Brittneyy - if you read this, please give yourself a chance and get back on suboxone or Methadone. I wasted years of my life looking for my creativity inside of a syringe and wasted so much time that I’ll never be able to get back. You are ONLY 24. You have time, but it goes by quick. In one month I’ll be 35… trust me, picking up the pieces is much more difficult in your 30’s than in your early 20’s. You’ve got this dude! Do something today your 35 year old self will thank you for. And PS - time will never run out for your music. That creativity will always be in you… as long as you don’t completely kill it with drugs.
Ive been on methadone for 23 years straight, and will be a lifer. It saved me from a raging habit from way way too young of age, and makes dope worthless to me. I know it won't benefit me. And i don't trust myself without it. Id have to be on narcotics for pain and already know what that outcome would bring. For anyone thinking of starting the program, give it maybe two months before saying it doesn't work for you...
Very proud of your achievements. Nothing in life is easy. I wish you and Britt, and everyone struggling to not ever give up. We are all worth living free from the chains that bind us.
I feel you girl, I’m 33 and it’s wayyyy harder now to try and pick up the pieces then if I was 24. I have way more mental issues and I am an art junkie now all I think about is how good I could have gotten at painting and crafts if I just stopped heroin sooner.
Hey Brit, I think you've been traumatised more than you think, don't brush off your experiences, in the darkness is where we find the light! Good luck for the future! And be kinder to yourself, you've not wasted your years, your still productive, creative and humble, stay safe! Xx
You should really look for a nice place to start recovering not around any addicts, I promise you can do so much with ur music and ur life you are so young ans ur music is really good keep ur head up and know a bunch of strangers love u ans want u to keep going
Keep playing music, even if you dont "make it big". My Dad played in a band off and on until he died 2 years ago. It gave him joy. That was success enough for him, and we loved that it made him happy.
Brittneyy - you’re so young yet you’ve already seen and accomplished so much. Moving to LA from small town Vermont takes a huge leap of faith and a lot of bravery; harness that same level of strength to find your sobriety again. I know what it’s like to feel unloved or unappreciated by your parents or parent. I grew up without either of mine. I promise I found more peace and clarity in my 30’s. You have beautiful and kind eyes, I’m proud of you for making it to LA. Sending you love.
One thing I’ve learned through therapy that might be helpful to others I hear him saying “I don’t know” a lot and I did too while talking about painful things in my life. It is helpful to recognize and remind ourselves that we DO know. Sounds silly but in a way it keeps you going in the cycle of denial, once you open yourself up to your own emotions and pain it will help you heal. You are worthy of happiness!
that's brilliant, the cycle of denial is paramount to deluding yourself to get high, again. it extends to all areas of your thinking and life over time.
Its a symptom of being neglected in one’s upbringing and it a very common sign… A person who is invalidated and criticized and not treated with value they learn to suppress their own needs and feeling so much that they no longer know what they feel - they weren’t allowed to ever feel. His Dad not liking him is his trigger and it will heal with therapy and learning to use techniques to counter the synaptic connections in the brain. I noticed it too Yana … makes me so sad for him….
He's very down to earth. I'd really like to see him succeed. I think he's got a good chance of sobriety if he gets the right counseling & support now. I really hope you guys can continue to follow his story, he's a smart, level headed person.
This person is super cool and I would love to be their friend. It breaks my heart when thrust said “I don’t think my dad likes me very much, he doesn’t treat me like I’m his family”
Hang in there Brittneyy. Focus on the prize, your music. Let nothing get in the way. You have a talent people are willing to pay for. It's a gift and can only grow with focus.
The most creative people are the ones suffering inside. He reminds me of my son, he even looks like him. I only see pain in this child's eyes. I really hope he gets the help he needs.
Brittneyy, please take the next greyhound or train out of LA. Head out of that city before it swallows you. Go anywhere but Cali. I hope you make it out before it gets you and you will never be able to leave.
Recovering addict here too. Watching him talk, and seeing his face. My heart just aches for him. Life can throw some crazy shit at you, and with the right support, some effort on your part, things can go widely one way or another. I wish him the best and pray that he gets the support he deserves. -Cp
BRITNEYY !!! my dude... I was where you are at 25.... it still continued to wreak havoc in my life until I got on a methadone program a year ago.... I am now 32. i was on the show intervention at 21 and that was the worst experience of my life... I cant even watch it now. I hope you can look back on this someday from a different place in your life. much love to you brother. stay strong. focus on the music. focus on the movement.
Wow, I love how you put that. That’s pretty much it, with a lot of distant people. I have a history on the streets and am studying counseling, so I will definitely remember what you said! I had an amazing counselor who helped me. I will tell her that, too, when I see her.
If a son doesn't feel loved/accepted or rejected by his father, it hurts a lot; no anchor. Counselling is a good start. I've felt the same leaf blowing around in the wind feeling, nothing will succeed, no time left, everything has been done etc. It can change when you realise all that is 100% subjective. Change is possible. Believe.
Ian RJM , I certainly agree it was that my father was the only one and he was that loved me I know when a child is only wanted for bad Reasons by the rest of the family; or older siblings and though the father loves you they're strong on him and take you away from him it is like you are a leaf in the wind and you'll cling to anything that you stick to for even a moment. I'm 60 and I still have that feeling. My father has been gone a b 11 years, and there is no other family that isn't toxic well actually poison. I felt rejected by everyone unless I did exactly as I was told, what I was told was not the right thing you can't make someone carry-out others ambitions for you or they will rebell. The family Dynamics should teach that we are loved and wanted and allow us to blossom into the human beings each of us as individuals love teaches us that blossoming... Teaching someone they're not wanted and not loved except under certain circumstances will cause disaster! But then there's the climb and we try to find ourselves even if we're 60 years old. I pray that Brittany finds that love and acceptance within himself he still has time but he looks so thin and god-knows- likely has medical issues he needs help with already. But the start is to get him into a clinic he's young enough you shouldn't have to be a lifer at Clinic, but even if he has to be it's better than for him to be on a drug that will eventually lead to his demise, rather wish for him a wonderful desire that nothing comes before it the desire to rise! Finished with Ted Talk have a great day💯🧗♀️🤗
@@ShellyMischelle conditional love can go to hell. Love should be acceptance, support and encouragement. It's hard when you have been programmed, right? But there is a voice inside that we must listen to. Trust our feelings; there is nothing wrong with how we feel. Know ourselves, be honest with ourselves and then with others; it's that simple in my mind now.
@@ianrjm969 E HI PPĹ L ☆Spot On Ian, it's only logical, to do otherwise, we cheat others, as well as ourselves...wandering aimlessly, never knowing our true selves(among the facades). It's possibly one of the bigger steps of person growth, to be honest with ourselves, and oh,..'know thy self that others may know you in light of truth'.♡ hugs and care my friends?🤔 you guys are awesome you're the best people on here thank you for your comments and some replies! Have a great evening👍💯🤗 '
This guy reminds me a lot of a lifelong friend of mine. His parents were heroin addicts since before he was born so drugs were always around when he was growing up. He was a super smart kid - borderline genius - and had a really bright future ahead of him. He never touched a drug or even had a drink in his life until the end of high school. He started drinking socially and that almost instantly led to weed which then opened up the doors for everything else. I mean, he went from 100% sober to being a speedfreak in a matter of months. Then came the heroin. I heard about how he'd contracted HIV and heard all the fucked up stories of sketchy situations he'd ended up in where he could have very easily been murdered. I saw him on his death bed when having withdrawals. Then his dad OD'd and died on it. That hit him pretty hard but still didn't get him off it. I don't hear from his much nowadays. He'll be good and sober, getting fit and healthy and then I won't hear from him in 18 months because he was on a binge. He's less of a person after every hiatus. He went from being a highly intelligent, sensitive, artistic and loving human being to sometimes barely being able to string together a sentence. We're only 27 now and whenever I think of him I wonder if he's alive or not. I hope Brittneyy takes the other road.
As a father this video kinda broke my heart, kids crying out for his father to notice, value and love him . . . some people don't deserve titles like mother or father. I hope he finds a role model that can help him out of his current situation.
Your Dad probably sees a lot of himself in you and he can't handle that, so he is pushing you away so he doesn't have to face his feelings about himself.
@@melizzia7901 yep when I was his age my dad acted like I didn't exist, wished I had a good father to teach me about life and how it works but he was too busy drinking, being violent. And now that he can't walk, he acts like nothing happened. Edit: I stopped living with him since I was 13. I'm 48 now.
@@666blindrider Wow no that you are grown how does it affect you Mario? I feel so sad that My Son always has this spot in his heart that can never bee filled. I pray one day that something can fill the void... It makes me so sad. Do you have children and has it impacted you as a Father ?
Or his dad is a bit macho, and doesn't like the way his son looks. Brittneyy looks great, but if his dad's a 'tough guy' going in and out of jail, he might have a different opinion..
I really hope brittney finds himself. It’s so obvious he’s brilliant. Such a complex human being. I can’t imagine how it feels to be disappointed in everything yet so hopeful at the same time. Fill that void with knowledge and power! Climb ladders instead of burning them!! He’s got a future!
The two most important days in your life are the day you were born, and the day you find out why. ~Mark Twain Just wanted to let you know that you are amazing, don't forget that! 🕊️💚
Good morning Amanda la, I hope you're having a good morning, it's very early still out in LA. Britney has been through a lot I'm sure. Oh how I wish I could whip up a break a chance well Britney is still young to see positive intervention! I've almost cried, it hurts to see if suffering addict, or anyone suffering! Hope with best Vibes for Britney today☆♡ and as always it's really good to see you here, and the quote you chose has insight and wisdom.👍 thank you for posting it. I'm going to ponder on it. Have a good one sister friend. My best to you too , I've hit a scary,rough patch butb nothing to do with addiction ,(same Hacker-issue😳 I hope today for others to have the realization of all potential for goodness and caring light rather than apathy or Darkness.~hugs&care. ☆♡🧗♀️🌻❣
Your deep understanding of yourself is a true gift and I really resonated with how you use that to keep going forward. I know what it feels like to not be who you know you could be. It numbs, it hurts in the back and makes you feel less and less in control. I am sending my best thoughts out to you, hope you find your inner peace. Stay strong!! 🌟
“I woke up one day and I was 24.” That hit hard, man. It’s never too late though. You can always turn around and change. The saddest part of this is it just seems like he needs more people and friends in his life to keep him company and focused on his music. You can tell he is a genuinely kind soul who just got kind of lost along the way and longs for his Dad’s affection and acceptance. I feel you man. You’ll overcome this.
He's such a sweetheart. I hope he gets that poisen out of his system and works through his pain so he can have a bright future. He has so much life to live, and he deserves so much better than this.
Hey Brittneyy, You're only 24 & so bright. You have your whole life ahead of you & you will succeed in time, don't give up. I'm 65 and have many regrets about not doing more to make a better life for myself. I'm a little jealous of your insight to be honest lol. Stay strong & never, ever give up on your dreams.
Seems to be a very kind and respectful young man who went down the wrong path. I hope he finds an outlet that will help him get clean, and a little bit of joy along the way too. He deserves it. Sending virtual hugs to you Brittneyy. 💗❤️💗 Have a good day/evening everyone!
He looks so very sad. My heart breaks for him. The terrible thing is he has so much going for him (including time) but he can't see it and unless he does all that time will run out.
@@deyonsadler6828 just going by the the name and the nail polish... shouldn't we err on the side of caution these days? Wouldn't wanna offend someone by mis- labeling them..
@@kkkay7336 If you don't know which to use, and are worried about misgendering someone, *they* is the perfect choice and has long been used for this purpose! (The doctor is in, *they* will see you now) Covers both bases neutrality and it may prompt them to offer pronouns to you
This breaks my heart. He’s just another lost soul. He has so much potential. Reminds me so much of my cousin dealing with a narley Heroin addiction as well. You can get through this Brittanyy! You have everything within already to create the life you desire!!
Britney is a great reminder of why we as parents need to get our lives in order and fix our issues so we can give our children what they need. Britney needed love, guidance and discipline. His parents failed him. 😔
I don’t know why this one hit me in the feels more than the others. He reminds me so much of myself when I was younger. That hopeless scary uncertain time in life, I wish I could help him. I hope he has a great and long life
Mark previously has mentioned that he doesn’t want to entertain someone’s talents or have them promote themselves. This channel to help understand the path to becoming an addict, sex worker, pimp, etc. Marks interviews are eye opening and I appreciate it knowing that I may be walking past someone who is a human instead of just an addict on the cold concrete.
I was thinking the same thing! Would love it if Brittneyy could maybe either share social media or start one up if not online. I think there would be a good amount of people that would follow to see what Brittneyy’s got.
Brittany i really hope you can read this friend. I’m also a musician,i spent my 20s playing shows and drinking every night and this stuff really takes its toll. But what i really want to say is never think being sober is the end of your creativity,i went to rehab and was allowed to bring my guitar. I played in the rehab and counselors put my stuff on RUclips while i was there…..I’m 2 years clean and still playing. Please please please , don’t give up you can take control and ill tell you from experience writing music is easier with a clear head
I would love to see an update interview with Brittneyy. It sounds like Brittneyy is very depressed and not feeling love from the father figure. Maybe self-love can replace that void. ❤️ Believe in yourself, your music, and your future Brittneyy!! Manifest!!
His mother never should have let him go..As it seems that moving to his Father's was a huge catalyst towards his drug dependency and his fascination with hard drugs. And I can't help but wonder, what parent in their right mind would let their 14 year old move in with an estranged, drug addicted, parent? And how could they think that would be a good thing either? Addiction can be inherited and both parents are responsible for not monitoring their sons fascination and lack of understanding of how destructive drugs are. So all round It just seems like theres been a real lack of solid parenting and Brittney unfortunately thinks he knows it all, that drugs are glamorous and he has tried to be an adult before his time. And hasn't learned from his bad decision making which is rather worrying at this stage.
Brittney - your biggest achievment in life may be learning to love yourself despite the fact that your sperm donor never did. I feel for you because I went through that lack of love myself. It all changed when I realised that my mom and dad are not the authority on whether or not I am valuable and lovable. My advice is - just challenge yourself for a little while to experiment with the thaught that your father was a very flawed human being that is blind as to how valuable you are and how you should be treated by a father. Do something, anything, that makes you proud of yourself, no matter how small, then hang on to it and inject yourself with that little bit of pride. If you consistently do that every day soon enough you will see your depression slowly going away. But it will take alot of effort and will not feel effective in the begining, but just stick with it. Oh and if you fail, which is bound to happen, just shrug it off and do something small that makes you proud of yourself and hang on to that pride for your life. Any bad thought that comes in, just send it away - say: You are not welcome, goodbye. And then reach for a thought that is focused on something good that happened, or something good that you did, no matter how small.
Don't lie. If you saw him and the streets and he approached you asking for anything you would ignore him and rush to your car and couldn't be bothered and get back to your own life. You are only faking the compassion on here because of guilt and wanting the recognition from other sincere commenters.
I’m an addiction medicine therapist in Philly who works in the trenches with addicts every day. Yes, even driving them places in my car and hugging them. It’s what I do with my life as it’s purpose and what my passion is-so you’re actually 100% wrong. And couldn’t be more wrong. This is my life. You shouldn’t judge people based off what their thumbnail looks like. 😌🙏🏼
I’m so sorry your relationship with your dad is the way it is. Honestly, it is his loss (even though it damages and hurt you), you are a beautiful, intelligent and creative person. The abandonment is real though, and it takes a long, long time to heal. I am 36, and I’m only just in recent years working through the abandonment stuff. You are seriously so beautiful, I wish i could give you a big hug.
I am 57 years old. My daughter said, "Mom, what is that music you are listening to?" Brittanyy you have so much talent. Please find it in you, dig deep and please don't be so down on yourself.
I can feel his sadness I see in his eyes. If only hugs and saying,... everything will be alright could help us. I can tell there's a lot in his young mind tearing him up
Brittneyy reminds me so much of my childhood best friend, Miles. He was so ridiculously smart, and even when he was in the midst of his addiction (meth) he had this light in his eyes that showed how much intelligence he had inside. I hope they're both doing okay now.
Dang it Mark you had to go and hit me in the heart! Don't know what it is about this guy Brittneyy but I want to give him a hug and somehow make him see that he is valuable in this world. He makes music! How badass is that? And art work! He is an artist in more ways than one. Such talent! And he is smart, has not fried his brain yet. There is so much hope for him still. Im not sure ive ever wanted to see someone get clean so badly. How awsome would it be to see him back in 6 months clean and sober and killin it with his music 🎶 damn I wish I had words that could inspire him to seek the help he needs and deserves. Brittneyy you have complete strangers who care about you and are rooting for you.
Brittneyy, I've seen you in the comment section here so I want you to know that a lot of us are rooting for you! 🙏 You are so young, I wish you could realize that you have so much life to live. I hope you figure things out 💙
Brit, when we are young we waste all of our time, trying to gain the love and affection of a parent (usually the one that isn’t capable of love) to love us, we internalize the rejection when really, if we can see that person for who they are we could spare ourself so much pain and agony. You seem like such a great kid, sensitive, kind loving. Your father doesn’t realize what a gift you are, and like mine, may never. I hope you can see this so you can move on and live the happy, healthy life you deserve! I ll keep you in my thoughts!
This right here is the beginning of a true downward spiral, He came to the best place to stay high for cheap.....But the WORST place to be for affordable rent. This kid better move back to where he is from because he is green as grass and has no idea what is in store for him. A long hard road of misery awaits if he doesn't get off the needle. Christ it's scary to witness that these kinds of kids nowadays are on heroin! I had EVERY reason to be a drug addict but kids like this could have easily been something more. Although it could all be mental, We cannot feel what is going on inside his brain but I wish I could because I don't get it.
i live in vermont and the rent prices up here aren’t much better than they are in LA. you’ll be lucky to find an apartment to begin with, but if you do the rent is almost always $1200+
Brittneyy, you are such a kind sweet person. I am almost 30 and don't even have my life close to figured out yet. You can do it. We are all rooting for you. ❤️
I'm 32 this year and stuck in a heroin cycle. It's crazy I never thought I would end up in this place, I live in rural Ireland and never imagined that I would even see heroin. It's made its way to every corner of the world. Horrible stuff
@@tiyailaC I appreciate your kind words genuinely I do. But the lord has never been my thing. I've grown up with religion and even returned to it after a stint in rehab. I just can't believe in something where its foundation has been the source of so much abuse for me along with a few other reasons. I respect everyone's beliefs and if you have found happiness and contentment through your religion I am truly happy for you. In the last 30 years though religion has not helped me though and I have genuinely tried. Again I do thank you for your well wishes and kindness the world needs more of it ❤️
'I woke up one day and I was 24...' Britt, you have so much life ahead of you. 24 is not old- you still have time to build something for yourself. You're a bright young man- I can sense the pain in your voice. Keep moving forward Britt- surround yourself in the things in life that bring you joy. Keep going Britt... keep going :)
Hey Brittneyy, you remind me a lot of myself and I want to give you a piece of advice I wish I heard sooner. Most Dr's prefer doing suboxone but it seems that didn't work out too well recently. I urge you to consider Methadone if you don't want to go back through the sub route. It's older and fairly strong but it's a full agonist. It will get the job done. Cravings will be significantly less if not virtually completely gone, and it'll keep you from getting sick so long as you dose daily. Being forced to get up, get outside and do something daily helped me out a lot in early recovery especially since I didnt have anything else going on. I started it because I relapsed after breaking my knee cap. I didn't know it was broken yet and it still hurting after shooting fent is what made me go to the doctor. So the methadone helps me with pain as well so that's another thing to consider if you happen to struggle with chronic pain or pain of any sort. I'm just a random from RUclips comments though and not your doctor.. or a doctor at all for that matter. This is all purely anecdotal. I just really felt the need to say something. We really don't wanna hear later that you died. Stay safe and God bless.
I’m also on maintenance, because pain was how I got in this mess, to begin with. It definitely saves lives. And my life may not be a mess, forever. I will be taking a licensed counseling exam this year. I can’t believe this is my life! I seriously thought it would be an endless revolving door of doctors and jail! So grateful 🥲
After a year or so of suboxone I used to get really dulled and find a rush and lose my grasp. I’m on suboxone again but this time it’s coupled with Modafinil and I’ve been steady for 6 years and got a great career. Modafinil upper is mandatory for me
I fully support your comment. I've been on Methadone for almost 2 years now and I haven't used heroin since. In the beginning, it might make you a little drowsy, but after a while, your body adjusts and the cravings go away. I'm prescribed to take it twice daily, so once every 12 hours. I prefer it this way, as then you have a very consistent amount in your system.
Lol that’s because you’re just getting high everyday man. That’s why it works and there’s no cravings. I’ve been on subs 8 years but I won’t lie about it. You’re getting Hugh on methadone
i’m an ex fentanyl addict, one year clean now at 20. i know a lot of guys like u and i have seen them really succeed in rehab bc it’s like a brotherhood. for girls it’s hard girls are weird lol but for guys if u find the right group they seem to really connect though similar experiences. i feel like you are a leader and will help many someday 💛 also very attractive lol. much love you have time and when your ready get back on subs i know it’s hard in the music industry but u can lead others to make being clean an aesthetic ❤️
This baby has been depressed for a very long time. 😭😭 I love his sincerity. I hope he gets the support he needs. He's in such a vulnerable place in his journey right now. Please Mark call his mom!!!
this one really hits home for me. im also from new england and have struggled with opioids for the better part of my life. I'm 2.5 years sober now at 25, but hearing it from brittneyy instantly brings back those feelings of hopelessness. I still struggle with the fear of never making anything of myself. One day at a time.
"I didn't have a traumatic childhood or anything..." says the guy who was raised by a single mother, was in and out of foster homes and juvie, and whose emotionless father was addicted to heroin while in and out of jail. He doesn't even realize. I don't see this going anywhere good. I hope he gets a wake up call and much needed support. 🤍
A lot of his interviews begin like that. He'll ask about their childhood and they start off saying "I had a good childhood" but then a can of worms opens up and they have had a horrible childhood. I'm thinking it may be that when we go through so much hurt/trauma we realize that things can always be worse so we hold on to the little good and try to focus on that.
Sorry to comment a third time but I don't believe that your life isn't gonna go anywhere. You can absolutely make something of your life. You matter, your life matters, your happiness matters. Please don't give up so quickly. The life I always dreamed of and never thought was possible is becoming a reality for me now. I felt the sake exact way: I wasn't special, I don't deserve any special treatment, a sob story doesn't make me entitled to help, I'm just a junkie blah blah blah. It's not true at all. As for you father, that's his own loss. Maybe your relationship will improve but as the kid, it isn't your responsibility to fix his unwillingness to connect, I hope you know. One day you're gonna lay your head down at night and think "holy shit.. I actually made it. I really did it."
the body language and eyes say everything for me. this one pulled at the heart strings. i appreciate the self awareness. she really seems to know what she wants from life, but just full of self-doubt (i’m 20 and feel like i’m already having a mid-life crisis even though i’m in university, juggling jobs and internships, but still not seeing the point/ the happiness and feeling imposter syndrome. i get it all too well) but i really think she will turn it around ♥️ we both can. i believe in you!! xo
Really respect his honest, thoughtful answers (and what great questions from Mark). Brittneyy, you’re not alone in feeling old, feeling overwhelmed with your own potential & sometimes scared into inaction. Hope you are able to pursue your dreams, don’t be afraid to succeed.
As someone who was born and raised in Vermont I totally get it. Life is slow and Boring to most youth here and I have seen so many of my friends battling addiction and lost some close to me. You can do this, you can get out from under this dark cloud and live the life you deserve. Stay strong and keep fighting! Get back on your medication and push forward.
Fellow Vermonter here Brittney, fellow addict, I believe in you, your loved, life is the trip when you get sober. You can do this. I’m turning 30 in June. Still struggle here and there, but it’s one day at a time.
He oozes sadness...deep sadness..G-d help him...very insightful. I watch these videos and realize that I have NO problems...I wish I could change things for him
Brittneyy has SO much potential & I hope he makes it. He seems a beautiful person & is obviously highly creative & talented. I’ve known a few addicts & nearly all of them were self-medicating emotional pain. Even without childhood abuse (a common theme here), his father’s emotional distance obviously causes him great pain. Emotional abuse can also leave many invisible scars. He’s come so close to beating addiction & is clearly intelligent & self-reflective. That awareness of not being self-entitled showed his ability to grow & change. That’s pretty impressive for someone who’s only 24. He just seems so very sad & I wish I could give him a hug & tell him, “You’ve got this!” I’m sure Brittneyy has what it takes to achieve his dreams. He just needs to believe he can do it. Imho, that & the addiction are the only things holding him back. Take care, buddy! 💕
Damn he reminds me of how mentally i could not do anything right to get any form of gratitude from my dad. So strange still feel like i was 25 yesterday and all of a sudden woke up being 31. Shit goes fast specially when you drink. drinking is painful. Doesn't stop. Especially when No amount is enough and you never get sick from it. Its never enough.
That was my friend, Scotty. Then he got cirrhosis at the age of 33. I don’t know if he is alive now, because I had to cut off contact due to increasing abusive behavior. It didn’t even bother me because he was so sick, but crossed a line of safety, for me. If he got help, he could be ok, but if he didn’t, they didn’t expect him to live. It was crazy how the health problems snuck up on him. If you haven’t yet, I hope you get help. An Intensive Outpatient treatment group 3-4 days a week helped me quit drugs. I tried inpatient but it never worked. It just depends if it’s a good program with enough staff who care. If you have or if you’ve heard it a million times, I just want you to know people wish you well. Having a critical parent really hurts, and you can still hear that voice, no matter how old you get. Trust me, I know. Hang in there, and take care of you! If no one will invest in you, invest in yourself!
@@heidiho5179 An acquaintance of mine just died due to liver failure and coronavirus. She got hit with covid last year. I know she used to shoot coke and worked as a bartender for years. She got the delta this year and that was it. Stage 4 liver failure left her vulnerable. Dead at 37. RIP.
whatttttt!! I’m born and raised in VT!! I never thought I’d find another Vermonter on here. 🧡 Brittneyy, if you find your way back here, reach out so we can get lunch on me. 💕
Oh this was a tough one. I feel like this person didn't want to get sucked into a mediocre existence and one of the ways to make yourself believe you don't have a mediocre existence is through getting high. When you get high you feel like everything is amazing and you're amazing and that's got to be better than some mediocre life, right? As someone who is gone through this cycle a couple of times and have settled nicely into my mediocre life, trust me when I tell you Brittneyy it's so much better to be mediocre and normal than the other. Stay strong! I understand you got to get it out of your system. I hope you make it back my friend!
This guys music is actually great - I hope he gets discovered, it's creative and well mastered. Here's hoping he can clean up, and put this energy into making something of his music and exposing it to the world.
@@norgepalm7315 It’s always hunerous that every single person who comments some rude stuff, you can click on their profile and see all the recent hate they left. That’s kind of embarrasing bro.. We can all see how you spend your meantime and it’s not cute
This kid reminds me of Lil Peep so much...even his back story. Peeps dad wasn't an addict....but he moved to LA to start his music. I hope this young man don't have the same outcome. You got this sweetheart.... from a recovering heroin addict that just had my 7 years clean mark, you can do whatever you put your mind to. ❤
Brittneyy, sending lots of love your way. Please don’t give up on your dreams and your life. I got off heroin 20 years ago and am living a life I love with people that I love. Never thought it was possible back then. One positive change or decision at a time can get you so far. ❤️
I'm 39. Been addicted to iv heroin/fentanyl 20+ years. I play guitar, bass, mandolin, ukulele, standup bass, octave mandolin, Mandocello pretty much anything with strings. I've been in a ton of bands in the Detroit Michigan area. It's been hard to play out the past 10 years because I LITTERALLY have no time for nothing except making money and getting high because it's become COMPLETELY UNMANEGABLE but I find a new rock bottom every day but I figure out how to open it's trap door every morning so I can keep descending. Don't give up your music Britt. Put your pain into your playing. Communicate the things you cannot find words for with your music....
Lil Britneyy’s music is awesome!! Don’t give up, keep fighting for your dreams. I 100% believe you can do this and overcome all the hardships you face now. By the way your art is so sick too!!
I want to give you the BIGGEST hug! You are super intelligent and exude a sincerity that just makes me want to cry, but also warms my heart. I really hope you succeed 🌻
Hey Brit..I am a NATIVE VERMONTER born and raised NEVER MOVED!! i live in NORTH CLARENDON VERMONT! i grew up on MAPLE STREET in RUTLAND VERMONT! and NORTH CLARENDON, is 2 miles South of RUTLAND!! I have lived here in NORTH CLARENDON for 21 years i LOVE IT it's a small town..You will make it BRIT!! You are young and Talented.keep Focused On your TALENT and music..Take care of YOURSELF BRIT from 1 Vermonter to another..MUCH LOVE to you BRIT!! 🥰😍🙌🙏
Hi Mark, Thank you for this channel. It’s beyond powerful and enlightening; it evokes compassion in so many. This is perhaps my favorite channel on RUclips, and that’s something! After 5 years of heroin addiction, I am now 60 days clean. My birthday is in a month (I’ll be 31) and the greatest gift for me is another month strong. I would love to be interviewed by you! I don’t know if you’ll see this comment, but I hope that maybe I can be a part of this. I want to tell my story and give hope to those struggling with addiction and depression.
I can totally relate to feeling old but actually being young. I’m about to turn 24 and I feel the same way of not feeling like I’m doing much for myself of my future. But mark is right, you do have soooo much life left to live and if you can just focus on what you really wanna do, you WILL get to where you want to be. Life is not a race, even though it may feel like it from seeing/comparing to others. I find myself digging myself deeper into a hole of depression when I think about my future, and it seems like you do too and you might be masking it with drugs and alcohol but you can using that energy to your music instead! Good luck dude🖤
Traumatized people, often don't realize they grew up with trauma. He lived at centres, and foster care, with a criminal father that he never knew. Wild to not see that.
I am so sorry he's going through this, I love this channel though. It shows a real side of what people are going through every day The struggles and the bullshit life throws at us and how we can learn to love ourselves more. I just wish these addicts could find recovery. I am in recovery and have 4.5 months clean, recovery is possible yall! Much love to everyone reading this!
I remember realizing I wasn’t gonna make money off music at around that age. Honestly I’d probably be dead now if I had made it. I still play music and do art. Nothing wrong with having a regular job and doing what you love when you can with people you can trust
Brittneyy,don’t give up.You are young and can totally change your life.You seem very empathetic and can do a lot of good in this world.Take care.I’m sure everyone watching this is rooting for you.
this guy is teetering on the edge of the abyss,I truly hope he watches this and realises....but from experience i can tell hes going to dive in head first... good luck brother.
Your compassion is evident in each and every interview. Thank you for bringing so many important stories to light. Yours is my favorite channel. Do you also have a Podcast?
Brittneyy - if you read this, please give yourself a chance and get back on suboxone or Methadone. I wasted years of my life looking for my creativity inside of a syringe and wasted so much time that I’ll never be able to get back. You are ONLY 24. You have time, but it goes by quick. In one month I’ll be 35… trust me, picking up the pieces is much more difficult in your 30’s than in your early 20’s.
You’ve got this dude! Do something today your 35 year old self will thank you for.
And PS - time will never run out for your music. That creativity will always be in you… as long as you don’t completely kill it with drugs.
Yes! So true
Well said 🌺
Ive been on methadone for 23 years straight, and will be a lifer. It saved me from a raging habit from way way too young of age, and makes dope worthless to me. I know it won't benefit me.
And i don't trust myself without it. Id have to be on narcotics for pain and already know what that outcome would bring. For anyone thinking of starting the program, give it maybe two months before saying it doesn't work for you...
Very proud of your achievements. Nothing in life is easy. I wish you and Britt, and everyone struggling to not ever give up. We are all worth living free from the chains that bind us.
I feel you girl, I’m 33 and it’s wayyyy harder now to try and pick up the pieces then if I was 24. I have way more mental issues and I am an art junkie now all I think about is how good I could have gotten at painting and crafts if I just stopped heroin sooner.
For those who are wondering, I'm not trans, I was born a boy and I identify as such.
Hey Brit, I think you've been traumatised more than you think, don't brush off your experiences, in the darkness is where we find the light!
Good luck for the future! And be kinder to yourself, you've not wasted your years, your still productive, creative and humble, stay safe! Xx
hi! just wanted to say I checked out your music and I love it
You're so damn amazing. Please don't ever stop being great......
You should really look for a nice place to start recovering not around any addicts, I promise you can do so much with ur music and ur life you are so young ans ur music is really good keep ur head up and know a bunch of strangers love u ans want u to keep going
PERFECTCELL.....young man you have such potential. You speak well and from the heart.
Keep playing music, even if you dont "make it big". My Dad played in a band off and on until he died 2 years ago. It gave him joy. That was success enough for him, and we loved that it made him happy.
The way he talks about his relationship with his dad really broke my heart. Keep fighting Brittneyy- you’ve got grit. Don’t give up.
Brittneyy - you’re so young yet you’ve already seen and accomplished so much. Moving to LA from small town Vermont takes a huge leap of faith and a lot of bravery; harness that same level of strength to find your sobriety again. I know what it’s like to feel unloved or unappreciated by your parents or parent. I grew up without either of mine. I promise I found more peace and clarity in my 30’s. You have beautiful and kind eyes, I’m proud of you for making it to LA. Sending you love.
@@opinionsarentfacts3515 According to ' you'.
One thing I’ve learned through therapy that might be helpful to others
I hear him saying “I don’t know” a lot and I did too while talking about painful things in my life. It is helpful to recognize and remind ourselves that we DO know. Sounds silly but in a way it keeps you going in the cycle of denial, once you open yourself up to your own emotions and pain it will help you heal. You are worthy of happiness!
that's brilliant, the cycle of denial is paramount to deluding yourself to get high, again. it extends to all areas of your thinking and life over time.
Its a symptom of being neglected in one’s upbringing and it a very common sign…
A person who is invalidated and criticized and not treated with value they learn to suppress their own needs and feeling so much that they no longer know what they feel - they weren’t allowed to ever feel.
His Dad not liking him is his trigger and it will heal with therapy and learning to use techniques to counter the synaptic connections in the brain.
I noticed it too Yana … makes me so sad for him….
He's very down to earth. I'd really like to see him succeed. I think he's got a good chance of sobriety if he gets the right counseling & support now. I really hope you guys can continue to follow his story, he's a smart, level headed person.
This person is super cool and I would love to be their friend. It breaks my heart when thrust said “I don’t think my dad likes me very much, he doesn’t treat me like I’m his family”
Hang in there Brittneyy. Focus on the prize, your music. Let nothing get in the way. You have a talent people are willing to pay for. It's a gift and can only grow with focus.
Good to see you here love your content Also Semper Fi Marine
Come on Brittneyy, do it Brittney ooooh
Good on you JT
Great advice! 🤘🏻🖤🤘🏻
Thank you for your service, JT. Ive been subbed a while and have always enjoyed your content. Hoorah!
The most creative people are the ones suffering inside. He reminds me of my son, he even looks like him. I only see pain in this child's eyes. I really hope he gets the help he needs.
Mine too and I really, really hope he does as well🙏❤️🙏
Brittneyy, please take the next greyhound or train out of LA. Head out of that city before it swallows you. Go anywhere but Cali. I hope you make it out before it gets you and you will never be able to leave.
Recovering addict here too. Watching him talk, and seeing his face. My heart just aches for him. Life can throw some crazy shit at you, and with the right support, some effort on your part, things can go widely one way or another. I wish him the best and pray that he gets the support he deserves. -Cp
BRITNEYY !!! my dude... I was where you are at 25.... it still continued to wreak havoc in my life until I got on a methadone program a year ago.... I am now 32. i was on the show intervention at 21 and that was the worst experience of my life... I cant even watch it now. I hope you can look back on this someday from a different place in your life. much love to you brother. stay strong. focus on the music. focus on the movement.
I’ve watched your episode a few times. I’m happy to here you’re doing well girl. You’re beautiful you deserve a beautiful life ♥️
I watch Intervention a lot. Which episode were you on, and why was it so bad? Just curious. I hope you’re clean, and doing well in life.
@@Lisasanti1 season 9 episode,1
I’m pretty sure it’s season 11 episode 1
@AriNic thanks so much it’s been a long road
His selfish father broke his young heart. 💔 But Britneyy, your dad didn't reject you, he rejected being Vulnerable in front of you.
Wow, I love how you put that. That’s pretty much it, with a lot of distant people. I have a history on the streets and am studying counseling, so I will definitely remember what you said! I had an amazing counselor who helped me. I will tell her that, too, when I see her.
Damn good comment!
@A.W. Wow. That is truly the perfect way to describe it.
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His mum was a sweet cookie. She did her absolute worst 😞
Britneyy, Your story touched a lot of people. Never give up on your dreams/music, you’re still young! Sending love 💕
If a son doesn't feel loved/accepted or rejected by his father, it hurts a lot; no anchor. Counselling is a good start. I've felt the same leaf blowing around in the wind feeling, nothing will succeed, no time left, everything has been done etc. It can change when you realise all that is 100% subjective. Change is possible. Believe.
Well said.
Ian RJM , I certainly agree it was that my father was the only one and he was that loved me I know when a child is only wanted for bad Reasons by the rest of the family; or older siblings and though the father loves you they're strong on him and take you away from him it is like you are a leaf in the wind and you'll cling to anything that you stick to for even a moment. I'm 60 and I still have that feeling. My father has been gone a b 11 years, and there is no other family that isn't toxic well actually poison. I felt rejected by everyone unless I did exactly as I was told, what I was told was not the right thing you can't make someone carry-out others ambitions for you or they will rebell. The family Dynamics should teach that we are loved and wanted and allow us to blossom into the human beings each of us as individuals love teaches us that blossoming... Teaching someone they're not wanted and not loved except under certain circumstances will cause disaster! But then there's the climb and we try to find ourselves even if we're 60 years old. I pray that Brittany finds that love and acceptance within himself he still has time but he looks so thin and god-knows- likely has medical issues he needs help with already. But the start is to get him into a clinic he's young enough you shouldn't have to be a lifer at Clinic, but even if he has to be it's better than for him to be on a drug that will eventually lead to his demise, rather wish for him a wonderful desire that nothing comes before it the desire to rise! Finished with Ted Talk have a great day💯🧗♀️🤗
@@ShellyMischelle conditional love can go to hell. Love should be acceptance, support and encouragement. It's hard when you have been programmed, right? But there is a voice inside that we must listen to. Trust our feelings; there is nothing wrong with how we feel. Know ourselves, be honest with ourselves and then with others; it's that simple in my mind now.
@@ianrjm969 You’re a good writer. You express yourself beautifully.
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PPĹ L ☆Spot On Ian, it's only logical, to do otherwise, we cheat others, as well as ourselves...wandering aimlessly, never knowing our true selves(among the facades). It's possibly one of the bigger steps of person growth, to be honest with ourselves, and oh,..'know thy self that others may know you in light of truth'.♡ hugs and care my friends?🤔 you guys are awesome you're the best people on here thank you for your comments and some replies! Have a great evening👍💯🤗
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It makes me so sad when he talks about how he thinks his dad probably feels about him. 😢
This guy reminds me a lot of a lifelong friend of mine. His parents were heroin addicts since before he was born so drugs were always around when he was growing up. He was a super smart kid - borderline genius - and had a really bright future ahead of him. He never touched a drug or even had a drink in his life until the end of high school. He started drinking socially and that almost instantly led to weed which then opened up the doors for everything else. I mean, he went from 100% sober to being a speedfreak in a matter of months. Then came the heroin. I heard about how he'd contracted HIV and heard all the fucked up stories of sketchy situations he'd ended up in where he could have very easily been murdered. I saw him on his death bed when having withdrawals. Then his dad OD'd and died on it. That hit him pretty hard but still didn't get him off it. I don't hear from his much nowadays. He'll be good and sober, getting fit and healthy and then I won't hear from him in 18 months because he was on a binge. He's less of a person after every hiatus. He went from being a highly intelligent, sensitive, artistic and loving human being to sometimes barely being able to string together a sentence. We're only 27 now and whenever I think of him I wonder if he's alive or not. I hope Brittneyy takes the other road.
I'm so sorry to hear about the story of your friend. I agree hoping for the best with your friend and for Brittney
Terrible fall...such lost kid. ❤️
I’m so sorry. Brought tears to my eyes
Thanks for taking the time to write this....
Lol
As a father this video kinda broke my heart, kids crying out for his father to notice, value and love him . . . some people don't deserve titles like mother or father. I hope he finds a role model that can help him out of his current situation.
Your Dad probably sees a lot of himself in you and he can't handle that, so he is pushing you away so he doesn't have to face his feelings about himself.
That is EXACTLY what I thought . Dad can’t live a child that inherited most of the traits he hates in himself .
@@melizzia7901 yep when I was his age my dad acted like I didn't exist, wished I had a good father to teach me about life and how it works but he was too busy drinking, being violent. And now that he can't walk, he acts like nothing happened.
Edit: I stopped living with him since I was 13. I'm 48 now.
@@666blindrider Wow no that you are grown how does it affect you Mario? I feel so sad that My Son always has this spot in his heart that can never bee filled. I pray one day that something can fill the void... It makes me so sad. Do you have children and has it impacted you as a Father ?
Exactly!
Or his dad is a bit macho, and doesn't like the way his son looks. Brittneyy looks great, but if his dad's a 'tough guy' going in and out of jail, he might have a different opinion..
I really hope brittney finds himself. It’s so obvious he’s brilliant. Such a complex human being. I can’t imagine how it feels to be disappointed in everything yet so hopeful at the same time. Fill that void with knowledge and power! Climb ladders instead of burning them!! He’s got a future!
I think that’s a reach
The two most important days in your life are the day you were born, and the day you find out why. ~Mark Twain
Just wanted to let you know that you are amazing, don't forget that!
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Good morning Amanda la, I hope you're having a good morning, it's very early still out in LA. Britney has been through a lot I'm sure. Oh how I wish I could whip up a break a chance well Britney is still young to see positive intervention! I've almost cried, it hurts to see if suffering addict, or anyone suffering! Hope with best Vibes for Britney today☆♡ and as always it's really good to see you here, and the quote you chose has insight and wisdom.👍 thank you for posting it. I'm going to ponder on it. Have a good one sister friend. My best to you too , I've hit a scary,rough patch butb nothing to do with addiction ,(same Hacker-issue😳 I hope today for others to have the realization of all potential for goodness and caring light rather than apathy or Darkness.~hugs&care. ☆♡🧗♀️🌻❣
I was born for no reason lol
Your deep understanding of yourself is a true gift and I really resonated with how you use that to keep going forward. I know what it feels like to not be who you know you could be. It numbs, it hurts in the back and makes you feel less and less in control. I am sending my best thoughts out to you, hope you find your inner peace. Stay strong!! 🌟
“I’m sad a lot I guess” this breaks my heart.
Love the Bolt Thrower shirt man, keep your hopes up and one small step everyday makes a huge difference after a while
When you miss your dad so much that you share his darkest habbit just to be closer to him
this! :/
No doubt
damn
Right? 💔
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“I woke up one day and I was 24.” That hit hard, man. It’s never too late though. You can always turn around and change. The saddest part of this is it just seems like he needs more people and friends in his life to keep him company and focused on his music. You can tell he is a genuinely kind soul who just got kind of lost along the way and longs for his Dad’s affection and acceptance. I feel you man. You’ll overcome this.
He's such a sweetheart. I hope he gets that poisen out of his system and works through his pain so he can have a bright future. He has so much life to live, and he deserves so much better than this.
Hey Brittneyy, You're only 24 & so bright. You have your whole life ahead of you & you will succeed in time, don't give up.
I'm 65 and have many regrets about not doing more to make a better life for myself. I'm a little jealous of your insight to be honest lol.
Stay strong & never, ever give up on your dreams.
Seems to be a very kind and respectful young man who went down the wrong path. I hope he finds an outlet that will help him get clean, and a little bit of joy along the way too. He deserves it. Sending virtual hugs to you Brittneyy. 💗❤️💗
Have a good day/evening everyone!
Poor kid. I hope he finds a purpose and a loving and encouraging community.
His eyes broke me into tears, I hope all the happiness for you.
@@thenativist7625 JERK WHY LAUGH AT SUFFERING???!??!!??!!!?!!!!
Why his mother let him go, to live with his dad, knowing he was a heroin addict, is wicked. She must have known the worst would happen
It sounds like he was already headed down that road so she threw up her hands.
I was astonished by that too….and then why she didn’t grab him right back when it was clear it wasn’t working out
Brittneyy, come on man, you've got more inside you than you give yourself credit for. Don't give up on yourself. 💜
He looks so very sad. My heart breaks for him. The terrible thing is he has so much going for him (including time) but he can't see it and unless he does all that time will run out.
I felt like his eyes are so very sad
@@elexis3728 I think "he" would rather be called "she".
@@kkkay7336 oh pls shut the fuck up. You don’t know what they prefer. So please stop with the bullshit
@@deyonsadler6828 just going by the the name and the nail polish... shouldn't we err on the side of caution these days? Wouldn't wanna offend someone by mis- labeling them..
@@kkkay7336 If you don't know which to use, and are worried about misgendering someone, *they* is the perfect choice and has long been used for this purpose! (The doctor is in, *they* will see you now) Covers both bases neutrality and it may prompt them to offer pronouns to you
This breaks my heart. He’s just another lost soul. He has so much potential. Reminds me so much of my cousin dealing with a narley Heroin addiction as well.
You can get through this Brittanyy! You have everything within already to create the life you desire!!
Britney is a great reminder of why we as parents need to get our lives in order and fix our issues so we can give our children what they need. Britney needed love, guidance and discipline. His parents failed him. 😔
HER!!!!
HE clearly.
@@americano1976did they say what they identify as, are you assuming their gender?!?
@@beCoCOi he clearly? Are you assuming pronouns??!?????
@@americano1976 do you not see the Adam's apple? 🤪
I don’t know why this one hit me in the feels more than the others. He reminds me so much of myself when I was younger. That hopeless scary uncertain time in life, I wish I could help him. I hope he has a great and long life
I wanted Mark to ask him about his music, just to see if he could share more about something that means a lot to him.
Completely agree.
Mark kinda sucks tbh
Mark previously has mentioned that he doesn’t want to entertain someone’s talents or have them promote themselves. This channel to help understand the path to becoming an addict, sex worker, pimp, etc. Marks interviews are eye opening and I appreciate it knowing that I may be walking past someone who is a human instead of just an addict on the cold concrete.
I was thinking the same thing! Would love it if Brittneyy could maybe either share social media or start one up if not online. I think there would be a good amount of people that would follow to see what Brittneyy’s got.
He has a list of questions and a line of junkies lined at the door for their $20 payment … gets them filmed (in & out)
Brittany i really hope you can read this friend. I’m also a musician,i spent my 20s playing shows and drinking every night and this stuff really takes its toll. But what i really want to say is never think being sober is the end of your creativity,i went to rehab and was allowed to bring my guitar. I played in the rehab and counselors put my stuff on RUclips while i was there…..I’m 2 years clean and still playing. Please please please , don’t give up you can take control and ill tell you from experience writing music is easier with a clear head
I would love to see an update interview with Brittneyy. It sounds like Brittneyy is very depressed and not feeling love from the father figure. Maybe self-love can replace that void. ❤️ Believe in yourself, your music, and your future Brittneyy!! Manifest!!
His mother never should have let him go..As it seems that moving to his Father's was a huge catalyst towards his drug dependency and his fascination with hard drugs.
And I can't help but wonder, what parent in their right mind would let their 14 year old move in with an estranged, drug addicted, parent?
And how could they think that would be a good thing either?
Addiction can be inherited and both parents are responsible for not monitoring their sons fascination and lack of understanding of how destructive drugs are. So all round It just seems like theres been a real lack of solid parenting and Brittney unfortunately thinks he knows it all, that drugs are glamorous and he has tried to be an adult before his time. And hasn't learned from his bad decision making which is rather worrying at this stage.
Brittney - your biggest achievment in life may be learning to love yourself despite the fact that your sperm donor never did. I feel for you because I went through that lack of love myself. It all changed when I realised that my mom and dad are not the authority on whether or not I am valuable and lovable. My advice is - just challenge yourself for a little while to experiment with the thaught that your father was a very flawed human being that is blind as to how valuable you are and how you should be treated by a father. Do something, anything, that makes you proud of yourself, no matter how small, then hang on to it and inject yourself with that little bit of pride. If you consistently do that every day soon enough you will see your depression slowly going away. But it will take alot of effort and will not feel effective in the begining, but just stick with it. Oh and if you fail, which is bound to happen, just shrug it off and do something small that makes you proud of yourself and hang on to that pride for your life. Any bad thought that comes in, just send it away - say: You are not welcome, goodbye. And then reach for a thought that is focused on something good that happened, or something good that you did, no matter how small.
This is an amazing comment
Amen! That’s exactly and the only way to get depression to subside.
“I’ve learned that I don’t matter as much as I thought I did” I felt that in my soul man 💯
I want to give him a hug and tell him he’s loved 😔
Don't lie. If you saw him and the streets and he approached you asking for anything you would ignore him and rush to your car and couldn't be bothered and get back to your own life. You are only faking the compassion on here because of guilt and wanting the recognition from other sincere commenters.
I’m an addiction medicine therapist in Philly who works in the trenches with addicts every day. Yes, even driving them places in my car and hugging them. It’s what I do with my life as it’s purpose and what my passion is-so you’re actually 100% wrong. And couldn’t be more wrong. This is my life. You shouldn’t judge people based off what their thumbnail looks like. 😌🙏🏼
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@@Mattiejaned hard, but great job
I’m so sorry your relationship with your dad is the way it is. Honestly, it is his loss (even though it damages and hurt you), you are a beautiful, intelligent and creative person. The abandonment is real though, and it takes a long, long time to heal. I am 36, and I’m only just in recent years working through the abandonment stuff. You are seriously so beautiful, I wish i could give you a big hug.
I am 57 years old. My daughter said, "Mom, what is that music you are listening to?" Brittanyy you have so much talent. Please find it in you, dig deep and please don't be so down on yourself.
where can we listen to brittanyy's music?
I can feel his sadness I see in his eyes. If only hugs and saying,... everything will be alright could help us. I can tell there's a lot in his young mind tearing him up
Brittneyy reminds me so much of my childhood best friend, Miles. He was so ridiculously smart, and even when he was in the midst of his addiction (meth) he had this light in his eyes that showed how much intelligence he had inside.
I hope they're both doing okay now.
What a fucking nice guy! You can see he has huge potential, I hope he can see it for himself soon and push his music/art/creativity further.
Dang it Mark you had to go and hit me in the heart! Don't know what it is about this guy Brittneyy but I want to give him a hug and somehow make him see that he is valuable in this world. He makes music! How badass is that? And art work! He is an artist in more ways than one. Such talent! And he is smart, has not fried his brain yet. There is so much hope for him still. Im not sure ive ever wanted to see someone get clean so badly. How awsome would it be to see him back in 6 months clean and sober and killin it with his music 🎶 damn I wish I had words that could inspire him to seek the help he needs and deserves. Brittneyy you have complete strangers who care about you and are rooting for you.
Brittneyy, I've seen you in the comment section here so I want you to know that a lot of us are rooting for you! 🙏 You are so young, I wish you could realize that you have so much life to live. I hope you figure things out 💙
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Brit, when we are young we waste all of our time, trying to gain the love and affection of a parent (usually the one that isn’t capable of love) to love us, we internalize the rejection when really, if we can see that person for who they are we could spare ourself so much pain and agony. You seem like such a great kid, sensitive, kind loving. Your father doesn’t realize what a gift you are, and like mine, may never. I hope you can see this so you can move on and live the happy, healthy life you deserve! I ll keep you in my thoughts!
It’s never too late.. praying for this young man. 24 years old you’re still a baby. Get the help you need and you’ll go far! You deserve more. 🙏🏼
So these interviews are therapeutic and I am undecided mostly whom for. The interviewee, Mark, or us.
He’s so sweet. I wish him health and self confidence.
This right here is the beginning of a true downward spiral, He came to the best place to stay high for cheap.....But the WORST place to be for affordable rent. This kid better move back to where he is from because he is green as grass and has no idea what is in store for him. A long hard road of misery awaits if he doesn't get off the needle. Christ it's scary to witness that these kinds of kids nowadays are on heroin! I had EVERY reason to be a drug addict but kids like this could have easily been something more. Although it could all be mental, We cannot feel what is going on inside his brain but I wish I could because I don't get it.
I want some l.a drugs. Will u import to australia!???
i feel you
@@AussieSingo lol PS yeah stuck on Sydney lockdown
i live in vermont and the rent prices up here aren’t much better than they are in LA. you’ll be lucky to find an apartment to begin with, but if you do the rent is almost always $1200+
@@cmessy07 rent is going up across the country but LA is still more expensive than vermont.
Brittneyy, you are such a kind sweet person. I am almost 30 and don't even have my life close to figured out yet. You can do it. We are all rooting for you. ❤️
I'm 32 this year and stuck in a heroin cycle. It's crazy I never thought I would end up in this place, I live in rural Ireland and never imagined that I would even see heroin. It's made its way to every corner of the world. Horrible stuff
Sorry to hear that. Please do whatever it takes to get clean and get on track with your life. God bless.
Praying for your healing in Jesus name 🕊️ Seek the Lord, he can help you overcome your addiction.
@@tiyailaC I appreciate your kind words genuinely I do. But the lord has never been my thing. I've grown up with religion and even returned to it after a stint in rehab. I just can't believe in something where its foundation has been the source of so much abuse for me along with a few other reasons. I respect everyone's beliefs and if you have found happiness and contentment through your religion I am truly happy for you. In the last 30 years though religion has not helped me though and I have genuinely tried. Again I do thank you for your well wishes and kindness the world needs more of it ❤️
'I woke up one day and I was 24...' Britt, you have so much life ahead of you. 24 is not old- you still have time to build something for yourself. You're a bright young man- I can sense the pain in your voice. Keep moving forward Britt- surround yourself in the things in life that bring you joy. Keep going Britt... keep going :)
Hey Brittneyy, you remind me a lot of myself and I want to give you a piece of advice I wish I heard sooner. Most Dr's prefer doing suboxone but it seems that didn't work out too well recently. I urge you to consider Methadone if you don't want to go back through the sub route. It's older and fairly strong but it's a full agonist. It will get the job done. Cravings will be significantly less if not virtually completely gone, and it'll keep you from getting sick so long as you dose daily. Being forced to get up, get outside and do something daily helped me out a lot in early recovery especially since I didnt have anything else going on.
I started it because I relapsed after breaking my knee cap. I didn't know it was broken yet and it still hurting after shooting fent is what made me go to the doctor. So the methadone helps me with pain as well so that's another thing to consider if you happen to struggle with chronic pain or pain of any sort.
I'm just a random from RUclips comments though and not your doctor.. or a doctor at all for that matter. This is all purely anecdotal. I just really felt the need to say something.
We really don't wanna hear later that you died. Stay safe and God bless.
I’m also on maintenance, because pain was how I got in this mess, to begin with. It definitely saves lives. And my life may not be a mess, forever. I will be taking a licensed counseling exam this year. I can’t believe this is my life! I seriously thought it would be an endless revolving door of doctors and jail! So grateful 🥲
After a year or so of suboxone I used to get really dulled and find a rush and lose my grasp. I’m on suboxone again but this time it’s coupled with Modafinil and I’ve been steady for 6 years and got a great career. Modafinil upper is mandatory for me
I fully support your comment. I've been on Methadone for almost 2 years now and I haven't used heroin since. In the beginning, it might make you a little drowsy, but after a while, your body adjusts and the cravings go away. I'm prescribed to take it twice daily, so once every 12 hours. I prefer it this way, as then you have a very consistent amount in your system.
Lol that’s because you’re just getting high everyday man. That’s why it works and there’s no cravings. I’ve been on subs 8 years but I won’t lie about it. You’re getting Hugh on methadone
@@brandonjoseph1489 It doesn't get me high.
i’m an ex fentanyl addict, one year clean now at 20. i know a lot of guys like u and i have seen them really succeed in rehab bc it’s like a brotherhood. for girls it’s hard girls are weird lol but for guys if u find the right group they seem to really connect though similar experiences. i feel like you are a leader and will help many someday 💛 also very attractive lol. much love you have time and when your ready get back on subs i know it’s hard in the music industry but u can lead others to make being clean an aesthetic ❤️
This baby has been depressed for a very long time. 😭😭 I love his sincerity. I hope he gets the support he needs. He's in such a vulnerable place in his journey right now. Please Mark call his mom!!!
The pain in his eyes, makes me cry. Get clean and go home...
Go home? Where is home??
this one really hits home for me. im also from new england and have struggled with opioids for the better part of my life. I'm 2.5 years sober now at 25, but hearing it from brittneyy instantly brings back those feelings of hopelessness. I still struggle with the fear of never making anything of myself. One day at a time.
"I didn't have a traumatic childhood or anything..." says the guy who was raised by a single mother, was in and out of foster homes and juvie, and whose emotionless father was addicted to heroin while in and out of jail. He doesn't even realize. I don't see this going anywhere good. I hope he gets a wake up call and much needed support. 🤍
When you’ve been through a situation like that and avoided being graped you consider yourself untraumatized. That’s how some people I know see it.
A lot of his interviews begin like that. He'll ask about their childhood and they start off saying "I had a good childhood" but then a can of worms opens up and they have had a horrible childhood. I'm thinking it may be that when we go through so much hurt/trauma we realize that things can always be worse so we hold on to the little good and try to focus on that.
@@aliehawhite8616 So true.
There is a Warrior within you. Rehab and Feed your dreams or feed the drug dealer...tis a choice.
When that’s all you know it’s normal.
Sorry to comment a third time but I don't believe that your life isn't gonna go anywhere. You can absolutely make something of your life. You matter, your life matters, your happiness matters. Please don't give up so quickly. The life I always dreamed of and never thought was possible is becoming a reality for me now. I felt the sake exact way: I wasn't special, I don't deserve any special treatment, a sob story doesn't make me entitled to help, I'm just a junkie blah blah blah. It's not true at all.
As for you father, that's his own loss. Maybe your relationship will improve but as the kid, it isn't your responsibility to fix his unwillingness to connect, I hope you know.
One day you're gonna lay your head down at night and think "holy shit.. I actually made it. I really did it."
the body language and eyes say everything for me. this one pulled at the heart strings. i appreciate the self awareness. she really seems to know what she wants from life, but just full of self-doubt (i’m 20 and feel like i’m already having a mid-life crisis even though i’m in university, juggling jobs and internships, but still not seeing the point/ the happiness and feeling imposter syndrome. i get it all too well) but i really think she will turn it around ♥️ we both can. i believe in you!! xo
*he not she
He seems so shy and innocent yet old. I really hope you follow up on him Mark!❤️
Really respect his honest, thoughtful answers (and what great questions from Mark). Brittneyy, you’re not alone in feeling old, feeling overwhelmed with your own potential & sometimes scared into inaction. Hope you are able to pursue your dreams, don’t be afraid to succeed.
As someone who was born and raised in Vermont I totally get it. Life is slow and Boring to most youth here and I have seen so many of my friends battling addiction and lost some close to me. You can do this, you can get out from under this dark cloud and live the life you deserve. Stay strong and keep fighting! Get back on your medication and push forward.
Yup. VT is beautiful but can chew you up and spit you out if you’re not careful. 💚
Fellow Vermonter here Brittney, fellow addict, I believe in you, your loved, life is the trip when you get sober. You can do this. I’m turning 30 in June. Still struggle here and there, but it’s one day at a time.
He oozes sadness...deep sadness..G-d help him...very insightful. I watch these videos and realize that I have NO problems...I wish I could change things for him
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Brittneyy has SO much potential & I hope he makes it. He seems a beautiful person & is obviously highly creative & talented. I’ve known a few addicts & nearly all of them were self-medicating emotional pain. Even without childhood abuse (a common theme here), his father’s emotional distance obviously causes him great pain. Emotional abuse can also leave many invisible scars.
He’s come so close to beating addiction & is clearly intelligent & self-reflective. That awareness of not being self-entitled showed his ability to grow & change. That’s pretty impressive for someone who’s only 24. He just seems so very sad & I wish I could give him a hug & tell him, “You’ve got this!” I’m sure Brittneyy has what it takes to achieve his dreams. He just needs to believe he can do it. Imho, that & the addiction are the only things holding him back. Take care, buddy! 💕
Damn he reminds me of how mentally i could not do anything right to get any form of gratitude from my dad. So strange still feel like i was 25 yesterday and all of a sudden woke up being 31. Shit goes fast specially when you drink. drinking is painful. Doesn't stop. Especially when No amount is enough and you never get sick from it. Its never enough.
Been sober and off alcohol for almost a year. Drinking, taking benzodiazepines, etc is such a waste of time. It doesn’t heal the pain.
Wow 6 whole years. Your life really passed you by huh. NOT 🙄
That was my friend, Scotty. Then he got cirrhosis at the age of 33. I don’t know if he is alive now, because I had to cut off contact due to increasing abusive behavior. It didn’t even bother me because he was so sick, but crossed a line of safety, for me. If he got help, he could be ok, but if he didn’t, they didn’t expect him to live. It was crazy how the health problems snuck up on him. If you haven’t yet, I hope you get help. An Intensive Outpatient treatment group 3-4 days a week helped me quit drugs. I tried inpatient but it never worked. It just depends if it’s a good program with enough staff who care. If you have or if you’ve heard it a million times, I just want you to know people wish you well. Having a critical parent really hurts, and you can still hear that voice, no matter how old you get. Trust me, I know. Hang in there, and take care of you! If no one will invest in you, invest in yourself!
@@heidiho5179 An acquaintance of mine just died due to liver failure and coronavirus. She got hit with covid last year. I know she used to shoot coke and worked as a bartender for years. She got the delta this year and that was it. Stage 4 liver failure left her vulnerable. Dead at 37. RIP.
whatttttt!! I’m born and raised in VT!! I never thought I’d find another Vermonter on here. 🧡 Brittneyy, if you find your way back here, reach out so we can get lunch on me. 💕
Oh this was a tough one. I feel like this person didn't want to get sucked into a mediocre existence and one of the ways to make yourself believe you don't have a mediocre existence is through getting high. When you get high you feel like everything is amazing and you're amazing and that's got to be better than some mediocre life, right? As someone who is gone through this cycle a couple of times and have settled nicely into my mediocre life, trust me when I tell you Brittneyy it's so much better to be mediocre and normal than the other. Stay strong! I understand you got to get it out of your system. I hope you make it back my friend!
You gotta charge more for your art! Your time and energy is worth much more than you seem to be charging! You got this 🙏
This guys music is actually great - I hope he gets discovered, it's creative and well mastered. Here's hoping he can clean up, and put this energy into making something of his music and exposing it to the world.
Were is his music I can't find it
It's pretty bad let's be real
@@norgepalm7315 it’s an acquired taste for sure but i can definitely see why it appeals to the audience it does
@@norgepalm7315 It’s always hunerous that every single person who comments some rude stuff, you can click on their profile and see all the recent hate they left. That’s kind of embarrasing bro.. We can all see how you spend your meantime and it’s not cute
@@norgepalm7315 Except for Matthew haha. gotta be nice to him! pick and choose am i right? only selective people have feelings. Peace and love!
This kid reminds me of Lil Peep so much...even his back story. Peeps dad wasn't an addict....but he moved to LA to start his music. I hope this young man don't have the same outcome. You got this sweetheart.... from a recovering heroin addict that just had my 7 years clean mark, you can do whatever you put your mind to. ❤
Brittneyy, sending lots of love your way. Please don’t give up on your dreams and your life. I got off heroin 20 years ago and am living a life I love with people that I love. Never thought it was possible back then. One positive change or decision at a time can get you so far. ❤️
I'm 39. Been addicted to iv heroin/fentanyl 20+ years. I play guitar, bass, mandolin, ukulele, standup bass, octave mandolin, Mandocello pretty much anything with strings. I've been in a ton of bands in the Detroit Michigan area. It's been hard to play out the past 10 years because I LITTERALLY have no time for nothing except making money and getting high because it's become COMPLETELY UNMANEGABLE but I find a new rock bottom every day but I figure out how to open it's trap door every morning so I can keep descending.
Don't give up your music Britt. Put your pain into your playing. Communicate the things you cannot find words for with your music....
Lil Britneyy’s music is awesome!! Don’t give up, keep fighting for your dreams. I 100% believe you can do this and overcome all the hardships you face now. By the way your art is so sick too!!
I want to give you the BIGGEST hug! You are super intelligent and exude a sincerity that just makes me want to cry, but also warms my heart. I really hope you succeed 🌻
I love his name! It’s unique! Don’t give up on your music Britt! You got this!!💕
Hey Brit..I am a NATIVE VERMONTER born and raised NEVER MOVED!! i live in NORTH CLARENDON VERMONT! i grew up on MAPLE STREET in RUTLAND VERMONT! and NORTH CLARENDON, is 2 miles South of RUTLAND!! I have lived here in NORTH CLARENDON for 21 years i LOVE IT it's a small town..You will make it BRIT!! You are young and Talented.keep Focused On your TALENT and music..Take care of YOURSELF BRIT from 1 Vermonter to another..MUCH LOVE to you BRIT!! 🥰😍🙌🙏
Another baby☹ As a mother my heart aches for his. I hope that he's able to pull it together- hopefully- he has many, many years to go♡
I see people on this channel and I just want to fold them in my arms and make all their pain go away. What a precious child.
Would never suspect this dude being a drug user/addict! Looks like a strapping young man!
LOOK HERE,LOOK LISTEN!
What are you even doing here if all you can do is judge ppl? Maybe shut up and listen.
@@danamaupin8318 we all judge, as you do here.
He may prefer to date your son on certain days when the wind blows to the east and the heroin is bad...🙄
@@baddoopey touche!!!! That just bitch slapped me....
Hi Mark,
Thank you for this channel. It’s beyond powerful and enlightening; it evokes compassion in so many. This is perhaps my favorite channel on RUclips, and that’s something!
After 5 years of heroin addiction, I am now 60 days clean. My birthday is in a month (I’ll be 31) and the greatest gift for me is another month strong.
I would love to be interviewed by you! I don’t know if you’ll see this comment, but I hope that maybe I can be a part of this. I want to tell my story and give hope to those struggling with addiction and depression.
I can totally relate to feeling old but actually being young. I’m about to turn 24 and I feel the same way of not feeling like I’m doing much for myself of my future. But mark is right, you do have soooo much life left to live and if you can just focus on what you really wanna do, you WILL get to where you want to be. Life is not a race, even though it may feel like it from seeing/comparing to others. I find myself digging myself deeper into a hole of depression when I think about my future, and it seems like you do too and you might be masking it with drugs and alcohol but you can using that energy to your music instead! Good luck dude🖤
The brutal honesty of these interviewees makes me just adore them despite who and what they are !!!
Traumatized people, often don't realize they grew up with trauma. He lived at centres, and foster care, with a criminal father that he never knew. Wild to not see that.
He really hurt my heart. I hope he gets better he seems like a special person.
He looks so distressed; as a mom, I just want to hug him and hold him😢
I am so sorry he's going through this, I love this channel though. It shows a real side of what people are going through every day
The struggles and the bullshit life throws at us and how we can learn to love ourselves more. I just wish these addicts could find recovery. I am in recovery and have 4.5 months clean, recovery is possible yall! Much love to everyone reading this!
I remember realizing I wasn’t gonna make money off music at around that age. Honestly I’d probably be dead now if I had made it. I still play music and do art.
Nothing wrong with having a regular job and doing what you love when you can with people you can trust
Brittneyy,don’t give up.You are young and can totally change your life.You seem very empathetic and can do a lot of good in this world.Take care.I’m sure everyone watching this is rooting for you.
this guy is teetering on the edge of the abyss,I truly hope he watches this and realises....but from experience i can tell hes going to dive in head first... good luck brother.
That’s not a guy that’s a woman this is 2021 what’s your prob
WRONG PRONOUN??
@@americano1976 where is it clarified what their pronouns are, Britany could be his birth name
@@LaunchpadNation that’s a girl name
@@LaunchpadNation those are girl nails
Your compassion is evident in each and every interview. Thank you for bringing so many important stories to light. Yours is my favorite channel. Do you also have a Podcast?