As a recipient of a living donor kidney, you should not let the current environment keep you from searching for one. Transplants may be on hold temporarily, but the testing takes weeks anyway and scheduling the surgeries takes time, too. Go full steam ahead on promoting donation now! Also, stay well. This is the hardest time when you are nearly out of kidney function. I distinctly remember tanking in the energy and outlook departments. Not closely following the news is key for you right now.
I’m so so sorry. Please don’t say that’s it’s the world’s smallest violin. You have every right to feel the way you do. This sucks and you are so strong. Please know I’m praying for you in Pennsylvania 🙏🏻😘
Thank you so much for sharing this. I didn't know you had PKD and if I did, I must have forgotten. I have PKD as well and have a checkup on Monday, that quite frankly I planned on cancelling because I don't want to go out during this pandemic. I'm 38 and haven't had any real issues yet, but you have reminded me that I do need to go. I need to continue following the progress of this disease on my body. My mom also has PKD and she has been doing at home dialysis for the last two years every night on her own. Thanks for being so transparent, outgoing, and brave. You are such an inspiration.
Cindy, dear lord woman! Thanks for the update but really those of us who follow you regularly just want you to do what’s best for you. It’s tough times all around. I’m from Nova Scotia where we just had Canada’s largest mass murder (22 people) My heart is sick. I am so far away from friends and family living in Denmark. Yet today I woke up to sunshine and birds singing. I’ll probably have a little cry later but then console myself and do “normal” stuff. It’s hard for us not to worry and empathy and compassion although an admirable trait can wear us down. Sometimes the way we help others is by taking the best care of our selves. Take the best care of yourself possible and let those who want to help help (helping can be saying we don’t need videos - we would rather you focus on your needs). Cry when you feel it, save your strength for when you truly need it. Sending waves of cool air, black humour and health miracles along with genuine love. ❤️
Heather Morrison couldn’t agree with you more, need to take of ourselves in order to take care of others. My heart goes out to your community and I am sending you and everyone in Nova Scotia good thoughts and love. I do have to say, amidst the current worlds situation I am grateful for social media (never thought I would say that lol) because I wouldn’t be able talk to you. Keep your head up and know people are thinking of you during this difficult time.
Cindy, hi! Newish sub here.. As a previous Dialysis Tech now stay at home mom, I am praying for you! I really hope you won’t need a catheter and your fistula blossoms! ♥️ take care Cindy!!
not even close to the worlds smallest violin. you deserve the space for your feelings, especially right now. this is not a small thing you're going through, this is big. And we're here for you and we support you. Lots of love
You are so strong Cindy. Everything you’re feeling right now is valid so do not apologise. Love and kisses your way. Fingers crossed your doctor can fast track the fistula surgery, I’m sure once you’re healed and it’s working it will be one less thing for you to worry about xxx
It’s so hard. I’m so sorry. My dad is currently back in the hospital (cancer) and I can’t even go see him. So I get the whole “why NOW” thing. It just sucks and sucks and sucks. Just stay hopeful. There is so much power in it. I have another friend who has defied all odds in lung cancer . Almost died so many times. The docs can’t explain how she is still alive but she is! Hope this tapers off so you can get the treatment your body needs. 💜💜
I know there's bugger all we can do right now, but I have the feeling - I know you know - that we'd be there in a heartbeat. Vent, livestream, whinge, shout, swear yourself blue - we'll be here. xx
Don't you dare minimize your illness! This is serious shit and it sucks a lot and I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this right now. Do the things you need to do to take care of your health issues.
Aw, so much love your way. ❤️ I know my situation doesn’t come close, but I am right with you on the timing. I’ve fought MS for 15 years with very little trouble. Then, suddenly, in February, we find out that the disease has “severely progressed” and just like that, I have to go sit in infusion centers (aka Petri dishes), with all this sickness around me. Hang in there. I’ve seen you knock down quite a few obstacles over the years.
I finally watched this because I was being selfish and knew it was not good news. My thoughts are with you. You have to get through this! We need you as a community. Love and prayers.
You’ve been a huge help for me getting through the first years of my chronic illness... Please let yourself feel shit and annoyed at this, don’t downplay it, you’re allowed to feel crap and be upset about feeling crap *but as someone who does this I get it*. You are amazing and strong and there are so many thoughts and well wishes for you. Just remember to keep on keeping on and being awesome as you are!!! Lots of love all the way from Australia and thank you for being you x
You have every right to cry! I will pray for you. I have chronic hives so I how torturous itching can be and how it sucks you dry. And I don’t have any other health issues. You are a strong person and I admire your spirit and bravery.
This is the video that caused me to push the Patreon subscribe button. Can’t wait to hear more from you and am so glad to support a creator I enjoy so much!
Hello Cindy, I was diagnosed in 2018 December and was scary. Since my diagnosis I went totally vegan and when I went for a ultrasound my cyst has began to decrease in size. The downside was I lost alot of weight and went back eating but no meat. It is very hard when you have limited food options. Now I'm intermittent fasting to see how that will help. I'm be praying for you 🙏.
My sister did the home one for years and was able to work even. She got a donor after 3 years doing it at home. She has been good for 10 years now with the donor kidney. Keep strong momma...
I hope you can tell that all of us are thinking about you and hoping your doctor can get everything worked out the best for you as soon as possible. Sending good vibes, prayers, thoughts, hugs and anything else that's good along to you.
From someone that has been watching your channel for years, do what you need to do and we will be here waiting for you to do what you need to do. Take of yourself first, you know, put on the oxygen mask first, my friend. Let your body feel what it needs to feel, if you need to cry, cry, if you need to punch something, punch something. I am saying this, as someone that’s battling health issues myself, I denied myself to feel what I should have and that caused extra strain on my body thus causing more harm than good. Take it one day at a time, shit, one minute at time and listen to your body. And gurl, get on the transplant list....NOW! I am ordering you so, stop fucking around and get it done! Love you!
I’m so sorry to hear all this Cindy, especially as it is happening in all the uncertainty going on now. Let yourself cry if you need to. and it’s not self indulgent at all to feel shitty about it. Sending lots and lots of love xx
I’m glad to see an update, but I’m wanting to cry with you in frustration. I really hope your surgery can get scheduled, you stay well, and can get better. Rooting for you and holding you and your family in thoughts hoping the timing gets better. Keep fighting Cindy.
Cindy, I've been wondering what was going on with you. I'm very sorry to hear this. We love you and will be here. Don't worry about this (youtube, social-media, etc) work. Because we will be here whenever and for whatever you do! Just take care of yourself--that is YOUR JOB right now. Now, I'm going to cue up some of your older lettering & pen test videos this weekend that I've always wanted to watch, but never got around to before!!
I'm so sorry, Cindy. I've dropped in and out of your videos for a good while, and I saw this in my feed and wanted to comment. This sucks majorly, don't apologise. What you're feeling is so valid. I'm sending good mojo and hope you get surgery very soon!
Oh Cindy. I am so sorry. I’ve been following since 2018 and I’ve seen you go through this and you are so so strong. You’re going to make it out on the other side, stronger than ever. I just know it. *purposeful toxic positivity* you got this, babe! Positive vibes only. Your vibe attracts your tribe. Happy bitches smile and stuff. Etc.
Love to you Cindy. My mom was admitted in the hospital this week with her sodium levels low, dehydration and her kidneys started to not function properly. They caught us in time thank God and she was sooo tired the last 10 days which makes sense. It's scary stuff with your organs. I am praying for you and thinking of you. Damn you are Cindy I know you will fight your fucking ass to get through this. Sending love and good juju's.
I love you so much Cindy, we’ve never met but I’ve been following from the VERY beginning, and I feel like you’re a real life friend of mine. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with all of this, and that you’re feeling so awful, and that it’s all so stressful. I think about you all the time and send all the positive vibes out for you. I love how you always find humor and things to laugh about. Thank you for sharing your update with us. Loving you from afar! 🤍🤍🤍
I’m so sorry hun. Your spirit is beautiful. It’s hard to see someone in pain and not being able to get relief. You do what you need to do bc rightnow the time for self care.
Damn Cindy that’s a challenge if I ever saw one. Yes I agree the stress of our situation is probably worsening a lot of our health problems. I don’t have many recommendations but meditation. Turning the mind off as long as you can manage, a little more each day. Maybe sit with a candle, incense or whatever way you best can enjoy scent. Connect with the inner observer, disconnect from worldly events. Easier said than done. My Dad used to tell me when you can’t control anything else in your life you still have command of your attitude. A good cry can really clear the mind too. Tough situations require a lot of grace. All we ever have is “now.”
I'm so sorry to hear this Cindy and I feel bad for 'liking' this video, but it's meant in support not that I like what is going on if that makes sense. I have Fibromyalgia which while completely different to what is going on, I can totally relate to the way you are feeling with constant pain, fatigue, brain fog, rubbish memory and sheer exhaustion - please get as much rest as you can, it's not an easy adjustment when we have been used to being on the go so much and took me a long time to accept my limits, but I had to and I now have to accept when my body needs rest. The biggest single piece of advice I can give you is to rest when your body tells you to - listen to your body, even if that means you feel like you haven't "achieved anything" in a day - you have! You have prioritised yourself and looked after yourself which is most important ♥️♥️♥️ You have every right to feel angry, sad, worried, scared, even angry - all of your feelings are valid - you may feel like some days you have it together and you are coping then out of nowhere the negative feelings return, don't try to bottle them up as it doesn't help (take it from someone who knows lol) but try to deal with them however you can whether that be a video diary for yourself, writing a journal, sketching, playing video games, crying/shouting or a long soak in a bath - remember that your health and wellbeing is TOP PRIORITY - you have people around you who care and want to help. All of your feelings are valid and shouldn't be ignored. Please know that you are in my thoughts and I am wishing the best for you, I hope that your doctor can get the surgery you need asap without any further complications and that when the time comes you are able to get your home dialysis so that you don't need to worry about visiting medical centres, etc. I am usually online so if you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to listen please reach out and I can send you my email/Skype/Facebook. Sending lots of love, gentle hugs and positive vibes to you ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ xxxxx
Oh lovey, I am so sorry! I was really hoping you wouldn't get to this point during this worldwide shitstorm we have going on. You have nearly 60K subsribers and every single one of us is rooting for you! You'll be ok! Massive hugs from across the pond
You are not alone Cindy. I have end stage liver disease and would be entering a transplant program, but I have secondary complications that make me ineligible at the moment for the next year maybe? I am supposed to be getting treatments for it and got started just before the world crashed. Now I am in a basic holding pattern until things are over. It's a frustrating and scary place to be mentally and physically. It's even more frustrating how many people don't understand they are not the center of the world and their choices effect other people. And I know for a fact that they have no idea about the ripple effects they have across the health care industry in terms of chronically ill persons' access to continuing treatment. There is not much comfort I can offer other than to say, you sharing your story and honesty have helped me tremendously. I haven't stopped feeling guilty for being sick, but you can bet I refuse to apologize to my employer for it. You have given me companionship and I relate to your story real hard. Hang in there. There is still a plan for your care, no one is hopeless here. You are a smart cookie and miles a head of the game, even if it doesn't feel like it right now. Sometimes I have to remind myself, "you are not in critical care. You are okay for now". Lately it has involved reminding myself that not every nurse and doctor is at the hospital taking care of viral people and there are still medical professionals to devote their time and attention to you and your needs. You don't have to take a back seat with your health completely.
Omg Cindy, I've been following you for a couple of years. I'm thinking of you during this time and hoping that you come right soon and the doctors are able to help you! Stay awesome and positive xoxox
OMG watching the replay. And when you said you were about to cry I busted out in my own tears. I love you Cindy and thank you for all you have shared of your life. My heart is with you. 💕
Hey Cindy! I’m so very sorry you are feeling so bad!! It sucks so bad. 😢😩 Don’t feel bad for putting out as much content, we totally understand. Take care of yourself and keep working for Tom. 😉❤️
LOVE YA, GIRL!!! I'm so sorry to hear of your "situation". I hope you will just put RUclips, Patreon, etc. on hold and just focus on your health and family. That's what's most important. You are a special person and want to see you happy, healthy & back to being your old spunky self. Keeping you in my prayers.
So sorry to about this. Don't minimize your illness, fight for yourself because you are important. Don't worry about the dialysis center having supplies or being clean enough, someone gets paid to do that. Stand up for yourself but let people take care of you, that's why they have the job they do.
Cindy, you are an amazing person. You are very unique. I love your sense of humor and your energy. I laugh with you every time I watch your videos. I share your jokes with my partner. You always uplift my spirit and make me so happy. And I am sure many people here feel the same way about you. We love you for who you are and we need you. You are not “small”. You are very important for us. Wishing you a lot of strength and to catch all the feeesh and bergs in Animal Crossing!
Oh my yes on the laughter. That is exaclty how my family has got through some pretty dang tough times. Thinking of you...take care and I am thinking it is time to check out Animal Crossing. You rock!❤️
I am sending you AAAALLLLLLLL of my love and as much of my kidney function I can without pooping out myself. This is shitty, and I’m sorry. I’ll pray for you send you as many healthy and strong vibes as I can. I love you!
I'm so sorry you're going through this! I have pcos so I know what a bursting cyst feels like, even if it's on my ovaries and not my kidneys. My mum also got a kidney transplant when she was in her 20's and everything she's told me about kidney failure sounds so horrible, I hope you get your transplant asap and that the new medication and dialysis will help at least a little! And honestly play all the animal crossing and relax as much as you can, you need to put yourself first, we'll be here cheering you on no matter what!
Sending you healing energy and prayers. You are such a strong woman. Please give yourself time to take care of yourself without guilt. Your so amazing for even taking the time to share with everyone.
Hugs girl. Do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself. We will be here whether you film videos or not. I hope things start to get better for you and you are able to get whatever you need to start feeling better and take care
I’m sorry Cindy that your condition has deteriorated, I hope that you are able to get things going again soon. Humour is the best way of coping with ill health I have found. Lots of love from Wales xx
Cindy, I love you and I’m praying for you hun. We’ve talked before awhile ago about my dad having to go through kidney dialysis. Believe me I understand what you’re going through. Don’t worry about us take care of yourself and find fun ways to keep your mind occupied. #teamcindy 🙏🏽😘
Hey Cindy, praying for you and your family. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this at a time like this. Keep smiling and laughing and we will be here cheering you on!
Gosh I am so sorry..I was wondering why there fewer videos and more live streams and left a comment about it on the last video..I had no idea..I am so sorry for what you are going through!
If I could I would kick 2020 in the teeth for you...every feeling you have is super valid-take care of you! I know I don’t know you personally-but damn have you been there for me in some tough times. I appreciate you so so so much and love you mucho!
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As a recipient of a living donor kidney, you should not let the current environment keep you from searching for one. Transplants may be on hold temporarily, but the testing takes weeks anyway and scheduling the surgeries takes time, too. Go full steam ahead on promoting donation now!
Also, stay well. This is the hardest time when you are nearly out of kidney function. I distinctly remember tanking in the energy and outlook departments. Not closely following the news is key for you right now.
I’m so so sorry. Please don’t say that’s it’s the world’s smallest violin. You have every right to feel the way you do. This sucks and you are so strong. Please know I’m praying for you in Pennsylvania 🙏🏻😘
Right? No small violins! End stage kidney disease is no joke. Thank you for saying this, Pamela.
I fee weird “liking” this video 🥺😞 sending good mojo for you Cindy! Thanks for being awesome!!
Thank you so much for sharing this. I didn't know you had PKD and if I did, I must have forgotten. I have PKD as well and have a checkup on Monday, that quite frankly I planned on cancelling because I don't want to go out during this pandemic. I'm 38 and haven't had any real issues yet, but you have reminded me that I do need to go. I need to continue following the progress of this disease on my body. My mom also has PKD and she has been doing at home dialysis for the last two years every night on her own. Thanks for being so transparent, outgoing, and brave. You are such an inspiration.
Cindy, dear lord woman! Thanks for the update but really those of us who follow you regularly just want you to do what’s best for you. It’s tough times all around. I’m from Nova Scotia where we just had Canada’s largest mass murder (22 people) My heart is sick. I am so far away from friends and family living in Denmark. Yet today I woke up to sunshine and birds singing. I’ll probably have a little cry later but then console myself and do “normal” stuff. It’s hard for us not to worry and empathy and compassion although an admirable trait can wear us down. Sometimes the way we help others is by taking the best care of our selves. Take the best care of yourself possible and let those who want to help help (helping can be saying we don’t need videos - we would rather you focus on your needs). Cry when you feel it, save your strength for when you truly need it. Sending waves of cool air, black humour and health miracles along with genuine love. ❤️
Heather Morrison couldn’t agree with you more, need to take of ourselves in order to take care of others. My heart goes out to your community and I am sending you and everyone in Nova Scotia good thoughts and love. I do have to say, amidst the current worlds situation I am grateful for social media (never thought I would say that lol) because I wouldn’t be able talk to you. Keep your head up and know people are thinking of you during this difficult time.
Cindy, hi! Newish sub here.. As a previous Dialysis Tech now stay at home mom, I am praying for you! I really hope you won’t need a catheter and your fistula blossoms! ♥️ take care Cindy!!
not even close to the worlds smallest violin. you deserve the space for your feelings, especially right now. this is not a small thing you're going through, this is big. And we're here for you and we support you. Lots of love
You are so strong Cindy. Everything you’re feeling right now is valid so do not apologise. Love and kisses your way. Fingers crossed your doctor can fast track the fistula surgery, I’m sure once you’re healed and it’s working it will be one less thing for you to worry about xxx
This sucks. Please just take it easy and do whatever is best for you at all times. Sending you healing energy. Love, Sue
Prayers and Love! Hang in there!
It’s so hard. I’m so sorry. My dad is currently back in the hospital (cancer) and I can’t even go see him. So I get the whole “why NOW” thing. It just sucks and sucks and sucks. Just stay hopeful. There is so much power in it. I have another friend who has defied all odds in lung cancer . Almost died so many times. The docs can’t explain how she is still alive but she is! Hope this tapers off so you can get the treatment your body needs. 💜💜
I know there's bugger all we can do right now, but I have the feeling - I know you know - that we'd be there in a heartbeat. Vent, livestream, whinge, shout, swear yourself blue - we'll be here. xx
Don't you dare minimize your illness! This is serious shit and it sucks a lot and I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this right now. Do the things you need to do to take care of your health issues.
Aw, so much love your way. ❤️
I know my situation doesn’t come close, but I am right with you on the timing. I’ve fought MS for 15 years with very little trouble. Then, suddenly, in February, we find out that the disease has “severely progressed” and just like that, I have to go sit in infusion centers (aka Petri dishes), with all this sickness around me.
Hang in there. I’ve seen you knock down quite a few obstacles over the years.
I finally watched this because I was being selfish and knew it was not good news. My thoughts are with you. You have to get through this! We need you as a community. Love and prayers.
You’ve been a huge help for me getting through the first years of my chronic illness... Please let yourself feel shit and annoyed at this, don’t downplay it, you’re allowed to feel crap and be upset about feeling crap *but as someone who does this I get it*. You are amazing and strong and there are so many thoughts and well wishes for you. Just remember to keep on keeping on and being awesome as you are!!! Lots of love all the way from Australia and thank you for being you x
You have every right to cry! I will pray for you. I have chronic hives so I how torturous itching can be and how it sucks you dry. And I don’t have any other health issues. You are a strong person and I admire your spirit and bravery.
I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. Especially at this time. My prayers are with you and your family. Stay strong.
This is the video that caused me to push the Patreon subscribe button. Can’t wait to hear more from you and am so glad to support a creator I enjoy so much!
Hello Cindy, I was diagnosed in 2018 December and was scary. Since my diagnosis I went totally vegan and when I went for a ultrasound my cyst has began to decrease in size. The downside was I lost alot of weight and went back eating but no meat. It is very hard when you have limited food options. Now I'm intermittent fasting to see how that will help. I'm be praying for you 🙏.
You are so real. That’s what I like about you and your channel. Stay strong!
My sister did the home one for years and was able to work even. She got a donor after 3 years doing it at home. She has been good for 10 years now with the donor kidney. Keep strong momma...
I hope you can tell that all of us are thinking about you and hoping your doctor can get everything worked out the best for you as soon as possible. Sending good vibes, prayers, thoughts, hugs and anything else that's good along to you.
From someone that has been watching your channel for years, do what you need to do and we will be here waiting for you to do what you need to do. Take of yourself first, you know, put on the oxygen mask first, my friend. Let your body feel what it needs to feel, if you need to cry, cry, if you need to punch something, punch something. I am saying this, as someone that’s battling health issues myself, I denied myself to feel what I should have and that caused extra strain on my body thus causing more harm than good. Take it one day at a time, shit, one minute at time and listen to your body. And gurl, get on the transplant list....NOW! I am ordering you so, stop fucking around and get it done! Love you!
So sorry Cindy! Prayers that you feel better soon, and that the right things happen to get your kidneys better.
I am so sorry that all of this is happening now. I know it makes it so much harder. I am thinking about you and praying often.
I’m so sorry to hear all this Cindy, especially as it is happening in all the uncertainty going on now. Let yourself cry if you need to. and it’s not self indulgent at all to feel shitty about it. Sending lots and lots of love xx
I’m glad to see an update, but I’m wanting to cry with you in frustration. I really hope your surgery can get scheduled, you stay well, and can get better. Rooting for you and holding you and your family in thoughts hoping the timing gets better. Keep fighting Cindy.
Cindy, I've been wondering what was going on with you. I'm very sorry to hear this. We love you and will be here. Don't worry about this (youtube, social-media, etc) work. Because we will be here whenever and for whatever you do! Just take care of yourself--that is YOUR JOB right now.
Now, I'm going to cue up some of your older lettering & pen test videos this weekend that I've always wanted to watch, but never got around to before!!
I'm so sorry, Cindy. I've dropped in and out of your videos for a good while, and I saw this in my feed and wanted to comment. This sucks majorly, don't apologise. What you're feeling is so valid. I'm sending good mojo and hope you get surgery very soon!
Oh Cindy. I am so sorry. I’ve been following since 2018 and I’ve seen you go through this and you are so so strong. You’re going to make it out on the other side, stronger than ever. I just know it. *purposeful toxic positivity* you got this, babe! Positive vibes only. Your vibe attracts your tribe. Happy bitches smile and stuff. Etc.
Thanks for the update. I love watching your videos. Sending hugs from Indiana💕
Hang in there Cindy! Sending you love from across the pond. You concentrate on you and don’t worry about us xxxxxxxxx
Love to you Cindy. My mom was admitted in the hospital this week with her sodium levels low, dehydration and her kidneys started to not function properly. They caught us in time thank God and she was sooo tired the last 10 days which makes sense. It's scary stuff with your organs. I am praying for you and thinking of you. Damn you are Cindy I know you will fight your fucking ass to get through this. Sending love and good juju's.
I love you so much Cindy, we’ve never met but I’ve been following from the VERY beginning, and I feel like you’re a real life friend of mine. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with all of this, and that you’re feeling so awful, and that it’s all so stressful. I think about you all the time and send all the positive vibes out for you. I love how you always find humor and things to laugh about. Thank you for sharing your update with us. Loving you from afar! 🤍🤍🤍
I’m so sorry hun. Your spirit is beautiful. It’s hard to see someone in pain and not being able to get relief. You do what you need to do bc rightnow the time for self care.
God bless you and your family, Cindy. Love and kisses from Brazil.
You're so strong Cindy. I will keep you in my prayers. We are here for you ❤️
We love and adore you Cindy!!
So sorry to hear and I am praying that you receive better news and feel better soon. ❤️
Hugs!!!! I’m so sorry all this is going down for you now :(. Love you and will do what we can to help!
Keeping you in my thoughts! Sending you positive healing thoughts! ❤
Damn Cindy that’s a challenge if I ever saw one. Yes I agree the stress of our situation is probably worsening a lot of our health problems. I don’t have many recommendations but meditation. Turning the mind off as long as you can manage, a little more each day. Maybe sit with a candle, incense or whatever way you best can enjoy scent. Connect with the inner observer, disconnect from worldly events. Easier said than done. My Dad used to tell me when you can’t control anything else in your life you still have command of your attitude. A good cry can really clear the mind too. Tough situations require a lot of grace. All we ever have is “now.”
Sending you tons of fast healing thoughts and prayers! ❤️
I'm so sorry to hear this Cindy and I feel bad for 'liking' this video, but it's meant in support not that I like what is going on if that makes sense.
I have Fibromyalgia which while completely different to what is going on, I can totally relate to the way you are feeling with constant pain, fatigue, brain fog, rubbish memory and sheer exhaustion - please get as much rest as you can, it's not an easy adjustment when we have been used to being on the go so much and took me a long time to accept my limits, but I had to and I now have to accept when my body needs rest.
The biggest single piece of advice I can give you is to rest when your body tells you to - listen to your body, even if that means you feel like you haven't "achieved anything" in a day - you have! You have prioritised yourself and looked after yourself which is most important ♥️♥️♥️
You have every right to feel angry, sad, worried, scared, even angry - all of your feelings are valid - you may feel like some days you have it together and you are coping then out of nowhere the negative feelings return, don't try to bottle them up as it doesn't help (take it from someone who knows lol) but try to deal with them however you can whether that be a video diary for yourself, writing a journal, sketching, playing video games, crying/shouting or a long soak in a bath - remember that your health and wellbeing is TOP PRIORITY - you have people around you who care and want to help. All of your feelings are valid and shouldn't be ignored.
Please know that you are in my thoughts and I am wishing the best for you, I hope that your doctor can get the surgery you need asap without any further complications and that when the time comes you are able to get your home dialysis so that you don't need to worry about visiting medical centres, etc.
I am usually online so if you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to listen please reach out and I can send you my email/Skype/Facebook. Sending lots of love, gentle hugs and positive vibes to you ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ xxxxx
Cheers to you! So sorry to hear your news, wishing you all the best. Hugs and prayers.
We love you Cindy!!!! Sending you lots of virtual hugs
so I come on here from time to time. So very sorry to hear things are going so badly for you right now. Sending prayers and good vibes your way!
Oh lovey, I am so sorry! I was really hoping you wouldn't get to this point during this worldwide shitstorm we have going on. You have nearly 60K subsribers and every single one of us is rooting for you! You'll be ok! Massive hugs from across the pond
You are loved. Thank you. 💖
Sending you love and a distanced hug from Australia, I am so sorry you have to get through this 🌻🌻
Sending you so much love. You are stronger than this, you’ve got this. ❤️❤️
You are not alone Cindy. I have end stage liver disease and would be entering a transplant program, but I have secondary complications that make me ineligible at the moment for the next year maybe? I am supposed to be getting treatments for it and got started just before the world crashed. Now I am in a basic holding pattern until things are over. It's a frustrating and scary place to be mentally and physically. It's even more frustrating how many people don't understand they are not the center of the world and their choices effect other people. And I know for a fact that they have no idea about the ripple effects they have across the health care industry in terms of chronically ill persons' access to continuing treatment.
There is not much comfort I can offer other than to say, you sharing your story and honesty have helped me tremendously. I haven't stopped feeling guilty for being sick, but you can bet I refuse to apologize to my employer for it. You have given me companionship and I relate to your story real hard.
Hang in there. There is still a plan for your care, no one is hopeless here. You are a smart cookie and miles a head of the game, even if it doesn't feel like it right now.
Sometimes I have to remind myself, "you are not in critical care. You are okay for now". Lately it has involved reminding myself that not every nurse and doctor is at the hospital taking care of viral people and there are still medical professionals to devote their time and attention to you and your needs. You don't have to take a back seat with your health completely.
Prayers for you, Gods peace on your heart Cindy. ❤️
Hello Cindy .my prayers are with you and your family . Stay strong . ❤️
We all love you .. and will always be here as long as you are !
Praying for you and cheering you on!
Omg Cindy, I've been following you for a couple of years. I'm thinking of you during this time and hoping that you come right soon and the doctors are able to help you! Stay awesome and positive xoxox
sending prayers and good vibes! you have good reason to feel the things you're feeling. stay strong!
Sending my love and prayers from a nephrology nurse ❤️
That really sucks. Praying for better days for you.
OMG watching the replay. And when you said you were about to cry I busted out in my own tears. I love you Cindy and thank you for all you have shared of your life. My heart is with you. 💕
I am so sorry. This sucks...I hope they can get your surgery scheduled. Sending love and lots of laughs to get you through this.
Sending you hugs! This is such a terrible time to have serious health issues. A lot of my cancer treatment is on hold right now during all of this.
Cindy!! Sorry for what you’re going through. If there’s anything I can do, I’ll be there. Big hugs!!
Hey Cindy! I’m so very sorry you are feeling so bad!! It sucks so bad. 😢😩 Don’t feel bad for putting out as much content, we totally understand. Take care of yourself and keep working for Tom. 😉❤️
Much love and support from Maryland. You’re strong enough to get through whatever comes your way.
sending my love, thoughts and prayers your way ❤️❤️❤️
I’ve admired your strength ... I’m so sorry. We are here!! Love
Oh Cindy. My thoughts are with you.
Sending you lots of love. I’m so sorry. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
Many many hugs to you. Lots of love too.
Cindy, I am keeping you in my thoughts. So sorry to hear about the tough times you’re going through. You are loved by many!
LOVE YA, GIRL!!! I'm so sorry to hear of your "situation". I hope you will just put RUclips, Patreon, etc. on hold and just focus on your health and family. That's what's most important. You are a special person and want to see you happy, healthy & back to being your old spunky self. Keeping you in my prayers.
So sorry to about this. Don't minimize your illness, fight for yourself because you are important. Don't worry about the dialysis center having supplies or being clean enough, someone gets paid to do that. Stand up for yourself but let people take care of you, that's why they have the job they do.
Cindy, you are an amazing person. You are very unique. I love your sense of humor and your energy. I laugh with you every time I watch your videos. I share your jokes with my partner. You always uplift my spirit and make me so happy. And I am sure many people here feel the same way about you. We love you for who you are and we need you. You are not “small”. You are very important for us. Wishing you a lot of strength and to catch all the feeesh and bergs in Animal Crossing!
You are so great. Do what you can. And you don't can, you don't worry. We'll waiting for you. Take good care of yourself.😍👋
Sending good vibes! You are being so strong ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Wishing you all the best Cindy. I'm sorry it's all happening at the same time, I can't imagine the stress you're going through ❤️
Oh my yes on the laughter. That is exaclty how my family has got through some pretty dang tough times. Thinking of you...take care and I am thinking it is time to check out Animal Crossing. You rock!❤️
I am so sorry to hear this 😞 praying for your strength and peace as you go through this journey 🙏🙏
I am sending you AAAALLLLLLLL of my love and as much of my kidney function I can without pooping out myself. This is shitty, and I’m sorry. I’ll pray for you send you as many healthy and strong vibes as I can. I love you!
I'm so sorry you're going through this! I have pcos so I know what a bursting cyst feels like, even if it's on my ovaries and not my kidneys. My mum also got a kidney transplant when she was in her 20's and everything she's told me about kidney failure sounds so horrible, I hope you get your transplant asap and that the new medication and dialysis will help at least a little! And honestly play all the animal crossing and relax as much as you can, you need to put yourself first, we'll be here cheering you on no matter what!
Sending you healing energy and prayers. You are such a strong woman. Please give yourself time to take care of yourself without guilt. Your so amazing for even taking the time to share with everyone.
Dialysis sucks...but the alternative is not acceptable...no apologies....you take care of you...we will be here when you can come see us. 💚
Hugs girl. Do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself. We will be here whether you film videos or not. I hope things start to get better for you and you are able to get whatever you need to start feeling better and take care
I’m sorry Cindy that your condition has deteriorated, I hope that you are able to get things going again soon. Humour is the best way of coping with ill health I have found. Lots of love from Wales xx
Sending lots of love to you and your peeps!!!! ❤️
Prayers for you. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
So sorry to hear this. Wishing you all the love in the world.
Sending prayers from Canada 🙏🏻
Cindy, I love you and I’m praying for you hun. We’ve talked before awhile ago about my dad having to go through kidney dialysis. Believe me I understand what you’re going through. Don’t worry about us take care of yourself and find fun ways to keep your mind occupied. #teamcindy 🙏🏽😘
Thank you for your humanity and vulnerability! We are all here rooting for you and hope that you feel better soon. Hugs!
It does suck. I love you. Take care as best as you can.
Sorry I missed this. Just know you're in my thoughts and my prayers, and you will get through this. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Hey Cindy, praying for you and your family. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this at a time like this. Keep smiling and laughing and we will be here cheering you on!
Sending you prayers and love from Sweden. ❤️
Sending love and prayers your way.
You're the best, Cindy! Sending love and positive vibes!
Sending love and light to you and yours 💕
Gosh I am so sorry..I was wondering why there fewer videos and more live streams and left a comment about it on the last video..I had no idea..I am so sorry for what you are going through!
If I could I would kick 2020 in the teeth for you...every feeling you have is super valid-take care of you! I know I don’t know you personally-but damn have you been there for me in some tough times. I appreciate you so so so much and love you mucho!