As a boy who hasn't started on t yet, your videos are the best I've ever come across. The way you talk about your feelings is so beautiful it makes me cry. But it's a good cry, you give so much hope.
Oh Finn, I have to admit I'm literally old enough to be your Mum, and I adore you! The courage, strength, humor you have, and continue to show educates and encourages people to just be people! Thank you.
Congrats on 5 years on T. I've been on T about 15 years and most of the physical changes happened after having a hystorectomy and top surgery. It's been 5 years since the hysto and 2 since, the top surgery. Time really does fly. :)
So happy for you Finn...as a cis gendered lesbian woman without gender dysphasia at 54 I still am a work in progress and don’t what I’m doing half the time! Recovery still a challenge, life still a challenge. So what you’ve achieved and what you’ve shared over the years, the ups and downs, all the challenges with your beautiful integrity and honesty, you outta reach round a give your lovely hairy back a good pat!! I’m sure just from reading comments how inspiring and uplifting you’ve been for so many people facing similar changes and challenges. Your RUclips channel is truly a gift.... loving, humourous, honest and graceful ..... you’re a living example of the truth which is life challenges change and pass and we never know what’s round the corner. You’re an inspiration and you stay true to yourself and to the community you’ve gathered here of RUclips. Thank you, blessings and Kia kaha (stand strong) from your friends in nz, Lee and Cass. You’re rocking it boy xx
Oh my goodness what an absolutely lovely message to receive! Touched me to the core that did. Thank you! I love sharing on here. The connections I've made with all sorts of people every where has contributed greatly to the man l am today. Sending you a ton of love. It's a relief to know lm not the only one who doesn't know what they are doing!
I just wanted to say thanks for being you and putting your journey out there! I found your channel, funnily enough, not looking for anything trans related, but searching for experiences of cuddle parties lol! But since then I've watched most of your videos and it's been so comforting to see someone who's a bit older than me but still younger in their transition. Most of the trans youtubers are my age or younger and have been transitioning since they were late teens, and I just started medical transition a year ago and felt like I was somehow "behind schedule." But you make me feel more at peace, that I'm not behind, I've got the whole rest of my life ahead of me, and it's ok to not have everything figured out. So yeah, thanks 💜
You are not only a wonderful hairy man you are an uplifting human being. Congratulations on being happy and comfortable in your own skin and sober Finn!! Good for you darling😊
Long time no see fin. We started T around the same time and were facebook friends for a few years. You so eloquently and accurately put into words how I feel about my transition thus far. Very well said!
Seeing you have this inner peace is so lovely!!! You are the most awesome man! Also, thank you for coining the phrase "Bum ponytail"! lol I have not laughed like that in awhile!
After watching this, I went aaaall the way back and watched your very first video from Feb 22 2012. Man, how you've changed. Sending much love to you always. Your sister in recovery, Adele. xx
Happy 5th birthday!! I’m considering maybe starting t, but I’m still not sure if it’s the right thing for me. It’s great to listen to your thoughts, to get some perspective and wisdoms from someone a few years into it. 💕
Thank you my friend. There is nothing wrong with being cautious. Its a wise person who takes their time deciding things. Happy to chat if you need an ear!
i told a year head about changing uniform to the boys uniform, she was sooooo nice about it and hopefully soon i can i’ve my school life as a guy. thanks for making videos finn you’re extremely inspirational
Happy 5 day Finn! Glad to see you looking bouncy and happy. Roll on the next 5 years.... and the next... spied me card on the wall an all, nice one :) Fred x
You're such an awesome human being, I'm glad you've had this much progress and happiness with your change. I've just stumbled across your channel and you seem to be such a nice person, its refreshing to see :) (For everyone who doesn't care to hear some details about me, go ahead and skip this. I ended up writing a lot so I'm apologizing in advance.) I wanted to watch this video because I've been struggling with myself for a long time now. Right now, I'm 17. My body is a girl so I go by that, but I oftentimes hate it. Since I was ten, I hated my girl body and wanted to be a boy, it only got worse when I hit puberty at 11. I was the first girl in my class to develop and even now as a senior in high school, I’m one of the girls with the largest breasts. More often than not, I’m disgusted by them. My living situation changed that year when I was 11 and I started living with my dad. My dad is a good guy, but he doesn’t like the LGBTQ community. He says he does, but whenever it is brought up, he has nothing but negative things to say. Since I started living with him, I began forcing myself to get “comfortable” with my body and sometimes, it works. Some days, I feel okay being a girl and having girl parts, but the majority I think about being a guy. And much to my shame I get jealous over men’s bodies and wanting to look like them. I shop for my clothes in the men's section because it feels the most comfortable and I think the clothes suit me. Men clothes feel better on my body. Girl clothes like skirts and dresses make me feel super uncomfortable and almost ill feeling. I like wearing leggings though, they’re comfy. For many years I’ve had a low self esteem. I didn’t even want to look at myself in the mirror. I did notice that when I dressed like a guy, or guy like, I felt better and found myself not so disgusting. I begged my dad for several years to let me cut my hair and dye it, and he always said no. This year, he finally agreed. I used to have long brown hair that went down to my butt and now I have a sort of faux hawk haircut. The top is dyed teal. I love it. When I got my haircut, a guy confused me for a guy, and I felt so happy and almost proud of myself. My self confidence has grown and I don’t hate myself as much now that I look more masculine. I don’t know what this all means. I want to be a guy, but I’m afraid. I know my dad would still love me, he’d be creeped out, but he’d eventually get over it. I’m afraid that if I did change myself that I still wouldn't like myself. Or if I did change and loved it too, but everyone else I know hates it. I’m pretty sensitive, so words can feel like dull knives in my chest. Maybe all of this is from my childhood. I lived with a mentally, emotionally and psychologically abusive mom. She was a major druggie and from her neglect, since I was about 9, almost 10, to now, I’ve been struggling with anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts and possible PTSD (I’ve been diagnosed with GAD and depression, and my school's counselor thinks I have PTSD). I don’t know if me wanting to be a guy is me from having gender dysphoria, or if it's some sort psychological escapism. I apologize for going on about my personal issues. I know it's my business and not many will even care, but I wanted to get some of this out. If anyone thinks they know why I’m like this or if they have any suggestions for me, please reply. I’d love to hear something that could shed some light on this for me. I used to have a therapist and we worked through my anxiety, but I never mentioned my gender struggle.
Happy belated 5th, my dear. 😊💕 I bet your stash will keep filling in. About a million years ago, I dated a fellow who had the same complaint about his stash (he was 20-years-old). We split up...and I saw him about 7 years later, and it had filled in at the sides. He was very happy. Lol Oh...and some of us love hairy bears. 😊💕
1:58 🤣🤣🤣 I almost blacked out from lack of oxygen from laughing too hard! Perhaps a new 'Christmas Baubles' video is in order next Vlogmas? 🐿 It's nice to hear and listen to the process of how your internal world has unfolded - it sounds like a beautiful landscape of great meaning to you now and that's really wonderful to hear. As with anyone who's on a conscious awakening path, I feel that we never stop learning, developing, and transcending the conditioning of our upbringing and learning new ways to be in the world. I'm looking forward to seeing how the next part of your evolution unfolds too xx I remember when I was growing up, my brother was quite hairy and had a full beard by the age of 14. He used to get treated in a way that was more than what he was ready for sometimes too. I like the kind of man you're evolving into. You don't have some of that male toxicity that can be found out there in all types of male expression. You have a nice balance about you. Congratulations on 5 years, handsome! xxx
Oh goodness! I think that may get me banned from YT!!! I would likely need help with that too.... :D Thanks for your lovely comments, I pride myself on not being a male ass hat! I think its one of the most wonderful things of being trans actually, Ive lived as a woman and been on the recieving end of a fair few male ass hats and so I vow never to be one! I love this process, even the continuing hair process! xxx
FinnTheInfinncible Well, we definitely don't want you being banned from RUclips, so perhaps 'Christmas Baubles' part 2 may have to be reconsidered in this case. Besides, I agree, it would be a little difficult working with the reflection of the viewfinder as your only tool for aim and placement of the baubles. You're definitely not a male ass hat, it's nice that you're so conscious of that. In fact, it's really refreshing to see a man who is in touch with his feelings and can use them to tune in to where he's at in his evolutionary process and use them as a guide for direction and continue to unfold and build upon that. There are many different types of men in the world, but it's always so much nicer when you come in to contact with a gentleman who gets it xx
Congratulations on 5 years Finn. Now more on the bum ponytail 😂 on the serious side you are amazing and a true role model for many. The changes are incredible my friend.
It's amazing how you can explaine everything what I have problem with when it comes to put it into words. It helps me to understand my own transition even better. It is so true that transition will not cure our problems. Sometimes we have many problems not related to being trans and we expect that transition will cure that. No it won't because we have to make an effort, thinks cannot get better only by themselves. But on the same time it is just different level of dealing with things when you are in the "right box" ;). And of course despite physicall changes what we have to learn socially is so huge as well, and interesting. For ex - funny fact - throghtout this 2 yers of my transition it happened to me about four times people thought I'm a gay, when I am not. That ia because how I am acting when I am naturall. Personally I don't think I am acting gayish ;) but what people can see it is still me taking off this years of hanging around with girls, being trated as a little girl by parents with no siblings. It is all a huge process to socially grow amd change in a way you want and allow yourself to change to be still YOU. :-)
that i do be nice to meet at some point. am giving up drinking as my body cant take it, i only do that go out as my ex likes to have a good night out once a month. me personally like to sit next to someone watch a movie abd cuddle up for night.
FinnTheInfinncible 🤣🤣 I don't know if I'll be THAT hairy but I'm sure looking forward to more than dirt on my top lip. Lol I've noticed some belly and chest hair starting and I keep telling it that it would be much more useful on my face but it's not listening. Lmao
Hi fin ya look great for 44 3rd may I will be 42 2 years vegetarian. Not sure what I will be doing playing by ear. Be nice to meet up with you this year when you feel ready. In June will be doing Yorkshire Cosplay.con glad got travel lodge at meadow hall booked for weekend. Can't wait to speak to you in person.
be happy to go trans pride and pride with ya would be a good weekend, hopefully vegeterain and vegan food at both prides. wush it was all in one just pride xx
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As a boy who hasn't started on t yet, your videos are the best I've ever come across. The way you talk about your feelings is so beautiful it makes me cry. But it's a good cry, you give so much hope.
Bless you, comments like yours make me so happy! Thank you :) Hang in buddy, youll get there!
Oh Finn, I have to admit I'm literally old enough to be your Mum, and I adore you! The courage, strength, humor you have, and continue to show educates and encourages people to just be people! Thank you.
Thank you for such a lovely comment! I wish I could hug you!
Juelda ditto ❤
Congrats on 5 years on T. I've been on T about 15 years and most of the physical changes happened after having a hystorectomy and top surgery. It's been 5 years since the hysto and 2 since, the top surgery. Time really does fly. :)
Wow 15 years! Congrats! I too noticed more changed after my hysto
What kind of changes did you both notice after hysto? Did you have full or partial? I've been researching this but haven't really found answers
So happy for you Finn...as a cis gendered lesbian woman without gender dysphasia at 54 I still am a work in progress and don’t what I’m doing half the time! Recovery still a challenge, life still a challenge. So what you’ve achieved and what you’ve shared over the years, the ups and downs, all the challenges with your beautiful integrity and honesty, you outta reach round a give your lovely hairy back a good pat!! I’m sure just from reading comments how inspiring and uplifting you’ve been for so many people facing similar changes and challenges. Your RUclips channel is truly a gift.... loving, humourous, honest and graceful ..... you’re a living example of the truth which is life challenges change and pass and we never know what’s round the corner. You’re an inspiration and you stay true to yourself and to the community you’ve gathered here of RUclips. Thank you, blessings and Kia kaha (stand strong) from your friends in nz, Lee and Cass. You’re rocking it boy xx
Oh my goodness what an absolutely lovely message to receive! Touched me to the core that did. Thank you! I love sharing on here. The connections I've made with all sorts of people every where has contributed greatly to the man l am today. Sending you a ton of love. It's a relief to know lm not the only one who doesn't know what they are doing!
Happy 5 years!!!! :) You're helping those of us following in your footsteps in the journey ;) I like my new "package" too.
Thanks my kind friend! Package love rocks 🤣🤣
I just wanted to say thanks for being you and putting your journey out there! I found your channel, funnily enough, not looking for anything trans related, but searching for experiences of cuddle parties lol! But since then I've watched most of your videos and it's been so comforting to see someone who's a bit older than me but still younger in their transition. Most of the trans youtubers are my age or younger and have been transitioning since they were late teens, and I just started medical transition a year ago and felt like I was somehow "behind schedule." But you make me feel more at peace, that I'm not behind, I've got the whole rest of my life ahead of me, and it's ok to not have everything figured out. So yeah, thanks 💜
Congrats! Happy maniversary! Also I love your shirt! 😍Where is it from?!
Thank you! I bought it at trans pride Brighton last year. I think there were just a few of them created to raise money
You are not only a wonderful hairy man you are an uplifting human being. Congratulations on being happy and comfortable in your own skin and sober Finn!! Good for you darling😊
You are so lovely!! Me and my sober hair love you xx
Long time no see fin. We started T around the same time and were facebook friends for a few years. You so eloquently and accurately put into words how I feel about my transition thus far. Very well said!
Thank you my friend! I'm not entirely sure who you are.....I'm old and l have Swiss cheese brain....
Happy 5 years! Sending lots of love 😊
Thank you! Sending love back your way! xx
You always make me smile with your wisdom and your ability to connect with people xx
You are so lovely!!!
Seeing you have this inner peace is so lovely!!! You are the most awesome man! Also, thank you for coining the phrase "Bum ponytail"! lol I have not laughed like that in awhile!
Hahaha!!! I am glad my bum ponytail brings you joy 😂😁😂😁 very glad to have you by my aide
After watching this, I went aaaall the way back and watched your very first video from Feb 22 2012. Man, how you've changed. Sending much love to you always. Your sister in recovery, Adele. xx
Woooohoooooo congratulations to you, you amazing soul. Proud to know you. Xx
Risha and Hen
Xxx
Bless you, miss you both. Maybe I should sort out a visit!
Happy 5th birthday!! I’m considering maybe starting t, but I’m still not sure if it’s the right thing for me. It’s great to listen to your thoughts, to get some perspective and wisdoms from someone a few years into it. 💕
Thank you my friend. There is nothing wrong with being cautious. Its a wise person who takes their time deciding things. Happy to chat if you need an ear!
Congratulations! You look and sound fantastic and amazing! Thank you for your authentic and raw videos. Much love xo.
Lovely Comment. Thank you!
i told a year head about changing uniform to the boys uniform, she was sooooo nice about it and hopefully soon i can i’ve my school life as a guy. thanks for making videos finn you’re extremely inspirational
Happy 5 day Finn!
Glad to see you looking bouncy and happy. Roll on the next 5 years.... and the next...
spied me card on the wall an all, nice one :)
Fred x
Indeed my lovely eggy friend!!!
FinnTheInfinncible
You are such an incredible human
Love you l do xx
My brother's beard and stash suddenly got thicker/fuller in his thirties so I think facial hair can still change after the initial puberty
You are defiantly right. I think I'm gonna be the most hairy faced pensioner 🤣🤣🤣
So freakin amazing bruh i love watching your videos congratulations!!!!!!!!!
You're such an awesome human being, I'm glad you've had this much progress and happiness with your change. I've just stumbled across your channel and you seem to be such a nice person, its refreshing to see :)
(For everyone who doesn't care to hear some details about me, go ahead and skip this. I ended up writing a lot so I'm apologizing in advance.)
I wanted to watch this video because I've been struggling with myself for a long time now. Right now, I'm 17. My body is a girl so I go by that, but I oftentimes hate it. Since I was ten, I hated my girl body and wanted to be a boy, it only got worse when I hit puberty at 11. I was the first girl in my class to develop and even now as a senior in high school, I’m one of the girls with the largest breasts. More often than not, I’m disgusted by them.
My living situation changed that year when I was 11 and I started living with my dad. My dad is a good guy, but he doesn’t like the LGBTQ community. He says he does, but whenever it is brought up, he has nothing but negative things to say. Since I started living with him, I began forcing myself to get “comfortable” with my body and sometimes, it works. Some days, I feel okay being a girl and having girl parts, but the majority I think about being a guy. And much to my shame I get jealous over men’s bodies and wanting to look like them.
I shop for my clothes in the men's section because it feels the most comfortable and I think the clothes suit me. Men clothes feel better on my body. Girl clothes like skirts and dresses make me feel super uncomfortable and almost ill feeling. I like wearing leggings though, they’re comfy. For many years I’ve had a low self esteem. I didn’t even want to look at myself in the mirror. I did notice that when I dressed like a guy, or guy like, I felt better and found myself not so disgusting. I begged my dad for several years to let me cut my hair and dye it, and he always said no. This year, he finally agreed. I used to have long brown hair that went down to my butt and now I have a sort of faux hawk haircut. The top is dyed teal. I love it. When I got my haircut, a guy confused me for a guy, and I felt so happy and almost proud of myself. My self confidence has grown and I don’t hate myself as much now that I look more masculine.
I don’t know what this all means. I want to be a guy, but I’m afraid. I know my dad would still love me, he’d be creeped out, but he’d eventually get over it. I’m afraid that if I did change myself that I still wouldn't like myself. Or if I did change and loved it too, but everyone else I know hates it. I’m pretty sensitive, so words can feel like dull knives in my chest.
Maybe all of this is from my childhood. I lived with a mentally, emotionally and psychologically abusive mom. She was a major druggie and from her neglect, since I was about 9, almost 10, to now, I’ve been struggling with anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts and possible PTSD (I’ve been diagnosed with GAD and depression, and my school's counselor thinks I have PTSD). I don’t know if me wanting to be a guy is me from having gender dysphoria, or if it's some sort psychological escapism.
I apologize for going on about my personal issues. I know it's my business and not many will even care, but I wanted to get some of this out. If anyone thinks they know why I’m like this or if they have any suggestions for me, please reply. I’d love to hear something that could shed some light on this for me. I used to have a therapist and we worked through my anxiety, but I never mentioned my gender struggle.
Happy belated 5th, my dear. 😊💕
I bet your stash will keep filling in. About a million years ago, I dated a fellow who had the same complaint about his stash (he was 20-years-old). We split up...and I saw him about 7 years later, and it had filled in at the sides. He was very happy. Lol
Oh...and some of us love hairy bears. 😊💕
You can stroke my fur Any time 😉😋😘
Congrats! April is my anniversary as well. 7 years this month. YAY for us!
Oh yay us! Congratulations!!!
This was a lovely video I really liked the advice at the end.
Thank you so much :)
No-one told my body anything was supposed to stop after 5 years lol. I strongly suspect Hairy Changes at least happen for the rest of our lives :-).
Lol l agree! I'm looking forward to many more years of hair growth!
God, I've only been on T for a little over a year and I hope I look even half as good as you! *Beard where are you?!*
Ah buddy! It took my beard about 5 years before my beard filled in. Have faith!
Sooo proud of you.. Love ya tons..
You are so lovely. Thank you
Dude I choked on my spit laughing so hard at the butt ponytail part 😂😂😂
I probably should have put on a warning 😂😂😂😂
Dear Finn, I’m happy for you!!!! I wish for you the most beautiful things! A big kiss !!!!😘❣️😊
You are so lovely! Smoochies!
1:58 🤣🤣🤣 I almost blacked out from lack of oxygen from laughing too hard! Perhaps a new 'Christmas Baubles' video is in order next Vlogmas? 🐿
It's nice to hear and listen to the process of how your internal world has unfolded - it sounds like a beautiful landscape of great meaning to you now and that's really wonderful to hear.
As with anyone who's on a conscious awakening path, I feel that we never stop learning, developing, and transcending the conditioning of our upbringing and learning new ways to be in the world. I'm looking forward to seeing how the next part of your evolution unfolds too xx
I remember when I was growing up, my brother was quite hairy and had a full beard by the age of 14. He used to get treated in a way that was more than what he was ready for sometimes too.
I like the kind of man you're evolving into. You don't have some of that male toxicity that can be found out there in all types of male expression. You have a nice balance about you.
Congratulations on 5 years, handsome! xxx
Oh goodness! I think that may get me banned from YT!!! I would likely need help with that too.... :D
Thanks for your lovely comments, I pride myself on not being a male ass hat! I think its one of the most wonderful things of being trans actually, Ive lived as a woman and been on the recieving end of a fair few male ass hats and so I vow never to be one!
I love this process, even the continuing hair process! xxx
FinnTheInfinncible Well, we definitely don't want you being banned from RUclips, so perhaps 'Christmas Baubles' part 2 may have to be reconsidered in this case. Besides, I agree, it would be a little difficult working with the reflection of the viewfinder as your only tool for aim and placement of the baubles.
You're definitely not a male ass hat, it's nice that you're so conscious of that. In fact, it's really refreshing to see a man who is in touch with his feelings and can use them to tune in to where he's at in his evolutionary process and use them as a guide for direction and continue to unfold and build upon that. There are many different types of men in the world, but it's always so much nicer when you come in to contact with a gentleman who gets it xx
Congratulations! I've been on The for almost 8 and a half years.
Wow! Isn't it fun!
Congratulations Finn XXXX
Thank you so much ,😁
Congratulations on 5 years Finn. Now more on the bum ponytail 😂
on the serious side you are amazing and a true role model for many. The changes are incredible my friend.
What *is* up with butt hair dude! and my knees are hairy. My knees are ZZ top knees. But the rest of me not so much, lol.
Lol! Weird where hair decides to go isn't it!!!
It's amazing how you can explaine everything what I have problem with when it comes to put it into words. It helps me to understand my own transition even better. It is so true that transition will not cure our problems. Sometimes we have many problems not related to being trans and we expect that transition will cure that. No it won't because we have to make an effort, thinks cannot get better only by themselves. But on the same time it is just different level of dealing with things when you are in the "right box" ;). And of course despite physicall changes what we have to learn socially is so huge as well, and interesting. For ex - funny fact - throghtout this 2 yers of my transition it happened to me about four times people thought I'm a gay, when I am not. That ia because how I am acting when I am naturall. Personally I don't think I am acting gayish ;) but what people can see it is still me taking off this years of hanging around with girls, being trated as a little girl by parents with no siblings. It is all a huge process to socially grow amd change in a way you want and allow yourself to change to be still YOU. :-)
I love being hairy too 😍 Congrats my lovely 😍😘. I'm 9 months on T and ridiculously hairy 🐻🐻🐻🐻🐻
Hair ROCKS!!!!!! lmao! ( months has gone so fast eh?!
FinnTheInfinncible tooooooo fast my lovely 😊 but I'm loving each and every minute 😍
that i do be nice to meet at some point. am giving up drinking as my body cant take it, i only do that go out as my ex likes to have a good night out once a month. me personally like to sit next to someone watch a movie abd cuddle up for night.
Happy 5 years! I am oh so grateful for the mental image of a 'bum ponytail' 😂
LMAO! My present to you...You ate welcome 😂
You're so adorable "I'm only 5." Lol
I can't wait to have facial hair and be read properly when in public. I'm only 5 months on T now.
FinnTheInfinncible 🤣🤣 I don't know if I'll be THAT hairy but I'm sure looking forward to more than dirt on my top lip. Lol I've noticed some belly and chest hair starting and I keep telling it that it would be much more useful on my face but it's not listening. Lmao
I love you Finn
Ah! I love you too!
I’m starting t in 3 days
Great news! Congrats my friend!
A bum ponytail sounds very attractive lol.Congrats on 5 years xxx
I might try a French plait....I'll be like a gorgeous stalion 😂😂😂
Happy 5th (T) birthday.
Hi fin ya look great for 44 3rd may I will be 42 2 years vegetarian. Not sure what I will be doing playing by ear. Be nice to meet up with you this year when you feel ready. In June will be doing Yorkshire Cosplay.con glad got travel lodge at meadow hall booked for weekend. Can't wait to speak to you in person.
Thanks my friend, sounds like you have some good plans coming up!
5years 😃nice. 😗
😂😂😂u had me laughing
Always glad to raise a smile!
be happy to go trans pride and pride with ya would be a good weekend, hopefully vegeterain and vegan food at both prides. wush it was all in one just pride xx
why do you assume your journey is like other people's?
What about spiritual journeys ?
What do you mean? Everyones journey is of course different. And l have never claimed otherwise!
you still sound and act gay
I am gay, and proud. Is that a problem?!