I really like this, remind me of like when you're at the end of a game where you have made a decsison and now have to live with it. However there's a melancholy aftertaste which makes it more meaningful like an inner peace.
I love this song, but more importantly im glad that you are doing okay, I will be praying for you and I truly hope that your life only gets better from here
It’s good, I really like it. I think I’ve found another playlist to listen to as I try to pull myself out of a place I’ve lost myself in. I keep reaching for who I once was-the one who thrived in so many ways-but the more I try, the more I drift. The things I once held dear now feel distant, and the path back seems elusive. I noticed it slowly after Grade 9, but now, in my final year, it’s impossible to ignore. The weight of it all has led to faltering steps, even in areas I once mastered. I’ve let things slip-school, assignments, even showing up. Though I know life moves on and consequences loom, yet here I am, stuck between knowing and doing. I'll probably delete this next time.
for whatever it's worth I know exactly how you feel. I would idolize my older self who was able to enjoy things and be present. I'll give some advice that helped me and I hope it help you a bit: Don't chase how you once were. You are always yourself in every moment. Even me hallucinating and not even eating for days was still me. The more you chase an idea actually the less you become who you are. I would also look into dissociation or depersonalization and see if you resonate with the symptoms. @robinschindelka2117 has videos that helped me a lot with dissociation that came with panic attacks. Also @HealthyGamerGG has a lot of great lectures on multiple mental health subjects and his videos helped me a lot. (He's a psychiatrist) Finally, if you have access to it in your country or through your school try to get counseling or therapy. I was able to get it pretty cheap by calling my insurance and asking for a list of providers. I think America and some other countries will subsidize mental health care.
The most important thing really is that you keep going. I used to be certain with every part of me that I was never going to get better, that everything I did was useless. These days I have hope and I have goals and I'm grateful for simple things around me.
I appreciate the complexity of the chords and I was impressed with how well the distant drums blended into the track. I'm curious about what this song meant to you during that period of time. To me, it feels like a sad acceptance of reality, but also a brief respite from the suffering. Glad you're doing and feeling better.
I really appreciate the message thank you. It's crazy how close your thoughts are to my experience. I would very occasionally feel myself again at night, the first couple times this happened was probably the most intense joy I've ever felt because I thought I was back to normal. Made this song during maybe the 3rd or 4th time I was given a break. I stayed up late and enjoyed being calm. But now I knew when I woke up I wouldn't be a person again.
Really nice ethereal sound! (Here before this channel blows up)
Just know that i was here before this vid reached 1k views
We*
same
Marking my presence here because I know this is gonna blow up ❤️🔥
Nice! Hoping for quick recovery 🙂
I really like this, remind me of like when you're at the end of a game where you have made a decsison and now have to live with it. However there's a melancholy aftertaste which makes it more meaningful like an inner peace.
This is such a cool idea thank you very much
Love it
I hope ur doing well
lovely
I love this song, but more importantly im glad that you are doing okay, I will be praying for you and I truly hope that your life only gets better from here
thank you very much for the kindness it means a lot to me. These days I have a lot of hope. Wish you the best as well.
It’s good, I really like it. I think I’ve found another playlist to listen to as I try to pull myself out of a place I’ve lost myself in. I keep reaching for who I once was-the one who thrived in so many ways-but the more I try, the more I drift. The things I once held dear now feel distant, and the path back seems elusive. I noticed it slowly after Grade 9, but now, in my final year, it’s impossible to ignore. The weight of it all has led to faltering steps, even in areas I once mastered. I’ve let things slip-school, assignments, even showing up. Though I know life moves on and consequences loom, yet here I am, stuck between knowing and doing.
I'll probably delete this next time.
for whatever it's worth I know exactly how you feel. I would idolize my older self who was able to enjoy things and be present. I'll give some advice that helped me and I hope it help you a bit:
Don't chase how you once were. You are always yourself in every moment. Even me hallucinating and not even eating for days was still me. The more you chase an idea actually the less you become who you are.
I would also look into dissociation or depersonalization and see if you resonate with the symptoms. @robinschindelka2117 has videos that helped me a lot with dissociation that came with panic attacks.
Also @HealthyGamerGG has a lot of great lectures on multiple mental health subjects and his videos helped me a lot. (He's a psychiatrist)
Finally, if you have access to it in your country or through your school try to get counseling or therapy. I was able to get it pretty cheap by calling my insurance and asking for a list of providers. I think America and some other countries will subsidize mental health care.
The most important thing really is that you keep going. I used to be certain with every part of me that I was never going to get better, that everything I did was useless. These days I have hope and I have goals and I'm grateful for simple things around me.
Amazing. Should be on Spotify tho
Thank you very much. I'll try too soon.
Wish you well
It's been over a year and most days I'm much better. Thank you very much.
Thank you
Earned a sub
Also hope you re doing good
Thank you very much, doing better
This is a beautiful song and I'm glad I found it. Hope you've been doing better.
Thank you very much. Doing better most days.
I like it
Amazing work!
thank you very much for the kindness
@@forIzumisincefall
It's not kindness, it's honesty. I respect what you make and the path that lead you to there, thank you for that music❤
I love this song. It feels so grounded and light. Really cool work and I'm glad your doing better now
This means a lot to me. Thank you very much and I wish you the best as well.
Also feel free to use the song for anything if that applies.
nice
I appreciate the complexity of the chords and I was impressed with how well the distant drums blended into the track. I'm curious about what this song meant to you during that period of time. To me, it feels like a sad acceptance of reality, but also a brief respite from the suffering.
Glad you're doing and feeling better.
I really appreciate the message thank you. It's crazy how close your thoughts are to my experience. I would very occasionally feel myself again at night, the first couple times this happened was probably the most intense joy I've ever felt because I thought I was back to normal. Made this song during maybe the 3rd or 4th time I was given a break. I stayed up late and enjoyed being calm. But now I knew when I woke up I wouldn't be a person again.
It feels distant
fr
love it.
beautful.
name of anime ?
5cm per second it's by Makoto Shinkai the same guy who made Your Name