what am i even doing with my life // a vent playlist

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  • @anabrz
    @anabrz 6 месяцев назад +159

    When you promised yourself that it wouldn't be like last year but guess what we are in that loop

    • @ataraxie7088
      @ataraxie7088 6 месяцев назад +9

      It's been last year for the last 18 years. I'm 18yo. Just drunk, and lost.

    • @call.me.kenzie
      @call.me.kenzie 6 месяцев назад +1

      this. ☹

    • @jelly-cat-
      @jelly-cat- 6 месяцев назад +1

      Or its just getting worse.

    • @haewon-bo5rj
      @haewon-bo5rj 6 месяцев назад +1

      :((

    • @asiandadpunishment1625
      @asiandadpunishment1625 6 месяцев назад +4

      I'm 14 and my 12 year old self would be so dissapointed in me when though I became taller better looking much stronger but I still cry in my room even after all that

  • @kerollynduarte8727
    @kerollynduarte8727 6 месяцев назад +17

    if falling off the child genius pedestal as an artist was a playlist

    • @Skull-
      @Skull- 3 месяца назад +3

      stop that’s too accurate

  • @froggie607
    @froggie607 5 месяцев назад +9

    00:00 to 3:44 just explains how me and my sister are in life but the part where she says "I'll cut my hair... to make you stair.... ill hid my chest" is what I wanna tell my mom

  • @Calxyie
    @Calxyie  10 месяцев назад +98

    ~Timestamps
    00:01 // This is Home - Cavetown
    03:45 // Rises the Moon - Liana Flores
    06:25 // Two Birds - Regina Spektor
    09:40 // No Surprises - Radiohead
    13:25 // Tired - Beabadoobee
    16:47 // Average - Sushi Soucy
    18:43 // Privately Owned Spiral Galaxy - Crywank
    22:11 // I Can't Handle Change - Roar
    25:29 // Blurry Nights - BoyWithUke
    28:54 // Heart For Brains - Roar
    31:42 // I Deserve to Bleed - Sushi Soucy
    33:26 // Alien Blues - Vundabar
    36:04 // Freaks - Surf Curse
    38:31 // As the World Caves In - Matt Maltese
    42:05 // Isolate - Sub Urban
    44:27 // Cradles - Sub Urban
    47:28 // So Far So Good - Rex Orange County
    52:17 // Agoraphobic - Corpse
    54:27 // Christmas Kids - Roar
    56:42 // All i want is you - Rebyxx
    1:00:18 // Verbatim - Mother Mother

  • @NeapolitanStuff
    @NeapolitanStuff 6 месяцев назад +10

    Alternative title:Trying to pull myself out of this spiraling depression and crying while doing a workout routine that to much for my body but it took less than two days to gain a pound because I’ve been depress eating so im quitting two out of three meals to get thin and acceptable

    • @avden.
      @avden. 6 месяцев назад

      This is so relatable... except one small meal a day is still somehow too much for me not to gain... hope you're doing at least a little okay...

    • @NeapolitanStuff
      @NeapolitanStuff 6 месяцев назад

      @Inacatu
      Thank you

    • @avden.
      @avden. 6 месяцев назад

      @@NeapolitanStuff Thank you... If you ever need to talk I'll be here, and the same goes for anyone else reading this...

    • @NeapolitanStuff
      @NeapolitanStuff 6 месяцев назад

      @Inacatu Same for you

  • @KatieBaker-kp5dd
    @KatieBaker-kp5dd 6 месяцев назад +21

    This playlist cured my insomnia 😀

    • @thatannoyingmf
      @thatannoyingmf 5 месяцев назад

      OMDS SAMEE

    • @Raysilly
      @Raysilly 5 месяцев назад

      I bet 100$ you did not have insomnia. It isn't that easy.

  • @lyandrasutel6764
    @lyandrasutel6764 6 месяцев назад +8

    i've felt so much. now i don't want to feel anything anymore.

    • @CaymenEditz
      @CaymenEditz 2 месяца назад

      it’s a different type of pain. trust me, it’s arguably worse to feel nothing

  • @_catbrrito_
    @_catbrrito_ 8 месяцев назад +36

    OMG THIS LOOKS LIKE SUCH A GOOD PLAYLIST WHY IS THIS SO UNDERRATED??!?!?!?!??!??!????!?

  • @Gaelic.Ireland
    @Gaelic.Ireland 7 месяцев назад +8

    You ever just feel like your losing it even though there is no explainable reason as to why? This is partly rhetorical and also me being curious if its normal. I'm pretty sure it's not, but eh, who knows. Hope you all have a wonderful day.

  • @Literally_pookie
    @Literally_pookie 6 месяцев назад +58

    Your skin is not paper, so don’t cut it.
    Your face is not a mask, so don’t hide it.
    Your weight is not a book, so don’t judge it.
    Your life is not a movie, so don’t end it.
    Your body isn’t something to change, it’s something to love.
    Stay strong, you got this ❤️

    • @MultiFandomPerson
      @MultiFandomPerson 5 месяцев назад +2

      Shit that made me cry 🥺

    • @catlovrr_pp
      @catlovrr_pp 5 месяцев назад +2

      thanks, i needed that

    • @wandering69238
      @wandering69238 4 месяца назад

      pull me through the last year of middle schoolwith this 🔥

  • @Isabellahoengi
    @Isabellahoengi 6 месяцев назад +3

    I’m not sad but I’m not happy it just feels like I can’t win

  • @iluvw2e
    @iluvw2e 6 месяцев назад +5

    19:51 bro wtff huhu😭😭💀💀💀💀💀im dead...y is he moaning

  • @ARBYS_WEHAVETHEMEATS
    @ARBYS_WEHAVETHEMEATS 4 месяца назад +1

    I promised to myself I wouldn’t become what I wanted to destroy, but now, here I am. Being manipulative and a liar to my friends who trust me, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m trying to get better but it’s so hard. I don’t wanna be mean to anyone, I hate this. I hate myself.

  • @vent.acc.lmao1
    @vent.acc.lmao1 8 месяцев назад +6

    here before this blows up

    • @Oliv3eR4T
      @Oliv3eR4T 7 месяцев назад +2

      if this blows up that's kind of sad if you think about it lmao

  • @elladreemurr6490
    @elladreemurr6490 6 месяцев назад +5

    this playlist is really helping me currently, so thank you...I had it on all night on my tv, so I had to find it on here, you deserve so much more attention than this

  • @Peanut--People
    @Peanut--People 7 месяцев назад +4

    yeah what am i doing with my life.
    i swear i am rude i am nice sometimes i am spoiled and for awhile
    i thought someone that had a really had a bad life and that was kind
    should have got my life because they deserve my life its nice good awsome
    but..
    i still swear but i go to church so i try not to but it just comes out
    and i am rude sometimes and i am kind somethimes..
    and i also thought back then i was so fat and ugly as a kid but i was not.
    edited part:i still dont know what i am doing with my life but i am trying my best and thats all that matters

    • @NIYYYNIY
      @NIYYYNIY 7 месяцев назад +2

      Never forget you are a beautiful person, Never forget💕 Life is so beautiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, your doing your best and I’m proud of you for it, I’m proud of you for fighting and trying stay here with us, I know it feels like hell on earth, but know there’s people here who will help you fight and help you live your life when your around the right people and your happy, thats the people that you need to be around, live your life🫶

    • @Peanut--People
      @Peanut--People 7 месяцев назад

    • @Peanut--People
      @Peanut--People 7 месяцев назад +1

      your so kind@@NIYYYNIY

    • @NIYYYNIY
      @NIYYYNIY 7 месяцев назад

      I just want you to know you important , every time you feel like your in a bad mood, you can always come back and read this, just to know how important you are, never forget xoxo💕@@Peanut--People

    • @Peanut--People
      @Peanut--People 7 месяцев назад

      i just want to say when i texted i thought i was so fat and ugly as a kid i was a kid when i thought that@@NIYYYNIY

  • @Rawr_Ilikegirls
    @Rawr_Ilikegirls 6 месяцев назад +7

    You make really great playlists pls don't stop I am one of your 38 subs but you will get many more

  • @laguerilla_proletaire
    @laguerilla_proletaire Месяц назад

    that moment when i start to feel smth again it's nothing, back where we started :)))

  • @Alistor.Beloved
    @Alistor.Beloved Месяц назад

    Currently at the lowest point in my life and this playlist captured it perfectly.

  • @makaylahgriffin
    @makaylahgriffin 6 месяцев назад +5

    Omg I love this playlist

  • @Skull-
    @Skull- 3 месяца назад +1

    i cant see a future for myself not in the i wanna kms way but in the im not going to be able to function as an adult way

    • @Louise3901
      @Louise3901 Месяц назад

      Please don't give up! You're stronger than you know ❤

  • @Soggy-water
    @Soggy-water 3 месяца назад +1

    My mum just made me cut contacts with my long distance best friend because they were talking about LGBTQ+ at their church, we only know bc our pastors son is their youth group leader. My mum said I didn't need to be in contact with people like that. Little do they all know, that the only reason I'm even alive anymore is because of them. They were my whole reason for living. (Them meaning my friend, they are non binary) They kept me from suicide, from relapsing as much and as bad. They kept me sain. They were my whole entire world, I didn't have any other reason for living, right next to my younger siblings and pets. However, now that I can't contact them anymore, and I can't even see them this summer, I can't find a reason to keep living.... I feel like dying.

    • @peachcobblers
      @peachcobblers 3 месяца назад

      oh my god thats terrible dude im so sorry, i cant imagine how it feels to loose someone so important but dying isnt the answer. if you die u will never know jf you and that person ever see eachother again. everything will always get better

  • @prettygirlsubs333
    @prettygirlsubs333 7 месяцев назад +3

    i love this sm.

  • @DaOnePanda
    @DaOnePanda 5 месяцев назад +1

    I was not expecting a lovejoy song cover

    • @flyingllama87
      @flyingllama87 5 месяцев назад

      Cover was the other way around :) Lovejoy covered CW.

    • @DaOnePanda
      @DaOnePanda 5 месяцев назад

      @@flyingllama87 oh! I didn't know that.

  • @NIYYYNIY
    @NIYYYNIY 7 месяцев назад +9

    100 reasons to stay alive:
    1. to make your parents proud
    2. to conquer your fears
    3. to see your family again
    4. to see your favourite artist live
    5. to listen to music again
    6. to experience a new culture
    7. to make new friends
    8. to inspire
    9. to have your own children
    10. to adopt your own pet
    11. to make yourself proud
    12. to meet your idols
    13. to laugh until you cry
    14. to feel tears of happiness
    15. to eat your favourite food
    16. to see your siblings grow
    17. to pass school
    18. to get tattoo
    19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
    20. to meet your internet friends
    21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve
    22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
    23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
    24. to see untouched snow in the morning
    25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
    26. to see stars light up the sky
    27. to read a book that changes your life
    28. to see the flowers in the spring
    29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
    30. to travel abroad
    31. to learn a new language
    32. to learn to draw
    33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
    34. Puppy kisses.
    35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek).
    36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
    37. Trampolines.
    38. Ice cream.
    39. Stargazing.
    40. Cloud watching.
    41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets.
    42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
    43. “I saw this and thought of you."
    44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
    45. The relief you feel after crying.
    46. Sunshine.
    47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
    48. Your future wedding.
    49. Your favorite candy bar.
    50. New clothes.
    51. Witty puns.
    52. Really good bread.
    53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
    54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
    55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
    56. The smell before and after it rains
    57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
    58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
    59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
    60. Trying out new recipes.
    61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
    62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
    63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
    64.Breakfast in bed.
    65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater.
    66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
    67. Pray (if you are religious)
    68. Forgiveness.
    69. Water balloon fights.
    70. New books by your favorite authors.
    71. Fireflies.
    72. Birthdays.
    73. Realizing that someone loves you.
    74. Spending the day with someone you
    85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
    86. Someone’s skin against yours.
    87. Holding hands.
    88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
    89. Singing off key with your best friends.
    90. Road trips.
    91. Spontaneous adventures.
    92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
    93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
    94. Thunderstorms.
    95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
    96. The taste of your favorite food.
    97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning.
    98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
    99. Compliments and praise.
    100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realise you did it.
    Ps : Never forget you are a beatiful person 💕 Life is so beautiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you 🫶

    • @Ashzennn
      @Ashzennn 7 месяцев назад +2

      I was holding it in until i read the ps.

    • @NIYYYNIY
      @NIYYYNIY 7 месяцев назад +1

      @🫶im glad you let all your emotions out, it’s good to let it out instead of holding it in until you hurts, just know your always safe here💕@@Ashzennn

    • @nikitaidzerda3263
      @nikitaidzerda3263 6 месяцев назад +1

      You just really saved me from depression ❤

    • @NIYYYNIY
      @NIYYYNIY 6 месяцев назад +1

      @@nikitaidzerda3263 ❤️❤️ I’m glad, just know we love you and you have so much to live for 😊

    • @nikitaidzerda3263
      @nikitaidzerda3263 6 месяцев назад

      @@NIYYYNIY you are soooooooo kind 😭😢❤❤

  • @moonlight_day8282
    @moonlight_day8282 7 месяцев назад +3

    This is a greatplay list why so underrated

  • @Hwuttttt
    @Hwuttttt 5 месяцев назад

    Pls read full thing this came straight from my heart

  • @Not_avalible1234
    @Not_avalible1234 5 месяцев назад

    I’m actually so close to running away because everything sucks and I cannot deal with any problems cause I’m an emotional lazy piece of garbage

  • @Parkerthetherian-
    @Parkerthetherian- 5 месяцев назад +2

    Hanako

  • @thatannoyingmf
    @thatannoyingmf 5 месяцев назад +1

    You just got a new subscriber🎉🎉 Keep up the good work and stay safe❤

  • @klaizloveswoofs
    @klaizloveswoofs 7 месяцев назад

    How this is so good

  • @unepersonnesebaladantsurin5715
    @unepersonnesebaladantsurin5715 4 месяца назад

    I know I'm getting better but I wish I was already getting good instead of just better

  • @Cant-handle-it-
    @Cant-handle-it- Месяц назад

    Tw: vent,
    I hate my whole fucking life, trying to be entertaining and nice to people at school (mainly in my class) is hard and especially since they all think I'm annoying, they used to laugh and joke around with me all the time now they act like their friends with me and glare at me mainly acting bored. It's hard trying to get the boy you want when he's always hanging out with other girls and making it look like he likes them, it hurts, im sure the reason why no one likes me is because im so ugly, my acne sucks, everyone says im pretty but i think their lying.. Life sucks at home with my mom having suicidal thoughts from fighting with my step-dad, im always crying to myself, at this point i cant help it, shes controlling and strict but when i lived with my great grandparents (mom's side of the fam) they'd criticize me and tell me i could do better in school, they'd say how good my older cousin is right in front of me during holidays or they'd tell me that i wouldn't end up as succesful as her. My dad neglected me as a baby and cheated on my mom, when i was 7 he tried killing himself in front of me, my grandpa (dad's side on the fam) tried kidnapping me when i was 3, my grandmother (mom's side of the fam) died when my mother was 6 months old from drug overdose.. My mother lied to my grandparents and said she would take me for a small drive but came over and grabbed all of my stuff and took me forever, my aunt (dad's side) tried getting custody of me beause she had 4 children and they were all boys, she wanted a daughter.. my other aunt (mom's side) is schizophrenic, shes more messed up because she takes pills to boost it, she wants to see things. When i was 1-2 my mother was neglecting me and almost let me drown in a river because she wasnt paying attention to me. When i was in pre-school i lived at an apartment complex and i had 4 best friends there that i would hang out with everyday, (skipping to 4 years later) in second grade my mother moved us out of the complex to make us live somewhere else, another 2 years go by and one of my best friends start going to my school, hes was in my 4th grade class, i thought terms were good between us but he started being a bitch to me and it broke my heart..
    Sorry for the long vent (btw im in 5th grade so i am kinda young to have this trauma) I hope this shows people that i stress with them too, life is hard, most of us were born in this shitty generation and i feel bad, im in therapy but it sucks and for some reason random strangers comfort me than my own family do, i would recommend using comment sections than going to therapy, i hope this helps!

  • @rainy_ski3s
    @rainy_ski3s 5 месяцев назад +1

    I love this playlist so much. I am now your 100th subscriber. Ily ml. May I ask how are you?

  • @unity.was.here.
    @unity.was.here. 6 месяцев назад

    16:47 this song is so real.

  • @Natalie-do7zj
    @Natalie-do7zj 6 месяцев назад +1

    this is very random but i see hanako

  • @Hwuttttt
    @Hwuttttt 5 месяцев назад

    Hey keep on going and don't stop but to think about it I can't say much myself and just want to end it sometimes but I keep on pushing forward and so should you I and everyone goes through times and I might be in one of the suckest ones right now but doesn't mean I'ma give up so neither should you I don't care how much people make fun of you or how worthless you think you are because your worth something to me and I know your probly like he doesn't even know who I am and what I'm going through but he'll I've been through a lot with alcohol and drugs affecting the one around me and all the people I've cared about and lost it will be ups and downs but trust me it will be worth it good times will come and go and so will bad times but keep pushing for a greater future just know if you need someone account on me but even through you don't know me and I don't know you I'm still proud of you whatever you do or want to be because no one should take the freedom what you want to do and the way you look at yourself because I want you to go and wake up every day and say I'm proud to be me and some people are going through worse then me get help if needed or wanted my friend committed suicide because he didn't get any I wanted to help him but he said that he was ok and it wasn't a great end experience I wish I could still be with him playing like we used to but that's gone and I don't want that for anyone else, I want y'all to be happy and proud of yourself keep on pushing never stop and think to yourself that your useless because your not so don't stop believing in yourself and don't let anyone get to you there not worth it I care and I know there is at least 1 more person who cares if not just know I care ok just know I love you for who you are and not for being anyone else❤

  • @_vivi_bee_
    @_vivi_bee_ Месяц назад

    HOW TO MAKE A PLAYLIST LIKE THIS ON RUclips

  • @Shin12894
    @Shin12894 5 месяцев назад

    I have a bad exam.

  • @Vanessa12626
    @Vanessa12626 7 месяцев назад +1

    👍

  • @Koc1ara_Official
    @Koc1ara_Official 5 месяцев назад

    How are you?

  • @Ayome_yokumedrawings1234
    @Ayome_yokumedrawings1234 6 месяцев назад +1

    2 corinthians 4:18
    so we dont look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. for the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever. "

  • @Mr.Haberdaythebitch
    @Mr.Haberdaythebitch 6 месяцев назад +1

    This is so underrated! Its so good ^^!