Masking with smiling - Unmasking my Autism

Smiling to mask my autism and anxiety is something I have always done, even as a child. I am realising that it is not actually helping me and its a hard one to address because I am so conditioned into smiling whenever I am in a new situation or awkward situation and I want people to think that I am ok and coping. But I think now it's just a manic grin and having the opposite effect!
We're still in renovation stage so please excuse the wallpaper and mess! The lighting is good in this room, so that's why I use it.
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