what a great way to put it. i feel you so heavy samantha, as i've been struggling with something so similar since may. too much stress, too many things to cope with. thinking of you and family.
Oh my god my heart literally shatters picturing you alone in your house with your child, thinking you and Matt are over forever, knowing you’re pregnant, you’re bleeding, and you don’t know why. I can’t even imagine how painful and traumatic that had to be both physically and emotionally.
My brother committed suicide, my mom died from Covid, and my bf of 10+ years dumped me out of the blue, all within the span of 18 months. The universe really just has jokes sometimes. It doesn’t even feel like a ✨test✨ sometimes, it just feels like a mean joke. But it keeps moving and inevitably gets easier. Keep your gorgeous, hardworking, resilient, brilliant chin up, because you are valid and magical and I’m so glad you’ve posted again. Even when it feels like it’s all too much, just remember that you’re moving through it.
This is the true definition of a kind person. Being positive and spreading kindness even though you went through so much recently. Girl, I hope you are doing okay. Trust me, you will see sunshine soon. I am so sorry for your losses. You deserve the world and I hope you will get all the happiness that you deserve ❤❤
That so much in a short amount of time. I hope things lighten up though it’s not something you get over but learn to live with. You’re resilient and strong for still being here.
I’ve been here since batalash days and just want to say thank you for being open and vulnerable. You didn’t have to share anything with us but I hope you both find some comfort in the supportive comments and a safe remainder of pregnancy and delivery. It’s nice to see the flood of comments in support after a hiatus. I can’t believe the amount of work it’s had to take for you both to get into a positive position to share this information. Much love 🤍
Oh Sam, you are my OG beauty guru, you truly taught me everything I know about makeup artistry. You have come so far with grace, amazing humor and transparency. As a doctor, it always breaks my heart when patients cant get the adequate help, so I am so happy you find an amazing doctor who is helping. And about procedures complications, I really dislike when people want to gloss over then like is nothing. No, every single medical procedure, no matter how mild and none invasive, can have potential complications. I just want to say I love you, you always had been such a unique, cool, authentic, loving, passionate woman. I am wishing you the very best, makes me happy everything is getting better after such a difficult time in your life. We truly have to take the bad with the good, dont we? 😂 sending a thousand hugs to your whole family 🌻
I completely feel this, not from a disability point of view but I was having sever health issues, tried to advocate for myself, a million doctors later no one was listening, then I found THAT doctor! Turned out it was cancer 🤪 I’m totally fine now but without having a doctor taking me seriously, I might not be!!
It’s just so good to see you again Sam. Edited to add, so glad everything is okay and I’m so proud of you and Matt. So much to overcome in such a short time. Appreciate you and your honesty, and Matt too for being willing to share that. We’re rooting for you!!
So good to see and hear you again. Wishing you and your family all the best. ❤ Also, if you feel so inclined, I would love to know what your foundation mix was. I deal with similar skin issues, and the way it looked on you was perfect. 😊
Personally I believe it’s really important for women to talk about their experiences and feelings, it’s definitely not fear mongering ! If we don’t talk, then how are we supposed to learn or support each other? We shouldn’t feel like we have to hide our experiences as there’s no benefit to doing that, it’s not something that should be hidden, or ashamed of, and by discussing it is nothing more than supportive. ❤
I just want to share that the last time you spoke about your (cervix) health, I was going through the exact same thing at the time and it brought me comfort to know I wasn’t alone. Fast forward to now - I am 23 weeks pregnant with a short cervix and a placenta that is low lying/covering my cervix opening. I bled for weeks at the beginning of my pregnancy as you did (although did not know I was pregnant because of it - thank god) and again, this video has made me feel less isolated and alone. I want to thank you for your transparency and vulnerability. Although these are all stressful situations that I wouldn’t wish on anyone, I am grateful for your truth as I feel less alone. Those around me can’t relate to the stress, anxiety or toll these things create which has led to so much internalizing. Sending you so much love and crossing my fingers that you and baby make it as close to your due date as possible 💕
Pregnancy is fucked and no one wants to talk about it. It's not fearmongering, it's reality. Pregnancy messes up your body sometimes and it's not always all roses. ANYWAY, rooting for you and happy to see you seem to be doing well. Much love ❤
@@izzyj4092 Meh they can say it until they're blue in the face. Yes, I'm selfish and I like my time, peace, health, body and money and I will not share it. Same as it is selfish to bring new life onto Earth with the current dumpster fire - climate crisis first of all.
I really admire the fact that you don't paint pregnancy and motherhood as all rainbows and unicorns. People need to know these very real risks and the fact that you're sharing your PRIVATE and PERSONAL health is a huge contribution socially. You should never feel ashamed for consensually sharing your experience and feelings with us and those people accusing you of fear-mongering are the problem. Thank you, Sam. Keep doing you. 🤍
My ex husband (my daughter's father) is an addict. It is so freakin stressful to be married to someone in active addiction. And I got pregnant too at a bad time. But that was 15 years ago and life is really good now. I'm not married to that guy anymore, but my daughter and I are great. You guys will be great too!
I’m an opiate addict in recovery & just wanted to say that I commend you for sticking by Matt. I know how hard it is, how painful it is. Proud of you. Also proud for Matt to have a supportive partner 🤍
I usually don’t comment but you speaking about the leep procedure is actually a shock to me. I must’ve missed that video as well as the doctor who did mine never shared these complications. It’s like you told me things the own medical professionals didn’t share. This whole medical industrial complex is super frustrating. Im so sorry to hear about all of the difficulties and complications you shared. I pray things will move forward positively.
Your humour about difficult times in your life is so refreshing to watch. I feel so down so much of the time and the anxiety is crippling. Watching this video helped me today Sam. Thank you for that…from a fellow Canadian!! 🥰
Having babies is the hardest thing a human can do. Emotionally and physically - it’s changed everything about myself and my being. Worth it every step of the way but so hard. I wish you happiness and peace ❤ so glad to see an update from you.
I’ve always admired your ability to be so transparent and vulnerable. You have such a gentle aura that I can’t ever quite describe. Thank you for always sharing your life with us! Missed your content 🫶🏼🤎
Medical gaslighting - I just came home from a doctor's appt. where I was complaining and crying about having to advocate for myself. And then here you are. Like a sister. Thank you.
sending you love, friend. I had a doctor ask me if I thought I had a TROPICAL ILLNESS when I was crying in pain in front of her (endometriosis, surprise!). I'm also from a very cold northern non tropical location. I would have to trival very far to get a "tropical illness," :))))))
I'm so sorry you've had to deal with all of this. You're one of my favourite humans and I truly appreciate your vulnerability in sharing your story. I'm sending you so much love 🥰 We missed you!
Having skin issues, especially on ones face can cause so much anxiety and takes such a toll on ones self esteem. I'm so happy you were able to find some relief for your skin. ❤
I’m only 2 seconds in but just wanted to say I missed your voice keeping me company during my day! (but completely understand the absence at the same time)
Sam!!! We've missed you. What a whirlwind of several months for you, I am so glad your pregnancy is okay and you found that Doctor that sounds amazing. The travel size glow lust is absolutely presh
My skin looked like the pictures you posted for a couple of years, sans pregnancy. You were one of the first RUclipsrs to let me see I could still enjoy beautiful makeup and look beyond it. I use curology now and my skin eventually did chill out, but I’ll always be grateful to you for that.
Hi Sam, I’m a labor nurse. I know you said you don’t have easy access to emergency care based on your home location. It may be something you and your midwife discuss as you are getting closer to term. Cervical dilation can happen so quickly with a shortened cervix and a preterm pregnancy, and since baby isn’t as large and the cervix has already thinned so much, delivery tends to happen rapidly once it starts. Babies born prior to 34-35 weeks without additional steroids to assist lung development especially can have difficulty breathing on their own and will often need significant respiratory support once born. Maybe there’s a temporary housing situation closer to your medical needs as time goes on. I hope you find a solution that works for your needs. I wish you all the best and hope your little one is able stay in until term or close as possible.
Does Ronald McDonald House operate in Canada? They provide housing close to hospitals, usually for family members of child patients, but they may accommodate something like this as well
That's exactly what happened to me on my youngest son. He was 5 was early and rushed to the baby unit in incubator. He had breathing difficulties and a touch of jaundice. I had no complications during pregnancy no signs at all. It was so scary
I’m a former L&D RN. One thing I’ve seen often w patients that have had a leep procedure or anything surgical to the cervix is it creates scar like tissue on your cervix. I’ve had a lot of patients come in for labor and their cervix will barely dialate when they’re in active labor so say your 1-2 cm but you’re at a 10 pain wise so you’re like wtf why am I not dialating for a long time but then the scar tissue releases and then they’ll be like 8-9 cm very fast. Hope that doesn’t scare you or happen to you but just wanted to give u a heads up bc you could end up having the baby super fast and now u live on an island. Ask your midwife abt it. She’ll understand. So happy to see you n congratulations again ❤
Not to be a creep, but…I was thinking about you lately! I’m glad to hear things are moving in the right direction for you. Can’t wait to hear more!! xoxo
As an avid follower of yours since pre-Batalash times, I'm always so stoked to see a new upload from you - it's truly been a pleasure having your wisdom and humor as a guiding light through the years and I'm so happy to hear your season of stress has more or less wrapped up. Wishing you all the very best for the rest of your pregnancy, cannot wait to hear updates
So happy your back Sam and thank you for being vulnerable. Wishing you and your family the best. How is Alyssa?? She hasn’t posted forever on Instagram hope she’s doing okay
As someone who moved to an island only accessible by ferry and was pregnant and was entirely sure I was going to be a ferry birth statistic...so so glad I had to be induced. I cannot explain how much I did not want my husband to try and deliver my baby in the car on a boat out in the middle of the water. Good luck, amigo, may the odds be also in your favor!
Omg, that's worse than an elevator baby or a car delivery baby on the side of the road or stuck in traffic. So happy you didn't have to deal with that!
Not to be too cheesy, but it was such a pleasure seeing your face and spending 30 minutes with you! I hope the rest of your pregnancy goes by smoothly and the ferry is waiting for you in September! ❤❤
Of course with Matt’s permission I would really like to hear how you moved past his relapse - I am in that right now and “separated” but I don’t know how to forgive and move on congrats on the pregnancy ❤
23 year relationship ended because of his drug use and alcoholism. It is heartbreaking to see him now and how he's changed. I hate feeling helpless but I've got to move forward.
Definitely. Our 20th wedding anniversary will be next August, and I'd say in the first 6-7 years were our roughest times. Over time we both grew and matured together, and life eventually just mellowed out as we figured out how to be better partners. We "split" super briefly 2 or 3 times in those early years 😂
Sam, marriage is hard, especially when your significant other is battling depression and addiction. My husband and I have had our moments as well, but those moments have made us stronger. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. I truly admire you, your strength, and compassion. ❤️
You are the only RUclipsr I remember that exists when you don’t post. I’ve really been wondering how you’ve been doing. Thank you for sharing all these updates! I respect your vulnerability and honesty with us! Wishing you well on this 2nd pregnancy. ❤M
I am currently 9 weeks pregnant and I had the exact same thing (subchorionic hematoma) at 6 weeks. It was(is) very scary, but I am so glad you've had a healthy pregnancy!
Sam. I’m so glad you’re talking about this. I also had the procedure and gained an “incompetent cervix”, beautiful name btw. During my pregnancy, I had to have a procedure(cervical cerclage) to stop preterm labor. Surprise!!! My son still came 2 months early. Such a scary pregnancy. I’m here to report he’s a healthy, happy, active 8y/o.
@@lollsazz once you have the procedure, they monitor you closely, constantly checking if you dilate. I had a “slow leak” and my gyno told me to head to the hospital.
When I was pregnant with my second son, I was initially pregnant with twins unbeknownst to me. I had bled, but thought it was my cycle. However, I also had started to throw up my toenails multiple times per day, but I was also gaining weight which was weird to me. I’d been told after my first son was born that I wouldn’t be able to get pregnant again so I really thought I had the weirdest virus ever lol. Long story short, I went to the dr who told me “I had a virus with a heartbeat”. So I found out in the same day that I was pregnant after being told I couldn’t get pregnant again and it had been six years since my first pregnancy, had been pregnant with fraternal twins (meaning two separate sacs), and what I thought was my cycle was actually a miscarriage. My cervix was dilating bc it was incompetent due to the same surgery that Sam referenced in this video, and they had to also perform a cervical cerclage. I was also put on pelvic rest which meant no sex or lifting anything heavy for the rest of my pregnancy. My son came a month early, and stopped breathing as he came out, but he was healthy in the end after they got him breathing again. He’s now about to turn 18, and one of my greatest gifts, but I can relate to that pregnancy being so scary! Glad u had a good outcome as well!
I love how candid you are. Also, 4 babies and 4 different experiences…all of them with the anxiety!! Pregnancy and any complications is something we CANNOT control ❤ enjoy the moments that you can. God bless, peace and love ❤️
I can’t imagine going through all of that while being pregnant let alone with such scary complications. I’m so glad you’re doing better and I am excited for your new little bean 😊
Jesus Sam what an update😮 my heart was feeling it for you and the baby. Your such a warrior! Unbelievable what had transpired and how the ER treated you. Sending many prayers for a smooth time during this pregnancy. Xoxo
I am so unbelievably proud of you. Life quite literally shat and vomitted all over you while stabbing you in the back and you are still here, you fought through it all and are still fighting. You really are an inspiration and i am just so proud of you and happy for you
I'm so glad that you stepped away for as long as you needed to deal with the absolute tomfoolery that your life decided to get up to but I'm also really glad to see your face again. Thank you for the update and for gracing us with our presence once again!!
Ugh thank you for being so candid about how you felt your relationship just… wasn’t working. My husband and I have been together 16 years, and right now we are just so disconnected to me. Some life events really shifted things and I so hope we can get back to baseline and back to “us”.
Hi!! I’m sorry you are going through that, it is one of the worst feelings ever. There’s a book by the Gottmans called The Love Prescription that you might find helpful. I got it on audio book and just listened in quick bites, but I felt like it was such a great reminder of those small, day to day things that make relationships work. Sometimes the problem can feel so much bigger than anything you can reasonably tackle, but it really is the small stuff that matters oftentimes.
It's very difficult to be this open and honest (because the internet is garbage a lot of the time), but I appreciate how straight forward and honest you are in these videos. I'm glad to hear that everyone is doing better and better, proud of you and Matt. Please do let him know that there is only support here, and it's a safe space. Through all the hardship the universe decided you would be rewarded with a competent doctor; that's amazing!! 😊🙏💜 Wow you are hardcore doing all of that house stuff within 2 months, and moving to an island with no hospital. It's so lovely to be able to see you smile and make jokes after all of that.
I love the rawness of this video and honesty. You dont have to let us in but do anyway and appreciate it. Happy to see youe pregnancy is doing well and you and Matt are okay now. Relationships can be hard work sometimes. Hope to see you again soon ❤
Hey Sam! May I just say I love your videos and your personality? I’ve watched you for a long time and your authenticity just breathed through. It’s relatable and real, and this makes you so appealing, I think, to us. I am a middle aged black woman who gets you ❤😂😊! Continue living. Being all you. Showing up in this space as you do. Creating content that is transparent and real, as you wish. And then when you don’t want to anymore, or you want to pull back some, do that…. It’ll be okay. ❤ Much respect to you. Happiest pregnancy. Good luck with hubby and family. 🙏🏽✌🏽
Your skin seems much less painful, I am so happy that you were able to find relief. It sounds as if you and your family have been through it. I wish you all health and happiness. 🖤
Hi Sam! If you see this, know that most of us are just thrilled to see you here, that you and baby and child and Matt are all doing well. I have beloved family members and friends who struggle with addiction and relapse. Really proud of Matt and of you, this was not easy. (Oh, throw in a move to an island, Covid, and a tricky pregnancy.) I don’t see how anyone could be negative or downplay your concerns, but I guess you never know. sending love and peace! ❤
I’ve never clicked a video so fast. Sam! You’re still swimming! I’m so sorry you’ve had a rough go of it, and I can only imagine the amount of stress you’ve been under. Continue to prioritize your rest and needs, we’ll miss you but Chile who cares about THAT. Sending you hopes for an easeful pregnancy and that you and Matt move through this rough patch and make it to the sun on the other side. 💕
I used to live in Canada and ahh your story makes me so sad, I had so many issues in the system too as a Type 1 Diabetic, I am so happy now to be back living in the states especially while pregnant. Everything you went through is so heart breaking to hear
Wow our stories are so similar. My husband is also struggling and I am pregnant (35 weeks) and had a big SCH and low lying placenta (it moved) and bleed until 20 weeks. All the stress of dealing with his addiction really didn’t help. we separated for a couple weeks too . Thank you for sharing
I think it is fantastic you speak on women issues and life as a whole for other women to learn from but also prevent health issues, understand health issues that they themselves could possibly be going through, how advocating for oneself is so important, how important finding a dr you are comfortable with… the list goes on and on for how beneficial your videos are. Of anyone online, where the majority of your viewers are female, you have provided the best real life content of being female, wife, mother, employee, consumer, recipient of healthcare, person who has very sensitive skin that ties back to your health, etc. I see nothing negative at all with how open you get sometimes about very significant issues people face, yourself being one. I am kinda blown away anyone would have any negative feelings towards your videos like this because of how helpful they always are. Ya know, people always have the choice to NOT watch if they can’t handle real life🙄
I have rosacea and I don’t think people realise how painful the flares can be. Your skin constantly burns and you can’t cool down, it’s like having really bad sunburn or standing outside in the summer with no shade. Really feel for you Sam, hope you find something that works for you
I’ve been watching you for years, maybe around 7yrs, I can’t remember. And your honesty and transparency that you show is beautiful. I love that you’re normal compared to all these influencers. Thank you so much for sharing your life on the internet 💜
As an AFAB person with a huge fear of pregnancy but also a strong desire to become a parent one day, your videos are invaluable to me learning about pregnancy. Being able to learn about it makes it all seem less scary everytime you share your experience, just because i feel like...knowing what *could* go wrong means no surprises i guess. Your vulnerability is truly something I admire.
I appreciate you being so vulnerable with your audience. Especially with your experience being minimized at the hospital. It’s important for women to hear this so they can advocate for themselves. Thank you for your openness and for using your platform in such a way.
Loved that doc for the ultrasounds!! Like being in the medical field it’s just so dang good when you find someone who truly cares & wants to do everything right! Sticking with 1 person only!! Love that for you!
I wanted to comment to Matt on the newest video but since comments were turned off, I’ll come here. I was told by my therapist earlier this year that I had avoidant attachment style and it felt like a personal attack on me and that the problems of the relationship fell on my shoulders alone. It felt embarrassing and I was just being defensive and not willing to admit that what she was telling me made sense. So much so that I stopped going to that therapist. Hearing the latest video really made me better understand that I can better understand it and work through my impulses when I hit rough spots in my relationship. I’m going to pick up that book! In the moment it does feel like breaking up is the “best” thing for both people (even if it’s a small disagreement), but it’s just being afraid of being hurt by someone else. But honestly thank you both for opening up about it.
I was so thankful for your leep video at the time, I’m sorry people were horrible to you about it. I appreciate honesty about women’s health and the factors we have to deal with, trying to brush it under the rug to not risk scaring other people is so harsh. I’m sorry you had to go through all that, any one of those events is hard enough to deal with on its own (and sometimes even just a toddler is hard enough to handle on your own!) let alone all of that at once. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy and unpacking in your new home ❤
Hi Sam, good to see you again! We’ve all missed you. I am so sorry for the entire last 8 months - seems incredibly painful and stressful. Your new doctor sounds wonderful, and I hope the island house is giving you all the joy! Also glad to see some your plants survived the trip :)
I know so many people have, but I've been here since the very very beginning, and just like an old friend, it's so amazing to see you here and to hear from you. I'm sending you all my love Sam. You're an incredible human
Thank you for being so open with us. These are painful, scary moments and all is see is your beauty and bravery shining through. Be well. You're doing great, mom.
As someone with ADHD, I have completely lost my taste for long form content over the years, but I'll honestly sit and watch through whenever you upload. Thanks for sharing your life with us. As a Canadian (living in Toronto), I've also been wanting to move for the longest time. There are so many beautiful places in this country I haven't visited. I would love to be able to buy a house someday and living on an island sounds so lovely.
Sending light, positivity, support, and love from Southern Ontario to you out West! You are incredibly strong, Sam, but I'm so, so sorry you have had to ensure so much stress with so many things as you are pregnant with your second child. Thrilled you found the right doctor for you. Love, and hugs, Beautiful, Sherrey P.S. Your skin looks so much better! I'm so happy for you!
I love that you put stuff that happens to women in real life he might not happen to everyone, but occasionally it will happen to a few and I like that you were honest about it. You look great. I’m so happy that you are having another baby and that you and Matt are still together and you will continue to be together.
You’re such an awesome human. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing even though some people suck. Sending you so much love and an easier few months ahead ❤
Basically, I feel emotionally exhausted just from hearing this life update (which I already knew some of because I happened to catch your live on IG, but still it feels like so much). I'm just glad that you are figuring things out for yourself, that the family is all good and that everyone is safe and healthy. Big part of me wants an update on the plant move because that, by itself, must have been a lot! Wishing you all the best!
Sorry to hear about all of the challenges you've been facing. So so happy to hear that you're okay and working your way through it. Love you and hoping only good stuff comes your way in the near future!
Sam, the way you are able to be so honest and vulnerable about the hardships you face is so inspiring to see. Thank you for sharing real life, your honesty makes such an impact and I'm sure makes so many people feel less alone. Wishing you and your fam all the best❤
With my first child, I developed a subchorionic hematoma and went on to have a very normal pregnancy, delivered my daughter a week late, super healthy. Hope that helps with pregnancy anxiety ❤️
I stopped watching all beauty videos years ago but anytime i see one from you i stop to watch. I'm so sorry you've been going through so much and I'm sending good vibes your way. ❤
Truly cannot believe you moved and accomplished all you did while pregnant and with a toddler.. You are amazing! I hope your pregnancy and birth go as well as they can for you and your fam ❤️
Its always nice to sit down with our girl Sam and feel like we are with our bestie that we can just rant and talk about anything with 💖 we love you Sam.
I know you turned your comments off on the newest video but I had to come here to say that I love and appreciate you two being so vulnerable and sharing your struggles ❤. You have a beautiful heart and I wish you two the very best.
I so relate to being with someone who’s in drug recovery. My boyfriend of 6 years relapsed in February this year. Got pulled over and had a controlled substance on him, got arrested for a felony charge. I bailed him out and we’ve been waiting to get a court order to *hopefully* go to drug court so he won’t go to jail. Was told it could take over a year to hear about a court date. So every single day I check the mail with my heart in my stomach. How do you make life plans such as marriage and children with someone who is a drug addict and may end up in jail? It’s so stressful. Ugh. I’m so happy y’all worked it out and wishing you both the best. ❤
RE: how do live with stress of the ramifications of addiction? I found tools and support for living this in Al-Anon. Al-Anon is for friends and family affected by another's addiction (not just alcohol.) While I felt like I was losing my mind trying to handle, control, survive, my mind found peace for an hour and a half the first time in years in my first meeting. It's a spiritual program , not religious, where no one tells you what to do or have to do. Best to you.
The universe really went and discontinued your peace
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SCREAMING LMAO
Thank goodness it seems like it’s all back in line for the peace train!
I canttttt 🤣🤣🤣
what a great way to put it. i feel you so heavy samantha, as i've been struggling with something so similar since may. too much stress, too many things to cope with. thinking of you and family.
Sam your vulnerability honesty & humor has been so admirable since I started watching this channel.
AMEN 🙏
I couldn't possibly agree more!!! 💜
Thank you for sticking around!!
@samantharavndahl We aren’t going anywhere sweetheart, we Love You! 😘 🫂🙏💜❤️
@@samantharavndahl you’re an inspirational content creator because you speak from your soul. There’s less and less of that around every year it seems.
The way I will watch and support this woman even if she uploads once a year.
Freaking love you Sam.
Sameeee 😩
Ditto…love this lady! ❤
SAME.
Oh my god my heart literally shatters picturing you alone in your house with your child, thinking you and Matt are over forever, knowing you’re pregnant, you’re bleeding, and you don’t know why. I can’t even imagine how painful and traumatic that had to be both physically and emotionally.
My brother committed suicide, my mom died from Covid, and my bf of 10+ years dumped me out of the blue, all within the span of 18 months. The universe really just has jokes sometimes. It doesn’t even feel like a ✨test✨ sometimes, it just feels like a mean joke. But it keeps moving and inevitably gets easier. Keep your gorgeous, hardworking, resilient, brilliant chin up, because you are valid and magical and I’m so glad you’ve posted again. Even when it feels like it’s all too much, just remember that you’re moving through it.
So sorry for your losses. I hope you're taking some time but also keeping your own resilient chin up ❤
Sending you a hug. You’ve got this. You are a badass!
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This is the true definition of a kind person. Being positive and spreading kindness even though you went through so much recently. Girl, I hope you are doing okay. Trust me, you will see sunshine soon. I am so sorry for your losses. You deserve the world and I hope you will get all the happiness that you deserve ❤❤
That so much in a short amount of time. I hope things lighten up though it’s not something you get over but learn to live with. You’re resilient and strong for still being here.
I wish Matt all the luck in remaining sober. The struggle is definitely real.
I’ve been here since batalash days and just want to say thank you for being open and vulnerable. You didn’t have to share anything with us but I hope you both find some comfort in the supportive comments and a safe remainder of pregnancy and delivery. It’s nice to see the flood of comments in support after a hiatus. I can’t believe the amount of work it’s had to take for you both to get into a positive position to share this information. Much love 🤍
Thank you for continuing to pop in after all these years, as well as for the words of kindness 💛
❤ sssamantha 🐍
Oh Sam, you are my OG beauty guru, you truly taught me everything I know about makeup artistry. You have come so far with grace, amazing humor and transparency. As a doctor, it always breaks my heart when patients cant get the adequate help, so I am so happy you find an amazing doctor who is helping. And about procedures complications, I really dislike when people want to gloss over then like is nothing. No, every single medical procedure, no matter how mild and none invasive, can have potential complications. I just want to say I love you, you always had been such a unique, cool, authentic, loving, passionate woman. I am wishing you the very best, makes me happy everything is getting better after such a difficult time in your life. We truly have to take the bad with the good, dont we? 😂 sending a thousand hugs to your whole family 🌻
As someone with disabilities having a doctor that takes charge is GOLD. I’m so happy the universe sent her to you and you got answers.
Ugh if that ain’t the truth 💛
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Agreed!!
I completely feel this, not from a disability point of view but I was having sever health issues, tried to advocate for myself, a million doctors later no one was listening, then I found THAT doctor! Turned out it was cancer 🤪 I’m totally fine now but without having a doctor taking me seriously, I might not be!!
Wow, I don’t think I’ve heard anyone be that open about an almost-divorce. Thank you for sharing. 😘
It’s just so good to see you again Sam.
Edited to add, so glad everything is okay and I’m so proud of you and Matt. So much to overcome in such a short time. Appreciate you and your honesty, and Matt too for being willing to share that.
We’re rooting for you!!
This, exactly^^ 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
So good to see and hear you again. Wishing you and your family all the best. ❤
Also, if you feel so inclined, I would love to know what your foundation mix was. I deal with similar skin issues, and the way it looked on you was perfect. 😊
Thank you so much for the kind words!
Personally I believe it’s really important for women to talk about their experiences and feelings, it’s definitely not fear mongering ! If we don’t talk, then how are we supposed to learn or support each other? We shouldn’t feel like we have to hide our experiences as there’s no benefit to doing that, it’s not something that should be hidden, or ashamed of, and by discussing it is nothing more than supportive. ❤
Exactly!
There’s not a single other person whose videos I click on this fast. Your skin is looking great Sam! Hope the rest of the pregnancy is kind to you.
This video has unbelievable value, I cannot describe the difficulty and importance of the work you do for others. I wish you so much love Sam
Your honesty is such a breath of fresh air. Same for Kristi. Genuine, raw & relatable. Life isn’t perfect x
I don't watch makeup videos as much anymore but I will always watch Sam and Kristi because I just think they're so wonderful
@@syd5380 SAME
I just want to share that the last time you spoke about your (cervix) health, I was going through the exact same thing at the time and it brought me comfort to know I wasn’t alone.
Fast forward to now - I am 23 weeks pregnant with a short cervix and a placenta that is low lying/covering my cervix opening. I bled for weeks at the beginning of my pregnancy as you did (although did not know I was pregnant because of it - thank god) and again, this video has made me feel less isolated and alone.
I want to thank you for your transparency and vulnerability. Although these are all stressful situations that I wouldn’t wish on anyone, I am grateful for your truth as I feel less alone. Those around me can’t relate to the stress, anxiety or toll these things create which has led to so much internalizing.
Sending you so much love and crossing my fingers that you and baby make it as close to your due date as possible 💕
I’ve never clicked so fast. WE MISSED YOU SAMANTHA!!!!!
Literally same!
OMG YES WE MISSED YOU😭😭😭😭
SAME!!!!
Same dude 😭
Same 💗
Sam, you're truly making a difference for everyone watching and realizing they aren't alone. Thank you.
I feel Sam was the blue print for giving "facetiming with your bestie" style video. Missed these!
Pregnancy is fucked and no one wants to talk about it. It's not fearmongering, it's reality. Pregnancy messes up your body sometimes and it's not always all roses.
ANYWAY, rooting for you and happy to see you seem to be doing well. Much love ❤
But then women who say they don't want kids get attacked online for being "selfish".
@@izzyj4092 Meh they can say it until they're blue in the face. Yes, I'm selfish and I like my time, peace, health, body and money and I will not share it. Same as it is selfish to bring new life onto Earth with the current dumpster fire - climate crisis first of all.
it's completely fucked! agree!!!
I totally agree. I love having children, and hare pregnancy. I wish I could adopt but that would be way harder for me.
@@Kristina-ek8yttell me your effectively brainwashed without telling me your brainwashed 😅😂
I really admire the fact that you don't paint pregnancy and motherhood as all rainbows and unicorns. People need to know these very real risks and the fact that you're sharing your PRIVATE and PERSONAL health is a huge contribution socially. You should never feel ashamed for consensually sharing your experience and feelings with us and those people accusing you of fear-mongering are the problem. Thank you, Sam. Keep doing you. 🤍
My ex husband (my daughter's father) is an addict. It is so freakin stressful to be married to someone in active addiction. And I got pregnant too at a bad time. But that was 15 years ago and life is really good now. I'm not married to that guy anymore, but my daughter and I are great. You guys will be great too!
I’m an opiate addict in recovery & just wanted to say that I commend you for sticking by Matt. I know how hard it is, how painful it is. Proud of you. Also proud for Matt to have a supportive partner 🤍
Ditto ❤
While I can’t relate to the pregnancy I can to Matt relapsing. My husband relapsed in 2019 and just celebrated 4 years sober!
Huge accomplishment, congrats to your husband and you for supporting him and yourself through it!
I usually don’t comment but you speaking about the leep procedure is actually a shock to me. I must’ve missed that video as well as the doctor who did mine never shared these complications. It’s like you told me things the own medical professionals didn’t share. This whole medical industrial complex is super frustrating.
Im so sorry to hear about all of the difficulties and complications you shared. I pray things will move forward positively.
Your humour about difficult times in your life is so refreshing to watch. I feel so down so much of the time and the anxiety is crippling. Watching this video helped me today Sam. Thank you for that…from a fellow Canadian!! 🥰
Having babies is the hardest thing a human can do. Emotionally and physically - it’s changed everything about myself and my being. Worth it every step of the way but so hard. I wish you happiness and peace ❤ so glad to see an update from you.
I’ve always admired your ability to be so transparent and vulnerable. You have such a gentle aura that I can’t ever quite describe. Thank you for always sharing your life with us! Missed your content 🫶🏼🤎
Medical gaslighting - I just came home from a doctor's appt. where I was complaining and crying about having to advocate for myself. And then here you are. Like a sister. Thank you.
This is the worst. I feel for you. Been there as well, hope things get better ❤
sending you love, friend. I had a doctor ask me if I thought I had a TROPICAL ILLNESS when I was crying in pain in front of her (endometriosis, surprise!). I'm also from a very cold northern non tropical location. I would have to trival very far to get a "tropical illness," :))))))
I'm so sorry you've had to deal with all of this. You're one of my favourite humans and I truly appreciate your vulnerability in sharing your story. I'm sending you so much love 🥰 We missed you!
Thank you for the lovely comment!
Having skin issues, especially on ones face can cause so much anxiety and takes such a toll on ones self esteem. I'm so happy you were able to find some relief for your skin. ❤
I’m only 2 seconds in but just wanted to say I missed your voice keeping me company during my day! (but completely understand the absence at the same time)
love how your eyes look without makeup, their shape is amazing honestly!
Sam!!! We've missed you. What a whirlwind of several months for you, I am so glad your pregnancy is okay and you found that Doctor that sounds amazing. The travel size glow lust is absolutely presh
I’ve missed your videos!!!
sam you've got this. keep moving forward ♥ happy to see you back and happy
My skin looked like the pictures you posted for a couple of years, sans pregnancy. You were one of the first RUclipsrs to let me see I could still enjoy beautiful makeup and look beyond it.
I use curology now and my skin eventually did chill out, but I’ll always be grateful to you for that.
Hi Sam,
I’m a labor nurse. I know you said you don’t have easy access to emergency care based on your home location. It may be something you and your midwife discuss as you are getting closer to term. Cervical dilation can happen so quickly with a shortened cervix and a preterm pregnancy, and since baby isn’t as large and the cervix has already thinned so much, delivery tends to happen rapidly once it starts. Babies born prior to 34-35 weeks without additional steroids to assist lung development especially can have difficulty breathing on their own and will often need significant respiratory support once born. Maybe there’s a temporary housing situation closer to your medical needs as time goes on. I hope you find a solution that works for your needs. I wish you all the best and hope your little one is able stay in until term or close as possible.
Agreed. A few days in a close hotel wouldn’t be a bad idea. Some hotels even give deals for those using hospital services.
Does Ronald McDonald House operate in Canada? They provide housing close to hospitals, usually for family members of child patients, but they may accommodate something like this as well
That's exactly what happened to me on my youngest son. He was 5 was early and rushed to the baby unit in incubator. He had breathing difficulties and a touch of jaundice. I had no complications during pregnancy no signs at all. It was so scary
Former long-time NICU nurse seconding this
You were exactly right
We love you sam. Hang in there. Signed, 29 weeks pregnant and over it
I’m a former L&D RN. One thing I’ve seen often w patients that have had a leep procedure or anything surgical to the cervix is it creates scar like tissue on your cervix. I’ve had a lot of patients come in for labor and their cervix will barely dialate when they’re in active labor so say your 1-2 cm but you’re at a 10 pain wise so you’re like wtf why am I not dialating for a long time but then the scar tissue releases and then they’ll be like 8-9 cm very fast. Hope that doesn’t scare you or happen to you but just wanted to give u a heads up bc you could end up having the baby super fast and now u live on an island. Ask your midwife abt it. She’ll understand. So happy to see you n congratulations again ❤
Not to be a creep, but…I was thinking about you lately! I’m glad to hear things are moving in the right direction for you. Can’t wait to hear more!! xoxo
As an avid follower of yours since pre-Batalash times, I'm always so stoked to see a new upload from you - it's truly been a pleasure having your wisdom and humor as a guiding light through the years and I'm so happy to hear your season of stress has more or less wrapped up. Wishing you all the very best for the rest of your pregnancy, cannot wait to hear updates
So happy your back Sam and thank you for being vulnerable. Wishing you and your family the best. How is Alyssa?? She hasn’t posted forever on Instagram hope she’s doing okay
I wonder about Alyssa all the time. I hope she’s okay too 🖤
As someone who moved to an island only accessible by ferry and was pregnant and was entirely sure I was going to be a ferry birth statistic...so so glad I had to be induced. I cannot explain how much I did not want my husband to try and deliver my baby in the car on a boat out in the middle of the water. Good luck, amigo, may the odds be also in your favor!
Omg, that's worse than an elevator baby or a car delivery baby on the side of the road or stuck in traffic. So happy you didn't have to deal with that!
Not to be too cheesy, but it was such a pleasure seeing your face and spending 30 minutes with you! I hope the rest of your pregnancy goes by smoothly and the ferry is waiting for you in September! ❤❤
Of course with Matt’s permission I would really like to hear how you moved past his relapse - I am in that right now and “separated” but I don’t know how to forgive and move on congrats on the pregnancy ❤
23 year relationship ended because of his drug use and alcoholism. It is heartbreaking to see him now and how he's changed. I hate feeling helpless but I've got to move forward.
Marriage is hard!!!!! Every couple has been "almost divorced" at one point if they have been together a while. I like when people are honest about it.
True story. 16 yrs married. 2 almost divorced. Now happy and healthy. You just figure it out ❤
Yup. My separation lasted for 2 weeks. Marriage is HARD...even with a great partner.
@@eb5511 facts... having a great partner does not absolve you from this challenge!
@@lar8200love that and I appreciate your honesty. Glad you guys are still in a place to work at it. ❤
Definitely. Our 20th wedding anniversary will be next August, and I'd say in the first 6-7 years were our roughest times. Over time we both grew and matured together, and life eventually just mellowed out as we figured out how to be better partners. We "split" super briefly 2 or 3 times in those early years 😂
Sam, marriage is hard, especially when your significant other is battling depression and addiction. My husband and I have had our moments as well, but those moments have made us stronger. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. I truly admire you, your strength, and compassion. ❤️
Wow your skin is improving amazingly! I'm so sorry you've had such a rough time. Sending positive vibes!
You are the only RUclipsr I remember that exists when you don’t post. I’ve really been wondering how you’ve been doing. Thank you for sharing all these updates! I respect your vulnerability and honesty with us! Wishing you well on this 2nd pregnancy. ❤M
I am currently 9 weeks pregnant and I had the exact same thing (subchorionic hematoma) at 6 weeks. It was(is) very scary, but I am so glad you've had a healthy pregnancy!
sam is genuinely the realest ever
I’m so sorry Sam. That’s a lot to deal with. I admire your strength. Enjoy your new home. ❤️❤️
Sam. I’m so glad you’re talking about this. I also had the procedure and gained an “incompetent cervix”, beautiful name btw. During my pregnancy, I had to have a procedure(cervical cerclage) to stop preterm labor. Surprise!!! My son still came 2 months early. Such a scary pregnancy. I’m here to report he’s a healthy, happy, active 8y/o.
That's so scary...! 🥺 What happens if the labors starts early and ypu've had that procedure???
That's SO stressful. I'm glad he is healthy now, and I hope you are well, too.
@@lollsazz once you have the procedure, they monitor you closely, constantly checking if you dilate. I had a “slow leak” and my gyno told me to head to the hospital.
When I was pregnant with my second son, I was initially pregnant with twins unbeknownst to me. I had bled, but thought it was my cycle. However, I also had started to throw up my toenails multiple times per day, but I was also gaining weight which was weird to me. I’d been told after my first son was born that I wouldn’t be able to get pregnant again so I really thought I had the weirdest virus ever lol. Long story short, I went to the dr who told me “I had a virus with a heartbeat”. So I found out in the same day that I was pregnant after being told I couldn’t get pregnant again and it had been six years since my first pregnancy, had been pregnant with fraternal twins (meaning two separate sacs), and what I thought was my cycle was actually a miscarriage. My cervix was dilating bc it was incompetent due to the same surgery that Sam referenced in this video, and they had to also perform a cervical cerclage. I was also put on pelvic rest which meant no sex or lifting anything heavy for the rest of my pregnancy. My son came a month early, and stopped breathing as he came out, but he was healthy in the end after they got him breathing again. He’s now about to turn 18, and one of my greatest gifts, but I can relate to that pregnancy being so scary! Glad u had a good outcome as well!
@@loricawley54 PLEASE explain how you were throwing up TOENAILS???
I love how candid you are. Also, 4 babies and 4 different experiences…all of them with the anxiety!! Pregnancy and any complications is something we CANNOT control ❤ enjoy the moments that you can. God bless, peace and love ❤️
WELCOME BACK SAM!! We've missed you. We love you. And I hope you're doing well. Sending you ALL the love and happiness in this world!!! ♡ ♡ ♡
I can’t imagine going through all of that while being pregnant let alone with such scary complications. I’m so glad you’re doing better and I am excited for your new little bean 😊
Jesus Sam what an update😮 my heart was feeling it for you and the baby. Your such a warrior! Unbelievable what had transpired and how the ER treated you. Sending many prayers for a smooth time during this pregnancy. Xoxo
I am so unbelievably proud of you.
Life quite literally shat and vomitted all over you while stabbing you in the back and you are still here, you fought through it all and are still fighting.
You really are an inspiration and i am just so proud of you and happy for you
Sam, I am wishing you rest, recovery, and joy for the remainder of your year
I'm so glad that you stepped away for as long as you needed to deal with the absolute tomfoolery that your life decided to get up to but I'm also really glad to see your face again. Thank you for the update and for gracing us with our presence once again!!
So glad to know you’ve found medical care that gives you peace given the circumstances. We missed you! 🩵🫶🏻
Ugh thank you for being so candid about how you felt your relationship just… wasn’t working. My husband and I have been together 16 years, and right now we are just so disconnected to me. Some life events really shifted things and I so hope we can get back to baseline and back to “us”.
Hi!! I’m sorry you are going through that, it is one of the worst feelings ever. There’s a book by the Gottmans called The Love Prescription that you might find helpful. I got it on audio book and just listened in quick bites, but I felt like it was such a great reminder of those small, day to day things that make relationships work. Sometimes the problem can feel so much bigger than anything you can reasonably tackle, but it really is the small stuff that matters oftentimes.
Omg, what a difference! So glad you reached out and she has helped.
It's very difficult to be this open and honest (because the internet is garbage a lot of the time), but I appreciate how straight forward and honest you are in these videos. I'm glad to hear that everyone is doing better and better, proud of you and Matt. Please do let him know that there is only support here, and it's a safe space. Through all the hardship the universe decided you would be rewarded with a competent doctor; that's amazing!! 😊🙏💜 Wow you are hardcore doing all of that house stuff within 2 months, and moving to an island with no hospital. It's so lovely to be able to see you smile and make jokes after all of that.
I love the rawness of this video and honesty. You dont have to let us in but do anyway and appreciate it. Happy to see youe pregnancy is doing well and you and Matt are okay now. Relationships can be hard work sometimes. Hope to see you again soon ❤
Hey Sam! May I just say I love your videos and your personality? I’ve watched you for a long time and your authenticity just breathed through. It’s relatable and real, and this makes you so appealing, I think, to us. I am a middle aged black woman who gets you ❤😂😊!
Continue living. Being all you. Showing up in this space as you do. Creating content that is transparent and real, as you wish. And then when you don’t want to anymore, or you want to pull back some, do that…. It’ll be okay. ❤
Much respect to you. Happiest pregnancy. Good luck with hubby and family. 🙏🏽✌🏽
Your skin seems much less painful, I am so happy that you were able to find relief. It sounds as if you and your family have been through it. I wish you all health and happiness. 🖤
Hi Sam! If you see this, know that most of us are just thrilled to see you here, that you and baby and child and Matt are all doing well. I have beloved family members and friends who struggle with addiction and relapse. Really proud of Matt and of you, this was not easy. (Oh, throw in a move to an island, Covid, and a tricky pregnancy.) I don’t see how anyone could be negative or downplay your concerns, but I guess you never know. sending love and peace! ❤
I’ve never clicked a video so fast. Sam! You’re still swimming!
I’m so sorry you’ve had a rough go of it, and I can only imagine the amount of stress you’ve been under. Continue to prioritize your rest and needs, we’ll miss you but Chile who cares about THAT. Sending you hopes for an easeful pregnancy and that you and Matt move through this rough patch and make it to the sun on the other side. 💕
I used to live in Canada and ahh your story makes me so sad, I had so many issues in the system too as a Type 1 Diabetic, I am so happy now to be back living in the states especially while pregnant. Everything you went through is so heart breaking to hear
Wow our stories are so similar. My husband is also struggling and I am pregnant (35 weeks) and had a big SCH and low lying placenta (it moved) and bleed until 20 weeks. All the stress of dealing with his addiction really didn’t help. we separated for a couple weeks too . Thank you for sharing
I think it is fantastic you speak on women issues and life as a whole for other women to learn from but also prevent health issues, understand health issues that they themselves could possibly be going through, how advocating for oneself is so important, how important finding a dr you are comfortable with… the list goes on and on for how beneficial your videos are. Of anyone online, where the majority of your viewers are female, you have provided the best real life content of being female, wife, mother, employee, consumer, recipient of healthcare, person who has very sensitive skin that ties back to your health, etc. I see nothing negative at all with how open you get sometimes about very significant issues people face, yourself being one. I am kinda blown away anyone would have any negative feelings towards your videos like this because of how helpful they always are. Ya know, people always have the choice to NOT watch if they can’t handle real life🙄
I have rosacea and I don’t think people realise how painful the flares can be. Your skin constantly burns and you can’t cool down, it’s like having really bad sunburn or standing outside in the summer with no shade. Really feel for you Sam, hope you find something that works for you
And then people constantly commenting “you’re so red!” 😭
Or when they ask why are you red?
I’ve been watching you for years, maybe around 7yrs, I can’t remember. And your honesty and transparency that you show is beautiful. I love that you’re normal compared to all these influencers. Thank you so much for sharing your life on the internet 💜
As an AFAB person with a huge fear of pregnancy but also a strong desire to become a parent one day, your videos are invaluable to me learning about pregnancy. Being able to learn about it makes it all seem less scary everytime you share your experience, just because i feel like...knowing what *could* go wrong means no surprises i guess. Your vulnerability is truly something I admire.
I appreciate you being so vulnerable with your audience. Especially with your experience being minimized at the hospital. It’s important for women to hear this so they can advocate for themselves. Thank you for your openness and for using your platform in such a way.
Loved that doc for the ultrasounds!! Like being in the medical field it’s just so dang good when you find someone who truly cares & wants to do everything right! Sticking with 1 person only!! Love that for you!
I wanted to comment to Matt on the newest video but since comments were turned off, I’ll come here. I was told by my therapist earlier this year that I had avoidant attachment style and it felt like a personal attack on me and that the problems of the relationship fell on my shoulders alone. It felt embarrassing and I was just being defensive and not willing to admit that what she was telling me made sense. So much so that I stopped going to that therapist. Hearing the latest video really made me better understand that I can better understand it and work through my impulses when I hit rough spots in my relationship. I’m going to pick up that book! In the moment it does feel like breaking up is the “best” thing for both people (even if it’s a small disagreement), but it’s just being afraid of being hurt by someone else. But honestly thank you both for opening up about it.
I was so thankful for your leep video at the time, I’m sorry people were horrible to you about it. I appreciate honesty about women’s health and the factors we have to deal with, trying to brush it under the rug to not risk scaring other people is so harsh. I’m sorry you had to go through all that, any one of those events is hard enough to deal with on its own (and sometimes even just a toddler is hard enough to handle on your own!) let alone all of that at once. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy and unpacking in your new home ❤
Hi Sam, good to see you again! We’ve all missed you. I am so sorry for the entire last 8 months - seems incredibly painful and stressful. Your new doctor sounds wonderful, and I hope the island house is giving you all the joy! Also glad to see some your plants survived the trip :)
I know so many people have, but I've been here since the very very beginning, and just like an old friend, it's so amazing to see you here and to hear from you. I'm sending you all my love Sam. You're an incredible human
Thank you for being so open with us. These are painful, scary moments and all is see is your beauty and bravery shining through. Be well. You're doing great, mom.
completely loved everything about this video, AND couldn’t help but notice the compact?? i’m obsessed?? new auric tester??
Sam is soo real and relatable. I’ll forever ride with her. I’m sorry you had to go thru this😭🥺 we love you Sam
As someone with ADHD, I have completely lost my taste for long form content over the years, but I'll honestly sit and watch through whenever you upload. Thanks for sharing your life with us.
As a Canadian (living in Toronto), I've also been wanting to move for the longest time. There are so many beautiful places in this country I haven't visited. I would love to be able to buy a house someday and living on an island sounds so lovely.
Sending light, positivity, support, and love from Southern Ontario to you out West! You are incredibly strong, Sam, but I'm so, so sorry you have had to ensure so much stress with so many things as you are pregnant with your second child. Thrilled you found the right doctor for you. Love, and hugs, Beautiful, Sherrey P.S. Your skin looks so much better! I'm so happy for you!
I love that you put stuff that happens to women in real life he might not happen to everyone, but occasionally it will happen to a few and I like that you were honest about it. You look great. I’m so happy that you are having another baby and that you and Matt are still together and you will continue to be together.
Huge respect for being so real in a world where everyone really isn’t ❤❤❤
You’re such an awesome human. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing even though some people suck. Sending you so much love and an easier few months ahead ❤
Basically, I feel emotionally exhausted just from hearing this life update (which I already knew some of because I happened to catch your live on IG, but still it feels like so much). I'm just glad that you are figuring things out for yourself, that the family is all good and that everyone is safe and healthy. Big part of me wants an update on the plant move because that, by itself, must have been a lot!
Wishing you all the best!
I watched this video, then immediately watched it a second time thru.❤
Sorry to hear about all of the challenges you've been facing. So so happy to hear that you're okay and working your way through it. Love you and hoping only good stuff comes your way in the near future!
Sam, the way you are able to be so honest and vulnerable about the hardships you face is so inspiring to see. Thank you for sharing real life, your honesty makes such an impact and I'm sure makes so many people feel less alone. Wishing you and your fam all the best❤
With my first child, I developed a subchorionic hematoma and went on to have a very normal pregnancy, delivered my daughter a week late, super healthy. Hope that helps with pregnancy anxiety ❤️
I stopped watching all beauty videos years ago but anytime i see one from you i stop to watch. I'm so sorry you've been going through so much and I'm sending good vibes your way. ❤
Truly cannot believe you moved and accomplished all you did while pregnant and with a toddler.. You are amazing! I hope your pregnancy and birth go as well as they can for you and your fam ❤️
I was literally thinking about you a few weeks ago, specifically about your kid/s, relationship with Matt and your skin. I feel you girl
Its always nice to sit down with our girl Sam and feel like we are with our bestie that we can just rant and talk about anything with 💖 we love you Sam.
I know you turned your comments off on the newest video but I had to come here to say that I love and appreciate you two being so vulnerable and sharing your struggles ❤. You have a beautiful heart and I wish you two the very best.
Sending you all the love and light!❤
I so relate to being with someone who’s in drug recovery. My boyfriend of 6 years relapsed in February this year. Got pulled over and had a controlled substance on him, got arrested for a felony charge. I bailed him out and we’ve been waiting to get a court order to *hopefully* go to drug court so he won’t go to jail. Was told it could take over a year to hear about a court date. So every single day I check the mail with my heart in my stomach. How do you make life plans such as marriage and children with someone who is a drug addict and may end up in jail? It’s so stressful. Ugh. I’m so happy y’all worked it out and wishing you both the best. ❤
RE: how do live with stress of the ramifications of addiction? I found tools and support for living this in Al-Anon. Al-Anon is for friends and family affected by another's addiction (not just alcohol.) While I felt like I was losing my mind trying to handle, control, survive, my mind found peace for an hour and a half the first time in years in my first meeting. It's a spiritual program , not religious, where no one tells you what to do or have to do. Best to you.
Sending you big hugs ❤
sending you love and kindness 🩷