 40 minutes of the Soviet war film Come and See
I remembered when I saw this episode five years ago with the original dub directors cut...I was terrified the emotions that I felt during that episode was one of the most intense emotion I had during any anime and left me shocked and unable to move.
Neon Genesis Evangelion nearly drove me to suicide.
Seeing Shinji suffering is like seeing myself suffer, because at one point in time I was almost exactly like him, especially back in 10th grade when I was bullied to the brink of suicide. I simply cannot tolerate watching Eva. I felt forced to relive my trauma upon viewing it. I’m deathly afraid of it. Twice I had a nightmare where I saw myself as Shinji choking Asuka and starting the Third Impact. I’ve been struggling with this newfound depression ever since.
I was obsessed with the series for over a year to try and outwit the isolation of the Coronavirus pandemic. It only increased the burden, and kept the memory of my friend’s recent suicide alive.
Watching the End of Evangelion was like peering into a broken mirror, and I was viewing the hell I would’ve put myself through had things turned out differently, had I decided to give up living. It still haunts me to this day.
Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate what so many have claimed to idolize, and I beat myself further for failing to worship what they call praiseworthy, I forced myself to watch a show that reminded me of nothing but pain just so I wouldn’t be alone anymore, I was willing to sacrifice my individuality for some company amidst the isolation of the pandemic.
I sought emotional refuge in the Evangelion fandom on social media, hoping they’d understand me and provide me with answers that would grant me peace of mind. Instead, they downplayed my trauma, going so far as to spread a rumor of my past to shame me of my mental illness, spiraling me deeper into depression, which I’ve been struggling with for over a year now.
I just want Shinji to be happy, so this past self of mine can be laid to rest once more. I’m afraid to decouple myself from him after losing my friend to suicide, which Eva made me feel responsible for, especially when I saw Shinji kill Kaworu, of which I fail to understand how anyone can call it praiseworthy. Until then, I feel nothing else matters.
There’s a reason why I keep coming back to Evangelion; something that reminds me of nothing but pain.
I want to prove to myself I’m not crazy for feeling this way, that Evangelion really did force me to relive my trauma, that my depression is not just a figment of my imagination or another anime plot point. I want to feel that my fear and resentment towards Eva is justified.
But the fact I’m the only one I know in existence who’s been traumatized by an anime makes me feel like I really am crazy.
But finally, with 3.0+1.0 released, I can rest easy knowing that Shinji has finally reached the light at the end of the tunnel. Evangelion is finished, and I want it to remain that way.
But if things hadn’t turned out that way, I wouldn’t be here today.
Whenever I think of Shinji I cannot help but feel suicidal.
I truly hope Thrice Upon A Time gave you enough catharsis and closure for you to heal from this trauma. Shinji is finally happy, it’s time we start as well.
I almost stopped watching Evangelion too except instead of viewing myself as Shinji I viewed myself as Asuka, and this episode completely ruined me. I almost quit watching the show here but I had to know if she reached a happy ending, and as the only other person who struggled through the third impact I guess she did. I’m not happy that there’s no major happy ending for her but i’ve found other avenues and other ways of coping with my trauma now. I’m sorry you went through something similar
I hope you are of good mental heath now. I really do.
Read the manga if you didn't yet. Sadamoto's take on NGE. It shines a different light on Evangelion and for me is my canon. Gendo is not that asshole, Misato''s distance is a bit more explained and Shinji's final fate, as another depressed person that also tried to commit suicide 5 years ago, is way more beautiful. Gives you hope for a better future. Asuka gets a good final too.
Give it a chance, buy the mangas or find online, I know it is there, because I've read it sometimes.
Stay well.
Not to be mean, but I cannot relate.
1) Eva is just a show. It's not real.
2) If the show isn't your thing or you don't like it, then you don't like it. I'm not into metalcore music, so I don't listen to it.
3) I don't understand how instead of having empathy for Shinji's (and honestly all the characters') pain and suffering, you had SI? I also watched Eva in highschool and what I took was many problems are caused from a lack or fear of communication. I felt for Shinji. Did you not watch episode 26 when he realizes that and that his life has meaning??
4) you might want to stop looking up Eva videos and posting in the comments if the show is a trigger for you.
@@kuromyou7969 weird cause i 100% relate to this comment and it scares me
I'm so happy I found your analyses! You have such a way for boiling a subject down to its essence. It's quite admirable.
I'm impressed with how consistently good these videos are. Can't wait for the next one. By the way, you ever read Evangelion: Genocide?
Hey weren't you on The 4th Kemuels Bennett vid?
@@iamnottheguy8914 Huh?
I haven't, but I would honestly love to one day. Carving out time to read fanfiction has been a struggle of mine since I graduated middle school.
@@KurokiTea I'd highly recommend it if you ever find time. It's an honest to God masterpiece.
@@TheTrueRandomGamer y'know the guy that made a response video to Bennett the Sage's garbage review of End of Eva, I thought I recognized you from that?
Just watched this episode, and even though I don't like Asuka at times, I honestly felt bad for her when her mind got scrambled... It hurt to watch, tbh
I’m really way more like her than I’m proud to admit…🫤
Wow this is the best analysis of Asuka I've seen so far. It definitely needs more views.
I'm already midway into the Director's Cut, and the episode with the mind rape is definitely crazy as fuck.
Do you know how I can watch the directors cut?
@@sooriginal3070 netflix has all of it
Most RUclipsrs extend their analyses to a dragging degree, but this was perfectly concise and clear. Props!
This episode was excellent.
Great analysis
5:54 “hopeless weebs like me” that’s a bit harsh man calm down lol
I love your outlook and analysis into this series so much thank you for doing these videos and giving a greater understanding and discussion to a series made for it
If anything, when I first decided to make this series I wanted to add things to the greater Eva conversation, it seems as though I've been decently successful which makes me happy.
Personally I'd say my biggest vice is I'm too selfless.
I'm too considerate of others to the point that I don't take care of myself enough.
I assume the people you've been selfless for, haven't appreciated you for it?
@@nicogarrucha6060 It varies. For the most part I’m thanked for my efforts.
I say this because whenever I need to be responsible for myself, I tend to slack off. But when I’m responsible for someone else’s needs, I’m more on top of it.
@@Doughboy123x I see u as someone with a kind heart. Maybe you just got dealt with cards that you really hate. I don't see it as escapism. I see it as reassuring yourself that you're good enough for this world. You don't need to prove it anymore
And now, ode to joy
I just love your videos so much words cannot explain it
thnak u for making these videos! they’re so so good
Damn that was a good analysis👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
Great analysis! Thanks it was cool!
Hey great comments. New perspective. Thanks brother
Better than Scamboli's video.
What I would give to talk to that man.
@@KurokiTea How so? What ya would tell him?
@@evashogoki8703 I would ask him sincerely what kind of terms he approaches anime with and why he seems to play into people's insecurities about anime? Kind of like when called Kaguya-sama "girly" on a video a long time ago even though Kaguya was a seinen manga. Shaybs' segments on Scamboli when he was especially egregious explain it pretty well I think. The way in which there is this attitude that he found these diamonds in the rough through the cesspool that is anime even though they tend to be popular shows, irks me in a special kind of way and communicates to me that he hasn't seen enough anime as well as feeling insecure about enjoying a medium such as anime that makes one inherently a pariah. And there are plenty of these people in the community who are viewers that want their own insecurities validated that they are bad for liking anime but I don't necessarily think that's a good idea.
I would also probably watch his last few videos and give some advice on how to improve, because we all can no matter how popular we are, even people like Gigguk. Scamboli Reviews just so happens to be a new popular youtuber. Though I could be dead wrong on his current work because I haven't watched any of his videos in months.
Of course this is if I could contact him which probably is impossible.
I absolutely loved this explanation :) I have gained a subscriber hehe
Man that was deep. o.O
Pesonally, I cannot stand Asuka Langely Soryu, as she constantly reminds me of my tormentors. In 10th grade, I was often called a "retard" by the others due to the fact I had aspergers syndrome. Unlike Shinji however, I tried to connect with them in spite of their attitude towards me, but the more I tried to befriend them the more they hated me for it, thus the more I hated myself for even trying. I even reached out to others for help, even the teachers. But as friendly as they were, none of them helped me at all.
But the person she reminds me most of all is Grace, who attended trade school with me. I wanted to get to know her better but she was hesitant. We eventually got closer but as we did, she would constantly point out fault after fault I did like a policeman, like a hypocrite. One time I stood up for myself and said, “You know what Grace? You're a fault finder. You constantly nitpick at other people’s issues when you don’t have the audacity to admit your own!” And she only thing she said was, “I will not be yelled at!...fucking asshole.” And walked off. Despite this I kept trying because I wanted to understand her so she wouldn't have to feel alone, nor I. But the more I tried to confront her, the more she openly resented me and acted like the drama queen.
Whenever Asuka appearas on screen, I cannot help but feel utterly ashamed for not trying hard enough to understand my tormentors. And yet people still waifu her, fetishize her, idolize her, and worship her. I cannot help but feel like an outcast, which to this day is one of my greatest insecurities especially in the wake of a pandemic.
Don't worry man, it'll all be fine
That because asuka is nothing more but a cash grab to Eva staff.
People like Asuka and that Grace person you described are really terrible hypocrites and Narcissists.
Are you ever gonna continue this video series?
Take a look at my channel tomorrow ;)
@@KurokiTea Will do, take care man.
NO
i though it was the creepy angel mind lazer
To me, the real tragedy is breakdown in communication between Asuka and Shinji that leads to her death. Of course, it all ties in to what you've said here. Both her and Shinji share equal "blame" (I'm using quotes as I don't really blame them due to their life experiences) for this breakdown. Asuka pushes everyone away as a way to show her independence and control over everything and Shinji expects everyone to explain themselves to him and meet him on his own terms. He doesn't seem to understand that other people may have trauma too that prevents them from expressing themselves.
I guess that's why I was so disappointed with the ending of 3.0+1.0. Shinji had finally worked through his issues and was ready to live in the world as it was, not as he wanted it to be and Asuka had time to come to terms with her feelings. I know she said she "thought" she had a crush on him but "grew up" but I think his reappearance made her realize that she still liked him. The way she was secretly checking up on him when he was alone at the lake and the fact that she went out of her way at the end to tell him that she had liked him but was over those feelings. That's not something you do thinking you're both about to die. I can understand apologizing to someone for the way you treated them but not saying "Hey I liked you but I'm over that". Plus, at the end, we see her sitting alone at the train station.
I really would have liked to have seen her and Shinji pairing up. Who knows if it'll work or not but at least they're both in the right mindset to communicate openly and honestly with each other.