I would like to take a minute to tell YOU GUYS how fucking awesome you are! You have no idea how much I love tuning in almost everyday and giving yall content you love! i feel like the hefnerd family is really one of the most incredible families on youtube. i love you all so much!! have a fucking awesome day!! :)
Hey Alex! Here's some "awesome" backatcha! Your reaction videos, and the people who leave you comments or requests, have really broadened my musical library. The subjects of your videos have given me some newness, but I've found your fan's requests to be an even better source for someone I've never heard of (especially the ones that say ".....if you liked_____than you'll also like_____....." ) quite often those suggestions are right, and I DO like them. So I hope that you and your fans keep adding new groups/goodness to my music library! Keep doing your videos, you're doing god's work! :-) 😅😄
Saw them recently. They did a whole segment that was anti-suicide. They asked for the lights to be brought up and asked us how many of us have struggled with addiction or depression. Unfortunately it was a majority that raised their hands. He said “No more...This must end.” Very powerful show.
Let me guess, it was "A reason to fight". Very powerful and emotional song on its own that becomes so much more powerful with the comments in the official music video. I don't dare to imagine what it feels like to be on the live show and hear David's comments on it.
I saw them in 2019 with my mom who had discovered her grandfather’s body after he took his life with a shot to the head, following a Huntingtons disease diagnosis. We both loved David for his segment about suicide awareness, it felt real and personal and impactful to the crowd. I love this band and I love that it was the first band I saw in concert ❤
For context: The Main singer of the band, David Draiman, lost his girlfriend to suicide when he was away at the time, he came home and found her, like the video shows. He went into a depression, questioning if he should "join her".
Kurt Berliner The video doesn’t give an accurate representation of how she died. In the Wikipedia fact or fiction episode David Draiman did with Loudwire, he said that his girlfriend suicided by overdosing, not by hanging.
@@sweetrocks610 Yeah it could have showed a body with an empty bottle of pills next to it, but a hanging body gets the point of suicide much clearer. It never said that the video had to be 100% like his experience. The music video still showed him coming home to his girlfriend after committing suicide. I could never imagine what that would be like, and I never want to find out.
@@sweetrocks610 someone hanging is easier to understand than a spoon, lighter, and needle. And there are only a few minutes in a music video. I agree that it would need to be closer to the truth, if this was a documentary. It is just showing the viewers that he came home to his deceased girlfriend. I understood what happened in the video, regardless of how close to the truth it is. Thay must have been, and still be such a hard thing to go through.
Andrew Grulke sadly I can relate. It is very difficult to go through. I also encountered suicide in my life. A close friend committed suicide my freshman year of high school.
When I was 6, my brother (age 8) hung himself. He had an I.Q. that was nearly immeasurable. At the time of his death, he was taking 8th grade courses. The stress associated with that, coupled with our mother's abuse, was more than he could bear. I am 72, now, and still miss him.
i've read this 5 times and sat here for like 10 minutes trying to wrap my head around the fact that he felt suicidal enough to actually commit at the age of 8. i'm so sorry for you loss i can't begin to imagine what that feels like 😞😞😞🙏
Wise beyond his years..too wise for what his capacity could handle, I’m sure it was hard to feel like a kid, I come from a similar story, from the time I was in 6th grade I was reading 12th grade books and my brain couldn’t handle all of the adult concepts given I knew what being an adult was like at far too young of an age. I was literally calculating my moms check and brands to buy to feed us for the month so she could still afford to save up and be able to handle Christmas. My mother had two miscarriages before and after I was born, not to mention she was 18 when she got pregnant with me so she overshared what being an adult was like to me. When I was fourteen I held a knife to my wrists, given my mother was a nurse I knew what artery to slice to where I would be able to bleed out the fastest. Shortly after her ex husband at the time showed up and shot our house up with a shotgun came inside and hit her so hard she went limp, I was able to call her friend who was a police officer over to take care of the situation and it made me realize that I need to stay alive so she can survive, without me I’m entirely certain she would’ve committed suicide herself, and I had all of this knowledge as a thirteen year old. Being as none of my brothers and sisters made it out of birth thus leaving me an only child I can’t imagine losing a brother, I will remember your story friend.
Honestly. For some people it turns out to be the best medicine. I can't explain why. Just that the mind is a tricky thing and it works for some people.
Having been about the same age David was when this happened to him, having it also happen to me, I can still say to this day, 15+ years later, that I have many emotions and I can understand why he chose this way to express himself regarding the situation.
Oof, great deal of transparency to put that out there on RUclips of all places. Almost went through with it myself. Good on you that you're still here to fulfill whatever you believe your purpose is here on earth. Also, have a good day.
As a survivor myself at the time they gave me a 25% chance that I'd live at all and about 15% that I'd be neurologically intact. However after 20+ surgeries over a 9 month period and alot of work I defied the odds and am back to about 85% of who I was before it happened. I still deal with symptoms of my TBI almost 4 years later every day but am still working on getting as much of that 15% that I don't have back. Now I'm working on getting a program started locally to help other veterans and first responders (PD, EMS, FIRE, ect.) with their problems related to injuries, depression, PTSD or anything else.
I lost my brother to suicide, and I could not listen to two of my favorite songs for such a long time 45 by Shinedown, and dear agony by breaking Benjamin. None of us knew what he was going through and we still think about him to this day.
I know your pain. I lost my little brother 2 years ago. It's a hellish pain, and it never goes away. You dont look at stuff the same, and all you really want to do is tell them they weren't alone and and you love them. But a part of you hates your self because you weren't able to tell them. certain things break your heart, things you love, things you use to do with them.
One fact: when the vocalist was 16 years his girlfriend comits suicide and this event breaking him, and this muisc was what he feel and think when this hapen.
@@ageridthesilverdragon4440 He said in Loudwire:Fact or fiction about this theme. Now I don't remember if it was in first part or second,but you can watch it. I think he said he was 16,so.
Sadly, I have a loved one right now in the hospital as a result of a second attempt in under a month. He’s currently on a life support system in order for his body to rest while his organs recover. Very difficult to see someone go through this and no matter how much support you can offer, there’s little you can actually do. It effects so many people.... it’s truly tragic. Sending love, hope, and well wishes to anyone struggling ❤️
Im currently under a 6months suicide watch program - home bound. I have made several attempts on my life going back thru to high school days. Medication can help but it's never finite. I still get "down swings" that can last from a day to a week at a time. My doctor tells me i see the world in a fractured way. I can't get into the explanations of my darkness but i have found the importance of occupying my mind with creative outlets. I make clothes and bags which teach me to problem solve fast. I have a colour therapy session weekly where my counsellor gets me to design a mandala: she gives me a stack of colours, my anxiety disorder immediately forces me to harmonize the colours into order. As im colouring in the mandala she starts taking away colours. This is to force you to work hard against your anxiety before you get a panic attack. I have gestalt sessions weekly where i am put into situations similar to the times ive been raped and i have to role play my way out of it. Its my roughest day mentally but its also my crying day which really helps me get thru the rest of the week. You tube channels esp. Alex Hefners' allow me to see the world in a positive way and gives me access to communication that i would otherwise deny myself being locked away in my mind so much. 💙
You keep being a survivor. You are an awesome person and the world is a better place with you. I have also been violated in the past, and it is difficult. Dont let the actions of others take up space in your head. They are the evil ones. We will get through it all.
Stay with Disturbed please !! Here's some other great musics: "Disturbed - Indestructible" "Disturbed - Prayer" "Disturbed - Another Way To Die" "Disturbed - A Reason To Fight"
Not me yelling "Yes! Thank you! Finally!" Your reaction to the guitar solo....no one else seemed to pay any attention to that.... freaking awesome. I love Disturbed..... this is one of my favorites.
It wasnt just about the "devil whispering in his ear" he actually wrote this song from Satan's perspective In this song he playing the part of the Devil whispering in his ear
This has always been my favorite Disturbed song. HIGH INTENSITY song...like you say. Take another listen when you can and hear the production changes in the song. Very well done tune...I dig the hell out of it!!
I struggle with mental illness and I was suicidal for a few years after my girlfriend died of cancer. Then I lost my best friend to suicide in 2017. Its a horrible feeling and it kills everyone inside who loved you and leaves then wondering why, but I also understand being in that headspace where you are willing to do anything to make the pain stop. We need to come together and help those people who are struggling with these issues. I wish I could have done more to help my friend, but I didn't even see it coming. And now I have to deal with that for the rest of my life. Don't do it please, get help if you need to.
100% this! I'm happy you're here still brother. Its horrendous going though all that shit but you've pushed through and still here! Love you man, keep it going!
I’m so sorry for your loss but nothing was your fault. We all will feel regrets when someone we love dies no matter what it is. It is also common for depressed people to be the first ones to say they’re alright when asked how they are. So because someone may look or say they’re alright doesn’t mean they automatically are. By saying that, nothing was your fault and there’s no need to feel ashamed
Sargent4life436 don’t do it man/girl, it won’t be better to end it all :) I really think you should consider seeking help with your problems instead and get someone to talk to.
I have a friend I owe my life to. He saved me from suicide one night. Thinking back on it, it wasn't the best choice. I suffer from severe depression I battle with it day in and day out. I can say personally it's a demon that constantly torments and a lot of times suicide is the "best" option in your frame of mind. But you need to know there is always somebody looking out for you.
Glad to hear from u and if ur battle continues, just give urself time, strength, and patience. Don’t force anything. Welcome and seek change and evolution as time goes on. And find ur outlets and purposes. U got this dude.
Dude, i think that is the best way to explain it, it might be a switch for myself to help me contain these thoughts as if the demon is injecting them into my brain. Using it that way will help me understand what i am doing to myself. i did have an episode this weekend just gone and you may have just kept me from having another one
According to Dan Donegen, the lead guitarist, when David pitched this song to the rest of the band, Dan had to ask him if he was mentally ok, because of just how dark some of the content was that he was coming up with.
@@Jimbob1337 Those are good friends... when you go through losing someone like that it can really scar you for life. In this case I hope it's just artistic inspiration and writing about personal experience rather than writing about actual thoughts and feelings... especially after so many years
When I was 5 years old, my father committed suicide. Since then I've had 6 friends commit suicide. It's hard. People keep leaving and often there is no explanation. My siblings and I struggle with the loss of our father even now, 15 years later. And after losing someone to suicide, it's so easy to fall into the dark place that they must've been in. It's really awful
Although many cannot bear to live their lives any longer, those same do not wish the same troubles on anyone and would rather u be stronger than they were. I wish u all the best.
Jörmungandr Dude there are so many good songs from Asylum. He should react to: Remnants + Asylum The Infection Another Way To Die Serpentine Innocence Sacrifice The Warrior The Animal My Child Crucified Never Again Oh wait that’s the whole album...
I saw this music video when it came out just a few days after my dad told me of a suicide attempt where my late stepmom found him hanging. I bawled my eyes out because all I could picture was my dad hanging. It took me a long time to be able to watch that video without bursting into tears. I've also struggled with depression and have had suicidal thoughts. Thankfully, I'm not suicidal anymore but I know how it feels to be that low. Like all you can feel is pain, numbness and darkness swallowing you whole
These songs helped me through rough times. Disturbed is one of the greatest bands imo. Just happen to come across your channel and had to see your reaction to this song lol, glad to see you was both shocked and moved by it. It's a work of art 👌
I called. they didn't really do shit all for me. I suppose if I'd gone through with it they might've called an ambulance, but... now when I see these disclaimers it just pisses me off.
My husband of 45 years killed himself 2 years ago. It's difficult starting my life over again as a 75-year-old widow. Having suffered from suicidal depression since my teens, I always thought it would be me that went first. Hanging in there.
“White everywhere so I guess he killed himself” I’m guessing you didn’t notice the straightjacket but he’s in an asylum. I’m assuming that being that the grief was so immense that it drove him to either attempt suicide or have himself committed for suicidal behavior. Either way it’s terrible. I’ve dealt with suicidal behavior and have lost a few family members to it and neither of them is ever easy. And I hope anyone who is dealing with it now can get help and overcome it. Y’all are strong and wonderful people, and no matter what your mind is telling you, you are important, you matter and people will miss you. Lots of love to you Alex and the rest of the Hefnerds ❤️
Humanoid25 to Alex’s défense being his first time seeing the video I assume, probably won’t notice the straight jacket right away when it goes to that image being that everything is white.. but he did comment it was possible he was in an asylum too.
Don't end. I am so happy about the message that they send out I am so grateful that this person reinforced this message. I have not found my happy yet but I know it's there so please don't give up. There really are people out there that will listen to you you always have a shoulder to lean on. I am one of them if you need me. They give you plenty of options just keep going
I lost my Dad to suicide on 31st December 2014. Spoke to him briefly on Christmas Day, then six days later he was gone. I had no comprehension of his psychological downward spiral, and hadn't seen him physically in years, which made it all the more difficult to process. I was in denial of the fact, until I actually saw him in his coffin at the funeral home, and at that point it was a reality, and the floodgates just opened! I wrote a song called The Hourglass with my band, Dreamstate Illusion about this, but from my interpretation of his perspective, effectively as a means of closure for me.
That’s awful, and I feel your pain. I’ve dealt with depression for years, even having attempted at one point. I lost my mom the evening of 12/15/17. She’d been battling breast cancer for 4 years at that point. It’d gone away and come back again with a vengeance, spreading to her spinal cord and traveling to her brain. She still did treatments after it came back, but she did them almost unwillingly. She never seemed to have that urge to fight it the second round. Little did we know, she’d privately gotten all of her affairs in order and had everything organized into a little binder tucked away next to her chair (that’s the kind of person she was: a quiet, organized planner). She collapsed after she and my dad left dinner and was rushed to the hospital. I sped my way to the hospital and got there just in time to see 5 ER doctors frantically working on her trying to revive her. It fucked me up in so many ways because I began to feel as though she’d kind of accepted that cancerous death. I felt crushed, angry, hurt, confused. I was getting ready to get married in a year, and I didn’t even know if I could make it to that point without my mom. Counseling has been a huge saving grace for me since that years-long dark episode. If there’s a link to that song, I’d love to hear it!
In 2001 at 17 years old, I was about 6 feet away from a friend of mine when he shot himself in the head. Took my years to get to the point the the fact he was messing around with a loaded gun was suicide. I don't care how you cut it it was a stupid thing to be doing. I myself have depression and anxiety issues and even after seeing what the aftermath of a suicide can do those around you Ive still had thoughts of it myself. Not wanting to inflict what I saw after Nate died, on my own loved ones, has at times, been the only thing that has kept me from doing it myself. Finding songs like this and others is one the main thing that helps me get through my dark times.
@@Kalena_Shae That's how music is for me, too. It's the only way I can keep all of my mental issues in check enough to be a functioning human. And I know what it's like, to watch a friend commit suicide. One of my friends hung themselves in front of me, and at the time, I was frozen still in shock. I saw them tie a knot, tell me what it was, and they showed me how you can tie it to something (in this case, a tree), and "demonstrated". I didn't think they were gonna kick the chair away. They did. You probably know what happened to them shortly after. Still haunts me to this day, and it's been 6 years now.
He was in a insane asylum at the end look closely you can see him in a straight jacket he used to come out in a straight jacket live way back early days of Disturbed they would wheel him out in a straight jacket and undo him and he would start the show
@@andrewnelson7913 Signed. They were recording the first Album. It was at a strip/rock club in Lincoln Nebraska. It was 3 bands . One of the bands had canceled. And they got Disturbed. No one had heard of them. They were freaking awesome. I got to meet the band at their merch table and they all signed my 3 song demo I bought.
@@gabeackerman4964 that's awesome! I haven't saw them live yet but I really want to I've missed them a few times when they've came through Dallas I really want to see them live
People who do not commit suicide themselves after losing a loved one to suicide can go crazy themselves. So he decided not to commit suicide and now struggles his own life with major psychological issues. That should it be.
I attempted suicide twice in my 20's by ODing on pills...slept for 48 hours instead of dying. Nobody even noticed except my work, who asked me "Why didn't you come in to work yesterday?" This was approx. 30 years ago. I am now married and have a 6 year old daughter who keep me grounded. I am in a much better place these days. Cheers! (and react to CLUTCH)
@@martina2659 If you want comical, here's one: A guy tried committing suicide by ODing on anti-depressants...halfway through, he felt better and decided not to do it hahaha!
@@jlyo1991 Oh, I've heard it about 1000 times now. Floor is so awesome in the Live at Wembley version. Brings tears to my eyes still. Thanks for the suggestion though. Cheers!
I lost my father to suicide when I was young I'm now in my mid 20s and I still think of him ever damn day. He was the sole reason I am a metalhead. One by Metallica still gets me in my feels because it's one of his and mine favourite song and it's very accurate to how I was feeling when I lost him
A permanent solution to a temporary problem! Lost a dear friend to suicide 10 years ago this year! Still love him and miss him very much! Thank you for doing this song! Keep rockin’ it out! 🤘🏻
Anthony Ayars the concerts are so so emotional when they bring this up. It was an amazing experience though. They show so many people that they are not alone. They are such an awesome and amazing band/family.
I can only imagine how hard it is to lose someone you love to suicide. What I'll never stop thinking about is my cousin. He fell out of a window. I know. Sounds like a clear case. But neighbours said that he constantly sat on the windowsill, feet out, smoking. So maybe he just lost consciousness? I don't know. He was so happy to be an uncle, his sister was pregnant at the time. I was a kid when it happened and never got to wrap my head around it. And everytime I think about it, it makes me cry. Will never stop guessing. For her it was devastating. She was home when it happened. Damn, sorry the comment turned out so long 😅 you've got a new subscriber here, love the videos!
Man, this hit hard...my best friend hung himself in April 2019...I can`t even put into words the trail of pain that all his family and friends have been walking on since that day...
As someone who's had suicidal thoughts before, this hits pretty deep. Disturbed is so good, please react to: - Indestructible - The Animal - Voices - Prayer - Stupify - Ten Thousand Fists - The Light - Perfect Insanity - The Best Ones Lie - Asylum - The Night - The Game
Lived through it, no matter how much therapy it leaves a permanent stain in your life, you just have to get through each day . The strangest thing for me is the memory that is still clear to this day is when I touched her arm after she was dead was it felt like hard cold stone . When you lose someone like this good memories turn you to tears, you want to erase the memory of them but can't
In the past few years I've experienced the loss of 2 uncles to suicide.. still in my head and heart.. thanks to bands like disturbed that put out music like this, they have been the only thing in my life since day one that has remained the same this song and their newer one "Already gone" are works of art. Thank you for sharing this with people, and please if anyone has ever had thoughts to take their life.. please reach out it's very difficult and draining. We all need support, no one can do it all on their own. A music nation is a nation of family.
Glad you finally checked out more Disturbed! This song has always hit very close to home for me. If you want to listen to more of them you should check out "Asylum", "The Night" or "Ten Thousand Fists"!
I'm actually so dumb, I've been listening to this song since the year it came out and I only just realized it's sang from the perspective of a demon taunting the guy. Trying to tell him that he can kill himself to end his grief and be with his love again.
That song man, I cried when I first heard it. It's similar to my experience. When my grandma died 7 years ago after been told by my mum on the phone, I had a breakdown and get suicidal thoughts. I had a voice in my head to tell me to be with her. It took me a week to accept her death. I got PTSD from the bullying in "mainstream" secondary school (middle school for Americans) and it was hell. At first I wouldn't dare tell anyone about it and eventually I tell my mum about it. I'm happy that I'm here, fulfil my life with stuff I love. I complete the degree and hopefully become a session musician after I sort things out.
Now you are starting to understand why I love this band So much and the messages they put out with Thier songs are real. They are raw. A few of these songs were on a playlist that helped got me through a 2 year depression. I suggest the song "The Light" During his shows on this tour He had everyone that was going through depression or addiction raise thier hands and it gave me chills when he did it in my hometown just to know Just how many out there are struggling just like I am. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Sometimes darkness can show you the light. Powerful song and it exactly fulfils the band's goal of empowering people to get through thier struggles in life. Stay strong my brothers and sisters. We can fight and we can win together.
My father, my Uncle, 2 Cousins, my best friend from High school, 2 Girlfriends and almost me myself fell victim to this Never stop talking about your feelings or feel afraid or ashamed to bear your soul, there is always, always someone or something that can help you through it no matter how dark, endless and pointless it all may seem Bless all your hearts
A little background on the song: Devon, who is mentioned in the song, was Draimen’s (the frontman, lead singer) ex-girlfriend who killed herself via hanging while he was away. He went into a depression and considered joining her in death, but overcame it after some time. The song was written about that experience in his life. Draimen makes sure, whenever he performs the song, to bring up the importance of mental health in some capacity, since the song is about struggling with depression and grief.
I'm 50+ years old and have battled depression since high school. I'm 6'7" and have been ostracized my whole life, treated like a freak and made fun of all through school, and even to this day. I can't go out in public without being stared at, pointed at, laughed at, etc. All this has driven me to be so introverted that I won't leave my house unless I absolutely have to. Those feelings, combined with severe health issues, including a genetic connective tissue disorder that's affecting my whole body, has me dreading each day. The physical pain I've had 24/7 for more than 20 years and only gets worse as time goes on. I've never been in a relationship because men have always been too intimidated by my size. Being alone, suffering the constant pain, there's really nothing for me to live for. I've been suicidal several times in my life, most recently about 4 years ago. I'm not sure why I didn't go through with it, maybe I was just a coward, I don't know. I have no hopes, dreams or plans for the future because physically and financially, I can't do much of anything. I don't know why I'm still here, but I don't want to be. I know my thoughts and feelings are really dark, but I don't have any plans right now to harm myself. I've survived 2 emergency open heart surgeries that I shouldn't have, and sometimes I wish I hadn't. I've tried counseling, but since my circumstances won't ever change, therapy has never really helped. It's hard to have a positive outlook for my future when my future is full of nothing but literal pain and struggles. There are no procedures or treatments for my physical issues, I just have to live with them. I have a couple close friends I could talk to about what I'm feeling, but they have their own issues and I don't want to add to their burdens. This is the most I've ever "talked" about what I'm going through, and I'm sorry this is such a long post, but the words just keep pouring out. I guess it's a result of keeping it all in with no way to vent. This is an awesome community and this song hit some raw nerves, and I'm just sitting here crying. Again, I apologize for this long post and for taking up your valuable time.
Alex, you are a kind soul. This was a necessary video and I can see how much you care about your fans. Thank you for your kindness. You’ll never know the impact this video has had on me.
As mentioned by several other people, this song was inspired by true life events that David went through when he was young. The lyrics are a huge reflection of the thoughts that he had at the time. "Give your soul to me For eternity Release your life To begin another time with her End your grief with me There's another way Release your life Take your place inside the fire with her" Basically, it's his inner demons speaking to him, telling him to also commit suicide so he can be with her because being without her is too painful.
Hi my name is callum I am 16 and I am suicidal I’ve tried taking my own life many times I just want to thank you so much for doing this video it has really helped me to think of other things to distract me from thinking of trying to take my own life again and for that I thank you so much
I know I'm just a random stranger on the internet, but I want you to know that you're still so young and you have so many good things in life ahead of you. Never give up. You'll get through the hard times and they'll make you stronger. I know this from experience.
Seriously, take ALL of that negativity, the negative thoughts and emotions, and TALK to a professional. RUclips comments are NOT the place to share. You WILL continue to receive negative comments, which do not help. I don't know if you're doing this for attention, or just reaching out to anyone, but this is not the place to comment about your struggles. I know this may sound harsh, but I am a counselor. Individually and PRIVATELY is where you need to go. I pray for you. You're young, and hurting, so please don't subject yourself to harmful banter in a forum such as this. Get that help, my friend, but get it done properly. God bless, and focus on what you have/will have, not what hurts you.
I've been there bro here's something I tell my friends when they're feeling down. "Keep moving forward. Just because the tunnel is dark doesn't mean you're going through the dark alone, stick together the light isn't that far"
Cory Rikard I find it really hard to talk to someone face to face and I get really nervous and I just find it really hard to talk but youtube sometimes can help
the year i turned 50, i had been so sick for a couple years, and was seeing no way of it getting better,
my daughter was pregnant with my 1st grandchild. my son is a special need adult & i take care of him and his paperwork. my mom needed me to.she's 82 with heart issues. my death could/would have triggered hers. and 3 dear friends who also would be hurt if i checked out as well. and my dog. I've had him since he was 8 wks old, he's 17 now. i couldn't leave him alone he's had seizures since 2015. i know him and his nature best and thus can take care of him the best. i have siblings but the age difference is so great we simply don't talk. my death might hurt them, briefly, i don't think it'd make that big of a deal to them. so while i just wanted it to end? i chose not to because i knew it would devastate this group of people & my furkid. i chose to stay and fight. BUT i came so close to ending it, i literally was on constant watch over my own thoughts and moods. i developed coping strategies for myself...etc. i am just now getting back to good. and SOOO glad i chose to stay. truthfully if i didn't have that handful of people & my furkid? i would have checked out. would not have a had a reason to stay.
i'm lucky because i have had so many psych classes & other learning experiences, i was able figure it out. and lastly? best advice my mom EVER gave me, 1 quote. "This To Shall Pass" 4 small words but huge impact. cheers!
I personally get overwhelmed with so much emotions when I hear this song. I’ve just recently dealt with the loss of someone who was very close to me due to suicide, and I’ve personally have struggled with suicidal thoughts in the past and still have those struggles now. It breaks my heart to see someone struggle through that and the pain they’re going through. I know I’m just a random guy watching this video, but considering I know and seen the struggles I’m offering to help anyone I can who is going through this. We are more than just a community. We are a family and we should stick together through hard times. I love your videos, Alex, and watching them has gotten me through some dark times. I wish everyone here well and I’m here if anyone needs someone to talk to. Have a great day my fellow metal heads
I tried once. Best friend saved my life. I was 13 and bullied at home and school. He pass 3 months later from natural causes. We never talked about. He just gave me a look that if i ever tried again I would find out. Never did. Became a stronger person metally. I have him to thank to this day.
I live on that line. It is a struggle. Struggle for so many. Inpatient kicked folks out the second they either A) ran out of insurance or B) found out you have no insurance. Therapist and psychiatrist have both fallen asleep during session. One day at a time is all I can personally do. Great song. Thanks for your reflection of the message.
first off, I am so happy that you've never had to deal with that kind of depression second this song is a visceral depiction of that type of depression... way too many of us have seen it and feel it. adendum I'm sorry you've had those thoughts too, this imagery used is the anger and heartache of those of us who live with it every day. I hope you never fully understand this video.
Been waiting for you to do this song! Disturbed is such a talented band. They're such amazing storytellers and you can tell that David's lyrics come from a very real place. More by them to check out would be Asylum, Voices, The Game, Remember, Prayer, The Animal. You pretty much can't go wrong.
I am in my 30s and have been to 54 funerals throughout my lifetime. 18 of them were victims of suicide. All close friends of mine. I use to mourn but it got to the point where I end up celebrating their lives instead. One thing that we use to love doing was hit up rock concerts or sit around and listen to rock music. Watching these rock reacts gives me comfort. I am the ONLY person in my life that is a music junkie (mainly rock music) so it's hard to connect to anyone new and I hate explaining it to people.
The song "inside the fire" has a strong place in my heart, for several reasons, one being I have lost several friends to suicide. I highly recommend these songs by disturbed as well 😍 Disturbed - uninvited guest Disturbed - already gone Disturbed - my child Disturbed - hold on to memories Disturbed - who taught you how to hate Disturbed - stronger Disturbed - perfect Disturbed - save our last goodbye
I remembee fitkrst hearing this song when it came out in i think 2008, i could not get enough of it, listened to it over and over again. 13 years later and this song is still one of my absolute songs ever. It's a song that's really helped me throughout my life.
Ive dealth with bipolar my whole life, having suicidenotes from the age of 8! Find it really great that people like Disturbed and yourself to give attention to mental health. It is important. Ive been living a stable and happy live for over a year now. You can to. Get help that fits you and get the life you deserve.
I can imagine, I lost my fiance' 3 weeks from officially tying the know to suicide, and I was unfortunate enough to have to take her rigomortis body down. I was panicking soo much ( I used to be 250lbs w/6-8% Bodyfat(that means a six-pack, w/22inch arms, 28-inch waist, 19-inch neck, and 33inch thighs) I was shaking so much to undo the noose that I had to break the upper down with my fists to break it off and get her down. I only brought the bodybuilding thing because after that I went downhill fast drinking etc. it been shy of 7 years now. And I still blame myself.
Man, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure that it must have been hell for you, one day you will meet her, whether in heaven or hell, and she'll tell you why she did it and that you did enough, may the peace be in your heart and I hope you will find someone to love..
The reality is this hurts many people and I have dealt with it personally in many ways and appreciate that more people are getting help and are seeing the light at the end of tunnel rather than seeing a void. If you are having a rough time just remember you aren't alone. People are there to help. I got help and I'm not ashamed.
This song saved my life a few years ago, stopping me from committing a rather violent suicide for my 7th and certainly final attempt. It'll always have a place in my heart.
Alex Hefner thank you for your dialogue following the video. This hit me hard as I have very recently lost a dear friend to this silent killer. I have a profound respect for you.
well, as always, if you need some tears flowing listen to "Godsmack - under your scars" ......and if you need a sledgehammer in your face (not literally ;) ) "Orbit Culture - Nensha"
As someone who struggles daily with suicidal thought this song hit me very hard. Since I can't seem to find hope for myself,, I hope it gets better for everyone else going through this mindset.
Holy shit! I just subscribed to you brother after watching for the first time a video by you: Your reaction to Korn's Daddy. I commented on it and went off on a tangent about how much Jonathan Davis has inspired and inadvertently helped me through the years. How much I pray for his well being with his recent loss in my own special way, etc. etc. I had a good cry after I typed that very personal tangent out after realizing the gigantic wall of text I left that naturally spewed out of me when I heard that song again and felt what you were feeling. I even apologized for it in the comment. I subscribed to this channel immediately and then told myself I needed a little break from the internet to clear my head. Shortly after I came back to your channel to watch another video. I didn't heed the warning in the title of this video because I told myself "Well, I don't mind crying. Just did not that long ago." I can honestly say I didn't cry based on this video or your reaction. I'm just in awe of Disturbed. They never cease to amaze me with their messages and talent! I'm glad I subscribed to you @Alex Hefner. I just need a break from this inner demon fuel though and watch some dog or cat videos or something similar to cleanse my "mental palette". :D Next time I heed your warnings in the titles! :) It's a pleasure to be here and I look forward to watching more of your content in the future! Take care my new friend and I hope everyone in this amazing community is staying safe as well.
i thought about suicide for many years, then between music and 2 precious little niece's got me grounded, meet my wife who her herself suffers from mental health, the worst was 3 years ago when i almost lost twice to suicide (O.D and almost walking in front of a train). mental health is no joke and there are millions who suffer from it...some fight through, some lose the fight...and i pray for anyone suffering reading this call the suicide hotline, talk to family, talk to friends ......Robin Williams said it best.." Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems "
I’ve been physically disabled since birth. As a result, I’ve had to use crutches, a walker and/or a wheelchair to get around for my whole life and still do. I grew up enduring more hate, vitriol and bullying over that than I’d ever wish on anyone. As a result, I spent nearly every day from age 11-14 trying to figure out how to pull off suicide. I’m in a MUCH better place now, though, 20 years after that phase began. I look forward to your content every day and reactions like this one are a big part of the reason why, because I’ve been there. I’d love to see you react to another Disturbed song called The Light, at some point. That song has always been really inspiring to me and was one of the biggest things that helped me through my battle with cancer in 2016.
Hey Alex the better choice for a message of this caliber would have been “A Reason To Fight” by Disturbed of course. The other song that is now my daughters and my song is “Hold onto Memories” by them as well. Was a great experience seeing them live with her as a first concert!
I lost a friend who I treated like a brother on October 27, 2014. I found it interesting that you posted this reaction on the same date 5 years after. I love this song and suicide is never easy. My friend ended his life. I wish he was still here but the reality is that he is gone. This reminds me of another Disturbed song "Already Gone" off their Evolution album. "Is he already gone? Can we call him back again? Is he already gone? Will I find him in the end?" Well, I don't have a powerful spiritual faith so I can say that I'll never reach where he is, if anywhere. The pain when you find out that they bottled up something and you're unable to do anything about it is almost numbing to the point of immobilization. I couldn't feel anything but sorrow and grief for days on end. I used to tutor at my community college and I found out after the class I tutored for got out for the day. I went to the place I designated for tutoring and opened my phone to see my brother's text saying "Mikey's gone." I instantly called my friend Manny to figure it out and I was left aching on the inside. I cried at my school, not caring who saw me at the time. I still can't believe it's been this long but he's never forgotten and he'll be loved forever. The old cliche "time heals all wounds" is complete bullshit. You only learn how to better cope with things. To echo Brother Draimon, please reach out if you're feeling suicidal or know someone who is. The permanent solution leaves permanent scars in the people who love you.
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I would like to take a minute to tell YOU GUYS how fucking awesome you are! You have no idea how much I love tuning in almost everyday and giving yall content you love! i feel like the hefnerd family is really one of the most incredible families on youtube. i love you all so much!! have a fucking awesome day!! :)
Alex Hefner I look forward to your videos everyday. Keep doing what your doing. Lots of great music out there!!!
We love you Alex. Also, can you do blood brothers by oceans ate Alaska that would make my year
React to the new album from Saint Asonia, you will love it!
I look forward to this everyday! I’m currently deployed and this helps my morale!🤘😎
Hey Alex! Here's some "awesome" backatcha! Your reaction videos, and the people who leave you comments or requests, have really broadened my musical library. The subjects of your videos have given me some newness, but I've found your fan's requests to be an even better source for someone I've never heard of (especially the ones that say ".....if you liked_____than you'll also like_____....." ) quite often those suggestions are right, and I DO like them. So I hope that you and your fans keep adding new groups/goodness to my music library! Keep doing your videos, you're doing god's work! :-) 😅😄
Saw them recently. They did a whole segment that was anti-suicide. They asked for the lights to be brought up and asked us how many of us have struggled with addiction or depression. Unfortunately it was a majority that raised their hands. He said “No more...This must end.” Very powerful show.
Let me guess, it was "A reason to fight". Very powerful and emotional song on its own that becomes so much more powerful with the comments in the official music video. I don't dare to imagine what it feels like to be on the live show and hear David's comments on it.
@@TrueDeathblacK it must have been
I saw them in 2019 with my mom who had discovered her grandfather’s body after he took his life with a shot to the head, following a Huntingtons disease diagnosis.
We both loved David for his segment about suicide awareness, it felt real and personal and impactful to the crowd. I love this band and I love that it was the first band I saw in concert ❤
Saw them Sunday. Same deal with Reason to Fight. Really powerful moment
I saw them recently. They did a similar segment. I am so proud that, as a metal band, they talk about emotions and mental health!
For context: The Main singer of the band, David Draiman, lost his girlfriend to suicide when he was away at the time, he came home and found her, like the video shows. He went into a depression, questioning if he should "join her".
Kurt Berliner The video doesn’t give an accurate representation of how she died. In the Wikipedia fact or fiction episode David Draiman did with Loudwire, he said that his girlfriend suicided by overdosing, not by hanging.
@@sweetrocks610 Yeah it could have showed a body with an empty bottle of pills next to it, but a hanging body gets the point of suicide much clearer. It never said that the video had to be 100% like his experience. The music video still showed him coming home to his girlfriend after committing suicide.
I could never imagine what that would be like, and I never want to find out.
Andrew Grulke wasn’t pills. She od’d on heroin I think.
@@sweetrocks610 someone hanging is easier to understand than a spoon, lighter, and needle. And there are only a few minutes in a music video.
I agree that it would need to be closer to the truth, if this was a documentary. It is just showing the viewers that he came home to his deceased girlfriend.
I understood what happened in the video, regardless of how close to the truth it is. Thay must have been, and still be such a hard thing to go through.
Andrew Grulke sadly I can relate. It is very difficult to go through. I also encountered suicide in my life. A close friend committed suicide my freshman year of high school.
When I was 6, my brother (age 8) hung himself. He had an I.Q. that was nearly immeasurable. At the time of his death, he was taking 8th grade courses. The stress associated with that, coupled with our mother's abuse, was more than he could bear. I am 72, now, and still miss him.
So sorry for your loss 🙏
i've read this 5 times and sat here for like 10 minutes trying to wrap my head around the fact that he felt suicidal enough to actually commit at the age of 8. i'm so sorry for you loss i can't begin to imagine what that feels like 😞😞😞🙏
OMG, Elizabeth. I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss and what sounds like a heartbreaking childhood.
oh my god i am fucking crying
Wise beyond his years..too wise for what his capacity could handle, I’m sure it was hard to feel like a kid, I come from a similar story, from the time I was in 6th grade I was reading 12th grade books and my brain couldn’t handle all of the adult concepts given I knew what being an adult was like at far too young of an age.
I was literally calculating my moms check and brands to buy to feed us for the month so she could still afford to save up and be able to handle Christmas.
My mother had two miscarriages before and after I was born, not to mention she was 18 when she got pregnant with me so she overshared what being an adult was like to me.
When I was fourteen I held a knife to my wrists, given my mother was a nurse I knew what artery to slice to where I would be able to bleed out the fastest.
Shortly after her ex husband at the time showed up and shot our house up with a shotgun came inside and hit her so hard she went limp, I was able to call her friend who was a police officer over to take care of the situation and it made me realize that I need to stay alive so she can survive, without me I’m entirely certain she would’ve committed suicide herself, and I had all of this knowledge as a thirteen year old.
Being as none of my brothers and sisters made it out of birth thus leaving me an only child I can’t imagine losing a brother, I will remember your story friend.
Could you ever imagine having to recreate the experience for the music video essentially having to relive the trauma twice
God, I cannot even imagine how it must've felt
Honestly. For some people it turns out to be the best medicine. I can't explain why. Just that the mind is a tricky thing and it works for some people.
Something tells me David wasn't exactly forced into it. Perhaps it was cathartic for him to tell his story in his own artistic fashion.
Having been about the same age David was when this happened to him, having it also happen to me, I can still say to this day, 15+ years later, that I have many emotions and I can understand why he chose this way to express himself regarding the situation.
I think he did it for a cause though. To show how it affects people so so much. And how painful it is :(
Disturbed - Inside The Fire
**sad headbanging noises**
I snorted my tea
Are you spying me right now?
🤣😅😭
LOL
Disturbed - Inside The Fire
*headbanging silently*
As a survivor of an attempt, this is one of the greatest songs they've ever done, even to date.
Oof, great deal of transparency to put that out there on RUclips of all places. Almost went through with it myself. Good on you that you're still here to fulfill whatever you believe your purpose is here on earth. Also, have a good day.
Hope you doing good now bro.
Hope both of you are still doing good 🤍
Same here. First hearing i cried my eyes out on a metal song....
As a survivor myself at the time they gave me a 25% chance that I'd live at all and about 15% that I'd be neurologically intact. However after 20+ surgeries over a 9 month period and alot of work I defied the odds and am back to about 85% of who I was before it happened. I still deal with symptoms of my TBI almost 4 years later every day but am still working on getting as much of that 15% that I don't have back. Now I'm working on getting a program started locally to help other veterans and first responders (PD, EMS, FIRE, ect.) with their problems related to injuries, depression, PTSD or anything else.
I lost my brother to suicide, and I could not listen to two of my favorite songs for such a long time 45 by Shinedown, and dear agony by breaking Benjamin.
None of us knew what he was going through and we still think about him to this day.
I feel your pain. It's the leading cause of death in the US of men aged 45 or younger. It's the elephant in the room, and getting little attention.
Im so deeply sorry for your loss :(
My deepest condolences. He will be in your heart forever.
I’m sorry you lost your brother to suicide. May his memory stay with you!
I know your pain. I lost my little brother 2 years ago. It's a hellish pain, and it never goes away. You dont look at stuff the same, and all you really want to do is tell them they weren't alone and and you love them. But a part of you hates your self because you weren't able to tell them. certain things break your heart, things you love, things you use to do with them.
David Draiman had nightmares during the making of the whole album. he was haunted by what happened when he was younger.
One fact: when the vocalist was 16 years his girlfriend comits suicide and this event breaking him, and this muisc was what he feel and think when this hapen.
Lobo Nada Solitário I thought he was like 18-20?
uh no i am almost 100% sure he was 14 and she was 16 but maybe that was when they found eachother
@@ageridthesilverdragon4440 He said in Loudwire:Fact or fiction about this theme. Now I don't remember if it was in first part or second,but you can watch it. I think he said he was 16,so.
It must have been a horrible experience to have to relive that experience for this
Learn how to spell fuck face
Sadly, I have a loved one right now in the hospital as a result of a second attempt in under a month. He’s currently on a life support system in order for his body to rest while his organs recover. Very difficult to see someone go through this and no matter how much support you can offer, there’s little you can actually do. It effects so many people.... it’s truly tragic.
Sending love, hope, and well wishes to anyone struggling ❤️
God bless you
Did he make it?
Im currently under a 6months suicide watch program - home bound. I have made several attempts on my life going back thru to high school days. Medication can help but it's never finite. I still get "down swings" that can last from a day to a week at a time. My doctor tells me i see the world in a fractured way. I can't get into the explanations of my darkness but i have found the importance of occupying my mind with creative outlets. I make clothes and bags which teach me to problem solve fast. I have a colour therapy session weekly where my counsellor gets me to design a mandala: she gives me a stack of colours, my anxiety disorder immediately forces me to harmonize the colours into order. As im colouring in the mandala she starts taking away colours. This is to force you to work hard against your anxiety before you get a panic attack. I have gestalt sessions weekly where i am put into situations similar to the times ive been raped and i have to role play my way out of it. Its my roughest day mentally but its also my crying day which really helps me get thru the rest of the week. You tube channels esp. Alex Hefners' allow me to see the world in a positive way and gives me access to communication that i would otherwise deny myself being locked away in my mind so much. 💙
My heart goes out to you. Stay strong.
You keep being a survivor. You are an awesome person and the world is a better place with you. I have also been violated in the past, and it is difficult. Dont let the actions of others take up space in your head. They are the evil ones. We will get through it all.
There cannot be light without darkness, nor darkness without light. U got this dude, time heals. I wish u the best always.
I hope you get better💙 congrats on staying alive fren |-/
Please dont leave us.
Stay with Disturbed please !!
Here's some other great musics:
"Disturbed - Indestructible"
"Disturbed - Prayer"
"Disturbed - Another Way To Die"
"Disturbed - A Reason To Fight"
+1 for Another Way To Die
He already reacted to A Reason To Fight, I think.
@@LillyOmega2 yes, you are right friend ;)
Another way to die +1 :)
the night, parasite ,monster
" Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems " - Robin Williams
Love Y'all 🙏
Sadly, Robin also lost the fight :/
@@WolfFireheart well his problems weren`t temporary... but in most cases it`s more than true
And how'd that work out? It often ain't that 'temporary'.
Life is one of those temporary problems.
Didn't Robin William's kill himself.
Essentially in the song a demon is telling him to kill himself so he can go to hell and be with her.
Yep. The one looking out of the peephole at him was the demon
The devil more likely
@@machomaniac4512 same thing
Hardcore. But sad
Hell aint real though
Not me yelling "Yes! Thank you! Finally!" Your reaction to the guitar solo....no one else seemed to pay any attention to that.... freaking awesome. I love Disturbed..... this is one of my favorites.
It wasnt just about the "devil whispering in his ear" he actually wrote this song from Satan's perspective
In this song he playing the part of the Devil whispering in his ear
Snow Downing That’s right. I think a lot of people don’t see it from that perspective.
This has always been my favorite Disturbed song. HIGH INTENSITY song...like you say. Take another listen when you can and hear the production changes in the song. Very well done tune...I dig the hell out of it!!
I struggle with mental illness and I was suicidal for a few years after my girlfriend died of cancer. Then I lost my best friend to suicide in 2017. Its a horrible feeling and it kills everyone inside who loved you and leaves then wondering why, but I also understand being in that headspace where you are willing to do anything to make the pain stop. We need to come together and help those people who are struggling with these issues. I wish I could have done more to help my friend, but I didn't even see it coming. And now I have to deal with that for the rest of my life. Don't do it please, get help if you need to.
100% this!
I'm happy you're here still brother. Its horrendous going though all that shit but you've pushed through and still here!
Love you man, keep it going!
I’m so sorry for your loss but nothing was your fault. We all will feel regrets when someone we love dies no matter what it is. It is also common for depressed people to be the first ones to say they’re alright when asked how they are. So because someone may look or say they’re alright doesn’t mean they automatically are. By saying that, nothing was your fault and there’s no need to feel ashamed
Or when a relationship goes to shit... It's not fun..
I have been in the same situation and still am, everyone has been dying that i care for is gone, and im depressed and suicidal
Sargent4life436 don’t do it man/girl, it won’t be better to end it all :) I really think you should consider seeking help with your problems instead and get someone to talk to.
I have a friend I owe my life to. He saved me from suicide one night. Thinking back on it, it wasn't the best choice. I suffer from severe depression I battle with it day in and day out. I can say personally it's a demon that constantly torments and a lot of times suicide is the "best" option in your frame of mind. But you need to know there is always somebody looking out for you.
Glad to hear from u and if ur battle continues, just give urself time, strength, and patience. Don’t force anything. Welcome and seek change and evolution as time goes on. And find ur outlets and purposes. U got this dude.
Dude, i think that is the best way to explain it, it might be a switch for myself to help me contain these thoughts as if the demon is injecting them into my brain. Using it that way will help me understand what i am doing to myself. i did have an episode this weekend just gone and you may have just kept me from having another one
The sad part of it is, that this actually happened to him.
According to Dan Donegen, the lead guitarist, when David pitched this song to the rest of the band, Dan had to ask him if he was mentally ok, because of just how dark some of the content was that he was coming up with.
@@Jimbob1337 Those are good friends... when you go through losing someone like that it can really scar you for life. In this case I hope it's just artistic inspiration and writing about personal experience rather than writing about actual thoughts and feelings... especially after so many years
And it happend when he was 16
Kind of why he said what he said in the beginning of the video
When I was 5 years old, my father committed suicide. Since then I've had 6 friends commit suicide. It's hard. People keep leaving and often there is no explanation. My siblings and I struggle with the loss of our father even now, 15 years later. And after losing someone to suicide, it's so easy to fall into the dark place that they must've been in. It's really awful
6 friends?
Holy crap.
Although many cannot bear to live their lives any longer, those same do not wish the same troubles on anyone and would rather u be stronger than they were. I wish u all the best.
The scene at the end, is a teaser for their album directly after this one, called Asylum.
In which you should probably do The Animal
Jörmungandr Dude there are so many good songs from Asylum. He should react to:
Remnants + Asylum
The Infection
Another Way To Die
Serpentine
Innocence
Sacrifice
The Warrior
The Animal
My Child
Crucified
Never Again
Oh wait that’s the whole album...
@@JGH
Yes. Very yes
@@JGH i prefer the album "immortalized" but some of the songs you wrote are good, man🤘🏼
I saw this music video when it came out just a few days after my dad told me of a suicide attempt where my late stepmom found him hanging. I bawled my eyes out because all I could picture was my dad hanging. It took me a long time to be able to watch that video without bursting into tears. I've also struggled with depression and have had suicidal thoughts. Thankfully, I'm not suicidal anymore but I know how it feels to be that low. Like all you can feel is pain, numbness and darkness swallowing you whole
I love how you research the meaning behind the song. As a huge disturbed fan I was hoping you would.
These songs helped me through rough times. Disturbed is one of the greatest bands imo.
Just happen to come across your channel and had to see your reaction to this song lol, glad to see you was both shocked and moved by it. It's a work of art 👌
I literally called the national suicide hotline one night when my depression got really bad and noone ever answered the phone.. it just kept ringing
I called. they didn't really do shit all for me. I suppose if I'd gone through with it they might've called an ambulance, but... now when I see these disclaimers it just pisses me off.
Yea, they are a joke unfortunately. Just know you are not alone
My husband of 45 years killed himself 2 years ago. It's difficult starting my life over again as a 75-year-old widow. Having suffered from suicidal depression since my teens, I always thought it would be me that went first. Hanging in there.
Disturbed has one of my the best music I've listened to.
You again. I didnt see you in like 1 month I started to worry!
@@illtakethatasacompliment5839 stalker alert! Just joking
Thanks Alex for reviewing Disturbed, great music with a message. Love U too!.!🤩
“White everywhere so I guess he killed himself” I’m guessing you didn’t notice the straightjacket but he’s in an asylum. I’m assuming that being that the grief was so immense that it drove him to either attempt suicide or have himself committed for suicidal behavior. Either way it’s terrible. I’ve dealt with suicidal behavior and have lost a few family members to it and neither of them is ever easy. And I hope anyone who is dealing with it now can get help and overcome it. Y’all are strong and wonderful people, and no matter what your mind is telling you, you are important, you matter and people will miss you. Lots of love to you Alex and the rest of the Hefnerds ❤️
Humanoid25 to Alex’s défense being his first time seeing the video I assume, probably won’t notice the straight jacket right away when it goes to that image being that everything is white.. but he did comment it was possible he was in an asylum too.
yeah i think the ending shows what someone does after having to deal with something like the songs subject.
It’s probably the prequel to down with the sickness.
I think the straight jacket may have been foreshadowing their next album "Asylum"
Don't end. I am so happy about the message that they send out I am so grateful that this person reinforced this message. I have not found my happy yet but I know it's there so please don't give up. There really are people out there that will listen to you you always have a shoulder to lean on. I am one of them if you need me. They give you plenty of options just keep going
I lost my Dad to suicide on 31st December 2014. Spoke to him briefly on Christmas Day, then six days later he was gone. I had no comprehension of his psychological downward spiral, and hadn't seen him physically in years, which made it all the more difficult to process. I was in denial of the fact, until I actually saw him in his coffin at the funeral home, and at that point it was a reality, and the floodgates just opened! I wrote a song called The Hourglass with my band, Dreamstate Illusion about this, but from my interpretation of his perspective, effectively as a means of closure for me.
Kieran Wallis sorry for your loss
That’s awful, and I feel your pain. I’ve dealt with depression for years, even having attempted at one point. I lost my mom the evening of 12/15/17. She’d been battling breast cancer for 4 years at that point. It’d gone away and come back again with a vengeance, spreading to her spinal cord and traveling to her brain. She still did treatments after it came back, but she did them almost unwillingly. She never seemed to have that urge to fight it the second round. Little did we know, she’d privately gotten all of her affairs in order and had everything organized into a little binder tucked away next to her chair (that’s the kind of person she was: a quiet, organized planner). She collapsed after she and my dad left dinner and was rushed to the hospital. I sped my way to the hospital and got there just in time to see 5 ER doctors frantically working on her trying to revive her. It fucked me up in so many ways because I began to feel as though she’d kind of accepted that cancerous death. I felt crushed, angry, hurt, confused. I was getting ready to get married in a year, and I didn’t even know if I could make it to that point without my mom. Counseling has been a huge saving grace for me since that years-long dark episode.
If there’s a link to that song, I’d love to hear it!
In 2001 at 17 years old, I was about 6 feet away from a friend of mine when he shot himself in the head. Took my years to get to the point the the fact he was messing around with a loaded gun was suicide. I don't care how you cut it it was a stupid thing to be doing. I myself have depression and anxiety issues and even after seeing what the aftermath of a suicide can do those around you Ive still had thoughts of it myself. Not wanting to inflict what I saw after Nate died, on my own loved ones, has at times, been the only thing that has kept me from doing it myself.
Finding songs like this and others is one the main thing that helps me get through my dark times.
Hope all is well and continues to be
@@chrissxix Music continues to be, and will probably always be, my greatest help in my mental health journey.
Hope this finds you well also.
@@Kalena_Shae That's how music is for me, too. It's the only way I can keep all of my mental issues in check enough to be a functioning human. And I know what it's like, to watch a friend commit suicide. One of my friends hung themselves in front of me, and at the time, I was frozen still in shock. I saw them tie a knot, tell me what it was, and they showed me how you can tie it to something (in this case, a tree), and "demonstrated". I didn't think they were gonna kick the chair away. They did. You probably know what happened to them shortly after. Still haunts me to this day, and it's been 6 years now.
He was in a insane asylum at the end look closely you can see him in a straight jacket he used to come out in a straight jacket live way back early days of Disturbed they would wheel him out in a straight jacket and undo him and he would start the show
And a hannibal lecter mask. I saw them with Sevendust before their first album was even out. Like 7 months before.
@@gabeackerman4964 were they already signed? or was it like right before?
@@andrewnelson7913 Signed. They were recording the first Album. It was at a strip/rock club in Lincoln Nebraska. It was 3 bands . One of the bands had canceled. And they got Disturbed. No one had heard of them. They were freaking awesome. I got to meet the band at their merch table and they all signed my 3 song demo I bought.
@@gabeackerman4964 that's awesome! I haven't saw them live yet but I really want to I've missed them a few times when they've came through Dallas I really want to see them live
@@andrewnelson7913 they are damn good live. I've been lucky enough to have seen them many times.
The end of this video was a prelude to "Asylum" which those two songs coupled together were written about Draiman's experience with suicide
People who do not commit suicide themselves after losing a loved one to suicide can go crazy themselves. So he decided not to commit suicide and now struggles his own life with major psychological issues. That should it be.
@@dragoneye9595 I think you're right
I never would have connected those 2... but makes total sense
I attempted suicide twice in my 20's by ODing on pills...slept for 48 hours instead of dying. Nobody even noticed except my work, who asked me "Why didn't you come in to work yesterday?" This was approx. 30 years ago. I am now married and have a 6 year old daughter who keep me grounded. I am in a much better place these days. Cheers! (and react to CLUTCH)
I’m sorry, but that is so tragic and comical at the same time. Glad you’re alive, must have felt refreshing to sleep for 48 hours
@@martina2659 If you want comical, here's one: A guy tried committing suicide by ODing on anti-depressants...halfway through, he felt better and decided not to do it hahaha!
You should listen to Poet and the Pendulum by Nightwish. Practically drug me out of a suicidal depression. Glad we’re both in a better place brother.
@@jlyo1991 Oh, I've heard it about 1000 times now. Floor is so awesome in the Live at Wembley version. Brings tears to my eyes still. Thanks for the suggestion though. Cheers!
Good to know you made it through the darkness and found beautiful light (wife and daughter).
"release your life to begin another time with her"
🥺🥺🥺
I lost my father to suicide when I was young I'm now in my mid 20s and I still think of him ever damn day. He was the sole reason I am a metalhead. One by Metallica still gets me in my feels because it's one of his and mine favourite song and it's very accurate to how I was feeling when I lost him
Me and my father also love Metallica. Im sorry for your loss.
Sorry for your loss🙏🏻❤
Im sorry for ur loss fellow metalhead stay strong 👊🤘
A permanent solution to a temporary problem! Lost a dear friend to suicide 10 years ago this year! Still love him and miss him very much! Thank you for doing this song! Keep rockin’ it out! 🤘🏻
Check out disturbed's song a reason to fight, one of the more emotional songs I've heard from them in a while
Anthony Ayars the concerts are so so emotional when they bring this up. It was an amazing experience though. They show so many people that they are not alone. They are such an awesome and amazing band/family.
Didnt realize till after I posted this that he has already reacted to that vid, still an amazingly powerful message.
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Reason to Fight was incredible live. They sat up a small stage in the middle of the arena when they played it.
Too bad every song literally is the same. It's probably their worst album out.
I can only imagine how hard it is to lose someone you love to suicide. What I'll never stop thinking about is my cousin. He fell out of a window. I know. Sounds like a clear case. But neighbours said that he constantly sat on the windowsill, feet out, smoking. So maybe he just lost consciousness? I don't know. He was so happy to be an uncle, his sister was pregnant at the time. I was a kid when it happened and never got to wrap my head around it. And everytime I think about it, it makes me cry. Will never stop guessing. For her it was devastating. She was home when it happened.
Damn, sorry the comment turned out so long 😅 you've got a new subscriber here, love the videos!
Disturbed- Indestructible
Prayer, The Game.
Man, this hit hard...my best friend hung himself in April 2019...I can`t even put into words the trail of pain that all his family and friends have been walking on since that day...
As someone who's had suicidal thoughts before, this hits pretty deep.
Disturbed is so good, please react to:
- Indestructible
- The Animal
- Voices
- Prayer
- Stupify
- Ten Thousand Fists
- The Light
- Perfect Insanity
- The Best Ones Lie
- Asylum
- The Night
- The Game
Lived through it, no matter how much therapy it leaves a permanent stain in your life, you just have to get through each day .
The strangest thing for me is the memory that is still clear to this day is when I touched her arm after she was dead was it felt like hard cold stone .
When you lose someone like this good memories turn you to tears, you want to erase the memory of them but can't
Disturbed - “Overburdened” has a very tool like bass line
My favorite song! 🤘
This is my funeral song.
@Eric Brock Good call. I never realized that until now.
In the past few years I've experienced the loss of 2 uncles to suicide.. still in my head and heart.. thanks to bands like disturbed that put out music like this, they have been the only thing in my life since day one that has remained the same this song and their newer one "Already gone" are works of art. Thank you for sharing this with people, and please if anyone has ever had thoughts to take their life.. please reach out it's very difficult and draining. We all need support, no one can do it all on their own. A music nation is a nation of family.
Glad you finally checked out more Disturbed! This song has always hit very close to home for me. If you want to listen to more of them you should check out "Asylum", "The Night" or "Ten Thousand Fists"!
I'm actually so dumb, I've been listening to this song since the year it came out and I only just realized it's sang from the perspective of a demon taunting the guy. Trying to tell him that he can kill himself to end his grief and be with his love again.
That song man, I cried when I first heard it. It's similar to my experience.
When my grandma died 7 years ago after been told by my mum on the phone, I had a breakdown and get suicidal thoughts. I had a voice in my head to tell me to be with her. It took me a week to accept her death.
I got PTSD from the bullying in "mainstream" secondary school (middle school for Americans) and it was hell. At first I wouldn't dare tell anyone about it and eventually I tell my mum about it.
I'm happy that I'm here, fulfil my life with stuff I love. I complete the degree and hopefully become a session musician after I sort things out.
Now you are starting to understand why I love this band So much and the messages they put out with Thier songs are real. They are raw. A few of these songs were on a playlist that helped got me through a 2 year depression. I suggest the song "The Light" During his shows on this tour He had everyone that was going through depression or addiction raise thier hands and it gave me chills when he did it in my hometown just to know Just how many out there are struggling just like I am. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Sometimes darkness can show you the light. Powerful song and it exactly fulfils the band's goal of empowering people to get through thier struggles in life. Stay strong my brothers and sisters. We can fight and we can win together.
Alex: i’m ready to be wow’ed
A few seconds into the video: this video contains the sensitive topic, suicide
My father, my Uncle, 2 Cousins, my best friend from High school, 2 Girlfriends and almost me myself fell victim to this
Never stop talking about your feelings or feel afraid or ashamed to bear your soul, there is always, always someone or something that can help you through it no matter how dark, endless and pointless it all may seem
Bless all your hearts
You are an amazing person. Thank you for your encouraging words to others. Life is precious.
Thank you for your continued vocalized support of suicide awareness. You’re a voice for the voiceless and always willing to lend an ear 👊🏻
First rock song I had ever heard. This was the song that started me down this long metal road. Disturbed will always be my #1!
The night by disturbed \m/
I was about to suggest that. 🤘
A little background on the song:
Devon, who is mentioned in the song, was Draimen’s (the frontman, lead singer) ex-girlfriend who killed herself via hanging while he was away. He went into a depression and considered joining her in death, but overcame it after some time. The song was written about that experience in his life.
Draimen makes sure, whenever he performs the song, to bring up the importance of mental health in some capacity, since the song is about struggling with depression and grief.
Disturbed a reason to fight is a must
I'm 50+ years old and have battled depression since high school. I'm 6'7" and have been ostracized my whole life, treated like a freak and made fun of all through school, and even to this day. I can't go out in public without being stared at, pointed at, laughed at, etc. All this has driven me to be so introverted that I won't leave my house unless I absolutely have to. Those feelings, combined with severe health issues, including a genetic connective tissue disorder that's affecting my whole body, has me dreading each day. The physical pain I've had 24/7 for more than 20 years and only gets worse as time goes on. I've never been in a relationship because men have always been too intimidated by my size. Being alone, suffering the constant pain, there's really nothing for me to live for. I've been suicidal several times in my life, most recently about 4 years ago. I'm not sure why I didn't go through with it, maybe I was just a coward, I don't know. I have no hopes, dreams or plans for the future because physically and financially, I can't do much of anything. I don't know why I'm still here, but I don't want to be. I know my thoughts and feelings are really dark, but I don't have any plans right now to harm myself. I've survived 2 emergency open heart surgeries that I shouldn't have, and sometimes I wish I hadn't. I've tried counseling, but since my circumstances won't ever change, therapy has never really helped. It's hard to have a positive outlook for my future when my future is full of nothing but literal pain and struggles. There are no procedures or treatments for my physical issues, I just have to live with them. I have a couple close friends I could talk to about what I'm feeling, but they have their own issues and I don't want to add to their burdens. This is the most I've ever "talked" about what I'm going through, and I'm sorry this is such a long post, but the words just keep pouring out. I guess it's a result of keeping it all in with no way to vent. This is an awesome community and this song hit some raw nerves, and I'm just sitting here crying. Again, I apologize for this long post and for taking up your valuable time.
Don't give up, im here if you need someone to talk to. I battle depression myself and attempted suicide myself. Keep your head up. Much love 💞
@@yourfavoritecommenter Thank you so much! I appreciate your time and lovely comment
Anytime I totally understand how it is to feel alone and no where to turn anytime you need me I'm here just shout 😊
@@yourfavoritecommenter 😊💜🤘
Love the daria pic btw takes me back I miss that show lol
Great choice Alex. I love the song. It’s insanely powerful.
Alex, you are a kind soul. This was a necessary video and I can see how much you care about your fans. Thank you for your kindness. You’ll never know the impact this video has had on me.
The subject is depressing as hell, but the song is amazing as hell, this is all i will say
As mentioned by several other people, this song was inspired by true life events that David went through when he was young. The lyrics are a huge reflection of the thoughts that he had at the time.
"Give your soul to me
For eternity
Release your life
To begin another time with her
End your grief with me
There's another way
Release your life
Take your place inside the fire with her"
Basically, it's his inner demons speaking to him, telling him to also commit suicide so he can be with her because being without her is too painful.
Hi my name is callum I am 16 and I am suicidal I’ve tried taking my own life many times I just want to thank you so much for doing this video it has really helped me to think of other things to distract me from thinking of trying to take my own life again and for that I thank you so much
I know I'm just a random stranger on the internet, but I want you to know that you're still so young and you have so many good things in life ahead of you. Never give up. You'll get through the hard times and they'll make you stronger. I know this from experience.
Csmal 1992 thank you so much from this comment most of the comments I get are really negative and makes me worse about myself
Seriously, take ALL of that negativity, the negative thoughts and emotions, and TALK to a professional. RUclips comments are NOT the place to share. You WILL continue to receive negative comments, which do not help. I don't know if you're doing this for attention, or just reaching out to anyone, but this is not the place to comment about your struggles. I know this may sound harsh, but I am a counselor. Individually and PRIVATELY is where you need to go. I pray for you. You're young, and hurting, so please don't subject yourself to harmful banter in a forum such as this. Get that help, my friend, but get it done properly. God bless, and focus on what you have/will have, not what hurts you.
I've been there bro here's something I tell my friends when they're feeling down. "Keep moving forward. Just because the tunnel is dark doesn't mean you're going through the dark alone, stick together the light isn't that far"
Cory Rikard I find it really hard to talk to someone face to face and I get really nervous and I just find it really hard to talk but youtube sometimes can help
I have gone through the entire Disturbed catalogue and this has to be one of their most powerful and moving pieces they have made.
the year i turned 50, i had been so sick for a couple years, and was seeing no way of it getting better,
my daughter was pregnant with my 1st grandchild.
my son is a special need adult & i take care of him and his paperwork.
my mom needed me to.she's 82 with heart issues. my death could/would have triggered hers.
and 3 dear friends who also would be hurt if i checked out as well.
and my dog. I've had him since he was 8 wks old, he's 17 now. i couldn't leave him alone he's had seizures since 2015. i know him and his nature best and thus can take care of him the best.
i have siblings but the age difference is so great we simply don't talk. my death might hurt them, briefly, i don't think it'd make that big of a deal to them.
so while i just wanted it to end? i chose not to because i knew it would devastate this group of people & my furkid.
i chose to stay and fight. BUT i came so close to ending it, i literally was on constant watch over my own thoughts and moods. i developed coping strategies for myself...etc.
i am just now getting back to good. and SOOO glad i chose to stay. truthfully if i didn't have that handful of people & my furkid? i would have checked out. would not have a had a reason to stay.
i'm lucky because i have had so many psych classes & other learning experiences, i was able figure it out.
and lastly? best advice my mom EVER gave me, 1 quote. "This To Shall Pass" 4 small words but huge impact.
cheers!
I personally get overwhelmed with so much emotions when I hear this song. I’ve just recently dealt with the loss of someone who was very close to me due to suicide, and I’ve personally have struggled with suicidal thoughts in the past and still have those struggles now. It breaks my heart to see someone struggle through that and the pain they’re going through. I know I’m just a random guy watching this video, but considering I know and seen the struggles I’m offering to help anyone I can who is going through this. We are more than just a community. We are a family and we should stick together through hard times. I love your videos, Alex, and watching them has gotten me through some dark times. I wish everyone here well and I’m here if anyone needs someone to talk to. Have a great day my fellow metal heads
Listen to some Five Finger Death Punch
Some songs you should hear:
Coming Down
Wrong Side Of Heaven
Gone Away
Sili Cookie wrong side of heaven gets me choked up every time
also add no one gets left behind,the pride,far from home,bad company and remember everything
My younger cousin listens to wrong side of heaven. Its pretty good so ive heard.
I tried once. Best friend saved my life. I was 13 and bullied at home and school. He pass 3 months later from natural causes. We never talked about. He just gave me a look that if i ever tried again I would find out. Never did. Became a stronger person metally. I have him to thank to this day.
Darkness is their most emotional song.
I live on that line. It is a struggle. Struggle for so many. Inpatient kicked folks out the second they either A) ran out of insurance or B) found out you have no insurance. Therapist and psychiatrist have both fallen asleep during session. One day at a time is all I can personally do. Great song. Thanks for your reflection of the message.
React to stabbing in the dark by ice nine kills🙏
Yeah I agree Alex, this was serious topic David sung about. Very cool you said what you did near the end 🙏 Great review as always!
first off, I am so happy that you've never had to deal with that kind of depression
second this song is a visceral depiction of that type of depression... way too many of us have seen it and feel it.
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I'm sorry you've had those thoughts too, this imagery used is the anger and heartache of those of us who live with it every day. I hope you never fully understand this video.
Been waiting for you to do this song! Disturbed is such a talented band. They're such amazing storytellers and you can tell that David's lyrics come from a very real place. More by them to check out would be Asylum, Voices, The Game, Remember, Prayer, The Animal. You pretty much can't go wrong.
Disturbed.... ASSYLUM
This is the next song in the chapter 🔥🔥
I am in my 30s and have been to 54 funerals throughout my lifetime. 18 of them were victims of suicide. All close friends of mine. I use to mourn but it got to the point where I end up celebrating their lives instead. One thing that we use to love doing was hit up rock concerts or sit around and listen to rock music.
Watching these rock reacts gives me comfort.
I am the ONLY person in my life that is a music junkie (mainly rock music) so it's hard to connect to anyone new and I hate explaining it to people.
The song "inside the fire" has a strong place in my heart, for several reasons, one being I have lost several friends to suicide.
I highly recommend these songs by disturbed as well 😍
Disturbed - uninvited guest
Disturbed - already gone
Disturbed - my child
Disturbed - hold on to memories
Disturbed - who taught you how to hate
Disturbed - stronger
Disturbed - perfect
Disturbed - save our last goodbye
I remembee fitkrst hearing this song when it came out in i think 2008, i could not get enough of it, listened to it over and over again.
13 years later and this song is still one of my absolute songs ever. It's a song that's really helped me throughout my life.
''Don't Watch This If You Cry Easily!!''
Auww, that's sending out the wrong message Alex.
Ive dealth with bipolar my whole life, having suicidenotes from the age of 8! Find it really great that people like Disturbed and yourself to give attention to mental health. It is important. Ive been living a stable and happy live for over a year now. You can to. Get help that fits you and get the life you deserve.
I can imagine, I lost my fiance' 3 weeks from officially tying the know to suicide, and I was unfortunate enough to have to take her rigomortis body down. I was panicking soo much ( I used to be 250lbs w/6-8% Bodyfat(that means a six-pack, w/22inch arms, 28-inch waist, 19-inch neck, and 33inch thighs) I was shaking so much to undo the noose that I had to break the upper down with my fists to break it off and get her down. I only brought the bodybuilding thing because after that I went downhill fast drinking etc. it been shy of 7 years now. And I still blame myself.
Man, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure that it must have been hell for you, one day you will meet her, whether in heaven or hell, and she'll tell you why she did it and that you did enough, may the peace be in your heart and I hope you will find someone to love..
Damn man I'm sorry
The reality is this hurts many people and I have dealt with it personally in many ways and appreciate that more people are getting help and are seeing the light at the end of tunnel rather than seeing a void. If you are having a rough time just remember you aren't alone. People are there to help. I got help and I'm not ashamed.
On the other side of this they have a newr song called "The Light" you need to react to
This song saved my life a few years ago, stopping me from committing a rather violent suicide for my 7th and certainly final attempt. It'll always have a place in my heart.
Whitechapel: When a Demon Defiles A Witch, Try it
Alex Hefner thank you for your dialogue following the video. This hit me hard as I have very recently lost a dear friend to this silent killer. I have a profound respect for you.
well, as always, if you need some tears flowing
listen to "Godsmack - under your scars"
......and if you need a sledgehammer in your face (not literally ;) )
"Orbit Culture - Nensha"
Dominik Kempen under your scars is so good when they play it live
As someone who struggles daily with suicidal thought this song hit me very hard. Since I can't seem to find hope for myself,, I hope it gets better for everyone else going through this mindset.
“The Light” - Disturbed
YES.
Yes!!!!
Holy shit! I just subscribed to you brother after watching for the first time a video by you: Your reaction to Korn's Daddy. I commented on it and went off on a tangent about how much Jonathan Davis has inspired and inadvertently helped me through the years. How much I pray for his well being with his recent loss in my own special way, etc. etc. I had a good cry after I typed that very personal tangent out after realizing the gigantic wall of text I left that naturally spewed out of me when I heard that song again and felt what you were feeling. I even apologized for it in the comment. I subscribed to this channel immediately and then told myself I needed a little break from the internet to clear my head.
Shortly after I came back to your channel to watch another video. I didn't heed the warning in the title of this video because I told myself "Well, I don't mind crying. Just did not that long ago." I can honestly say I didn't cry based on this video or your reaction. I'm just in awe of Disturbed. They never cease to amaze me with their messages and talent! I'm glad I subscribed to you @Alex Hefner. I just need a break from this inner demon fuel though and watch some dog or cat videos or something similar to cleanse my "mental palette". :D Next time I heed your warnings in the titles! :) It's a pleasure to be here and I look forward to watching more of your content in the future! Take care my new friend and I hope everyone in this amazing community is staying safe as well.
When He is covered in blood He is playing the Devil trying to convince Him to kill Himself to be with Her.
i thought about suicide for many years, then between music and 2 precious little niece's got me grounded, meet my wife who her herself suffers from mental health, the worst was 3 years ago when i almost lost twice to suicide (O.D and almost walking in front of a train). mental health is no joke and there are millions who suffer from it...some fight through, some lose the fight...and i pray for anyone suffering reading this call the suicide hotline, talk to family, talk to friends ......Robin Williams said it best.." Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems "
You need to listen to hold onto memories
I’ve been physically disabled since birth. As a result, I’ve had to use crutches, a walker and/or a wheelchair to get around for my whole life and still do. I grew up enduring more hate, vitriol and bullying over that than I’d ever wish on anyone. As a result, I spent nearly every day from age 11-14 trying to figure out how to pull off suicide. I’m in a MUCH better place now, though, 20 years after that phase began. I look forward to your content every day and reactions like this one are a big part of the reason why, because I’ve been there. I’d love to see you react to another Disturbed song called The Light, at some point. That song has always been really inspiring to me and was one of the biggest things that helped me through my battle with cancer in 2016.
Diamond Eyes-Shinedown
Hey Alex the better choice for a message of this caliber would have been “A Reason To Fight” by Disturbed of course. The other song that is now my daughters and my song is “Hold onto Memories” by them as well. Was a great experience seeing them live with her as a first concert!
React to Heaven Shall Burn - Hunters Will Be Hunted
I lost a friend who I treated like a brother on October 27, 2014. I found it interesting that you posted this reaction on the same date 5 years after. I love this song and suicide is never easy. My friend ended his life. I wish he was still here but the reality is that he is gone. This reminds me of another Disturbed song "Already Gone" off their Evolution album. "Is he already gone? Can we call him back again? Is he already gone? Will I find him in the end?" Well, I don't have a powerful spiritual faith so I can say that I'll never reach where he is, if anywhere. The pain when you find out that they bottled up something and you're unable to do anything about it is almost numbing to the point of immobilization. I couldn't feel anything but sorrow and grief for days on end. I used to tutor at my community college and I found out after the class I tutored for got out for the day. I went to the place I designated for tutoring and opened my phone to see my brother's text saying "Mikey's gone." I instantly called my friend Manny to figure it out and I was left aching on the inside. I cried at my school, not caring who saw me at the time. I still can't believe it's been this long but he's never forgotten and he'll be loved forever. The old cliche "time heals all wounds" is complete bullshit. You only learn how to better cope with things. To echo Brother Draimon, please reach out if you're feeling suicidal or know someone who is. The permanent solution leaves permanent scars in the people who love you.