17 years ago I was lying in my bed staring at the ceiling. I was thinking about the landing in Normadie Beach in WW2. Young men running around, trying to save themselves. The horror, fear and pain. The massacre. There was suddenly a recognition that none of it had really happened. An image of a painting popped up in my head: .... people riding bikes in different directions, ballancing a book on their head. I viewed my own struggles in life .... IT NEVER HAPPENED!!! Suddenly it was just THIS! In a blink of an eye the body went "silent". All tension just evaporated, and I startet laughing like a mad scientist. I had never laughed like that before. It was the laughter of freedom. It was THIS: no past, no future, no movement, no intention, no purpose, no meaning, no fear, no hope, no death, no birth. No me ...... Just THIS. 10:48
but...they did happen :P. What are you seriously contending the past never occurred? Do you really believe that? What were you doing 5 minutes ago? That never happened either?
No, the past is only an appearance. generated by your mind in the immidiate "now". Nothing is happening outside of this moment. Pay close attention when you are reflecting on past events. Where does the past occur? It occurs only in the moment, and its happening in time, which is an illusion. There is no such thing as time. There actually is no moment either. The moment begins and ends simultaniously, in other words, its real and unreal, or an "on and off" phenomenon that appears to be happening at the same instance. Whatever seems to be happening "now", is totally neutral, and has absolute no purpose, meaning or intention, exept when there is an experience of being separate from "what is". The experience of "I" or "me" is an illusion generated by the brain. Nothing has ever happened, and nothing will ever happen. "THIS" is totally unknowing. No one knows what "THIS" is. What does that say about past or future events? Life only unfolds in the moment. Everything else that seems to be happening is outside of where life is really unfolding, which is only in the immidiate "moment". "THIS" is nothing appearing as everything that you are experiencing now, but thats an illusion. The experience of being a separate individual is a total illusion. When the "I" disappears, it will be obvious that nothing has ever happened.
One night in 1971 while I was driving along, the title of an Alan Watts' book, "This Is It" unexpectedly traipsed through my head 3 or 4 times while I was coming down from an LSD trip. All of a sudden I saw that "I" and everything else were the same thing. Or I could just as easily have said that there never was an "I" to begin with. But trying to put it into words reminds me of the Taoists' description of the Ultimate Reality: "That which can't be named." If it's always now I can't say it's always now. "Now" was here first. Language could never catch up to describe it. Other analogies to trying to describe it: Like trying to bite your own teeth, grab your own fist or taste your own tongue. A dog chasing its tail.
One thing I also realized is that position of how we want to be noticed in is really just attachment , a need for attention and need to explain our selves , to ourselves !
Also so relatable what Guro said... So many parents were (are) emotionally immature and therefore not suitable to raise children appropriately... Generation after generation traumatised... High time to say NO to all this fake bullshit stuff coming from unaware persons! And YES to all honesty and truth! 💗
Except the character of a story can only play their role. The parents who are "not good" parents are simply doing exactly what was meant to happen. Their story is as automatic as any other. All stories aren't the same. There is no trauma, there is no you, me or anyone or anything. There is no "appropriately raised" as thats an egoic concept, just like how there is no right answer to anything, such as a right ice cream flavor. There is near infinite paths, all are equally pointless.
Now about 20 minutes in… Amazing how we can get so caught up in chasing life, while this death/emptiness/silence you are living is so compelling, so rich and so full. Beautifully expressed! 🙏🏼
its more obvious nowadays that no one knows what is happening, with influencers, scam gurus etc. technology in a way amped up the process of end the seeking
@@macparker3549 even this channel knows f*ck all yet still gets validation for ego and youtube hits (wanted or not), nobody, not one human on this earth has a clue what is going on, and It's hilarious 🤣
@@robertmcgrath7970a lot of people who fell out of the matrix started looking around for scaffolding. Once you lose that programming, it’s hard to name what happened to you, so people are looking for this kind of verbalization and community again to make sense of the mindfunk. Naming it really helps some people process and let go. She admits pretty early in the video we all just keep out-knowledging one another.
There's no "you". Just consciousness. That didn't come therefore cannot go. It was so beautiful to see how Christine is getting rid of what she's not. Amazing.
I've idealised and put my Gurus on a pedastal but they would never call it repulsive. They understood where I was on my spiritual journey and showed me this was all OK and that one day I would not need to do that anymore. Love, love, love all the way 🙏❤️
You weren't on the journey as none who actually end up enlightened have ever followed others or used gurus and such. That's ego seeking a reprieve, a stay of execution as Jed McKenna puts it. Waking up is a solo path and it is hell, there is no "love" in enlightenment or waking up. No bliss, no happiness, you lose everything and gain nothing. It's going through hell only to realize hell was never hell, it was just a warmer day then usual.
@@ItApproaches "no love"!? I don't know what spiritual journey you are on. You talk as if you are enlightened but its no kind of enlightenment that I recognise. I wish you well on your loveless journey.
I'm still trapped in a separate self but when listening to your presentation, a vision of liquid clarity of awareness came to me when you mentioned what is hidden underneath the spiritual identity. Very interesting!
I loved the conversation at the end about the mother in law. I have a sister in law and a very similar situation. It’s so hard because I know this person is deeply suffering, but she triggers so much in me. One of my parents was like her when I was growing up. I often don’t know what to do for the best and shut down (probably a survival reaction). It’s like the other persons hurt is so strong, it’s an energy and it has to go somewhere. I used to take it on and it’s now trauma I’m processing (EMDR, IFS, TRE). I can’t give it back to them as it’s too much for them, they have no idea about what they are doing. But I also don’t want them to put it on me.
thanks for this, i had another little manic breakdown and did some introspection and this video is just repeating my own thoughts to me. how nice! thanks
Yesterday. It didn’t matter. I remember when it did. There was laughter while running down the street in front of our house, in a robe with long gray hair sticking straight up and a face once never bare from makeup…the hair had at one time always been so carefully composed before one could even go to the post office… 😂…this body, joyously barking and laughing as the neighbors huge dog ran from his trash can shenanigan! He stopped wagged his tail, barked, I barked back. This fun played out. What was there was joy and laughter. It permeated every cell of this body. I have lost my mind. 😂🤣
Thank you Suzanne for adding your disclaimer about your about page.. I had read it a month or so back and was a bit confused on the list of "achievements". This is only because you are one of, if not the only public awakened person that looks like me. I think I'm a few years younger than you in my late 20's, and as an East Asian woman we have very similar features, with side parted hair and all. My ego couldn't help but be triggered to compare. I have a love and respect for many of the same teachings and lineages you have committed yourself too, but without the resume to "prove" it. It is all our own unique way of being on the path, whatever we need to experience before it all falls away. Thank you.
Second day listen same video. Just heard the "stuff" conversation today. Wouldn't matter if all my "stuff" disappeared. My art "stuff", clothes, junk, meaningless crap! Happening Now. Nice to know "this is fine" nothing stays, nothing stays!! Yipee!
Thank you Suzanne! Been watching another channel about nonduality and dropped subscription after hearing "stages" of awakening and the "level" one is at. Like huh?. You are able to simply stay in the grounded, non judgmental place with no distractions like This is some kind of race or something. I cannot thank you enough for removing that aspect from the picture. I don't know shit but when I smell shit I'll say shit. Raw. Truth.
omg, the woman expressing her clear seeing of how humans hurt each other and are out of touch with what is here... I have been here so strongly and I think I had to titrate out of it because I felt guilty about thinking that way. Guilty or ... yeah, guilty like I was wrong to think that and it was negative to think that and I was indulging negativity. But it's so freaking beautiful to hear her say this. Seeing how gruesome it is. I remember using that exact word on a public stage at a retreat. Horrified by the ways people hurt each other, especially children, and also a little freaked out about the ways my still-unconscious parts must be gruesome in ways I can't yet feel. But the heartbreak and the revulsion and the desire for something different are fuel. Thank you both so much. ALSO THE INSECT TRAPPER 🤣🥰
Thank you beautiful Susanne for all the videos. The unconditional love, I can feel it 💗💗💗 Been practicing feeling the beingness, the feeling that’s always been there, the feeling that never goes. Been feeling into this while looking at objects, people, nature and has I feel that feeling I can look at am object and feel that feeling in that object. Like no boundaries, just that self feeling, the same feeling in everything. The mind is trying to latch on and say thinks about it but there is something beyond what the mind is saying and it’s a knowing.
The uncompromising message is perfectly true, yet it is often still a fixation, it comes off as intolerant and unskillful, as the speaker is rigidly holding this position where they refuse to meet the person where they are and see it or express it in a different way. Adyashanti and Angelo DiLullo speak of this, and they're among the very few who are not "stuck in the absolute", having reached the point where the absolute and the relative are the same.
15:00 You say you didn’t worry about leading him on, but did you discuss what would happen after you left London? Was there some kind of clarity? That’s something that triggered me lately, even though every other aspect of my life is completely in the unknown (I don’t even know where I’m sleeping next week), but the lack of clarity with regards to a relationship really got to me.
Heartcrytalks 2 oneSelf...sometimes Love of understanding as a echo returns back. Aum...Heart feels the Heart...Heart goes deep and as well as high....some aliveness in this honesty and vastness of the pure Selfless Self.
Try to listen to Ram Dass, he shared much insight into the illusion of life. Hope you feel much better soon. God says you, me and all are innocent. I have no doubt whatsoever it is true : )
I would like to know what's the full name of the person she mentions twice at the beginning (20 first minutes) David something who wrote a book thank you
I had to look the name up as well, but it seems likely she is talking about David Carse, who wrote a book called Perfect Brilliant Stillness. There are several clips on RUclips of his words as well.
You remind yourself that the universe doesn't make mistakes, therefore there are no wrong or bad people or situations. You see they are perfect as they are but avoid them or do your best to remedy them. Avoid dangerous people. Act to improve situations that you feel could be improved, but don't take on the belief that anything is really wrong.
@@brushstroke3733 Thank you for the insight. I just finished the rest of the talk, and my parents are like guro's husbands'. One of my siblings is quite draining too. There's just a year or two left with them, and the inconvenience of trying to avoid them is much lighter than the pain they create. Just the part of me that wants to keep everything in balance to avoid conflict with or between them keeps arising
@@kingearth3672 For your own health, peace of mind, or for seeing things as they are. When we label something as "wrong" (i.e. shouldn't have happened or shouldn't be happening), we are resisting the universe which does no good and only consumes energy that could be spent more wisely. We either choose to be happy unconditionally, or we choose to make our happiness conditional upon conditions. It's really just that simple.
@@brushstroke3733 it's not about "seeing" something as bad or negative but FEELING it. People, or at least I can't help but feel bad about certain things and trying to not see something as "bad" does not work. I understand you don't have to focus on bad things thougj
Saved three baby earth worms I found under my water jug on porch. Scooped them up and put them in the flower bed. Couldn't do it, couldn't allow them to drown, get squished or get trapped. Funny. Not sure I could do the mosquito though.
The brain and the mind are distinguishable, they aren’t identical. I don’t know why she said that, I thought there was a clearly established understanding of this fact.
Who would want to learn that everything they thought, wanted, hoped for, trusted is a made up story? And the reward for losing everything is knowing there is no reward, or even a me. Why are we even doing this then? Definitely doesn’t make a person want to participate in this nonsense.
You're making a very good point. Many people who have breakthroughs in contemplative practice, i.e., those that enable one to fully let go of old habits and beliefs, come out with a renewed sense of life and purpose. There is real freedom and (self-)compassion to be found. But for others it can be very challenging (because of trauma or other mental health issues), which is what you might be seeing here. For different takes, I'd suggest checking out Angelo Dilullo, Christopher Wallis, Lisa Cairns, Shinzen Young, and others who also have a YT presence.
❤❤. I need help. I joined a club but meet older member , he. Lost everything, but he looks at me. He asked , do you have money to keep this up? He is 72. I am younger. I didn’t know what he was trying to say. Is, he telling me, you will end up like me? Get out of this club? That is what I see.. thanks.
Just an observation and question based on my own lived experience, and only watching the initial 22min Are you sure you’re not suppressing desire? It seems like you’ve convinced yourself that analysing desire until the desire is no longer important is a more noble path than acting on desire, or something to that effect.
@@K4iT3c.... as apposed to the One Absolute, infinite consciousness which never recognises individuality nor judges anyone/anything. And in reality there is no "We", there's only the One, and we are that because there IS only the One.
@@RobbeyT1 so you've created a conceptual dichotomy between the idea of supposed to and infinity? Care to elaborate? What I was pointing out is that the concept of "supposed to" only exists if things could possibly be something they weren't supposed to be.
@@K4iT3c It's all just words because the conceptual mind can't understand the infinite.. you can't get there using the mind. But keep working on it, it'll become obvious eventually.
@@RobbeyT1 your dismissiveness is telling sir. Be careful assuming the state of realization of others. You also never addressed my point. Good day to you
Ask yourself why you are working on a RUclips channel. The answer to "why" is your motivation. If it's not a strong reason, you won't have much motivation.
I have listened to the David Carse audio narrated by the wonderful Terence Stamp. It's sublime. He talks a lot about teachers' charging. I tend to agree. This is not a criticism of Suzanne, just an observation. ... as I noticed that Suzanne is charging for 1- 1 sessions, & the amount is not something a lot of people in these times would be able to afford. Just curious. " Money & spiritual teaching dont mix. Anything you have of true value, you didnt pay anything." David Carse. Approximately 3 hour 37 minutes in.
Yah I've been to her website and I've seen the price charged per hour.. When I thought about it I realized that the ones that broke out and the ones that are still inside have one thing in common, its called a NEED. Nobody is without a need, the fact the the sleepers need to pay the woke just to get their voices heard is enough to prove that we all got needs. The woke need the sleepers for their survival and their needs to be met. Mentally and spiritually we are in separate worlds but physically we're all in this shit trynna survive and nobody can break outta the matrix.. The spirit could be free but the pockets be starving so they eventually gotta come to us, the sleepers, to get that ching ching so that they can make their ends meet. NOBODY IS TRULY FREE
The one lady who mentioned mainstream spirituality, NEVER take the mainstream path for ANYTHING. That's the path of fear, the path of group think. The path is a solitary hell, you either have an adamant will power that you are going to get to the truth even if it kills you, or you aren't on the path. In the end you have two options, you die not knowing truth, or you die knowing truth. Either way is ultimately pointless.
Your words are not even what is speaking anymore. I can sense it all coming out of your bones and your very soul. The deepness of it can know no depth. There is no bottom to what we try to explain, but then we try also to rise above. Can we simply be? Can we simply say what is really there going on without pride and ego getting in the way of what really wants to be said and felt by each individual. I can feel your soul. I can hear it as it is. I am so tired of talking to walls and fronts. Walls and fronts. Is this what life is...I want to know the soul of a person, not a mask or a front. I'm so tired myself. I have given up, but I haven't given in. That is for death to decide now, and I am scared. I am terrified if I'm being honest. It will all go back to the creator regardless, so why am I so afraid? I don't know, and not having an answer I must let be that which what is. It's not meant for me to understand it all. It never was. It never will be. I am...I am 🌗
@kingearth3672 Everything will go back to the source of which makes everything, all things...the eschaton/eskaton. There is no stopping it. We we're never meant to know all knowledge. Knowledge will drive you to insanity. I know, because it happened to me. I lost my mind with having much knowledge. We must give ourselves to God completely and totally, because we are nothing without the creator. Jesus Christ is the only example of true love, forgiveness, compassion and servitude. Everything we need comes from the source. Nothing comes from us, me, you, I, we. We are both everything but nothing. We are simply vessels through which God is showing itself. God/the creator/the source/Jesus Christ will get all the glory regardless of what we do, say or accomplish. It's not us. It's God almighty. The trinity, 3 in 1. It's very hard to understand, but we provide nothing. We do nothing. God does everything and works through all things. My pride and ego would not let me say this for over 38 years, but I don't live for me anymore. I live only because the creator allows me to. God provides everything! God will get the glory, and we need God for everything. We do nothing without the source that provides everything for us. This is all we we're meant to want to know is our creator. I do not believe that this all just came from nothing anymore. Something put this into action and created all of this. I know we didn't...so what did? I don't know how else to explain it, because knowledge can't. Knowledge can only go so far before it becomes without an answer for why we are here. This is where true faith in God comes into play, and I never thought that I would say this, but I am now. I am NOTHING without God almighty! Praise and glory to God forever 🌗
@@natanmandala just cause you couldn't handle knowledge doesn't mean others can't. I want to be strong and not have to rely on others in life to live. And saying god works through us or is us having an experience doesn't change anything. It's still different personalities with different feelings even if they stem from 1 source. It still leads to whatever we see going around us
17 years ago I was lying in my bed staring at the ceiling. I was thinking about the landing in Normadie Beach in WW2. Young men running around, trying to save themselves. The horror, fear and pain. The massacre.
There was suddenly a recognition that none of it had really happened.
An image of a painting popped up in my head: .... people riding bikes in different directions, ballancing a book on their head.
I viewed my own struggles in life ....
IT NEVER HAPPENED!!!
Suddenly it was just THIS!
In a blink of an eye the body went "silent". All tension just evaporated, and I startet laughing like a mad scientist.
I had never laughed like that before. It was the laughter of freedom.
It was THIS: no past, no future, no movement, no intention, no purpose, no meaning, no fear, no hope, no death, no birth. No me ...... Just THIS. 10:48
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but...they did happen :P. What are you seriously contending the past never occurred? Do you really believe that? What were you doing 5 minutes ago? That never happened either?
No, the past is only an appearance. generated by your mind in the immidiate "now". Nothing is happening outside of this moment. Pay close attention when you are reflecting on past events. Where does the past occur? It occurs only in the moment, and its happening in time, which is an illusion. There is no such thing as time. There actually is no moment either. The moment begins and ends simultaniously, in other words, its real and unreal, or an "on and off" phenomenon that appears to be happening at the same instance.
Whatever seems to be happening "now", is totally neutral, and has absolute no purpose, meaning or intention, exept when there is an experience of being separate from "what is". The experience of "I" or "me" is an illusion generated by the brain.
Nothing has ever happened, and nothing will ever happen. "THIS" is totally unknowing. No one knows what "THIS" is. What does that say about past or future events?
Life only unfolds in the moment. Everything else that seems to be happening is outside of where life is really unfolding, which is only in the immidiate "moment".
"THIS" is nothing appearing as everything that you are experiencing now, but thats an illusion. The experience of being a separate individual is a total illusion.
When the "I" disappears, it will be obvious that nothing has ever happened.
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If the past existed you could display it, once again.
One night in 1971 while I was driving along, the title of an Alan Watts' book, "This Is It" unexpectedly traipsed through my head 3 or 4 times while I was coming down from an LSD trip. All of a sudden I saw that "I" and everything else were the same thing. Or I could just as easily have said that there never was an "I" to begin with. But trying to put it into words reminds me of the Taoists' description of the Ultimate Reality: "That which can't be named."
If it's always now I can't say it's always now. "Now" was here first. Language could never catch up to describe it.
Other analogies to trying to describe it: Like trying to bite your own teeth, grab your own fist or taste your own tongue. A dog chasing its tail.
One thing I also realized is that position of how we want to be noticed in is really just attachment , a need for attention and need to explain our selves , to ourselves !
Also so relatable what Guro said... So many parents were (are) emotionally immature and therefore not suitable to raise children appropriately... Generation after generation traumatised... High time to say NO to all this fake bullshit stuff coming from unaware persons! And YES to all honesty and truth! 💗
the cycle of abuse
Except the character of a story can only play their role. The parents who are "not good" parents are simply doing exactly what was meant to happen. Their story is as automatic as any other. All stories aren't the same. There is no trauma, there is no you, me or anyone or anything. There is no "appropriately raised" as thats an egoic concept, just like how there is no right answer to anything, such as a right ice cream flavor. There is near infinite paths, all are equally pointless.
Now about 20 minutes in…
Amazing how we can get so caught up in chasing life, while this death/emptiness/silence you are living is so compelling, so rich and so full. Beautifully expressed!
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It feels like home. 😊
its more obvious nowadays that no one knows what is happening, with influencers, scam gurus etc. technology in a way amped up the process of end the seeking
Lovely way to put it!
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@@macparker3549 even this channel knows f*ck all yet still gets validation for ego and youtube hits (wanted or not), nobody, not one human on this earth has a clue what is going on, and It's hilarious 🤣
@@robertmcgrath7970 how do u know no one knows
@@robertmcgrath7970a lot of people who fell out of the matrix started looking around for scaffolding. Once you lose that programming, it’s hard to name what happened to you, so people are looking for this kind of verbalization and community again to make sense of the mindfunk. Naming it really helps some people process and let go. She admits pretty early in the video we all just keep out-knowledging one another.
@@robertmcgrath7970many folks have tte knowledge. You won’t find them on RUclips let alone commenting on RUclips
Thanks Suzanne. Pondering dying into nothingness. Also what you said. "I dont know what it is but it's stunning". "Unknowing is the only peace"
There's no "you". Just consciousness. That didn't come therefore cannot go. It was so beautiful to see how Christine is getting rid of what she's not. Amazing.
This talk felt like clear, pure water running over me. Thank you.
Radiant Presence ❤❤❤
Thanks!
Thank you so much John ♡ ♡ ♡
@@suzanne-chang you’re so very welcome Suzanne are you ok if I joined your patreon?
I've idealised and put my Gurus on a pedastal but they would never call it repulsive. They understood where I was on my spiritual journey and showed me this was all OK and that one day I would not need to do that anymore. Love, love, love all the way 🙏❤️
You weren't on the journey as none who actually end up enlightened have ever followed others or used gurus and such. That's ego seeking a reprieve, a stay of execution as Jed McKenna puts it. Waking up is a solo path and it is hell, there is no "love" in enlightenment or waking up. No bliss, no happiness, you lose everything and gain nothing. It's going through hell only to realize hell was never hell, it was just a warmer day then usual.
Beautifully put
@@ItApproaches "no love"!? I don't know what spiritual journey you are on. You talk as if you are enlightened but its no kind of enlightenment that I recognise. I wish you well on your loveless journey.
Who was that "I" that idealised? Who observed that idealising?
It was already perfect as are we .
I really enjoyed your last conversation there, two ladies with awareness and maturity rarely seen in "normal" world
I'm still trapped in a separate self but when listening to your presentation, a vision of liquid clarity of awareness came to me when you mentioned what is hidden underneath the spiritual identity. Very interesting!
amen!
I loved the conversation at the end about the mother in law.
I have a sister in law and a very similar situation. It’s so hard because I know this person is deeply suffering, but she triggers so much in me. One of my parents was like her when I was growing up. I often don’t know what to do for the best and shut down (probably a survival reaction). It’s like the other persons hurt is so strong, it’s an energy and it has to go somewhere. I used to take it on and it’s now trauma I’m processing (EMDR, IFS, TRE). I can’t give it back to them as it’s too much for them, they have no idea about what they are doing. But I also don’t want them to put it on me.
Omg thanks Suzanne...you're so brave , and you said exactly what I needed to hear...such a help to know you've been here too. Love you!
Oh i need to hear this
Its for me❤❤
SO GRATEFUL FOR YOU ❤the honesty warmth and love just radiated right through my tiny phone screen 💖
Extremely sober.
Thank you ❤
You are so beautiful, thank you for sharing your writing 🎉❤
Everywhere I look is Flavorless. Resonates. Staying Tuned
raw - direct - inspiring | cheers
Thanks, Genuine gratitude from an open heart. 😀👍
from heart to heart, grateful that u come across my way
BAHHHH! oh jeez! This one's gonna be interesting! You're always so sweet and thoughtful! The title threw me off!
I think you are lovely 🥰
That title is a solid contender for the greatest quote of all time
OK, gotta love that title!
I’m pretty sure this will be the one that catches on with the masses. Such a soft and comforting message!
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This was great.....
Wow beautiful thank you ❤
thank you.
thanks for this, i had another little manic breakdown and did some introspection and this video is just repeating my own thoughts to me.
how nice!
thanks
You are a blessing for all of us.
Love it! I resonated with everything but especially the last conversation. Thanks everyone for being on the wayless way :)
Yesterday. It didn’t matter. I remember when it did. There was laughter while running down the street in front of our house, in a robe with long gray hair sticking straight up and a face once never bare from makeup…the hair had at one time always been so carefully composed before one could even go to the post office… 😂…this body, joyously barking and laughing as the neighbors huge dog ran from his trash can shenanigan! He stopped wagged his tail, barked, I barked back. This fun played out. What was there was joy and laughter. It permeated every cell of this body. I have lost my mind. 😂🤣
I hope you feel better soon ❤
Beautifully said 💜🙏🏻🦋thank you .
Thank you Suzanne for adding your disclaimer about your about page.. I had read it a month or so back and was a bit confused on the list of "achievements". This is only because you are one of, if not the only public awakened person that looks like me. I think I'm a few years younger than you in my late 20's, and as an East Asian woman we have very similar features, with side parted hair and all. My ego couldn't help but be triggered to compare. I have a love and respect for many of the same teachings and lineages you have committed yourself too, but without the resume to "prove" it. It is all our own unique way of being on the path, whatever we need to experience before it all falls away. Thank you.
So true. It's hiding under the spiritual identity ❤
Second day listen same video. Just heard the "stuff" conversation today. Wouldn't matter if all my "stuff" disappeared. My art "stuff", clothes, junk, meaningless crap! Happening Now. Nice to know "this is fine" nothing stays, nothing stays!! Yipee!
Beautiful 😊
thank you
So beautiful
Yes! Life is showing me that hope and future doesnt exist. Its not it! Amazing how these circumstances are created, just perfect. Its just this. ❤
Beautiful.
Thank you Suzanne! Been watching another channel about nonduality and dropped subscription after hearing "stages" of awakening and the "level" one is at. Like huh?. You are able to simply stay in the grounded, non judgmental place with no distractions like This is some kind of race or something. I cannot thank you enough for removing that aspect from the picture. I don't know shit but when I smell shit I'll say shit. Raw. Truth.
Thank you. The need to know has died.
omg, the woman expressing her clear seeing of how humans hurt each other and are out of touch with what is here... I have been here so strongly and I think I had to titrate out of it because I felt guilty about thinking that way. Guilty or ... yeah, guilty like I was wrong to think that and it was negative to think that and I was indulging negativity. But it's so freaking beautiful to hear her say this. Seeing how gruesome it is. I remember using that exact word on a public stage at a retreat. Horrified by the ways people hurt each other, especially children, and also a little freaked out about the ways my still-unconscious parts must be gruesome in ways I can't yet feel. But the heartbreak and the revulsion and the desire for something different are fuel. Thank you both so much. ALSO THE INSECT TRAPPER 🤣🥰
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Spiritual resume: Infinite Being.
Which is all of us! What stand u apart?
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Thank you beautiful Susanne for all the videos. The unconditional love, I can feel it 💗💗💗
Been practicing feeling the beingness, the feeling that’s always been there, the feeling that never goes. Been feeling into this while looking at objects, people, nature and has I feel that feeling I can look at am object and feel that feeling in that object. Like no boundaries, just that self feeling, the same feeling in everything. The mind is trying to latch on and say thinks about it but there is something beyond what the mind is saying and it’s a knowing.
"There is something beyond what the mind is saying and it's a knowing" Ain't that the crux of it. 💞
The tyrant has been abandoned. That persona was exhausting and exhausted.
“cracked my imaginary heart wide open” 🤣👏🏻
David Carse is your friend?! Perfect briljant stillness
The uncompromising message is perfectly true, yet it is often still a fixation, it comes off as intolerant and unskillful, as the speaker is rigidly holding this position where they refuse to meet the person where they are and see it or express it in a different way. Adyashanti and Angelo DiLullo speak of this, and they're among the very few who are not "stuck in the absolute", having reached the point where the absolute and the relative are the same.
"Perfect Brillant Stillness"
15:00 You say you didn’t worry about leading him on, but did you discuss what would happen after you left London? Was there some kind of clarity?
That’s something that triggered me lately, even though every other aspect of my life is completely in the unknown (I don’t even know where I’m sleeping next week), but the lack of clarity with regards to a relationship really got to me.
When you cross a desert , bring water.
"No words do anything justice"
Heartcrytalks 2 oneSelf...sometimes Love of understanding as a echo returns back.
Aum...Heart feels the Heart...Heart goes deep and as well as high....some aliveness in this honesty and vastness of the pure Selfless Self.
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every attempt to transform the pain results in a different species of pain
This is exactly true. Pain , unhealed, turns into evil tyranny
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wonder full
I love the "bullshit" too. Because it's not bullshit just grist for the mill. 🙏❤️
My ex gf mom told me that the day I went to jail for a bunch a mushrooms. I hated the saying till I had a spiritual awakening.
It is the truth.
Thanks!
No desires? That's interesting
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I feel a deep root is “obligation” within family systems. This runs so deep.
No one is obligated to anyone in this life. 🙏💙
can't find the author you mentioned...david car/carr? thanks your authorship here today is awesome as well😊
David Carse - 'Perfect Brilliant Stillness'
ah yes..thank you@@thereisnonewthing
Try to listen to Ram Dass, he shared much insight into the illusion of life. Hope you feel much better soon. God says you, me and all are innocent. I have no doubt whatsoever it is true : )
life is spontaniously happening right.;)
I would like to know what's the full name of the person she mentions twice at the beginning (20 first minutes) David something who wrote a book
thank you
I had to look the name up as well, but it seems likely she is talking about David Carse, who wrote a book called Perfect Brilliant Stillness. There are several clips on RUclips of his words as well.
Thank you :) @@lucyelanor
Does emptiness go on and on and letting go never stop? Is it a sweet emptiness? Do you learn or continue to un-learn? Thanks for reflections. 😮
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How are bad situations or people dealt with? It feels like the self starts to surface pretty strongly, Does it become more subtle with time?
You remind yourself that the universe doesn't make mistakes, therefore there are no wrong or bad people or situations. You see they are perfect as they are but avoid them or do your best to remedy them. Avoid dangerous people. Act to improve situations that you feel could be improved, but don't take on the belief that anything is really wrong.
@@brushstroke3733 Thank you for the insight. I just finished the rest of the talk, and my parents are like guro's husbands'. One of my siblings is quite draining too. There's just a year or two left with them, and the inconvenience of trying to avoid them is much lighter than the pain they create.
Just the part of me that wants to keep everything in balance to avoid conflict with or between them keeps arising
@@brushstroke3733 why not see anything as "wrong?" For what? By "wrong" I take it you mean negative or bad
@@kingearth3672 For your own health, peace of mind, or for seeing things as they are. When we label something as "wrong" (i.e. shouldn't have happened or shouldn't be happening), we are resisting the universe which does no good and only consumes energy that could be spent more wisely. We either choose to be happy unconditionally, or we choose to make our happiness conditional upon conditions. It's really just that simple.
@@brushstroke3733 it's not about "seeing" something as bad or negative but FEELING it. People, or at least I can't help but feel bad about certain things and trying to not see something as "bad" does not work. I understand you don't have to focus on bad things thougj
that wouldnt catch a huntsman spider in Australia
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Su Zazen Do you have a Buddha field????
hahaha "It was kinda gross," haahaha. Sometimes less is more.
Saved three baby earth worms I found under my water jug on porch. Scooped them up and put them in the flower bed. Couldn't do it, couldn't allow them to drown, get squished or get trapped. Funny. Not sure I could do the mosquito though.
The brain and the mind are distinguishable, they aren’t identical. I don’t know why she said that, I thought there was a clearly established understanding of this fact.
I don't know why you felt the need to comment
@@KYLETISZAI I don’t know why you felt the need to comment
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There is an ultimate truth. Which is nothingness. There is nothing, can never be anything, only nothingness.
Is that a thought or perception?
@@K4iT3cNeither. It's reality.
@@ItApproaches how is that determined if not through thought or perception?
@@K4iT3c Regardless of a character (human/animal whatever) being somewhere to see or understand anything, nothingness is still all there can be.
@@ItApproaches you avoided my question
Who is David Carr?
My awakening has turned me into some sort of psycho in the eyes of these programmed machines
Im just real
And real is not respected
I've been suckered by the biggest con job in human history
What's that?
@@KYLETISZAI$5 footlong
Who would want to learn that everything they thought, wanted, hoped for, trusted is a made up story? And the reward for losing everything is knowing there is no reward, or even a me. Why are we even doing this then? Definitely doesn’t make a person want to participate in this nonsense.
You're making a very good point. Many people who have breakthroughs in contemplative practice, i.e., those that enable one to fully let go of old habits and beliefs, come out with a renewed sense of life and purpose. There is real freedom and (self-)compassion to be found. But for others it can be very challenging (because of trauma or other mental health issues), which is what you might be seeing here. For different takes, I'd suggest checking out Angelo Dilullo, Christopher Wallis, Lisa Cairns, Shinzen Young, and others who also have a YT presence.
@@martinspiering5817Nicely worded. Thanks
Go back to sleep.
Couldn’t if I wanted to, and I’m glad, but some of this is hard to swallow.
Suzanne, what does it mean that there is no will?
min 7:51
❤❤. I need help. I joined a club but meet older member , he. Lost everything, but he looks at me. He asked , do you have money to keep this up? He is 72. I am younger. I didn’t know what he was trying to say. Is, he telling me, you will end up like me? Get out of this club? That is what I see.. thanks.
Just an observation and question based on my own lived experience, and only watching the initial 22min
Are you sure you’re not suppressing desire?
It seems like you’ve convinced yourself that analysing desire until the desire is no longer important is a more noble path than acting on desire, or something to that effect.
Ah… the old “sour grapes”
havent watched yet. like just for the title.
Hella boring I thought it would be interesting or something
We have no authority to judge, everything IS and it's supposed to be, that's if you're talking true non-duality.
Mmmm. Supposed to...as opposed to what?
@@K4iT3c.... as apposed to the One Absolute, infinite consciousness which never recognises individuality nor judges anyone/anything. And in reality there is no "We", there's only the One, and we are that because there IS only the One.
@@RobbeyT1 so you've created a conceptual dichotomy between the idea of supposed to and infinity? Care to elaborate?
What I was pointing out is that the concept of "supposed to" only exists if things could possibly be something they weren't supposed to be.
@@K4iT3c It's all just words because the conceptual mind can't understand the infinite.. you can't get there using the mind. But keep working on it, it'll become obvious eventually.
@@RobbeyT1 your dismissiveness is telling sir. Be careful assuming the state of realization of others. You also never addressed my point. Good day to you
Nothing is really happening and this is all made up, but i am working on my youtube channel. How do you find motivation?
or better: Who finds motivation?
Maybe there is no motivation? It’s just happening because it’s happening.
Ask yourself why you are working on a RUclips channel. The answer to "why" is your motivation. If it's not a strong reason, you won't have much motivation.
Motivation is totally natural but there is such a thing as trauma for human beings
@@goych please explain
I have listened to the David Carse audio narrated by the wonderful Terence Stamp. It's sublime. He talks a lot about teachers' charging. I tend to agree. This is not a criticism of Suzanne, just an observation. ... as I noticed that Suzanne is charging for 1- 1 sessions, & the amount is not something a lot of people in these times would be able to afford. Just curious. " Money & spiritual teaching dont mix. Anything you have of true value, you didnt pay anything." David Carse. Approximately 3 hour 37 minutes in.
Yah I've been to her website and I've seen the price charged per hour.. When I thought about it I realized that the ones that broke out and the ones that are still inside have one thing in common, its called a NEED. Nobody is without a need, the fact the the sleepers need to pay the woke just to get their voices heard is enough to prove that we all got needs. The woke need the sleepers for their survival and their needs to be met. Mentally and spiritually we are in separate worlds but physically we're all in this shit trynna survive and nobody can break outta the matrix.. The spirit could be free but the pockets be starving so they eventually gotta come to us, the sleepers, to get that ching ching so that they can make their ends meet. NOBODY IS TRULY FREE
The one lady who mentioned mainstream spirituality, NEVER take the mainstream path for ANYTHING. That's the path of fear, the path of group think. The path is a solitary hell, you either have an adamant will power that you are going to get to the truth even if it kills you, or you aren't on the path. In the end you have two options, you die not knowing truth, or you die knowing truth. Either way is ultimately pointless.
Pointless other than continuing the cycle of birth and death versus not.
@@renakmans3521 Yup, a new batch of books arriving to the library that is life.
So do you think Angelo dilullo is genuine. He seems so.
❤ Angelo. His book & videos are 🤯
Your words are not even what is speaking anymore. I can sense it all coming out of your bones and your very soul. The deepness of it can know no depth. There is no bottom to what we try to explain, but then we try also to rise above. Can we simply be? Can we simply say what is really there going on without pride and ego getting in the way of what really wants to be said and felt by each individual. I can feel your soul. I can hear it as it is.
I am so tired of talking to walls and fronts. Walls and fronts. Is this what life is...I want to know the soul of a person, not a mask or a front. I'm so tired myself. I have given up, but I haven't given in. That is for death to decide now, and I am scared. I am terrified if I'm being honest.
It will all go back to the creator regardless, so why am I so afraid? I don't know, and not having an answer I must let be that which what is. It's not meant for me to understand it all. It never was. It never will be. I am...I am 🌗
Wdym all go back to the creator
@kingearth3672 Everything will go back to the source of which makes everything, all things...the eschaton/eskaton. There is no stopping it. We we're never meant to know all knowledge.
Knowledge will drive you to insanity. I know, because it happened to me. I lost my mind with having much knowledge. We must give ourselves to God completely and totally, because we are nothing without the creator. Jesus Christ is the only example of true love, forgiveness, compassion and servitude.
Everything we need comes from the source. Nothing comes from us, me, you, I, we. We are both everything but nothing. We are simply vessels through which God is showing itself. God/the creator/the source/Jesus Christ will get all the glory regardless of what we do, say or accomplish. It's not us. It's God almighty. The trinity, 3 in 1. It's very hard to understand, but we provide nothing. We do nothing. God does everything and works through all things.
My pride and ego would not let me say this for over 38 years, but I don't live for me anymore. I live only because the creator allows me to. God provides everything! God will get the glory, and we need God for everything. We do nothing without the source that provides everything for us. This is all we we're meant to want to know is our creator.
I do not believe that this all just came from nothing anymore. Something put this into action and created all of this. I know we didn't...so what did?
I don't know how else to explain it, because knowledge can't. Knowledge can only go so far before it becomes without an answer for why we are here. This is where true faith in God comes into play, and I never thought that I would say this, but I am now.
I am NOTHING without God almighty! Praise and glory to God forever 🌗
@@natanmandala just cause you couldn't handle knowledge doesn't mean others can't. I want to be strong and not have to rely on others in life to live. And saying god works through us or is us having an experience doesn't change anything. It's still different personalities with different feelings even if they stem from 1 source. It still leads to whatever we see going around us
I post a chapter of Suzanne Segal book in my channel YT - The vastness