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- Опубликовано: 16 июл 2020
- I started filming after my miscarriage. I wanted to document the process of healing: first time painting and drawing, cooking, packing orders. Trying to feel like myself again.
Miscarriage comic I did PART ONE
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PART TWO
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Note: Both the couscous and the yogurt cake recipe I did are from the book VEGANOMICON
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Thank you so so much to super Kevin for writing the spanish subtitles! We loooove you Keviin!
All my music is from Epidemic Sound
Camera
Canon EOS M6 with a 22 lens
I use DaVinci Resolve for editing!
Things you don't know about this video: Seriously I only drink two coffees a day! My cold brew recipe is: 5 tablespoons of ground coffee in 600-800ml of water. Put that in the fridge all night and voila! Iced coffee brings so much joy in my life. There's no greater feeling to wake up and have coffee waiting for you; it's like if Past Fran gave me this lovely gift every day, to start off my day on the right foot.
It's also lovely how I mentioned in the comics I did about my miscarriage how I never buy flowers for myself, and all these lovely people sent me flowers. What a lovely synchronicity! : ... )
When I watch Fran's vlogs, I get the same feeling as if I'm watching a Ghibli movie. You make us appreciate the magic and beauty of mundane activities. I love everything about it 💙
oooh, this is so well said. That's the feeling, absolutely - I didn't know it could be put into words, thank you :)
Absolutely agree. It's taking time too see things around you. I know that watching this video makes me become aware, which is great.
Thank you Fran for sharing. Hope you are ok. Keep well 🙂
And the sounds !
omg omg i always wanna now the same feeling but i dont knew how explain this is the best explanation EVER :-)
Wow, that is so true’
I can imagine this took ages to edit and we appreciate it
Fran, the reason is the saddest ever but this vlog has been just beautiful. Filled with sadness and pain but also life and love. It was calming to watch it. It was sad to watch it. You are so talented, even in this situation you are just outpouring creativity. I hope you and Ed are feeling better. Hugs!
Perfectly said!
fran: "i mean i appreciate the financial support but giving me the opportunity to pack orders? thats the real gift here"
The hero of this story: ice cube tray.
But in all seriousness, thank you for bringing us into your life and letting us be a part of your journey. Sending you so much love and support from afar as you and Ed go through the healing process. (Let's be awkward together!)
Nunca sientas que no lo das todo porque no nos defraudas. Entiendo que una parte de cada uno de nosotros nos juzga y nos dice que no lo damos todo pero Fran no te ausentaste, incluso estás ayudando a otras personas a sanar. Gracias por todo. Ojalá vieras lo mucho que das con solo mostrarte sincera con quienes te seguimos. Vamos a seguir acá por más que estés súper presente o necesites tiempo. Tomalo como necesites. Acá vamos a estar hoy o dentro de un mes. Abrazo.
We love you so much Fran , don’t worry about us . Do the things you need the most with Ed , Cereal and Hamburguesa we will be here because as I said , we love you ❤️❤️
Please don't apologise for your feelings, your actions, your inactions, your fears or anything you are going through. Everything is valid.
We love you so much Fran. Deal with this whatever way you feel is healthy and helpful and we'll be here for you and Ed. All the best to you and your family xxx
Hello Fran!
My boyfriend left today to visit his family in England and I am all alone in the apartment (except for the dog). This vlog came to me as a little gift, I love watching your vlogs while I am doing stuff around the house and now the place feels less empty, so thank you for that! All the love, healing and greetings from a long time viewer and customer from Germany! xx
I have so many respect for you, sketching out your loss and sharing it with the world. Because it makes everything visible and as an artist you can't really lie. I am so sorry for your loss, but you are handling it with so much respect and braveness. We need to talk about these very sad things. I am wishing you all the best. hugs from germany.
bia bri i couldnt agree more! doing all these things requires so much strength. she's such a strong person!
It's ok Fran, we can be awkward together as long as you need, love you
Siento que es muy bueno que también muestres la parte “mala” o triste en tus videos, aunque no sea tan feliz (oh) y entretenida, creo que eso le da más valor a los videos felices y es mucho más sincero que si desaparecieras y volvieras como que no pasó nada (aunque no digo que eso esté mal, si no quisieras compartir esa parte también estaría bien, pero eso, amo tus videos y que bueno que te estés sintiendo mejor :). )
Frannnn ❤
Desde que me enteré de tu wawita, has estado siempre en mis pensamientos y en mi corazón. Siempre tu comunidad RUclipsra, estará contigo acompañándote, así como tus lindos y sinceros vídeos nos han acompañado en tiempos buenos y difíciles. Algún día espero tener la platita para apoyarte x patreon y comprar tu linda agenda. Se que pronto pronto será posible. Mi esposo y yo somos artesanos de Ayacucho, Peru. Espero que algún día nos visiten ❤ aquí ya tienes una casa donde quedarte y una guía entusiasta para hacerte conocer la ciudad (yo)
Un abrazo inmenso
Dont worry ..time will heal you. New life experiences will come.. I lost my dad when i was 6 and my brother when i was 10...it is 30 years later i m still trying to heal in sense i do art ... the pain is relieved but memories on them come and go and it is moment of sadness for a minute but life goes on..and 😘 dont try to be your past self ..just be open and patient and try to accept the new you in each moment as you are.. ..hope i helped..kiss
When I went through depression last year, I stopped looking in the mirror at myself because I was so depersonalised that it scared me how I didn't recognize that person. I realised I started healing when I started taking selfies of myself a few months afterwards. So thank you for leaving that clip in, it was a reminder for me and I'm sure for others that we are all incredibly human in the things we feel and how we react to those feelings. The fact you wrote 'you will feel better in a month' made my heart feel full. ❤ Please do everything you need to do, you and Ed, take all the time.
YOU LOOK SO GOOD IN THAT NEW GLASSES, FRAN!
Hair cuts and new glasses do happen during recovery from a traumatic event, and they often happen at a point when someone has a shift in that journey. I think it shows how therapeutic doing your pictures was for you by the fact that at the end of doing it..expressing your story and feelings through your art...is the point you start to verbally talk to us on the video. The healing journey is little shifts and step forwards if that makes sense. Thanks for sharing Fran and sending you a hug from here in the UK. X
I love how aesthetically pleasant your home is.. and there’s Ed with the inescapably - present giant Sports Direct mug XD
You are healing and by sharing you give other broken hearts the chance to heal too. Thank you Fran
When you took out the condoms and showed the back, I truly thought they were mini pancakes as in the picture! Then I was like "Oh..." at the realization haha
RUclips needs more of this!! I appreciate this video more than you know. My miscarriage was four years ago and the emotions still hit me fresh while watching you. I understand your pain and trying to just get your feet wet back into “normal” life again. Much love to you from Florida ❤️🤍
I've been watching you for years now, and you're one of the few creators online that is transparent about feelings and life. And I appreciate the hell out of you for that. So many people edit their lives to make it look perfect, and none of us are. You are a great reminder of that. The human spirit is so alive on your channel from the videos to the comments. Thank you.
i was watching this video and my friend texted me to tell me she just lost her baby. it's my second friend to have had a miscarriage during the pandemic. i guess i'm sharing this because i'm sad for my friends but i don't feel like i have an outlet to talk about my sadness. anyways, all this to say, thanks for this video, and thanks for your illustration about the issue, it's also helped me grieve the loss for my friends!
rancidpencil I’m truly sorry about your friends :(
Fran, thank you so much for allowing us to be with you through such an intimate, difficult time. I wanted to hop into the comments because it was so lovely to watch you cook! I would absolutely watch vlogs of you just cooking and hanging out, especially with how lonely life is these days.
"On the lighter side, we have the balance of existence
Doing chores, washing dishes, buying pastries, and drinking tea
With this world I have not a problem, for it's these simple pleasures
Fill the valley of your soul, don't you know that we got to go"
In Another World by Donna the Buffalo.
Not sure why but your video made me think of this
i just want to say your vlogs are very therapeutic to me, and so it breaks my heart to know you are hurting. I'm so glad you are healing slowly but surely. so much love to you.
The Rilakkuma condoms hehe I heard they are honey flavored 😂 Hope you have a good day!!
Man this videos are weirdly addictive. Watching this lady go about her life is so soothing. Almost makes me wanna exchange my life with hers.
I love you Fran, my heart is with you and Ed during this time of loss and healing
Thank you for sharing the process of healing and I'm so glad you took that time for yourself!
Sending love! Thank you Fran for being true.
Thanks for sharing your healing process with us, Fran! 🙏 Sending lots of love to you and Ed!
Sending you lots of love Fran
This was so beautiful ! Thanks for sharing your healing :) also I'm happy your feeling better day by day.
Thinking of you sending you soooooo much love Fran my darling wishing you healing 🙌
Sending love and healing ❤
Thank you for uploading this vlog🌾
Dear Fran, thank you for your courage to share this healing time with us. I know we are all sending soothing supportive hugs your way.
Thank you so much for sharing these moments with us Fran. Sending you healing vibes.. 💓
Thank you for making this Vlog. Its so calming and healing. Thank you for sharing this with me.
this was a lovely video, it's nice to see you able to feel calm and relaxed. don't apologize to us!!! you deserve as much time as you need to heal. and the new glasses are lovely.
Lots of love for you Fran!!
thank you for sharing your honest thoughts during this difficult time and letting us all virtually spend time with you. these celebrations of everyday life are truly my favorite kind of videos. wishing you & Ed safe and steady healing
Es bonito acompañarte Fran 💙 gracias por compartir con nosotros tu proceso. Te mando un abrazo grandote, adoro los vlogs así de laaaaargos. 💙🤗
Thank you for this Fran, i love you and your videos
Beautiful video Fran. Thank you for your authenticity and heart. We're here cheering you on 💛
Thank you for allowing us to share in your life with you in this way. It’s so nice to connect like this. It’s so appreciated all of the work that you put in mentally, emotionally and physically. You bring joy. 💖
Fraaaan, espero tengas una buena semana 🥰 gracias por subirnos los ánimos con tus videos bonitos
Thank you for still making these videos for us. I hope you are having a lot of fun painting again >3
I love your videos Fran. They are so relaxing. I hope you feel better and heal your heart ❤️💖❤️✨
Oh Fran I think you are so dear to everyone because you share so much of your life with us and it's a real honour. Sending so very much love from Australia ❤
Much love and healing to you and Ed both. Take the rest you need, please.
Even though it is sad times for you, I love the warmth and tranquility that comes from your art, how you surround yourself with beautiful plants and the beautiful pastel shades that reoccur on your T-shirt packages, your pajamas and your illustrations, too! ❤️
thank you. these vlogs bring so much serenity to my day. sending love
Oh Fran 🤗 it is such a pleasure to be able to watch your content. I always feel such a connection 💕
Tus videos siempre son tan bonitos. Gracias Fran. 💖
love you fran. be strong. thanks for sharing
Sending you love and hugs, Fran and Ed. I'm so deeply sorry for what happened. I am happy to be awkward with you. :) Thank you for sharing your life with us.
Love it Fran!! You’re amazing and I appreciate your courage and honesty, you really inspire me!! ❤️❤️❤️
I love longer vlogs like this...and I'm so thankful that you have been sharing your experience and being raw and honest about what you've gone through. You are amazing and thank you for sharing your recovery with us x
You are really an inspiration Fran! Hope you feel better!
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Your days seem so balanced. I love how your put care and intention into everything you do. Inspiring 💞
Thank you for the vlog and sharing the slow and calm parts of getting better. The mundane and the daily. My heart goes out to you. And you are such a strong individual💚
This was so peaceful. Thank you for taking us along on your journey. Love the new glasses & the satisfying tiny pencil nub.
I just adore you Fran and wishing you the best. Lots of Love xxx
Thank you for sharing your story and healing time. It's so good to see a truly beautiful person and your sensitivity and talent even during this tough time. Take care! :)
Este es el mejor vlog de todos, Fran. Enhorabuena, es pura magia. Ánimo y abrazo grande.
Sending you lots of love Fran (and Ed too). I so appreciated the quote you shared about grief being like waves, it was very powerful. Thank you for the lovely vlog, and I love your new 'breakup haircut' ❤️
This was lovely to watch. Sad at times, relaxing at other times. Really well edited!! I loved it. Thanks for sharing!
Thank you for documenting your healing process in this awesome long vlog! I wish the best on your recovery, Fran and Ed! Y'all are both amazing and inspirations! 💕Please take all the time you need to heal and take care of yourself and the fam! Really adore your cute kitties too! Again, thank you so much for all your hard work and dedication! You da best!! 🥰❤️
Thank you,Fran. Sending lots of love your way. Also, your coffee always looks delicious ❤️
Te quiero mucho Fran, gracias por ser un rayito de sol y traer tanta luz a mis días 💌
I was looking forward for this vlog💜 I'm so over the moon to see you Fran, sending you all my love to you and Ed!
Fran thank you for sharing this calming, relaxing vlog especially while you continue to heal ❤️❤️. I actually watched this while studying and it helped me focus.
I loved so many things about this vlog. The way you seem to do everything with so much care and love, the slowness of it and the quiet, mostly without music, just the sounds of everyday life.
Always love a good awkward chat! And although I can't imagine what you're going through, I'm sending all the love and hoping that the healing continues xx Love you!
Gracias Fran por compartir con nosotros todo lo que te ha pasado. Te admiro mucho 💕🌻
Love you Fran and Ed!
I love all your videos there are so inspire.♥️♥️
Hi Fran, thank you for this video. I hope you feel better soon. xx
Even though you were going through something so hard in the period of this video I just have to say I found it so peaceful! I love all the small shots of you packaging things for the shop or making a meal or painting. I also love your apartment, it's so beautiful *.*
Thank you so much Fran for sharing your experiences ❤
I really like your style of vlogging with parts of talking and just calm parts where you show your daily life.
What a beautiful vlog, Fran. Thank you so much for sharing ♥
Te amo Fran, gracias por compartirte con nosotrxs
Thank you so much for this. You have been in my thoughts and in my heart. I’m glad Georgia and Karen are there to take your mind off things.
Mucho amor para ustedes Fran!! Tomarse el tiempo de sanar es lo mejor 💛 un abrazo grande
You are so brave. Praying for you and Ed.
Love you Fran! Take care of yourself! Lots of love from Holland 😘
just had a mental breakdown, cause things were getting too hard. that video helped so much to calm down for a moment. thank you fran. that was a wonderful meditative unit. sending calmness und warmth to you, love. 💗
love you so much fran and care for you lots. you are strong
Loved this video Fran! Thank you so much for sharing. The length is superb, I snugged up in a blanket on my sofa and enjoyed watching this calm sight into you life . Much love !!!
Best wishes to you Fran, get better soon and have hope. I’m a fan from Thailand. Feel sad to hear your pain. Take care both of you and Ed ;)
Thank you for being so honest. It's very inspiring.
Beautiful vlog. Thanks for sharing with us!
This is the most honest and lovely vlog, I’m glad you’re feeling a bit better, Fran, sending you all the good vibes and love a human can send virtually haha, thank you for this beautiful video ❤️
Fran, thank you for filming and editing this because I'm sure it takes a lot of time. And please take your time to heal, you are strong and we all believe in you! You are loved and always remind yourself that!
Uno de los videos mas relajantes y amados que he visto, gracias fran
It's so beautiful and hard to watch at the same time. Be weird, cry, do whatever it takes to get over it. Looking forward to see more videos of you and your art. 🙂❤️
Take all the time you need to feel like yourself again. So glad you can explore your feelings through your art. This video was so calming, yet poignant and sweet. My heart goes out to both you and Ed. Love your glasses!
Sending love! Don’t need to apologize for feeling weird or not uploading, please take care🥰
Gracias por compartir todo esto con nosotrxs Fran, les envío un fuerte abrazo y mucha fuerza 💖
Me encantan tus vlogs sin importar lo largos que sean. Muchas gracias por compartir. Toma todo el tiempo que necesites para sanar bella Fran, abrazos para ti y para Ed.