How I have been feeling with AIS

Need to apologies for my swearing, and the way how i keep saying like etc.......when i get nervous i say like and um alot...
This is just kind of a rant in a way, just how I feel about somethings with my condition, things that i struggle to talk to people about, things I am too scared to say, but for some reason I can say it on camera for how ever many people watch this video, which is kind of scary!
But its about how to tell others and stuff, I know this probably hasn't helped anyone at all, but i just needed to say it all and get it all out!
Don't give me lots of hate comments as what is the point? Seriously?