Don't be disappointed if you need to go to hospital . You're unwell and that's not your fault . I feel like a meal plan and calorie goal to meet each day would be helpful in this case. But whatever you do I wish you the best .
You haven’t updated in a week..I hope that doesn’t mean you’ve gone to hospital :( Hope you’re doing well and we all miss you and are rooting for you. ❤️
Be gentle with yourself. As someone in recovery, I’d like to pass along the biggest things that helped me early on: - take it one day at a time, or even an hour or minute at a time. Even 7 days can feel incredibly overwhelming. When you wake up in the morning, think to yourself “I can do this today.” If a compulsion arises, out it off until tomorrow. When tomorrow comes, put it off for another tomorrow. - try to find human connection each and everyday. Your disease wants nothing more than to isolate and kill you. - emotions/fears/anxieties are okay and everything will pass. Sometimes, we just have to sit and be uncomfortable for a while until that happens - most importantly, write down/think of everything you will gain in your life with recovery, and not just weight. You will gain freedom, self-love, laughter, confidence and so very much more I believe in you. ❤️
I am in recovery for anorexia and it still is tough sometimes. You can do this, Lilli. Group therapy really helped me learn that I am not alone and one-on-one therapy helps immensely as well. You're okay and you're worth this.
Rest in peace, ED! I believe in you. You can do this. And if you can't, you have not failed. It just means you need a little help, and that's ok. Take care dear. I have had an ED for 24 years. I am now at the highest weight I have ever been because I have finallky stopped purging. All the fears I had about gaining weight were irrational. I'm fine. I can focus on what's important in life. The world didn't end because I gained. Of course there are still negative thoughts, but I've learned how to talk back to ED. You've suffered long enough. Go for it, girl!
Lilli you are amazing, and you can do this. I am sending so much love your way. Nourish yourself, practice self care, enjoy creating some beautiful food and take your time. Make each meal an artistic project. It’s not about food, it’s about control. You are strong and you can take your power back ❤️
I really hope you can recover on your own!! But in-patient can be good too. I’m glad that it looks like you have an open mind and I know you can do this!
Until we truly decide that we are done suffering then that is when we start to change. I love how positive you are! You are doing great, mind over matter. Good luck! We're with you :)
You got this girl. Be kind to yourself and Love yourself. And please, don’t be too hard on yourself. You are trying so hard, I know. And I also know that you are very strong, and STRONGER than you think you are. I’m sure of that. I hope you get to recover soon. ♥️ Sending you the biggest hug, Lilli. Much Love xx
wishing you the ABSOLUTE BEST. i know it's gonna be super tough, but i know you can do it!! just don't give up cuz girl, lemme just say, recovering was the best decision i ever made.
We're here and staying with you! Youre so informed & intelligent to know where youre at & what you are going to do. Fingers crossed you can stay out of hospital but really no matter what its takes I hope ya keep positive. :)
You’ve got this! Sometimes we do have to “grieve” those addictions because they sort of become our identity and we forget who we are outside of them. This is such an amazing opportunity for you to mourn this part of your life and recreate a new life! Proud of you and so excited to bare witness to your journey!
Sometimes going inpatient makes it easier to start eating because 'you have to'. In my own recovery, there were several times when I wanted to eat more, but just couldn't and going to a hospital really helped get me back to regular eating. I have now been in recover 5 years after 30 years of AN/BN. Grieving your eating disorder is normal part of recovery. It did help you to cope at one time. It can feel like losing a friend, but just remember how much this friend has cost you. Recovery is hard, messy, painful, and emotional- but so much better than living in starvation. you can do this, you are worth it!
Do you have an Instagram? And if you don’t mind me asking how old are you? I’m 24. I’ve have had anorexia for about 5 years but I’m on and off recovery for about 2 years but Ive been doing pretty good now. I have 3 kids so I need to live for them. Im so happy that you’re getting help and trying to recover. You deserve to have a great life. No one deserves this. I’ll be praying for you.
My instagram is @recoverycommitment I’m so sorry to hear you are struggling in your own battles. Keep fighting my dear! We can do this together 💪🏻 sending you love and courage ❤️❤️
Just came across your channel and you're really inspirational. I used to suffer with an eating disorder and would never have thought of making videos during my recovery which is a really brave thing to do and helpful for many people. Keep working hard, it takes time but you've got this!
I hope everything is ok! Watching this video I feel you need to go into the hospital. It's ok to need help getting your recovery going. Sometimes we need a wake up call. I wish you nothing but the best and I know you can do it! We are all here supporting and rooting you on! 💓😘
I’ve been a silent watcher. But I really wanted to say I appreciate you for this. I’m currently struggling with recovery. So I’ve been finding recovery channels to motivate me. I hope for the best for you. And if it ends in inpatient, I hope it works out for you. And we’ll be here to see your progress when you’re out. It maybe all over for your ED, and that can be scary. It’s our comfort zone. But it’s just the beginning for your new life. And every part of your brain being silenced by your ED is going to thank you endlessly. Much love. Thank you for everything you’ve done to help me and others. And thank you for anything you have and will do for yourself. You got this. This is just the beginning. ❤️
OMG Lili I so feel for you. I am 68 years old and spent 30 years fighting an eating disorder. If I can recover so can you. Get the help you need when you need it.
GO GIRL! You seem so motivated and determined in this video! So happy for you. I'll be thinking of you! (licorice all sorts are my absolute FAVOURITE lolly- you've made me need to go and buy some now as well!)
My heart aches for you. I pray that you recover quickly.. and you're thrilled with the results.😘 Ps. I'm in alcohol recovery (still fresh), so I understand in a sense what you're going through to break this cycle.
You’re such a bright & intelligent human. I saw a slight progression in your mood in the last few videos. Don’t let this doctors appointment deter you or spook you from doing your best. You seem tired from going through this week, don’t be too hard on yourself & remember we’re all here supporting you! Whether you’re in the hospital or not!!
Taking the actual step of saying goodbye to the eating disorder and giving into recovery was one of the most difficult things I've ever done, but it's also been the most rewarding thing I've ever done. I learned so much and still continue to do so. Even though it was hard and took a very long time, I wouldn't trade everything I learned for anything. Rooting for you Lilli, keep going.
Man when you said "grieving my eating disorder" it hit me harddddd. Im a month into recovery and after being put in hospital involuntarily i got forced into it. And you really do have to grieve your previous life and move into the future. Proud of you girl, its all baby steps x Hope you didnt go into hospital
I don't have any personal experience with anorexia myself, but I helped my best friend a couple of years ago when she was ill with it. I clicked your video anyway, and I subscribed after watching one video! You have a beautiful personality and I'll enjoy following your journey! Keep it up hun ❤ And this might sound dumb, but trust me, you WILL get better. Will it be bloody hard? Yes it will, but you've already changed your mindset up and you're no longer blind to the disease. Just keep on track and dont loose focus❤
You can do this Lilli! I will be praying for you and cheering for you all the way from Canada! I won’t sugar coat, this is going to be a fight, but you can do this! You have such a beautiful, lovely soul ❤️ 💐🌷🌹🌻🌼🌸🌺
I'm really rooting for you this week, Lilli! I've just discovered your videos, and I enjoy watching them because you are so open and honest about your journey! I truly hope that you are able to eat the foods you want to eat, and that you can be satisfied with how you've acted this week whatever the outcome may be. I don't think going to hospital would be a failure. Sometimes we need a little help to get better. It seems you've made some mental changes, so hopefully these will be enough to help you get through tough times. Sending my love from Canada!!
its not over! you've got this. you're stronger than you know, lovely. youve got the game plan down, let's put it into action! ^•^ don't forget to praise yourself for your strength. I support you, girl. you got this.
You CAN recover. Today I celebrated 2 years since I last checked out of treatment. It isn’t easy but it IS WORTH EVERYTHING. One of my therapist told me that there’s 2 choices. One choice is you can listen to your ED and do all the hard things that come with restricting starving and counting and weighing etc. and never recover or the other choice is do the hard things like enjoying food and dealing with yourself sitting still and overcome. Which is more rewarding and will be worth the hard things. It’s all up to you 💕 you are doing so so so well!!!! I’m glad I found your channel. Have you ever considered “having meals” with your viewers? Like sitting down and talking to us while you’re eating makes it feel like you’re not alone. It’s a great way to stay accountable and stay on track! You are not alone xo Were all here rooting for you.
Somehow came across your channel - and I am so proud of you after watching just a couple videos. It’ll be hard but you’ve got a ton of support here, we’re all cheering you on!
Girl your face is GLOWING since the first video you posted 2 weeks ago! You can see the difference already in how bright and and more awake you look :)!!!
Good luck in your recovery love! I’m so happy you’re doing your food hauls and eating on camera. You will beat this, even if it’s alone or with help, we all need help sometimes. Blessings
You're so strong and wonderfully determined. I believe in you but even if it doesn't turn out the way you want it to I still whole heartedly believe in you and your recovery
Im behind you 110% Lilli i wish you well this week fingers crossed for a gain but if not you've tried your hardest!! Shoulders back, Smile & walk into the hospital with the same challenge......... it's 11.42pm in the UK right now but after just watching your video I could just eat those fish pieces in a bowl with a bit of tartare sauce yum xx
Hey miss Lilli ! It's like your telling my story only in on the other side of the spectrum. I'm overweight and need to loose my weight. But I never follow through. I'm cheering you on and I believe you can do this. Dont loose faith if u have to go to hospital. It's just a part of your recovery. I'm here if you ever need to talk .
I'm so, so proud of you. You deserve to be healthy and really, truly at peace with yourself. It's going to be so hard, but you know that and you're doing your best and you're trying your hardest. It's okay. ❤️
think of all the energy you will devote into other parts of your life going forward. For so long your every thought has revolved around ana. Your true life is waiting for you and it will be amazing ❤️
You can do it Lilli! I am praying for you and cheering for you! I love donuts now, they used to be like a fear food but now I love them! You are so inspiring and I know you are stronger than any eating disorder. Go Lilli!
I think what you mentioned about grieving the disorder is a very powerful thought. Sometimes there is no real big exciting motivation, no (fake?-)happiness, no "yay let's do this" - sometimes it's just a sad and somewhat tired "I don't want to feel like this any longer". Still it is hard to give up on things that followed you around for so long, even if it seems like a nightmare to live in. It's about letting a version of yourself go, an "old" version, an "eating disordered" version, so that feeling of loss is understandable. I hope you'll be able to sustain a positive mindset. Recovery is always possible, on your own, or with help, and as you said - either way it is a win. The battle is always hard but the hardest part is choosing to step on that battlefield, admitting to oneself that a fight is truly necessary. And you did that. My best wishes to you and loads of stranger-online-love (:
So glad you popped up in my recommendations! I'm rooting for you girl and you're right, it IS a win win, either way as long as your body is getting nourished that's amazing. You can do this ❤
i just subscribed because i believe in you! we all do. i understand how keeping self motivation is hard, i'm in the same boat but on the opposite end of the scale, over weight and every time i want to start a health change or a diet, it doesn't last very long because the first feeling of motivation and inspiration i get goes away in less than two weeks and i crave to go back to my old comfortable routine of eating what i want rather than what i need. i believe you're in the right state of mind, knowing and finally feeling and understanding that now, in this moment you're in, it's now or never. there's never going to be a perfect moment to wait to turn your life around, you just have to think, tomorrow, im doing this, i know i can push myself and i know im strong enough. those are some things i find hard to believe about myself and i dont want to wait until I've had a heart attack to realize it's time to change. and i believe you know exactly what's at stake and what you want and i want to be here for the journey! i can't wait to see who you become and see you grow as a person. stay happy and healthy. never give up, even on your lowest day, just know at least one person believes in you..me (: but again, we all do. do it for yourself first, your family second, and us third. we all care about you
Honestly I’m amazed they let you out at all until you’re doing much better, like almost healed. I mean your heart could stop any minute, not something to go in and out of hospital with like it’s a game
When I was very underweight I thought I could do it in my head but each day will end up like another same old restriction, same old routines ... I had to go inpatient just to change everything and not to be in charge of anything and it helped a lot ... getting over the first hump is the hardest and it’s better if you are not in control of your meals The more weight you gain the less you will be fearful of gaining more ... it doesn’t mean that fear will go away but your brain will work so much better
I believe in you. ED is going down. you are stronger than you think, keep fighting this demon and know it will be worth it regardless of whether or not you go back to hospital.....xoxoxo ps do you know which hospital you'll be going to?
You got this girl! Also there is no shame in getting help! We all need an extra hand to guide us through what we are going through. It will only be a positive outcome either way☺️
Hi Lilli, just wanted to see how you've been doing the last couple of days. Reach out if you are struggling. You have tons of support here. Stay positive. Lots of love and support from Texas.
Much love from NS,Canada just found your channel think you're amazing....keep doing your thang girl....wishing you all the best in your recovery process...sending positive vibes 💜💚💜💚
I've just watched all of your videos and I am so rooting for you!! You seem so lovely, and it would be amazing to see you be able to live a full life without this horrible illness in control
You are such a beautiful woman, I can’t wait to see you grow not only in weight but as a person. I struggle with weight myself, so I hope I can follow your journey for myself to help me. Stay strong and healthy! Love you! 💜
Oh, sweet thing 🤗 You can do this! I had struggled with eating disorders for almost 10 years. I know exactly where you are at. I will tell you, and I know it is just my personal findings, when I stumbled across a 100% plant based diet, and found I could eat as much as I wanted and still be healthy, there was no turning back for me. Good luck on your journey. Everyone is rooting for you 😍😍😍😍😍
Anorexic going vegan is not recovery, it is just another form of disordered eating. I wish people would stop recommending this to people with anorexia trying to recover.
I’m sending you lots of love and positive thoughts, I also fight and we will win this! There is only one way to go. We have to feel worse to be better... healthier... ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I've watched all of your video and I can honestly say that I see the determination in your eyes and that you can rely do an up thing that you truly put your mind to I really hope you overcome this problem and meet the deadline love from new york💝💞💕💘
I ❤am hoping that you make the weight gain,and you may not have to go to the hospital. I am praying for you, get better! I want to keep up with your progress. Love 💕 you, glad to see you eating and buying food! Keep up the good work! Sylvia, from the USA Detroit, Michigan.
These vlogs are all part of your recovery, and I just know that one day hopefully in the near future, you will be able to go back and watch these easier vlogs, and really be able to reflect on how far you've come! I believe in YOU and no matter what happens regardless of whether or not you end up in inpatient, it is still a positive step in the right direction!
I’m so proud of you! My friend has anorexia and has been in and out of hospitals for years. The thing about hospital admissions (for her atleast) is it’s not a longterm thing, it doesn’t ”recover” her, it doesn’t heal her and it doesn’t give her anything to fight for. Whenever she gets admitted she is very ill and her mind is as far away from healthy thinking that it could be, I mean the reason she is being admitted is because she doesn’t want to recover. Recovery in any form comes from within yourself and unless you are completely 100% ready and motivated you simply can’t do it. You can’t commit to recovery if you don’t want to, which is why forcing someone into hospital admission isn’t always the right answer when it comes to the the mental side of recovery. I don’t mean physical problems here, you obviously need admission if you are ill. I quit smoking a little less than a year ago and while it definitely is far from anything like EDs, it was an addiction and the only reason I was able to quit was because I was ready. I started smoking when I was 14 and it took me 15 years to get into the headspace I had to be in to commit to quitting. I have worked with former alcoholics in the past and they all agree that you can’t be forced into recovery of any form of illness or addiction, you’re the one who has to do it no matter how much help you receive. I’m so happy you are beginning your recovery! I can’t wait to see what your new life will bring you. Much love from Finland 👋 🇫🇮
Hope you recover I’m looking forward to see your journey you got this one step a day even if it’s baby steps as long as it’s a step forward ❤️ keep pushing your strong💪🏻
You looked exhausted I’m sure anorexia is a lot of work for your brain and your body Letting go of a little control and going to hospital will give you some rest ❤️
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I hope you recover and start living your life without this disorder controlling your life anymore im going through recovery and we can do this
I hope you recover very soon and I will be cheering you on! 💗💗💗
Don't be disappointed if you need to go to hospital . You're unwell and that's not your fault .
I feel like a meal plan and calorie goal to meet each day would be helpful in this case. But whatever you do I wish you the best .
You haven’t updated in a week..I hope that doesn’t mean you’ve gone to hospital :( Hope you’re doing well and we all miss you and are rooting for you. ❤️
Be gentle with yourself. As someone in recovery, I’d like to pass along the biggest things that helped me early on:
- take it one day at a time, or even an hour or minute at a time. Even 7 days can feel incredibly overwhelming. When you wake up in the morning, think to yourself “I can do this today.” If a compulsion arises, out it off until tomorrow. When tomorrow comes, put it off for another tomorrow.
- try to find human connection each and everyday. Your disease wants nothing more than to isolate and kill you.
- emotions/fears/anxieties are okay and everything will pass. Sometimes, we just have to sit and be uncomfortable for a while until that happens
- most importantly, write down/think of everything you will gain in your life with recovery, and not just weight. You will gain freedom, self-love, laughter, confidence and so very much more
I believe in you. ❤️
Thank you SO much for your support and advice darling girl. Such good points, sending you love and courage for your own journey too. ❤️❤️
This is so true! Recovery is recovery no matter what the "issue" is. Breaking it down to attainable goals is to BEST way to do it.
It's a negative motivation- but that's not always a bad thing. You can do this.
I am in recovery for anorexia and it still is tough sometimes. You can do this, Lilli. Group therapy really helped me learn that I am not alone and one-on-one therapy helps immensely as well. You're okay and you're worth this.
Rest in peace, ED! I believe in you. You can do this. And if you can't, you have not failed. It just means you need a little help, and that's ok. Take care dear. I have had an ED for 24 years. I am now at the highest weight I have ever been because I have finallky stopped purging. All the fears I had about gaining weight were irrational. I'm fine. I can focus on what's important in life. The world didn't end because I gained. Of course there are still negative thoughts, but I've learned how to talk back to ED. You've suffered long enough. Go for it, girl!
You should be so proud of your progress!! It fills me with joy and hope to hear this ☺️ and thank you for your support hun xxxx
So excited to see your journey over the next week. KEEP FIGHTING THAT ED VOICE. YOU’RE STRONGER THAN YOU THINK.
Lilli you are amazing, and you can do this. I am sending so much love your way. Nourish yourself, practice self care, enjoy creating some beautiful food and take your time. Make each meal an artistic project. It’s not about food, it’s about control. You are strong and you can take your power back ❤️
Your comment was so sweet 🌟❤️🌈🙏🏽
I really hope you can recover on your own!! But in-patient can be good too. I’m glad that it looks like you have an open mind and I know you can do this!
Lilli, you deserve life. You aren't alone and you have a story to tell. Thank you for sharing your jouney!
Until we truly decide that we are done suffering then that is when we start to change. I love how positive you are! You are doing great, mind over matter. Good luck! We're with you :)
My Heart is with you. Waiting for you, your update very much. Best regards from Europe.
Recovery is going to be lots of ups and downs but you are so much stronger than you think. You can do this girl! You've got so much support xxx
You got this girl. Be kind to yourself and Love yourself. And please, don’t be too hard on yourself. You are trying so hard, I know. And I also know that you are very strong, and STRONGER than you think you are. I’m sure of that. I hope you get to recover soon. ♥️
Sending you the biggest hug, Lilli.
Much Love xx
wishing you the ABSOLUTE BEST. i know it's gonna be super tough, but i know you can do it!! just don't give up cuz girl, lemme just say, recovering was the best decision i ever made.
We're here and staying with you! Youre so informed & intelligent to know where youre at & what you are going to do. Fingers crossed you can stay out of hospital but really no matter what its takes I hope ya keep positive. :)
You rock! You got this!.....It is time to dream big and make it happen. Sending you prayers, hugs, and strength Lilli.
You’ve got this! Sometimes we do have to “grieve” those addictions because they sort of become our identity and we forget who we are outside of them. This is such an amazing opportunity for you to mourn this part of your life and recreate a new life! Proud of you and so excited to bare witness to your journey!
Sometimes going inpatient makes it easier to start eating because 'you have to'. In my own recovery, there were several times when I wanted to eat more, but just couldn't and going to a hospital really helped get me back to regular eating. I have now been in recover 5 years after 30 years of AN/BN. Grieving your eating disorder is normal part of recovery. It did help you to cope at one time. It can feel like losing a friend, but just remember how much this friend has cost you. Recovery is hard, messy, painful, and emotional- but so much better than living in starvation. you can do this, you are worth it!
Do you have an Instagram? And if you don’t mind me asking how old are you? I’m 24. I’ve have had anorexia for about 5 years but I’m on and off recovery for about 2 years but Ive been doing pretty good now. I have 3 kids so I need to live for them. Im so happy that you’re getting help and trying to recover. You deserve to have a great life. No one deserves this. I’ll be praying for you.
My instagram is @recoverycommitment
I’m so sorry to hear you are struggling in your own battles. Keep fighting my dear! We can do this together 💪🏻 sending you love and courage ❤️❤️
Angelica’s Recovery I think she commented to someone else that’s she’s 20. I could be wrong though.
Cheyenne Wiseman thank you!
I adore your videos! You're so eloquent. You exude stoic determination and I'm positive you will succeed 💖💖
Just came across your channel and you're really inspirational. I used to suffer with an eating disorder and would never have thought of making videos during my recovery which is a really brave thing to do and helpful for many people. Keep working hard, it takes time but you've got this!
Cheering for you girl! You can do this!!! ❤️
I hope everything is ok! Watching this video I feel you need to go into the hospital. It's ok to need help getting your recovery going. Sometimes we need a wake up call. I wish you nothing but the best and I know you can do it! We are all here supporting and rooting you on! 💓😘
good luck angel! you're such a sweet and positive soul i know you can do this! ❤💙💚💛🧡💜
I’ve been a silent watcher. But I really wanted to say I appreciate you for this. I’m currently struggling with recovery. So I’ve been finding recovery channels to motivate me. I hope for the best for you. And if it ends in inpatient, I hope it works out for you. And we’ll be here to see your progress when you’re out. It maybe all over for your ED, and that can be scary. It’s our comfort zone. But it’s just the beginning for your new life. And every part of your brain being silenced by your ED is going to thank you endlessly. Much love. Thank you for everything you’ve done to help me and others. And thank you for anything you have and will do for yourself. You got this. This is just the beginning. ❤️
OMG Lili I so feel for you. I am 68 years old and spent 30 years fighting an eating disorder. If I can recover so can you. Get the help you need when you need it.
Patricia Ash this is such an inspirational message. Thank you and congrats on your recovery.
Good luck. You’ve got this. 💪🏻.
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GO GIRL! You seem so motivated and determined in this video! So happy for you. I'll be thinking of you!
(licorice all sorts are my absolute FAVOURITE lolly- you've made me need to go and buy some now as well!)
My heart aches for you. I pray that you recover quickly.. and you're thrilled with the results.😘
Ps. I'm in alcohol recovery (still fresh), so I understand in a sense what you're going through to break this cycle.
You’re such a bright & intelligent human. I saw a slight progression in your mood in the last few videos. Don’t let this doctors appointment deter you or spook you from doing your best. You seem tired from going through this week, don’t be too hard on yourself & remember we’re all here supporting you! Whether you’re in the hospital or not!!
Hey i have been checking your channel everyday for updates.. hope to hear from you soon!
Taking the actual step of saying goodbye to the eating disorder and giving into recovery was one of the most difficult things I've ever done, but it's also been the most rewarding thing I've ever done. I learned so much and still continue to do so. Even though it was hard and took a very long time, I wouldn't trade everything I learned for anything. Rooting for you Lilli, keep going.
Man when you said "grieving my eating disorder" it hit me harddddd. Im a month into recovery and after being put in hospital involuntarily i got forced into it. And you really do have to grieve your previous life and move into the future.
Proud of you girl, its all baby steps x
Hope you didnt go into hospital
I don't have any personal experience with anorexia myself, but I helped my best friend a couple of years ago when she was ill with it. I clicked your video anyway, and I subscribed after watching one video! You have a beautiful personality and I'll enjoy following your journey! Keep it up hun ❤ And this might sound dumb, but trust me, you WILL get better. Will it be bloody hard? Yes it will, but you've already changed your mindset up and you're no longer blind to the disease. Just keep on track and dont loose focus❤
You can do this Lilli! I will be praying for you and cheering for you all the way from Canada! I won’t sugar coat, this is going to be a fight, but you can do this! You have such a beautiful, lovely soul ❤️ 💐🌷🌹🌻🌼🌸🌺
You CAN do this!!! We are rooting for your recovery! And when you recover we will STILL be here! You have a great personality 😊💕
I'm really rooting for you this week, Lilli! I've just discovered your videos, and I enjoy watching them because you are so open and honest about your journey! I truly hope that you are able to eat the foods you want to eat, and that you can be satisfied with how you've acted this week whatever the outcome may be. I don't think going to hospital would be a failure. Sometimes we need a little help to get better. It seems you've made some mental changes, so hopefully these will be enough to help you get through tough times. Sending my love from Canada!!
its not over! you've got this. you're stronger than you know, lovely. youve got the game plan down, let's put it into action! ^•^ don't forget to praise yourself for your strength. I support you, girl. you got this.
i’m so proud of you!!!! you’re such a beautiful soul! i wish you a healthy and speedy recovery 💕💕
You CAN recover. Today I celebrated 2 years since I last checked out of treatment. It isn’t easy but it IS WORTH EVERYTHING. One of my therapist told me that there’s 2 choices. One choice is you can listen to your ED and do all the hard things that come with restricting starving and counting and weighing etc. and never recover or the other choice is do the hard things like enjoying food and dealing with yourself sitting still and overcome. Which is more rewarding and will be worth the hard things. It’s all up to you 💕 you are doing so so so well!!!! I’m glad I found your channel. Have you ever considered “having meals” with your viewers? Like sitting down and talking to us while you’re eating makes it feel like you’re not alone. It’s a great way to stay accountable and stay on track! You are not alone xo Were all here rooting for you.
Somehow came across your channel - and I am so proud of you after watching just a couple videos. It’ll be hard but you’ve got a ton of support here, we’re all cheering you on!
I have been there and I understand that it is so very tough, but YOU ARE SO MUCH TOUGHER!!!
So proud of you! It’s hard to change.but you deserve a good happy healthy life.
Yes! Cheering you on pretty lady! One day at a time. 🌸😊💕
Girl your face is GLOWING since the first video you posted 2 weeks ago! You can see the difference already in how bright and and more awake you look :)!!!
You are a really strong person and I believe in you. I’ve been trying to recover without help for a few months now and I i feel really free xx
We are in this together, I´m going to recover from bulimia. I wish you the best luck, you can do it, and you will, take care
You can do it! You are inspiring me and your honesty is amazing.
Good luck in your recovery love! I’m so happy you’re doing your food hauls and eating on camera. You will beat this, even if it’s alone or with help, we all need help sometimes. Blessings
We are on very different journeys but I believe in both of us!
Good luck to you both🌈🙏🏽💫
You're so strong and wonderfully determined. I believe in you but even if it doesn't turn out the way you want it to I still whole heartedly believe in you and your recovery
Im behind you 110% Lilli i wish you well this week fingers crossed for a gain but if not you've tried your hardest!! Shoulders back, Smile & walk into the hospital with the same challenge......... it's 11.42pm in the UK right now but after just watching your video I could just eat those fish pieces in a bowl with a bit of tartare sauce yum xx
Hey miss Lilli ! It's like your telling my story only in on the other side of the spectrum. I'm overweight and need to loose my weight. But I never follow through. I'm cheering you on and I believe you can do this. Dont loose faith if u have to go to hospital. It's just a part of your recovery. I'm here if you ever need to talk .
Blessings luv you can overcome this your minds in the right place you will be in my prayers love and light 🙏💫
I'm so, so proud of you. You deserve to be healthy and really, truly at peace with yourself. It's going to be so hard, but you know that and you're doing your best and you're trying your hardest. It's okay. ❤️
You can do this!! One way or the other, you will get through this. Be it in or out of hospital, you can and you will do this.
think of all the energy you will devote into other parts of your life going forward. For so long your every thought has revolved around ana. Your true life is waiting for you and it will be amazing ❤️
You are absolutely amazing, and with pursuing this recovery, it makes you so brave ❤️
You can do it Lilli! I am praying for you and cheering for you! I love donuts now, they used to be like a fear food but now I love them! You are so inspiring and I know you are stronger than any eating disorder. Go Lilli!
There are many people who support you! You’ve got this! Sending happy thoughts your way
I think what you mentioned about grieving the disorder is a very powerful thought. Sometimes there is no real big exciting motivation, no (fake?-)happiness, no "yay let's do this" - sometimes it's just a sad and somewhat tired "I don't want to feel like this any longer". Still it is hard to give up on things that followed you around for so long, even if it seems like a nightmare to live in. It's about letting a version of yourself go, an "old" version, an "eating disordered" version, so that feeling of loss is understandable.
I hope you'll be able to sustain a positive mindset. Recovery is always possible, on your own, or with help, and as you said - either way it is a win. The battle is always hard but the hardest part is choosing to step on that battlefield, admitting to oneself that a fight is truly necessary. And you did that.
My best wishes to you and loads of stranger-online-love (:
So glad you popped up in my recommendations! I'm rooting for you girl and you're right, it IS a win win, either way as long as your body is getting nourished that's amazing. You can do this ❤
You're helping hundreds of people ... well done girl
i just subscribed because i believe in you! we all do. i understand how keeping self motivation is hard, i'm in the same boat but on the opposite end of the scale, over weight and every time i want to start a health change or a diet, it doesn't last very long because the first feeling of motivation and inspiration i get goes away in less than two weeks and i crave to go back to my old comfortable routine of eating what i want rather than what i need. i believe you're in the right state of mind, knowing and finally feeling and understanding that now, in this moment you're in, it's now or never. there's never going to be a perfect moment to wait to turn your life around, you just have to think, tomorrow, im doing this, i know i can push myself and i know im strong enough. those are some things i find hard to believe about myself and i dont want to wait until I've had a heart attack to realize it's time to change. and i believe you know exactly what's at stake and what you want and i want to be here for the journey! i can't wait to see who you become and see you grow as a person. stay happy and healthy. never give up, even on your lowest day, just know at least one person believes in you..me (: but again, we all do. do it for yourself first, your family second, and us third. we all care about you
Your positivity is so so so inspiring. I too am attempting recovery and you are very inspiring to me. Thank you so much for that.
This mom from Canada is cheering you on!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The best thing I ever did for myself was check myself in to inpatient. You are so worth it ❤️❤️❤️
Honestly I’m amazed they let you out at all until you’re doing much better, like almost healed. I mean your heart could stop any minute, not something to go in and out of hospital with like it’s a game
When I was very underweight I thought I could do it in my head but each day will end up like another same old restriction, same old routines ... I had to go inpatient just to change everything and not to be in charge of anything and it helped a lot ... getting over the first hump is the hardest and it’s better if you are not in control of your meals
The more weight you gain the less you will be fearful of gaining more ... it doesn’t mean that fear will go away but your brain will work so much better
Praying for you and your health, stay strong and don't give up! You've got this! ❤️
I believe in you. ED is going down. you are stronger than you think, keep fighting this demon and know it will be worth it regardless of whether or not you go back to hospital.....xoxoxo ps do you know which hospital you'll be going to?
Hey, I just stumbled across your channel. Just wanna say, I wish you luck on your recovery journey. You can do it because your the best. Goodluck!
You’re doing such amazing work! Thank you for showing up for yourself today 💗
You got this girl! Also there is no shame in getting help! We all need an extra hand to guide us through what we are going through. It will only be a positive outcome either way☺️
i don't have anorexia but I think you're really brave broadcasting your own recovery to so many people. I hope you find strength to fully recover!
You've totally got this!! No need for worries or sadness
You are worthy..!!! You may not be where you want to be... But you are working on it... 💛💛💛💛 Big hugs from Texas
Keep going love, you’re doing well so far. You’ll win this battle, we believe in you!🏆💕💕
your videos are helping me so much not succumbing to unhealthy weight loss that is slowly spiraling into something dangerous. thank you
Thank you very much for sharing your endeavour.
Hi Lilli, just wanted to see how you've been doing the last couple of days. Reach out if you are struggling. You have tons of support here. Stay positive. Lots of love and support from Texas.
You are so right it is a win win situation. You will succeed either way.
Much love from NS,Canada just found your channel think you're amazing....keep doing your thang girl....wishing you all the best in your recovery process...sending positive vibes 💜💚💜💚
It makes me really happy that you want to recover from your disorder!❤️ I know you will succeed!!
I've just watched all of your videos and I am so rooting for you!! You seem so lovely, and it would be amazing to see you be able to live a full life without this horrible illness in control
You are such a beautiful woman, I can’t wait to see you grow not only in weight but as a person. I struggle with weight myself, so I hope I can follow your journey for myself to help me. Stay strong and healthy! Love you! 💜
Oh, sweet thing 🤗 You can do this! I had struggled with eating disorders for almost 10 years. I know exactly where you are at. I will tell you, and I know it is just my personal findings, when I stumbled across a 100% plant based diet, and found I could eat as much as I wanted and still be healthy, there was no turning back for me. Good luck on your journey. Everyone is rooting for you 😍😍😍😍😍
Anorexic going vegan is not recovery, it is just another form of disordered eating. I wish people would stop recommending this to people with anorexia trying to recover.
@@peapod9972 Veganism is a lifestyle, not just a fad diet. I said it worked for me, it may not be for everyone!
I’m sending you lots of love and positive thoughts, I also fight and we will win this! There is only one way to go. We have to feel worse to be better... healthier... ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I've watched all of your video and I can honestly say that I see the determination in your eyes and that you can rely do an up thing that you truly put your mind to I really hope you overcome this problem and meet the deadline love from new york💝💞💕💘
I ❤am hoping that you make the weight gain,and you may not have to go to the hospital. I am praying for you, get better! I want to keep up with your progress. Love 💕 you, glad to see you eating and buying food! Keep up the good work! Sylvia, from the USA Detroit, Michigan.
These vlogs are all part of your recovery, and I just know that one day hopefully in the near future, you will be able to go back and watch these easier vlogs, and really be able to reflect on how far you've come! I believe in YOU and no matter what happens regardless of whether or not you end up in inpatient, it is still a positive step in the right direction!
I’m so proud of you! My friend has anorexia and has been in and out of hospitals for years. The thing about hospital admissions (for her atleast) is it’s not a longterm thing, it doesn’t ”recover” her, it doesn’t heal her and it doesn’t give her anything to fight for. Whenever she gets admitted she is very ill and her mind is as far away from healthy thinking that it could be, I mean the reason she is being admitted is because she doesn’t want to recover. Recovery in any form comes from within yourself and unless you are completely 100% ready and motivated you simply can’t do it. You can’t commit to recovery if you don’t want to, which is why forcing someone into hospital admission isn’t always the right answer when it comes to the the mental side of recovery. I don’t mean physical problems here, you obviously need admission if you are ill.
I quit smoking a little less than a year ago and while it definitely is far from anything like EDs, it was an addiction and the only reason I was able to quit was because I was ready. I started smoking when I was 14 and it took me 15 years to get into the headspace I had to be in to commit to quitting. I have worked with former alcoholics in the past and they all agree that you can’t be forced into recovery of any form of illness or addiction, you’re the one who has to do it no matter how much help you receive.
I’m so happy you are beginning your recovery! I can’t wait to see what your new life will bring you. Much love from Finland 👋 🇫🇮
Hope you recover I’m looking forward to see your journey you got this one step a day even if it’s baby steps as long as it’s a step forward ❤️ keep pushing your strong💪🏻
You looked exhausted
I’m sure anorexia is a lot of work for your brain and your body
Letting go of a little control and going to hospital will give you some rest ❤️
You can do this! I believe in you and will keep following your journey 💗💗💗
It’s been a few days. How are you doing? How are you feeling? Sending you good luck and I hope you feel well.
Wishing you all the best with your recovery!