To anyone currently fighting their demons out there, I know the battle. I fought with my demon since 15 after an accident and was prescribed opiates. It took me to a dark, lonely, and depressing place. I know the struggle and how hard it is on the ones you love, You're not alone. It took me 8 years to get that demon out of my soul and back to the ones I love. I still fight everyday so it doesn't return. We can do it. Believe in yourself and accept help from the ones you love. I promise its better to have people that care than be alone in a room with only a needle by your side..
Yours was written 3 years ago, but I feel it today. I've had that demon on my back for over 12 years now. It's agonizing, slow-burning, daily hope to not go through those wd's. I am trying to break free on my own. It's dumb not to lean on anyone, but everyone in my life would just use it for ammo and I don't want to be that guy. Never stolen or done anything low key for it. Only ever spent my own money on it, but now I found the love of my life. We've been together over 3 years and she thinks I kicked it. Not completely. Still a daily dusting to keep the demons at bay. They can be very persuasive. I know I can lean on my fiance, but the thought of disappointing her figuratively burns cigarette holes in my heart. I want nothing more than to be the man she needs me to be, but I'm at like 40% on a good day and she deserves me at my very best because I don't deserve her at all. So, all who see this, lean on at least one trustworthy person. Don't be like me or you're gonna have a bad time. That person will not let you down. If you need help, be strong by being vulnerable.
Bro u want to make the right choice now and not make my mistake continuing the lie and losing her. TELL her RIGHT after this being read from one addict to another who lost everything. Literally. You can still fix this rn cause you admitting it now and not hiding it even IF you keep struggling to get off it and keep using for another 2 fukl dark red-blooded painted years from now cause shits not simple as stop and be fixed. You will have a chance at saving yr once in a life time gift that honestly if you choose to ignore my advice rn and do what I did. You will lose her and honestly she deserves better anyways if that's the way it goes, right? Want to give her yr 100 percent starting today Instead of just 40 percent? Tell her right fucking now man.
A little longer than 2 years clean.. thank you for reminding me of the pain jimmy eat world! If you're struggling get honest and get help. "For the still sick and suffering" we're waiting for you.
@@Elfeckin you let them be. They aren't ready to change. Tell them to get help. And pray for them. You can't force somebody to stop using. They have to come to the realization themselves.
I shared this song with my nephew when he was finishing up rehab. He was clean for 16 years, got a degree, got married, bought a house, had a baby. The marriage fell apart, but he had a new girlfriend and seemed happy and I had no idea he was struggling. He just got out of rehab last Monday He was found dead of an overdose on Saturday. He was a wonderful human being, loved by many and will be sorely missed.
We all just have a hard time with our hurt… somewhere along the way, we never learned how to properly deal with our hurt and feelings, so we find a quiet way away from everyone to numb ourselves so we don’t have to carry our overwhelming pain… We don’t want to cause hurt to anyone, but end up causing everyone and ourselves a lot of hurt… And most the time are oblivious to it… Watch the people around you who are always laughing and joking, these people are the ones who are ALWAYS hurting the most inside… It’s a coping mechanism, we don’t know any other way than with forcing a laugh or smile or numbing ourselves when we are alone…. A lot of us sometimes end up trying to hard to escape that hurt and end up freeing ourselves of it unintentionally… Sorry for your loss, I’m sure your nephew didn’t mean to bring sadness to you and everyone who cared about him.
I know that this song is probably dedicated to someone who is addicted to actual drugs. But when I was going through a dark period in my life, this song struck hard and saved my heart. I believe this song portrays drugs in numerous ways. Anything or anyone you become addicted to can easily become your drug. That's what it represented to me.
To my step dad who gave me so much love... And now, he isn't here with me anymore. If he ever sees this, I just want him to know how much I loved him.. Thank you for making me so happy, even if it was for a short time. Thank you for being a father figure I never had, loving me unconditionally. And I hope, for your sake and everyone's, you find yourself and realize you were amazing... Without the drugs. I love you,... dad.
To my love. I wouldn't trade the time we've been together for anything. I know you chose them over me I just want you to know, even if we don't end up back together in the end I still love you unconditionally and I know you're strong enough to get through this. I feel like there is nothing I can do to help you because you can't save someone who isn't ready to be saved. Even with you're dark sunken in face and emotionless eyes you are still the most perfect thing I have ever seen in my life and whether you like it or not you always will be. I love you so much. I don't think you'll see this but if you do I just want you to know I have faith in you...
Going through a similar situation with my husband - Meth ... I was in denial for a while, but it's truly true you cannot save anyone not wanting to be free :( Hope you're hanging in there - It's only been 4 weeks of torture for me, but I'm hoping for a turn around.
My husband is in prison for the second time because of meth. Ive dabbled in every thing but the addiction is something I dont get. It so heart breaking. Its like its possesses them. I Will forever love my husband but he's chose dope every time. Everyone in my life around me really has..... He's been gone this time for a year and he gets out January 3rd. And I'm so scared. I wanna believe in his sobriety i wanna believe that he can overcome this horrible disease. But I know I cant compete with the drug.... I just hope his life and future means something to him..... If he fucks up again he will be gine for a long time. And i don't think I can live with that. He is my everything. He's all i got. Im so sick of dope being the mistress.....
To you baby, I love you... You'll always have me. Theres still time to get rid of your demons, i know your strong. And ill always be here for you. For better or worse.
The love of my life died from a heart attack due to a heart condition from using drugs... And I listen to this song constantly ... I miss him so much :'( May 6th 2016 Rest in Peace baby
my ex husband has chose drugs and not stopping and I have to be the parent to protect our sons because they don't need to be around someone like that. it hurts my kids, but I have to do what is right.
You made the right choice. It's easier to try help someone through their struggled when it's just the two of you, but when kids are involved they have to be the priority.
For the person who has hurt me in a way I cannot yet describe. And for the other person, i hope something I have done along the way has made you proud of me.
To the father of my baby, my love, who is in jail. You'll never know what it's like on my side of the door. like i don't know what it's like on your side....
My oldest lil sister made me listen to this song in the heat of my addictions... I never cried so hard before that... Sad too say that it didn't stop me from drugging 😟😟😟😟
Brooke Andrus Thank you so very much, it has been a really hard road the past 51/2 years, she is the youngest of 6 and I informed sheriffs where she was as she had another warrant for not reporting to her PO 6 days ago. My heart is so broken, so nice of you to reach out.........
Praying for you both. Dealing with the same thing with my fiancé. There has to be an answer somewhere. Somehow. She will get better. I know it 🖤 keep your faith.
this song reminds me of my bff of 9 years who is hooked on meth he's so focused on meth and girls he never thinks about me anymore I've been by his side through thick and thin and love him so much
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To anyone currently fighting their demons out there, I know the battle. I fought with my demon since 15 after an accident and was prescribed opiates. It took me to a dark, lonely, and depressing place. I know the struggle and how hard it is on the ones you love, You're not alone. It took me 8 years to get that demon out of my soul and back to the ones I love. I still fight everyday so it doesn't return. We can do it. Believe in yourself and accept help from the ones you love. I promise its better to have people that care than be alone in a room with only a needle by your side..
Yours was written 3 years ago, but I feel it today. I've had that demon on my back for over 12 years now. It's agonizing, slow-burning, daily hope to not go through those wd's. I am trying to break free on my own. It's dumb not to lean on anyone, but everyone in my life would just use it for ammo and I don't want to be that guy. Never stolen or done anything low key for it. Only ever spent my own money on it, but now I found the love of my life. We've been together over 3 years and she thinks I kicked it. Not completely. Still a daily dusting to keep the demons at bay. They can be very persuasive. I know I can lean on my fiance, but the thought of disappointing her figuratively burns cigarette holes in my heart. I want nothing more than to be the man she needs me to be, but I'm at like 40% on a good day and she deserves me at my very best because I don't deserve her at all. So, all who see this, lean on at least one trustworthy person. Don't be like me or you're gonna have a bad time. That person will not let you down. If you need help, be strong by being vulnerable.
Bro u want to make the right choice now and not make my mistake continuing the lie and losing her.
TELL her RIGHT after this being read from one addict to another who lost everything. Literally.
You can still fix this rn cause you admitting it now and not hiding it even IF you keep struggling to get off it and keep using for another 2 fukl dark red-blooded painted years from now cause shits not simple as stop and be fixed.
You will have a chance at saving yr once in a life time gift that honestly if you choose to ignore my advice rn and do what I did. You will lose her and honestly she deserves better anyways if that's the way it goes, right?
Want to give her yr 100 percent starting today Instead of just 40 percent?
Tell her right fucking now man.
A little longer than 2 years clean.. thank you for reminding me of the pain jimmy eat world! If you're struggling get honest and get help. "For the still sick and suffering" we're waiting for you.
But what do you do when the person does not want help. And they destroy your family and won't face their mistakes but keep blaming you for everything?
@@Elfeckin you let them be. They aren't ready to change. Tell them to get help. And pray for them. You can't force somebody to stop using. They have to come to the realization themselves.
I shared this song with my nephew when he was finishing up rehab. He was clean for 16 years, got a degree, got married, bought a house, had a baby. The marriage fell apart, but he had a new girlfriend and seemed happy and I had no idea he was struggling. He just got out of rehab last Monday He was found dead of an overdose on Saturday. He was a wonderful human being, loved by many and will be sorely missed.
I'm sorry for your loss. Too many of my friends have passed from the same.
So sorry for your loss 🙏
We all just have a hard time with our hurt… somewhere along the way, we never learned how to properly deal with our hurt and feelings, so we find a quiet way away from everyone to numb ourselves so we don’t have to carry our overwhelming pain… We don’t want to cause hurt to anyone, but end up causing everyone and ourselves a lot of hurt… And most the time are oblivious to it… Watch the people around you who are always laughing and joking, these people are the ones who are ALWAYS hurting the most inside… It’s a coping mechanism, we don’t know any other way than with forcing a laugh or smile or numbing ourselves when we are alone…. A lot of us sometimes end up trying to hard to escape that hurt and end up freeing ourselves of it unintentionally… Sorry for your loss, I’m sure your nephew didn’t mean to bring sadness to you and everyone who cared about him.
I know that this song is probably dedicated to someone who is addicted to actual drugs. But when I was going through a dark period in my life, this song struck hard and saved my heart. I believe this song portrays drugs in numerous ways. Anything or anyone you become addicted to can easily become your drug. That's what it represented to me.
For my ex.... I'll always care about you. I hope one day you will choose life over drugs.
True i feel the same over my ex
To my step dad who gave me so much love... And now, he isn't here with me anymore. If he ever sees this, I just want him to know how much I loved him.. Thank you for making me so happy, even if it was for a short time. Thank you for being a father figure I never had, loving me unconditionally. And I hope, for your sake and everyone's, you find yourself and realize you were amazing... Without the drugs. I love you,... dad.
my history teacher showed me this song. I'm honestly crying with how meaningful this song is.
My big brother send this to me when I was still on drugs, I used them nearly 10 years, now I've been sober for 3 years. Edit : soon 6 yrs clean.
Congratulations!!! ❤
To my love. I wouldn't trade the time we've been together for anything. I know you chose them over me I just want you to know, even if we don't end up back together in the end I still love you unconditionally and I know you're strong enough to get through this. I feel like there is nothing I can do to help you because you can't save someone who isn't ready to be saved. Even with you're dark sunken in face and emotionless eyes you are still the most perfect thing I have ever seen in my life and whether you like it or not you always will be. I love you so much. I don't think you'll see this but if you do I just want you to know I have faith in you...
Going through a similar situation with my husband - Meth ... I was in denial for a while, but it's truly true you cannot save anyone not wanting to be free :( Hope you're hanging in there - It's only been 4 weeks of torture for me, but I'm hoping for a turn around.
My husband is in prison for the second time because of meth. Ive dabbled in every thing but the addiction is something I dont get. It so heart breaking. Its like its possesses them. I Will forever love my husband but he's chose dope every time. Everyone in my life around me really has..... He's been gone this time for a year and he gets out January 3rd. And I'm so scared. I wanna believe in his sobriety i wanna believe that he can overcome this horrible disease. But I know I cant compete with the drug.... I just hope his life and future means something to him..... If he fucks up again he will be gine for a long time. And i don't think I can live with that. He is my everything. He's all i got. Im so sick of dope being the mistress.....
to my childhood friend who lost his life to his demons today :'( fly high you sweet sweet boy
To you baby, I love you... You'll always have me. Theres still time to get rid of your demons, i know your strong. And ill always be here for you. For better or worse.
The love of my life died from a heart attack due to a heart condition from using drugs... And I listen to this song constantly ... I miss him so much :'( May 6th 2016 Rest in Peace baby
that is too sad :(
Kristen Samuelsen My grandma also passed away the same way
My wife passed away 2 weeks ago the same way
my ex husband has chose drugs and not stopping and I have to be the parent to protect our sons because they don't need to be around someone like that. it hurts my kids, but I have to do what is right.
You made the right choice. It's easier to try help someone through their struggled when it's just the two of you, but when kids are involved they have to be the priority.
2 years clean today… also remembering when this song was on my iPod shuffle. Back in 2012 when I was 12.
To my soul mate! Keep my heart somewhere that drugs don't go! 💔
For the person who has hurt me in a way I cannot yet describe. And for the other person, i hope something I have done along the way has made you proud of me.
Raise ur hand if u feel like this song continues to be underrated in 2021
Maria you're killing me to.
I love this song
Found out my bf of 10 yrs is back on meth. I can't go through this again. I had to put him out and I feel like shit.
Still listening 2023! Love ❤
i will always stand by your side. i will never falter. i will never give up on you. i love you.
To the father of my baby, my love, who is in jail. You'll never know what it's like on my side of the door. like i don't know what it's like on your side....
For my daughter...
:(
She's doing better. I can't give up hope. :)
Thank-you. :)
My oldest lil sister made me listen to this song in the heat of my addictions... I never cried so hard before that... Sad too say that it didn't stop me from drugging 😟😟😟😟
temptations and all. let's choose love
Omar Salgado wish I would have figured that out YEARS AGO
My dad chose drugs over me. R. I. P
For my daughter who is currently in rehab for the 6th time and always promises to stay clean and never does, it has to work this time...........
Debbidel praying for you and your family ❤️
Brooke Andrus
Thank you so very much, it has been a really hard road the past 51/2 years, she is the youngest of 6 and I informed sheriffs where she was as she had another warrant for not reporting to her PO 6 days ago. My heart is so broken, so nice of you to reach out.........
Hope she gets better.
Praying for you both. Dealing with the same thing with my fiancé. There has to be an answer somewhere. Somehow. She will get better. I know it 🖤 keep your faith.
I never thought you could leave me like this
this song reminds me of my bff of 9 years who is hooked on meth he's so focused on meth and girls he never thinks about me anymore I've been by his side through thick and thin and love him so much
To my best friend of 6 years....
For me.
Justice Claggett *hugs
same
To my mom
+Rumor Paige Here's to your mom. Hope she's doing okay. Hope you're doing okay.
Could mean Alcohol or any addiction -“”.down an endless hole we’ll both go “”
this song makes me think of my brother am how he still has a drug problem and i am the only one that wants to help him.
Sharon Alvord keep helping, no matter what. imagine being so alone. I promise you, it's hell.
Country boiiiii I love uuuuu
Alanon helps folks!
My ex loved him so much watched it destroy him and myself. I got clean he went back to the needle
Always promises lies stealing so devastating
to my ex who swore she was done
Still think this song was written for me
be nice ...... veryonee
For my mom.
I love you babe
For my fiancé
this stranter next to me.
Stranter Danter! Stranter Danter!