Things in my life will never get better. No matter how many times I tell myself that doing this is so stupid, I know deep down my life wont get better anytime soon:(
It will get better. You yourself can make it better. It will be the hardest thing on earth, but it's possible. That's what I learnt when I almost died. It's about having hope
Damn this story brings back memories. I’m 15 and when I overdosed it was HELL. The amount of pain I felt. The pain when I saw how upset my family was. The pain when I was throwing up even though I hadn’t eaten in 24 hours. The way it felt sitting in my stomach before throwing up. Them having to put me under anaesthetic to put me on the drip because one I have a fear of needles and two I wanted to die. The worst pain was the mental pain in that hospital bed. I couldn’t move. I didn’t want to move. I might as well of been in hell Itself. I would never do it again. Worst experience of my life. I still feel that suicidal but 24/7 but since that I will not react that way. I now know the pain I put myself and those around me in. If you feel this please get help :’(
Yes, I related to everything you just said. It really is hell. I was literally scratching the walls wishing it would stop. But pain itself can't stop you. You have to go deep in your mind and brain and figure everything out. There was a father figure, or a good man, who helped me out with that, and I survived.
There is a sincerity and innocence in your voice and demeanor that is inspiring. Your journey took you all over and I sense underlying issues that are equally worth of living freely. This is likely the most sincere video I have seen on this. I hope you stick around - there will be a huge empty hole in the lives of everybody that loves you and knows you for who you are.
hey man I just wanted to pop in to tell you how much I appreciated this video. It’s extremely real and the way you talk about this stuff is great, I can tell you care deeply about other people and how they would react. This is a video on this subject that stood out to me just because of how real it was. thank you.
You are a beautiful lovely young man. I hope that you will be in continued good health. You said you want to make other people happy, and that’s great! But I just wanted to warn you- don’t give yourself to everyone. It will not help you to help people who will pull you down! At the first clue someone is going to take advantage of you, walk away. You don’t owe them anything. Don’t let your good heart be conned into helping them either. I’m 20 years older than you, empathetic and also “intense” who had great aspirations like that too. (I was studying at one time to be a Benedictine Nun) But be careful out there. It’s not wrong to take a break for enjoyment for self when the world’s ills are enough to bring you down. It’s downright important for your self to do this and does not take away from your goal of making people happy- some will utterly not be ‘happy’ until they’ve pulled you down to their misery. You cannot help those people, okay? Don’t waste your time on those types. It’s wonderful you want to help so much, noble and regal, but don’t go it alone! That’s my advice. Trust me, without getting in a group of helpers, it will wear you down fast, again and again. ...even at that, it’s tough. You are too lovely of a young man to not be out there having the time of your life. I do understand your struggles. Find what makes YOU happy. You are valuable and worthy of life in abundance, no matter what shit any person throws your way.... I’ve come to find they do because they want to feel better about themselves and pick a person with a good enough heart not to strike back. This doesn’t mean you are weak but evidence of the facts you do RIGHT. Block those ugly demons that try to tell you otherwise. Once you clue into the psychological motivations of others, it can’t hurt you anymore. Makes you stronger and a better happier person. It takes time though. Good luck with the body building. You look fine as you are, but I know the exercise really helps in a lot of ways. Once I get better, I’m going to start hitting the gym too! Facing the grim reaper is horrifying, depressed or not. But every experience can be a powerful learning tool. Keep choosing the good choice and remember to give thanks to your self for it. You deserve it... Oh and I don’t believe in “brain chemistry” being bad.... it’s bullshit. Any stress or trauma is going to have it’s effect on the body, be it mental, spiritual, physical. Studies show you can take any healthy well adjusted animal and get the same brain reaction to stress/traumas. The brain is not bad- the circumstances were/are. Any brain would react in the same manner if the right circumstances were to occur. Emotional pain needs first aid too!! It’s stupid it’s not considered as important! Stay safe and well. Thanks for the video too.
I don't know your story and this video is quite old, but I'd say this, if you die, you let life win. After everything life has done to you, are you okay with that? If that's not enough, then I'm so sorry for your suffering. I really hope you've found peace.
Hey bro i hope u are good. Im 19 now and have problems with health, family and money. I dont know what to do and im really broken inside. Im thinking about suicide everyday(hope u understand my bad english). Good luck for you, you are great person
hey dude thank you for your story, I have been contemplating suicide for the last couple weeks, my name is Robert I am 20. I appreciate you taking a risk like this to share your story. it has helped me refrain from anything drastic.
Same here I feel your pain :/ I have chronic suicide disorder unfortunately and when my depression is at it's worse I think about it alot.. I have attempted it a few times already and I know things do get better but it's so hard to tell yourself that in that moment that you're feeling really down and contemplating suicide.
Robert, My name is Robert. But I'm a bit older than you. How are you doing lately. Are things any better? If you need to talk, please contact me. I've survived a lot of tragedies in my life, and I can tell you how I survived.
I'm 11 now I learned at a very young age that My parents don't give a shit about me They're always fucking fighting and its hard to sleep with dad being drunk and throwing fits and thinking about both of them calling me stupid, useless, a peice of shit, a little brat, and they've said these things to me so much fucking times
U have given a good advice, but some people might never change their minds . Who are not interested in this life will always be suicidal . Maybe someone like me sorry to say . But thanks u😔
The problem is that it isn't in your control. I've attempted many times in my life. There was no way anyone could've stopped me. But sometimes, I CHOSE to listen to some people and sometimes I chose to stop because of what they said. So you can tell him you care about him and he may CHOOSE to stop. But it's from his choice and not because of you. If something bad does happen, just remember that it wasn't your fault. Otherwise the only advice I can give is to care about him, listen to him. People want to kill themselves for their own reasons. If someone has no legs and kills themselves is it your fault? No, there's no way you can give someone legs. The only thing you can do is love them and hope for the best.
Tbh I genuinely believe my parents have always been burdened by my existence. Why shouldn’t I relieve them of the burden and leave some money they could actually put to use? Would be the least I could do for them
I can relate to this a lot im 16 and idk why i just cant build relationships im so lonly and dont know what to do somehow 4/7 days in the week i just wanna fucking die so bad that im almost at a rate of weekly panick attacks rn
life is precious please don't end it you have so much to live for and there is no one else like you in this world you have a unique fingerprint a unique face why would you want to end your life i get that you want to get away from the pain but hear me out suicide is not the answer you have so much to live for stay safe :) 🥰🥰💖💖
you can. i know it, bunch of people love you deep inside their heart. think about your parents and friends. maybe you are suffering from your deppression but everyday is a second chance. you still have hope :)
Ein Keks Spricht I sincerely hope that you stay here with us. It's difficult to reach out for help when you're depressed but there is always somebody out there willing to help you. I'll respect your decision either way, I don't know you but I care and hope that you'll reach out for help.
Ein Keks Spricht Please dont... Suicide shouldnt be your answer, i know it may be hard right now, but it will get better, it may be hard to realize that right now, but one day you will look back upon yourself and smile because you got through something you thought you couldnt... just hold on...
It hurt a lot more than I expected. I was vomiting even though there's nothing in my stomach, but I couldn't stop myself. I was also in pain all over my body. It lasted 4 days. Don't do it!
It hurt me a lot. I was throwing up continuously even though I hadn’t eat in over 24 hours. Especially when I had to have the medicine on the drip it made me throw up 10x more. It was hell. My stomach hurt, my throat hurt, my nose hurt and my mind hurt. A lot of pain. The worst experience of my life.
In King James Bible Verse John 13:17 If ye know these things happy are ye if ye do them Keep being strong and I hope that you have many people may god blessed you
You have such a calming aura, like listening to you talk soothes me
haha thank you.
Jenni Johnson saaame
Things in my life will never get better. No matter how many times I tell myself that doing this is so stupid, I know deep down my life wont get better anytime soon:(
It will get better. You yourself can make it better. It will be the hardest thing on earth, but it's possible. That's what I learnt when I almost died. It's about having hope
Ive been suicidal for 7 years....
I might end everything...
but this video helped...
I hope so :(
Damn this story brings back memories. I’m 15 and when I overdosed it was HELL. The amount of pain I felt. The pain when I saw how upset my family was. The pain when I was throwing up even though I hadn’t eaten in 24 hours. The way it felt sitting in my stomach before throwing up. Them having to put me under anaesthetic to put me on the drip because one I have a fear of needles and two I wanted to die. The worst pain was the mental pain in that hospital bed. I couldn’t move. I didn’t want to move. I might as well of been in hell Itself. I would never do it again. Worst experience of my life. I still feel that suicidal but 24/7 but since that I will not react that way. I now know the pain I put myself and those around me in. If you feel this please get help :’(
Yes, I related to everything you just said. It really is hell. I was literally scratching the walls wishing it would stop. But pain itself can't stop you. You have to go deep in your mind and brain and figure everything out. There was a father figure, or a good man, who helped me out with that, and I survived.
Thank you for being so open about it, its so important!
There is a sincerity and innocence in your voice and demeanor that is inspiring. Your journey took you all over and I sense underlying issues that are equally worth of living freely. This is likely the most sincere video I have seen on this. I hope you stick around - there will be a huge empty hole in the lives of everybody that loves you and knows you for who you are.
hey man I just wanted to pop in to tell you how much I appreciated this video. It’s extremely real and the way you talk about this stuff is great, I can tell you care deeply about other people and how they would react. This is a video on this subject that stood out to me just because of how real it was.
thank you.
no problem thank you so much.
Praying for you I'm glad you are ok
thank u
It just feels like it’s never going to get better.
i'll make another video on that. it gets better. but not on its own.
You are a beautiful lovely young man. I hope that you will be in continued good health.
You said you want to make other people happy, and that’s great! But I just wanted to warn you- don’t give yourself to everyone. It will not help you to help people who will pull you down! At the first clue someone is going to take advantage of you, walk away. You don’t owe them anything. Don’t let your good heart be conned into helping them either.
I’m 20 years older than you, empathetic and also “intense” who had great aspirations like that too. (I was studying at one time to be a Benedictine Nun) But be careful out there. It’s not wrong to take a break for enjoyment for self when the world’s ills are enough to bring you down. It’s downright important for your self to do this and does not take away from your goal of making people happy- some will utterly not be ‘happy’ until they’ve pulled you down to their misery. You cannot help those people, okay? Don’t waste your time on those types.
It’s wonderful you want to help so much, noble and regal, but don’t go it alone! That’s my advice. Trust me, without getting in a group of helpers, it will wear you down fast, again and again. ...even at that, it’s tough. You are too lovely of a young man to not be out there having the time of your life. I do understand your struggles.
Find what makes YOU happy. You are valuable and worthy of life in abundance, no matter what shit any person throws your way.... I’ve come to find they do because they want to feel better about themselves and pick a person with a good enough heart not to strike back. This doesn’t mean you are weak but evidence of the facts you do RIGHT. Block those ugly demons that try to tell you otherwise. Once you clue into the psychological motivations of others, it can’t hurt you anymore. Makes you stronger and a better happier person. It takes time though.
Good luck with the body building. You look fine as you are, but I know the exercise really helps in a lot of ways. Once I get better, I’m going to start hitting the gym too! Facing the grim reaper is horrifying, depressed or not. But every experience can be a powerful learning tool. Keep choosing the good choice and remember to give thanks to your self for it. You deserve it...
Oh and I don’t believe in “brain chemistry” being bad.... it’s bullshit. Any stress or trauma is going to have it’s effect on the body, be it mental, spiritual, physical. Studies show you can take any healthy well adjusted animal and get the same brain reaction to stress/traumas. The brain is not bad- the circumstances were/are. Any brain would react in the same manner if the right circumstances were to occur. Emotional pain needs first aid too!! It’s stupid it’s not considered as important!
Stay safe and well. Thanks for the video too.
Thank you.
my mind is not playing tricks on me. I want out ff's.
I don't know your story and this video is quite old, but I'd say this, if you die, you let life win. After everything life has done to you, are you okay with that?
If that's not enough, then I'm so sorry for your suffering. I really hope you've found peace.
i almost kill myself cuz i was bad and never wanted help but now i'm happy and free i can walk now finally
Thank you for your story I'm 10 this changed my life.
Hey Danial, I hope you will be ok now! Stay strong! ❤️
up and down, but i dont deal with suicidal urges anymore
Danial Jun Lee that's good! Keep on fighting ❤️!
Hey bro i hope u are good. Im 19 now and have problems with health, family and money. I dont know what to do and im really broken inside. Im thinking about suicide everyday(hope u understand my bad english). Good luck for you, you are great person
thanks man. Taking care of your health is really important. And money. Family can come later, only once you're strong.
hey dude thank you for your story, I have been contemplating suicide for the last couple weeks, my name is Robert I am 20. I appreciate you taking a risk like this to share your story. it has helped me refrain from anything drastic.
I know the struggle man. A little too well.
Same here I feel your pain :/ I have chronic suicide disorder unfortunately and when my depression is at it's worse I think about it alot.. I have attempted it a few times already and I know things do get better but it's so hard to tell yourself that in that moment that you're feeling really down and contemplating suicide.
Robert,
My name is Robert. But I'm a bit older than you. How are you doing lately. Are things any better? If you need to talk, please contact me. I've survived a lot of tragedies in my life, and I can tell you how I survived.
Hey Robert, I'm interested to know your life story. Who are you, what have you been through?
Thank you
just, thank you
thank you
I'm 11 now
I learned at a very young age that
My parents don't give a shit about me
They're always fucking fighting and its hard to sleep with dad being drunk and throwing fits and thinking about both of them calling me stupid, useless, a peice of shit, a little brat, and they've said these things to me so much fucking times
It can be really hard when you don't have your own parent's support :(. Do you have any other relatives who are kinder?
U have given a good advice, but some people might never change their minds . Who are not interested in this life will always be suicidal . Maybe someone like me sorry to say . But thanks u😔
Ok, my friend has tried to kill himself twice because of overdose, how can I stop him?
The problem is that it isn't in your control. I've attempted many times in my life. There was no way anyone could've stopped me. But sometimes, I CHOSE to listen to some people and sometimes I chose to stop because of what they said. So you can tell him you care about him and he may CHOOSE to stop. But it's from his choice and not because of you. If something bad does happen, just remember that it wasn't your fault. Otherwise the only advice I can give is to care about him, listen to him. People want to kill themselves for their own reasons. If someone has no legs and kills themselves is it your fault? No, there's no way you can give someone legs. The only thing you can do is love them and hope for the best.
you are amazing
wow! I'm grateful :)
You are wonderful!
thank you
Tbh I genuinely believe my parents have always been burdened by my existence. Why shouldn’t I relieve them of the burden and leave some money they could actually put to use? Would be the least I could do for them
I can relate to this a lot im 16 and idk why i just cant build relationships im so lonly and dont know what to do somehow 4/7 days in the week i just wanna fucking die so bad that im almost at a rate of weekly panick attacks rn
Hello!
How are you doing lately? Are you still having problems with getting friendships started? If you want to talk, please contact me
life is precious please don't end it you have so much to live for and there is no one else like you in this world you have a unique fingerprint a unique face why would you want to end your life i get that you want to get away from the pain but hear me out suicide is not the answer you have so much to live for stay safe :) 🥰🥰💖💖
But I can’t
I just cant any more
you can. i know it, bunch of people love you deep inside their heart. think about your parents and friends. maybe you are suffering from your deppression but everyday is a second chance. you still have hope :)
xd50JAMES don't give anyone that bullshit, especially yourself. got it.
My Cousin tried to commit Suicide but she failed she went to the hospital for 10 days
Really
Yup
Why
i'm glad she failed
Danial Jun Lee I don’t know why she did it
I feel suicidal. Im gonna end it soon, I think.
Ein Keks Spricht I sincerely hope that you stay here with us. It's difficult to reach out for help when you're depressed but there is always somebody out there willing to help you. I'll respect your decision either way, I don't know you but I care and hope that you'll reach out for help.
Ein Keks Spricht Please dont...
Suicide shouldnt be your answer, i know it may be hard right now, but it will get better, it may be hard to realize that right now, but one day you will look back upon yourself and smile because you got through something you thought you couldnt... just hold on...
Ein Kejs Spricht ...you still with us?
when you took the overdosis did it hurt?❤️
It hurt a lot more than I expected. I was vomiting even though there's nothing in my stomach, but I couldn't stop myself. I was also in pain all over my body. It lasted 4 days. Don't do it!
Danial Jun i wont, thanks ♡
It hurt me a lot. I was throwing up continuously even though I hadn’t eat in over 24 hours. Especially when I had to have the medicine on the drip it made me throw up 10x more. It was hell. My stomach hurt, my throat hurt, my nose hurt and my mind hurt. A lot of pain. The worst experience of my life.
My life, my body, my choice!
I like you
thank you
What if everyone hate you?
still don't do it
That's simply not true. You want to talk?
Hello?...
yes?
In King James Bible Verse John 13:17 If ye know these things happy are ye if ye do them Keep being strong and I hope that you have many people may god blessed you
its not a good suicide story if you can tell it XD
hahaha, i'll admit, you got me.
Thank you so much this has helped me and calmed my mind a lot today🫶